#actual ocd

[thermodynamic-comedian]

"de-stigmatize mental illness!" very cool now can you please extend like one or two ounces of support towards people who have intrusive thoughts related to sexual violence.

[rotpretty]

Having POCD is fun cuz the one time I talked about it to a psych they treated me like an ACTUAL pdo or criminal like thanks for literally triggering my POCD???? Don't ask me 50098373883 questions about cp and how many kids I have access to that is literally two triggers back to back are you fucking moronic? Do you have even one braincell?

[mitchans]

Having a mostly obsessive OCD is crazy bc you will spiral in your obsessive thoughts but have no way to externalize them so you will keep internalizing it like a pressure pot until it explodes. Yaaay yippee wohoooo

[precambrianpark]

just putting this out here because ive been seeing a lot of confusion on the subject

intrusive thoughts are not specific to OCD, or any disorder for that matter. anyone can have intrusive thoughts. however: intrusive thoughts are not random impulses, they are ego-dystonic (meaning they don't correspond your actual values) and often quite distressing. the distinction is important, and here is why:

intrusive thoughts and feelings are at the root of obsessive-compulsive disorder; when the thoughts emerge they are significantly more difficult to get rid of for those with OCD. the obsessive nature of OCD includes the thought distortion and prevalence of the obsessions (a latched on "theme"/ongoing thought spiral), the compulsions are the actions or rumination that follows which the sufferer performs to alleviate the discomfort. think of it this way. OCD is like having constant itches you feel the need to scratch. say everyone has itches, and for most, they come and go. but for some people, the itch demands to be scratched, and while there is temporary relief, it keeps coming back worse the next time. indulging in it adds to the ordeal, trapping them in a cycle. this is the basis of the disorder.

intrusive thoughts affect everyone - but they don't affect everyone equally. some bare the brunt of them to a life-altering extent. unwanted thoughts are a natural part of the human experience, but for many people they can consume them and develop into obsessions or ruminations. someone with harm ocd might deal with constant recurring thoughts of hurting people and have time-consuming rituals to "prove" otherwise. some people may have a similar thought but it will likely end there with minimal distress. while it is still an intrusive thought, and they may be distressing to you, they are certainly not a joke.

joking about intrusive thoughts "winning" and snapping as a result only further perpetuates the stigma surrounding OCD and misinforms people that intrusive thoughts do correspond to one's actual urges or values, when this is not the case and have the propensity to hurt people with OCD even more. please be respectful and try to be mindful of the degree of which OCD symptoms are minimized and dismissed. we need advocates and people willing to understand us.

also adding this: OCD cannot be reduced to intrusive thoughts. it is so much more, and people may be debilitated by any number of symptoms besides intrusive thoughts. for many people obsessional themes may begin as a singular thought, and ruminating and ritualizing may be what they struggle with the most. we do not share a monolithic experience.

adding this also: intrusive thoughts aren't necessarily gory or excessively violent; that's another mischaracterization. no matter the content, they are distressing to the person having it. it can be something like "what if i'm always focused on my breathing" or even "what if i'm actually a different mbti type from what i think i am" (yes i've actually spent excessive amounts of time ruminating over this one before)

[kuroko99]

oK but im serious. i can't turn on the audio. i can't listen to your lovely, silly little video. my music will mute.

i have a brain disease, you understand. it's called Orchestral Covers Desired. this is not personal.

[secretagentsagainstwhatever]

my autism: i really really hate the shower

me: that’s ok we can bath

my ocd: i really really hate the shower curtain

me: no guys it’s really really ok we can just bath

my epilepsy:…..🥲

[he13na]

i will not let food anxiety control my life. i will not let intrusive thoughts color my feelings. i will not believe the lies mental illness tries telling me. i will not give into body image insecurity. i will accept change when it comes to my body, accept that all bodies change, let go of control, stop living in fear, let go of superficiality, stay present and enjoy love. i will embrace and enjoy what truly matters.

[problem-project]

I really hate my ocd and I don't want it to control my life but also I'm not even wrong abour it most of the time. I'm tired of asking people for help with my stuff and they touch a bunch of filthy things like cleaning their cat litter box and then coming directly to help me without washing their hands 💀 like why do people not wash their hands after things that very clearly require hand washing??? I KNOW my ocd makes me crazy about germs but I'm also not dumb?? Touching things poop related requires hand washing. Touching things that are factually germy (in a bad way) usually requires hand washing!!! Why do so many people in my life just not wash their hands when they should be??? My own dad doesn't wash his hands after touching raw bacon and then went on to touch everything in the kitchen and ate his bacon without washing. Like what are we doing people

[fabuladorah]

How do I explain to my therapist that the crisis of the week was about Tumbrl changing the replies desing and I just couldnt fucking deal??

[painted-kneecaps]

i started sobbing in the shower because i had the realization that, i really like being alive. i really enjoy living. and i wish that i could hold the 18 year old version of myself and tell her that four years later, we still love everything so much. sure, we haven’t really gotten better. we still spiral daily. we think we’re a terrible person more days than not. we’re lonely, and anxious, and a bit of a shut-in, but we’re still willing to try, after everything. we didn’t give up at 18 or 19 and we’re not giving up now. and even if things never get better, it’s still kind of worth it, to sit at the dinner table and laugh until we wheeze at something our sister said. it’s still kind of worth it to belt out the same verse of the song stuck in our head over and over and dance to fall out boy on the living room carpet when nobody’s home. it’s kind of worth it. i just wish i could tell her that. i hope she already knows.

[boofts]

just saw someone on youtube talking about their autism adhd and ocd combo,

i was like

“you don’t have to pick?!”😦

i though you could only have ONE struggle

i’ve been thinking about getting diagnosed for a while, but i didn’t know for which one…

[the-coloring-witch]

intro

this is probably the 100th time i’ve made a new tumblr, for certain reasons. but this time, i want it to really mean something.

my name is Ayame (or Iris, whichever). i’ve been picking at my skin since i was at least five; i’m in my 30s now. needless to say, i’m trying my best to break the habit for good and get my life in order.

it’s funny. for the longest time, i was certain i was the only person who did this...but this summer, i finally did some research and found out this condition has a name. it has a name and many other people who do the exact same thing. and it’s grounded in mental disorders such as ocd and anxiety, which i haven’t been diagnosed with...but the more i learn about both, the more they make sense to me. 

i find it comforting, knowing i’m not alone.

i guess what i’d really like to do with this blog is to connect with others who’ve had this issue. maybe to share experiences or to share how we try to deal with it. 

so if you are living with the following conditions:

dermatillomania (skin picking disorder)

dermatophagia (picking and biting at skin)

ocd

depression

anxiety

feel free to follow and connect! or at least reblog and share.

[sweetforevernight]

the worst part of ocd (4me) it's the constant feeling of never being alone, and thus the constant feeling of lack of privacy, not gonna explain it further, the girls that get it get it 🥰

[gabriel-shutterson]

Saw this for other mental disorders, so I figured I’d do it with OCD.

[katrinaftw44]

I cleaned my desk for the first time in a few years. When you have ADHD and OCD and you get the ‘cleaning bug’ you have to ride that shit out till you finish cleaning whatever. 

[batattack409]

love how irrational my mental illness makes me. Im over here having a crisis, terrified im experiencing some taboo sexual attraction, completly forgetting the fact that i do not in fact experience sexual attraction.

Im trying to psycho analyze myself, wondering why im feeling this way or obsessing over this, forgetting that the cause is just plain old mental illness. Why am I obsessing over this? I have ocd. That’s it. That’s the reason