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STEB HEADCANONS :>
Uhhhm YEAH a few headcanons ive collected since act 3 came out in november 😸 enjoy Stebnation, or dont idk
This is very short and boring but its easier to write him in an actual scenario so TRUST IN ME MY UPCOMING STUFF WILL BE BETTER 😿
Content warnings: Established relationship w Reader, miiiild mention of knifeplay but its easily looked past. My opinion on his race.
NSFW marked this pink!
• He cannot be any older than 30. I'd bet hes like 23-27. Idk how old u have to be to be a field medic/enforcer??
• Hes around 6'4.. Tall guy. ♥︎‿♥︎
• His frill thingies seem to lie flat to his face with "down" emotions, such as shame/guilt and sadness. But they point straight out with more intense emotions, like suspense, anger, exitement, worry. I love the way they flutter sometimes, as a subtle reaction. Like when they saw the Zaunites walking over the bridge to aid in the war, his frills were like "oh, wow.."
But also how they shot straight out with suspense when Ambessa wanted Caitlyn to b commander and everyone was banging their chests and stuff.
• I'd like to imagine his frills flutter a few times in a row when he orgasms, like the shockwaves of pleasure, but also post-orgasm. Maybe they go hand in hand with his nervous system kinda?
• His tip is the same color as his eyelids. His nails seem to be beige too.
• He CAN talk he just chooses not to if he feels he doesnt need to. Short sentences if he has to, small nods and shakes of his head, LOOKS. his face is VERY expressive, but thats more of a fact than a hc. body language is a key communication of his.
• Hes def always been the quiet type, ever since he was six he hasn't been big on speaking.
But sometimes you cheat the system.. Having your back turned to him when you ask him a question just so you can hear his voice, even just to get a little "mhm" from him <3
• On the rare occasion that he does speak his voice is kinda hoarse and gravelly from lack of use UGHHHH *squirts everywhere*
• hes a bit of a "bland" person, hes not boring.. Just a very simple man. He reads practically anything, carries your bags when you're out shopping, he literally just goes wherever you wanna go. He hangs over your shoulders when you do ur makeup, cooks breakfast most mornings, cleans when he feels its needed cuz he doesn't like messes, he'll have music on in the background tho and it's usually one of your vinyls that's playing, makes him feel closer to you <3
Simple things man. deeply emotional and caring too. Hes so kind and eager to help ugh MY SHAYLAA.
• hes a bit socially awkward, he doesnt have social anxiety, hes just kinda stiff and quiet around people.
• what the fuck does he do all day, really?
• I feel like he'd like dancing with his lover but he thinks hes bad at it so hes a bit awkward <333 put his hands around ur waist for him tho and he'd turn into even more speechless mush, everytime.
• Has a gummy smile thats really evident when he laughs so he tries not too, might let a grin slip in private tho c: and close mouthed chuckling/snickers.
• Loves being carressed, hold his face in your hands and trace his cheekbones with ur thumbs? FOLDS. Running your fingers up and down the fins at the back of his head when his face is in your neck? PUTTY.
• Speaking of fins, they continue down to to his lower back, shorter at the bottom but longest between his shoulderblades. He also has darker spots(scales?) Like the other fishfolk in Arcane on his outer arms and thighs. See this post of mine for a ref :)
• he drinks alot of water, like ALOT. his throat get dry easily cuz hes.. Yk, fish.. Atleast half-fish. He'll remind his partner to do the same, no matter your race cuz its good for u, he'll nudge u with a glass in hand and a small tug at his lips, or simply just leave it beside u as a silent reminder.
• Loves holding hands. like, he just LOVES it. He'll act nonchalant abt it but on the inside his heart is just blossoming 💗
Like imagine you're at a café or a bar or a diner WHATEVER and ur just sitting infront of him yapping abt ur day or smth ur planning while holding his hand over the table, and he'll just be buzzing with love, rubbing your soft skin with his thumb, feeling lucky his blush doesnt show (⁎˃ᴗ˂⁎)
• ABSOLUTELY ADORES kisses. He just finds them so sweet and intimate (cuz they are. But i mean like, he doesn't ever NOT think about it after kissing you, hes always locked on target y'know, he only sees you. He only feels you when kissing your lips, he'll kiss u like its the end of the world.. even if hes just getting up to go to the bathroom or something.)
• he just loves you so much, please kiss him, everywhere. Theres not a single spot of him you could kiss that wouldn't make him shiver (the good way).
• Steb is not much for hardcore kinks in bed. He doesnt "fuck", he makes love. In his eyes there truly isnt any purer form of intimacy than sharing something like that, giving away a piece of yourself to this person, your souls spiritually intertwined and yadiyadayada (it's true tho)
• He will go harder if you ask him to, hes not afraid to make you scream with pleasure. Also, bite him and hes a goner. Omg if hes like treating u so nicely in the sack you gotta bite down on something to contain yourself, pls let it be his shoulder, please leave pretty imprints of you canines all over his neck and chest. And hickeys too HNNGHH
Makes him groan so deliciously. Hips snapping into yours just a liiiittle more harshly than intended.
He'll bite you back carnally if you'll let him, Steb gets so lost in it sometimes..
• Hes open to experimentation tho, like if theres something you reallyreallyreally wanna try he'll be like 'euuughgghggggrhggh okay yk what fine', as long as he doesn't have to hurt you, not too much anyway. The idea of inflicting pain-pain on the person he loves makes him queasy.
• But if hes really fucking horny at some point, watching you take the front seat and play around w his gills, scratch at his chest, put a hand around his neck or.. Idk drag a knife gently across his skin while topping he'll literally whine, digging his dull nails into your sides, holding on for dear life.
• He loves being called petnames. Serious and silly ones. His favorites have gotta be Love, Darling, Baby and pretty boy.. All the sappy stuff. One time you called him 'Gorgeous' and his frills shot straight out for a solid three seconds.. If he already didn't speak, he'd be speechless then. CUZ HES A GORGEOUS MAN.
Or that one time you called him 'fishface' and he just slumped in defeat when he heard you giggle, knowing that one was gonna stick around.
You'll enter the kitchen where hes making something to eat and just go "Hey, Fishface! So--!" Continuing to yap and he just rolls his eyes with a lopsided, lovesick grin u cant see from behind him. From anybody else it'd piss him off, but it's you, So he lets it slide.
• he has the warmest and weirdly softest fuckin hands ever. They're never clammy or sticky, just nice and toasty, perfect.
• is the type to grab your hands in the winter and rub them if theyre cold, trying to transfer his warmth over, even if hes also freezing. breathing hotly onto them.
• speaking of winter he probably HATES IT. He gets SO cold SO easy, hes shaking in his boots fr. A frozen fishstick fr. Like jesus. But the palms of his hands stay warm for some reason..
adding to that hes def a sweater fiend.. He LOVES knitted sweaters and hoodies and TURTLENECKS. HE'D LOOK SO GOOD IN A TURTLENECK. TELL ME IM WRONG. LIKE A BIG, FAT, KNITTED ONE THAT GOES UP TO HIS JAW. Even better if you knit/crocheted them for him <33
• I headcanon that his dad is a human and his mom is a fish person cuz he has hair and rounded teeth which other fishfolk we see don't. We don't see any other fishfolk from piltover tho.. So maybe hes just slapped on a wig, peel-off eyebrows and filed his teeth down (which is INSANELY painful btw) to look "socially acceptable". I HEAVILY doubt that, when i rascism like that ever shown in Arcane, Piltover specifically? 🤔 Im not even gonna get into that whole Vastaya thing cuz i dont know enough.. I heard they can decide how many animal features they show as they please and that they're like deeply connected to magic and live really long.. But that isn't mentioned or even nodded to in Arcane so im just gonna pretend that doesnt exist lol sorry
• but ya he adopted alot of his moms fishy features but also human-ish hair and teeth from his dad.
•speaking of his parents, i do feel like Steb was raised kinda strictly? Idk i just feel like his parents would be very uptight and that stuck with him all the way into adulthood, he stands super upright and is well proper while on the job because thats just what hes been taught.
hes alot more relaxed at home tho, where he knows he doesn't have to be or look presentable for anyone, especially not you. he knows you'll love him even while standing by the fridge in pj's, with a fist full of grated cheese ready to be devoured at circa 2 AM.
• He was raised in a small village on the outskirts, right beside the ocean. Hence he still adores it and loves to go swimming with you, reminds him of his childhood yk c:
• He kinda gives only child vibes to me? Idk the thought of him with an older sibling is kinda cute tho,, i imagine they'd be like complete opposites. They hardly see eachother,, I don't feel like his family lives in Piltover. He had a "Mom, Dad.. I'm 18 now..! I'm moving to the big city. And there is nothing you can do to stop me." Moment, exept in a less verbal way maybe, moving to the city of progress and begining medical and tactical training, to help people. On both sides.
• Hes really good at origami, sometimes when hes at work and droning at his desk with nothing better to do he'll just grab a random paper and fold a little swan together. You've found multiple critters like that scattered around the house, some with faces drawn on, just two inky dots and a derpy smile like this : )
Once he made one of your favorite animal and left it on your nightstand before heading to work, you picked it up and examined it, smile growing even wider when you found the hidden lovenote that was written on it <3
It's now glued neatly into your shared scrapbook/journal along with many more, surrounded by dried flowers and red hearts <33
Uhhhhhhhhhhhrghhhhhhhhhh yeah ❗️🚮 i just debated wether or not this is even worth posting for like twenty minutes.
Pls dont bash me for my opinions now *gulp*
Also heres a lil reminder that im taking requests 💗💗 i love writing i just never have good or original ideas :'o(
#arcane#steb arcane#arcane steb#arcane s2#steb#steb x reader#steb x you#steb imagine#steb smut#steb headcanons#Saliva yappings 🍥
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232 Years Ago King Louis XVI got beheaded - and here is why!
Okay, I kinda wanted to make this one later, but then a friend said that it would be dumb, because today is the darn anniversary of this event. Which is correct.
So, in Castlevania Nocturne we see the execution of King Louis XVI, which evokes three emotions of the characters watching it.
Annette goes: "Good riddance." Richter goes: "Well, but is this right?" Alucard goes: "Well, this will make things go bad."
But here is the thing. Most of us have suffered through very bad history classes, in which we kinda learned about the French Revolution, but probably did not REALLY learn anything about it. I tried it with my friends. Nobody could tell me either why Louis was executed, nor could anyone tell me why the Revolution actually failed. People were fairly sure that it failed, but that was about all they could tell me.
So, let me go a bit into Louis and the Revolution.
Louis was one of those kings who were really bad with the one thing that kings are supposed to make: decisions. When the people started to rise up, and get into a bit of a revolutionary mood, Louis was very, very indecisive on what to do. A lot of people at the time made jokes about how Marie Antoinette was the actual person who was doing all those decisions and what not, because Louis was so bad with his indecision.
When the people got angry, he kinda hesitantly agreed to allow an elected government, as long as he could veto everything. And the elected government was basically made up 25% of nobles, and 25% of clergy (despite clergy and nobles only making up about 3% of the population) and only 50% supposed peasants. And then they wanted to make it, that the nobles and clergy members would not meet with the peasants.
However, some of the nobles did rise up against this (mainly nobles that themselves were marginalized through queerness or disability) and basically the National Assembly formed, there was a declaration of the rights of men, and the constitution was written. And what France at the time were aiming for was a Constitutional Monarchy - the same way that England was having it.
It was especially Lafayette who pushed for this and was doing his best to a) protect the king, and b) stopped the violence from escalating. Historians to this day are kinda discussing whether he wanted to increase his own influence, or whether he really just saw the writing on the wall of how much the violence were going to escalate.
And generally at the time the people were still quite benevolent towards the king. It was like: "Yay, we are all a big French family, and the king is out father! Fraternity!"
Either way: Louis and his family were made to live in Paris, being guarded by Lafayette and the National Guard. Until one day in 1791 Louis and family suddenly were gone. The official narration was: "Oh, the king got kidnapped." But a lot of people at the time were like:
Pretty much nobody fell for it.
Louis and his family have of course fled and tried to flee the country. Their flight was kinda dumb. They dressed as peasants, but also had the fanciest fucking carriage that you could imagine. And after a while Louis started to talk with the people, despite everyone knowing what he looked like (mainly because he had a very distinctive nose). And at some point someone was like: "Yeah, no, this is the supposedly kidnapped king. I am gonna alarm someone." And then Louis was dragged back to Paris, just shortly because he managed to reach the Belgian border.
He was dragged back to Paris, and it was then that the discussions really started of what was supposed to happen with him. Mainly, too, because at this point some of the surrounding kings started to be a bit nervous about the entire thing. Originally they were happy that France was less of a danger to them, but then they were like: "Oh, shit, if the people get ideas from this, they might dispose us, too." So they started to think about a) saving Louis and his family, and b) getting rid of this darn revolution.
And of course Louis, now stopped from fleeing, tried to communicate and collaborate with those other kings. And came out.
Now, the Revolutionaries originally declared war at the other kings - and Louis even agreed. The Revolutionaries agreed, because they knew they could not cower before the kings and show weakness. Louis agreed, because he hoped it would mean he would get saved. And so France went to war with a variety of neighboring regions.
And it was in this situation that people were starting to look at Louis and think: "Maybe he needs to die. Maybe we need to make a point out of killing him."
The national assembly voted on it, and by a margin of JUST ONE SINGLE VOTE they eventually decided to execute him. Mainly to make a point about their Revolution. And Louis was then very quickly executed within just two days on the morning of January 21st.
#castlevania#castlevania netflix#castlevania nocturne#french revolution#french history#louis xvi#history#european history
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youve mentioned not being interested in prize figures anymore & im curious why? like if a prize figure was coming out you liked the look of, would you just not get it on account of it being a prize? or is it not as strict? ive been a prize only collector for ages but started investing in scale figs in the last 2 years (specifically more "flashy" ones with lots of detail, unique bases etc where it genuinely feels worth the steep price increase since some scales are just really basic in design & quality which feels like a waste of money imo), however i still buy prizes if i like the design/sculpt/character, my fav ever prize figure i own is actually the luminasta modern china miku & i dont see her nearly enough cause shes stunning honestly :3 sorry if this is kinda incoherent im sick rn T_T
ah no it's not strict, it's really not a rule or anything but just more of a pattern i guess! i do still own 11 prize figures i love (excluding all the ones i'm selling) and have 1 on my wishlist, but all my favourite figures i own are scale figures. i just really love the fine details and intricate poses my fav figures have! prize figures can be and nowadays very often are beautifully made but you just can't add a big intricate base to a figure that's supposed to cost $30. i guess to put it simply, prize figures often don't have my personal favourite things about figures.
now this might sound silly but i think i do also have a slight negative association with prize figures. i used to struggle with a severe buying addiction (babe wake up new dailyfigures lore just dropped) in a period while i was also unemployed and it was like uhhh top 1 worst times of my life. i barely had money to spare but to feed the addiction i bought any prize figure i could get for less than like 15 bucks on ebay auctions. obviously those weren't figures i really truly loved so i would only feel shame and regret when i looked at them. when i recovered and got a stable job i was able to buy the more expensive figures i did truly want and those did genuinely make me happy.
like i said i know it's silly to project my own previous issues onto innocent pieces of plastic but i think a small part of me is like "oh god no please we are not doing this again" when i'm thinking about buying a prize figure. mental illness am i right ladies haha um. anyway i guess long story long. i just lost interest in prize figures along the way but if i really like one i'm not against buying it
#we are really getting up close and personal on this thursday night zoowee mama#btw it is possible none of this makes sense but i do very much believe addiction is one of the things that can never really make sense-#unless you've experienced it and i really hope none of you have so it'd be okay if none of this made sense#OH also anon that miku you mentioned is sooo cute i love her too! and sorry you're sick i hope you feel better soon!#ask#anon#non figure
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txt reactions-you are scared of needle
choi soobin
it was very obvious that you are stressed about the needle you will get. You were all awake last night and sweating all day. You get dressed and you start to prepare your bag. Soobin was even baking for you to try to cheer you up. You were checking your bag constantly and try to hold something on. Soobin and you sat on the car, and he started driving to the near hospital for the needle. As you guys reached a nurse took you to the injection room. You rolled your sleeve and you started staring at the needle.
"Please, don't look at it.."
"İt is too big even.."
"Just squeeze your fist and take deep breaths."
You nodded and took a deep breath from your nose. The nurse finished the injection in 3 seconds and she gave you the cotton to cover the area and protect from the light bleeding.
You pressed the cotton over there and you got up. Soobin claps his hand and chuckled.
"Little brave princess,huh?"
"Yeah, I guess..It hurt, İt is not a lie."
choi yeonjun
Yeonjun was kinda annoying about all of this needle phobia. You were mad at him also. You were looking at yoru habds while you are waiting for the injection room to get empty. The nurses are too busy now. Yeonjun was chuckling softly when he saw that you are playing with your sleeve.
"Hey, İt is not something you should make fun of!"
"Calm down. You are too loud.
You nod softly. You heard your name from the injection room and you got up. You walked to the injection room and you sat on the chair and rolled up your sleeve. You squeezed your fist and relaxed. Yeonjun was clapping softly and trying to cheer you up.
choi beomgyu
His eyes glanced across at your bouncing legs. You were so stressed while biting your nails even.
"İt is going to be alright." He tried to assure you, knowing how terrified you are from the needles.
"I just don't wanna see any needle."
"I know." He whimpered, moving his other arm around your frame. He hugged you slowly.. you hide your head into his chest.
"I promise it will be nice and easy. You won’t feel anything also." You nodded softly and you played with his fingers.
"And I can go inside with you if it will make you feel better druing the injection." You nodded
"Please, you should come in with me too..I am feeling too stressed."
Beomgyu pouted with your words. He held your hand and he kissed it. "Everything will be fine."
kang taehyun
taehyun was constantly bringing up the needle topic during the car ride to the hospital. He was telling you that it will be okay, that it will be painless and relaxing for you. You were very terrified actually. You were looking at the outside from the window seat but your hands are grabbing your bag too tight. Your hands were sweating with panic and you were biting your lips.
Taehyun was aware all of them. He parked the car near of the hospital and you walked in with him. The little children are crying in the injection room and screaming their lungs out because of the needle and the other things that the nurses did. You sighed and wiped your hands to your Jean.
Taehyun held your hand and replied. "Get calmer. It is not like that terrifying. They are just too attention seeker and also fragile. You will jist feel a pinch and it will end soon..and it is for your health so it will worth for it."
You nodded softly after his words. The nurse called you and you sighed. You go into the room.
Hueningkai kamal
It was a bad idea to tell him about your injection in the hospital. He was also scared for your health. He was squeezing your fongers while you are waiting for the nurse to come in the room. You were hitting your feet to the floor with heels. Other children are screaming and crying. Their parents are holding their hands amd they were trying to handle with them. You got stressed more before the nurse call.
"Okay, now we can go in. Try to take deep breaths and relax.
"Okay, deep breaths and relax." You replied again and you sat on the chair. You rolled your sleeve and you put your arm on the chair arm.
The nurse slowly inject the medicine and finished it in seconds. You were very relieved that it ended so fastly. You gives a breath after that.
Hueningkai chuckled.
"So it is done,huh?"
"Yeah, İt is."
"Relax now. We will return home."
#txt fluff#beomgyu fanfic#beomgyu fluff#hueningkai#tomorrow x together#txt hard hours#txt imagines#txt scenarios#txt reaction#txt fanfiction#yeonjun x reader#txt yeonjun#txt edits#soobin txt#soobin x reader#soobin icons#beomgyu imagines#taehyun x y/n#taehyun x reader#taehyun fluff#txt huening kai#huening txt#huening kai x reader#yeonjun icons#tomorrow by together#writers on tumblr#txt fanfic
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/18333362
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Part of me was kinda scared to read this but im so glad I did. Its just morbid enough to work you know? It would be so diffrent if Bucky didn't know. If he didn't actually know that steve loved him. And steve trying so sooo hard I think this actually shows him he loves him more then words ever could. I think this is why they work so well together, because of the fact steve could scream at him that he hates him and bucky would laugh because to him steve could never hurt him.
Well- not physically anyway. Besides, I think even after growing up, bucky still sees that scrawny guy. Mentally I mean, in his head, steve will always need protected and cherished. So to have someone like that yell at you, its almost laughable. He knows steve wont actually throw his food away and he knows steve actually does care about him. He knows he would never want to be anywhere else and is safe with steve. He knows that the warmth of his arms is always there, even if he was trained to respond to harsh words just the same.
I kind of feel bad for steve though, it must kill him to say such mean things to bucky. He must feel terrible. I can so see him getting top drop and pretending its fine and he's a big tough man but bucky has to kiss his little tears away only for steve to push his face away and bite his tounge not to smile and giggle.
I wonder if they ever wrestle around like kids. Not wrestle like.. adults... but if steve pushes him away too much and bucky genuinely wants a kiss if he'll have to pin him and laugh before earning his "prize". Ah yes. A kiss from the fairest of all the madians, steve. Now thats a fic id read the hell out of <3
Once again @stucky-just-stucky for the rec
#stucky#stucky just stucky#stove and bucket#steve rodgers#captian america#bucky barnes#james barnes#winter soldier#captian America and the winter soilder#hydra#hey man if it works it works#fic rec#fanfic
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not a huge thing but i'm pretty sure ive settled on a name for when i get the opportunity to legally change my name. quite happy <33
#camera talks#actually it kinda is a big thing for me <3#:))#im adding to my middle name as well as changing my first name#making my middle name hyphenated and adding a name from further back in my moms family#(current middle name is part of my dads family)#mainly bc im not going to keep my last name when im older but i do have connections to my familial roots in a way#anyways. ill be going by one name legally#(and my name hoard is for friends lol <33)#uhm yeah. anyways. happy times <3#also. bc of the state i live in i might be able to change it next year? /pos (idk the rules for other states i just know mine)#(and i could technically change it like. now? but we're waiting a little bit just to set everything up)#my mom and i have started to look at the paper work and stuff already#gah. this is like. so special to me. anyways <3
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finally got my fluffyrice keychain tests in! these guys turned out much bigger than I anticipated (and after noticing a very specific error on one of these 😅) but they honestly turned out pretty nice!
#kagarambles#trainer riley#stat trainer riley#champion lance#lance pokemon#its not specifically rice but. it goes in my tag anyway bfhdvfh#fluffyriceshipping#🐉🍚🌊#pmex ex colors and shiny colors are on the back while the front has the base colors and an epoxy coating to give it a rounder feel#honestly wasn't expecting this to turn out as good as it did. so i'm kinda proud of them#to the keenest eyes you probably will notice an error and honestly yeah. i didn't notice until they were already shipped out :[#that and size too these guys are like. a good 3 inches (big;;;) so I'm probably sticking to 1.5-2 inches for next time#but if there's any interest for these guys to make and sell on my kofi shop definitely let me know!#might throw a google form up in a reblog if people actually want some of these guys + more characters ya'll wanna recommend#I'm like. fluffyrice brained so of course i had to make the single thing keeping my brain afloat into merch catering to Me
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actually i'm still thinking about the moral orel finale.
he has a cross on his wall. do you know how much i think about that bc it's a lot.
a lot of stories ((auto)biographical or fictional) centering escape from abusive/fundamentalist christianity result in the lead characters leaving behind christianity entirely. and that makes complete sense! people often grow disillusioned with the associated systems and beliefs, and when it was something used to hurt them or something so inseparable from their abuse that they can't engage with it without hurting, it makes total sense that they would disengage entirely. and sometimes they just figure out that they don't really believe in god/a christian god/etc. a healthy deconstruction process can sometimes look like becoming an atheist or converting to another religion. it's all case by case. (note: i'm sure this happens with other religions as well, i'm just most familiar with christian versions of this phenomenon).
but in orel's case, his faith was one of the few things that actually brought him comfort and joy. he loved god, y'know? genuinely. and he felt loved by god and supported by him when he had no one else. and the abuses he faced were in how the people in his life twisted religion to control others, to run away from themselves, to shield them from others, etc. and often, orel's conflicts with how they acted out christianity come as a direct result of his purer understanding of god/jesus/whatever ("aren't we supposed to be like this/do that?" met with an adult's excuse for their own behavior or the fastest way they could think of to get orel to leave them alone (i.e. orel saying i thought we weren't supposed to lie? and clay saying uhhh it doesn't count if you're lying to yourself)). the little guy played catch with god instead of his dad, like.. his faith was real, and his love was real. and i think it's a good choice to have orel maintain something that was so important to him and such a grounding, comforting force in the midst of. All That Stuff Moralton Was Up To/Put Him Through. being all about jesus was not the problem, in orel's case.
and i know i'm mostly assuming that orel ended up in a healthier, less rigid version of christianity, but i feel like that's something that was hinted at a lot through the series, that that's the direction he'd go. when he meditates during the prayer bee and accepts stephanie's different way to communicate, incorporating elements of buddhism into his faith; when he has his I AM A CHURCH breakdown (removing himself from the institution and realizing he can be like,, the center of his own faith? taking a more individualistic approach? but Truly Going Through It at the same time), his acceptance (...sometimes) of those who are different from him and condemned by the adults of moralton (stephanie (lesbian icon stephanie my beloved), christina (who's like. just a slightly different form of fundie protestant from him), dr chosenberg (the jewish doctor from otherton in holy visage)). his track record on this isn't perfect, but it gets better as orel starts maturing and picking up on what an absolute shitfest moralton is. it's all ways of questioning the things he's been taught, and it makes sense that it would lead to a bigger questioning as he puts those pieces together more. anyway i think part of his growth is weeding out all the lost commandments of his upbringing and focusing on what faith means to him, and what he thinks it should mean. how he wants to see the world and how he wants to treat people and what he thinks is okay and right, and looking to religion for guidance in that, not as like. a way to justify hurting those he's afraid or resentful of, as his role models did.
he's coming to his own conclusions rather than obediently, unquestioningly taking in what others say. but he's still listening to pick out the parts that make sense to him. (edit/note: and it's his compassion and his faith that are the primary motivations for this questioning and revisal process, both of individual cases and, eventually, the final boss that is christianity.) it makes perfect sense as the conclusion to his character arc and it fits the overall approach of the show far better. it's good is what i'm saying.
and i think it's important to show that kind of ending, because that's a pretty common and equally valid result of deconstruction. and i think it cements the show's treatment of christianity as something that's often (and maybe even easily) exploited, but not something inherently bad. something that can be very positive, even. guys he even has a dog he's not afraid of loving anymore. he's not afraid of loving anyone more than jesus and i don't think it's because he loves this dog less than bartholomew (though he was probably far more desperate for healthy affection and companionship when he was younger). i think it's because he figures god would want him to love that dog. he's choosing to believe that god would want him to love and to be happy and to be kind. he's not afraid of loving in the wrong way do you know how cool that is he's taking back control he's taking back something he loves from his abusers im so normal
#i had a really big fundie snark phase a year or two ago so that's part of like. this. but im still not used to actually talking about#religious stuff so if it reads kinda awkwardly uhh forgive me orz idk#maybe it sounds dumb but i like that the message isn't 'religion is evil'. it easily could have been. but i think the show's points about#how fundie wasp culture in particular treats christianity and itself and others would be less poignant if they were like. and jesus sucks#btw >:] like. this feels more nuanced to me. i guess there's probably a way to maintain that nuance with an ultimately anti-christian#piece of media but i think it'd be like. wayy harder and it's difficult for me to imagine that bc i think a lot of it would bleed out into#the tone. + why focus on only These christians when They're All also bad? so you'd get jokes about them in general#and i think that's kinda less funny than orel and doughy screaming and running from catholics lsdkjfldksj#i think the specificity makes it more unique and compelling as comedy and as commentary. but that's just me#like moralton represents a very particular kind of christian community (namely a middle class fundie wasp nest)#you're not gonna be able to get in the weeds as much if you're laughing at/criticizing all christians. but they accomplish it so thoroughly#and WELL in morel and i think that's because it chose a smaller target it can get to dissect more intimately. anyway#moral orel#orel puppington#(OH also when i say wasp here i mean WASP the acronym. as in white anglo-saxon protestsant. in case the term's new to anyone <3)#maybe it's also relevant to say that i'm kindaaaaaaaa loosely vaguely nonspecifically christian. so there's my bias revealed#i was never raised like orel but i like to think i get some of what's going on in there y'know. in that big autistic head of his#but it's not like i can't handle anti-christian/anti-religious media/takes. i'm a big boy and also i v much get why it's out there yknow#christianity in specific has a lot of blood on its hands from its own members and from outsiders and people have a right to hate it for tha#but religion in all its forms can be positive and i appreciate the nuance. like i've said around 20 times. yeah :) <3#(<- fighting for my life to explain things even though my one job is to be the explainer)
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And never let you go ♥
Bonus without the overspill lighting:
#💟#Digital art#Full Art#Art#Edgar#Scriabin#It's that time of year again where I get real sappy about Vargas ♥ Because yes! Once again it is my own personal Vargasversary! 🎊 Yaaaay#Seven years now - I don't know what to do with seven years it feels like a hard to define number haha#Right in the middle between five years and ten years! A while to be certain but hard to define as a Long Time either hmm#Well whatever it doesn't matter <3 The important part is that I still love Vargas and them very much ♥♪#I actually didn't really have any specific plans for this Vargasversary :0 I haven't been drawing them much again#Other things have drawn my focus and attention hehe ♪#So I just kinda set my hand loose - no sketches on paper no defined idea - this is just what my hand/brain came up with in the moment#I'm pleased :) I think it accurately expresses how I feel about them hehe <3#I wrote down what ended up being the text/caption a couple months ago while I was in Big Love in their direction#I don't remember what inspired it anymore other than just - They ♥ Themst ♥ Do love them <3#I've planned my next reread now ♪ Barring anything drastic (like an update lol) I know when I'll be rereading next#I'm looking forward to it! :D As always hehe <3#It's still a bit a ways off which works well for recharging :)#And of course I'll be doing my usual in the meanwhile - this and the main anniversary and my sketchdumps and Requestober haha#The caption is as much me as it is Edgar after all <3#Even quiet and sleeping I still find them as a comfort - a place I find rest and joy in ♥#Inspiring and lovely and wonderful - pretty and tender and dear!#Oh and#Always finding a way to flip up the bottom of the shirt#Hehe <3
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#can i yap for a moment#im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused#also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting#anyway#made out w a boy tonight#and he wanted to go to his place#and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies#and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid#that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him#i just hate when boys think they're so superior#so i argued with this stupid but hot man#until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things#anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship#but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again#it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house 😋#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times#and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends#anyway and then we left the party#this guy pulls me aside the parking lot#and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it#and i just wanted to die#and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute#but i legit have zero feelings for him </3#and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one#actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3#the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes#but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3
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gyjo omegaverse because IDGAF!!!
#jjba#johnny joestar#gyjo#gyro zeppeli#jojos bizarre adventure#my art#omegaverse#johnny loves scratching gyros beard :)#he loves how scratchy it feels hehehe#even if it kinda itches his face whenever they kiss xd#and gyro loves being appreciated by johnny >:3#he’s like a big ol doggy#and then there’s the second pic#LMAOOOO#gyro isn’t like… sexist(?) but his family has a tradition to keep sooo#and johnny is like bro#but he fr doesn’t mind deep down#he wants a big family too#but he’s just feeling tired from the pregnancy is all#but you best believe that they will be getting it on to make baby no.2 right after the first is born#regardless of their alignment#HAHAHAHAAH#this is all inspired by cocos fic time for you and baby too btw#god bless the gyjo jesus#I need to draw more abo it’s actually like my favorite thing in the world#it makes me happeh…#I’m not sorry for this showing up in the community tags#ALSO IVE SEEN MY ASKS#THANK YALL SO MUCJ I LOVE YOU GUYS 😭😭😭‼️‼️‼️#IM DOING THE REQUESTS RN IM JUST TRYING TO GET THEM TO LOOK GOOD AHHHH
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My Accolades
#not art#this is actually maybe not Super Plausible if the cannons are actually old school style lmao.#they often used a long matchstick thing that burns a Lot slower than usual. thats where ''fire in the hole'' came from#what I imagine and kinda force it to work is riz flicks the embers from his cig into the vent. and thats a hot enough fire to light a canno#I know Ive been here for uhhhh ten seconds but u guys must know what my deal is by now lmao. its like this forever#anyways its cool so it has to be real. that boy was Aiming AND Lighting those things all by himself. he was doing some insane stunts#to get that to work he weighs like five pounds soaking wet and you Know those cannons are not securely latched down#gods to think of it. that means kristen and k2 were risking it all for real hanging out on the gunner deck#it truly is Big Bill Hell's Ship out here Im so sorry girls. Im so sorry kristen#Im so sorry k2........#anyways if u ask me how this works 1/it just does 2/shut up 3/dont talk to me ok? ok#My Accolades. I get to have this
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i hate that the sonic movies get more advertising and attention from the general public than other sonic media does for a number of reasons but one thing that is particularly annoying to me right now is that because of this when a new sonic game or comic or cartoon or literally anything else that im actually excited for happens nobody seems to notice or care that it exists but now that the big new sonic thing (sonic 3) is something that im not really looking forward to at all im constantly being asked and told about it.. like come onnnnn
#talking about irl interactions not online. in case thats not already obvious#like. i know nobody has actual bad intentions . most of these people do not know enough about the games#to know that the movie is looking like its going to completely butcher the plot of sa2 and that im mad about it#and i dont think anyone irl really knows all the details of my increasingly strained relationship with the scu either#they just know that i love sonic . or even that i liked the first 2 movies depending on who they are . and a new sonic movie is coming out#and im not upset they try to talk to me about sonic i LOVE talking about sonic#but its so frustrating that people seem to only care when the scu is involved. even if they dont actually watch the movies anyway???#and it doesnt end at people only bringing up sonic when its the scu#ive also had many conversations where i mention a game or comic or something and the person im talking to makes it about the movies#like (*mentions i like sonic* ''have you seen the movies''. or *mentions a new sonic thing* ''is it related to the movies'' etc)#like come onnnn we were talking about the games can we talk about the games in a way that doesnt involve the movies for Once#again i know nobody has bad intentions so i feel kinda bad for being annoyed#and its not entirely their fault since a video game or comic is inherently going to be less known than a big movie . but goddddd#this happened a bit with the knuckles series too but not to the same extent that its happening wiht sonic 3
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do you guys think a small a nd sickly senator can really have a virtuous and wise stoicful mindset
#ficposting#lucius furius camillus#<3#now that ive actually read a little about stoicism im anjoying it so much & applying mynew Knowledge to exploring his Mind Palace#though also to be serious": i think a big part of wny lfc was drawn to stoicism was the ideas about physical states not being important for#living virtously. because of how badly hes been treated For being sickly/weak... i think its comforting to him to feel he has control over#his morality &that the state of his body. which he cant control#doesnt really matter.. even if he cant control everything around him (and believe me he wants to he is a complete control freak) he can#atleast control hislittle brain in his head (kinda. at least he thinks he can). however when he cant control things this is when he runs#into trouble.... he is a control freak abt both himself and his environment honestly
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🌷💀 okay. reaper is so much fun to play I don't even care. spin to win scythe go brr makes my brain chemicals happy 💀🌷
#ambie.txt#ambie plays gw2#still gonna unlock scourge at some point because I like it thematically#(the piss yellow colour is turning me off tho </3)#but ehhjh people said reaper is fun and they were right!! I love the shroud change so much it makes killing things so much faster#I was kinda hating slogging through the maps on core necro because everything takes forever to go down#now it's just. click 4 to spin. profit.#listen. I need low intensity builds in my mmos I'm disabled and all I do is pve anyway#so big button to go brr is making me very happy actually
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Didn't felt like mentioning it immediately but shoutout to my sick and twisted brain for getting so triggered by an unexpected Christmas parade that I ended up havin the absolute worst panic attack of my entire life (potentially the only real one? I've had a couple other episodes I thought of as panic attacks but they were not even close to that so who knows) to the point where I spent the very last day of my 30th year on this earth in the ER, good times, good times 😊
#that was 10 days ago and i honestly was fine immediately after it ended so don't worry for me <3#but yeah this shit was crazy holy hell#like i knew intellectually that 'feeling like you're dying' is a symptom of a panic attack but *actually* feeling it is another thing...#and even at the worst i was like 'ok i'm clearly having a panic attack it's not nice but it's gonna be ok'#but there was a piece of my brain that was like 'ok but what if your mom or grandma had told themselves that...'#'when they were having heart attack? They would have died and so will you 😊'#and i was like shit can't argue with that better get my ass to the hospital before i die#spoiler alert: i didn't died#ironically enough the revolting state of our healthcare system is lowkey what helped me calmed the fuck down#because i was tiny but i do remember when my mom had her heart attack and they sure as hell didn't let her wait for 7h+#so when i realized that this is what was gonna happen after i spent a brief moment with a nurse i was just like...oh i'm fine actually lol#and then i had to go take the bus in my fake crocs that i usually never wear outside of the house smh#interestingly enough my phobia of hospital seems to have competely disappear! which makes me believe that it was more a trauma response#than an actual phobia#not that the name changes that much but still interesting development#also no i'm not wearing a mask because nobody gave me one#that's actually one of the thing that made me leave lmao#oh and btw the christmas parade is true but also a bit more complex than that#basically i had a full sleepless night and i was mad so i decided to go buy myself some weed#turned out that there was a huge christmas parade 5 minutes away from the weed store so i hade to find another way#and then i got lost on the way back#and saw no less than 3 big fights between different homeless people#including one man randomly kicking another man's dog (which kinda really messed with me tbh)#and then i smoked a big joint (first one in like 10 days) with 0 sleep and zero food in my body#and then i took the bus#and then the bus driver yelled at an elderly man for not waiting at the right place#and then i took a sip of water and for some truly strange reason my brain decided that the water had gone in my lungs#and that i was actively drowning#and the rational part of me was like...girl that's not what drowning feels like what are you even talking about??#and then my brain went 'well if we're not drowning than we're having a heart attack'
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