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So apparently in the Ralph breaks the internet concept art, Calhoun and Felix were going to have biological children
I love that they went with adoption instead but this would've been interesting, so I decided to make some designs for slightly older versions of them.
#I can't decide if the twins would have felix's height#Or if they would be taller than him#Both options amuse me#Their original names are lil' miss fix it Felix jr and private Calhoun a roony#Calling them Missy and Roony for short#they got their addiction of candy from their sugar rush siblings#ralph breaks the internet#fix it felix jr#fix it felix#sergeant calhoun#hero's cuties#wir fanart#wreck it ralph
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Journal January 19, 2023
Today is a Thursday, of the last week of Mitch’s kingdom fitness Academy. Yesterday I started the unchained leader program, I watched the first module, today I got a visual overview; tomorrow is the video marked day one.
One of the recommendations is to Journal everything. Which I know I need to be doing anyway, and while handwriting is helpful, and preferable in many ways, words for me are always an act of translation,. And I'm still going to be doing that anyway, but for a different aspect of that program. Also he insists on that we take notes. Which is surprisingly helpful. That actually helps make it all stick better.
I know what brought me into this program is dealing with porn addiction, and while I haven't struggled with that for several months now that's more I think because I've been distracted and a bit overwhelmed with all the other tasks I have to deal with. Not so much because I haven't been tempted. Though I also now have several months worth of evidence that I do not need it to cope with anything. I also have proof that I do not need food to cope with anything. I also do not need dance to cope with anything. What I do need God will provide, and is accessible through God the father. I suppose to someone not spiritually minded that sounds very strange, but I don't care it's my journal.
I know going forward that I'm going to need to uproot all of the lies that I've believed about myself, that I told myself about myself. To uproot and remove the desires. I like that aim of the program. Though even, in prayer I feel that God has said, and placed on my heart, that I do need a counselor. At least for a time. I'm also going to keep working with Mitch for a while. I stumbled in this last week regarding food. I went on a few binges. A food plan of fewer than 2000 cal a day sent me into a strange emotional panic that I do not understand. But I was getting good results with the 2000 cal a day plan, and I'm reverting to that.
In some ways I barely recognize myself in the mirror, praise God. I do not mean that is an insult to myself, I only recognize the miracles that he is working, in me. One of the reasons I did this was to make my body a worthy temple, and I'm trying, and in many ways God is respecting that and making it that.
#unedited audio journal#journal#journaling#audio journal#transcript#unedited transcript#audio transcript#unedited audio transcript#writer#journalling#unedited#reflection#journey#addiction#addiction breaking#addicition
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to my IRL(s) who keeps sending me disco elysium memes despite the fact i haven't played it in months THIS IS BECAUSE OF YOU. HELP ME. If people have ideas on this AU feel free to have fun with it considering I. have only a few!
#zombiecleo#ethoslab#hermitcraft#scopophobia cw#hermitcraft AU#tag ramble time!#don't. worry about the text. yes it's trying to imply that etho can see us and break the fourth wall Don't Worry About It#this AU really was 'i wanna draw hermits in DE outfits who's pathetic and sad enough to b– yeah it's etho.'#'that makes cleo Kim then. I think they'd make it work' and that was it#in my heart it's also an AT so they're working a different case somewhere else in universe. mostly because i don't think them and-#-cuno/cunoesse should exist at the same time.. etho can have a drug addiction but cleo is NOT getting called a faggot /lh#Cleo getting written as 'just cleo' in text is kinda silly i enjoy it. hopefully that wasn't used in the actual game and i forgot about it#art out the oven#art wise this was really fun i locked myself in values jail but the colours turned out reasonable anyway which is always nice#yes cleo has gauges and an undercut <3#[scheduled]#EDIT: oh god. i have to add a tag for this AU#Disco Hermits AU
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Puts Elden bling doodles into ur hand
#fromsoftware#elden ring#may I offer a redundant tip for soulsborne bosses#I ingrained this in my head when first played sekiro#my first fromsoft game lmao#and I’d get stuck on bosses hours at a time#there is a point during the fight when u know the moves and u know what to do#but u space out and get slower and slower#at that point u gotta take a break#and it can be so difficult with such addicting fights#but if u get up and do whatever#for like an hour#u will come back and get the fight within 3 tries#works every time#did it with isshin after being stuck on him for 4 hours#then took a break came back and blap
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Charles Rowland & Edwin Payne | Dead Boy Detectives 1.02
#when i tell you i'm so addicted to making gifs i'm not kidding#seconds after posting the 'taking a bit of a break' i started making this#dead boy detectives#dbda#charles rowland#edwin payne#jayden revri#george rexstrew#dbdagifs#mygifs#dbda102#also this is a remake of an older set
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part timers
jsys week'24, day 1
#lung cancer got me feeling romantical#if i have a nicotine addiction then so do my favorite 90s deliquents. obviously.#smoke break in the moonlight YIPPEEE#oku obv works at tonios but josuke i had to think on it!!#i was originally gonna make him work at aya's but she kinda fuckin died and i wasnt sure how to convey that with the limited space#so now he mops up blood and gives people advice he doesnt take 👍#man bun oku is worth considering just btw#josuyasu#josuyasu week#josuyasu week 2024#josuke higashikata#okuyasu nijimura#jojo#jojo's bizarre adventure#jjba#my art
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𝙱𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚍 𝙰𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚎
#academia#chaotic academia#classic academia#dark academia#literature#aesthetic#english literature#uni#college#green academia#academic weapon#dark acamedia#dark acadamia aesthetic#light academia#academia aesthetic#academics#chaotic academic aesthetic#romantic academia#university#college break#college life#the life of an academic#book#coffee#coffee aesthetic#coffee and ciggaretes#coffee addict#camus#albert camus#books and reading
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What drawing for 16 days strait does to a mf
#yeah I’m tired. 🥱 just need some days of rest to get back the art groove.#I don’t post for two days and I’m feeling bad for not posting. social media addiction am I right?#glad I’m taking a break#bread
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Inspired by @thefemale
#thefemale#writing#quote#poetry#life lessons#love#loss#break up#relationship#emotional availability#hmh#mine#growth#change#self care#moving on#quote art#addiction
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#my art#hylics#somsnosa#this is like my third go at her i think i have a better take now. she's not as corpselike as wayne but looks pretty droopy in concept art#proooobably higher energy than him and less inclined toward constant substance abuse - but still chillin & addicted to bugs#at least in 1. second game sees her “taking a break” and getting into juice. but my somsnosa cant stop slapping bugs and power tripping#i really thought her poncho was checkered cause of the sprite texture for the longest time and was confused when i didnt see it in fanart 😭#idk if i like that idea anymore tho#clumps
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#this is a cry for help please i have loved this clown for over a decade#When Bruce says “I can fix him” I completely understand & not bc I want to fix him#but bc despite all the atrocities he has committed you can't help but feel compassion for him#Joker constantly struggles to not let himself be seen vulnerable but when he does oh God it breaks my heart#I wouldn't know what to do if I were aware that I'm being doomed by the narrative & i had no escape even in death#to have a fate as tragic as being forced to become a myth#a monster who abandons all traces of humanity to make sure that someone else never abandons his#A lonely man who lives in a world of the dead and must do as much harm as possible to the only living person before his eyes#After all horror and obsession leads backs to love. oh god imagine loving as much as he does#Love as something twisted as a source of tragedy and death as an addiction a wound that never stops bleeding and hurts more every day#All you want is to be free#But someone else is holding on to you and will never let u go bcz he is afraid of being alone#and without you the weight of the world he carries on his shoulders would kill him he needs u as much as u need him#both are going to drown together#anyways hahaha i luv this stupid clown#joker#the joker#batjokes#bcz i got carried away writing the tags :p
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i'm gonna be so honest with you all....phone in bed has been bad for me
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The Medarda Family and the True Goal of Shimmer
Nature has made us intolerant to change, but fortunately, we have the capacity to change our nature. -Singed
For most of s1 the only versions of magic the audience really gets familiar with are visualized through hextech blue and shimmer pink, but we can't trust it to represent what actual magic is like on Runeterra. People from PnZ are incredibly unfamiliar with magic, it was banned for centuries, and they're mostly retracing steps and doing guess work. The best metric to understand how magic works is to look at characters and regions that are actually inclined to magic, and the Medardas may be the best example yet.
When Ambessa accepts the Wolf totem from Lamb one half of dual aspects of death, her body is enveloped in a bright purple transformation before being reforged into a red that resembles the kind her ancestors and the Lamb wear.
It's the same bright purple that consumes Sky in Viktor's last experiment with the hexcore in s1.
I think this purple represents magic at its most malleable state, where it can be refined or change others into final products with a proper catalysts. By s1's final scene, we know that Mel possesses magic and likely uses it through her golden armor. We also know it's possible for magic to be a hereditary trait that can be passed down (not perfectly) through family lines, which is prized in Noxus (and Ixtal?).
So if Mel has magic that likely means the Medardas family in general has latent magic that flows through them naturally., but qhat does this have to do with shimmer or PnZ in general?
The Medardas are relevant to PnZ because Zaun leading minds, Silco and Singed, have spent their capital trying to replicate what the Medardas can do!Shimmer doesn't exist purely as a bioweapon, that's frankly secondary to it's point. Shimmer exists as a means to artificially make the users capable of performing magic, or at least shift the user's biology into something that can tolerate magic. Hextech as a solution to the mystery of maguc completely sidesteps the relationship between magic and the user by using machinery as middleman, while shimmer takes a more direct route.
Singed can't literally biohack nonmagical people into mages all by himself. Singed instead developed what's essentially a hormone therapy to give users temporary magic abilities by synthesizing shimmer from these mysterious plants that resembles the color of the magic within Ambessa before her deal with the Lamb.
Why didn't Singed and Silco just give people the magic purple plants directly if it's capable turning them into mages? Sky and Rio might be the best examples for why you don't do that. When young Viktor feeds Rio the purple plants we see Rio immediately lose vigor, as an audience most of us assumed that was simply Rio's pre-existing condition acting up, but the relationship is more simple. When Singed said Rio was dying, he said it with surety because Singed KNEW the exposure to magic was killing Rio. And Sky was DISINTEGRATED upon being exposed to the hexcore's magic.
In that vein, Singed used Rio as a work around. From what we see non-mage humans absolutely cannot tolerate exposure to even base magic, but Rio was able to last longer. Instead Singed and Silco exposed Zaun to a version of those magic flowers that was broken down by Rio's metabolism into a more version that non-magical humans can tolerate.
The wild thing is that all this effort is to get non-mage users to Ambessa's UNREALISED state, the purple is just the base magic that exists in mages. Even still, Singed seems to have developed the kind of strain of shimmer that's the closest he's ever come to real magic, and Viktor and Jinx used it.
Viktor's own magical transformation has been facilitated by the hexcore in the same way the Lamb facilitated Ambessa's transformation. Do i think Viktor has essentially created his own Aspect through the hexcore? NO.
But in the same way shimmer is facsimilie of magical ability, so too is the hexcore a subsitute for living magic. And by living magic I don't mean unicorns or mermaids, I mean magic that is given consciousness and shape by being tethered to human concepts. And the hexcore's basic purpose is supposed to be magic that thinks and Viktor has tethered it to the human plane with his blood.
This all begs the question about what could exposure to the hexcore do to long term shimmer users? What WILL it do to Jinx? We all know that's inevitable next season.
You see, power, real power doesn't come to those who were born strongest or fastest or smartest. No. It comes to those who will do anything to achieve it. -Silco
Tldr: Shimmer is a large-scale project to turn the population of Zaun into mages, or magically tolerant, by essentially microdosing the population with magic through shimmer.
#arcane#arcane meta#ambessa medarda#mel medarda#singed#viktor arcane#jinx arcane#a lot of the quotes in s1 one seem to really rearing their heads into the narrative#“power doesn't come to those who are born strongest (magical) it comes to those who will do anything to achieve it”#which very easiliy can be applied to Mel as the possibly the strongest natural born mage in pnz vs jinx and viktor#both of whom may end up artificial mages next season#the more you break down shimmer the more absolutely INSANE it comes off#no wonder silco flooded the streets with this stuff atvworst you get an addict at best you get a new pop of MAGES#there are countries in this literal world that would take the risk#cw flashing#tw flashing#cw flashing lights#tw flashing lights#league of legends
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this fucking guy (/affectionate)
#breaking news; rui's fictional crush actually grows up in canon and matches her age#i adore him but whats up with his sweater. who threw up on it#i have MANY THOUGHTS all of them are extremely narcissistic (i wanna isekai in the mankai universe)#i other news does anyone knows where i should read act3 and act4 bc the wikis are abandoned since 2022 loln't#oh to be loved like izumi *sighs*#a3#a3!#a3! act! addict! actors!#a3! act addict actors#so many variations of the same title omg#masumi usui#a3! masumi#a3! game#rui draw smth
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people are so uncomfortable with drug use and addiction that they will just completely strip it from their discussion of jesse as a character. they cant reconcile their affection for him with their deeply ingrained disgust for drug users. like they cant conceptualize that this very sympathetic, very human character they love is also an addict because Addicts are subhuman and Bad People. its just so emblematic of a total inability to see real life drug users as actual humans with complex lives and emotions that people will straight up act like jesse getting into the meth business was some wacky coincidence and not because he was a meth addict who was making and dealing meth to other users for the explicit purpose of making money. he can be ur special little guy and a drug addict who relapses several times and sells drugs to other people and makes awful decisions because of or in tandem with those things.
#syd squeaks#also goes along with the mentality that jesse was somehow manipulated into using heroin by jane and was a victim in that situation#like bro he is a drug addict and so is she. they did drugs together. because they are drug addicts. and theyre both still human#breaking bad#jesse pinkman
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okay okay vampire obi-wan and anemic human anakin who goes to be his meal at like a fancy vampire bistro that pays willing humans to "donate" blood (get bitten) and tastes like shit whomst obi-wan then tries to take care of (in all the ways he can from sunset to sunrise) first so his food tastes good (bc anakin keeps coming back) and then because he cares
sends cookbooks to his apartment, tries to get him to go to the doctor, sends him other little gifts when he sees thinks that make him think of anakin, obi-wan just like wants to take care of his boy because he's clearly not taking care of himself (he signed up to be vampire food so that much should have been obvious) and obi-wan just wants him well is that too much to ask?
they fight about this often. (first: "how did you get my address?" "It's on the form you filled out to be here" "invasion of privacy much?" then: "you could always just... choose someone else?" "and let another vampire suffer from your lack of self care? absolutely not."") ("i don't know why you're putting so much into this? "i must have nothing else to do.") ("if this bothers you so much... just let someone else feed off me." "no.")
anakin stops showing up to be dinner for a few weeks and obi-wan gets worried. but he's not sure how far he's allowed to go in his worry, they're technically just... predator and prey (though obi-wan wouldn't describe them like that) it's just that no one tastes like anakin (that's definitely it) and nobody sasses him like anakin, and nobody is anakin and anakin is missing and clearly if he's been gone this long he can't possibly be okay
(and obi-wan is right, anakin isn't okay. he's in the hospital with an arm that might need to be amputated (but it was obi-wan's favorite place to drink from since he won't touch anakin's neck for reasons he WON'T explain)
(if you asked obi-wan why he didn't bite anakin's neck to begin with, he'd heavily imply there's no reason, but when pressed, it would be that anakin let's out this breathy moan when he's bitten, and it's music to obi-wan's ears, a symphony to his soul, he doesn't think he'd survive it if that was right in his ear, he'd have to kiss the boy then and there, have to keep him, and he can't do that, so his neck is off limits. it is IMPERATIVE anakin does not know this)
and he's lost a lot of blood and he's suffering and not alone because ahsoka and padme keep visiting, but he doesn't know how much he misses obi-wan until he isn't seeing him)
so one night obi-wan goes to anakin's apartment to see he isn't there and hasn't been there in weeks based on sent, and panics because what if he drove his beautiful boy away, or what if someone went after him, and obi-wan can't go in bc vampire rules say he needs permission and also it's good manners.
eventually anakin comes back to him, sans one arm, apologetic because "i know that's where you liked to bite" as if that could possibly be the reason that obi-wan is as upset as he is when he comes in. "i'd understand if you need a different meal," he says, as if that's all he is when obi-wan refuses to bite him because for the first time, he looks fragile and that's heartbreaking
so anakin leaves and obi-wan is gobsmacked, flabberghasted, realized anakin waited to have this conversation as close to sunrise as possible so obi-wan couldn't follow him out of the bar, but he doesn't realize that his vampire would absolutely run into the sun for him (except quin and satine 1000% don't let him "that's not how you get your man, he doesn't want a pile of dust, where's that going to get you, man, think for just a fraction of a second")
so obi-wan send anakin more little gifts, things he can puzzle out one handed as he gets used to being an amputee, trinkets he might enjoy, notes that are meant to make him smile, or that say he'll find somewhere else to feed on the boy if that's going to get him to come back when nothing else has worked. all he wants is to let anakin know that he's he's appreciated, make him feel wanted and loved.
eventually anakin sends him a note back with his phone number and then texts him to come over. he makes obi-wan stand on his stoop for an excruciating amount of time and he gets a lecture about personal space, and respecting people's wishes and "it doesn't matter that you're 300 years old, some people just don't want anything to do with you!" and anakin tries to say all of this with a straight face, before he cracks because he misses obi-wan and it is an act, and he's been in love with this vampire since he decided it was his job to take care of one human that wasn't taking care of himself.
then anakin kisses him and gives him a goofy grin and asks "what are you doing just standing there?"
"are you inviting me in?"
"i guess i am. you're stuck with me though, i'm your problem now."
"darling, you've been my problem for a long time, and i wouldn't have it any other way."
and eventually they fuck, and obi-wan bites anakin's neck, and here's his symphony played out in the most desirable circumstances. and they live happily ever after
(until anakin pesters him about making him a vampire "so i can be your problem, permanently" and they argue about it, but agree that anakin gets a life first "you've gotta be at least 40 before i turn you, i'm not going around looking like i forever robbed the cradle!" "you're not even 40! 25." "nope." "fine, 30 then, final offer." "and if I say no?" obi-wan's grin is feral, like he knows he's lost but he's still willing to play the game. "i know you won't" so does obi-wan)
#obikin#fic ideas#obikin fic#i'm so sorry for the number of parentheses in this it is obscene#this might be more than an idea#i might need to write it now#because it's 1000 words now and i have ideas#you can fit so much guilt in obi-wan and this seems like the perfect place to do it#obi-wan who doesn't drink from people more than once most of the time because it can be addictive to the human#and he doesn't want to subject anyone else to his fate#vs#anakin who just loves it because it's obi-wan in spite of his nagging (or partly due to it)#who is fascinated by this man who doesn't seem interested in him like that and won't bite his neck#so he wants to see him break but also maybe wants to hold and be held#they're obsessed with each other. if their friends have to hear anymore about these religious biting experiences#they're going to explode#i feel like i could go on about this forever so i'm going to stop now and maybe outline it for real#vampire au
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