#again thank you for being respectful

[thebottomfromhell]

why cant i post block that non con fic??? i love your fics dont get me wrong, but i dont want to see that!

Ok, this one is important. First things first, thank you for communicating this in a respectful way, I really appreciate it. Second, I am not an expert of tumblr, but if it helps I will put a "read more" after the warnings, since I want them to be displayed, I want people to know what they are reading or about to read and I fear that if they are not the first highlighted thing there is people will just skipt them (I know people do that, just press the "I am over 18" and don't see anything else. And tumblr doesn't let me show the specific warnings before that).

And I'm very sorry is this part sounds rude but if you don't want to see that post you don't have to. I know that post have sensitive content that some people will like, others don't. That is why I list specific warnings and write as clear as I can what the post is about before the actual writting. With this it will be easier to skipt, and as I appreciate that you show interest in my posts, I don't want you to watch content that is not of your liking just because I posted it.

Please, if you are aware of the content that is to be shown, you know you are sensitive or just don't like it, don't read. Reading takes effort, is easier to skipt some paragraphs than skipt images as avoiding to ingest the content. I'm sorry if this is not the answer you were looking for but I really prefer the first warnings are the specific ones instead of a "this work is for +18 people only" because I am yet to find someone who never skipted the terms and conditions.

[skitskatdacat63]

Vettonso complaining about each other not respecting schrondinger's track limits on the radio compilation + Seb's commentary that made me a bit feral

Must include these sexy ass pics okay, it makes me feral how hard they race each other.

Also SO upset that we got this vid and there's also pictures(and presumably a vid out there somewhere) of Fernando, back then, ALSO debriefing this race. And yet we never got them together?????? Evil. Fucked up.

Imagine seeing them complaining about each other but also having to (begrudgingly if you're Fernando) compliment each other IN FRONT of each other. Maybe its a good thing it doesn't exist, bcs then I'd have a heart attack.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

snap's uber cringe vampire cherik rambling !!!!!! read at your own risk of charles/erik origins But If They Were Vampires and more !!!!

very simple makeshift vampire age map for the sake of understanding this vague timeline i have (hint: just multiply by ten) this is all subject to change because time is mean and im indecisive

infancy - 0 - 40

childhood - 50 - 120 years

adolescence - 130 - 170 years

emerging adulthood - 180 - 240 years

older adulthood - +250 years

elderly - +700 years

about dhampirs: they're not immortal like vampires, they just have a (much) longer life expectancy than humans (they really are just like 'weaker' vampires in this, only possessing half of their strengths and weaknesses)

'what's our time period' EXCELLENT question brother.

jk i think the main events will be set victorian-edwardian period (1850's-1910's) but charles and erik are at least a couple centuries old- probably born amidst the late 1500's (1580's-90's more specifically), maybe meet during the 1800's

charles' profile

charles heralds from a wealthy vampire family whos had their influence in england for centuries (maybe established roots during the 5th century), the general public none the wiser to their vampirism. at most there's rumors, but the family's charismatic enough to keep the murmurs at bay

brian is like. a little less evil to charles in this timeline. most of their time together being brian teaching charles how to run the family's business and whatever else vampires do to balance the life of a vampire and a human. at most, brian emotionally neglects charles as he stays vigilant in ensuring the xavier family can prosper for centuries. sharon xavier would be the one to instill all that is good and human in charles despite her own vampirism (most likely turned by brian before they had charles)

brian xavier is murdered by human kurt marko once the latter figures out his vampirism right before europe's widespread vampire hysteria (so maybe late 1600's)- not for any heroic purposes but so he can steal the xavier family's wealth of course.

he holds the xavier's vampiric origins over them until his eventual death (maybe early 1700's).

considering the idea charles' accidentally summons a pack of wolves to the house during a heated moment and they tear him apart- maybe kurt tries to protect cain and charles idk. charles wouldn't realize he caused this until much later while learning about his vampirism, BUT im still chewing on this so don't take this as 100% canon to this au.....

kurt never discloses the true nature of the xaviers to cain while he's alive, but as the boys grow older cain figures it out for himself and decides to dedicate his life to hunting down charles- how much of it is to rid the world of one less vampire or to vent the unhappiness he experienced growing up in the xavier household onto his brother is unclear

while kurt was alive, he experiments on charles in an attempt to understand his vampirism in an attempt to achieve eternal life without the drawbacks of vampirism. but i mean how good can your science be: evidently he fails vjELKJALKJ

as an adult, charles is curious about his own vampirism as he attempts to live amongst humans and perhaps help them (maybe not give them eternal life but at least how to extend life). he doesn't seek to 'cure' himself, only figure out how his biology works to live comfortably and safely: after all, there must be a reason as to why he was born this way, he reasons

he pursues a life of medicine to do this and along the way meets moira mctaggart (around late 1700's/early-1800's), a scientist working closely with the occult and isolated from general society. after some time, he reveals he's a vampire to her and they effectively become partners to further understand vampirism (but not romantic partners)

most of their work concerns why vampires 'need blood' and how to find a suitable substitute ('surely it's not blood itself that satiates vampires but a property within it?'), but they also look to find out why vampires can be weak in the sunlight and why they appear immortal (aka: they're purely scientific in their approach to the vampire phenomena instead of thinking it's magical, charles reasoning that vampires are just humans with a type of evolved biology. time will tell if he's right or wrong in this approach, and brother he has plenty of time)

erik's/max's profile

compared to the house of xavier, the house of eisenhardt- while not as wealthy- still maintained some sort of reputation in east prussia. however, the news of their vampirism easier leaks amidst the mid-1700's heightened paranoia of vampires (probably a domino affect of the rumor of Renowned Xaiver Family being one of vampires expanding after kurt's death), and he finds himself to be the only survivor amidst the violence against his family

fleeing further east and with the benefit of his youthful visage despite his real years, max has no problem using his intelligence and experience to find work to support himself and manages life alone until he eventually meets magda (maybe around the same time charles meets moira, 1790's). with her being human, it isn't long until she and max introduce little dhampir anya into the world

he tells magda of his vampiric origins (after all, if they were going to have a baby it'd prob be best to let her know the baby's gonna be part vampire right..), but whether it's disbelief or not fully grasping the implications of such, magda accepts and loves him. max vows never to feed off his wife, mostly feeding off hunted animals to satisfy himself

for a while, max was content to live in relative solitude with his family: he wouldn't bother the humans, and in turn they shouldn't bother him. but soon enough (talking Ten Years Later soon enough), the true nature of max and his family is uncovered in the quaint town they lived in, and history threatens to repeat itself as a growing mob attempts to torch their home. they can't succeed before max makes a bloody example of the mob- a display that frightens magda and has her flee with anya in her arms. that would be the last time max sees his wife and child. he effectively repurposes the site of where he lost his family as a quaint memorial to them and the grounds remain relatively untouched bar his annual visits (the common people more often rumoring it to be cursed as a result)

max would change his name to 'erik lehnsherr' as a way to bury his past and move on with his new, less-human-sympathetic life. uttering his real name weakens his power if not strips them away for some time entirely, so he's greatly secretive to who he tells it to (spoilers: he never tells anyone). he spends most of his time alone in his castle, going out at night to feed off late-night wanderers in nearby cities

as for wanda and pietro, debating on exactly what to do with them and if they're blood related to erik or not. considering having pietro be a dhampir that maintained his superspeed while wanda's still just a witch. not sure what to do about lorna either. at the very least, if they do live with erik, he's greatly protective and overbearing about them (a possible blend of keeping them close to use their might against humans, and not wanting to lose any more of his family)

The Part People Are Here For charles and erik interacting

How Do They Meet wow great questions today !!!

around 1810's, probably during one of erik's Feeding Nights he bumps into charles and attempts to make dinner of him, charles at this point passing far too easily as a regular human. the ensuing encounter/fight eventually leads to charles having to reveal himself also to be a vampire (probably as a result of having to resort to using telepathy to keep erik at bay and thereafter explaining himself)

despite the rocky start, neither can hide the fact they're ecstatic about meeting another vampire and become fast friends. Yknow. After overlooking the Sorry I Tried To Eat You part

so now charles spends his mornings with moira and his humanly duties and at night he sometimes spends time at erik's abode and with his children (if i decide they live with him of course).

moira can't ignore the way charles lights up when talking about erik (and how could she: even if he was candid with her about his experiences, it was an entirely different feeling talking to another vampire who already understood- and perhaps understood better). as such, she doesn't let charles forget erik could potentially be a danger- something charles can't forget if he wanted to (see again: them meeting the first time. still, he chooses to believe in the better parts of erik)

of course charles tries to dissuade erik from seeing humans as purely food or menaces and encourages him to work alongside himself to find more 'ethical' ways to be a vampire, but of course erik is resistant to the idea and at times admonishes charles for his thinking.

Everyone's Favorite Part: The Divorce

for a while- maybe five years- erik isn't aware of moira's existence. but on a night charles neglects to visit him he spots the pair walking to moira's home. following them, he's quick to discover moira's lab and realizes charles has been cooperating with a human this whole time (how much had he told her about erik? how much of their weaknesses did he expose to her? why wouldn't he tell erik about moira sooner if she wouldn't be an issue?)

enraged, erik doesn't wait for an explanation as he barges into the small shack and barks accusations of betrayal at charles. it only gets worse when moira is puzzled that charles didn't tell erik about her when he was more than happy to tell her about erik, only reaffirming erik's suspicions charles was attempting to doom vampires as a whole

what happens next im still up in the air about, but it'll be how charles loses the use of his legs in this universe

scenario a is while erik and charles brawl in moira's shack, she hurls holy water onto erik and disfigures his face. while he's down, she attempts to throw more holy water on him to at least give her and charles more time to escape only for charles to shield him at the final moment. while he's mostly unharmed, his legs get burnt as he pushes erik out of the way and finds he isn't able to regenerate the damaged limbs

scenario b is moira still gets erik with the holy water, however charles drags them out of the shack and tries to break for the nearest town. unfortunately, during their escape erik finds one of moira's silver-tipped crossbows (or something to that affect: still deciding if he should have control over magnetism in this but Details Details) and shoots charles in the spine ultimate style. going off the myth silver is Not Good for all 'unholy' and dead creatures of course, charles' nervous system isn't properly able to regenerate for Above Mentioned Reasons (his body's so 'dead' the antibacterial properties of silver eat away at him). the cruel irony of it all really (or silvery... heh.. metal...)

as a result of being burned by the holy water, erik would wear his helmet more often- at least until he feeds off enough humans to regenerate the damaged tissue (note: only human blood can restore holy-artifact-induced wounds, which means charles won't regain the use of his legs because of his refusal to consume human blood)

either way, once she and charles escape erik and relocate, moira stays with him for some time- at least long enough for charles to get used to his new way of life without his legs and figure out what they should do next, maybe two-three years. eventually, charles and moira agree it might be safer to work apart from each other and effectively split. probably leads to charles moving to america to keep an eye on vampires on the other side of the globe while moira keeps an eye on europe

after the encounter with moira and charles, erik becomes more active and now seeks out other vampires (or humans to turn into vampires), fully intending on converting the world to become a vampire's (and hell why not monsters in general) paradise

Things to iron out

the difference between animal and human blood

Whats the benefit to drinking human blood: is it tastier? More nutritious? Evidently its restorative properties are more potent for vampires than animal blood

Maybe more animal blood is needed to supplement human blood (i.e. one human may need the blood of- say- five pigs or something yk what i mean)

Maybe its possible for a vampire to live off animals only, it’d just be more difficult and they might not be as physically strong as vampires who feed off humans

Would they eventually cave into craving human blood? Is it a conscious effort to Not feed off humans? Curious….

Perhaps moira tests the effects of human vs animal blood on charles, offering blood from her arm both directly from her and extracted first to then drink. He cant argue its wrong if she’s offering for science no…. Its For Science Charles its ok…

Another thing i want to solidify is time period: on one hand i wanna do this modern-ish period but im also thinkin bout the 14th century…. Shrug i still have a lot of finer details In General ill work out with myself. For now it’ll prob remain around 1700’s-1900’s

A final minor thing i wanna work on is erik’s ‘real’ name and his name situation in general, mostly how magda knew him. Maybe changes his name to ‘erik lehnsherr’ after the eisenhardt incident, and goes by ‘magnus’ after magda, her knowing him as ‘erik’ while charles mostly knows him as ‘magnus’. ‘Count magnus’…. Hm…. Dunno if i wanna reintroduce ‘magneto’ into this or not …… ill figure it out at some point …

Perhaps other vampires and dhampirs saying his real name doesn’t negatively affect him and it’s strictly only if humans/non-vampires say it

[azaracyy]

"...that's all from me. does any of you have any questions?" "nope! crystal clear." "kew!" "that's good! um... thank you for this discussion." "you're the one who came up with this awesome plan, lopmon. have more confidence in yourself." "kew, kew kew kew!" digimon survive week 2024 day 2: cooperation

[citrusinicake]

ppl who dont understand loving a character while also hating them fascinate me, clearly youve never stanned a complete and absolute dickhead before

[fayrinferno]

Have you ever translated the escaflowne doujins called kago no tori by Minato tojima? The art is amazing and I know it's NSFW doujins but the story is so good!

As a matter of fact, I did! I mean, I did one of the books back in the day (15 years ago), when both my Japanese and machine translation were in diapers. It was an unholy amount of work then, even for a doujin. I remember using some sort of software keyboard for kanas and then several dictionaries looking up each kanji. I don’t think the result is much better than what you can get by machine translation today so I’m definitely not gonna post that.

EDIT: Here's a proof I wasn't lying (I looked for it on the old drive backup):

Anyway, I'm a big Tajima stan, but it was a different time when these doujins were produced and I think we all can see that they are problematic by today’s standards. I was intrigued by the story myself, but I think something like that (which btw. was not uncommon in vanilla shoujo manga of the time) would today put it straight into porn category, without regard to its attempt at a serious story... which is leagues above actual porn but... yeah. I still think it is an interesting and unusual work (especially for an adult doujin) and I would relish the NTR/melodrama but I don’t think I’m gonna translate it at this point. Maybe try asking in the #escaflowne tag? I know there are other people who have done/offered doing translations in the fandom.

This has also to do with my changed attitudes towards translation in general, tbh., as you can see on my stickied post, I’m not doing any new translations currently, just trying to complete the few remaining projects I started. I’m not going to bother you with all that but if anyone cares, more under the cut.

Translating is an ungrateful job for me I found. You struggle for hours between two languages, neither of which is your native tongue, to be, yes, thanked and praised, but also lowkey doubted and compared, accused of attentionwhoring, or straight-out mocked for your language skills. Or you bother people about beta-reading to bring a better-quality product, feeling bad for wasting their time as well. You do this for free, but the product can get freely reposted in groups and websites you have no idea about, edited, or further discussed without your knowledge, nobody would even pause at that. And at the end of the day, no matter how poor the translation is, you spent hours of your time on it, hours that you will never get back. Last thing I need is to be confronted about the contents of the translated work or to see my translation on an 18+ doujin site.

In fact, I don’t need to do or post any translations for myself, my Japanese level after a decade of learning is just about enough to understand what is talked about. I don’t need to exert myself to do anything else, sorry. It’s not like there are no other options in this day and age. But sincere thanks to those who have helped or appreciated the work, even imperfect as it was. I’m grateful for the support and I hope to have another translation up for you, soon (there is less than a handful of things I started translating but idk how many of them I’ll manage to finish).

[housederiva]

Your art is FANTASTIC and the random observations/polls/interjections you make have really helped to fuel the DA fandom in positive ways! Which it definitely needed after Veilguard's release, lmao. It's always a pleasure to see you on my dashboard!

That's very kind of you to say oh my gosh thank you so much. I'm just bumbling around and every once in a while I say something people think is worth sharing, and I like sharing what other folks feel/make too! I'm glad I'm a not too much of an annoyance xx

I think my favorite thing about having this blog is the notes I see on other peoples posts I rb, it’s nice seeing all sweet things get things sent an artist way or conversations/theories carried on in a rb chain

It’s a big ol show n tell and it’s a wonderful reprieve from my normal day to be able to see other folks stuff too ✨

[bogkeep]

i finally got around to reading wolf bane, the last book in the chronicles of ancient darkness. thank you michelle paver for giving dark a boyfriend

[andthesunwillalwaysshine]

''You sent away THE ONE person that's been watching my back AGAIN'' ''Funny, it's not really what it feels like'' TELL HIM THE FUCK OFF BUFFY (she is literally true, Spike is literally the only one treating her right, and she does the same to him in this season.) (this season is a fucking love letter shouted with all the air in the world) (this is also about how Buffy is THE ONE and only slayer) (imo 2nd best season)

[nomstellations]

Thank you for the thorough explanation. Honestly, I first joined the community while still a minor (granted I would not have made the same choice looking back), and it's legal classification as paraphilia is news to me. I just considered it like the feet fetish situation, feet not being inherently sexual despite there being fetishists. But still not socially acceptable.

I can't help wondering if most minors trying to be involved in vore community, also are unaware as I was that this has the same legal ramifications of engaging with things more directly, clearly Porn.

there's been a lot of informative posts like mine going around lately, though some are more hostile than others....minors nowadays Definitely know, but they're misinterpreting what's being said as people trying to invalidate their interest in vore. the thing is, is that you CAN be into feet, or vore, or tickling, or inflation nonsexually, but the second you put it out into the public and into LARGELY fetish based spaces is when you put yourself at risk.

when you try to tell them that, they pull away and respond with "um well i've shown my family/boss this and its fine!" "well i dont see it as a fetish so it doesnt count for me! you're trying to put down my nonsexual interest in vore!" "you just want to be able to fetishize my work and you're mad you can't!" when that is NOT what's being said at all. the law doesn't care about how you personally feel about it. neither do sexual predators, of whom this community is STILL sheltering and only view the withdrawal into closed off spaces with specialized terms as the perfect way to masquerade as "one of the good ones" to find victims.

nobody's saying you can't be under 18 and have sexual thoughts. or have nonsexual interests in sexualized things. but you have to realize that online spaces don't revolve around your specific experiences and perceptions- you have to keep yourself safe, and that means keeping yourself private. no publicly advertising your 16+ swwh discord, no putting yourself in every vore tag looking for friends- keep it to yourself and with your peers if possible. for adults- being one of the "good ones" means not making yourself available at all. i don't think maintaining your relationship with a child in a kink space is worth all the trouble when it can potentially cost you jail time. being all "idc who interacts with me, this is a safe space/just dont be weird/etc" is just as harmful, too!

[fitpacs]

<3

[crimeronan]

my physical therapist, clearly worried he's imparting bad news: okay, so with systemic conditions like this, we uuuusually want to do long-term maintenance check-ins, so once you're doing better i'll still probably want to see you every month or so....

me, so so so physically disabled: ....oh. thank GOD.

[harryforvogue]

my fiancé when he wants to ask me a spicy question is so funny because he treats it like he's being interrogated by the CIA and i know he's doing it to be respectful and not scare me away (which i really appreciate because i do have a fear of sexual intimacy) but man just ask me what i'm into!!!!!!! I LOVE U I WANT TO DO THINGS WITH YOU!!!!! ASK ME ABOUT THEM

[widevibratobitch]

something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.

[immortalsins]

if a muay thai instructor doesnt let u wear handwraps as a 'ground rule' since they're aiming for 'wrist conditioning' and when i ask if its a problem that i still do he says 'haha. Yes' is that a major concern yes or yes

[roguestorm]

ok i read black widow pale little spider and i LOVE that greg rucka seemingly took one look at yelena and was like "she wants to be dommed by a woman so bad" bc that was also my read. such a bizarre series but i kind of loved it. i like that between this and storm: the arena igor kordey is the guy you get if your superhero comic has your heroine descending into a lair of kinky sex. it's kind of funny that it's a scene in this comic that ppl point to when saying yelena is asexual bc i feel like the entire story is about yelena grappling with the fact that she does have sexual desire for women and is into d/s stuff to some extent. i think it's great how sexuality in general and her sexuality specifically are things that she's very uncomfortable with and yet there's an unmistakably sexual undercurrent to her own motivations and obsessions and she has to like, untangle that. i would be so interested to hear rucka's thoughts on this story, i think it's the most sex-focused comic of his i've read and i'm kind of astonished by how respectfully and positively it represents sex work and kink for a comic from 2002 LOL. i would love to hear your thoughts on this very strange comic :)

hiiiiii it's been 4 months since you sent this ask but i DID reread the story. i think that any weirdness/yuckiness about the comic comes from the art and not the story. the cover art is AWFUL, and it's the same guy who did the horrible oversexualized art for the emma frost series, so... i hate you greg horn >:(

igor kordey's interiors are for the most part pretty communicative without being overly sexual, and he doesn't really sexualize yelena. there are a handful of weird objectifying moments with the agent who is pretending to run the place, but not too many. but i've seen more objectifying shots of female characters in comics drawn by greg land that don't have anything to do with sex clubs, so it's okay, all in all.

i DEFINITELY think that when yelena says she's not anything, she's lying. i don't know if i read the lesbian subtext quite as strongly as you do, but she's definitely lying (to herself as well as others) about her desires. the comic is really complicated on a gender level because of the way d/s dynamics are portrayed, because of the gender roles that the black widow mythos comes with, because of the layers of manipulation and lies, and because yelena as a character has these very contradictory impulses, as you pointed out.

and there's a whole thing where agents like nikki (or whatever her real name is) and natasha were trained in some way to use their sexuality in the field and yelena never was. so the instrumentality of it and of having nikki like use her sexuality to get under yelena's skin at yelena because it's the thing she's most uncomfortable with and the red room wants to be sure she can handle anything. also, the fact that the red room a) murdered her mentor and then b) tainted his memory by making her think that he wanted to have sex with her is like. fucked up! like of course she's never gonna figure herself out if everyone in the entire world keeps lying to her or trying to get her to play some specific role.

i also thought it was funny that rucka decided to have someone pretend to be someone else and lose track of who they really are AGAIN in this comic. like breakdown finished a year before this series started but he was like "that's a good idea, let's reuse that from a different angle."

i have no idea what to make of its presentation of sex work bc like. the main character who is a sex worker that we interact with in fact isn't a sex worker at all? so she's explaining consent while ignoring yelena's boundaries but that's not because she's a sex worker, it's because she's an agent and her explicit job is to attempt to psychologically break yelena.