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In which Ford struggles so badly to relate to other people that he wonders if heâs really human at all. The more isolated he becomes, the harder it is to reconcile with his own humanity.
#my art#gravity falls#Stanford pines#ford pines#bill cipher#comic#eye strain#TIME TO DUMP EVERY ONE OF THE 27483949 THOUGHTS IVE HAD INTO THE TAGS BABY#OK!! SO!!!!#I feel like Ford would wonder why he and Stan (being identical twins) arenât. yk. identical. shouldnât Stan have polydactyly too?#as a kid he would dream about secretly being nonhuman and being whisked away to a fantastical world full of people like him#finally free of new jerseyâ finally somewhere he belongs#a lot of this disconnect from humanity came from utterly failing at social interactions while others (including stan) navigated them easily#the feeling waned after Stan was kicked out and he didn't have that direct comparison but it never left#then out in the wilderness of gravity fallsâ his isolation and immersion in Weirdness dragged it back up to the forefront#he deserves to have a breakdown over questioning his own nature. as a treat <3#color symbolism time bc I have a problem and use it at every available moment!!! blue and yellow get more vivid#the further from humanity the subject is#bill is entirely made w pure rgb blue and yellow (+ approximately 2674835 textures/layers/blending modes. I reached 150+ layers. help)#I like the idea that he would appear to ford like pure math considering hes a geometrical motherfucker and how the rest of the mindscape wa#I tried to mostly use trigonometry and related stuff for the Math Greebling. as well as fractals i love you forever fractals#MORE SYMBOLISM:#the grid-ish diamond pattern in all of the mindscape bgs (and elsewhere) is a penrose diagram of spacetime#which shows other universes on the other sides of black holes#SOMEONE ASK ME ABOUT MY EUCLYDIA HEADCANON LATER. IVE DUMPED ENOUGH DUMB HCS IN THESE TAGS ALREADY#BUT I THINK ITS VERY FUN#anyways. fuckt up guys n their egos influencing how they view humanity. bill tells ford hes as human as they come bc he was so easily foole#ford cant reconcile with his humanity bc of a failure to perform in one area#and then the immense guilt and shame over what hes done <3#I have So many ford characterization thoughts. no man nor god can stop me
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Okay! This one is less rendered than the other two, but here's some doodles of Tulpa figuring out how to co-exist! (Aka Fresh not taking training seriously while Dream is trying desperately to get his friends to think he's normal.)
When Dream first returns to the Star Sans', he finds himself in a pickle, because he needs Fresh to move his body. Sure, they made a tentative agreement that Dream trusted Fresh not to break, but Dream hadn't been specific enough with the guidelines.
Fresh pilots Dream's body based on the commands from his soul, but more often than not Fresh simply decides not to listen. Sometimes when they're training, Fresh will suddenly make Dream fumble his bow or send an arrow flying way off-target. Dream is always frustrated by this, unaware that Fresh it doing it for his own good and is forcing the guardian to take a break.
Blue was also made aware of Fresh very early on. One day he was passing the kitchen where Dream was cooking and spotted how Fresh's little form was wiggling out of the hole on Dream's skull. Blue made Eye-contact with Fresh, but said nothing since it seemed like Dream was aware and didn't mind. He waited until Dream told him to acknowledge the parasite directly, but suddenly a bunch of Dream's weird actions made sense to him. Blue regularly makes sure to check in on Dream, before abd after he's aware of Fresh, because he knows Dream works himself into the ground.
Dream (eventually) figures out that Fresh was being clumsy for his sake and nearly cries about it (even his mother and the villagers never did that for him, and Blue was the only other person to ever pull him away from training for his own good) so he gets a bit emotional. He feels bad for how angry he used to get at Fresh for doing that, but Fresh never gave him a proper explanation either, so it was a two-way street.
And while Fresh was lienent around Blue and Ink, he never slipped up around Nightmare's gang. Though, he did fight seriously, which to him might look like goofing off, which is completely separate from Dream's fighting style. (For now Dream uses Arrows and his Bow, but I'm thinking Tulpa has a T-Shirt Canon or a Nerf Gun by the time they make-up.)
Ideally Fresh cannot be seen during combat because he actually pilots from around Dream's soul, but sometimes his parasite form expands to support Dream's weak joints and act like a shock-absorber.
#utmv#utmv sans#oc#utmv art#utmv oc#my art#spot!drawn#Dreameater au#tulpa#Dream x fresh#fresh x dream#sanscest#<- again technically??? here they're just Strangers dubiously sharing a body tho soooo#anyways#Blue my beloved. he's subtly making sure Dream's alright#but besides being exhausted he's actually better off than he was *befire* fresh so Blue takes that as a good sign#and I love a Dream who is stubborn and has a set routine and expectation who panics and gets a lil#mean when things don't go his way. Golden Child and Prodigey vibes#i'd never project but like... what I wouldn't give to have someone physically stop me from working myself into a fit over#things I can't control đ#Fresh doesn't care a ton about Dream at this point and his carefulness is more him wanting to keep Dream's soul/vessel in good shape#but that quickly morphs into a protectiveness and care once he realizes just how much strain Dream tries to put on hinself to be perfect#the 'I can fix him' trope but with the character you don't expect (Fresh teaching Dream to value himself as more than a tool)#(even though to Fresh at the start he is *literally* just an asset to Fresh. their dynamic is unhealthy to start but improves later)#dream sans#fresh sans#<- I know neither of them are Sans đ itXs just easier to tag like this
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Does dream have a carrying crewmates guide too? Can we see it??
calamar pequeĂąo // small squid bien // good mal // bad "Âżsoy bonita?" // "am i pretty?" no habla espaĂąol // he doesn't speak spanish jajaaa muy pequ-eĂąoooo // hahaaa very smaaaall gran // big el grita.. (jaja) // he yells.. (haha)
Blu (mispelling of Blue) bien // good mal // bad x2 // x2 muy azul // very blue
#ink sans#swap sans#dream sans#eye strain#just in case#Ink looking over Dreams shoulder as he draws#unaware that Dream is calling him short RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS FACE#it is incredibly unfortunate that Dream had to learn about Blues dislike for being picked up by his eye sockets via experience#oh and the handplate#and his fingers#honestly f in the chat for Blue#Ink hating his scarf and vials being grabbed#i reeaally wouldnt grab those vials if i were anyone in nms gang but yk#id reckon someones gonna regret grabbing those things in aboouut id sayyy. 12 hours?#queue
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The Provably Worst Gun for Home Defense
What is provably the WORST gun for home defense? A .22 single shot rifle is at least small and quick to point. A Barrett M82 is at least going to instantly stop whatever it hits. Even a good old fashioned musket is going to do good damage and won't hurt your ears. No, I wanted to know what the undisputable worst home defense gun in the world is; and I have found it.

This is the .950 JDJ Fat Mac. It is a 100 pound, 5 foot long rifle that shoots a one pound solid brass bullet at 2200 FPS. It is a non-NFA item only because the ATF gave it a sporting exemption as a joke as if anybody is going to hunt with this. This round would be overkill for hunting blue whales.
I would like to paint a picture for you. It's 2AM and you hear a window break in your living room. This is the worst day this could happen, as every single one of your guns was lost in a tragic boating accident this morning. All were lost except for one. You look across your room in dread at your anti-kaiju rifle. You know what you have to do, but you don't know if you have the strength to do it, both literally and figuratively.
Heaving the rifle into your arms, you load a .950 cartridge and begin to waddle towards the door. Your feet make a loud "thud" as you take each 6" step. You know the intruders hear you. You hope they do, for perhaps they will run and spare the world the suffering that is about to befall it.
You try to set the rifle down, but end up clipping your bedroom door and it is immediately knocked off its hinges by this battering ram in your hands. You attempt to round the corner, bonking the muzzle against the doorframe and adjacent wall across the hall at least 4 times.
To your horror, two invaders stand there at the end of the hall.
With a heavy heart, you raise the rifle to your shoulder while making inhuman grunting noises from the strain of attempting some semblance of a shooting position. The burglars simply stare in disbelief, unable to process the situation they are witnessing, as if in a dream.
You cannot aim the rifle, as the last time you fired the gun, it turned your $3000 Leopuld into a kaleidoscope. You simply hold it at an angle that appears correct and fire.
You are immediately knocked to the floor as if hit by a semi truck going 20 MPH. The shot connected with one of the criminals and it erased him from existence. Even the memories of him have been destroyed and you're wondering why you just shot into an empty hallway. The shot continues to travel through at least 4 houses, a car, and a 10 ton boulder before lodging itself 20 feet into a nearby hill, never to be seen again.
It is at this point, you realize you cannot hear.
The surviving burglar can't hear either but he's also on fire from the muzzle blast and is currently vacating your home. You don't care. Your shoulder is dislocated and there is a hole in your brand new AR500 refrigerator.
You're crying now.
The police arrive and, upon seeing the scene, start laughing. You start crying harder.
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baby showers & bright ideas
simon "ghost" riley
cw: smut/pwp, rough sex, breeding kink, baby fever, doggy style, unprotected sex (duh), size difference/kink
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congratulations captain john price. he found himself a missus and now they were having a baby. mrs. price was practically glowing with her pregnancy even if she was waddling around a little. heavy price brat at her hips. price had a hand on her back and helped her whenever he could, he was a doting husband.
while simon enjoyed the food and the drinks, it was nothing compared to the pit in his stomach. why couldn't his missus' sprout a little belly like that? a nice riley babe in your soft womb, wouldn't that be a dream? it all came to a head when he overheard garrick's wife ask when you and simon were having a baby. he saw your got red before you shooed away the question.
the answer was simple, tonight. you were going to make a baby tonight.
being misses riley was no easy feat. simon riley was all scarring inside and out, even his scarred hand on your soft, unblemished thigh was such a contrast. from the scar that ran down his lip to the one that ran across his hip, he needed a tough woman.
but, you were quite far from tough. at least physically, you couldn't even hurt a spider. he watched you move it out the window of your apartment and into a flower box. you were pretty tiddies and a squishy tummy. wide hips and soft smiles. plush in a way that simon could get lost in. the kind of woman that he could bully his cock into, to make a proper mama.
once you got home from the baby shower, simon was on you like a shadow. his hands on your hips as he guided you to the bedroom, barely giving you time to get your sandals off. his erection strained in his blue jeans as he bent you over the bed with your face against the mattress and you ass leveled his his cock.
"there she is." he said as he ran his hand across your pussy over your skirt, "there's my girl." he said in a low grumble of a voice. it reverberated in your brain as you felt all sense leave out your ears.
you clung to the covers as he took your skirt off, and your pretty daffodil coloured panties. you only let go of the covers to let simon get your shirt and bra off of you. you looked over your shoulder at him once you were nude and could feel his hungry brown eyes on you. you squirmed a little bit with your breasts rubbed against the covers which only excited you more.
simon got out of his clothes. you heard the rustle of his belt hitting the ground and saw his shirt being thrown to the head of the bed. your husband was soon naked and his cock was pressed up against you and your hips were pushed up.
"pretty thing. pretty girl." he said. he was just so much more bigger than you, he made you feel so small even when the blunt head of his cock was pressed up against your tight cunt, "you'll look pretty with a baby at your hip. already got the body to have babies, not some twig. a proper woman to have my babies." he sank into your pussy and your back arched with the feeling. the stretch of his length inside of you.
"si." you whimpered.
"i saw ya at the baby shower. how could i not. if price's girl wasn't so heavily pregnant, everyone would be lookin' at ya. bein' a little helper to the price's, bein' a good girl." he said, "ya know all about bein' good. i couldn't take my eyes off of ya. especially with the cut of that sundress. why haven't i seen it before?"
you whimpered, "i wanted to save it for a special occasion. no time felt right except for today."
"your fat tits could barely be kept in it. not quite right for a baby shower. unless you were hopin' to walk away with more than just a gift bag. i bet ya were a little jealous. seein' how the captain treats his wife." simon's voice was honey on your brain. it made you feel hot all over and a little hazy in the brain.
"mmm, si."
"i got ya, always do. that's what a husband does. he provides. but, ya gotta do me a favour, beautiful. get pregnant, let me get you pregnant." his started to pick up the pace and you groaned loudly. you could feel the rattle in your soul from the intensity of his pace.
everything from euphoric and hot, you felt good in the best way you could use that term. it was a heat that could be felt in the tips of your fingers and the tips of your toes. you moaned and panted against your soft bedding.
simon pressed your hips further up, almost holding you up against him as he thrusted in and out of you. such a powerful man, no matter the size, you were easily picked up by your hulking mass of a husband. he was a strong brick wall, and you were delicate like a bed of flowers.
eventually simon got you fully onto the bed with him standing at the end with his cock still inside of you. he worked himself against you and you felt the thump of pleasure in your body. you felt his cock nudge against some of your softest parts and you panted wildly.
"so pretty." he said, "only get more pretty when you're carryin' my kid around. i promise i'll be there every step of the way. my woman won't go without." he could imagine you with the baby weight at your hips, and eventually the chunky riley baby at your hip while you worked through the house.
that was his dream. a nice house, a soft wife, a couple of kids in the yard. it was a simple life, but simon yearned for it. eat dinner, put the kids to bed, show his missus' some lovin'. he continued to rut against you while he leaned over you and wrapped his strong arms around your middle. letting his cock nudge against your cervix, a friendly greeting. a promise that he was gonna keep that cunt warm.
"please, si." you couldn't deny it. his words were hot and you were feeling flustered at the baby shower. you could feel the pull to have a baby, and it was good that you and your hubby were on the same page.
you blushed against the covers, he was still so smitten with you. he loved every curve and mole. he loved every inch of soft skin against his calloused hands. you could hear him panting for you, wanting you more than anything. you whimpered a little bit from the feeling of his cock hitting against all the right spots.
simon knew how to drive you mad with a sexual heat.
his heavy thrusts went to your head and before you knew it, you were panting like an animal in heat with your back arched like a good girl. a good wife.
"yeah, you'll keep my belly and my cock warm, huh? that's what a good missus' does. takin' care of her hubby and the kids he gave her." he felt your cunt clench around his cock. that got you excited. he continued to rut against you until you tensed up under him during climax.
you clawed at the covers a little as the pleasure hit you. your eyes rolled back a little and your husband continued to fuck you. he moved you against his cock and watched your back. a few more thrusts after your climax as simon was finishing as well.
"that's it, that's it. good girl. good girl." he purred lowly, "a good missus riley." the words made you shudder. he felt the heat under his skin. he felt alive.
but it wasn't long before his body craved for more. while he pulled out of you, he got onto the bed and between your legs. his cock gleamed with your wetness, but still painfully hard. he needed more.
after all, he needed to make sure it all took.
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"there's my missus." simon said with his voice filled with love. he strong arms wrapped around you swollen middle and his nose up against your shoulder, "pretty as always."
this was your second pregnancy in two years, and your firstborn, a baby girl was sound asleep in her playpen while you cooked breakfast for you and simon. you looked like a proper wife, a good wife.
maybe it was a bit of an overkill to have two babies so close together, but simon couldn't help himself. it didn't help that you only got hotter when you were being such a good mama to his daughter. his large hands roamed your swollen middle. a few more months and you'll be having a boy.
"not feeling too pretty." you yawned. you tilted your head up and simon leaned down a little to kiss you square on the lips, "why don't you go check on our little peanut and i'll plate our food."
"of course, love." anything for his wife.
your little family felt complete, that was until simon got a itch to have baby number three. <3
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prisoner!rafe was finally, finally being released, and you just didnât know what to do with yourself. you barely slept the night before, deep cleaning the house, re-choosing the perfect outfit, making snacks to lay out for him. you felt like your brain wasnât even working anymore at this point, but what you did know â was that it was about damn time he came home.
you see him at the gate to tannyhill, dressed in the outfit he got locked up in and you feel like youâre dreaming. heâs filling his clothes out more than before, the grey long sleeve shirt now straining against his arms, chest and back â his thighs even seeming to push against the material of his khakis with each step. a million things are running through your head as he approaches, like what the first thing he wants to do might be.
maybe heâll want to walk around, observe everything at tannyhill that youâve moved around or adjusted to fit your comfort whilst he was gone. perhaps heâs starving, and youâll be rushed into the kitchen to start an early dinner. rafe could be tired, and want to slump right down for a napâ or maybe rant about the last day he had locked up.
heâs suddenly infront of you and youâre frozen, staring up at him with big doe eyes before you grab eachother simultaneously, pulling one another in for a bone crushing hug. rafe grips your cheek, kissing you so violently that thereâs spit and gloss all over your chin and teeth clash before he pulls away â eyes darting all over your face. what he says next confirms what he really wants to do first. moreso, who.
âyeah uh, take these fuckinâ clothes off before i rip âem off. alright?â itâs almost a threat, but you practically vibrate in excitement.
the two of you race inside, and by the time youâve reached your bed youâre only wearing your skirt, panties and bra. you approach the bed excitedly, stomach bursting with butterflies but apparently itâs not quick enough for rafeâs liking because he effortlessly lifts you under the arms and tosses you onto the bed like youâre nothing, your squeal muffled into the pillow. heâs chasing you up the bed on his knees, and when you try to push yourself up by the hands to readjust yourself â rafe shoves you back down.
your skirt has ridden up to your waist, and when you helplessly glance over your shoulder from your arched position â rafes pulling his cock out all with one hand.
âlook uh, i might⌠i might not last as long as i want to, alright iâ i was locked up for a long time. my balls are god damn blue. iâll⌠make it up to you.â he winces, slowly jerking himself as you lock eyes. rafe is careful not to overexcite himself.
your brows furrow, reaching back and peeling your panties to the side â revealing the soaked folds that have been waiting nearly a year just to feel him once more. âdânt care rafey, want you to cum inside.â you whine, and he swears he nearly busts then and there.
âsssshiiiit.â he sighs out in a whisper, letting go of his own shaft to spread your glossy cunt with his thumb, appreciating the fat lips and tight holes. âbet you kept that shit so tight for me huh? holding out for your man nâshit, that right?â
âyes daddy. only want you inside.â you moan, arching harder for his viewing pleasure and he hums, his fat tip gracing your entrance.
âwell youâre gonna get just that alright, hold on tâsomethinâ.â
knowing what heâs like, you scoop a pillow between your arms, hugging it close and sinking your teeth into the plush white. it had been too long, the stretch was going to be lethal.

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The harsh ultra-violet rays warmed your skin, sending a gentle goosebump-ridden pattern over it. You looked out ahead, watching as the soccer team practiced hardâalmost daily now (only taking a break on Wednesdays). A breeze passed through the air, weaving its way all around your body, which was wearing the schoolâs uniform loosely. You sighed, looking up to the wave of lustrously-green trees against the clear-blue sky.Â
Your body was relaxed, leaning ever-so-slightly back against the bleacher behind you. Your hand came up when a particularly bright ray shined through the dark leaves of late spring and you blocked it. Then, just as you were about to let it fall back down, your attention caught on one particular member of the team, when a shout of victory wafted into your ears: Kim Sunwoo.Â
He was the main character of your daydreams, racing heartbeats, and physical ache. You knew it was stupid to be caught in his grasp, like the rest of the school was. You knew you werenât special in the way youâd look at him longinglyâso desperate for any kind of appraisal from the athlete.Â
However, unlike the rest of the female (and male) population, you were contemptuous with your delusion over him. Even if it was an unrequited love, you were closer with yourself���and schoolingâin its result. Your parents definitely werenât complaining with your top-student status and class president tasks.
It seemed like a win-win, but still, you sometimes caught yourself wishing for more in the loneliness of the night, when your mind was the best at focusing on things it shouldnât. Youâd imagine things youâd rather keep in the depths of your archives. Secrets you were prepared to take to the grave: everyone loved Sunwoo, but no one knew you did as well.
The prejudice was that you were too caught up in said studies to even look up, especially not in his direction. You had only a couple of friends, ones you truly trusted with your life, and even they had no clue about your feelings for the soccer player.
You watched his celebration, a fist pumped into the air and a bright smile that caused a blush to litter your cheeks. In moments like these, you were glad he really had no idea you existed when you weren't standing right in front of him. He high-fived the team members, walking over to the sidelines and throwing a small towel over his shoulder.Â
It was honestly a little pathetic the way you couldn't peel your eyes from the way his muscles strained against the spandex of the shirt, or the way the sweat would roll down his perfectly sun-kissed skin. The softness of the genuine smile that pressed against his mouth and up into his eyes, the ones that flirted so effortlessly with his slow and cool mannerisms.Â
Genuinely, when he looked so good, it made it hard for you to not drift off into another fantasy, one where heâd walk up to you and sweep you off your feet like a prince in a fairytaleâŚand, he always looked this good.Â
You huffed out a breath, one you werenât even sure if you were holding or not, and crossed your legs over one-another. You narrowed your eyes (in some weird attempt at zooming in), swearing you could see the man of your dreamsâand realityâwalking in your direction.Â
He flashed a devilish smile, you werenât convinced was meant for you, breaking from the teammates heâd been walking with. his eyes met yours, and for a moment you thought you were asleepâor dead.Â
frankly, you think this scenario would suit a chuckle from the athlete who watched your eyes go wide as he further approached.
he took a long drink from the bottle in his hand, holding said eye contact as he lightly swallowed. you mimicked him with a dry throat, admiring how his adamsapple bobbed with each gulp.Â
he straddled the bench, setting his things between his open thighs. ây/n?â he asked as he raked a hand through his sweaty hair. you couldnât look away, like a must-watch thriller that youâd spent your hard earned money on. you could feel the way your heart rattled your ribcage, just aching to escape and feel his against it.Â
an audible hum left your lips in reply. you could feel the heat that radiated your features and spread throughout your body. and, you knew, despite opposition, that he could see its pink shade. Â
the one-sided tension was suffocating. you shifted uncomfortablyâor maybe in some desperate attempt to ease the acheâand clasped your hands together. then, once again, he smiled at you. your heart didnât know whether to shatter or melt in the presence, which youâve only been able to see up close a couple of times.Â
âyour place or mine?âÂ
you wouldnât have believed the way your eyes could grow three-sizes larger than they already had previously.Â
âw-what?â you choked out.Â
he chuckled at your flustered state. âms. park posted the partners for the group-projects.â he stated matter-of-factly. âand, guess what class president?â you all but asked what; gulping loudly, tensing your legs together, as well as your fingers and lips. âweâre partnered.âÂ
you wanted to play it cool, but the excitement at the revelation was fast-approaching. youâd never had the opportunity to see him outside of schoolâand granted, it was still over school-work but, a win was still a win in your book.Â
âo-oh!â you ragged out along with a shaky breath. âright, i was waiting until after practice to ask you about it.â
you lied.
you had no idea that the groups were announced. you just spent your free-time on this bench pretending to do work often enough that it seemed reliable.
his eyebrows rose, like he could see right through your antics. it was honestly a little intimidating; or maybe thatâs not exactly the right word to describe the feeling hot-spotted in you.
he glanced back at the field momentarily, watching the rest of his teammates leave the outlined grass. âwhatever you say, class president, but i knew exactly where to find you⌠except on wednesdays.â the undertone was something you couldnât read, just out of your depth, but still plunged you further into curiosity. âweâll go to my place then, and iâll shower while you get started. howâs that sound? practice is done anyways.â
you wanted to protest his offer, but there was something intoxicating about seeing his room and smelling the cologne that lingered in the air. the shampoo and body wash that would waft out to you. youâd dreamt about it, and simply, you wanted to see if it was anything like the picture you painted in your head.
âi can just meet you laterâyou can shower in peace.â you started to pull the phone from the bag at your side, opening it, and holding it in his direction. âmaybe, in like two hours?â
he took hold of the machinery. âwhatâs the fun in that? you couldâve joined me if you got too bored.â
you laughed painfully, shifting once again at the heat between your thighs. you wanted to accept the offer more than anything, however you know you shouldnât.
but, what was the fun in that?
âa shame.â he chuckled lightly, holding the phone back out to you after inputting his number and texting himself the address. âiâll see you then, y/n.â
it was the exact house number you were now staring at, eyes shifting between the text on your screen and the apartment door. it had been a little over two-hours, you having to hype yourself up before you left. and you had decided to relax by taking a bath as well, getting a little carried away with your imaginationâwhich ultimately caused you to be late as wellâbut, you didnât think delinquent-athlete, sunwoo, would care all too much.
âyou couldâve knocked,â you hadnât realized the door was now open, revealing the dimly lit (because the curtains were closed and it was approaching 6pm) living space. âor called.â
âs-sorry. i wasnât sure if this was the right place.â you watched as he moved aside, creating just enough room for you to brush past him, giving you an oh-so desired smell of his cologne.
you cursed yourself for getting so worked up over the little things heâd do, but now you were finding it hard to believe that that wasnât his intention. he kept you coming back for more, and you were always eager.
âdo you want any water?â he asked, watching your frame stand awkwardly in his living room. âmy rooms over there, i have a couple of things for you.â
you choked again. âf-for me?â
he laughed. âto use on the poster, y/n.â and he mumbled something after that you werenât able to catch.
your head panned as he walked to the kitchen, ears listening to the light rattle of glass cups and running water. you plastered your hands to one another politely, scanning over the couple pictures sunwoo did have laying about; his apartment only had the necessities. the few pictures were ones of a younger girl, who you assumed to be his little sisterâwho he obviously loved enough to display. but you thought there mustâve been more to them, to him, and deep down you knew youâd like to find out one day; to comfort him in his time of need. to be his.
sunwoo came back, two glasses in his hands as he motioned for the closed door on your left. âyou can open it, iâve got nothing to hide from you.â
you donât know why those words made you blush, maybe itâs because theyâre from him, and anything from the athlete is enough to send you reeling.
your hand trembled as it reached to the knob. âoh, okay.â you said, trying to block it with your body. âi was thinking we could start with reading the book a little bit more, to familiarize ourselves with the data before making the final draft. thatâs if you donât mind?â
the door swung against its hinges, making the site of a dark, but minimalistic room meet your view. you took in the smell of cologne, but it didnât seem to be overpowering like he had just sprayed it around carelessly. his bed was neatly made, black sheets and black pillows placed meticulously: as if a house keeper had been around to do it for him.
he placed the glasses against the wood of his nightstand, a charger and lamp being the only other decor on it.
he pressed the lamp and illuminated the room just a little more. ânot confident, class president?â
âthatâs not it,â you blurted out, his brows knit and arms crossed as he awaited your explanation. you could barely look in his direction, biting your tongue to not say: i just get flustered enough to forget around you.
âi, uh, itâs just that⌠nevermind. letâs begin!â
he huffed out another laugh, his actions too fast for you to process as his hands met your shoulders, pushing you to sit on his bed.
your eyes seemed to be in a perpetually widened state, but you found it telling that you put up no protest. the bag on your back made it into your lap, and you unzipped it, taking out multiple pens, markers and whatnot to make a decent poster. sunwoo had grabbed a paper, putting it on the floor and holding out his book for you to take. your hands brushed as you accepted it, and it sent a shiver up your spine.
you began to lay a couple of your class-taken notes onto his bedding, and sunwoo made his way around to the other side. he plopped down onto his stomach, making you bounce slightly.
âyou know, class prez, people think youâre scary. youâre always studying, you barely look up, and when you do itâs to tell people off because theyâre interrupting said studying.â you tried to read over the notes, but found it hard to ignore the harmonies within his voice. and that your leisure-clothes were getting too warm around your skin. âbut they donât know you, i guess. youâre smart but i bet you know how to have, at least, a little fun, donât you? and, itâs no secret the school thinks your looks are top-tear. itâs just a shame you reject everyone that asks you out. itâs a waste of your time, i presume. anyways, thatâs enough. letâs get started, shall we?â
âw-why?â you asked in such a hushed breath that sunwoo barely heard it. and if he lived with anyone else, or if a car or plane went by at the perfect time, he wouldnât have. âwhy is that a shame?â
âbecause you are beautiful, y/n.â
fuck your clothes, your skin was getting too hot against you. your breath was labored, and now the words on the paper were congregating. you couldnât focus with sunwoo next to you, and thatâs exactly what you feared.
whyâd you have to ask? curiosity did kill the cat.
the way you shifted didnât go unnoticed by the athlete and he let out a chuckle that should just be his signature at this point.
he sat up now, burning his eyes into the side of your head. âwhatâs wrong, y/n?â he asked, but you refused to look away from the notes, even if you couldnât get your mind to read them. âhas no one ever called you that before?â
you bit your lip, thumbs ripping at the skin around the nail. truthfully, yes, one person has called you that, but it didnât feel the same as when he did it. sunwoo made your heart beat out of your chest, breath leave your lungs so fast it made you lightheaded. he made you weak in the knees, like you were just jelly to begin with, melting in the sun.
you felt a soft hand reach across you, taking the farthest cheek within his palm and focusing your vision towards himself.
his skin felt like fire against you, but even this smallest touch made you crave more, made you need him in a more than innocent way. and, you were starting to believe his intentions were exactly the same as yours.
your eyes finally focused at the feeling on his hand sliding to rest against the side of your neck, as if he was caressing it, running his thumb over your windpipe gently.
youâd never seen sunwoo so close to your face, but you had imagined it, and it was nothing in comparison. he was beyond beautiful, a sight to see: tan skin untainted by pores and blemishes, soft features like his lips that contradicted, but complimented shaper ones such as his eyes and nose. he was the perfect harmony in your opinion, the perfectâ
âgod, y/n. i must be crazy.â he broke you from your admiration, breath hitting your lips. âwould you treat me any different from the guys who have asked you out in the past?â
god, yes.
your stomach was beyond knots now, the whole damn zoo being let loose. your hands were gripping the sheets at the anticipation that seemed to be agonizing enough to kill you where you sat. in reality, sunwoo wasnât even doing anything, but he had you at his fingertips, and you werenât convinced you couldnât pass out right now.
âfuck, maybe i am crazyâŚâ his eyes flicked to your lips momentarily. âdo you want this? i know iâd be interrupting your studying, class president.â
and you donât know where your confidence came from, but the way you closed the gap was desperate. however, sunwoo put up no protest, and quickly gained control over the situation.
his other palm pulled you by your cheek to deepen the kiss. well, that was until he had enough of the angle you were sat at and gripped your thigh to fully get you onto his bed.
he was a good kisser, a great one in fact, and it made you crave his lips in other places to experience the full effect.
now he was pushing your body by your lower back, trying to get you as close to him a possible, and as if you could read minds, you threw your leg over him to straddle his lap.
he broke the kiss. âgood girl.â he said before reconnecting with the skin on your neck, and smiling against it when he heard you whine quietly. you could feel him growing hard underneath you, and wondered if heâd take this all the way, wondered if he wanted you like that. âyou do want this, donât you?â
inside your head you couldnât help thinking that maybe you werenât desirable, maybe he was only doing this to prove a point: that the whole school was within his grasp. maybe it was to brag tomorrow, as locker room chatter before soccer practice, because why would sunwoo like you outside of your delusions?
his arms caged you against him, stoping all minor movements and actions. he looked into your eyes, and for a moment itâs like the world had ceased. the only thing you could hear was the thumping within your own chest and the echoes of your doubts.
âdo you want me, sunwoo?â
he kissed your lips gentlyâalmost lovinglyâbefore stating. âmore than anything right now.â
and you wanted to ask if it was only right now that he wanted you, but you couldnât will that to leave your lips, as his eyes locked onto your own, mixing like watercolor.
youâd wanted him to want you for a long time, so you hoped it wasnât only now that he felt the same.
âare you okay?â
your palms now laid against his cheeks, biting your bottom lip, half-nervously and half from feeling his hands curve where the seams of your thighs met the underside of your ass. you pulled him quickly back to you, breaking away only to mumble a quiet yes before being fully taken over by your lust.
he flipped you over quickly, and you found comfort between his soft pillows and blanket. he pushed your thighs apart, slotting himself in between to attach back on your already swollen lips.
his voice came out in a hushed tone, only for you. âclass prez, has anyone had you like this? have they seen how perfect you look with messy hair and puffy lips? i bet youâd look so cute crying, wouldnât you?â you whimpered at the wordsâthe thoughtâyou wanted him to think you were cute, attractive in any way, it was human nature after all; and everything about this was primal. âhow far do you want me to go?â
your voice was once again barely audible over your own heartbeat. âwhatever you want.â
âyeah, youâd like that wouldnât you?â
you were beginningâignoring all previous warningsâto feel overwhelmed, his tongue sending you into overdrive. you didnât know what to do as you felt him ghost his lips on your collar bone, then down over your chest, eventually landing at your stomach. he pushed the fabric up, latching down onto your hip bone, which had you shifting to get any sort of friction on your core.
all his minuscule teasing was actually beginning to feel painful, but he got the hint. you knew he would.
sunwoo grabbed at the waistband on your pants, looking up to you for reassurance, but you just lifted your hips to make it easier for him. he chuckled, pulling both of the fabrics blocking you from him down.
you heard him mumble something along the lines of pretty as he placed open-mouth kisses against your inner thighs.
one thing about sunwoo is that he left you no room to feel self-conscious or embarrassed. he knew how to love you right, (you didnât want to know why that was) and was determined to show you that.
you might not have believed this was something more than locker-room chatter, but nowâŚ
you moaned when he finally attached to your aching clit, sucking gently before alternating between kissing and licking at your slit. your hand covered your mouth out of embarrassment at the sounds that you couldnât stop from making. truthfully, the last (and only) guy you were with didnât even make you finish, so you didnât have to worry about being too loudâor god forbid, annoying.
but, sunwoo hated that you werenât letting him hear how good he was doing. he wanted the praise just at much as you did, nonetheless he let you continue. heâd let you until you were completely at his mercy, malleable under his touch. heâd let you because that made you comfortable.
and, to be honest, it still fueled his ego.
âc-close,â you managed to mumble through your fingers, eyes squeezed shut and head lulled back. âwoo, please?â
and that fact that you had asked him almost made him cum untouched. so, you were his? he thought to himself, before he groaned into your pussy at the feeling of your fingers attaching to his hair, only adding to your pleasure.
the hands squeezing your plush thighs pulled you closer to his face, close enough to suffocate, but heâd die a happy man.
he continued to eat you out like a starved man, only bedrudgingly pulling away right before you had the chance to properly orgasm.
âw-wait!â you tried to push him back, frantically searching for the edge you were just about to topple off. âw-whâsunwoo, fuck, d-donât stop. please.â
tears were pricking your eyes out of frustrationâthe whole thing being so emotionally and vulnerably charged, you werenât sure you could hold them back. then, shivers were sent throughout your shaking body as he soothed over your sides and stomach with his hands, lips back to their spot on your thighs.
he propped himself up, staring down at the godly figure he never truly thought youâd let him see. and after a minute, you got embarrassed at the strong gaze on your glistening core; your knees coming together.
his fingers slotted between them, pulling your legs apart. âdonât hide from me, baby. youâre so beautifulâgod, all for me, right?â
you whined, quickly sitting up and reaching out for anything heâd give you.
sunwoo kissed your lips again, keeping you at his level with a hand on the small of your back and one gripping the hem of your shirt. you were dizzy from the taste of yourself on him, sunwoo only breaking apart to get the fabric up, and fully over your head. he took off your bra and suddenly the realization that you were fully naked in front of the prized soccer captain, while he was fully clothed, sunk in.
you whined again, too drunk off him to formulate anything coherent. he laughed at how desperately you were pawing at his sweats. âwhatâs wrong?â
you looked up at him. âfuck me?â and if your eyes werenât the definition of puppy-dog, he didnât know what was.
he smiled, grabbing your wrist. âpatience, baby. iâll give you what you want.â
you fell back again, opting to obey him because you were honestly too far gone to come up with anything else to do.
and he did, taking off his sweats, along with the rest of his clothes and pressing his body to yours. his lips were connected back to you and you clawed at his shouldersâanything to ground yourselfâwhile his held your torso down firmly.
he looked between your bodies as he lined himself with your entrance. your head was thrown back, and he pressed a chaste kiss to the middle of your neck before mumbling. âyou are pretty when you cry, y/n.â and pushing in slowly.
the stretch only burned for a minute until you moaned almost embarrassingly loud with each shallow thrust. a hand instinctively come up to hide them away. but, that only lasted so long until sunwoo intertwined his fingers with yours, pushing them into the bed on either side of your head.
âdonât hide them, baby,â he sighed against your lips. âplease.â
and, whether you wanted to or not, you didnât have a choice. the noises fell freely from your lips into his shoulder, as he sucked and nipped at your neck again.
âi-is it good?â you could barely hear him, your ears ringing with pleasure; was it good? is he stupid?
you choked on a chuckle, feeling him angle himself just perfectly inside you to brush against your g-spot. âholy fuck,â
âright there, baby?â he did it again, taking notes and storing them away in the back of his mind. your head lulled back again, and he watched your face contort, mouth falling open. âdoes it feel good?â you couldnât reply, his thrusts only getting harder after that.
you could feel the band in your stomach tightening, and you feared you wouldnât even be able to tell him you were getting so close, so fastâtoo fast.
but, somewhere deep-down, he already knew.
âfuck, you feel so good, y/n.â he sighed, lips ghosting over yours. âi must be the luckiest man in the world, right?â it was rhetorical, but even if you felt the need to answer, all that was coming out of your mouth was moans, groans, and mewls. âperfect bodyâfuckâperfect personality, perfect pussy, perfect fucking mouth,â he grabbed your chin, your free hand now going to clutch into the skin on his arm. his eyes met your tear-filled, and blurry ones. âopen your mouth,â
there was a fire within you when you did as he said, mouth falling open. he spat on your tongue, and you didnât know whether you came right then or just flat-out died.
âswallow it,â he saidâno, demandedâalmost making it an impossible task by putting his fingers into your mouth, pushing them to the back of your throat, and making you gag around him. he felt you clench harder at the act. âgonna fuck this throat one day, youâd like that, wouldnât you?â
you would.
but, he was spewing heated words into a brick wall. âyouâre mine, right?â he asked, taking his saliva-covered fingers from your mouth and bringing them between your bodies.
the moment his fingers landed on your clit, your eyes rolled to the back of your head. the hand that was still intertwined with his was losing circulation from how hard your were gripping it, and the other was scratching his perfect skin hard enough to bleed.
no one had ever made you feel so cold, yet so fucking warm at the same time. nothing you've ever experienced has been as intense and kim sunwoo; the delinquent soccer player. you feared no one could ever make you feel like this again.
so, of course you were his.
âlook at me, y/n.â he whispered, kissing along your jaw gentlyâin contrast to the heavy and hard thrusts he kept at a steady rhythm. âcâmon, y/n, be a good girl. please.â
you felt the impending desire to now, head leveling. his forehead then came to rest against it, fighting off your urge to let it roll back again.
he pecked your lips between sentences. âmine, right?â god, he kept asking an obvious question. âbe mine, okay? cum for me,â he circled your clit faster, determined to make you finish one last time. âi got you.â
his voice alone was enough to make you topple over the edge, your noises raising a couple octaves. your vision went white, body convulsing under sunwoo, who kept his eyes on your face the entire time; in awe of you. he fucked you through it of course, mumbling praises, before the overwhelming feeling of fire bloomed between you two; disguised by overstimulation.
you mewled. âwoo, p-please stop.â he kissed you quiet, slowing down. but, you didnât actually want him to stop. âh-hurts⌠just a little,â
his hand intertwined with yours again. âbeing such a good girlâtaking it so well. just a little more, okay? i promise,â he sighed, feeling the way your walls clenched him in, barely letting him pull out, only causing him to thrust harder. âalmost there, y/n, where do you want it?â
your legs caged him against you. âfill me up, please.â and you werenât above begging for it, especially not in a state of post-euphoria. âcum in me.â
he threw his head back momentarily, fighting off a strong urge to start a second round. how in gods name did he get so lucky? he thought to himself, bringing his forehead back to yours.
he locked eyes onto you. âyeah?â you nodded slightly, eyes full of tears you didnât know if youâd shed. âgonna be so good and take it all?â
you moaned when he started grinding against you, your clit being stimulated by his pubic-bone.
âcould fuck you forever.â he admitted. âdo you want me to?â
you spewed out a quiet yes, and if you didnât know any better youâd think he was being seriousâmaybe he was. you were too far gone to even begin guessing.
he kissed you again, desperately fighting your tongue with his. he continued to kiss down your jaw and into your neck, leaving glistening marks in his wake. he sucked on your collarbone, finding a sweet-spot you didnât even know you had, and biting down for a second. your mouth fell open in a silent scream, an orgasm you didnât even know was there, washing over you.
sunwoo just kept forcing you to learn about yourselfâyou guess, itâs a good thing youâve always been known for studying, isnât it?
your intense orgasm triggered his, a soft groan leaving his lips as uneven thrusts made sure you both were fully satisfied.
you felt fuzzy, brain completely melted under his touch. your heavy breathing mixed with his, his body fully collapsing from exhaustion. however, his weight wasnât enough to suffocate you, so you let him stay where he was, breaking your hand from his and threading it into his damp hair.
the silence was loudâheartbeats intertwinedâas you both came down, the reality about to set in.
would he push you away after this? did he even meaâ
âi meant it, by the way.â your eyebrows creased. you werenât even sure if you had imagined that. and, if you didnât feel the rumbling of his chest on yours as he spoke, you mightâve believed it was only in your head. âbe mine, okay?â
little did he know, you already were.
you whispered out a reply. âokay.â
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just a friend
heâs just a friend ⌠but.



Heâs just a friend, but he sleeps over almost every night. Whether youâre begging him to stay the night because you need a pillow or angry with him for insulting your friends, heâs there on your bed, substituting as a body pillow. No matter what position you fall asleep in, you always wake up draped across his chest, face nuzzled against the crook of his neck.
Heâs just a friend, but he spoils you constantly. He gifts you a diamond tennis bracelet when your cat dies, hoping to cheer you up. He buys a convertible when you finally get your driverâs license, grinning when he sees your gleeful face. He showers you with your favorite flowers when get into your dream college. He buys whatever you look at when you take him shopping, repaying him with a kiss on the cheek, and itâs enough for him.
Heâs just a friend, but youâre his only soft spot. Everyone else walks on eggshells around him, worried about being in his warpath. Even his own family wasnât an exception to his hostility, especially after he stopped trying to win his dadâs approval. He does everything you want him to because why wouldnât he? Hold your bag? No problem. Pick you up from a party? His pleasure. Stop being a rich, egotistical asshole? For you and you only.
Heâs just a friend, but heâs your date to every formal and informal function. Itâs just easier that way, you both explain to your friends. Midsummerâs preparation goes smoother when you already have a date, someone who will dance with you without complaint, someone whoâll make fun of whatever headpiece Rose is wearing, and someone whoâll sneak out early to drive their dadâs boat to another island.
Heâs just a friend, but he knows everything about you. He comes with you to the doctor, dentist, and gyno visits for moral support, sometimes going in the room when needed. You had brought up being codependent but he quickly waves it off. Heâs stocked a drawer in his bathroom with tampons and pads, and a few bottles of Tylenol in case you get your period on the nights you stay at Tanneyhill. He carries a cooler filled with water in his car because he knows you hate the intense heat. He wears an extra pair of sunglasses tucked in his shirt for you when you both go to the beach because you always manage to forget yours.
Heâs just a friend, but his family thinks youâre dating. Sarah keeps asking you if you are, hoping to drag the truth out. You tell your friend no, laughing at the thought. Ward sits him down to talk after catching him admiring you during breakfast. He stays silent. Rose questions you about what she should give Rafe for his birthday, thinking the same as her husband. You laugh again at the thought, not noticing the way his jaw clenches when you make fun of the idea.
Heâs just a friend, but he hates it when guys flirt with you. Youâre too pretty to be entertaining guys who are far below you. He strains a muscle from resisting the temptation to punch the man standing too close to you, bicep veins popping out from the resistance. He drags you away when the guy tries to cage you against the wall, making up an excuse, needing help with containing a drunk Wheezie.
Heâs just a friend, but he canât go a minute without thinking about you. When life separates you, despite Rafeâs plans to be at your side twenty-four-seven, he texts you. He ignores Topper and Kelceâs snickers as he pulls his phone out during a round of golf, taking a picture of the sunset to send to you. His friendsâ teasing is worth it when you text him back, telling him how much you like his improving photography skills.
Heâs just a friend, but he canât fight the urge to attack the guy kissing you. He blacks out, rage consuming every cell in his body as he breaks the manâs nose and grasps his throat until his hands leave bruises. His brain doesnât focus until youâre back in his line of sight, blue eyes meeting yours. Despite the man coughing on the ground, surrounded by concerned partygoers, you pay no attention to the injured, instead, pulling Rafe away before yelling at him in his room.
Heâs just a friend, but heâs at your door with flowers, apologizing. He stammers out an apology because he was never good at them, and never had the maturity to admit he was wrong and beg for forgiveness. When you stare at him with a blank look, he gets desperate, taking your hands in his and slowly dropping to his knees, eyes pleading with you. He promises to never get that violent again, and you believe him because Rafe Cameron could never lie to you.
Heâs just a friend, but he kisses your forehead every night after you fall asleep, waiting for you to doze off before doing so. He presses his lips to your head, warmth in his heart as it yearns for yours.
Heâs just a friend, but he wants to be more.
#rafe cameron#rafe cameron x reader#rafe cameron x you#rafe cameron fic#outer banks#drew starkey#drew starkey x reader
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The Amazing Toybox Circus!
A storybook - Part 1
Once upon a time, there was a very old toy shop.
An unremarkable sort of place with very few visitors. The shelves were lined with antique curiosities which had collected dust over the years.
Among these, atop a colorful wooden toy chest, was a simple kaleidoscope. It was inscribed with a strange design of teeth and eyes, and a poem about a magical circus.
...
Now, one might imagine the type of person would walk into such a place. Perhaps someone who has worked far too hard. Someone who feels unsatisfied with the tedium of every day life, and who longs for an escape into the fantastical world of imagination that playthings can inspire. This sort of person might look through a kaleidoscope and dream, just for a moment, of a new life filled with bright color, of fun and adventure.
This was the sort of person who suddenly woke up on the floor, surrounded by darkness and extremely confused.
Feeling dizzy and thoughts hazy, she righted herself and began to wander. A soft jingling noise followed her with every step, though she paid it no mind. There were more pressing issues at the moment.
She strained her mind trying to remember how she could have possibly ended up here. She clearly remembered entering a toy shop, but her thoughts beyond this were blank besides a vivid image of swirling colors. Red and blue spirals. All she knew at the moment was that she felt terribly afraid, and very very small.
Timidly, she called out-
"HELLO, MY NEWEST SUPERSTAR!"
An enormous wooden ventriloquist dummy suddenly burst from the shadows. His painted eyes gleamed, one blue, one green. His wooden teeth chattered as he loomed overhead. He pulled a white balloon on a string, which sported an equally large toothy grin.
The sight was positively terrifying.
"Welcome to the amazing toybox circus!"
"The ... the toybox what?" She squeaked in response.
"Why, the toybox circus of course! You're sure to have a grand time, my dear! " She was suddenly lifted up to meet his unsettling wooden gaze.
"My name is Caine! I'm your ringmaster," he continued at an unnecessarily loud volume.
"My dear, you've entered a wonderful world of whimsy and adventure, where anything can happen! Soon you'll meet your new friends and we shall put on a show!"
He spun her around before setting her down on the floor again.
The girl was speechless. Be part of a circus? Led by a talking puppet? Surely this was all a strange dream!
"I'm sorry, sir," she eventually said, somehow managing to speak politely considering the circumstances. "But I really must be getting home! If you'd kindly show me the way-"
"Oh but you simply must stay for the performance, my dear! I've prepared all sorts of activities that are sure to delight! Oh the audience will love you! You shall be the star attraction!"
The puppet was very insistent. At a loss, the girl considered her options were either to continue wandering the darkness or to trust this "ringmaster". Now she was an intelligent young lady, but she was also a curious sort. After all, curiosity was what brought her here in the first place, and curiosity compelled her to see what would happen next...
So despite better judgement, she finally said -
Hesitant but hopeful. Perhaps this would be interesting? At the very least, she could play along until finding a way out of this strange place, out of the toyshop and back home. Or until she woke up, as this was likely a dream after all.
"At any rate, this may be fun," she hoped out loud.
Something cackled from atop a large shelf. The silhouette was that of a rabbit, but with a wide yellow grin.
"Heh HEH! You'll soon see, little clown," he said, before hopping out of sight.
What an odd place this was...
----part 2 coming soon!
#the amazing digital circus#tadc#pomni#caine#jax#tadc au#toybox circus#my art#theres a lot of Alice in wonderland here
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Crochet me a mistletoe

Got this idea because, well, it's christmas and I recently started crocheting! I am nowwhere near as good as I described the skills of the reader. I can't even crochet a simple scarf. But practice makes perfect, and a girl can dream right? (Reader is gender neutral)
Pairing: Logan Howlett x reader
Summary: Its christmas at the mansion and you've crocheted everyone a special gift. What will Logan think about the present you made especially for him?
Wordcount: 4.9k
Warnings/tags: english is not my first language, none, fluff, slowburn-ish, friends to lovers, reader can crochet, painfully sappy, missunderstandings?, itty bitty bits of angst, happy ending
The x-men mansion in december felt like stepping into a festive snow globe. Frosted windows framed the place, a hord of students racing through the halls as they were excited to spent the christmas holidays at home with their families, their laughter mingling with the soft strains of christmas jingles that seemed to follow you wherever you went.
The large tree in the main living room was a masterpiece, each ornament carefully placed by a team effort of students and teachers. Even Logan had been forced politely asked to string the lights, grumbling about it the whole time while he was secretly ensuring that every lightbulb was perfectly in its place. Despite your reassurance that it was fine and that he could come down from the ladder already, he shook his head, a deep frown on his face as he munched on his bottom lip as he rearranged the lights for the 1000th time.
You sighed with a smile, deciding to let him do his thing. Yet you found yourself sneaking glances at him, something you had been doing more often than you cared to admit over the last few months.
He was rugged, rough around the edges and seemingly utterly out of place among the cheery holiday decorations, but there was something about seeing him standing by the firelight, a string of glittery garlands for the tree slung over his shoulder, that made your heart flutter.
But Logan was just your friend. A good one. And you werenât about to mess that up by acting on a silly crush that wasn't anything more than that. So, instead of drooling at the way his muscles strained and dipped under the wife beater he wore even in this freezing weather while he helped decorating the place, you threw yourself into your newest hobby: crocheting.
For weeks, you had been holed up in your room, learning and practicing how to crochet everything from scarves, mittens and hats to cute plushies and useful items such as cup coasters or little bags.
It had started as a way to pass the time, especially when there was no mission you were sent to. And now that you were deep into the christmas holidays, you didn't even have a class to teach. That's when you realised you had nothing to do and it was time to find a new hobby.
But once you got the hang of it and felt like it wasnât as hard as you thought it would be, the idea of creating handmade gifts for your friends at the mansion had blossomed and you were eager to make a perfect present for everyone.
The work was slow but rewarding. You had already finished a soft scarf for Ororo in her favorite lavender colour that complimented her snow white hair and a set of soft, fingerless gloves for Hank in a deep navy blue. Each project felt like a little piece of yourself, stitched into every loop and knot.
But Logans gift had been different from the start.
It had taken you three tries to find the right yarn until you finally settled on a charcoal gray that would suit his style and features without standing out too much.
You decided on a sweater, something warm and practical that he could wear during the long, cold nights he spent patrolling the grounds. And, because you couldnât help yourself, you added a small, personal touch. A tiny design embroidered over the heart, a pair of crossed claws encircled by a wreath of holly. You might as well, right? This project would take you a long ass time anyway, so a little embroidery wouldnât hurt.
Crocheting actual clothing pieces like sweaters and jackets was a painstacking process, taking up lots and lots of yarn and taking forever. Only people you loved were worth that effort. You hoped Logan would know that once he held the finished products in hand.
Now with christmas eve approaching fast, the sweater was nearly finished. But you had other projects that you worked on simultaniously. If the task of crocheting another long chain for a scarf became too dreading and boring, you switched it up by continuing to work on a plushie.
âDarlinâ, youâre gonna get yourself snowed in if you keep sittinâ there.â
Logans voice startled you, making you lose the stitch you were in. You looked up from your crocheting to find him leaning against the doorframe of the common room. The fireplace crackled warm beside you and outside the tall open window, there were snowflakes swirling in a gentle flurry. You sat cozy on the windowsill in your warmest clothes, enjoying the crisp breeze against your face and watching how the snow painted the garden of the mansion in a dazzling bright white, all while absentmindely crocheting your gifts.
âI like the viewâ you answered him with a soft smile, the yarn rolling between your feet as you pull at it âAnd Iâm almost done.â
Logan left his spot at the door and stepped into the room, his boots making soft thuds on the wooden floor. âWhatâre you makinâ?â You shook your head as you did only a little to hide the plushie you were crocheting âItâs a surpriseâ you teased.
Logan raised an eyebrow, hand in his pant pockets, his lips quirking into a smirk. âFor me?â
You rolled your eyes with a soft giggle. âOnly if you want a teddy bear plush in Scott's outfit" you said, throwing him a knowing look.
He shuddered in mild disgust, chuckled, then settled into the armchair across from you. âNah, I'm good" he replied, putting his hands up in defence. Then his gaze landed on the bottom of the sweater, his soon to be sweater, that poked out from under your blanket draped over your lap. He pointed to it "I think one of 'em ugly christmas sweaters you are makin' would suit Summers better" he joked, thinking you would laugh along, but he noted your slight hurt frown. Him saying that he thought christmas sweaters were ugly made your heart sting painfully. You pulled the sweater under your blanket completely, shielding it from Logan. âItâs not ugly,â you mumbled, averting eyecontact with him.
In that moment, you weren't too sure about your gift for Logan anymore. The sweater you would give him wasnât the usual christmas sweater with bright colours and corny patterns, but still, maybe he wasn't a sweater person? What if he didn't like it? He would never say it to your face, but just imagining his unimpressed face, a forced smile as he reluctantly thanked you, already thinking about the best and fastes way to get rid of the clothing piece, it made you want to cry already. All this effort for nothing?
You hadn't realised that you stared at Logan while you where deep in thought, a lit cigar hanging lazily between his lips. âWhyâre you always starinâ at me?â Logan asked suddenly, his voice breaking the silence.
Your face heated. âI wasnât staring. Just thinkingâ you pressed out, quickly picking up your crocheting again.
Logan blew smoke from out of his nostrils âSure you werenâtâ he said, but there was no teasing in his tone. If anything, he sounded curious, curious of what exactly you where thinking with your brows knitted together.
You focused on the yarn in your hands, on the way your hook looped easily through every stitch, willing yourself to act normal. This was fine. You were fine. âYouâre workinâ too hardâ Logan muttered after a moment. âSpendinâ all your time on this.â
You shrugged âItâs worth itâ you smiled without looking up. âI want everyone to have something special this year. And what's more special than a present made especially for them. I guess the best gift is when someone thinks of youâ
Logan looked at you. Looked at you for a long second and didnât respond right away. When you finally glanced at him, his expression was unreadable, his gaze already turned away and fixed on the fire. âYouâre somethinâ else, you know that?â he said quietly, almost to himself.
Your heart skipped a beat, but before you could respond, ask him what he meant by that, Logan stood up, stretching his arms over his head. His white tank top rode up slightly as he stretched, your eyes staring at the dimples on his back before you shook your head, your cheeks on fire.
âDonât stay up too lateâ he called, heading towards the door. âSanta donât visit if youâre awake.â
You laughed, nodding your head dismissive manner âGoodnight, Logan.â
Logan smiled softly as he looked back at you one more time âNight, darlinâ.â And then he was gone. You looked down at the half-finished sweater under your blanket, your chest tight as you sighed.
The mansion was alive with holiday excitement the next morning, despite the kids not being there. But if they were, you just knew that they would be buzzing about presents and sneaking peaks under the towering Christmas tree already.
You spent most of the day putting the finishing touches to most of your gifts, tucked away in a quiet corner of the common room. All your presents were nearly finished, except for the sweater you had planned on gifting Logan. You couldn't bring yourself to work on it anymore. You couldn't even look at it, too ashamed that you even came up with this idea.
It wasnât until late afternoon that Logan appeared in the common room, carrying an armful of firewood. He always looked so effortlessly strong when he carried stuff, it almost made you drool over his forearms and hands. His flannel shirt was rolled up to his elbows, exposing his hairy forearms that had tiny snowflakes clinging to it.
You glanced up from your crocheting, trying not to stare too obviously.
âYou been at that all day?â Logan asked, dropping the firewood near the fireplace with a loud thunk. He tried not to smile as he saw you bundled up with balls of yarn and wrapping paper surrounding you, a few ready gifts already stacked on top of the other, a hot cocoa with marshmallows steaming next to you on the coffee table.
âAlmost done wrapping everythingâ you cheered, holding up a crocheted beanie for charles to keep his head warm.
Logans gaze locked onto the garment in your hands. His expression softened for a brief moment before he caught himself and cleared his throat. âLooks goodâ he said gruffly, turning his attention to the fireplace again.
You smiled faintly, folding the beanie neatly and tucking it into a small box with a gift card and putting it on the stack of finished presents after you wrote Charles name on it âThanks.â
Logan unsheathed his claws and striked a match on one of them, shaking the tiny flame on a stick before throwing it to the pile of freshly chooped logs âYou should take a break. All that knittin' and crochetin' must your fingersâ Logan grumbled, blowing at the fire until the flames started to flicker to life, casting a warm glow across the room.
âI will once I am done with all of thisâ you replied to him, wrapping the next present aside. âit won't take long" Logan straightened back up, brushing his rugged hands on his jeans. âSo, what are your plans tonight? Besides playinâ Santa Claus.â
âOroro planned to watch a christmas movie with the team, I guess I will join them laterâ you replied, stretching your back a littlesince you had been sitting like a shrimp for the past few days, hunched over your projects. âWhy, what about you?â
Logan shrugged "Not much" he cleared his throat âMight head out for a bit. Get some air.â
âOn Christmas Eve?â
Logan gave a small, almost shy smile and shrugged âNever been much for all the holiday stuff.â
You tilted your head, studying him. âYou could stay in. Watch the movie with us.â
He hesitated, his gaze flickering to yours. âYeah? You think they wouldnât mind?â
Your eyebrows raised as he seemed so unsure âOf course not" you denied, smiling warmly. âI can promise that they all want you there, Logan. I know I do"
That evening, the two of you settled into the couch along with Jean and Scott, a bowl of popcorn between you. Ororo sat draped over the seat next to the sofa, Rouge and Remy sitting in front of you on the ground while Kurt was sprawled out right in front of the TV, looking up at the flimmering box with a toothy smile. Even Charles had rolled in to join.
The movie, a classic Christmas move, The Grinch, to be exact, played on the screen, and even though it was one of your favourite christmas movies, you found yourself paying more attention to Logan than the plot.
He was unusually relaxed despite everyone being so huddled up together, leaning back against the cushions with his arms crossed over his chest. You fleetingly looked over to the present neatly tucked away under the tree. His sweater. You had decided to finish it after bickering over it for so long. Well, you didn't exactly have time to make him anything else. And if you did, it would only be half assed. And you didn't want that, Logan deserved more. Something special.
Halfway through the movie, Logan reached for the popcorn, his hand brushing against yours briefly. The contact was fleeting, but it sent a spark up your arm and you felt like you were part of a cheesy and cliche slowburn fanfiction.
You quickly pulled your hand away, your heart racing. âSorryâ he muttered, his voice gruff and quiet as to not alert the others. âItâs okayâ you whispered back, trying to sound normal.
The room fell into a comfortable silence again, the only sounds coming from the TV, the crackling fire and a little hushed banter between Rouge and Remy. But you couldnât stop stealing glances at Logan, your chest tightening with every second you spent sitting so close to him.
âThanks for talkin' me into thisâ Logan said suddenly, his voice low. âDidnât think Iâd enjoy it much, but⌠itâs nice.â Your lips curved into a soft smile. âIâm glad.â
He looked at you then, his dark eyes catching the light of the fire. There was something in his gaze you couldnât quite place, something warm and unguarded, even though a lot of people were around that could potentionally witness it. For a moment, it felt like the rest of the world disappeared, leaving just the two of you sitting by the fire, the glow of the Christmas lights reflecting in his eyes.
Then Logan cleared his throat quietly, breaking the spell. âYouâre really something else, I hope you know thatâ he muttered, his voice rough but sincere.
Your cheeks heated, and you looked down at your lap. There they were again, his words from yesterday. The thoughts you had repeated in your head the whole night, not knowing what they represented. âWhat do you mean?â
âYou put all this work into makinâ people happy, to make 'em feel included even though they weren't into it at first.â He explained, draping a muscled arm over the frame of the couch. "You force people into their luck, ya know? Haven't seen anything quite like it"
You brushed a lock behind your ear. "I guess I just wanted to do something niceâ you smiled softly. Logan let out a deep, content breath through his nose, looking at you, his eyes soft âWell, you did." Logan said, his gaze lingering on you.
For a second, you thought he might reach out and let the arm that rested over the couch snake around your shoulder to pull you into him, but then he shifted in his seat, his hand retreating to his side.
By the time the movie ended, everyone said their goodbyes and goodnights, swarming out to their rooms to sleep, letting the mansion fall quiet. Only Logan and you were left. You also wanted to just fall into your bed and sleep, but you were too tired already to get yourself moving.
Logan was the first to stand, stretching his arms over his head and giving you a good view of the prominent vein that cascaded below his waistband. You started to think he was doing this on purpose. âGuess Iâll head to bed too" he yawned, his tone thick.
Goodnight, Loganâ you replied, watching as he headed toward the door.
He paused before leaving, turning back to look at you. His expression was unreadable, but his voice was soft when he spoke. âNight, darlinâ. Sleep well.â
When he was gone, you let out a breath you hadnât realized you were holding.
The morning sun filtered through the frosted windows of the mansion, bathing the common room in a golden glow.
Christmas Day had finally arrived, and the mansion buzzed with the christmas spirit of all. It was a bit overwhelming to see everyone in their christmas pyjamas sitting around the tree, eager for presents.
Logan was already there too, leaning against the mantle with a steaming cup of coffee in hand. Well, you liked to sleep in okay? It wasnât hard to be down in the common room before you.
Logans presence was as steady as ever, but there was a quiet contentment to him this morning, you noted. He looked up as you entered and something in his expression softened.
âMorninââ he greeted, his voice low, smooth and warm from the hot coffee he was drinking. You lifted your hand in a tiny wave âMorningâ you yawned, smiling as you made your way to the tree, the rest of carefully wrapped gifts in your arms that you had finished just the night before after the movie. You couldn't sleep anyway since the thought of Logan made you stay awake, might as well perfect your presents.
After a while, it was your turn to hand out your presents. You crawled under the large tree, gifting them one by one. You watched in glee as the room filled with laughter and delighted exclamations. Ororo beamed when she unwrapped the lavender scarf you had made for her and Hank was already slipping on his navy gloves. Charles shooked his head with a chuckle as he saw the beanie you had crocheted for him, letting his fingers trace over it.
Logan waited patiently, allthough he didn'texpect there to be something for him, his dark eyes following you as you worked your way through the pile of gifts, quietly enjoying the unfiltered reactions from everyone.
When there was only one wrapped gift left you had to hand out, Logan wondered who it could be for since everyone had gotten their present already. But as you turned to him, handing him the neatly wrapped box containing his sweater, his brow lifted in surprise.
âFor me?â he asked, as if the idea of receiving a gift was foreign to him.
You giggled at his reaction "Of course. Did you really think I wouldn't give you something?" you asked, smiling shyly. You were just as nervous for him to open the present as he was.
Logan carefully peeled back the paper, his hands oddly delicate for a man who seemed to handle everything with brute strength. When the sweater emerged, he stared at it for a long moment, his thumb brushing over the tiny embroidered design near the heart. He remembered the colour. This was the sweater he had called ugly. He had called your thoughtful gift ugly. He was a horrible person.
âYou made this? For me?" he whispered in awe, a little more to himself, his eyes tearing up slightly.
âI didâ you nodded, fiddling with your fingers as your nerves ate away at your insides. âDo you like it?â
He looked up at you, his gaze piercing. âI...this isâŚâ he trailed off, shaking his head as if he couldnât find the words. Instead, he unfolded the sweater and pulled it on right then and there over his tank top. The fit was perfect and the sight of him in something you made with your own hands sent a warm flush through your chest. He looked like a chunky teddy bear and the urge to hug him was growing strong in your chest.
âLooks good on youâ you said instead.
Loganâs lips twitched into a rare smile. âFeels good, too. Thank you.â
The rest of the day passed in a blur of holiday cheer, but you couldnât help noticing how Logan stuck close to you. He lingered near the kitchen while you baked cookies with Ororo and Rouge, his presence steady and reassuring. At one point, you caught him running his fingers over the sweaters fabric, his expression distant but content. He protected the sweater with his life, making sure no one ruined it by accidentally pouring wine over it. If just one atom of a cookie crumb were to touch the fabric, he would lash out.
It wasnât until later that evening, after most had gone to bed and the mansion had settled into a peaceful quiet, that Logan found you sitting by the fire.
âYouâve been busyâ he mumbled, his voice low as he sat down beside you.
âI guess I have,â you said, smiling. âIt was worth it, though.â
Logan studied you for a moment, his expression unreadable like usual. Then he shifted and the next second, his big hand presented you a tiny wooden figurine, a little cat, carefully hand carved by him. "S'for you" he muttered, averting his gaze. The light of the fire did only so little to hide his embarrassed blush.
You gasped, taking the cat into your hands as if it was made out of glass and would break if you looked at it the wrong way "Did you....did you make this?" you asked him and he nodded reluctantly. You never thought Logan was into wood carving. But now that you knew, it made sense. "Yeah...didn't want to give it to you when everyone else was 'round. No need for 'em to know I have this hobby" he explained to you, picking at a loose thread on his sweater. Your stomach felt warm as you thanked him, holding onto his little present tightly.
You could feel Logans gaze on you as you admired his neat craftmansship, warm and steady and it took everything in you not to lean into him.
âYâknowâ he said, breaking the drawn out silence between you âthis is the best christmas Iâve had in a long time. Maybe ever.â
You looked up at him âReally?â you asked, your mouth agape in wonder.
âYeahâ he said, his lips curving into a small, genuine smile that was rare to see from him âAnd I think Iâve got you to thank for that.â Your heart swelled and before you could stop yourself, you reached out and placed your hand over his. Logan stiffened for only a short moment, his gaze darting to your hand, but then he relaxed, his fingers curling around yours.
âYouâre welcomeâ you whispered softly. Logan didnât say anything, but the look in his eyes spoke volumes.
The fire started to die out, only faintly gleaming but still enough to wrap you and Logan in a light of warmth. Logans hand was still in yours, his warmth seeping into your skin as the quiet surrounded you both. You couldnât remember how long you had been sitting there, since when you started to lean against him, head on his shoulder, but time seemed to stretch and slow, every second weighted with something unsaid.
âDarlinââ Logan finally murmured, his voice so soft it felt like it was meant for you alone. âDo you ever think about⌠settlinâ down?â the question caught you off guard for a second and you turned your head to look at him, your heart thudding in your chest. âSettling down?â
âYeahâ he breathed, his gaze fixed on the low fire. He found an iron rod to dig and shove between the wooden logs that had long turned into coal and ash, trying to distract himself so the words would come easier. âFindinâ somethinâ, someone, you can hold onto. Somethinâ real. Y'know, not these kinds of meaningless situationships.â
Your breath hitched and for a moment, all you could do was stare at him. Logan, the man who had always seemed like a force of nature. Wild, untamed and unyieldingâlooked almost vulnerable now, his expression open and unguarded.
âI guess Iâve thought about it. It would be nice to have that someone. The right person you can lean onto any timeâ you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper. You felt like you were leaning against that one person just now. âHave you?â
He let out a soft, almost self-deprecating laugh. âI didnât think I had to. Thought I wasnât the type for all that. But latelyâŚâ He trailed off, finally turning to meet your gaze, looking down at you cuddled up against him âLately, Iâve been thinkinâ maybe I was wrong.â
The room felt impossibly still, the weight of his words settling over you like a blanket. âLoganâ you began, your voice trembling slightly âwhat are you trying to say?â allthough the answer seemed obvious, you feared you weren't understanding him correctly.
He let out a slow breath, running a hand through his hair. âIâm tryinâ to say that I care about you. More than Iâve cared about anyone in a long time. And I know Iâm not the easiest guy to be around, but⌠you make me wanna try. Make me wanna be better.â
Your chest tightened, tears prickling at the corners of your eyes. âLoganâŚâ were you imagining things? Were you actually by the windowstill, all alone, dying from the cold Logan warned you about? The cold that looked gorgeous from inside a warm room but was vicious in its beauty, killing you because you wouldn't listen and close the window? Were you just taking your last breath, your mind tricking you into dreaming about what could be?
âI know Iâm probably messinâ this up" he swallowed deeply, his voice rough with emotion. âBut I had to tell you. Couldnât keep it in anymore.â
His words were real, his warmth, his soft breath fanning across your face. You weren't dying. You were just starting to live. âYouâre not messing anything up" you shook your head, voice breaking slightly.
His eyes searched yours and for the first time, you saw a flicker of uncertainty in his gaze. âYou mean that?â
Instead of answering, you leaned up, closing the space between you. Logan froze for a split second before his arms came around you, pulling you close into his lap as your lips met in a kiss that felt like coming home after a harsh and straining day out in the cold.
It was soft and tentative at first, but as the seconds stretched on, it deepened, the barriers between you dissolving like snow in the sun. Your hands laid flat against his chest, feeling the warm and fuzzy fabric underneath your fingers. Logan sighed from his nose as the kiss deepened, a quiet, longing noise forming in the back of his throat.
When you finally pulled back, you rested your forehead against his, your breath mingling in the silence of the room.
âI care about you tooâ you whispered. âMore than I can even put into words.â
Logan let out a soft, shaky laugh, his thumb brushing over your cheek. âGuess that makes us both pretty bad at talkinâ about feelings.â
You laughed, the sound light and full of relief. âMaybe. But I think weâre doing okay.â
Logan nodded âBetter than okay" he murmured, pressing another kiss to your mouth. He was already getting addicted to this.
The rest of the night passed in a blur of warmth and quiet joy. Logan stayed by your side, his hand never straying far from yours as the two of you talked about everything and nothing. You felt like two teenagers that had sneaked away from everyone else to enjoy the thrill of making out and cuddling like in a sappy romance novel.
By the time the first light of dawn crept through the windows, you found yourselves curled up on the couch together, a soft blanket draped over you both. Logans arm was around your shoulders, and your head rested against his chest, the steady beat of his heart lulling you into a sense of peace you hadnât felt in a long while. The sweater he still hadn't taken off (and wouldnât for a while) acting like a soft pillow under your face.
âGood night, darlin'â Logan murmured, his lips brushing against your hair before he looked out the window, the sun rising slowly. He knew it wouldnât take long before the others flodded the room, but he wanted you to sleep and rest, even if it was just for an hour. He kind of felt bad for keeping you up until the sun literally rose again, but how was he supposed to fall asleep when he just found out you loved him back?
âGood night, Loganâ you whispered, smiling as you closed your eyes.
For the first time, you knew without a doubt that this was where you were meant to be - wrapped in Logans arms, your hearts stitched together like the threads of a handmade gift, stronger and more beautiful for the care put into every moment you shared with him.
I've never tried putting dividers like this before, how do we like it? I am also sorry that I am not quite posting this on christmas anymore. I just always get the ideas so late and randomly that I can't get it out on time.
I can't type anymore bc my hands are literally that cold and now, update, i read over it and corrected some mistakes. If you still see any, im sorryđđđť I've fallen you all
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FANFIC: LUCIUS VERUS X READER X GENERAL ACACIUS
Author's Note: As a test to see if this fanfic might appeal to anyone other than myself, I decided to share a preview with you all. If you enjoy it, feel free to leave a commentâI havenât yet decided if Iâll continue writing it. The characters do not belong to me but rather to the Gladiator II universe created by Ridley Scott.
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Gladiators fighting for their lives in the most savage of manners. The savagery does not startle you; you are accustomed to it. Your late husband often had to fight, quite literally, with tooth and nail to survive. He perished as he fought, dreaming that one day you both might escape. Left alone, hollow within, you were spared by General Acacius.
General Marcus Acacius delivered you from the fate of becoming a courtesan to Emperors Geta and Caracalla. In an act of calculated benevolence, he claimed you as his concubine (concubinatus), securing your liberty through this arrangement. For this, you harbor a profound sense of gratitude each day of your life. From that moment forth, you and the General Acacius have maintained the appearance of a romantic entanglement. He graciously granted you leave to serve as an attendant to Ravi, the steward responsible for tending to the wounded gladiators.
"I have heard that you are Macrinus' new gladiator. It seems the battlefield has taken its toll on you," you remark, approaching the gladiator. Hannoâthat is what you heard him called. His blue eyes fix upon you, studying you as though he seeks to unravel your very essence.
"I belong to no one," the gladiator replies, his voice strained as he winces in pain. "But I do appreciate your company. Ravi may be a skilled healer, yet nothing compares to the presence of a beautiful woman." His words are accompanied by a grimace, his arm bearing a wound, likely inflicted by the blade of a sword. Positioning yourself before him, you reach for one of the tools Ravi uses to stitch the torn flesh of gladiators. With steady hands, you then lift a cup of wine laced with opium, offering it to the gladiator to ease his suffering.
The gladiator drinks the wine greedily, allowing the liquid to trickle down his lips. "If my appearance pleases you, I suggest you focus on that," you remark coolly. "For what I am about to do will bring you little satisfaction." Without hesitation, you begin stitching his wound, prompting him to release several groans of pain.
"You seem to take pleasure in causing me pain," he mutters between groans, a chuckle escaping him despite the agony etched across his face.
"Do not misinterpret me so gravely. I take pride in being of service to the recovery of gladiators," you reply while continuing to stitch his wound. "I lost my husband to one of the games orchestrated by Emperors Geta and Caracalla. So rest assured, my dedication lies entirely in aiding you." As you work, his expressions shift, the pain visibly dullingâlikely the effects of the wine and opium taking hold. Yet, his hand from the uninjured arm suddenly grips your leg firmly, near your thigh. The gesture appears unintentional. You glance at him, startled.
"Forgive me," he murmurs, withdrawing his hand swiftly, your silent gaze alone conveying your disapproval. "I believe I lost control of my actions for a moment." You offer no verbal response, but the unspoken understanding in your exchange pleases you.
"There are rumors circulating that you have come in search of something," you say, your gaze lingering on the ring adorning the gladiator's finger. "I wonder if what you seek is vengeanceâor perhaps a love lost." He lifts his eyes to meet yours, as though carefully crafting the right response.
"Vengeance for a lost love," he finally admits, his voice laden with the fury of grief. "My wife perished under the command of the General." The intensity of his words is mirrored in his eyes, now burning with a hunger that seems insatiable.
A fleeting discomfort stirs within you as his words settle. You owe much to General Acacius; your life, your freedom, and perhaps even a part of your heart are tied to him. He has been nothing but an honorable man in your eyes, despite his marriage to Lucilla. A genuine affection for him lingers within you, though you respect the boundaries of his union.
"Since you do not know me, I feel compelled to warn youâshould your vengeance be aimed at General Acacius, you will find no ally in me. I am among the many who will not stand idly by should harm come to him," you declare, finishing your care for his wound.
"Ah, and we have only just met, yet I seem to have displeased you already," the gladiator replies, a faint smirk playing on his lips. "But allow me to askâif you had the chance to kill the one responsible for your husband's death, would you not take it?"
His gaze is unwavering, piercing into yours. You avert your eyes, exhaling slowly before stepping closer to him. "When my husband died, vengeance had no place in my heart," you say firmly. "I was consumed with fearâwondering which emperor I would be forced to lay with to survive, or whose entertainment I would become. Fortunately, General Acacius spared me from all those fates and ensured I was kept far from the gladiator who killed my husband." Your eyes meet his with an intensity that demands understanding, your voice steady and resolute. He listens in silence, his focus unbroken.
"Then you are indebted to General Acacius," the gladiator remarks, his tone probing as he holds your gaze. You step away, irritation rising within you, though you refuse to admit it aloud.
"You could say soâI am indebted to General Acacius. Does that make you angry with me?" you ask earnestly, taking a cloth soaked in wine and carefully pressing it against the gladiator's wounds.
"No, I do not feel anger toward you," he replies, his voice steady despite the sting of the alcohol against his skin.
"Gladiator, you are ready to fight once more. Should you suffer any wounds in the future and prefer Ravi's care, I will not take offense," you say, finishing your work.
He smiles softly, gradually regaining his composure. "My name is Hanno. You may call me that, and I would like to keep you as the one responsible for my care." Hanno says, taking your hands as if in gratitude.
"I am Y/N, since we are introducing ourselves," you reply. "And since we are being friendly, I will ask a favor of you. If you plan to seek revenge, do it properly. Confront General Acacius in a fair manner, that one of you may die an honorable death."
You hold Hanno's rough hands, hoping to appeal to his sense of reason. "I will take your words into consideration, but I cannot guarantee anything," Hanno responds, his gaze never leaving you.
"I recommend you rest before being taken to your cell. Surely, we will meet again soon," you say as you step away, gathering the healing supplies Ravi entrusted to you.
Hanno bids you farewell, settling down in a corner of the place where you had been tending to him. You leave him there, knowing he will soon be escorted to his cell. Meanwhile, you make your way to General Acacius, as he often summons you when he returns from his campaigns, and you follow him without hesitation.
"Mea domina, I have waited so long for you to come to me..." Marcus Acacius' voice fills the space around you. The setting is a private garden within his residence, shared with Lucilla.
You approach him, adjusting the stole around your body. He moves toward you slowly, holding a goblet of wine in his hands.
"I had to attend to the treatment of one of the gladiators," you speak softly, drawing nearer to him. He extends the goblet to you, and you drink from it. Then, he rises slightly and places a gentle kiss on your forehead.
"I have a wound as well; I would like you to tend to it," General Acacius says, his fingers brushing lightly against his lower lip. Gently, you rise toward him, pressing your lips to his in a kiss so soft it could scarcely be called one. It is delicate, restrainedâyou have no desire to overstep any boundaries.
"Our charade may now conclude, General Acacius. I believe any servant or guard lingering nearby has been sufficiently convinced by our display of affection," you say, fully aware that this romantic gesture is but a performance to solidify the illusion that you truly belong to him.
"Just a little longer, mea domina," he murmurs, placing his hands gently on your face and pulling you into another kiss. This time, it is more fervent, as though he is intent on committing the feel of your lips to memory.
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The morning had started just like any other, the sun streaming in through the kitchen window, casting a warm glow over everything, but YN barely noticed. She sat at the counter, her hands curled around a coffee mug, its warmth barely a match for the cold ache building inside her. The apartment felt empty, despite the soft hum of the city just outside the window. She could feel the weight of the silence pressing down on her, a silence that had grown more oppressive over the past few weeks.
Harry had been on tour for what seemed like forever now, and their communication had dwindled. What had once been late-night calls and stolen moments between sound checks had turned into rushed, distracted conversations, where he was either too busy or too tired to give her his full attention. YN had always known the demands of his career, had always been willing to share him with the world, but it was starting to feel like he was slipping further away from her.
She had tried to be understanding, tried to remind herself that this was just a phaseâthat he was only gone for a while, and they would find their way back to each other. But today felt different. Something in the air was charged with tension, a sense of dread that hung around her like a cloud. Harry had promised to call her during his break between rehearsals, and as the minutes ticked by, that sense of unease only grew. She hadnât heard from him, not even a text to explain why.
When the phone finally rang, she grabbed it with an anxious breath, hoping for the reassurance she so desperately needed.
âHey, babe,â Harryâs voice crackled through the phone, distant and strained. There was a tiredness in his voice that made her heart ache even more.
âHi,â she replied softly, trying to keep her tone light, but the worry slipped out anyway. âI was starting to wonder if you forgot about me.â
Harry didnât immediately answer, and YN could feel him shifting on the other end, perhaps looking for the right words, or maybe just gathering the energy to engage with her. âI didnât forget,â he said after a beat, his voice uncharacteristically flat. âItâs just⌠things are hectic right now. You know how it is.â
YN frowned, her fingers tightening around her mug. She knew how it was. She knew that Harryâs tour schedule was demanding, that he barely had time to breathe, let alone talk to her. But it was different now. It had been different for weeks, and she couldnât shake the feeling that something was wrong.
âI get it, Harry,â she said softly, trying to keep the frustration from her voice. âBut it feels like we havenât really talked in days. I feel like Iâm losing you.â
The words hung in the air between them, thick with unspoken emotions. She didnât want to say it. She didnât want to accuse him of pulling away, but she couldnât ignore what was happening anymore. She missed him. She missed the way they used to connect, how theyâd stay up all night talking about their dreams and fears, how theyâd laugh until their stomachs ached. Now, it felt like all they did was talk about logistics and time zones. She wanted more than that.
Harry let out a heavy sigh, and for a moment, she thought he was going to apologize, that he would offer the comfort she so desperately needed. But instead, his voice grew colder, his words sharper. âYou miss me? Maybe you miss the version of me that you had before all of this. But Iâm not the same person anymore, YNN. Iâm just tired. Tired of feeling like Iâm constantly being pulled in a million directions.â
Her heart sank at his words, the finality in them hitting her harder than she had expected. âWhat does that mean?â she asked, her voice barely above a whisper.
Harryâs words came out in a rush, almost like he couldnât stop them, as if they were coming from a place deeper than he intended. âIt means that I donât have the energy for this right now. I donât have the energy to keep pretending that everything is fine when itâs not. And maybe Iâm just tired of pretending that youâre not asking for more than I can give. Maybe I need space. Maybe we both need space.â
The words stabbed her. She felt them deep in her chest, each one like a dagger, twisting further with every breath. âSpace?â she echoed, barely able to form the word, the hurt creeping into her voice despite her best efforts to hold it back. âIâm not asking for space, Harry. Iâm just asking for you. For the person you promised me youâd always be.â
Harry didnât respond right away, and when he did, his voice was tight, defensive. âMaybe that person isnât here anymore, YNN. Maybe thatâs what Iâm trying to say.â
The silence that followed was suffocating. YN could hear the faint rustling of something on his end of the phone, the noise of people moving in the background, but it didnât matter. The emptiness between them felt so loud, so unbearable. The connection that once held them together was fraying, thread by thread.
She swallowed hard, the tears welling in her eyes. âFine,â she said, her voice breaking as she spoke. âIf thatâs how you feel, then I guess Iâll leave.â
The words came out before she could stop them, and she immediately regretted them. But the damage was done. The silence that followed was deafening, and the weight of Harryâs absence felt so heavy, so crushing, that she could barely breathe. The person she loved, the person she had given everything to, had just told her he was done. He was tired of her.
Before she could say another word, she ended the call. The click of the phone disconnecting felt like the final nail in the coffin, sealing whatever it was that they had left.
YN sat there for a long moment, staring at the phone in her hand as if it were some foreign object. She couldnât move, couldnât speak. Her mind was numb, her thoughts tangled in confusion and hurt. The apartment, their shared space, felt so small now. It felt suffocating. Every corner of the place was a reminder of everything that had once been good, everything that was now falling apart.
Tears blurred her vision as she stood up from the counter. She didnât know what to do. She didnât know where to go. But she couldnât stay there. Not with him, not with the words he had just said. The love they had built felt like ashes, and she couldnât breathe in the smoke any longer.
She started packing her things, her movements automatic, like she was on autopilot. Her hands shook as she threw clothes into a bag, not caring if they matched or if they were folded neatly. Nothing mattered in that moment except the urgent need to get away from the place that had once been home. She ignored the phone buzzing with messages, messages from Harry, apologizing, pleading with her to call him back. She couldnât. Not yet. Not after the things he had said.
When she finished packing, she grabbed her bags and walked out the door. The apartment felt even emptier as she closed the door behind her. There were no more goodbyes, no more promises. Just the echo of his hurtful words ringing in her ears.
YN drove to her parentsâ house in a daze, her eyes stinging with unshed tears. She couldnât stop thinking about everything that had happened, about how quickly their love had unraveled. She needed space to think. To breathe. To figure out how to move on from this. But deep down, she knew it wasnât that simple.
It wasnât just a fight. It was something deeper. Something that couldnât be fixed with apologies.
When she pulled into the driveway, she didnât feel the relief she thought she would. Instead, the silence that had followed her from their apartment seemed to follow her here. Even the familiar sight of her childhood home didnât offer the comfort it once had. It all felt distant. Empty. Just like her heart.
She stepped out of the car, closing the door behind her with a soft click. As she walked up to the front door, her phone buzzed again. She ignored it. She couldnât bear to look at it. She couldnât bear to see his name flashing on the screen. The man she loved had just shattered her heart into a million pieces, and she didnât know how to pick them up.
The night had been a blur for Harry. The anger, the disappointment, the gnawing guilt in his chest from the argument with YNâit was all too much to bear. In the solitude of his hotel room, far from her, he drowned out the pain with alcohol. He knew he had messed up, knew he had hurt her with his words, but the overwhelming pressure of being on tour, the constant demand of being a public figure, and the exhaustion had driven him to the brink. He had never intended for it to escalate the way it did, but in his drunken haze, it all came crashing down.
Somewhere between the blurry shots and the endless stream of drinks, he found himself in a bar, surrounded by strangers, feeling more alone than he had in a long time. His phone was buzzing on the table, the screen lighting up with YNâs name flashing, but he didnât pick it up. The coldness in his heart had become too unbearable, and he pushed her away instead of confronting the hurt he had caused. He just wanted the world to stop spinning for a moment. He wanted to forget everything that had gone wrong.
And that was when Emily Ratajkowski had walked in.
They had known each other for years, casually friendly in the way celebrities often are when their circles overlap. Emily, ever the charmer, had greeted Harry with a friendly smile. They sat and talked, their conversation casual at first, just the usual small talk about work and life. But Harry, caught in his haze of regret, had let his guard down. The more they talked, the more the words flowed. In some strange way, it felt easy to talk to herâlike she was a stranger he could confide in, someone who didnât carry the same weight of their past, the years of intimacy and history he shared with YN.
It didnât take long before the alcohol took its toll. Emilyâs laughter had filled the air, and Harry had found himself leaning closer, her presence soothing in a way that made him forget the ache in his chest. Before he knew it, they were kissing. His mind screamed for him to stop, to think about YN, to remember everything he stood to lose. But in that moment, he didnât. The guilt had been smothered by the fleeting comfort of the kiss, the escape from his spiraling thoughts.
He didnât remember much after that. The night blurred into incoherence, a jumble of laughter, flashes, and fleeting touches. Harry woke up the next morning, disoriented and groggy, the light filtering through the hotel room window far too bright. His phone was buzzing incessantly, and his stomach churned when he saw the series of missed calls and messages from YN. The weight of it all hit him like a wave, and for a moment, he just sat there, trying to piece together the fragments of his memories.
Then, his phone lit up with an alertâa notification from a gossip website, and his heart dropped into his stomach. There, in front of him, were pictures of him and Emily Ratajkowski, the kind of photos Harry had spent years avoiding. They were kissing, their lips pressed together, captured in a moment of reckless abandon that Harry didnât even fully remember. The headline was cruel: Harry Styles and Emily RatajkowskiâA New Romance in the Making?
His throat tightened as he scrolled through the photos, his mind racing. He didnât remember kissing her. He didnât remember anything about that night except the overwhelming sense of regret that now gripped him. He had ruined everything. The fragile thread holding him together seemed to snap in that moment. He had lost YN, and now the media would make sure the world knew it. His personal life was on full display, and all he could think about was how much he had fucked it all up.
Desperation began to rise in his chest, and without thinking, he began sending text after text to YN, each one filled with apologies, regret, and pleas for her to talk to him. But she didnât answer. The silence on the other end was deafening.
Meanwhile, YN was in her parentsâ house, sitting in the living room with the muted glow of the television casting long shadows across the room. The house, once a place of comfort and warmth, now felt suffocating. Her mother had been quiet ever since YN arrived, sensing the heavy tension in the air. She tried to comfort her daughter, offering tea, but YN couldnât bring herself to care. The weight of the argument, of the harsh words Harry had said, sat heavily in her chest, gnawing at her.
But when the photos surfacedâwhen she saw Harry with Emily, their lips locked, the headlines flashing across her phoneâher world shattered all over again. The room spun around her, and she felt like she was suffocating. The love she had poured into her relationship with Harry now felt like a cruel joke. She had trusted him. She had believed in him. And now thisâthis betrayal was too much to bear.
Tears blurred her vision, and she quickly turned away from her phone. Her mother noticed the change in her expression and asked softly, âYN, whatâs wrong, sweetheart?â
âI canât do this,â YN whispered, choking on her tears. âI canât keep doing this. I thought he loved me⌠but now⌠now I donât know who he is anymore. It didnât even take him a night to move on?â
Her mother hugged her tightly, murmuring comforting words, but YN couldnât hear them. The pain of what she had seenâthe public humiliation of it allâfelt like a physical weight on her chest. She needed to get away. She needed to clear her head.
âIâm going for a walk,â she said, her voice distant, as if she were speaking to herself rather than her mother.
Her mother nodded, understanding the need for space, and watched as YN stepped outside, the cool evening air wrapping around her like a blanket.
The lake stretched out before her, calm and unbothered by the storm raging inside her. Its surface shimmered faintly under the overcast sky, the golden light of the fading afternoon barely breaking through the thick clouds. The familiar sight of itâ the way the trees reflected on the water, the distant sound of birds, the rhythmic lapping of waves against the shore-should have brought YN the comfort she was seeking. But all it did was make her chest tighten with a suffocating ache.
She had always come to this place for solace, even as a child. The lake by her parents' house was her sanctuary, a space where the noise of the world couldn't touch her. But now, as she stood there, arms wrapped tightly around herself against the crisp autumn air, the silence was deafening. It wasn't peace she found here today. It was the echo of memories she had desperately tried to bury since she walked out of the home she had once shared with Harry.
Her boots crunched softly against the earth as she made her way closer to the water's edge, the damp grass soaking the hem of her dress. The wind whispered through the trees, carrying with it the faintest scent of pine and earth. But YN didn't notice. Her mind was far away, replaying a reel of memories she wished she could turn off. No matter how much she tried to focus on the present, her past with Harry came rushing back to her, vivid and bittersweet.
She crouched down near the shore, her fingertips brushing against the cool surface of the water. As ripples spread outward, her thoughts drifted to another time, another version of herself-a happier one. She closed her eyes, and it all came rushing back as if she were still there.
It had been a summer evening, the sun setting in brilliant hues of orange and pink.
Harry had been sitting on the dock, legs stretched out, his feet just barely skimming the water. YN had been lying beside him, her head resting on his thigh as they shared a bottle of wine they had stolen from her parents' pantry. The lake had been their escape that summer, a place where the chaos of Harry's career and the pressures of the world seemed to melt away.
"This place is magic," Harry had murmured, running his fingers absentmindedly through her hair. His voice had been low, almost reverent, as he looked out at the water.
YN had tilted her head to glance up at him, a smile tugging at her lips. "You always say that," she teased. "But you're not wrong."
He grinned, his dimple deepening as he looked down at her. "It's true, though. Don't you feel it? It's like... time stops here. Like nothing bad can touch us."
She had laughed softly, the sound blending with the gentle rustle of the trees.
"That's what l've always loved about this place. It's quiet. Peaceful. Away from everything."
Harry had hummed in agreement, his gaze softening as he studied her. "One day, YNN... one day l'd love to settle down somewhere like this. Away from the noise. Just us."
Her breath had caught at his words, her heart skipping a beat. "Just us?" she'd asked, her voice barely above a whisper.
"Well," he'd added, his lips twitching into a playful smile, "maybe not just us. I'm thinking a couple of little ones running around, maybe a dog... or two."
YN's heart skipped at his words, her stomach flipping in that way it always did when he hinted at their future. She laughed, nudging him playfully. "Little ones, huh? You planning on starting a family with me already, Styles?"
Harry grinned, his dimple showing as he leaned closer, the teasing glint in his eyes softening into something deeper. "Why not? I mean it, YNN. I'd love that. A house by the lake. Waking up every morning with you by my side. Teaching our kids how to fish or swim or whatever it is people do out here. It sounds perfect."
Her breath caught as she looked at him, the sincerity in his words tugging at something deep within her. "It does," she whispered, her voice barely audible. "It sounds perfect."
He reached out, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear, his fingers lingering against her cheek. "You're perfect," he murmured, and before she could respond, he leaned in, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to her lips.
The world had faded away then, leaving only the two of them, wrapped in a bubble of love and possibility.
âI wouldnât want anything less than forever when it comes to you.â
His words had settled into her heart like a warm glow, and she had leaned in to kiss him, the taste of wine still lingering on his lips. In that moment, with the sun setting and the world quiet around them, she had believed him. She had believed in forever.
YN blinked, the memory dissolving as the present came crashing back. The lake was still, the air cold, and Harry wasn't there. Her chest ached as she stared at the dock, the image of them sitting there overlaying the reality of its emptiness. She could almost hear his laughter, feel his hand in hers, but it was all in her mind.
The betrayal burned anew, the image of him with Emily flashing behind her eyes.
How could he have said those things, painted that picture of their future, and then so carelessly let it all fall apart? How could he kiss someone else after everything they had shared?
How had they gone from that to this? How had the man who once promised her forever ended up kissing someone else? The image of Harry and Emily flashed in her mind again, sharper this time, and her stomach twisted. She wrapped her arms tighter around herself, trying to hold together the pieces of her heart that felt like they were falling apart.
The lake, once her sanctuary, now felt like a cruel reminder of everything she had lost. The life she had envisioned with Harry-the house by the lake, the little ones running around, the forever they had dreamed of-felt like a distant, unattainable dream. And yet, no matter how much she wanted to hate him, to shut him out completely, her heart wouldn't let her. She still loved him, even now, even after everything.
YN sank down onto the grass, her knees pulled to her chest, tears streaming freely now. She thought of the countless nights they had spent talking about their dreams, their plans. The way Harry had once made her feel so safe, so sure of their love. And now, it all felt like a cruel joke, a dream turned nightmare.
"Why, Harry?" she whispered into the stillness. "Why did you have to ruin everything?"
The question hung in the air, unanswered, as the sun dipped lower on the horizon.
She let herself cry then, the sobs wracking her body as she finally allowed herself to feel the full weight of her heartbreak. The lake bore silent witness to her pain, its surface rippling gently as if trying to offer her some semblance of comfort.
The lake, once her sanctuary, now felt like a graveyard for their love.
When she returned to the house, her heart felt heavy, each step laden with the weight of everything she was feeling. But it wasn't the emptiness of the house that grabbed her attention; it was the faint sound-the small, deliberate taps against the window. At first, she thought it was the rain playing tricks on her, the gentle taps against the glass. But when she heard it again-sharp and insistent-her breath caught in her throat.
Her mind didn't even have time to process it fully. She spun toward the window, her heart pounding in her chest. And there he was.
Harry.
He stood in the pouring rain, his face pale, his hair clinging to his skin. His clothes were soaked through, and his hands trembled slightly as he threw small pebbles at the window, as if trying to wake her from a nightmare she couldn't escape. She stood frozen for a moment, unsure of what to do. Was this real? Was this the same man who had hurt her so badly?
But then, she saw it in his eyes-the desperation. The raw vulnerability. The silent plea for forgiveness that spoke louder than words ever could. He was standing there, drenched, with nothing left to lose. He was a broken man, and in that moment, she could see that he knew he had ruined everything.
Before she could stop herself, she ran to the down to the front door, threw it open, and without thinking, rushed outside into the rain.
The rain fell in torrents, its relentless downpour drowning out all sound except for the beat of water against the ground. Harry stood before YN, drenched, his eyes wide with desperate urgency, a look of raw pain etched into every line of his face. His clothes clung to his body, soaked through, but it was nothing compared to the turmoil inside of him.
âYNâŚâ His voice broke, as if the weight of her name was too much to bear. His hand reached out shakily, desperate to bridge the gap between them, but she pulled away slightly. He flinched, not from her rejection, but from the weight of his own guilt that seemed to pull him lower with every passing second.
âIââ He took a breath, trying to steady himself, but his words tumbled out in a frantic rush. âI never meant for it to be this way. I never meant to hurt you, YNN. I swear, I never thoughtâGod, I was so drunk, so damn stupid. I donât even remember what happened, but I know I messed up. I know I messed everything up.â
YNâs heart clenched painfully in her chest. She wanted to scream at him, to tell him how much he had hurt her, how much his words still stung like a constant ache in her soul. But instead, she stood there, her breath coming in ragged bursts, staring at him as he trembled in the rain. She wasnât sure whether it was the cold of the storm or the pain inside him that made him shudder, but it was impossible to ignore the depth of his regret.
âYou do remember, Harry,â she finally spoke, her voice shaking but strong. âYou remember everything, even if you donât remember that moment. You remember the things you said to me. You remember how you treated me. How youââ She stopped herself, not wanting to continue with the painful words. But the memory of his cutting tone, his dismissive words, echoed in her mind, taunting her, making her question everything they had ever shared. âI trusted you. I loved you. And youâyou broke me.â
Harryâs eyes welled with unshed tears as he took a step toward her, this time not caring if she pulled away. He was beyond caring about the rain, beyond caring about anything except for the woman standing before him, the one person who had always been his everything.
âI know,â he whispered, his voice thick with emotion, and she could see the raw vulnerability in his eyes. âI know I broke you. And thatâs the worst part of it. I never wanted to hurt you. Not in a million years. Iâve never loved anyone the way I love you, YNN. Youâre it for me, you always have been.â He reached for her again, but this time she didnât pull away. His fingers brushed against hers, a tentative touch, as if he were afraid she might vanish the moment he let go.
âBut I let my stupid insecurities, my stupid mistakes, cloud everything,â he continued, his voice cracking. âIâve never been more scared of losing someone than I am of losing you, and I couldnât see that until now. I couldnât see that you are the one I need. That itâs not the fame, itâs not the tour, itâs not anyone or anything elseâitâs you, YN. Youâre the only thing that matters.â
The words hung in the air like fragile threads, each one trembling with a rawness that made YNâs heart ache in ways she didnât think possible. The anger, the hurtâit was still there, simmering beneath the surface, but now there was something else too: hope. Hope that maybe, just maybe, this wasnât all lost.
She swallowed hard, her throat dry. She wanted to push him away, wanted to shout at him for what he had done, but when she looked at himâreally looked at himâthere was something so devastatingly human about him, standing there, shaking in the rain. He was broken, but there was sincerity in his apology, a plea that reached her heart in ways his words never had before.
âYou donât even understand what youâve done to me, Harry,â she said, her voice quivering as she took a step back. âYou think itâs just about what happened with her, with Emily? Itâs not. Itâs about everything that led up to that moment. Itâs about the words you said to me, the way you dismissed everything we had, everything I gave you. Itâs about how you made me feel like I wasnât enough.â
Harry closed his eyes, a silent tear slipping down his cheek. âI didnât mean to make you feel that way, YNN. I never wanted you to feel like you werenât enough. Youâre everything to me. Iâve been an idiot, and I know Iâve hurt you, but please⌠donât let this be the end for us. I canât lose you. I just canât⌠live without you. I canât.â
The storm raged around them, but the silence between them felt deafening, thick with the weight of everything unsaid, everything unresolved. YN could feel the anger still bubbling inside her, but she also felt the pull of something deeperâthe love she had for him, the love that she had thought was gone, but now seemed to flicker in her chest like a fragile flame.
She wanted to stay angry, to hold onto the hurt, but something inside her was giving way.
âHarry, IâŚâ Her voice faltered, the words catching in her throat as her chest tightened painfully. âI donât know if I can forgive you right now. I need time. I need space to figure this out.â She shook her head, unable to meet his eyes as the tears finally spilled over, mingling with the rain. âI donât know if I can go back to who we were. You hurt me too much.â
He stepped forward again, his hand reaching for her, trembling with the force of his desperation. âPlease, YN. Iâll do anything. Iâll give you all the space you need. Iâll be patient, I swear. Iâll wait as long as it takes. But donât walk away from me. Please.â
She didnât respond immediately. The storm had drowned out every thought, every hesitation in her mind, but there was still one thing she knew for certain: she couldnât let him go. Not yet. She wasnât ready. Not when her heart was still so tangled up in him, so unable to let go of the person he had once been to her.
âI need time,â she repeated softly, her voice barely audible against the pounding rain. âI need to think, Harry. Please, just⌠just go inside. I canâtââ She couldnât finish the sentence, not without breaking apart completely.
Harry nodded, his face a picture of heartbreaking understanding. His heart was in pieces, but he was willing to wait, willing to do whatever it took to prove that he could make things right. Without another word, he turned toward the house, slowly, unwilling to leave her in the storm but knowing that he had to respect her need for space.
YN watched him go, her heart heavy in her chest, torn between love and hurt, between forgiveness and anger. The rain continued to pour, and as she stood there, feeling the cold seep into her bones, she wondered if they would ever find their way back to each otherâor if this was the beginning of the end.
The night had felt like an eternity. Each minute stretched on, filled with haunting thoughts and the pounding rhythm of YNs heart. Her mind was tangled in knots, the anger still burning bright, but beneath it all, there was an undercurrent of something she couldnât deny: the love she still had for Harry. It was the kind of love that had once felt so pure, so easy, but now felt fractured, jagged, like trying to hold onto a shattered glass piece that was bleeding into her heart.
She hadnât been able to sleep. The past few days, the pain, the betrayal, the angerâit all swirled together in a mess that made her restless. Harryâs words from the night beforeâthe desperate, raw apologyâreplayed over and over again in her mind, like a broken record. And yet, each time she thought of it, the hurt crept back in. She had tried to push it away, tried to convince herself that she could ignore it, but the reality was that she couldnât. Not when the memories of their love, of their happy moments, still clung to her like the scent of his cologne.
But it wasnât just the hurt she was feeling. There was something else, something deeper, something that felt too real to ignore. She couldnât escape the way her heart still responded to Harry, no matter how hard she tried.
As the morning light began to filter through the windows, YN could no longer stay in the silence of her room. She had to see him. She had to confront everything that had happened and, maybeâjust maybeâfind a way to heal. But even as the desire to see him grew stronger, there was still that gnawing uncertainty. Could she really trust him again? Could she really forgive him for what had happened?
The house was quiet as she made her way down the stairs, the soft creak of the wooden steps echoing in the otherwise still air. The soft hum of the morning felt foreign against the heaviness that weighed on her shoulders, but she ignored it, pushing forward. When she stepped outside, the cold hit her like a rush, but it was nothing compared to the chill in her heart.
The lake was quiet, still as glass, the air thick with the faint scent of damp earth and fresh water. And there, sitting on the grass at the edge of the lake, was Harry. His posture was slumped, his shoulders drooped, as though the weight of the world was resting on him. The sight of him in this state, so broken and vulnerable, pulled at her heart in ways she couldnât explain.
He looked so small, so lost.
For a moment, YN stood there, watching him. She wasnât sure what to do, what to say. But as she watched him, she realized that she couldnât stay away. Not anymore. She had to speak. She had to let him know how much he had hurt her, but also how much she still cared, despite everything.
Her footsteps were quiet on the soft earth as she made her way toward him. Harry didnât look up immediately, but she could see the slight twitch of his head as if he felt her presence. His face was blank, his eyes staring out at the water, but there was something in the way he held himself that spoke volumes.
YN stopped just a few feet away, standing still as the silence stretched between them. For what felt like an eternity, neither of them spoke. The tension was thick, palpable, like a heavy fog.
Finally, she couldnât stand it anymore. The silence, the uncertainty. She had to break it.
âI donât even know where to start, Harry,â she said, her voice trembling just slightly as she crossed her arms over her chest, trying to protect herself from the rawness of the moment. âYou hurt me. You really hurt me. And I donât know if I can ever forget what you said to me. What you did to us.â
Harry flinched, as if each word she spoke cut through him. He finally lifted his head, his red-rimmed eyes meeting hers. There was guilt in those eyes, raw and undeniable. His voice came out barely above a whisper.
âIâm sorry, YNN. Iâm so sorry. I canât even begin to explain how much I regret everything. I was angry, and I was drunk, and I didnâtââ He cut himself off, his hands shaking as he clenched them into fists at his sides. âI never meant to hurt you. Not like that. Youâre everything to me, YNN. You always have been.â
YN took a deep breath, her chest tight with the conflicting emotions. She wanted to stay angry, to protect herself from the pain heâd caused, but she couldnât deny that his words, his remorse, were hitting something deep inside her. It wasnât enough to erase the hurt, but it was a start. She looked at him, really looked at him, and saw how broken he was. He was a man who had made a mistake, but he was also a man who still cared for her.
âI donât want to feel like this anymore,â she whispered, her voice breaking. âI donât want to live in the hurt and the anger. I want to move past this, but I need to know that youâll never do this again. I need to know that youâre willing to fight for us.â
Harryâs eyes welled up, the emotion overwhelming him. He reached out then, taking her hand gently, almost like he was afraid she might pull away. âI swear to you, YNN. Iâll fight for us. Iâll fight for you. Iâll do whatever it takes to make this right. Iâll spend every single day proving to you that youâre worth more than anything, more than the stupid mistakes Iâve made. You mean everything to me.â
YNâs breath caught in her throat. It was impossible to ignore the depth of his words, the rawness in his voice. But it wasnât just the words that got to her; it was the sincerity in his eyes, the vulnerability that he rarely showed anyone, let alone her.
She stepped closer to him, her heart pounding as she tried to make sense of the whirlwind of emotions swirling inside her. She had been so angry, so broken, but looking at him now, she realized that she couldnât just walk away.
âI want to believe you, Harry,â she whispered, her voice shaking. âI really do. But I need time. I need time to heal, to trust you again.â
Harryâs face softened, relief flooding through him. âI understand. Take all the time you need. Iâll be here, every step of the way. Iâll prove to you that Iâm worth it. That weâre worth it.â
And in that moment, everything felt a little bit clearer. The storm inside her had not fully subsided, but the clouds were beginning to part, and the sun was starting to peek through. She stepped closer, closing the distance between them, and in one slow, careful motion, she placed her hand on his chest. The steady beat of his heart under her palm was a reminder of how much he still cared.
âIâm willing to try,â she said, her voice barely above a whisper. âIâm willing to try if you promise me that youâll never let me go again.â
Harryâs eyes shone with tears, and he pulled her into his arms, his hands cupping her face gently as he kissed her forehead, his lips brushing softly over her skin. âI promise you, YNN. Iâll never let you go. Youâre my everything. I love you.â
YN closed her eyes, letting his words wash over her. She hadnât been sure if she could forgive him, if she could ever move past the hurt. But standing here in his arms, feeling his heart beat against hers, she realized that love wasnât always easy. It wasnât always simple. But it was worth fighting for.
âI love you too,â she whispered back, her voice trembling with emotion.
And as they stood there, wrapped in each otherâs arms, the world around them felt a little less heavy, a little less uncertain. The future was still unclear, but for the first time in a long time, they both had hope.
Theyâll be alright.
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The next chapter of your life indicates a period of discipline, structure and determination. Long term plans or goals instead of short term gratification. I feel previous months of stagnation, struggle and mental turmoil has led to you having the mindset of being rather unfazed towards anything because you have likely realised that regardless of what you 'see' you're in control. You've learnt to trust your intuition and inner guidance over anyone else. You might encounter power struggles in between but this will lead to emotional growth nonetheless.
There is a lot of joy, celebration and new connections to look forward to as well. It might seem like despite the good happening to you and what you've wanted for so long finally being yours, you feel rather defensive. Remember to push through despite past struggles. To fully be in the present and enjoy what you have and what you deserve. For some of you I do see you making really good friends but due to past experiences you're rather guarded towards them. The message I'm getting is that yes, do use discernment when dealing with people. Do establish necessary boundaries. But don't let promising friendships falter due to fears.
You can also expect your dreams to be more within reach, renewal and unexpected help coming through, the path getting clear when you least expect it, healing from mental strain that have remained unspoken.
Lastly, you will experience a balance in giving and receiving. This will be necessary when it comes to your material and spiritual growth.

The next chapter of your life calls for adjustment and change. Drastic ones. If it's causing you some tension know that this area of your life requires that change. You can't expect to step into the next chapter of your life otherwise. I see that this involves your daily routine, health, work, with opportunities of personal growth and recognition in those areas. You may also be stepping into a new role of responsibility that requires self discipline on your part. You will be pushed to focus on your physical health a lot more. So if you feel like you're getting sick often it's a sign to stress less about it and take mindful steps towards it instead. Be it getting a proper check up or holding yourself accountable. You don't have to rush anything however, improvement will happen gradually. Some of you likely just need more movement but not the kind that puts your body on overdrive. There will be rapid progress and sudden opportunities coming your way out of the blue, a lot of communication and even travel. Career wise, it's looking really good! You will also be transitioning away from a very difficult time of your life. You may also have new intellectual pursuits, you'd want to learn new things or will be acquiring a lot of necessary knowledge. you will also find yourself juggling many tasks or projects at once but this will lead to a sort of mastery over your life You'll be feeling rather accomplished.

The next chapter calls for self expression, communication as well as creativity however some challenges or conflicts might arise as you assert your individuality or learn to find your voice in new environments.
You can however, look forward to emotional growth, new beginnings in your emotional life as well creative expressions.
Steady and solid growth when it comes to your finances as well. Something that makes you feel like you don't need to rely on others and you have financial freedom so one less thing to feel anxious about that has possibly been weighing down on you far too much .
Once again, try not to over exhert yourself or you'll end up attaching the experience to something that should come to you rather smoothly. In other words, you really need to drop the mindsets of the people that have been projected onto you and have become your belief systems. It's time to make some of your own without losing sight of what you truly value.
You can also expect more mental clarity and better insights in regards to what to do, where to invest, your life's purpose and what truly brings you joy. But instead of running from it like you did before, you'll embrace it.
You might feel more drawn towards arts, aesthetics, cooking, gardening etc as well.
Having time and proper consideration towards things you earlier didn't have the state of mind for.
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nightmares come true // logan howlett x reader
summary: you get hurt during an intense battle
oneshot: ANGST, comfort. Swearing, injury, violence
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The bleeding wouldnât stop.
You couldâve sworn Logan described this exact scenario to you before. Down to the very last detail.
A few times actually. It was only ever after you calmed him down from the nightmares that he told you what they were really about.
They were the same, each time. Sometimes the location or clothes would vary, but the outcome never changed.
They were of you. Dying in his arms. In a pool of blood.
Death was something Logan never had to worry about. His powers wouldnât allow it. But, when it came to you, that was a whole other matter. He thought about it all the time.
When the nightmares returned, and they returned often, they filled him with so much fear it scared you.
He woke with your name on his lips. You whispered words of comfort against his sweaty skin. And wrapped your arms around him, burying your face in the crook of his neck and told him you were safe. That he was safe too.
All those nights, you combed through strains of wet hair and held him close, waiting for his breathing to steady. Sometimes his claws would come out. Thats when the night terrors were really bad. On one occasion, they accidentally cut you. Logan refused to sleep in the same bed for days after that.
He would always ask you if you were okay after those frightful dreams. Every single time. And youâd tell him you were and hoped heâd go back to sleep. But you knew he stayed up. Afraid take heâs eyes off you. Afraid the dreams would become real.
Were you slipping into that dream now?
Kurt held your head in his lap. He pressed down on the right side with shaking hands, muttering under his breath. Something about God and healing. You didnât really know, your hearing and vision were both fading.
He applied more pressure to your wound. The pain was so bad you wanted to scream. It was the kind of pain that made it impossible to think, talk, breathe, or do anything.
Your heart was beating for its life. The pulse pounding in your brain right where it hurt the most. It grew bigger and bigger. Your head was a ticking time bomb, ready to explode.
The ship shook violently, the battle outside raging on. You thought you could hear Logan shouting for where you were. But you couldnât tell. There was blood in your ears.
You pleaded with the universe that Logan wouldnât see you like this.
Another shockwave hit the plane. You winced from the sudden movement, your brain throbbing underneath a relentless force.
âI need⌠I need to help them.â
But Kurt wouldnât let you move. You caught a glimpse of crimson on his blue skin and underneath his nails as he gently pressed you down.
âTheyâll be fine.â He assured you. You were too exhausted to protest, your body sagging against your friend. âYou just need to stay still.â
The constant rocking back and forth of the plane and the ground rumbling beneath you wouldnât let that happen. But Kurt kept you as steady as he could.
Flickering red and orange lights illuminated the windows. Smoke billowed past, creating dark clouds. You noticed you couldnât smell the fires burning. You could only smell metal. There was a man shouting at Kurt to open the hatch.
He carefully laid your body on his jacket, now soaked with blood. Your blood. You'd have to buy him a new one if you made it out of this mess. The thought brought a weak smile to your face. Kurt pressed one of the control buttons and the hatch slowly opened.
Logan couldnât wait for the hatch to finish opening before rushing in, still asking for you. His black suit was full of holes but his skin was completely healed over. Dirt and specks of blood stuck against the sweat on his face and hair. He was breathing hard, the smoke from the fires making their way into the ship. He covered his mouth, finding the button that closed the hatch.
Then he saw you. Lying on the cold floor. Blood seeping into a coat pocket, body trembling.
Logan felt sick. Like someone reached into his stomach and rearranged everything. No amount of metal or regeneration could protect him from something like this.
His jaw clenched, ready to burst at the seams. It was a rubber band wound up too tight. âWhat the fuck happened?â
âI donât know.â Kurt stammered, still shaking. âI see someone falling, I grab them.â He returned to the same spot, putting pressure back on your skull. âWe came here once I smelled the blood.â
A whimper escaped your mouth. Logan snapped out of the initial shock and made his way over to you. His knees hit the hard floor. He took your hand. Nausea overcame him when your blood went cold against his skin. âHey. Itâs me. Itâs okay. Youâre going to be okay.â He kept repeating it. Just like he did in his night terrors.
This didnât feel real. It couldnât be.
Could it?
But it was.
He could sense it creeping in.
You werenât supposed to be in this situation. Logan had gone out of his way to make sure something like this would never happen.
But sometimes, nightmares come true. And the worst one was unraveling right before him.
âGo⌠help.â You were wheezing. The rattle slithering out whenever you tried to speak. Was there blood in your lungs too?
What you said made him hold onto you that much tighter. âNo way in hell. Iâm not leaving you like this.â
He paused. From where he kneeled, he had a clear view of your injury. He wanted to tear those monsters outside to pieces.
You shut your eyes, face curled up in pain. Kurt continued to mutter prayers. Logan held your cold skin to his mouth, leaving frantic kisses on the back of your hand. It almost looked like he was praying too.
Then, a blood curdling scream irrupted from you. You screamed so hard that your legs thrashed and fingers tightened around Loganâs wrist. Youâd never felt pain like this before. All consuming. Like a dragon swallowed you whole. Blades of flame and ice scattered along its esophagus.
Logan slammed his fist against the metal floor. âGod dammit!â He was trying to keep himself from crying. A wild look overtook his eyes. He whipped his head towards the hatch and back to Kurt. âGo get Jean.â He ordered his teammate. âNow!â
Kurt nodded. He would not hesitate. He tried peeling Loganâs hands from your own, but Logan would not budge. He only looked more confused, hurt and angry.
Kurt sighed, pointing at you. âItâs for her.â
Logan let some of his anger dissipate, realizing what Kurt was trying to do. He let him guide his hands to your head and vanished into thin air as soon as Logan was in the proper place to care for you.
Logan pushed the fabric against the gash in your skull. Your eyes scrunched up again, teeth biting your lip.
âYouâll be fine.â He repeated over and over again. He soothed you with it. Cradled your head in his lap. Made sure to stay as still as he could. He put too little pressure on your head. As soon as he noticed, he put too much pressure on the wound. He eventually found the balance, watching your face twist back into a more comfortable position. âNothing you canât come back from.â
Something wet dripped onto your forehead. Mixing with your own tears. Was Logan bleeding too?
The darkness was inviting you to sleep. Yet, you didnât want to leave Loganâs warm embrace. But you were so tired. And the nothingness was quiet. Your eyes fluttered, fighting the blood loss.
Panic shot through him. âDonât you fucking dare.â His pleas grew more erratic. He was reaching for words that didnât belong together. âThe flowers in your room. You need to water them.â When did so much blood get in your hair? Your breathing became shallow. âEveryone gets hit in the head. Fucking get up.â You couldnât smell anything anymore. Was his voice falling apart? âI think we should go home.â
There was a brief flash of blue that popped into your blurry view. Red hair swam front of your face. Cold hands taking over for him. There was more talking and cursing. You felt drunk in the head. Loganâs animalistic screams faded as he ran out of the hatch, claws unsheathed. Jean yelled for him to come back.
Then it was just darkness. A long sleep.
Logan was by your side when you woke up.
He nearly jumped out of his seat when he saw you struggling to open your eyes. But, he hesitated to touch you. Like one wrong move would send him back to that pool of blood and claustrophobic ship.
âHey.â He let out a shaky breath.
With the pad of his thumb, he gently brushed away the crust underneath your eyelids. You could see much clearer now. The infirmary was empty except for the two of you. The lights overhead were nearly too bright to handle. Your head was still pounding. But the worst pain was in the chest, moving all the way to your back.
You noted the tear stains on his cheeks and the black, torn up X Men suit he was still wearing.
How long were you out? You really hoped he didnât stay here watching over you for days on end. You needed him to take care of himself.
It took a while to gather the strength to speak. âLoganâŚâ Your voice scratched the air. It still hurt to talk. âWhen did you last sleep?â
Logan let himself exhale once he heard your voice. You were alive. Right in front of him. But it didnât feel real until now. âYou of all people, are worried about me?â He chuckled, kissing your forehead, caressing your cheek. âNever change.â
You pushed your face into the palm of his hand. âIs everyone else okay?â
He nodded. That was good to hear. Everyone made it out of that hell hole safely. As soon as you were able to, you were going to go thank Kurt for everything he did. And buy him a new coat.
âSee? Nightmare averted. You can sleep just fine now.â
His face fell. âNo. I canât. I wonât.â
âThatâs a little dramatic, donât you think?â You motioned towards the water on the table. He sat on the edge of the bed and brought the straw to your lips. The water was cool against your dry tongue and sore throat. You let him put the drink back. âWas it that bad?â
He pursed his lips, tilting his head in discomfort. His fingers gripped the sides of the bed. They turned white against the blue sheets. âWhat do you think?â
âCanât really think right now. My head is killing me.â
âAnd a collapsed lung.â He added. You thought he was going to break the bed.
Memories started flooding back to you. The powerful kick to the chest, the weapon slicing open your head. Then before you knew it, you were falling.
âI did a lot worse to that fucker than what he did to you. I made sure of it.â He pinched the bridge of his nose, his face curled up like he was in pain too. âThis canât happen again.â
Your throat was dry and it still hurt to talk, but you powered through. âI canât promise you it wonât.â
He whipped his head around. He looked so tired. âYou almost died last night.â The pain echoed off every single word. âIt. Canât. Happen. Again.â
You reached for his hand and he hesitated again. Eyes locked on the tiny injuries along your fingers. Thatâs where he kissed you as you lay dying.
âIâm sorry.â His fingers danced across your own, avoiding them like a crush.
âThis isnât your fault.â
âSure feels like it is.â
You began to cough. Your bruised ribs hurt with each sharp inhale and exhale. Logan brought the straw back to your lips. âJean will be back soon to check up on you. Take it easy, okay?â You swallowed, thanking him once again.
There was a pause, but not an uncomfortable one. âI think you should go get some rest.â
âIâm fine.â He picked at the fiber strains of your blanket. âI donât sleep, I get a little tired. You donât sleep, you can barely function. I get hurt, I heal just as quickly. You get hurtâŚâ He stopped himself from finishing the sentence by biting down on the inside of his cheek. âGod, I need a fucking drink.â
âThen go get one. After you take care of yourself.â
âThat is taking care of myself.â
âNo, it really isnât.â
âJesus.â He dragged his hands over his face. âYou are not going to let this go?â
âNope.â Logan wanted to kiss that stupid smirk off your lips.
He sighed. âI just donât want to go through it again.â
âMaybe youâll dream of something different this time. Something better.â
Jean walked into the room, still giving the two of you space. He knew youâd be fine with her. That you were safe now. But it still hurt to leave.
âFine. Iâll go sleep or whatever.â Logan kissed your forehead one last time before standing up. âBut then Iâm coming right back.â
You watched him go with a weak smile. There was still a lot of healing to do, but youâd do it together.
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Finished penacony. Sunday. Oh dear oh dear.
Yan!Sunday who seems obsessively off with you for the early start of something like a relationship. Calm, but underlying warning tones. One wrong word and you might tip him off too much. You've learned one way to decode his emotions are his wings. They tense up whenever you mention something.. unpleasant. Its a warning. You cut yourself off in the middle of your sentence. The silence passes, and his wings relax. He turns to you with a calm smile on his face. You barely squeezed through, this time.
Yan!Sunday who's just a bit delusional. He deludes himself into thinking about righteousness, and you're some sort of reward for him, for him to keep, and shelter, and nurture, like a christmas gift pet, but something more tender. Tender like a bruise, anyway.
Yan!Sunday, who seems.. to be slipping indisputably. In the corners of your eyes, in private, where he meticulously plans everything, every second where you breathe. He helps you dress and laces up your clothing just as he normally does, but huffs, and insists on doing it again. The first few times, he redid it only twice. His frustration would bleed through his fingers the more things proceeded in time, tightening the lace so much, your limbs almost went blue. He apologizes through gritted teeth, and you forgive him. It doesn't help the fact he practically suffocates you with the way he kisses you, though. His lips land on yours a bit too harshly, and you wonder if he actually hates you. Those thoughts dissipate when he relaxes more into it, though.
Yan!Sunday, who stares at you unblinking, waiting for you in the dreamscape, in the reverie, anywhere. Robin's.. departure has put him under more strain, so just for his sake.. ignore the way he tightly grips your arm, fearing it'll snap.
Yan!Sunday â you can't leave his watchful gaze. The last time you did it, he practically forced you to walk through the real dreamscape, deathly shivering as the atmosphere almost froze you, being forced to walk through unyieldingly harsh and twisted paths, doors never staying in the same place, being forced to use rough traversing methods, the dizziness of the memoria almost feverish. He waits for you at the end, a much gentler version of him. You fall into his arms, sobbing and weeping, and for once he handles you with care. Gently wiping your tears, stroking your hair, his hand guiding the back of your head to his shoulder, burying your nose into the crook of his neck. You notice just how much more warmer he feels in the dreamscape, not just due to the cold atmosphere. His wings gently flutter on your face. Let's leave now, he says. I trust you've learnt, my dear.
Yan!Sunday, who decides that maybe keeping you in the alternate dreamscape, Golden Hour, would be much more preferable. He seethes watching you be eyed by everyone â officials, businessmen, representatives, whoever it may be. He gently lulls you into the dream fluid, kissing your hands, up to your arms, neck, til your cheek, until you finally fall asleep. He places you down and gets to work in a second. When you panic, not being able to wake up, he's right beside you in a heartbeat, telling you there's just been a slight error.
Yan!Sunday, who would even go as far as to construct an entirely new dream for you and you alone. No one would be allowed to visit except him. He tells you it's for the better. Everyone lies in Penacony. Stay put and let him take care of this. Let him take care of you. Of everything. You dont miss the way his hands harden their grip around your waist. His gaze settles gently on yours. It's a harsh contrast to his eerily peering one, in reality. If you even remember what it's like being there, of course.
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