#agony anguish pain

[clownprince]

anyway i thjnk the most fucked up thing about i am a gun is that bruce is fucking right. his mental version of joker is damn accurate. even so early on in his career he's able to see past joker's evil uncaring monster outer persona and recognize the human inside of him who's alone and afraid and hurting, who desperately wants to be saved but doesn't know how to be anything other than the joker. even if you disregard that "the last smile" story the tkj script makes it Quite Clear that joker very badly wants to accept batman's offer but he doesn't feel like rehabilitation is a viable option for him (for multiple reasons)

[featurefilms]

I Saw the TV Glow (2024) dir. Jane Schoenbrun

[life-imitates-art-far-more]

Giovanni Battista Tiepolo (1696-1770) "The Martyrdom of Saint Agatha" (c. 1756) Oil on canvas Rococo

[stormyoceans]

okay so who's gonna write the fic where phum comes down with a really high fever and ends up having nightmares about being left alone and all peem can do is holding him tight and stroking his hair and shushing him gently and repeating 'im here' over and over again

[saggernooseai]

dance above deck

[scarscardsandink]

have you ever had someone hurt you so badly

that anytime you let your mind wander to even the thought of it

it’s like you can physically feel it?

like inside your being burned and everything is being ripped down and shoved into the pit of your stomach?

-how am i supposed to get over it if i can’t even bear the slightest reminder of it?

[da-rum-darim-da]

part.

Your momentary kindness was a stabbing knife in me, twisting and bleeding me dry for all the times you weren't next to me. Couldn't you have taken more pity on me, if that was all that it took for you stay?

[bylertruther]

he has all these feelings and he can't find a way to express them in a way that mike can understand..... will just wanting to be understood by one of the people he loves most in this world.... the king of his heart, his very first and best friend, and his first love.... he wants to be known and loved for exactly who he is the very same way that he knows and loves mike for all that he is, but he doesn't know how to say the unspeakable.... i can't see through ym tears right now

[sweetsweetperil]

Lingering in the breeze

Velvet shutters through me

Pain and agony

In every breathe I could ever breathe

“Let it be,” he said,

“Set me free,” I screamed

But the winter has never felt so lonely

[fittlebottom]

I know I just posted about pip but back when I was waiting for my contacts to come in I was like very blind for a day or two. And during that time I only drew once. No joke this drawing, if you can even call it one, has taken over my life. I've thought about it everyday for almost a month straight.

Washing the dishes? Where the geese at. Folding laundry? Where the geese at. Trying to read? Where the geese at. Trying to draw? At least one Where the geese at clone made. I have had to stop during multiple conversations with friends and family to hold back a giggle if I'm even remotely reminded of this fucking image. When I drew it originally I genuinely thought I was the funniest person on the face of the planet and everyone else, every comic every comedian, would need to pack up and go back to Alaska. The worst part about it to me is that no one else gets it. It's a fucking inside joke with MYSELF. You know how the trolls guy when he got arrested said under his breathe "this is gonna ruin the tour..." quite literally I have done that so many times but with "where the geese at". I was giving my grandmother a pity visit because she's senile now and acts like she's still in the '60s. We were looking at a physical map and she said something along the lines of "where is *insert place from my county*" . I, without thinking, whispered under my breathe "where the geese at." And her, being the Christian woman she is, thought I was chanting the devils incantations. And now for the next 2 Sundays I have to go to church with her. ALL BECAUSE OF WHERE THE GEESE AT. PIP BERNADOTTE YOUVE RUINED MY LIFE I AM DONE FOR. Genuinely I feel as if I can't draw anymore because all I want to do is where the geese at. I feel like I'm being brainwashed by this fucking drawing. I'm not a religious person but I think I've been possessed by an evil spirit that just wants to make me miserable. I took a break from drawing for a few weeks after finishing a piece that left me very burnt out. You wanna know what brought me back? What motivated me to open up my program? I was going through where the geese at withdrawals. I only came back because I was getting angry at the fact I hadn't drawn where the geese at in days. I am addicted to this drawing like it's black tar heroin. Where the geese at has rotted my brain to the point of no return. It's only been a month of its life and so far it has only made mine worse and worse. I eat, sleep, breathe where the geese at. I feel the need to use my own tears as paint and draw where the geese at all over my metal enclosure. I see him everywhere I go. Thinking about it and writing this all out has made my face flush red with rage maybe? Frustration? Geese withdrawals? Lord please save me from this curse I cannot live like this.

I feel really bad if anyone reads this at all. I have no hellsing friends so I haven't been able to mourn my loss of sanity with context to anyone. I am very truly deeply sorry for anyone who reads my rants of a madman my dehydrated dying words.

Where the geese at amiright folks? I'll be here all night.

[aluvian]

Me every single time when I come to the part in the Berserk manga where Casca's mind gets restored, but she's still terrified of Guts.

[swordmaid]

pre travel anxiety taking me out so bad

[queenpanpan]

I FUCKING MISSED THE BOOP WAR BC I WAS TRICK OR TREATING THIS IS BULLSHIT

[wulfhalls]

Thinking about how in the script for the episode where Jon is crowned KITN the writers specifically write out that Jon is sitting in the seat Ned sat at and Sansa is sitting beside him "in the place where Catelyn used to sit" BABES WHAT WAS THE REASON. Also, the fact that Sansa is the one sitting beside Jon as he's made KITN.......the parallelism, the symbolism, the Solutmatism yeah I'm never going to recover.

thats another one for the jonsa was supposed to be canon but they got cold feet at the last second truthers part 466321

[anticoquette]

As soon as I think I’m ok, as soon as I feel fine everything comes crashing down again. There’s another reminder of this person. Another memory. It’s painful and it hurts because I can’t control it. I keep telling myself to sit with my emotions. Let them come and be as they are then take my time to get over it but I’m exhausted. I know I can’t put a timer on healing. Healing isn’t even my issue, it’s the agony. The agony that seems to keep resetting every week. I don’t want to spend more time on this. I told myself not to allow this to consume me but it’s eating me alive. It feels like I’m never going to get better. I know I will eventually. I know I’ll look back on this and be shocked at how helpless I feel. As of right now it’s all too much and still, all I can do is sit in the regret, anguish, resentment.

[voidedjuice]

i want 2 dress dapper and gnc but my bodytype is giving short & stubby medieval peasant woman so