#ahh i still quote this part

[vargaslovinghours]

Happy Vargas Day! Stop saying 100%

They are truly Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde-ing it up around the Institute ♥ The role(s) was made for them!

Doctor meme!Edgar is here to assist! Scriabin is also here, to make quips at Edgar’s expense, equally important

He’s swooning! Catch him! Hold him in your weak noodle big strong arms!

Not an MD. Maybe. The text on his certificate is blurry, it must’ve been printed weirdly. It’s totally legit, don’t bother checking, just trust him

[luxthestrange]

TOKREV Incorrect quotes#62 Still-

Femme!Y/n: I've only said I love you to three people. my brother, My Pet, and Draken when he got stabbed and was dying from the injury. I only regret one of those...

Mikey: which one?

Femme!Y/n: Draken, he recovered like 2 days later so I just looked like an idiot

Draken*Is feeding his newborn,frowing*we're married

Femme!Y/n: still.

Part 5 of:

[harrysgal]

I DIG YOUR CINEMA (9)

harry styles x yn aspiring filmmaker — social media AU

About the smau: yn starts posting videos on youtube and is trying to build a career as a filmmaker. Things are going pretty well for her and she starts getting more attention when she creates content about shows she goes to. She’s also a fan of Harry’s music and some of his fans start getting suspicious when his team starts interacting with her.

About yn: although the character does not have a faceclaim, pictures suggest reader is white.

Disclaimer: The story it’s set in 2021 and it will follow their relationship through the LOT leg in the US. Since this is nothing but fiction, I will be following some of the real timeline but also adding my own stuff. On top of that, I won’t be basing myself on Harry’s actual posts.

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I DIG YOUR CINEMA (PART 9) — BEFORE NASHVILLE

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yourinstagram chicago, i will never forget you. had nothing but fun and did nothing but laugh. i might’ve also cried a little, but that was just to balance things out. it’s okay. you’re worth it every time. i might’ve arrived in nashville right now, but my mind is still there with you. lets do it again sometime. all my love. yn. 

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user7 AHHH YOU’RE BACK harryfan43 GIRL WE MISSED YOU YOU CANT GO MISSING ON US LIKE THIS 😭 harryfan3 ohhh, so you were still in Chicago

↳ harryfan7 of course she was. she couldn’t leave without sightseeing  ↳ harryfan3 of course she couldn’t !

bestfriend what is this? a love letter to chicago? 

↳ yourinstagram are you surprised? ↳ bestfriend not at all lol

harryfan34 I don’t even read your captions anymore I just know they’ll say something stupid harryfan54 3rd picture is exactly the reason why I don’t like you. you’re constantly finding a way to beg for attention.   harrystyles thats interesting 

↳ harryfan19 HARRY???? ↳ harryfan21 SIR WTF ↳ harryfan29 WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE ↳ harryfan31 ??????????  ↳ harryfan33 WHAT IS THIS WHATS HAPPENING RN ↳ harryfan35 are you all seeing this comment too? or have I gone officially insane now?

user9 that quote! 👏 such a clever and classy way to tell everyone to fuck off

↳ harryfan66 so you think it’s classy to mix your job with orgasms? ↳ harryfan11 if the job involves harry styles, then yes x ↳ harryfan25 THE WAY I JUST GASPED

user27 why do you treat yn as if she’s 10yo? and why do you act as if she’s got this corporate job or something where she needs to act a certain way? please grow up

↳ harryfan56 no matter what the job is, you should always respect your superiors  ↳ user27 for the love of God you’re making me gag  

user35 why did you cry? :( harryfan15 WHY ARENT WE TALKING ABOUT THE DOGS BEING BACKSTAGE IN CHICAGO??? 

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ynupdates Ny Oh (Harry Styles’ band) just posted a picture of Yn on instagram! Apparently, the two of them were out and about in Nashville. She also posted a picture of flowers, which is extremely Yn coded haha 😄 

view all 12 comments  user7 ahh, I think this is the first time anyone posts a picture of her? 🥺 why does it make me emotional? lol

↳ user8 I know, I love to see them hanging out together  ↳ user9 same here!! also, I love how supportive she is by hiding yn’s face  ↳ user7 proof that you can be on social media and still remain private  ↳ user9 PREACH

harryfan5 most supportive friend following and liking pictures from this account… we like to see 

↳ ynrryfan ＠bestfriend you’re the best we love you

harryfan9 someone pls explain to me why i feel so protective of this woman? 😭

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Hey Deux! I work in a golf course here in Chicago, and I might have some info that will probably interest your followers… Last Sunday I was at work when a very famous british popstar (who had just played two shows in town and had already visited us multiple times before) showed up with a female guest. They were both very low-key and clearly not wanting to draw any attention to them, but it was very difficult when you’re someone who looks like HIM, lol. Anyway, the popstar and the youtuber spent most of their afternoon there, just the two of them. She clearly isn’t a golfer, but he was more than happy to teach her all about the sport and just have fun for the sake of it. Not a lot happened, and as far as I could see, they never held hands, nor kissed or got touchy with each other, but they were chatting and laughing a lot, all the time. So even though I can’t tell you for sure if they were on a date or not, I feel pretty confident to say that they’re clearly way comfortable with each other’s company. They seem like two people who know each other very well by now, so even if they’re not a couple, they’re definitely near the besties-zone! 

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Hey Deux, Chicago-golf-course-girl here!  Following up on my previous email, I didn’t say anything at first because tbh it wasn’t my first time seeing him, and also bc I’m used to seeing celebrities at the golf course. Besides, I didn’t know who she was so I didn’t think too much of it… But then somehow the algorithm brought her latest post to my attention earlier today, and that’s when I saw the name and connected the dots. I thought it was very interesting how she included a picture from the golf course but completely left out who she was with lol. Had I known it was her, I would’ve definitely taken a picture for you! Idk why her posts are so cryptic about what she looks like, because the girl is GORGEOUS! And funny. Harry isn’t wasting any of his time! Would’ve definitely taken her to the golf course myself, too, lmao. 

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ynupdates Yn tonight! She was spotted filming Harry and enjoying his first show in Nashville. 

view all 81 comments harryfan5 HI MOM user9 oh i love this! harryfan68 You mean… She was spotted doing her job? Lmao  harryfan44 Are you kidding me? harryfan44 A whole instagram to update what exactly? The way she follows Harry around? 😂😂😂

↳ ynupdates I know it’s hard for you to comprehend that Yn is a human being with her own talent and her own job, but many of us are really interested in her career so if you don’t have anything nice to say about her you’ll simply be blocked! Have a nice life.

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PART 10 — NASHVILLE

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[ama--ryllis]

Giving the blue lock boys a massage p.2 ...♡

Part 1

Warnings: may be a little explicit, minor spoilers for the neo egoist league, mainly fluff, not proofread!

Alexis Ness

In his mind, the feeling of your hand massaging the pain away was a dream. If only he knew it would come true. He eyes were tightly closed as he felt your weight on his thighs while you massaged the back of his shoulder. Feeling your thumbs press into his weak spot, a barely audible whine escaped his lips, a blush crept on his face as he hugged the pillow his head was resting on. He had taken his shirt off to make your job easier, revealing his back. His muscle were pretty visible, resulting in you teasing him every so often. He could fall asleep to the feeling of your hands on his back, a light hum could be heard when he felt your knuckles press on the sore muscles. "Gosh.., should've told me earlier you could do this" you smirked at his words, leaning close to his ear "enjoying yourself ?" His face reddened at your teasing, but it deepened when your hands caressed his back only to go back up to the base of his neck. A satisfied sight escaped his lips "i'm going to fall asleep at this rate" your knuckles rolled at the base of his neck "you can, if you want to...sweetheart~" he looked at you through his curly bangs"you can't talk to me with that tone and expect me not to react.." alexis said with a low voice. But in a swift move, it you under him, trapped between his arms. You caressed his cheek, leaning in to give him a gentle kiss. He happily kissed back, when you both parted he gave you a small smile"cuddle night?" You nodded with a gentle smile of you own.

Nagi seishiro

This big baby would straight up fall asleep on you, although he's much heavier and taller but, not like you minded. But he'd fall asleep to your gentle touch, on his shoulders to his bicep, nagi quote; the pain is such a hassle

You sighted and installed him between your legs, softly pressing into his biceps to ease the pain and also to stop hearing his complaining. The feeling of your hands Almost sets him off into a deep slumber. I feel likes he loves it just because it's an excuse not to go to his training. Sometimes you'd massage his wrists, feeling him tense pretty much everywhere from his shoulders to the tip of his fingers. Nagi muscle were well built, sometimes giving you a hard time when he clenched them in his sleep. But when he woke up he was always grateful although his tired expression. This boy loves you more than anything, he'd probably let you do anything to him. If he was awake when you massaged him, he'd probably hum a lot, but yea, he's not really difficult.

"i love when press your thumbs in my shoulders, the pain is such a hassle" your boyfriend said with a slight pout in his voice. You'd chuckled at his complaining, it made you happy to take care of him, he was also very sweet.

Bachira meguru

"you would massage me ?!" He jumped on top of you, a huge smile attached to his face. He hugged you tight, moving you around because of how happy he was "well, where does it hurt?" You asked him"everywhere!" He said, honestly he probably wasn't in much pain, sometimes being dramatic but you'd play along. When he finally settled down, telling you to massage his back, accompanied with a pretty please. He'd be humming a song while you'd be sitting on his side since he wouldn't stop moving his legs around. He'd look st you with a smile, enjoying himself when he felt your knuckles roll over his sore muscles and your palms pressing in his back. "Ahh~, you're very good at this y/n" nyou looked at him with a smile " thank you meguru" his cheeks reddened at the sound of his first name. A few hums here and there but with his energy it was sometimes hard to keep him still. Although, not even 15 minutes in, he was fast asleep. He mumbled some stuff in his sleep but he stopped moving around, allowing you to massage him with more focus. When you felt his muscles had enough stimulate, you would trace some random stuff on his back, such has i love you, darling or even drawings.

If only you knew he woke up mid-way through your tracing, he smiled to himself. Enjoying the soft ticklish feelings of your fingers on his back.

Isagi yoichi

"what? No really i'm fine and i'm sure you've got some more important things to do-"

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"mhmm!~ gosh you really know the s-spots~"

He was almost moaning under your touch, feeling your palms pressing deeply in his upper back, his brows furrowed upwards and lips parted slightly. Oh how he loved every second of this "you can press harder than that" isagi said, completely at your mercy, you pressed harder, a slight whine escaping his lips, he was a sucker for your touch and hell this was awesome. He turned his head to the side, eyeing your focused expression, "geez what did your team master do ?" Isagi looked at you through his wet bangs that was sticking to his face, his eyes half opened, giving gim a quite attractive look. Even more than he usually was "just trained really hard today, just a little lower- r-right there!" He had a mix of a tired and pleased expression, he let out a sight of relief." This is really good, like really good" he said with a chuckle. You smiled at his praise, pressing your thumbs in his skin, causing a slight reaction out of him"mhmm!~" he smiled at you"now you're just teasing!" You snickered and looked right in his eyes "i don't know what you're talking about" he laughed along with you, he started leaning more into the pillow, fully closing his eyes, relaxing his body even more, if that was possible. Letting you handle his back pain, he had a smile attached to his lips.

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Considering it had been an hour, now you were getting kinda tired, you lated next to him, he opened an eye to look at you, his gaze was lovesick. He turned to lay on his back, inviting you to sleep on his bare chest...

I think you guys can see the favoritism lol!

Anyway, the vote was pretty tight, but hope you enjoyed. I'm a Ness and Isagi enjoyer lol. Anyway, hope that fed your hunger for these bllk boys. I might start taking request for blue lock again. But i'm not gonna rush to dry out all my motivation for this.

Love you guys!

[mcytgaynessshowdown]

REMINDER THIS IS ON THE GAYEST CHARACTER!

MartynInTheLittleWood

Number of submissions: 4 From: Pirates SMP, Rats SMP, Evo SMP, Life Series, Headcanons: Gay, Pansexual, "Just Likes People" Reasons: - Queer irl, character: have you ever seen him interact with literally anybody. - Have you seen the guy? He's one of the gayest straight guys I've ever seen. His character is loyal to people in a really gay way. Even if he ends up betraying them, he does that in a gay way too. Martyn with Mumbo, Scott, Ren . . . especially Ren. You only have to watch them interacting for MAYBE five minutes to understand how soul crushingly gay their characters are for each other. - yeah the gay ahh friendships he’s had going on with ren for literally any smp (minus fantasy) they’re put on together - Uhhh He's gynesexual irl (I think?), and also c!Martyn has probably kissed SEVERAL men. See for instance, MumboJumbo. They were literally Husbands in Last Life. In LIMITED LIFE him and Scott were VERY fruity with eachother and in 3RD LIFE him and Ren were gayer than Gay sex itself (Doomed Yaoi at it's finest.) Like, you don't just chop off your King bsf's head to test your trust, love and unyeailding devotion to him and NOT admit that it's kind of gay. In the Pirates SMP he said his character was Pansexual and also was apart of the Kestrel faction filled with dumb, burly men who kissed eachother, and in the Rats SMP, specifically Rats: In Paris, there was this one scene where him and Scott were kind of 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 in the Captain's chair. Also in that SMP him and Ren have only one bed… suspiciously gay, is it not? This lad has SEVERAL gay quotes. like "Why aren't we smoochin'?" directed to Ren in Wild Life, and… yes I can't think of anymore gay quotes from him right now BUT STILL he has MANY MORE GAY QUOTES!!! Thank you for coming to my Martyn bias filled TED Talk.

Pac

Number of submissions: 1 From: QSMP Headcanons: Reasons:

[tlgtw]

Bits and pieces of the still incredibly written backstory of Elden Ring continue to poke out from the dogwater, as it were.

St. Trina, as we learn, was a specific aspect of Miquella that was made separate: In Miquella's words, St Trina was the embodiment of his 'love.' And when he abandoned St Trina, he abandoned that aspect of himself that made her.

This newly introduced example reveals to us what the nature of Radagon's exactly was, in turn.

Radagon, the 'other half' of Marika in the exact same way that St Trina had been for Miquella, we learn here, had *himself* been a specific singular aspect of Marika's emotions or feelings.

With St Trina having been made out of Miquella's 'love.'

You wonder, too, what Radagon should have been made from.

What aspect of herself did Marika separate into her second person, as called by her the "Loyal Dog of the Golden Order"? We know Radagon was created prior to the creation of the Golden Order itself, since he was involved in the invasion of Liurnia.

So at the same time as Marika was married to Godfrey, begetting Godwyn and Mogh and Morgott. Radagon was married to Renalla, begetting Rykard and Radahn and raising the potential successor of Marika--the Empyrean Ranni. He was given a massive amount of responsibility, the seeming crux of the Liurnian-Leyndell alliance that ended the Liurnian Wars that Marika's empire was losing, and he by every account was completely dedicated and successful; even weakening the strength of the Carian royal family by reducing their practicing of astrology.

All yet, when push came to shove: After Godwyn was assassinated and Marika sought to destroy the Elden Ring. It was Radagon who dropped everything he had and stepped in to stop her.

"Proudly" as his Golden Order Greatsword says,

Radagon divorced his first wife, married his 'original self,' begettedthe Twin Prodigies Miquella and Malenia as two more potential successors to Queen Marika, set up the brutal inquisition and censorship of the Age of Radagon headed by his own son Rykard, and was even involved with the very the development of Golden Order fundamentalism!

Radagon did so much fucking stuff! He was so damn proactive! So what exactly must he have been!?

That Marika initially separated from herself? And who went on to try and stop her very own plans when they turned against the wishes of the Greater Will??

This conflicting 'half' of her original person! That nonetheless was all this strongly willed on his own!?

What part of Marika COULD Radagon have originally been!?!?!?

And it's awesome. It's really really well-designed writing.

Frankly, even, it's genius. It's not anything revolutionary in terms of narrative devices or anything like that, but it's really elegant. It's really meaningful and concise, and it's really cool!!!

A lot of Elden Ring's base game is, or now maybe--was. (It having been the basis of my entire show on YouTube.)

But the actual story, instead of solely the backstory, of the DLC, unfortunately, is not!

You ever seen a boss item whose entire description was literally entirely the game just fucking QUOTING ITSELF?

Hyetta at Frenzied Flame Proscription: "Become their lord. Take their torment, despair. Their affliction. Every sin, every curse. And melt it all away. As the Lord of Chaos."

Ghost outside Church of Inhibition in Liurnia: "Ahh, Lord Vyke, it seems that you were no lord, after all."

Midras's Flame of Frenzy, from killing Midras, Lord of Frenzied Flame:

Or! Better yet, ANOTHER boss spell, whose entire description is dedicated to literally just acknowledging its fucking colour!!

Land of Shadows, from killing the Scadutree Avatar:

I definitely sure wish I still hadn't!!

In fact, I don't think the level of vacuousness from Shadow of the Erdtree's descriptions has ever been seen before!

Not even in Dark Souls 3!!

AUGH

[eisforeidolon]

Question: I have two questions, one for Jensen, and one for both of you.

Jared: Okay. So no Jared question? That's fine.

Jensen: Nope.

Question: First for Jensen, I need to know the story behind this picture, please? [both walk over to look, Jensen mutters something like 'Oh, God']

Jensen: I honestly don't know the story behind that picture. I don't know A) what I'm doing, I'm like sitting in a cast chair and I'm just like pulling my shirt up [mimes the pose]. And I don't -

Jared: If you got it, flaunt it.

Jensen: I don't. Uh, I don't know, I don't know what I would have - I don't even know who took that photo. Or how it got out, but - or why. This is - um.

Jared: I think, I think, here's why -

Jensen: I might have been getting mic'd?

Jared: Yeah, probably.

Jensen: Cause they, when they wire us, when they put the microphones on us, they tape it [tapping center of his chest] to your chest - I mean, there's a few ways they can do it, sometimes they'll wire the jacket, sometimes they'll put it, if you're wearing a tie, they'll put it in the knot of the tie. If you've got a sharp eye, sometimes you can see 'em. But most of the time they'll just tape it to your chest and then the wire kind of goes [gestures down his chest and around to his back] around [points downward] sometimes it goes to an ankle pack, sometimes it clips onto the back of your belt. Anyway. I was probably just going like, [gestures as if pulling up his shirt] okay, wire me. And the person who wires has to put up with that kind of - the shenanigans that we do when we're like [does the fake laugh thing, and shakes back and forth].

Jared: Also, in fairness, I think that was like season one or two? And so twenty years ago, we didn't realize, we were slow, we were not the generation where everything you do lasts forever? And so it's like [fake laugh, pops hip, makes fart noise] Ahh, I'm farting, and it exists twenty fucking years later, so. Naivety on both of our parts, I think.

Jensen: So I don't know if that answers your question, but that's the best I can come up with, so. What was the other question that he might help with anyway?

Question: Both of you, do you feel any pressure from the fans to show that you're still close friends? When you search on Google 'Jensen and Jared' there is the first question that pops there is 'Are they still friends?'. And whatever happens between you two, people just watching, waiting, like are you still close or not -

Jared: So I think, so -

Question: You have this pressure to show that you're still close -

Jensen: It's exhausting.

Jared: [grabs his shoulder] Wow.

Jensen: I'm so glad you brought this up. [turns to Jared] I am, I am exhausted pretending to be your friend -

Jared: That's actually my, that's actually my question that I put into the Google search. I'm like -

Jensen: [cracks up] I haven't heard from him in weeks!

Jared: I haven't heard from Jensen in two days [mimics typing] are they still friends? Does he still like me, circle yes or no? [Jensen cracks up more] I don't feel - I'll speak for myself - I don't feel any pressure to [finger quotes] prove that I'm friends with Jensen or my br- or anybody, you know what I mean? Like, life - we have lives, and we live in different states and, like, if I see him every day for a month, great! If I don't see him for seven months, great! Like if he's good or needs something, or I need something - but yeah, I do find that question funny. And I think it's also, I think it's like, from, was it French Mistake, or? It was like, episode, yeah I did see something online where they're like, 'oh, they're talking'. It's French Mistake.

Jensen: Oh! Yeah yeah yeah.

Jared: And then it became a thing, where they were like -

Jensen: Oh, is that real? Do [they?] not like each other? Yeah.

Jared: We also fucking - I have an alpaca! [Jensen cracks up again] Like, no one hinged on that, like does Jared really have a picture of himself in Warhol style and his wife and a tanning bed and an alpaca at his house? Like no, I don't.

Jensen: You're not far off, though. [laughs]

Jared: Close, close. Got one out of four.

Jensen: Yeah, no. I think there's also - [points at Jared] you kind of touched on it a little bit. You know, I think anybody who can just see us together whether we're onstage or whether we're back stage? Can tell that there's a, you know, legit love for each other. And always will be. Whether - like he said - whether we see each other every day for six weeks or whether we go six weeks without seeing each other. Or without even, like, checking in. Which, we usually text back and forth and stuff, just, you know, about hey, what d'you think - what're you doing with this, or hey I need to ask you a question -

Jared: We have a Wordle text thread.

Jensen: [they talk over each other here, so this next is approximate] Yeah, we Wordle each other every day. Um, so, that would be pretty, again, pretty exhausting to keep that [finger quotes] facade up, if it was a facade and it's not.

[heavenlytouches]

Charles Xavier- NSFW! alphabet

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TW-seggsual themes! MDNI!

Charles Xavier NSFW! alphabet for my thirsty souls <3

Young! Professor X

(Charles Xavier- SFW alphabet)

Charles Xavier

a = aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Charles would gently clean you up, moving you to lay on top of him, his slender fingers brushing your hair

He would be grinning like crazy, happy in love

He would make sure you're not hurt and you're ready to sleep, lulling you in his arms

"Jesus fucking Christ, you look so lovely.." (The Last King Of Scottland quote by James aaaaaaaaaa)

b = body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Charles loves his eyes and his slender fingers

Just the way he can make your legs shake with only his fingers makes him hard in an instant

About his eyes, I mean cmon, who doesn't like his eyes

On your body he loves literally everything but mostly small details only he can notice- birthmarks, small freckles, faint childhood scars or stretch marks- he's drunk in love

"You.. you are my private constellation~"

c = cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

He likes to cum on your thighs, loving the way he can paint your soft flesh in white glaze

If you'r giving him head and you swallow, man would be in 7th skies

Charles doesn't like to make too much mess so thighs or mouth, if you like it, he likes it even more

"So perfect..and only mine..oh darling."

d = dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Of course this dude uses his powers, sometmes simply denying your orgasm, making you hold on a little longer

He would eat you out, his tongue flat on your body, your legs shaking

Charles would look at you, not breaking eye contact, his fingers against his temple, whispering sweet orders

"Shhh just a little longer baby, can yo do it for me huh?"

e = experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Charles had 1 or 2 partners before, too busy with college so he's not that experienced

He knows what he's doing thanks to his powers

Man can easily slip in your mind and discover your deep fantasies

"I know you like it, come on, let me hear you sweete."

f = favorite position (this goes without saying)

I feel like he would be a cowgirl or reverse cowgirl dude

This or doggy when he feels more dominant

Charles would love to just lie back and look at you on top of him, your expressions, your body and you in general, all your beauty shining

"A-ahh my love, yes, that's- fuck, that's amazing"

g = goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Charles would be serious most of the time but a joke or two never killed anybody

He loves your smile and your laugh so be sure he would slip something, not just his cock

His jokes are cheesy and romantic, he can't help it

"Gosh I love your smile hon.."

h = hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

He's shaved, almost clean shaved

Charles takes care of his looks, wanting the best for you

His happy trail is light brown, ligther than his hair but gosh he's delicious

He doesn't really care about yours, if you like it clean shaven and shave- that's cool, if you just trim it- that's cool too

"Take a pic babe, it will last longer hm?"

i = intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

He's all out, candles, roses, music, whatever you say

His lover deserves the best and Charles is here to deliver

He always makes sure you're fully relaxed, he wants you to enjoy as much as he does

"I thought you might like these~"

j = jack off (masturbation headcanon) Charles is still young but he doesn't necessarily jack off

I feel like he would rather ask you for help, liking your warm touch more than his hand

He would do it only if you were not in the mood and he needed release or if you were far away

Charles would find it too childish to do it that way

"Please...can you uh- help me with this?"

k = kink (one or more of their kinks)

Charles has praise kink. dot to dot.

Call him sweet nicknames and he's melting in your arms, moaning softly

He uses nicknames too, no matter if you're making love or not

His whimpering voice in your ear, slightly above a whisper is enough to make you come undone

"Yes sweetie, that's great, keep-a-aah"

l = location (favorite places to do the do)

Charles is a sucker for bedrooms, classic but practical

I feel like he would also be down for showers or bathtubs, warm water swaying your bodies as he's gently puming in you, kissing your body and holding you close

Sometimes he would even decorate baths with sweet smelling bubbles and rose petals to make it more romantic

"I got you angel, I got you-"

m = motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

He's a romantic man, not a sexual monster but

BUT

If you kiss his sweet spot on his neck or on his abdomen, he's already closing his eyes, his breath trapped in his toned chest

"What are you do- ohh, that's good~"

n = no (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He would never hurt you

Any kind of pain kinks, blood kink or so- nuh uh, red flag for him

Charles is a romance maniac and he wants the best for his partner

I feel like he'd be so scared for you he wouldn't even give it a try, shily changing the subject, holding you close instead

"I could never...darling why are you asking me that...?"

o = oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Charles likes both, giving and receiving

He's skilled, you get him love drunk as he's kissing you and hungrily licking, his soft blue eyes never leaving yours

His chest heaving, lips rosy and his eyes full of desire

If you'd go down on Charles, he would reassure you that you really don't have to if you don't want to

When you'd finally take his length into your mouth his hand would instantly clasp on his mouth, unholy sounds spilling from a man above you, his ocean eyes pressed shut, blush creeping on his freckled cheeks

"You taste so good dear, so so good."

p = pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

He would slowly sink in your warmth, allowing you to get used to his length

Charles would gently guide his hips in you, his moves almost hypnotic

Maybe slow and all but he would hit all your weak spots, making you roll your eyes in pleasure

"You are so tight sweetie.. you will make me bust"

q = quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He could do quickies but only for your pleasure

I feel like Charles needs more of you to cum, he needs to feel you fully pressed on his body

Like I said, he wouldn't have nothing against it but only for his partner

"Come, quickly hon, we don't have a lot of time-"

r = risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

The only risk he'd take would be your shared college dorm, not caring about other students

He would take you like it's your own bedroom, moaning and whimpering with you, your bodies connecting

If you get caught- he can always delete their memory

"Shhh shh if they hear us we'll have problems..I think-?"

s = stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He can go for a few rounds, normally 2 or even 3

Charles is not 100% always capable to go multiple rounds, giving you everything he can

He would last for some time, always allowing you to cum first satisfied

"I just can't get enough of you haha."

t = toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He doesn't own any but if you do- he's not judgy

If you'd like to try some of them together, he would try it, even if it's only one-time try

Charles would tell you what he likes and what not, letting you explore more with him

"Oh love- what you got there?"

u = unfair (how much they like to tease)

He would looove to tease you, with his actions and touches but more with his words

Man is a walking teasing machine

He would always find a way to at least fluster you, knowing his way with words

Pressing his fingers on his temple, sweetly saying

"That dress is amazing sweetie, but why don't you take it off?"

v = volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Charles is all about moaning and whimpering

He's not ashamed of letting you know how good you make him feel

If you're in his dorm or perhaps a shower he would try to be quiet, placing a hand over his lips

That was until you said how beautiul he sounds

He just stopped shushing himself, he lets it all out

"A-aaah yes, oh my.. I-I love you so mmm-much"

w = wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

I feel like he's a boob/chest guy

Small, big, light, dark- he didn't care, he loves your chest

Charles would always place his hand on your chest, gently making small circles on your soft flesh

When going down on you he would pay special attention to them, kissing between your chest before going down, even sucking a small piece of your skin , leaving small purple flowers behind

"So so soft... they're great love"

x = x-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Charles would be a little above average, longer

He wouldn't be as girthy but he's long for sure, golden like the rest of his body besides his head, soft pink and gleaming with precum

Maybe not the thickest but he would know how to use his member

"What's wrong hun? Kitty got your tongue?"

y = yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Like I said, he's more of a romantic, not a sex animal

His sex drive is normal for a young man like he is, he would tell you teasingly or just show you he's in mood

Of course, if you're not in a mood he would NEVER make you do something you don't want to

"What about just relaxing and cuddles? Hm? Sounds great, doesn't it?"

z = zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Since Charles doesn't need sleep, he would just hold you until you both calm down

He would make sure you're alright, clean you up and most likely put on a movie so you could relax

If you'd fall asleep, he would hold you on his body, his heart beating steadily- thinking how could he get so lucky with you

"Sleep dear, rest. You need it shh."

Phewww, this is a long onen. This was cutesy filth; I hope you enjoyed it, hungry lovelies! I write for multy fandoms, just ask and remember, requests are always welcome!

I love you guys so much

El <3

(all images were made by: El via canva & paint)

[sleepsty]

AGHHHH BLACKHEAAARTSSS🔥🔥

I have some big ahh problems with drawing him so far

There're some (kinda a lot?) thoughts about and spoilers to "Oh, dear, did I get your card in a shuffle?" and "The remaining jester card" under this line!! ↓

Let's not mind the hair, but the (literal) mask?? There are a few different descriptions of it.

1. In "Oh, dear, did I get your card in a shuffle?" it's only this one, talking about Branzy:

Properly taking a look, Clown noticed that there was a scar mark on his left cheek, right underneath his eye. His eyes...

And there's a lot of moments when his emotions (smiles mostly) are shown in Cards Shuffle.

Yet, in "The remaining jester card" it's said Clown sees him fully unmasked for the first time, which is the 2nd quote:

But, the thing that first catches Clown’s attention isn’t any of those things. It is that this is the first time Clown is seeing him unmasked , completely. At least literally. He is without the silver mask that he always wears, concealing half of his face save for the eye ... scar ... has always been slightly visible beforehand on the uncovered part of his face, a small slit of a scar right below his right eye, though now the uncovered parts around his left eye revealed how bad it really is.

which not just implies, but states that he was wearing a mask all the time previously.

One more quote, 3-rd, on the television, part of Blackheart's description:

About three-fourths of their face is covered by a porcelain mask, leaving only one of their eyes visible along with a quarter of their face, including half of a charming smile which is set in a cheerful grin.

And another one, 4-th, closer to an end of the story, talking about Blackhearts:

The man in the middle with black hair, that classy black suit, and the mask covering three quarters of his face. At the open of the door, the man raises his head up to meet Clown’s gaze.

This one confused me even more than the previous one, cause, well... not the same thing as it before. Are these different masks.. maybe? Don't know, actually. But that's not the last quote though, it only gets puzzler!

5-th! From, probably, last pages of "The remaining jester card":

There is a certain charisma to the man's appearance. Well crafted, posed, polished. But despite the mask, the bland white porcelain marked by black markers, covering most of his face and anything human you could’ve gotten from his expression, his eyes are exposed.

Still staring at Clown as Clown stares at him, the man tilts his head. Then, Blackhearts smiles at him.

How do I even wrap my head around it? It may be a metaphor, it may be not

And, seeing the difference between all these descriptions, I got confused 🧑‍🦯

So now I'm trying to figure it all out. And it looks like this:

so far. ( Reminder! Me reading the whole thing was inspired by @shearfer, so the second design pictured here might resemble theirs, which I'm kind of sorry for(?) even though it wasn't intentional and I prolly will not stick to it anyway )

Another part of the story is how Branzy even looked! I mean, yeah, Blackhearts wears the mask, we get it. But Branzy, the one, whom we initially met in the Blackhearts' casino, in Cards Shuffle?? Was he wearing makeup? Was he wearing a literal mask too? Did he not have the scars at the time?

But we have a description of some scars at the time at least:

"Pierce! So nice to meet you!"

Reluctantly though with no option to decline, he accepted the hand, trying hard not to flinch at the skin-to-skin contact. He noticed remnants of scars littered starting from the host's hand going up to his upper arm. He pondered it for a second, before 'Pierce' retracted his hand back as fast as he could naturally.

But nothing about the face scars except for this one under the left eye (later on it's the right one btw)

Not hating or anything, pure /pos and curiousity!! But I sooo wanna know what actually was meant to picture it the closest to the fiction piece I've just read

And I'll continue to try to come up with something cool that fits

[elainsgirl]

Gwynriels have been too quiet lately. So, out of curiosity, I decided to look at what’s going on in GA Reddit.

They still talk about 1/2 of the bonus chapter, how some don’t see Elriel together, what great “analysis” Yaz or someone like that(I have no idea who that is tbh) did, and how GA have parallels with Rowalin, Feysand, and Brunt… I can see Bryce x Azriel being compared to them bc Bryce is literally the main character. But a second friend of the secondary character who appeared only in one book??

And there were some screenshots of some random poll, where “Gwyn won over the Inner Circle 🤣”. Just so we are clear, im glad that someone thing makes that part of fandom happy. But… She won in the commotion of “the most underestimated female” in secondary and minor characters… In other categories among minor characters were also Suriel, whom we all love. And you know what happened? He died… Sorry I found it funny 😆

Ahh reddit, such a terrible toxic place.

omfg. Its quite sad that their only form of Gwynriel content is from a limited edition bonus chapter. That too…only a small portion of the bonus….that they’re still talking about…4 entire years later. The great “analysis” is 2/4 opinions, 1/4 misquoted quotes in the wrong context and 1/4 is parallels to other couples gwynriel have that are not parallels but since they include the same word…according to gwynriels thats all you need for something to be considered a parallel.

Oh dont you know anon? It doesn’t matter that Gwyn only appeared in one book, she’s still more important then lots of the main characters all because of an unknown heritage- as if Lucien, from book 1 isn’t right there and some hidden powers as if half of the OG cast such as Mor, Elain and Azriel even Nesta and Feyre still need to have their powers explained and explored but Gwyn trumps all of them as THE most important since her name appeared the most. Bcs thats how Mass foreshadows the next main character.

oh thats just….embarrassing ngl. I mean…yay! At least they got some win? Poor guys have been losing constantly the past few months so im glad Gwyn won that poll…clearly gwynriels needed that win.

[littlespoonevan]

Thoughts about buddie in the new episode? Personally, while I've always been a buddie shipper, I've never felt like the show is actually going to go for it. But then the last episode happened, and that completely changed. It really feels like they're going to become canon. There was a huge shift. I wanna know what you thought about it!!!

ahh i'm pretty much in the same boat as you, bud!!!

i've said it before but i never went into watching the show wanting or needing or expecting buddie to become canon and that stance has never really changed for me over the years. like there've certainly been a handful of moments where i've been like: 👀👀👀are we going somewhere???👀👀👀 (namely 4x13/4x14, parts of 5b, the fucking couch theory/graveyard scene, and 7x04)

but in general i've always remained sceptical. not even in a critical way, just in like a 'to do this would be so astounding, i can't fathom it actually becoming real' kind of way askdjfh

but i will say the last 2 episodes are definitely the most hopeful i've ever been. just because it really feels like they're slotting things into place???? i think the most damning 'evidence' is for sure buck moving into the diaz house. like, we're going to have the inevitable moment where eddie and chris are going to come back and no matter how they slice it we WILL end up with buddie roommates era even if it's only for an ep askjdfh

so that in itself feels quite definitive. combine that with the amount of times they vocalised what they mean to each other/how they feel about being separated in the last 2 eps, the tension in the air during the goodbye, and just the overall Way the goodbye scene was filmed, it's hard to imagine it going any other way right now??

also to quote @sibylsleaves post from the other day, whether tptb are doing buddie canon or not, oliver stark most definitely is skajdfha because buck's facial expressions??????????????? it may not necessarily be a feelings realisation but it sure as hell feels like he Knows(tm) even if he hasn't quite admitted it to himself yet.

so tl;dr i'm still erring on the side of cautiously optimistic bc it feels so out of this world that i don't quite think i'll believe it til i see it. but i also think it's near impossible to view the past 2 eps as anything other than a step towards them finally getting together ❤️

[xavierlilithv]

heh... what if you.... told me about your au

- noxious moth swarm

EHDUAIDHWKJCD (this is gonna be so bad omfg)

The AU is about a timeline, where Iceberg's soul gets trapped in Gears' house because his cremated ashes are there. Gears takes advantage of this fact and now he's been living with a ghost for like.. a year.

Iceberg doesn't like Gears anymore though. I mean yeah he's hot and all to him, but because he's trapped in the house, Iceberg feels like he'll never experience freedom again. He always begs Gears to just let him move on and spread his ashes somewhere or bury it properly, but Gears does not fw that. And that leads to Iceberg hating Gears more and more overtime.

As Clef quoted it (in some story from the scp wiki site), "Don't play coy with me Coggy, trying to hide all the stuff you were doing to Iceberg." Something like that, right?

Yeah, that's part of this AU too.

Their relationship is toxic and unhealthy. It will stay that way. Gears doesn't plan on setting Iceberg free, and Iceberg doesn't plan on forgiving Gears until he actually feels like he's whole again and free to roam the earth freely. In the afterlife, lol..

There are some inappropriate factors about this.

Might post some AO3 story about it, I dunno. But it'll no include overly sexual stuff. Just some jokes and all, references, uhh.. perhaps mischaracterization, and all. This AU is centered around a relationship where one can't move on, but expresses it in such a horrible way that the other feels creeped out or scared by them.

More facts about the ghosts though!

Their colours are more dull rather than being some dead body which was probably frozen and capable of movement. Their current form presents what they looked like before they had died and stuff. It also shows their injuries, and the ghosts can alter their appearance in some ways. For example, Iceberg's face in the picture shows that it is blacked out except for one eye and his eyebrow.

Depending on how strong the spiritual energy is around the area, ghosts can interact with their surrounding environment.

The reason why Gears' face has some black box covering it is because Iceberg did that. Ghosts can blur or block out people's faces, no clue how, still trying to figure out why they can do that. But Iceberg desperately doesn't want to see Gears' face. His emotionless ahh stoic face which he fucking hates.

There's no comfort. (Only some short flashbacks)

Please ask more questions about this AU I really need to develop it more and add interesting factors. :(

[thathorriblebitch]

AN ANIMATIC!!!!

GORE WARNING FOR A FEW FRAMES!

ALSO SPOILERSSS

(tumblr may have killed quality srry)

Notes under cut

AHH THIS TOOK SOOOOOO LONGGGG

I haven't posted any comments or notes or fanart in a while so here's the whole shebang, enjoy my mad rantings @uhohbestie

So starting from chapter 21 when grian died, oh my goddd

I was convinced that Scar would die first and grian would give in to his suicidal thoughs from when he was on the sand cliff

Then after scar and grian make it out of a horde infested store alive. The worst happens

"He'd grown complacent, and now scar was suffering for the consequences of it."

A quote that sadly summarizes a large percentage of the fic

Thennn

"He knows the blood seeping from his shoulder hasn't come from a gunshot."

"I love you, scar"

"'I love you,' he adds, and it feels so easy to say now that he wonders why he ever struggled with it before."

Owwwwww

It's oddly poetic how in his effort to help and aid scar he had to leave him behind. I took his own death for him to admit to him faults, for him to help scar, for him to say he loves scar, and it feels like I'm supposed to forgive grian, BUT HE STILL HASNT APOLOGIZED! he barely acknowledged his cheating.

It's very purposeful that I drew him dying in the desert instead of the woods.

I do wonder if the trio could every stumble upon him while they explore ghost towns

Next chapter

22 FUCKING SCHLAT?! I understand that this schlat is not even all that close to the one I know and love from dsmp! Era, but still. Schlat?!?! I have never watched his day z streams nor another zombie content from any dsmp people (mainly ref Tommy's and Charlie's vids) so I have no clue who Aubry, Mosin man, Paul, or any other people from that reference so to me they end up coming off as oocs but they have clear intentions and I love how they give scar his turn to use his salesman voice. Anywayyy

Next chapters up to 26

I enjoy the vibes of schlat joking with scar's pc ass

They fit in the weirdest way and I still get thrown off seeing schlat on my tumblr feed from the chapter banners

The sudden kidnapping was fun and I can't wait for scar to randomly start using his legs and firearm skills to kill 3 guys then feel guilty asf just cause "Oh God I killed unzombie people oh noooo"

Anyway in general, I love how this fic is turning out and feel my heart shatter for scar every update and fear for my life when I see lock n key post anything regarding the plot

And my favorite part of this fic?

TEMPORARY CHARACTER DEATH

TEMPORARY!!!!

much love, thb

[godlynott]

EMAILS I CANT SEND 💌 - lorenzo zurzolo x fem oc <3

word count: 3k.

notes: hi lovelies! the fic is on wattpad, just posting it here to see if it does better! pls vote the story! i'm posting a new chapter there today (wattpad link here)

part one here : 1

auroraavery just made a post!

auroraavery

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MY NEW ALBUM 'emails i can't send' IS OUT JULY 15th

+new song vicious out tonight!

thank u for being patient with me :')

i think it's worth the wait

presave in bio

comments:

noorspeaks i've heard it. i've cried. i've spiraled. you did that.

↳ auroraavery thank you for being here with me noorsie <3

siennavale every man who hurt you should be terrified.

   ↳ auroraavery and u know it

popcrave she just turned 19 in poland.

fans4roryupdates

we're not READY.

we're not OKAY.

we're FERAL.

viciousatmidnight me listening to track 3 pretending i didn't just text my ex

  ↳ auroraavery how do i repost a comment

        ↳ noorspeaks aurora.

             ↳ auroraavery what did i DO

jude.callahan pop princess

  ↳ auroraavery hi rome boy bring some pizza oui oui

     ↳ auroraavery my bad that was french

chapter one.

there's a very specific kind of panic that hits the night before an album drops.

it's like your soul's about to be uploaded to every streaming platform on earth, and all you can do is sit there—refreshing your own spotify page, doubting every lyric you ever wrote, and wondering if your high school ex is going to think track seven is about him. (it is. but he doesn't deserve the recognition.)

i'm curled up on my kitchen floor, wearing a hoodie that doesn't belong to me and clutching a glass of warm wine like it's my emotional support animal. my phone buzzes for the eighth time in under a minute. which means only one thing: the groupchat is alive.

little missies :p

noorsie

AURORA

don't panic

i know you're panicking

siennie

she's 1000% spiraling

rory

are u drinking wine on the floor again?

rorsie

yes

also it's not spiraling

its processing

noorsie

with chardonnay?

therapy is expensive

siennie

we're coming over

don't argue

i have hot cheetos!

and a face mask that smells like emotionally unavailable men.

dibs on your pink robe

i sigh, dramatically, like i'm starring in my own indie film. which, honestly, i might be.

i look at the clock. 10:42pm. vicious drops at midnight. the full album drops in less than three weeks. and tomorrow? the world hears everything I've been bottling up for the past two years. the heartbreaks. the half-texted paragraphs. the voice notes I was too scared to send.

and I have to pretend I'm fine.

i take a sip of wine and whisper, "this is fine," to no one, which is exactly when the front door swings open like it's been kicked by the FBI.

sienna struts in first—jeans too low, confidence too high, holding a bag of snacks like it's chanel. noor follows, wrapped in a massive sweater, a very specific kind of chaos behind her glasses.

"we brought the essentials," sienna says, tossing a bag onto the counter. "spicy carbs, emotional support skincare, and a playlist of bad decisions from 2017."

"and," noor adds, holding up her phone, "a tweet that says, 'rory avery is dropping her new album and my ex should be worried.' you're welcome."

they both stop when they see me. still on the floor. still in the hoodie. still very much not okay.

"you look like a woman who needs a forehead kiss and a legally mandated nap," sienna says, plopping down next to me.

"or a distraction," noor grins. "what if we invite chaos?"

I narrow my eyes. "chaos as in...?"

"men."

AHH!— oh. sorry. jumpscare.

"no," I deadpan.

"we could go out," sienna offers, like it's not nearly 11pm and I'm mentally curled in a ball. "or we could scroll jude's instagram. he posted a thirst trap in a turtleneck today. you should be aware."

jude. jude callahan. a mutual friend of ours, though more noor's chaos buddy than mine. he's the kind of man who flirts like he's quoting poetry, half in Italian, half in regret. he once told me I had "a tragic mouth" and I still don't know what that means—but I think about it a lot.

"jude's in rome right now," noor says, showing me her phone. "hanging out with that actor guy. what's his name? tall. looks like he doesn't text back but probably writes in a journal."

"lorenzo something?" sienna says. "zurzolo?"

I blink. "that's not a real name."

"it is. i googled."

noor scrolls. "they're filming something. or pretending to. i don't know, their posts are mostly blurry cigarettes and sad boy captions."

I shake my head. "he's probably one of those guys who thinks falling in love is a personality flaw."

"oh, so your type," sienna smirks.

i threw a cheeto at her. but she ate it.

"awh, sienn! that was supposed to poke ur eye!"

we spend the next twenty minutes dissecting song lyrics, listening to the bridge of vicious on loop, and making fake tweets about the album drop. noor and sienna argue over whether track nine will make people fall in love or break up. i think it might do both.

and just when I start to feel the tiniest bit grounded, my phone buzzes again. a dm. from jude.

jude.callahan

hey rorsie!

rome is overrated. kinda.

you'd love the espresso

also, my friend saw your album cover

he asked me who u were

should i tell him you're emotionally unstable or let him find out the fun way?

i pause.

i don't know why the message makes me pause, but it does.

maybe it's the idea of someone—someone i don't know, who doesn't know me—looking at that picture and asking who i am.

'but aurora, you're famous! you have photoshoots every month! meh meh meh!'– shush. its not like that.

either way, i pretend i don't care.

i crack my knuckles like i'm about to write the declaration of independence, and type:

auroraavery

hi judey! tell your friend i am a poet. a danger. a menace to emotionally weak men.

i need no one.

i've transcended the concept of man.

also, is he cute?

i'm asking for science

i throw my phone on the couch and scream into a pillow.

"you're unwell," sienna says from the floor, painting her nails some shade of blood red called 'unbothered but petty.'

"i'm deeply mysterious," i say, muffled.

noor, perched at my kitchen island with a mug of tea she didn't ask to make, raises her eyebrows. "you're five minutes away from texting your ex just to say 'lol.'"

"that's not true," i say.

my phone buzzes. i grab it.

jude.callahan

he's italian.

do with that what you will.

i throw my phone again.

"you are so loud without saying anything," noor says.

sienna snorts. "what do we think? does italian mean hot or emotionally detached?"

"yes," we both say.

we pass the time with a lot of nothing: watching old music videos, re-reading tweets about my album, googling ourselves (a mistake), and building a fake ranking system for who's most likely to cry when vicious drops.

noor bets sienna will cry first.

sienna says it'll be noor.

i say it'll be the man who inspired the song.

because that man deserves to cry.

deeply.

in public.

11:57pm.

i'm pacing. like. physically pacing. my phone's in my hand. the countdown is on. the app is open. i've chewed off half my thumbnail and am considering removing the song from the release entirely.

"what if it's too much?" i ask.

"it is," sienna says. "but that's the point."

"what if they hate it?"

"then we riot," noor shrugs. "but babe... they won't."

the three of us go quiet. not a normal quiet. a heavy, buzzing, electric kind of quiet.

11:59.

i'm going to combust.

midnight.

it drops.

the first note plays. and suddenly, the world is on fire.

"one year, ten thousand bad moments."

sienna gasps.

noor grabs her own chest like she's been personally victimized.

i sit down.

my phone explodes. notifications like bullets. twitter. texts. dms. even my mom sends a heart emoji and something that made me giggle.

mumma

❤️

hope this one isn't about your father.

someone tags me in a tiktok that says,

i told aurora about my ex and she wrote vicious because i didn't had the words.

another says, she said poetic rage. she said lipstick revenge. she said cry about it, king.

the stream counter ticks up.

the first tear falls—noor's.

"called it," sienna mutters, eyes suspiciously glassy.

i smile. just a little.

it's out there.

and i think i'm ready for what comes next.

maybe.

(hopefully.)

probably not.

i wake up to the sound of noor trying to butter toast with the blunt edge of a knife and cursing under her breath like the bread personally offended her.

my throat is dry. my mascara is under my eye. my song is on the radio.

it takes me three seconds to realize i'm not dreaming.

four to remember what day it is.

five to scream.

sienna bolts upright from my couch. noor drops the toast. i launch myself at my phone like i'm auditioning for a marvel movie. it's vibrating so violently i'm pretty sure it's going to catch fire.

i'm tagged in exactly 8,972 instagram stories.

my tiktok mentions are full of edits, crying girls in hoodies, and one video of a girl pouring wine into a cereal bowl with "vicious" playing in the background.

the damn vibes.

trending #3 worldwide: "vicious by rory avery"

trending #6: "aurora said cry about it king"

trending #12: "she wasn't subtle. we support that."

i sit down on the kitchen stool and blink.

"so... people like it," noor says carefully.

i look up from my phone, eyes wide. "people get it."

"you said 'you don't feel remorse, you don't feel the effects' and the world said me too, babe," sienna adds, stretching like she's not wearing my robe and stealing my post-breakup thunder.

someone texts me.

yslcowboy

ur sick for this song

i'm proud of u and also scared of u

you free for a rooftop thing tonight or are u too busy making men cry in traffic

i grin.

tucker's been my friend since before the eyeliner and heartbreak. we once got locked in a studio for 14 hours and came out with one half-decent demo and a 2am food poisoning incident. real bonding stuff.

rorsie

oh my god harry styles?

miss u already.

rooftop sounds sexy

send me the time!!

he sends back a voice note that's mostly him laughing and calling me unhinged. love language.

it's 10:30 a.m. and my phone has not stopped once.

people from high school are texting me like we didn't have beef in 2017. influencers i've never met are using "vicious" in their thirst trap reels. my cousin from naples sent me a video of her dog howling to the chorus. honestly? i respect the range.

i open my dms just to feel something and—

mistake.

huge mistake.

it's a war zone in there.

verified people. actors. rappers. a blue check from someone who dated a jenner and probably thinks he invented feminism. a tiktok boy with 7.8 million followers just sent, "u single?" with a vampire emoji.

i consider deleting the app and starting over as a florist.

but then—i see it.

jude.callahan

rorsss

your song came on in a rome cafe

lorenzo heard it

he didn't say anything

he just stared at the speaker.

do with that what you will

my stomach does something weird. flippy.

i don't know him. i don't fucking know him.

but somehow the image of a quiet boy in rome, listening to my voice come through a speaker like it's a secret, makes me sit up straighter.

just for a second.

"who's got your attention?" noor asks, mouth full of toast crumbs.

"no one," i lie.

(i lie very badly.)

sienna smirks. "you've got your album out and the italians are already acting up."

noor claps once. "queen behavior."

"and then rooftop later?" sienna asks.

"only if there's fun," i say.

only if i can pretend the world isn't looking at me too closely.

only if i don't think too hard about the boy in rome who didn't say anything.

by 1 p.m., my day has spiraled.

in a good way. a wild, surreal, maybe-i-need-meds kind of way.

sienna left after breakfast to "emotionally recover" from track eight. noor stole my hoodie and declared herself "in a post-vicious coma." and i have changed outfits three times trying to look effortlessly famous without screaming "please tell me i'm pretty."

i settle on baggy jeans, vintage sunglasses, and a tank top that says "this is me being normal" which feels like a lie but looks hot.

i walk out of my apartment to a wall of flashing lights and at least six men with cameras who say my name like they know me. one yells, "rory, who's 'vicious' about?" and another goes, "you made my girlfriend cry last night!"

"tell her i said sorry," i call back, slipping into my car.

the driver, max, gives me a look in the rearview mirror like you're not normal anymore, are you?

i shrug. "don't worry. i peaked in high school."

by 2:30 i'm sitting in a tiny studio with neon lights, a lapel mic clipped to my top, and a publicist whispering in my ear: "just keep it light. don't mention the ex. smile. you know the drill."

"i've been media trained within an inch of my life," i whisper back.

the interviewer is cute. too enthusiastic. clearly just heard "vicious" this morning and is pretending it didn't emotionally devastate her.

"aurora avery," she beams, "the girl of the moment."

i blink. "i've always wanted to be that."

"so 'vicious'... first of all, ouch. second of all, who hurt you?"

i laugh. "just say you relate and go."

she grins. "was there a specific line that you were scared to release?"

i pause.

"probably the one where i said, 'everyone thinks you're an angel,'" i say. "there's a certain amount of people who think he's an angel.. pretty obvious who the song is about."

she visibly gasps.

"bold," she says.

"true," i reply.

i leave the interview to find five texts from noor that say, "YOU BROKE THE INTERNET." and one from sienna that says, "you looked hot. the host wanted to cry. i approve."

my driver doesn't even ask where to now. he already knows.

rooftop. tucker.

by 6 p.m., i'm standing on a rooftop with a drink in hand, pretending not to notice the skyline turning gold behind me. tucker's already there, leaning against the railing like a tortured poet, wearing sunglasses at sunset and eating crumbl cookies.

"sorry," he says, hugging me. "my girl just dropped an album that ruined my trust issues. i'm in mourning."

"shut up," i laugh into his hoodie. "you love it."

"i do. i cried. and then i listened again. and cried better the second time."

i roll my eyes. "you're so dramatic."

"says the woman who dropped a diss track disguised as art."

we clink drinks. i sip. the sun dips lower. for a second, i forget about the cameras, the noise, the fact that half the world now thinks i'm out for emotional blood.

"you know you're trending on four apps, right?" tucker says. "and two group chats i'm in."

"i know," i sigh. "i saw a tweet that said 'aurora avery makes music for girls who could destroy you and look good doing it.'"

he snorts. "so true."

"someone else said i'm the reason their boyfriend apologized for something he hasn't done yet."

he raises his glass. "to preemptive apologies."

"tuck.." i said sighing. "do you think i'm unhinged," i ask, sipping the last of my drink and giving tucker my best innocent doe-eyed main character in a messy movie look.

"absolutely," he says, without hesitation. "but in a way that's marketable."

"thank you," i reply. "i worked hard on that."

"it shows. you've got main pop girl breakdown energy. very 'i write songs, not apologies.'"

"very 'i'm doing fine, actually, shut up.'"

"very 'you'll regret this once i'm wearing a hot outfit and posting cryptic captions.'"

we pause. then both say at the same time:

"'it's not about you.'"

and then we dissolve into full-body laughter.

tucker wipes fake tears. "i hate you."

"you love me."

"only because it's court-mandated."

i lean against the railing, staring out at the city. "you'd miss me if i vanished."

"i'd throw a parade."

"you'd spiral."

"i'd thrive."

"you'd be in my comments crying."

he turns, looks me dead in the eye. "you know what i'd comment?"

"what?"

"'this u?'"

he pulls out his phone and pretends to scroll.

you're evil."

"you wrote 'vicious' and released it on purpose. i learned from the best."

tucker stretches and sits on the ledge like a certified indie boy. "alright. real question."

"hit me."

"what's next?"

i exhale. look up at the sky like the answer might be up there, just hanging between clouds and delusion.

"i think i wanna disappear for a sec," i admit. "like. not forever. just long enough to feel normal again."

"normal's boring," he says.

"yeah, but it's also... quiet. no cameras. no dms. no strangers knowing what my heartbreak sounds like."

he's quiet for a beat. not in the way most people are, but in the way only people who get it can be. he's not trying to fix it. he's just there.

"you could come to mine for a few days," he offers. "lay low. write sad girl music in peace."

"and by peace you mean?"

"me waking you up at 2am to show you demos no one asked for."

i smile. "tempting."

"think about it," he says, hopping off the ledge. "we could make another song. you could break another man."

"i'm doing god's work," i nod solemnly.

"saint aurora of heartbreak. protect us."

we bow our heads in fake prayer.

the sun's almost gone now. golden hour fading into something a little colder, a little quieter. the rooftop is fuller, louder, but it still feels like just us up here.

"you're doing good, rory," tucker says suddenly, real serious.

i glance over. "you too."

we both pretend we didn't get a little soft for half a second.

he bumps my shoulder.

"alright. now let's go inside before someone recognizes you and starts crying about their ex. again."

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I saw a post on tumblr that said rhaenyra's usurpation was her own fault and was also the cause of no woman taking the throne and it is literally the stupidest, most nonsensical thing a person could write. At aegon’s name day in episode three lady Redwyne said to rhaenyra “your dear uncle is the great mind behind this war [..] since you supplanted him as heir” implying that if the heir had remained daemon, a man known for his violence and impulsiveness, the kingdom would not have gone to war. So she is assuming that even such a man is better than a female heir for the kingdom. Later on in the same episode otto said to alicent “it wouldn't matter if she were Jaehaerys himself born again, rhaenyra is a woman” and in this time rhaenyra did nothing of the action she is been blamed in the attempt of justify her usurpation. So in both of these situations, people think that a male born should step over rhaenyra even if daemon proved himself unfit to the throne and aegon is still a child.

When aegon grow up the people who support his claim on the throne did not do it because they were genuinely convinced that he will be a better king than rhaenyra (this part is similar in the book and in the show, aegon is a men who spend his day drinking and visiting brothel so he never gave the chance to anyone to think he is going to be a good ruler) but they support him because he is a male. These are a couple of quote from fire and blood said by lord borros and jasper wylde:

He had nothing against women, Lord Borros went on; he loved his girls, a daughter is a precious commodity... but a son, ahh, should the gods ever wish to grant him one of his own blood, storm’s end would pass to him, not to his sisters. "Why should it be any different for the Iron Throne?"

otto was executed and after him was Iron Rod, who continued to insist to the last that, according to the law, the king's son must nevertheless come before his daughter.

Could rhaenyra have made better choices in her path? Certainly. Would she have been preserved from usurpation? Absolutely not because the war was based solely on sex, not choices. Rhaenyra could have followed her duties and been a good princess but the war would still have taken place because she is a woman. She is not the reason why after the dance no one named a daughter as heir/no queen took the throne, but the reason for this is that no king would have taken responsibility for such a choice in the presence of a living male heir knowing how bloody and ruthless the dance of the dragon was (when there wasn't a male heir, a female can took the throne, as cersei did on got)

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💫 Analysing Richtofen - Blood of the Dead ✨

✨ This instalment of 'Analysing Richtofen is part of an ask I got about the map 'Blood of the Dead'! Therefore, we will not be spinning a wheel this time, but we'll have fun anyway! ✨

✨ The last time we met, we were in the frosty air of Der Riese. I suppose it's only fitting to go from one extreme to the other. We will shortly find ourselves at the unfortunate end, but fear not! We still have many a map to cover after this!✨

NOTE: I do not always have the context of which these lines are said. The context and lore, while sometimes relevant, are not completely the point. This is looking more into Richtofen's mental state, current situation and any other tidbits he might drop!

💫 Now, let's get right into it! 💫

MAP: Blood of the Dead!

(TW: Character death. )

Here are all the videos I have referenced! For your convenience, I have listed them here and I urge you to show support to the original creators of said videos!

ONE - Youtube short of Richtofen's first quote on BotD, and also a few extra lines said around his lab and in certain areas of the map.

TWO - Youtube short of Richtofen's second quote on BotD, as well as some extra lines.

THREE - A video of all the conversations between Richtofen and the rest of the crew on BotD. Skip to 1:31 to avoid all the yap at the start!

FOUR - A video of all of Richtofen's quotes on BotD

💫 We find ourselves now in the freezing cold climate of Dr. Richtofen's lab. To your right, you'll see four cryo-chambers. For your safety, I urge you not to touch them, and not to ask questions about the human popsicles inside. They are fine, they like it in there. To your left, a bit further inside, you'll see a very useful map of Alcatraz! Right now, we are just underneath the ground, and the main building is up the stairs, out of the first door and up past the catwalk. And there, punctual as always, is Richtofen! ✨

"MAXIS! Stop it, Edward, this may be just a delusion- It must be! Surely I would never lead myself into such a...Such a... [Gasp!] Mein Gott, everything could change!" (ONE)

✨ Ah...I promise all 'Analysing Richtofen' instalments won't start like this, but he is unfortunately right. Just as before, we can tell that he is under immense stress, his first instinct once more is to call out to his father figure. This line is also shouted when he starts his journey alone. Richtofen is a man who isn't great at being vulnerable with others unless he's being self deprecating, so no matter what he might say later on, we know that he is in sheer panic. Who wouldn't be when they are stuck in a demented pocket dimension that demands for their death?

"Damn it, Edward, think! Yes, this looks bad, but something can be done! Any book that rewrites itself can be rewritten! First rule of interdimensional time travel! (nervous laughter that quickly diminishes into a concerned and conflicted sigh.) I'm so confused..." (TWO)

It's heart-breaking, hearing him do his damndest to cheer himself up and keep himself optimistic. In such a dire situation, is it really any wonder that his attempt fizzled out so quickly? He has used the kronorium to get himself this far, so having it suddenly re-write itself is like having the rug yanked out from under his feet. For perhaps the first time in this story line, we see him actively losing control over the situation, his leadership crumbling. ✨

✨ While we're in his lab, there are two things I wish to call attention to. The first, are those cryo-chambers! Again, don't touch them. When looking around his lab, Richtofen has this to say about them.

"Ahh, you have all remained safe for so long, mein little popsicles. Perhaps you could be of use? Hmph...Nein, I much prefer you all this way." (ONE)

✨ Here, this is confirmation that the Primis Richtofen we are playing as is the same Primis Richtofen we saw in the Victis crew comic run! Which is interesting, no? But the more important thing here is that he hasn't given up hope, not yet. The doctor is thinking on his feet, already starting to improvise and adapt. Despite seeing his death in the kronorium, Richtofen is still determined to evade it once more.

"(Chuckles,) bless you, little walnut. You always help me to calm mein nerves und think." (ONE)

✨ Not only is this a nod to the original lore in which Ultimis Richtofen first sees success in his teleporter work by teleporting a tiny walnut, but it also tells us that Richtofen has actually spent a lot of time in this lab. Presumably, he teleports the walnut from place to place while thinking, pacing back and forth while using the walnut to ground him. A lot is on his shoulders, now more than ever, and he has a little stress reliver to aid him. This also would imply that he got further than his Ultimis counterpart did with teleportation, being able to actually control where the walnut goes! But anyway -

✨ Rather than delving into Richtofen's voice lines only, there's actually some information we ca gather from their conversations as group and amongst themselves, Dempsey, Nikolai, Takeo and Richtofen! ✨

(This is the first exchange in THREE.)

"Okay, change of plan! We should be looking for the other Nikolai, but apparently, I have messed it up. When I say 'I,' I mean him...Me"

"What now, German? Surely you do not seek to torture me further. I know all too well what lies ahead."

"Enough riddles, Richtofen! Have I not already given you enough: My blade, my honour, my soul?!"

"Everybody just pull your shit together, or I'm gonna start freakin' out too!"

✨ In this exchange, we can see that rather than doing what he wants to do, cry out for Maxis, Richtofen instead puts the mission above himself once again and assumes the leader role of the group. Instead of following him with minimal complaint like usual, everyone understandably begins to unravel. Namely, Takeo and Dempsey seem the most impacted, while Nikolai's anger has yet to rise to a boiling point. In the next part of their discussion, Richtofen is unusually quiet until Takeo calls his behaviour into question. ✨

(This is the second exchange in THREE)

"So, let me see if I understand. Richtofen copied entire plan from special book, special book change its mind, and now it wants, what, our blood?"

"Of course, we all heard the Doctor: fate now demands our blood as well. I have never seen Richtofen this way...The threat is real."

(Dempsey's line isn't really super important here. Sorry Dempsey.)

"[AHEM!] Gentlemen, please, calm yourselves! You must forgive me, I...I forget how frustrating I can be sometimes. (nervous chuckle.) Nevermind the kronorium or this silly blood business. I have something entirely new in mind."

💫 Interestingly, Richtofen has just lied to his team as we will see later, but one of the more important things here is that loud clearing of his throat. Being read so easily by Takeo has him feeling uncomfortable, and his immediate response is to turn on the self deprecation and assure the team he has a plan. Again, we will see this later, but he has just lied to his team, this alone tells us that he cares about them. If not, why would he attempt to assure them with a lie while he himself is spiralling on the inside? Why would he demean the severity of the situation in the process? This is something he does more than once. When he watched each of them kill their ultimis counterparts in cycles before, it was those moments that made him realise that he did actually care about them, he admits this to us himself. This is no different. Suddenly the stakes of his situation are raised too, adding more weight on his shoulders. This is one thing that I don't see enough people talking about when it comes to his character- Is he selfish? yes, he can be. But, he does care, and he does actually show it in his own ways. He isn't someone who enjoys being vulnerable, so you do need to squint to see it, but there is more to Richtofen than just avoiding death and helping Maxis. He really is trying hard to do the right thing.

For another example of him minimizing just how much trouble they're in for the other's comfort, we need to look no further than the next conversation the team have about The Warden. ✨

(This is the third exchange in THREE)

"Richtofen knew exactly who that monster in cell block was, I could see it in his stupid, wide open face!"

"Yeah, that big guy with the club? Was he a prison guard or something?"

"That thing was no ordinary guard, I believe he was an agent of a much darker force."

"The Warden. I have known him to take many forms, each one used to torture the souls of both the damned, and the doomed. He's...Not very nice."

✨ This time it's Nikolai who calls him out very aggressively. Rather than talking to the whole group, it seems Nikolai was talking to Dempsey first, then Takeo jumped in, and then Richtofen overheard and jumped in to set the story straight. Notice how he isn't angry, despite Nikolai's insult. He might be used to the russian's anger, but this is different, I feel. I believe Richtofen understands the anger, and so can't really argue with it. Even still, he simply states The Warden is 'Not very nice,' rather than admitting that actually, The Warden is an immense threat. Once again, he is choosing almost childish words to describe what's happening, diminishing the danger to calm the others- We know it isn't for himself because we have seen how he is when he's on his own in his lab. If he truly didn't care for his team, this would be unexplainable. As would his words to Dempsey, where he yet again uses childish words in an attempt at comfort.

(THREE - 3:43)

"So, this 'Warden' guy, any idea why he'd wanna trap us here?"

"What do mad men ever want? ...That was rhetorical- But, just for the record: We are not 'trapped,' Dempsey, simply confined to one place, against our will! But it's not permanent. Pinky promise!"

For as hard as he tries, anyone will crack when they're pushed too hard. The more Dempsey keeps digging, the weaker Richtofen's resolve gets, until he can't sugar coat things anymore. ✨

(THREE - 4:19)

"Richtofen, I know your plan's probably way over my head, and I know I'll forget half of it later, but you gotta gimmie somethin'"

"There is no plan, Dempsey. Is that what you wish to hear? We were supposed to pop in, get the blood, und leave. But, things have changed. Now we must improvise und adapt! You are a marine, surely you can manage that."

✨ And here we are, the lie is revealed. But I find his next words much more interesting: 'Is that what you wish to hear?' When his first approach hasn't worked, Richtofen gets irritated, unable to curve his words, but his irritation isn't at his situation, it's at Dempsey...In a way. Dempsey wasn't soothed by his childish words and sugar coated lies, so now what? He was unable to lull his unlikely friend into a false sense of security, and I believe his irritation is a sign that he sees it as his own failure. So, he improvises and tries something else. Richtofen calls on Dempsey's military position, trying to use that to inspire him. The thing I want to call attention to now though, is what he isn't saying. Do you hear it? Listen to his line again, and focus on his breathing. He loses his breath after 'changed,' panting under his breath. At just the smallest admission that things are out of his control, he can't hide his panic anymore. With this tiny detail, we can begin to imagine just how heavy the weight on his own soul is.

The next interactions I want to call attention to are between Richtofen and Nikolai. Nikolai has never trusted Richtofen from the start. He has always questioned the steps the crew have taken, he has always stood against Richtofen's authority, and now, in this eternal hell, we get to see how Nikolai really feels. We also get to see that these two are actually divas in disguise, but that is less important and more just...Well, them.✨

(THREE - 4:46 )

"I see your accusing glances, Nikolai. Is there something you wish to say to me?"

"Why bother? That is what you always say, ehh? All will be forgotten anyway."

The gloves are coming off- And I don't just mean that they're being catty with each other. Nikolai has been glancing to Richtofen, likely glaring daggers into the man's back, and he finally can't keep his rage to himself anymore. This also gives us some insight into what Richtofen has been doing when he wants to avoid a conversation: Diminish the importance of the conversation and insist that it will all be forgotten anyway, what, with the constant element 115 exposure.

(THREE - 5:14 )

"So, this Warden, he needs your special blood, dah? Maybe three of us make side deal and just, hmph, give it to him."

"The moment you travelled through space und time, your blood became special as well. No, my dear Nikolai. Any attempt to bargain with The Warden would not go well for you."

The girls are really fighting now! Nikolai's core values are based on what he views as fair and right, he also has no issue working with the others, even when they bicker! (For example, him and Dempsey's 'Draw me map of fucking Chicago!' exchange.) So, for Nikolai of all people to be so open about throwing Richtofen out to the proverbial wolves, it would make sense that it would rattle the scientist. Instead, though, Richtofen indirectly threatens to drag Nikolai down with him should that ever be attempted, and it evidently works. Though, I don't believe this was just a threat. When talking about watching the crew kill their counterparts, he doesn't go out of his way to exclude Nikolai, and I think there's truth in what he says here. It's a threat, but also a well intentioned warning. Despite their animosity, I don't truly believe that Richtofen wants any genuine harm to come to Nikolai. ✨

✨ In this next exchange, they stop being catty with each other and get to the heart of the matter:

(THREE - 5:36 )

"Richtofen, I cannot stay silent- YOU DO NOT HAVE PLAN! For once in your life, admit it, and tell us what we are facing!"

"ANNIHILATION, AS ALWAYS! If I believed for an instant, that you could comprehend so much as a PHRASE in the Kronorium, I would hand it over! But, no. That is MEIN burden to bare! My way, Nikolai, is the only way."

✨ Do you hear the tiredness in his voice? When soothing doesn't work, Richtofen rips the band aid off with Nikolai and gives him the unfiltered truth. I don't believe that he is trying to keep a hold of his control here, I don't think he's worried about Nikolai taking control of the crew. I think this is an honest admission that in keeping the Kronorium close to his chest, he believes that he is protecting the group. Nikolai's words later on in Alpha Omega only reinforce this, he finally concedes to Richtofen for once, finally seeing eye to eye with him once he reads the Kronorium himself. He even choses to make the same choice as Richtofen, keeping it close to his chest and not letting anyone else read it. How funny it is, then, that no one seems to mention that when comparing the two to call one of them selfish... ✨

✨ Finally, the last thing we see from Richtofen here is in his conversations with Takeo. Specifically, I want to focus on this one. Takeo is the only one who uses logic to call Richtofen out. He doesn't push, he isn't insulting, and Richtofen has been pushed and shoved so much by this point that he actually snaps at Takeo, the one in the group that he seems to like the most.

( THREE - 6:26 )

"The spirits of this island awaken in your presence, Richtofen. It seems as though they desire something from you."

"Doesn't everyone? The voices of the damned and the doomed can get in line, behind you three, The Warden, The Keepers, und the numerous other Richtofen's now placing demands on. My. Time!"

✨ Through his irritation and anger, we are finally seeing Richtofen be vulnerable with the others, but it isn't by his choice and it certainly isn't comfortable for him. I find the rest of his conversations with Takeo interesting too, but for the sake of time, I won't focus on those. But I do urge you to if you're at all interested!!

We have seen Richtofen lie, put on a brave face, be begrudgingly honest, and now as he stands in a prison cell, we see him finally crack. Unable to take any more, Richtofen allows himself to show how hopeless he is. ✨

"(Defeated laughter.) Mein 'grand scheme?' Und what if I told you we were doomed from the start? That every word in that infernal book has come to pass, und we have been helpless to alter it? What would you have done, Marine? Tell me, please, what was the right thing to do?!" (FOUR - 2:18)

✨ Really, that's what it's always been about, hasn't it? Doing the 'right thing.' Here, he, albeit a touch sarcastically, begs Dempsey to try and see things from his point of view, asking him for his perspective. Richtofen is at the end of his rope and the weakness in his voice here shows it. This is the most vulnerable we've ever seen him.

There are plenty of lines showing us just how scared he is- Even The Warden calls him out on it. He states he can hear (the blood) in his veins, pumping faster and faster. But now, I think I'd like to point to some more light hearted fun little facts that Richtofen drops while fighting for his life, to cap off this entry! ✨

"Chemistry was always mein first love, haah, but then physics came shwept me off mein feet." (FOUR - 3:47)

(At FOUR - 4:00, Richtofen shows off his hidden talent of being able to recognize acids just by their scent alone!)

"This glass here, it's a window into the astral plane! I have always wondered how the other side spends it's time!" (FOUR - 5:11) To me, this is actually quite a sad line despite his enthused tone. Richtofen has been thinking about the other side because deep down, he knows he can't keep running forever.

"Should your eyes be that colour? I can never keep track..." (FOUR - 5:50) A reference to how the zombie's eyes keep changing colour depending on who's controlling them.

(Richtofen calls the wolves on the map 'Wolfie," which is actually quite cute!)

"I can build a particle accelerator from spare parts, but I can't nail- ONE BOARD STRAIGHT!" (FOUR - 6:23)

(At 7:25, the implication here is that Richtofen can in fact speak French too?)

"Go on box, leave me. Wherever you go, I will hunt you down, pry open your lid, UND RIP MEIN PRECIOUS WUNDERWAFFE FROM YOUR INSIDES!" (FOUR - 8:06) I was always wondering what Primis Richtofen's connection with the Wunderwaffe was, and now we know!

"Why should anything go well, Ja?! Let the whole cosmos collapse- The Doktor, is DONE!" (FOUR - 8:17) A very valid crash out.

"There now, just a short stroll to the main cell block. Up, up, up!" (FOUR - 11:51) Another example of him using childish language and phrasing to minimize the scope of the danger that they're all in.

"(Laughter) Just like rubbing mein socks on the carpet to give a shock! Only about a trillion volts more fun!" (FOUR - 15:39) I am assuming that Richtofen did this as a child, which is actually kind of sweet!!

"Nikolai, did you make this? Because it tastes like you made this." (FOUR - 17: 15) This implies that the crew have made drinks for each other before! It's a nice thought until you remember how limited their resources must have been.

"Has anyone heard the one about the quantum physicist who lost his cat? ...I'm honestly asking. Exposure to element 115 seems to have erased it from mein memory." (FOUR - 21:42) This is a reference to Shrodinger's cat!! So yes, Richtofen, we have heard that one!!

"I promised mein Mutter I'd never play with fire again. Sorry, Mutter." (FOUR - 22:10) . . . So, this one...There's a story there, that's all I'll say.

"I felt the shock in mein wisdom teeth- UND I PULLED THEM OUT WHEN I WAS TWELVE!" (FOUR - 24:42) ...Jesus Christ-

💫 ...What? You're still scrolling like you're expecting something! We went over him being vulnerable, his relationship with the other's on the map, was there anything else you were expecting? I don't believe we missed anything! ✨

...

...Alright, fine, we'll move on to his death...If we must...

After trying his best to avoid it for so long, Richtofen finally embraces his fate and steps into 'The Dark Mechanism.' Even in certain death, he takes a grand stand: "YOU WANT MEIN BLOOD? TAKE MEIN BLOOD!" We know how scared he has been, and that makes the needles that stab into him hurt even more. The spirits might be free, but the cost is so much more than we could have expected. As Nikolai is handed the Kronorium from the new version of Richtofen, the one we have been following all this time is watching with us as a new leader of Primis is chosen. The power shifts.

Rapidly approaching death, Primis Richtofen struggles against the machine, calling out in the weakest voice we have ever heard him use. He doesn't even have the strength to speak above more than a whisper as he mutters for the last time: "Mein Gott...What have I done?"

And now, in a somewhat poetic fashion, the new version of him that we have just met comes face to face with him, and Primis Richtofen begins to beg. He has come way too far, done way too much, it can't all end here. He betrayed himself first by shooting his counterpart in the head. He was then betrayed by another version of himself at the start of this map. And now, he is about to be betrayed by yet another version of himself. The Primis Richtofen that we know is about to find out what exactly his place is in the cycle, and we are about to see that he is the personification of 'Ouroboros,' the snake that eats itself. Each time a variant of him dies, each time he is destroyed, it gives way to birth something new. Truly, this is always what it's been about. It wasn't the choices he made, it wasn't the company he kept, nor his dedication to doing 'the right thing.' Every choice he made led him here, finding his end in the seemingly endless cycle of Richtofen's while trying to keep the overall cycle of the universe going. Death is rebirth, death is change, but death is also cold.

I don't think his last words need any explaining. There is nothing more I could possibly add to give his last speech any new meaning. All through this entry, I've been speaking for him, so for once, I'm going to simply let him speak for himself.

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