#addiction breaking

[sockiepuppetry]

So apparently in the Ralph breaks the internet concept art, Calhoun and Felix were going to have biological children

I love that they went with adoption instead but this would've been interesting, so I decided to make some designs for slightly older versions of them.

[hemlock-dreams]

You've kinda teased it with the first bartender-Petey art, but I wanna know more about White and Yellow. Is their relationship with Deadpool the same? How do they interrupt/talk/think about Petey? And spider-man!

Why bother healing when you can just develop a deeply unhealthy and extremely codependent relationship with your hot bartender bff and assign to them the burden of your wellbeing instead?

Peter makes the boxes go quiet. A double-edged sword.

And the boxes have a love/hate relationship with Peter. On one hand, they can use Peter to taunt Wade. On the other hand, Peter takes up Wade's attention so he's not hearing the boxes.

[majunju]

26 age trio

[ekoilemartinwrite]

Journal January 19, 2023

Today is a Thursday, of the last week of Mitch’s kingdom fitness Academy. Yesterday I started the unchained leader program, I watched the first module, today I got a visual overview; tomorrow is the video marked day one.

One of the recommendations is to Journal everything. Which I know I need to be doing anyway, and while handwriting is helpful, and preferable in many ways, words for me are always an act of translation,. And I'm still going to be doing that anyway, but for a different aspect of that program. Also he insists on that we take notes. Which is surprisingly helpful. That actually helps make it all stick better.

I know what brought me into this program is dealing with porn addiction, and while I haven't struggled with that for several months now that's more I think because I've been distracted and a bit overwhelmed with all the other tasks I have to deal with. Not so much because I haven't been tempted. Though I also now have several months worth of evidence that I do not need it to cope with anything. I also have proof that I do not need food to cope with anything. I also do not need dance to cope with anything. What I do need God will provide, and is accessible through God the father. I suppose to someone not spiritually minded that sounds very strange, but I don't care it's my journal.

I know going forward that I'm going to need to uproot all of the lies that I've believed about myself, that I told myself about myself. To uproot and remove the desires. I like that aim of the program. Though even, in prayer I feel that God has said, and placed on my heart, that I do need a counselor. At least for a time. I'm also going to keep working with Mitch for a while. I stumbled in this last week regarding food. I went on a few binges. A food plan of fewer than 2000 cal a day sent me into a strange emotional panic that I do not understand. But I was getting good results with the 2000 cal a day plan, and I'm reverting to that.

In some ways I barely recognize myself in the mirror, praise God. I do not mean that is an insult to myself, I only recognize the miracles that he is working, in me. One of the reasons I did this was to make my body a worthy temple, and I'm trying, and in many ways God is respecting that and making it that.

[fudgecake-charlie]

to my IRL(s) who keeps sending me disco elysium memes despite the fact i haven't played it in months THIS IS BECAUSE OF YOU. HELP ME. If people have ideas on this AU feel free to have fun with it considering I. have only a few!

[st-hedge]

Puts Elden bling doodles into ur hand

[mellxncollie]

Charles Rowland & Edwin Payne | Dead Boy Detectives 1.02

[ex0toxin]

part timers

jsys week'24, day 1

[fluffylord]

Look how far I went, for fear of losing you.

[lilybug-02]

What drawing for 16 days strait does to a mf

[haleyincarnate]

Inspired by @thefemale

[calicotisane]

[fun-esta]

[joshpeck]

i'm gonna be so honest with you all....phone in bed has been bad for me

[rui-drawsbox]

this fucking guy (/affectionate)

[mollysunder]

The Medarda Family and the True Goal of Shimmer

Nature has made us intolerant to change, but fortunately, we have the capacity to change our nature. -Singed

For most of s1 the only versions of magic the audience really gets familiar with are visualized through hextech blue and shimmer pink, but we can't trust it to represent what actual magic is like on Runeterra. People from PnZ are incredibly unfamiliar with magic, it was banned for centuries, and they're mostly retracing steps and doing guess work. The best metric to understand how magic works is to look at characters and regions that are actually inclined to magic, and the Medardas may be the best example yet.

When Ambessa accepts the Wolf totem from Lamb one half of dual aspects of death, her body is enveloped in a bright purple transformation before being reforged into a red that resembles the kind her ancestors and the Lamb wear.

It's the same bright purple that consumes Sky in Viktor's last experiment with the hexcore in s1.

I think this purple represents magic at its most malleable state, where it can be refined or change others into final products with a proper catalysts. By s1's final scene, we know that Mel possesses magic and likely uses it through her golden armor. We also know it's possible for magic to be a hereditary trait that can be passed down (not perfectly) through family lines, which is prized in Noxus (and Ixtal?).

So if Mel has magic that likely means the Medardas family in general has latent magic that flows through them naturally., but qhat does this have to do with shimmer or PnZ in general?

The Medardas are relevant to PnZ because Zaun leading minds, Silco and Singed, have spent their capital trying to replicate what the Medardas can do!Shimmer doesn't exist purely as a bioweapon, that's frankly secondary to it's point. Shimmer exists as a means to artificially make the users capable of performing magic, or at least shift the user's biology into something that can tolerate magic. Hextech as a solution to the mystery of maguc completely sidesteps the relationship between magic and the user by using machinery as middleman, while shimmer takes a more direct route.

Singed can't literally biohack nonmagical people into mages all by himself. Singed instead developed what's essentially a hormone therapy to give users temporary magic abilities by synthesizing shimmer from these mysterious plants that resembles the color of the magic within Ambessa before her deal with the Lamb.

Why didn't Singed and Silco just give people the magic purple plants directly if it's capable turning them into mages? Sky and Rio might be the best examples for why you don't do that. When young Viktor feeds Rio the purple plants we see Rio immediately lose vigor, as an audience most of us assumed that was simply Rio's pre-existing condition acting up, but the relationship is more simple. When Singed said Rio was dying, he said it with surety because Singed KNEW the exposure to magic was killing Rio. And Sky was DISINTEGRATED upon being exposed to the hexcore's magic.

In that vein, Singed used Rio as a work around. From what we see non-mage humans absolutely cannot tolerate exposure to even base magic, but Rio was able to last longer. Instead Singed and Silco exposed Zaun to a version of those magic flowers that was broken down by Rio's metabolism into a more version that non-magical humans can tolerate.

The wild thing is that all this effort is to get non-mage users to Ambessa's UNREALISED state, the purple is just the base magic that exists in mages. Even still, Singed seems to have developed the kind of strain of shimmer that's the closest he's ever come to real magic, and Viktor and Jinx used it.

Viktor's own magical transformation has been facilitated by the hexcore in the same way the Lamb facilitated Ambessa's transformation. Do i think Viktor has essentially created his own Aspect through the hexcore? NO.

But in the same way shimmer is facsimilie of magical ability, so too is the hexcore a subsitute for living magic. And by living magic I don't mean unicorns or mermaids, I mean magic that is given consciousness and shape by being tethered to human concepts. And the hexcore's basic purpose is supposed to be magic that thinks and Viktor has tethered it to the human plane with his blood.

This all begs the question about what could exposure to the hexcore do to long term shimmer users? What WILL it do to Jinx? We all know that's inevitable next season.

You see, power, real power doesn't come to those who were born strongest or fastest or smartest. No. It comes to those who will do anything to achieve it. -Silco

Tldr: Shimmer is a large-scale project to turn the population of Zaun into mages, or magically tolerant, by essentially microdosing the population with magic through shimmer.