#aaaaaaaahhhhhhh why do i do this to myself

[knightfall-4-life]

Knightfall For Life 1

Jaune: *leaning against the cafeteria wall, the blonde was currently waiting for the rest of his friends to appear before locking eyes with Cinder who was currently coming his way*

Jaune: Cinder?

Cinder: *giving the blonde a small smile* Good morning, Jaune. And what are you up to this fine morning?

Jaune: *unable to take his eyes off of her* Just waiting for... the rest of... my team...

Cinder: *notices him staring at her* Something wrong?

Jaune: Nothing, it’s just... Did you do something with your hair? It looks different today.

Cinder’s internal monologue: Oh Gods, oh Gods, oh Gods! He noticed! He noticed I had my hair done yesterday! Yes! Looks like yesterday was an afternoon well spent! Alright, calm down, Cinder! You are a Queen! You are a Goddess! You are Cinder Fall! Respond appropriately!

Cinder: *flicking her hair* Why, yes. I did. Something told me that it was time for a change. Why? Do you like it?

Jaune’s internal monologue: Do I like it?! I freaking love it! Gods, she is so beautiful! How does this woman manage to grow even more beautiful with each passing day?! Gods, I love her so much! She is amazing!

Jaune: I do. It looks good on you.

Cinder’s internal monologue: He just said it looks good on me! Oh, Gods! Such simple words yet they bring me such joy! I could literally die of happiness right now! Is it too much to hope for that he notices that new perfume I bought?!

Cinder: *sending a smile his way* Thank you.

Jaune: *sniffing the air* Also, did you buy a new perfume? Because you smell amazing.

Cinder’s internal monologue: He noticed that, too?! And he said I smelled amazing! Aaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!! He said I smelled amazing!!! 

Cinder: *smile widening as red started to creep up her cheeks* I did and thank you. I bought it yesterday and thought to try it on, just for the sake of it

Jaune’s internal monologue: Is she trying to kill me?! Gods, she is so... so... perfect! Amazing! Wonderful! Gorgeous! Spectacular! A Goddess in human form! I love her so much!

Jaune: *eyes widening as he feels something starting to harden in his pants*

Jaune’s internal monologue: No! Down, boy! Down! This is not the time to embarrass myself in front of Cinder! Not like this! I said down!

Cinder: Jaune? Is something wrong? *gets closer to the blonde*

Jaune’s internal monologue: Ahhhh!!! She’s so close to me right now! I could just die and have absolutely zero regrets right now!

Jaune: I-I’m fine... Everything’s totally fine. Great, even. *starts to frantically hide his boner from public view* Should we take a seat? A lot of empty tables around here *grabs Cinder’s hand before dragging her along*

Cinder’s internal monologue: Ahhhhhhhh!!!! He’s grabbing my hand! Jaune Arc is grabbing my hand! What do I do, what do I do, what do I do?! 

Jaune’s internal monologue: Ahhhhhhhh!!!! I grabbed her hand without thinking!  What do I do, what do I do, what do I do?!

Jaune & Cinder, their faces practically crimson: *running through the busy cafeteria, hand in hand while avoiding all the empty seats*

Meanwhile, standing at a distance were Teams RWBY, NPR, Emerald, and Mercury.

Ruby: Those two are totally into each other, right?

WBYNPREM: Yup.

[thebookishsblog]

Why!? WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF!? I ALWAYS GET SPOILED!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!

"I am Kim Dokja."

[canadas-googlesearchhistory]

OH NO WHAT WAS I THINKING THIS IS PURE SHIT RIGHT HERE GOODBYE ALSO IT HAS NO TITLE *AGGRESSIVELY POOFS OUT*

I lay waiting in bed, waiting to see if I would be one of the ones to disappear. I hated this time of year. I was only 13 though, so this was the first year of many to come when I had to wait through the night. Staring around my room I looked for something to do. Not that there was much in my room. It was pretty small with a medium sized bed, wood floor and walls, with a rug in the middle of the room. Not much, but it’s all I know. There was a small desk in the corner of the room with drawing supplies on it and a mirror. I got up to look in the mirror. Putting my long brown hair in a ponytail, I stared at my reflection, and my reflection stared back. With blue eyes, and pale skin. I hated all this waiting. When I was little, I remember these nights being thick fear. My mom’s voice called to me through the door again, underlined with tension, “Are you still there Ash?” “Yes” I called back trying to keep the worry out of my voice. I walk back to my bed and lie on it thinking. Every year 3 kids ages 13-19 go through what we call the change, mostly the 13 or 14-year-olds. Nobody knows what they look like afterwards, because they disappear. This happens because the ruler of the world, (at least our world at the moment) Grizwald casts a spell to keep us under control. Today is December 1st, the first day out of the three days when 3 kids are chosen to be changed. Each day one kid is disappears over the wall that surrounds our village, built with magic by the evil (obviously) wizard Grizwald. I will have to wait for the next two days to see if I too, will be gone. We hear a howl pierce through the night. I bolt upright and run to my mom. I am not the only one, though. My little sister Sally runs to her too. Her too small form makes her look like a 5-year-old. She is wearing a small pink dress that goes down to her knees and no shoes. I wonder who was chosen this time. I hope it isn’t any of my best friends Amber, Sam, and Danny? This village is under a curse. I am sure there are other villages out there, but he has isolated us. Sometimes I wonder what’s out there. My mom puts my little sister back in bed, and I follow her outside to see who disappeared this time. I find out as soon as we go outside. The house next to us has a great big hole in the back. When I see this, my eyes widen, and everything gets a little blury. Amber is missing. I start crying. Amber, my best friend, is gone. I remember running around together when we were kids, playing in the meadow, picking apples. No more times will I go over to her house and have a sleepover. No more times will I comfort her around these days because she remembers when her brother disappeared. No more times will she comfort me because I find something of my fathers. I remember when my father died, trying to protect someone, and I cry harder. ~~~Flashback~~~ It was two years ago. I stared up at the ceiling waiting for the telltale sign that this night was over. Even if I was not in danger, the different emotions swirling around everyone almost felt tangible, and affected me too. The worry on my mom’s face was noticeable and it was easy to see the stiffness in my father’s shoulders. “Mom? Dad?” I asked walking outside of my bedroom. “I can’t sleep.” “I’ll go get you a glass of water” Mom replied. As she walked through the dead silence to the living room I walked to the window and watch my dad talking with Amber’s brother, Josh. I think he’s 17. Dad was urgently saying something, but I couldn’t hear him that well. All I heard was “hurry… inside…” “Your dad is trying to convince Josh to go inside, because it’s late. Nobody wants him to disappear.” She told me. I kept watching only to see dark mass, similar to smoke, appear behind him. That’s when all chaos broke loose. My mom opened the window screaming at them to run. The black mass started moving and let loose a howl. As Josh started running, my father stepped between the smoke and Josh. As the smoke passed around him I heard him scream. My eyes widen as he hits the ground, and the keeps going only to wrap around Josh. It starts traveling faster, only to vanish over the wall. That was when we first learned what truly happened. ~~~End of Flashback~~~ People try to comfort me, but I don’t see them. I see my father, patting me on my back after I won the marathon around the wall. I see Amber tagging me and laughing as she runs away, knowing I will tag her back. My mom leads me back to the house. I slowly walk through the kitchen barley seeing my sister standing by her room. Walking into my room, I collapse on the bed and all out of tears, I sleep until morning. I wake up, and everything crashes down on me like a bulldozer. I curl up in a ball and try to go back to sleep, but there is too much light. My sister, only 7, already knows what happened and hugs me. “Goodnight sissy” she tells me. Then she closes the blinds so I can sleep. I thank her quietly, and am asleep again before she closes the door. When I wake up again, I am starving. So I go to the kitchen to find some food. We are all silent as we eat lunch. After lunch I would normally go to Amber’s house, but since she isn’t there I decide to go to the meadow instead. Our village is laid out with a huge wall around about four sections. In one section are the houses, in another a meadow. In the third there is a market where people exchange things and in the fourth a field. There is a river that flows through the field and meadow. “See you in a while mom. I am going to the meadow.” I say quietly. I don’t have the strength to talk. I jog to the meadow to get my blood flowing. When I get there I flop down into the flowers. It seems cruel to have blue skies, with no clouds when I feel so gloomy. I close my eyes. I feel so sleepy. I suddenly open my eyes to find it is dark out. I hear a howling. It sounds close. I jump up and sprint as fast as I can toward my house. I can feel my heart pounding. “Ash,” my mom screams, as I get nearer, “Come quickly, there’s something chasing you!” I run harder, but it is too late. I am surrounded by darkness. There was so much pain all around me. A scream was torn from my throat. I forced open my eyes, watering with pain and saw that although I was surrounded by blackness, I could still see everything. There was too much pain to struggle, and all out of energy I slumped over suspended by the smoke. When I looked up, I could see Sam running toward me. I tried to yell at him to stop, that this was how my dad died, but I couldn’t. He collided with the darkness, and he got sucked in too. Then we were rushed forward, flying over the wall and toward the castle. I bet the magician who put this curse on us lives there. I saw a glimpse of this, and snatches of a forest, then the pain was too much and I blacked out. When I came to, we were lying on the stone floor of what used to be the throne room. There were remnants of old tapestries on the walls, some bits of red carpet, the remains of a fireplace, and two thrones. A man covered in a black robe came toward us. I tried to back away, but I couldn’t move anything but my eyes. Sam lay next to me in the same situation. As he came toward us I studied him. He was tall, and thin, but strong. He put a bracelet on each of us, and snapped his fingers so that we could move. I jumped up, and tried to run, but he caught my arm in an iron grip. “It’s no use running” he said in a sly voice. It made me want to hurl. “Let us go” I demanded He ignored me. “Guards!” he called “Take these two to dungeon room 5D.” “What are you going to do with us?” Sam asked “How come Sam is still alive after touching the black stuff, but my father died?” I started questioning him. “All your questions will be answered in time, my friend.” He told us. ‘Friend?’ I thought, ‘more like enemy.’ Two guards came towards us. Both were really tall and had armor on. It was impossible to see their faces through the shadows. They carried us away. I tried to struggle, but the guard hit me so I stopped. I could tell that Sam was having the same problem. It took us 5 minutes just to get down to the dungeon room. How many does he have anyway? I looked down the hallway while we waited for another minute or so for the two dungeon keepers to open the lock on the dungeon door. The dungeons seemed to go on forever. They shoved us in, and re-locked the door. I looked around. Our cell was dark and gloomy, with a small room that held a toilet. I looked to the room next to us. It was called room 5C. A huddled figure sat on the bed in a corner. “Amber!” I cried out. She looked up. “So you got caught too Ash? How come Sam ended up with you?” “He tried the same thing my father did” I replied “What I don’t get is why he survived, and came with me, but my father died!” “Maybe it’s because I am only 13, but your father was older than 19.” Sam said. “We need to find out why we are all here.” Amber said. “Let’s get some sleep first” I said yawning. I woke up confused because there was stone all around me, and then I remembered everything that had happened. I groaned and tried to go back to sleep, but I couldn’t. I sat up. Sam had kindly lent me the bed while he slept on the ground. Soon everyone was awake. I heard footsteps up above. They were getting nearer. “They’re bringing the next person down” Amber whispered to us. I looked to see who it was this time. “Don’t say anything” Amber warned us. “They’ll punish you if you talk.” I looked to see who it was and gasped. It was Danny. He also had a bracelet on. As they were putting him in his cell, he stumbled against one of the guards. The guard glared at Danny and pushed him on the ground. Danny got up and clenched his fists, but said nothing. Then the guard put him in his cell and locked the door. He looked at us, but didn’t say anything until both of them left. Then Danny told us as quietly as he could, “We have to get out of here.”

[pragmagician]

Hot Take

I struggle with a weird combination of Brain Problems, including- but not limited to- Anxiety & Depression. (“Struggle” is an interesting word that is often used to describe this experience, but I find it lacks the OOMPH to properly convey what’s going on. Does anyone have a better word/ phrase?)

Anyways.

Often I find myself dreading a task. “What if I talk to that person & they think I’m stupid/ lazy/ hate me? This is so awful, I wish I could disappear.”

But yknow what??

I’ve jumped off of a rocky ledge into water of an unknown depth before, & I could do it again. Literally & figuratively. This summer, I paid $200 to jump out of a plane with a few other people who also paid to do that, while strapped to people who jumped out of planes for a living! I have also contemplated the end of my existence, & how I might personally achieve that!!

The point I’m shouting about is this:

Anxiety & Depression make it very hard to imagine a successful outcome for literally anything I try to do. Usually I feel that despair & think, Why even try? What if I try & fail? How terrifying it would be, to reach that failure. But if I can perceive my own death as something that I may or may not embrace, which is so much more terrifying to a good portion of the population, what’s stopping me from doing something slightly less terminal?

What if I did one scary thing a month? Biweekly? Once or twice a week? Daily??

What if I could convince myself that making an appointment is just as dangerous/awful as other things that I have already managed to survive, & thus convince myself that I can do that?

Turns out, if I apply the same thought process to talking to people/ making appointments/ applying for school as I did for that time I jumped off a cliff, it’s... I won’t say it’s any less terrifying, or easy, but it is something that I can survive. Which is more than can be said for a lot of the other things I’ve imagined when I purposefully don’t buckle my seatbelt.

It’s my personal goal to keep reminding myself of that fact.

Of course, not everyone has the same experience of intentionally falling from great heights. But everyone has experienced something personally Bad & lived.

Think about that Bad Thing. It’s pretty BAD, right? You might not like the person that came out the other side of it. But you’re still here, & that is a triumph & testimony to your personal strength- regardless of how strong you currently feel.

Now imagine doing something scary that would probably benefit your continued existence; taking a shower, going outside, sending a text, calling a friend. Is it worse than what you’ve already experienced? Is it about the same? You’re still alive! Go do that scary thing!!

I can say with 99.99% surety that you will still be alive after the scary thing.

(The .01% chance is because of Anxiety & because I don’t personally believe in absolutes, please don’t take my own fear as a reflection on your life expectancy.)

I BELIEVE IN YOU!

[gotmilk5101520]

Trollhunters: Tales of Arcadia Watch Episode 51 The Eternal Knight Part 1 (Part 2)

Part 1

How do they miss them?

“Oh”

“nein!”

“Por favor”

“Please don’t hurt me”

“Calm down, Uhl”

“It’s me, Walter”

“Oh!”

“Nein, nein, nein!”

Yeah he’s barely recognizable.

“Not another flying truck!” Toby remembers that all too well.

“Jim!”

“Watch out!”

“Opps! Pardon me!” “Watch where you’re going!” “I wasn’t talking to you, i was talking to the weird blue alien lady!”

“I’ve always hated those twits” Moments that hit differently after Wizards.

“Wow”

“You all right, lovelies?” “Thanks Luka” “AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!”

“Hey, what’s up, Nana? Kinda busy”

“Oh, Toby Pie, it’s an emergency”

“Your friend ate the entire pie”

*Burps in Troll* This is an even bigger emergency.

“Morgana”

“Surprise bitch. I bet you thought you seen the last of me”

“¡Es el apocalipsis!” Translation from Google Translate: “It’s the apocalypse!”

“I swear, i saw demons!”

“But with better teeth” Guillermo Del Toro the Dentist has never seen great teeth.

“¡Loco”

“loco”

“loco!”

“Oh”

“So, what brings you here?”

Guillermo Del Toro living the dream.

“Zip-Slippers”

“Don’t fail me now”

“AH!”

Might want to go faster.

“Whoa”

“I’ve never felt this way before”

“She’s so tall. NO! No! You already have a tall alien girlfriend!”

“You’ve got a strong right”

“Wow! You’ve got a great left, too!”

“Let go”

“of my”

“GIRLFRIEND!”

“TP!”

“I think we can start dating again”

“Officially”

“I don’t wanna die”

“just yet”

“Uh, i thought those were only in the Darklands”

“Did you not read the book?”

“Toby King”

“Your spear, my Queen”

“Hey! Queen now?”

“Wumpas don’t need a king”

“Maybe it’s time you had a queen”

“All right”

“Boom, boom, shake the room!”

“Boom! Boom! Shake the room!”

“My cousin!”

“Say what?”

“Say what?”

Time for a Kaiju battle.

“Sorry, pal, but nobody gets in without a hall pass”

“Susannah and i will not allow it. ¡Entiende?”

“We few! We happy few!”

“We band of brothers!”

“I’ve always wanted to play Henry V!”

We got this.

“I feel like Guts from Berserk! Rest in peace, Kentaro Miura”

“No!”

“NO!”

“I told you”

“I would kill you myself”

“You let the old wizard work his magic on you, i see”

“Scared it’s gonna be a fair fight?”

“It’s not going to be as fair as you think”

“You aren’t strong enough to take on the both of us, Hunter”

“You left Morgana unprotected”

“Merlin is down in Trollmarket right now”

“Once he stops her-”

“Merlin might have had centuries to devise his plan”

“but you forget”

“He was sleeping”

“Morgana was awake”

“Now, who goes first?”

“Why take turns?”

“NO!”

The finale begins now.

And we reach the end.

[cats-officially]

Okay... I'm losing all my train of thought and that's making me mad... So let's go onto something so my train of thought doesn't completely disappear. :D

Cats: Dumb loveable creatures.

Cats have not been bread as much and as horrible as dogs. Most dog breeds are actually so unhealthy for a dog that's its a very much wonder how they're even alive. LIKE PUGS. Their snouts, unhealthy, it's not cute it's mean.

Btw cats CAN NOT BE VEGAN OMG. It's just... No. They can eat some stuff of that category, but other wise DEATH PENALTY FOR YOUUU. dogs can be vegan, while being healthy! BUT NOT CATS. Cats need meat, they can not properly digest almost all vegan food. I mean you wonder why your cat eats grass? TO THROW UP. :)

Am I making sense? No worries moving onnn

WINGS

I loved reading about that, how wings came to be. DID YOU KNOW BIG BIRDS CAN'T REALLY FLY? or in the category of flying, THEY SOAR OVER HOT WINDS forget what they're called.

Fennec foxes have fur on their paw pads so the sand doesn't becomes their worst enemy.

They also hear underground!

Also can we just get a YAS for my pet plant named chicken? Live for them.

DOLPHINS ARE MY WORST NIGHTMARE, GET ME AWAY FROM THOSE MONSTERS

I love the game: Sky: Children of the light. Or what ever that's called.

INDIANA WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU???

what do you mean I can commit caniblism on Fridays? Fudge. My friends night just got ruined. GARY INDIANA I LOVE YOU

frosty the snow man haunts me...

flamingos aren't actually pink when they're born. WHITCH IS DUMBBBBBBB AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

we don't know how wings came to be. They just popped out of no where.

FIREWORKS SUCK AND THAT'S FINAL

cats think isn't funny to fall and live

SQUIRRELS ARE JUST LIKE DOLPHINS AND THEY HAUNT MY NIGHTMARES GET ME AWAY FROM THEM

maple syrup came from America. Suck it Canada

SOAP???

I do not want to go back in the olden days.

I HATE THE PINK TAX

why didn't they REPAINT THE SIDEWALKS???? I liked the koi fish :(

ARTEMIS MAY I JOIN YOUR HUNT? GET ME AWAY FROM THIS PEDOPHILE THAT I LIVE NEXT TO

How To Be Normal? WHERE IS THAT BOOK

why do people always say "don't judge a book by its cover?" YOUR A HYPOCRITE AND I'M A HYPOCRITE! we've been doing this forever so we can survive you idiot. Be nice to people just say that.

Can I be the human and you be the prey? I would like to see the life be sucked out of you.

I've never really socially interacted with anybody until I was about eight. Even then I didn't really do stuff. They'd talk to me and then walked off. I don't have or understand much social cues. I DID JUST HAVE MY FIRST SLEEP OVER??? SLUMBER PARTY??? LAST YEAR THO! :D

Why do I want to eat everything that's shiny? Why do I wanna collect it as welll?

I have a feather collection, I lost all of them except my bluejay feather tho :(

Snakes are cool. I would love to dislocate my jaw like that >:[

I LIVE STUFFED ANIMALS

can someone please explain why my friend blames everything on me?

Also can someone please explain what's a B E S T F R I E N D?

I haven't been sick in a long time...

MUSIC IS =

Being alive to see this

My parents are homophobic and don't believe in climate change :') (so is the rest of my family except most of my cousins)

Change makes me feel dead inside sometimes

School is just like a friendlier prison sometimes

I feel like exposing myself to much will get me shunned by everyone, but at the same time I wanna to just talk

How does it feel to be understood?

I have to keep a persona up or people won't like me

I am a real person?

THE TREX DOSE NOT ROAR THE HUM VERY SCARILY AND WJJSJSHUSIAKANAKAKOAKSJSKSKSJNDJDJD

I like to interact with people, but then again I do not.

It's scary, would they like me? Am I bothering them? They haven't responded, I'm a mistake. BUT I DON'T WANT THEM TO FEEL BAD :[

I love my stuff animals, spikey is my longest one with grandma. I LOVE BRIDY SO MUCH.

I LOVE HISTORY

what do you MEAN you don't know Canada has committed atrocities and should be afraid of? CANADA STAY AWAY. wait no I'm sorry!

Ooh~ is that a carrot, I mean I am a carrot queen WHY IS THERE A BOMB CANA-

pride Month is pretty :>

How can I be an artist is I just suck?

GENEVA CONVENTION MORE LIKE THE GENEVA SUGGESTION. more like the GENEVA CHECKLIST.

Police are like my parents except they don't really like me.

CATS CATS CATS

America just reminds me of no no Germany.

I COULD DRINK BEER IN THE MIDDLE AGES? I was born in the wrong time line.

AMERICA STOP BOMBING LAOS FOR ONE MINUTE. Thank you :)

COMMUNISM?????? no OUR COMMUNISM

Animals like to chew on bones

WHY DOESN'T SPAIN KNOW ABOUT S'MORES?

foxes are good

I am a bad person

JUST KILL THE CHARACTER OFF ALREADY YOU ERINS

Clothes suck they itch, hurt, pitch and everything else. I love my socks tho...

Painting......

I DON'T WANNA DO SPORTS

I am king and INDIANA IS IN THE SHADOW REALM-

The Japanese empire IS SO PANCAKING DISGUSTING. why...

No I do not care about the differences of where you and I live okay? When I ask is when I'm interested YOU AOSKKZKXKSD

Bees...

Don't expect to much, I am a disappointment

SCHOOLSLKSISJSISJS

NO I AM NOT YOUR PUPPET A-

war is disgusting.

Oops, this is getting kinda long and unreadable. Uhh... Sorry?

You like slimes?

Uh...

What do you mean by that? They are fun to play with! But most I've interacted with are sticky... :(

[olivieblake]

one for my enemy

hello olivie! hope you and your family are safe during these trying times. i just wanted to tell you that i read one for my enemy yesterday in one sitting and …. wow. that was the best book i’ve read in the last year. GASP i left a more detailed review on amazon but i feel like this is more the place for incoherent screaming so. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH. you’re totally right, this is the place for screams. ahhhhhh!!@!!!

i knew from the first interactions b/w lev and sasha that this was going to be wild but ill-advised romances lol i know right. these fools aside my favorite part of this book was the characterization, particularly the family dynamics. i loved the way i was able to understand each character and even emphathize with roman despite not wanting to, lol. and my absolute favorite was masha! omg I am very happy to hear that. I think masha is hugely underrated, which I suspect is because non-oldest sisters read her differently as the oldest sister of 3 myself yep there it is lolllll i really related to her sacrificing everything, even her own happiness, to make sure sasha had what she didn’t. YEAH it’s not that complicated you guys and the ending you wrote for her was so beautiful and perfect i was smiling like an idiot as i read the epilogue. aww I’m so happy to hear that. I mentioned this book has my otp in it (maybe—it’s a tie between dimasha and the main pairing in masters of death) but I know that seems to be unpopular because other people prefer sasha x lev another thing i really loved was that even in the big ensemble cast, every character had a purpose and reason to exist. none felt superficial, even the asshat eric taylor who weirdly grew on me by the end. lol when @colubrina read this manuscript for me she was like “why are you making me like eric, I do not want to like eric, you cannot make me, Stop” also the urban setting combined with the russian folklore and descriptions of magic just made this a really satisfying fantasy read which i haven’t had in a while, so thank you so much for that! i am absolutely shocked that this book is not more popular and i am recommending it to everyone i know who shares my tastes. omg DEAR ROLFE thank you 🥺 i’m also determined to read all your work by the time this quarantine ends, as online school has left me with some extra time on my hands. i think i’m going to start with the atlas six? I would love for you to read the atlas six!!! it is the newest so obviously it’s the one I’m most excited to hear about but if you have any other recommendations based on how much i liked this please do let me know! I actually think the atlas six is the right move; it is probably most similar. masters of death is also an ensemble, but a comedy and if there is any other way to support your work other than writing reviews on amazon pls tell me. you’re so, so kind. shut up!! I love you. seriously this is so so much and I’m so grateful and truthfully the review means a lot (the invisible benchmark for amazon legitimacy is 50, which none of my books have) so aside from recommending it to people you’ve already made my year anyway i believe that was enough rambling for you but thank you again for everything and i hope you are staying well and reasonably happy during coronacation! you’re wonderful, magnificent, divine. thank you so much!

[shepscapades]

Rvb 17x05 Initial reaction

I know i don’t typically do this, but i thought it’d be funny to show y’all my thought process watching through the recent first episode.

I had a notepad open to jot stuff down in and it basically turned into a cluster eff. This is an unedited mess of me reacting to this weeks episode. Lmao.

>"ASH" WHOMmm??? AAAAA 479ER IS ASH?????????????DFHKSDFJSKJDGFLSKDFLJSKDFJ SHE HAS A NAAAAAME YEET

>"THAT'S FINE THIS IS FINE--- NO DAMMIT" SLKDJFLSKDJF  WASH thAnks you’re my fav

>WYOMING VOICE!!!!!!!!! I MISS THIS FOOL I'M--- JDLHSFDHFSD he SoudNS SO GOOD!

YES dAVID INTERUPT HIM YOU FOOL!!! interupt him. DO IT.

"This is just not at all going the way ithought it would." omg i hate him but poor reggie i]'mmmmmm he’ sSO confused,,, id be too tho it’s fine dear

okay i'm not crying I SWAR I"M nOT CRYING but it's SO GOOD TO HEAR YORKS VOICEL?????? LSDKFJLSDKJFLSDKJF!!!!! YooOOORK

Maine looks so gOOd! ALL OF THEM LOOK AA also york looks kind of pink??? I'm stupid

EVERYOELNNNEN I MISS PROJECT FREELANCER SO MUCH

NORTHH..... my dlskfjdksfj my favorite boy is here..... i can't handle myself rn - i misss his voiCE

oh my GOODDD everyone was an butthoLE to wash,,,???

NOOOOO SOUTH SHUR UPPP!!!12211211!!!!!11!!!!!!11!

also will wash appreciate donut more now? dlskfjlskdjfsd this is HORRIBLE i didn't know they were THIS mean TO HIMMMM

who is he talking to. i bet he's talking to like hrdlsdkfjlskdjflskdflfkj the triplets or smthn

DLJFKSJDLFK WHAT DID I SAYYYYYYDFLKSJDF  I HATE MYSELF

OH MY GOD DLKFJSDKJF I''MMMMMMMMMM THANK GOD FOR AGENT IOWEAA

WASH'S “AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH GOD DAMMMMNIIIIITTT” IS MY FAVORITE MomeNT of ALL OF RVB ok alexa thIS IS EPIC>. i'M NOT SDFJLSDKJFLSKDJFLKJ OH MY GOD

oh that's really smart of carolina. I wonder if we'll ever learn anything about the people she was temporarily stationed with??? oooo

when will i learn to stop pausing the video to write down predictions when the next scene literally lkjflskdjlksjdf okay

:McCallister??"McAllister?????? ooooOOO dOMG HITS HEr. YAAAA she's still an jerkhol nice

“a little help” waht does heeeaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH DELTA !! he sounds kind different?? BUT I LOVE HIM!

---------- Her firstr eSPOND SE ISsdjflsk  CAROLINA NO!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO WATCH RED VS BLUE ANYMORE. I DONT WANAANANANANAN

okay I've recovered. WHY DOES SHE SOUND SO BROKENDFNDNNDNDNDN bye yall im quitting rvb fandom bdfsd

i hope all we ever get out of these to is really close platonic bonds bc this is kind of? i don't wanna say suggestive buttTT WHAT DID HE SAY WHEN THE TRAIN WENT BY I HATE THIS SHOW DArnIT

[taemn]

get to know me tag!!!

the lovely @kwibu tagged me and i haven’t done something like this in a long time so i thought it would be fun!!!! thank you eve ily 💖💖💖

nickname: normally just em. i’ve been called emmy a couple times which is cute but this one girl first semester called me it and she kinda annoyed me and no one’s called me it since so it made me think of her kajdjkakja. i’m really used to em though it’s what i get called a lot at home

gender: female

zodiac: aries

height: 5′4 (that’s about 163cm i think?)

age: 19

time: 4:55pm

favorite bands/ solo artists: kpop: bts, shinee, seventeen / not kpop: all time low, the wonder years

song stuck in your mind: good evening by shinee has been the only thing in my head 99% of the time this week. other than that it’s bingle bangle by aoa

last movie i saw: i literally can’t remember i haven’t seen a movie in ages i’m not a huge movie person

last thing i googled: i was googling to see if a text i got was a scam bc it kinda felt like a scam kajkdjdakjad

other blogs: the only other one i have that is still active is @storyoflights

do i get asks: not really?? a couple here and there sometimes!

why i chose my username: for The Rap Monster himself kadjjkadjk it was the best url i could get when i made this blog and is still the best one i can get for this blog so i never changed it

following: 259...i keep telling myself i need to follow more ppl but following ppl stresses me out for some reason

average amount of sleep: 5 hours

lucky number: i don’t have one

what am i wearing: shorts and tank top

dream job: public relations, i’d specifically love to do pr in music but that’s such a stretch that i don’t even think about it. i just don’t want to get stuck doing pr for a big company/politics. i’m also studying advertising but i’d also really rather not get stuck in an only advertising job, i find pr a lot more interesting and fun if you’re doing it for someone actually of any interest.

dream trip: any big city!! i love big cities so places like new york/seoul/tokyo are normally my top ones! england is also a really big dream trip for me 

favorite food: noodles i don’t really care what kind of noodles just noodles

play any instruments: no when i was younger i wanted to learn guitar and got a cheap used one and just....never learned how to play it

favorite song: i have a couple but i’ll just say spring day by bts

play(ed) any sports: no i wish i did though tbh 

hair color: naturally the dullest shade of brown imaginable, currently it’s blond-tinted-green from my past blue hair

eye color: brown

most iconic song: replay

language you speak/ are learning: i only know english. i took french in high school and can recognize a couple words but nowhere near enough anymore to be able to speak/read/understand it. i’m taking japanese next semester since i had a free space in my schedule where i couldn’t get into my advertising class so that will be interesting

random fact: i sat here for a couple minutes trying to think of a fact but i really have nothing aaaaaaaahhhhhhh

describe yourself as aesthetics/things: cities at night, big windows, record stores, clutter, 4am, black clothes, the feeling at a concert of the music going through your body

[blitzbee-and-gt]

RoE Chapter 24

LAST ONE let’s go

“Yeah, right, yeah, absolutely,” Bumblebee said, trying to follow along while his processor spun around one single question over and over. “So—uh—Megatron wasn’t there, was he? And neither was Blitzwing? Just wondering, I mean, maybe they split up or something, I don’t know. You’re sure you didn’t see Blitzwing? Or—or Megatron?”

real subtle, Bee

He was so wrong, Blitzwing thought, swallowing hard. He was right, of course, but he was so, so wrong. Self preservation had become unimportant to Blitzwing months ago. 

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

There is more than one yellow car on this planet, Blitzwing told himself harshly, tilting a wing to the side and rocketing away from the city.

I think someone already said this in a comment somewhere but seeing a yellow car and immediately thinking of Bumblebee is like. the quintessential TF fan experience lmao

Nor would any human choose to paint their vehicle with such a tacky black racing stripe.

I mean, Captain Fanzone did but I guess that’s beside the point

A single thought dominated Bumblebee’s processor: Blitzwing was okay.

Relief washed over him, though the feeling was quickly replaced by panic, wondering if Blitzwing had seen his life signal and was being sent to kill him.

I mean I know why but WHY would you think that, Bee D:

Blitzwing growled, his face spinning to red with a whirr that made Bumblebee’s spark jump into his throat. 

i Love how he much he missed the sound of Blitzwing’s face changing, considering how much he hated it at the start of the fic

“Bumblebee.”

Bumblebee paused, looking up at Blitzwing, who was standing even closer now, close enough to send Bumblebee’s spark into a whole series of acrobatic flips. 

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

“You started acting strange at some point,” Blitzwing said, raising a brow, looking almost smug. “And I think I may have figured out why.”

you didn’t “figure out” shit you oblivious dumbass, Bumblebee straight-up told you.

like I guess he didn’t specifically say “I’ve been weird bc I like you” but you don’t get a cookie for being able to put 2 and 2 together to make 4

“You were weird too!” Bumblebee said defensively, crossing his arms. “You got all… distant and confusing after you told me about that—that stuff

d. did he though????

Bumblebee scoffed loudly, rolling his optics hard. “Can you shut up and let me talk?”

“No,” Blitzwing said, suddenly dropping to one knee, holding himself at Bumblebee’s level. “You’ve done enough talking for one evening.”

HERE WE GO

He felt his frame move of its own accord as he rushed forward, jamming himself into Blitzwing’s hand and grabbing onto his face, fingers quivering as he finally, finally closed the gap between their lips.

Ohhh my god. Ohhh ,y god. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh THERE IT IS THERE IT IS. THERE IT IS. OH MY GOD. EAYEAYEYAYEAHEYAHEY EYAEAAAAAAA YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA YEAAAAAS. I FOOUND IT. I FOUND IT. I FOUND IT. I FOUND IT. YEAH. YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. I FOUNDI IT FINALLY!!!!! YEAH!!!!! OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD I FINALLY FOUND IT. OH MY GODO. HOH MY GOD. I CAN’T BELIEVE IT. TAKE A LOOK AT HTIS EVERBODY. A LIVE SHINY PONYTA IN MY LEAF GREEN VERSION. I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS. I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS. I FINALLY GOT IT. OH MY GOD my heart is beating 100 miles per hour. i was listening to my favorite band once again. Sum 41. No Reason. Live in Ontario 2005. after 25968 encounters I HAVE FINALLY GOT IT OH My god corre al gol, lo va a patear yyyy GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoOoOoOoOoOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!! GOL GOL GOL GOL GOL GOL GOL GOL!!!!!……QUE GOLAZOOOOO!!!! *churns butter very quickly*

Blitzwing chuckled, pressing his helm more firmly against Bumblebee’s, a servo tracing the outline of Bumblebee’s waistline.

“We can’t do this,” Blitzwing breathed, his digits pressing against Bumblebee’s back.

“We can’t do this” big words coming from the one who fuckign. practically BEGGED for this kiss and initiates the next 3 in the first damn place. you dumbass.

anyway im Dead I love this fic so damn much.

I’ll probably start writing up AufN liveblogs later this week once I’m done w/finals but tbh I highly doubt anyone’s actually reading these so. the only one I’d be disappointing by posting super late is myself

[catsnuggler]

Aaaaaaaahhhhhhh

I feel kinda bad. My girlfriend went to a pride prom tonight and I didn’t go with her. I didn’t go because, being cishet, I don’t wanna intrude, y’know? I’ve heard so much about how being around cishet people all the time is off-putting and thought (in seriousness, not in any condescending sarcasm or something), well, why should I go and ruin people’s getaway dance by being there? But my girlfriend is there without her boyfriend, and I hope she doesn’t feel too lonely, but she probably does feel kind of lonely and I do too.

At least we have a date tomorrow. Although she loves dancing, and I don’t even know how to dance. I need to learn, but even when I’m alone I feel too anxious about failing at dancing. Even when I’m not with an instructor, when I’m by myself, I feel anxious. Which is another reason I didn’t go; I’m afraid of dances and dancing in general. But I don’t want to let her down the way I feel I’ve let her down tonight.

Well, I guess I might as well do my homework for now and plan on not disappointing my babe in future.