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#aaaaah#i love everything about this#jakub lauko#biston bruins#actually... not anymore 🥲#viggo mortensen#aragorn#nhl#lord of the rings#kviff 2024#karlovy vary international film festival
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Hi! I'm still feral for these two, would you mind giving us some art of them in their later years together!?
Hello angel!!!!
Sorry it’s taken so long to respond🫶🫶 but I wanted to draw some new art for this ask💓
We have: Sebastian and Eloise trying out their new fancy camera with a selfie, pictures of them with their daughter, and finally…idk I just always felt like this drawing is when they’re a bit older💓
I want to take this ask as an opportunity as well to talk a little about how I imagine their future (I have no chill & you can ignore this and just enjoy the art if you want😇).
I am a COMPLETE pantser - I never know how a chapter’s going to end when I start writing it (I always just have a few scenes I know I need to include to keep the plot moving forward). Although I have different *big* scenes I’m always writing towards, and themes/plot elements I’m always foreshadowing (shout out to @elliecutte for catching *almost* all of my hints and appreciating my general no chill😆), IM STILL NOT 100% SURE HOW I WILL END THINGS !!! 😳 I have a lot of endings I see as possible, and I think soon it will become more clear to me what will work the best💓
HAPPY ENDING:
Eloise and Sebastian become Unspeakables. I have a LOT of thoughts on this profession that could be its OWN post, and I feel like Unspeakables are generally specialized in one or two departments, but as their interests/research change they also change.
Eloise becomes an Unspeakable in the Mind and Death departments, with the occasional foray into Time. Her ancient magic is connected with all of these things (my version of AM is NOT like the game) & the Department of Mysteries is one of the only places that gives her any useful information about these things. Plus she thinks too much (it IS her hobby after all😆💓) and is very introverted so a hermit job like this is a perfect fit.
Sebastian becomes an Unspeakable as well, but I feel like it takes him a long time to specialize in anything, if he ever does. I just feel like becoming an Unspeakable is the adult equivalent of sneaking into the Restricted Section🥹🫶
They grow old together (I won’t explain TOO much) & have a lovely little family🥹 at least one daughter that they both dote on. Sebastian had an amazing childhood (idyllic until it wasn’t), and wants to give his daughter the same, and Eloise works hard to make sure their daughter feels the love that she never had growing up🥺
When Sirius is burned off the family tree, Eloise and Sebastian take him in🥹🫶 (they’re like 100 years old but WIZARDS LIVE LONGER…) The same happened to her all those years ago, and she wants him to know that his whole family hasn’t abandoned him.
Eloise LOVED her nieces - Bellatrix, Andromeda, and Narcissa - when they were younger, but as Voldemort becomes more powerful & people realize WHAT he’s doing, she has to separate herself from them. Her heart breaks seeing Bellatrix go mad, and seeing Narcissa engaged to a Malfoy out of obligation😔 (iykyk)
I haven’t thought any more about happy ending but I think it’s fun to think about how their future story might weave in with the actual canon events, ESPECIALLY since Eloise is a Black🥹💓
SAD ENDING:
After Sebastian gets his hands on Slytherin’s relic, it really starts to consume him and makes him even MORE obsessive than his natural tendencies - I imagine it similarly “talking” to him like Slytherin’s locket/horcrux did in Deathly Hallows (😳)
Eloise is deathly afraid of the changes she’s seeing in Sebastian and steals it from him (he would never willingly give it to her ESPECIALLY if it starts to feel like a precious item to him)
BUT the relic triggers the latent Black Family Madness in her - the madness that afflicts almost every woman in her family since…🤭 - and she herself starts to lose touch with reality. Her body and soul are already destroying themselves between the curse and the ancient magic inside of her, and the relic is what triggers it in her.
Sebastian becomes an Unspeakable, focusing on the Mind, in a desperate attempt to find a cure for his Eloise🥺
He never gives up his research, and sometimes when he comes home she is lucid and they talk about his research - otherwise, he just loves and takes care of her.
(He’s never successful in finding a way to reverse what he feels he caused in the first place - his ambition and single-mindedness is, to him, the reason why all of this happened)
Honestly who knows if I end their story either of these ways😌 I just love thinking of AUs and different endings and I have a few others I’ve considered as well!!! And whatever endings I don’t write will be immortalized on this blog and in my art as well🙏
#thank you for the ask!!!!#I have no chill when I answer these things which is why it takes me so long to answer them🥲#ngl I think the sad ending is quite romantic#but maybe I’m too chicken to follow through/what I have planned could change a lot & it won’t make sense anymore#and like I’m not COMPLETELY evil I like seeing them happy too🥺🥺#and I also really love the Black family & all of the canon characters…OFC I had to insert Eloise in that family somehow#and her mother was the PERFECT age !!!!!!!!!!! (according to the family tree)#I ALSO have a lot of thoughts on the Gaunts and actually how Ominis’s blindness prevents him from going insane like the rest of them#seem to have done by the time Tom Riddle’s around#(something something blind people can’t hallucinate so they can’t get psychosis)#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfic#also Sebastian’s childhood is just based on mine#I grew up in a TINY village and spent all day running outside and having adventures like crazy or readinf like crazy no in-between😆💓#ask
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Whoops hand slipped here’s some TADC character fanart. Apologies for the severe lack of Pomni in this one idk where she went off to…maybe she got lost on her way to find the exit. The lines are incredibly choppy & rushed, I know, but it was still fun art practice! I don’t draw these guys nearly enough anyways so this is a nice change of pace. Support indie animation :3
#you wanna know a secret? don’t like how I draw Ragatha I wish I could do her better 😔#like I don’t know if I make her hair straight or if it’s kinda wavy?? and her eye too idk how to draw it in a satisfying way :((#but that’s a normal dilemma when I’m trying to blend my artstyle with the shows artstyle#keeping the characters on model/recognizable and consistent but also my own style ya know?#making those adjustments takes time and usually I need to draw a character 7+ times before it looks good#JAX ON THE OTHER HAND—OH BOY GOODIE HE IS SO COMICALLY EASY TO DRAW HALLELUJAH LOL#I think the Puzzle toothy grin & toon eyes just automatically agree with me#then Kinger I also struggle with personally#Gangle’s mask shape is confusing at first but then you adjust fairly quickly#Caine is neutral party to me—I know how his design is but I’m not confident without reference material#and then the artstyle translation is another hurdle to juggle <<#his top hat especially like HOW U DRAW 😭 I can manage Puzzles bowler hat just fine but NOT top hats man#Zooble is lovely Zooble peace and love they did nothing wrong just pleasant to draw uwu#Jax & Zooble conflict oh noooo the bitches are fighting /j#Actually this initially started only with Caine & Zooble but I just kept adding others lol#Ragatha & Kinger we’re the very last additions#hplonesome art#tadc characters#the amazing digital circus characters#NOT GONNA PUT ANYMORE TAGS BECAUSE THEN IT’LL GET SWEPT UP AND PEOPLE WILL ASSUME I DRAW THEM ALL THE TIME 🥲#I can’t be held liable for serving TADC fanart content because that isn’t me right now sorry
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sometimes i can’t believe i was posting wips every single wednesday and sunday for literal months like who even was that person
#and now i can’t even write a paragraph without taking a month break#or monthS should i say#god why aren’t the words so easy anymore 😫😖#this writers block thing is doing my absolute head in#i get so excited to still be tagged#and then i’m all ☹️ cos i have no words to share back#i have so many wips so may ideas but i am so scattered#i miss writing soooo much#and instead of actually writing#i just think about it#and never get any words down#also we’re like a third of the way thru the new season and that is scaring me#i feel like by the time i can write again or finish a fic i’ll have missed the boat#and everyone will have moved on#or already written the same idea but better#and it’ll be like hey! what’s the point#anyway i’ll try to be reassured by the fact everyone stayed active during an 18 month hiatus#and the more fics the merrier#also feels like i’m trying to make up for lost time#for all the years the show aired and i wasn’t apart of the fandom#i want to enjoy and savour all the moments of the new season with you all#and get out of my own head#but that won’t be tonight 🥲#🌀 hours#don’t mind me being a sook lol#emphasis on the sunday scaries tonight#literally how is it monday again already im going insane 😵💫#d stuff
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Okay I'm sorry, but did they just hire completely different writers who never watched a single episode of the first 3 seasons???
#this is not my umbrella academy#nothing makes sense#and apparently they forgot about all important plot points and even whole characters#like where is Ray? where is Sloane??????#lila doesn't like bracelets.. umm what??!#five doesn't give a shit about his family anymore and only pines about his brothers wife?? cool cool#I could go on but I'm actually so mad about this all 🥲#umbrella academy#tua spoilers#the umbrella academy spoilers
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i really don’t understand how you’re supposed to make friends as an adult while being autistic and an introvert but also self aware and might have already self sabotaged a potential friendship 😅😅
#i have a headache from crying all day#or maybe i’m just not supposed to have friends 🥲#probably also due to ✨trauma✨#idk#or maybe it’s just my period idk anymore#rant#autistic#personal post#introvert#actually autistic
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[pericky; a look into ricky's head during their meeting.]
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"I'm glad you came, I wasn't sure you would." The wine pours, the sound of it drowning out the missing word in that sentence: back.
Of course, is the response, and the part of Ricky that's spent twenty years tearing itself apart to understand why vibrates with relief. It doesn't matter anymore. Of course, of course, he thinks giddily along with the words. He never needed to wonder why Pericles wasn't coming back in the first place; he was always going to.
I'm happy you invited me, and of course he thinks again. A lifetime of pretending he wasn't always going to either falls away. However harsh and lonely the world has been, all's right with it again; and the shy voice of the boy inside him that he's tried so hard to kill says, so quietly, I missed you.
#sdmi#scooby doo: mystery incorporated#pericky#ricky owens#professor pericles#anyway fucking end me actually. lay me down to die#i said i was gonna write more pericky and by fucking god i did#the 'why did you do this to me' to 'oh thank god you didn't actually do this to me' pipeline of abuse folks 🥲#which like. their last conversation is yet another devastating example of ricky finally standing up to pericles' bullshit Too Late#ricky denounces him in the strongest terms he knows; based on his own feelings and opinions and the way he sees the world#(which: even then he can't bring himself to say 'i don't love you anymore')#(the closest he can get is 'i chose you and i can't take it back; the only way i can imagine not loving you is if i never had at all')#and pericles tries to go 'nyeh nyeh whatever i don't care' (and does a real bad job of pretending he is not obviously hurt lmao)#and ricky doesn't try to understand his logic; he doesn't try to reconcile a world where pericles didn't *really* mean to do anything wrong#his response is MAYBE YOU *SHOULD* CARE.#pericles' view of the world and what's right and acceptable are warped and *wrong* and he's the one who needs to get his shit together#'you shouldn't have abused me you shouldn't have killed cassidy you shouldn't have murdered a child in cold blood'#that is MASSIVE and i think it is really telling that pericles' response is to shut him down with force instead of trying to argue any more#and that in the end is the real true fucking tragedy of it all#ricky is making huge strides one after the other to take back his freedom from pericles emotionally#....and materially it makes no difference to improve his situation in the moment; because pericles doesn't have any less power to abuse him#he never has a triumphant moment where he Overcomes His Abuser and Breaks Out of His Control#there's nothing he can do to fight back until pericles is too Literally Dead to control him anymore#it is one of the rawest depictions of the reality of abuse i've ever seen and just. God. i love it so much#(at the same time i REALLY want to explore a version of events where he got the chance to expand further on that growth)#(the 'all witches are selfish; make all things yours; i have a duty' speech from the wee free men comes to mind)#whosebaby makes things#whosebaby writes#SDMItag#dyn: when i die i want you to die too
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Guess who's deciding to rewrite the Kozuki Luffy Au????
#one piece#one piece au#monkey d. luffy#kozuki clan#Kozuki Luffy AU#Balikhaan AU#his name will be changed actually#so yeah#its not Mochi anymore 🥲
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#i literally this close to ruining a friendship with confessing my feelings for my friend 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣#i mean it's kind of a well known secret that i have feelings for her :)))))#tonight i drank some wine and we had a convo about how im waiting for her and if she'd asked me out i would be to shy to say anything at all#and all that shit. the usual back and forth halfhearted flirting we've been doing for years#but it's fuckin killing me right now because a few months ago i realized i actually do have feelings for her :DDDD#and like. she knows it i just never said it outright. but she fuckin knows. everyone fuckin knows who knows us that there's something lmfao#and im literally this close to just telling her it all#and im pretty fuckin sure that would ruin everything because she's been together with her boyfriend around the same time we met :)))#and even if she has feelings for me then what bro? she'd never drop him and I don't think our friendship could go on if i confess :)))#even though it super obvious:)))))#i dont even know what im taking about anymore im just fuckin sad and heartbroken bro#I've only had deeper feelings twice and both were for my best friends who are in relationships#but oh my god this time it feels so much fucking worse#i ghosted her last a week because i just couldn't deal with constantly feeling like shit and being jealous every time she mentions ger bf#AND IT FEELS LIKE ABSOLUTE SHIT TO NOT BE HAPPY FOR HER??? SHE'S MY BEST FRIEND I SHOULD BE HAPPY FOR HER HAPPINESS#BUT I CAN'T BE A 100% HAPPY AND IT MAKES ME FEEL SO FUCKING GUILTY AND BAD#i just need like a car or sth to take me out bro i can't do this 🥲🥲🥲#I just want these feelings to go away oh my god how many months will it be#i really feel like I can't keep this to myself anymore. and that would just ruin everything#oh my god just kill me#ÁGNES IF YOU SEE THIS FUCKING POST THEN NO YOU DON'T#not like I don't cry to you about this every 3 days#anyway im sorry. next year i will get to the requests in my inbox aye? :'DD#shut up vivien no one cares
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where my keratosis pilaris homies at it's that time of the year where ppl don't have to look at our arms or legsssssss let's goooooo 🔥🔥🔥🔥
#i forget it's there bc i've has it my entire life but#every once in a while i look at myself like 🥹 ''wow that's actually hideous''#and i really don't care anymore but again#every once in a while i'm like 🥲 w h y#no pimple questions for a while ayyyyyyyy#keratosis pilaris
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i finished recording everything that im planning to make gifs for 😪
#this doesnt sound like an accomplishment 😭😂#and ill need to chop clips up due to size limit so the actual number will probably multiply quickly too 🥲#im genuinely holding myself to not recording anymore tho..these last clips were from projects AGES ago (kftp and believe specifically 😇)#ramblin but not a gamblin man
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wistfully thinking about my beloved delphox from my original x playthrough. if only you could've seen this, kuranosuke...
#i don't have him anymore unfortunately i traded him over to my brother for safekeeping#but he wasn't on any of his carts when i checked them so i guess he's gone 🥲#and yes i named him after the princess jellyfish character i was very into the anime at the time#xy has a very special place in my heart the plot is a mess and doesn't flesh out or utilize its characters very well#but it's also the first game that i got very attached to my team and made me fall in love w/ the franchise#it's also got the best post-game storyline of the mainline games to me#i'm excited to see kalos again i can't wait to learn more about the game#also if it's set not too long after xy then we better see emma again my girl deserves some focus in the main story#it'd be so fun if we actually get to join the looker bureau and protect the city w/ emma i'd love that!!#mj.txt
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Rupert is determined to make me cry with his posts these days 😭
#carlos sainz jr#rupert manwaring#my txt#can’t believe he’s actually leaving#can’t live in denial anymore 🥲
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so i got the epilogue finally :") and god.. i don't want this game to end 🤧 the credits hit me one more 🥲😭
#i wonder if there's a dlc to come with all the thoust may yet be needed talk from withers???#also i fucked up with gale he became god 🥲 it hurts to see him like this actually nothing of gale i loved left 😭#also i didnt get hugs from everyone 😭#only karlach halsin and shadowheart ;_;#why wouldnt wyll hug us??🥲 i understand with laezel since she was an astral projection and gale well..not being himself anymore in my eyes#i was 100 exceptional with everyone and yet?? WYLL WHYYY 😭😭😭#at least i got plenty of hugs from halsin and shadowheart 🥰#karlach i could only hug once idk why ;_;#and asta i chose another option and after that he said to go mingle and that we have eternity togethercdmfmf🥺🥺🥺#i need to reload to pick hugging him optionvdmdmdm#fUCK I LOVE THIS GAME SM I AM NOT READY TO PART WIRH IT IDC 😭😭😭#and all the letters???#I FORGOT TO KILL ARAJ AND SHE WENT THROUGH WITH HER PLAN OOPSVKXCKCM#and elminster's letter to gale broke my heart 🥺😭#ALSO A LETTER FROM HARLEEP?? 🤯😳#and arabella calling wlminster beard manvxncmcnc 😂#and barcus' very formal letter like binch i love u why are u so cold???😂#and alfira and lakryssa opening a bard school 🥺🥺🥺#also i am sad there's no letter from isobel or dame aylin tho 🥲#bg3 spoilers
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I’m starting all the big girl stuff and learning how to do diagnostics and treatment methods. Way to make me equally terrified and excited 🥲
#I have to start sitting in on AA and NA meetings which makes me extremely scared bc I gotta go alone to those 🥲#but yeah we really gettin in it now#bc right now I’m doing focus areas addiction and substance abuse and then neurodevelopmental disorders in children#but both are starting off with basic clinical practices#and it’s also a little funny bc in one of my classes today I was sitting there like ‘ohhh that’s what my therapist was doing’#but yeah I’m scared but also not scared#and I’m like ‘yay my copy of the DSM-V is finally gonna be put to use’#but I’m actually far more scared bc actual clinical internships aren’t the far future now#that shit is SOOOOOON and what if I’m bad at it 👀#I mean I’m sure I’ll be fine BUT THAT SHIT IS COMING UP IT AINT A WHEN IM OKDER THING ANYMORE#ITS LIKE NEXT SEMSESTER 🥲
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Well I can no longer do cheaper shipping for flat items...I've had enough lol no one reads my warnings that the tracking isn't accurate..everyday I get a chain of messages acting like I'm scamming them when I literally have it in 3 different places that say USPS doesnt reliably track flat items... 😭 And then they get it 3 days later like I tell them but ppl are so aggressive when they ask about their order....so I'm just doing tje $3-4 shipping option with actual tracking 😬
#this has been stressing me out since yhe holidays of last year#i want to offer afforable options on shipping but i cant handle the amount of people who are rude when asking abt their package#some people are actually really nice but theres just so many unnecessarily angry people in my emails over a sticker#i cant deal with it anymore 🥲#and the way etsy handles their shipping options is super weird i cant offer both options at the same time for some reason
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