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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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very important research
#cunty ah cowboy#what is he researching you may ask#he's studying the relationship between the angle of body leaning and cuntiness#its a positive correlation#honkai star rail#hsr#dr ratio#veritas ratio#boothill#my art
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ROBERT WUN Couture Spring/Summer 2024 if you want to support this blog consider donating to:ko-fi.com/fashionrunways
#robert wun#fashion#runway#detail#couture#couture spring#couture spring 2024#spring summer#spring summer 2024#2024#color: red#since yall were asking about this design#i have no idea what it's made with lmao but it's very ahs
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jason, coming back from the dead and seeing tim as robin: how could bruce replace me? how could he give robin to someone else?
dick, who created robin in honor of his dead parents and then had bruce take it away and give it to jason without even asking him:
#no hate to jason it’s not his fault bruce is emotionally inept#bruce: ah yes let me take away my teenage son’s coping mechanism that he made to honor his parents#and without asking or telling him give it to a random child i adopted#who has never met him before#and not explain the significance of the name or costume at all#LIKE#HOW TF DID HE THINK THAT WAS OKAY???#dc comics#dc#dcu#batman comics#jason todd#dick grayson#tim drake#bruce wayne#robin#robin!dick#robin!jason#robin!tim#red hood#nightwing#batman
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my comic from the @neverturnbackzine! truly one of my favorite zines i've been a part of :]
some extra insight/fun facts about the process of this piece below the cut 💥💥💥
posting pieces from collaborative zines is always something i struggle with because i look back and think of how i would do things differently now, but i learned a lot working on this comic and even developed some style techniques that i still use!
Fun Fact 1: the panel where shadow Fucking Disintegrates That Guy is technically traditionally drawn! i couldn't get it right in clip studio so i just started frantically scribbling in a notebook and got it eventually lol
highly highly recommend scribbling stuff out in a notebook, scanning it on your phone, and then dropping it into a canvas to edit later if you ever have trouble sketching something.
Fun Fact 2: a lot of the overlay/background effects were made in Kid Pix Deluxe 3D. i created a whole collection of various textures/abstract effects for this comic that i've been using in my art since last year. you can even find them scattered through my team dark zine lol. here's a few of them:
similarly, the background at the bottom of page 2 is actually a warped photo i took of a bunch of headphone wires. this is the original:
Fun Fact 3: i made this comic during a very busy and wild period of time last year so this is what the final panel looked like for a while before i fully finished it LMAO
ok yay thanks for reading bye
#ah yes the comic that i kept showing to my friends for notes and asking “hey guys is this even REMOTELY comprehensible”#very fun to work on! learned a lot :] for context i finished this in july of last year#fern's sketchbook#eyestrain#sth#shadow the hedgehog
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Oh hey, there's a poppy corn plant over there!
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As a writer who doesn't often read other fics because of personal preferences, but also to focus on my own and spend a lot of time writing something completely to my own exact tastes instead I gotta ask
(This is specifically about long-fics, but short fics can work too)
Personally, I have specific preferences/squicks that make it hard for me to read certain things and prefer to write what I like instead of looking for it in other places (That's not to say that it can't be found! I just find writing it to be a lot more satisfying)
#brought to you by: talking to someone about how i instantly click out of things if there's something i dont vibe with#whether its relationship dynamics or otherwise#I could more into deph about what specific things i dont like when reading things but i'd gotta be asked for specifically for it#or ill feel rude lmao#nothing controversal just small things that make me go Ah No Thanks#sara shush
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WAIT WAIT WAIT-
So Sun is taking us home,right?
HOW DOES HE KNOW WHERE WE LIVE??😱
Oooor did he knew from the very beginning of their friendship and reader just told him where they lived in case of an emergency.
Oooooor I am just missing something.
Either way I am intrigued in whatever story you're going with.
But you know what? I'd be kinda funny if he didn't knew the location and then realized he has no fricking idea in hell where to go💀
I'm imagining it went more or less like this after Chapter 15:
He had no idea. (Luckily he managed to shake you awake for long enough to mumble your adress. You don't remember this happening though.)
#fnaf sun#love death and rollerskates#dca fandom#fnaf sun x reader#fnaf daycare attendant#ask#spadille draws#spadille speaks#ah there are so many silly little scenes like this that don't make it into the fic...
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👁️ 👁️ hey. I love your creepy moon
hey. i think he likes you too.
#ah!#he’s going in for the boop#um… i like ur art A LOT#like i rui rui like ur stuff 👁️👅👁️#so expressive#u make it look so easy#i get a lil harmonic pang in my chest when i see ur content#whatever that means lol#anyway i am honored that you sent me mail (via carrier pigeon)#also SRY I AM A MONTH BEHIND ON ASKS#if ur ask came after this time last month (which is everybody) im planning on doing a doodle or a more involved answer for it#art#ask#fnaf moon#fnaf dca#dca fandom#dca fanart#dca#fnaf fanart#fnaf#fanart#moondrop#the sketch for this took me hours for absolutely no reason#eyestrain
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Tiny skk adventures!
not like they're also cranky and tired and touch-starved
#tiny skk adventures#''why is chuuya at the ada'' you're asking too many questions. why is any of this happening.#this skk flavour (like most i offer) comes with a free choice of romantic platonic something in-between or whatever else you may want#but here the longing is mandatory#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#bsd fanart#bsd dazai#bsd dazai osamu#bsd chuuya#bsd nakahara chuuya#skk#soukoku#and friends#nawy's comics#AH DANG I FORGOT TO WRITE#dedicated to remi who's enabling me and bombarding me with ideas for the tinies
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ignore this if you want
what if Tim with Cat paws
or a little paw print on his cheek
sorry I'm just still obsessed with the booping from yesterday
i remember seeing a batman design where his gauntlets had paw beans for grip, so >:3c
#sart#asks#dc#yj#tim drake#with bonus peanut gallery#i feel bad tagging them tho#so ig#core four#ah the boops#gone too soon#anyway i will continue to push my red robin with claws agenda
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Do you have any advice for trying to avoid ripping off other people's works in original stories? I've been stuck in a weird writers block where anything I do to try and string plots together end up just being plots of other stuff I've read. Is that a problem you've come across before?
Honestly? This might be a hot take, but just get it out of your system. Write the story that's just your three favorite plots in a trenchcoat. Any writing will make you better at writing. To me, this is the storytelling equivalent of doing frame redraws or art style challenges. Art done for practice doesn't need to be free of all influence, and in fact pursuing that total originality is detrimental to the learning process because it forces you to continuously reinvent the wheel.
In my experience, through the process of just writing what you want to write how you want to write it, you'll find both that it's easier to find originality in the execution than you expected, and that originality has very little correlation with what makes a story good. When you go to write the plot you recognize as the plot of something else, you'll probably find yourself making changes. A different character moment to highlight an overlooked concept that spoke to you, a slightly more cruel twist of fate for a character to wrangle. Little original concepts will find their way in, because having ideas is the driving motivator behind creating art. It's always there, even if it's being sneaky or uncooperative.
Most of the time, inspiration is less "this story is good I think I'll replicate it in every detail" and more "I love parts A, B and C of this story, which tells me valuable information about the kinds of story elements I find compelling, which helps me guide my own writing towards things that involve the parts I like most about A, B and C." You'll always be able to recognize your own influences, but from the audience's external perspective, the you-ness that defines your art is much more obvious than it'll ever be to you.
#asks#writing stuff#sometimes I rewatch or reread something formative and just go 'ah fuck that was more influential than I realized'#and the trick is I have so so much fun piecing that together#my last reboot rewatch was a series of revelations I tell ya
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Summer vacation, 4am.
Tons of easter eggs in this one! Click the image to find them (and for better quality ofc)
Close ups and process shots under the cut, description in alt text
#it's all post canon of course#btw you can't see but the paper on the floor has an episode description written on it#it's ep 53.5 which I made up. what's the plot you ask? pure fluff and highschool shenanigans. these kids deserve it#check out Taylor's Matryoshka shirt and Linc's Garfield pullover :3#also the building on the right may or may not be a Sonic's distribution center#I love being not-usamerican and just going on google streetview to research the San Dimas area.. looking at parking lots going ''ah! I see'#also#this one took me literal months... the cart's perspective was so hard to get right#so I just sat and stared at it for a couple minutes - added a couple of lines and erased some others - and then closed off my sketchbook lo#dndads#dungeons and daddies#dndaddies#dndads s2#scary marlowe#lincon li wilson#link li wilson#normal oak#normally oak swallows garcia#normal oak garcia#taylor swift dungeons and daddies#taylor swift dndads#taylor swift not that one#my art#yuviur
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to a-ling, from xiao shushu
#jin ling#ah yes this classic#i asked my canto sister for a piece of herself so i can draw it and she trusted me#banger tbh#i do not understand lighting or a#ambient seclusion or wahtever#isnt this like the 3rd time ive reposted this ? hmmmm#ok i wont do it again. im keeping this acc
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I live for your JellyFish!Neil AU.
They are so cute, and I just want to protect them forever! Thank you for bringing these into the world! 🧡💜
THANK U FOR ENJOYING THEM 💕
#ah jellyneil. it has stolen little aarons leaf#and aaron knows hes gonna get stung#bc somehow a small child and a tinier jellyfish manage to have beef#aaron and neil worsties forever 💕#fan art#my art#aftg#all for the game#jellyneil#mer au#jellyneil au#asks
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katnep is the type of ship you'd expect nepeta to try really hard and dress all cutely and karkat be a bit more lazy and wear the same clothes BUT if we're all being honest karkat would absolutely dress up all fancy and nepeta would wear her usual clothes. karkat would go to kanaya in a heartbeat, kanaya would try to reach out to nepeta but nepeta will not comply.
bonus points if kanaya continues to try and make something pretty but also comfortable and fitting for nepetas tastes but it backfires because she then never takes it off and kanaya has to watch it very clearly become worn and ruined as nepeta rolls around in dirt. Kanaya accounted for that of course, but nepeta somehow surpassed her expectations anyways
i think youre totally completely right
#katnep#karnep#karkat#karkat vantas#nepeta#nepeta leijon#nepkat#hs#homestuck#liv safe#asks!#my art#art#hehe im in a pixely mood rn#but no i think youre so right#hard to imagine karkat not putting his whole romancussy into his partner < why did i say it like that#anything nep puts on shes immediately figuring out how to tear it so she can move more freely in it lmfao#bc no yeah like ah maybe karkat would put less effort in since in canon he's not crazy about her but like. if he were though?#and if nepeta was already comfortable with him and didnt feel the need to prove herself to him? cozy nepeta time#'karkat why are you wearing that. we have a roll in the dirt date today'#ill post this now but rb it in the morning since no ones gonna see it rn lmfao
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