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I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO SAY THIS EVERY WEEK BUT JIMMYSEA ARE TRULY THE MOST SICKENING CP IN GMMTV. I CAN NOT BELIEVE HOW AFFECTIONATE THEY HAVE BECOME IN THE BTS??? THE OLD MARRIED COUPLE ENERGY IN THE AFTER LAST TWILIGHT INTERVIEWS?? SEA MAKING JIMMY SO MUCH SOFTER AS A PERSON???? THEY MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME MONICA I AM CONSTANTLY IN SHAMBLES BECAUSE OF THEM AND MORKDAY
FILING THIS UNDER MESSAGES THAT HAVE BEEN DIRECTLY PLUCKED FROM MY BRAIN BECAUSE SAME ANON SAME
SORRY I SIMPLY WILL NEVER BE NORMAL ABOUT THEIR FRIENDSHIP LIKE THE FACT THAT P’X DECIDED TO PAIR THEM UP NOT BECAUSE OF HOW THEY LOOKED TOGETHER BUT BECAUSE OF THE WAY THEY TREATED EACH OTHER WHEN NO ONE WAS LOOKING?????? THE FACT THAT THEY HAVE A 5 YEARS DIFFERENCE AND YET THEY WERE ABLE TO BUILD SUCH A GENUINE AND WARM BOND WHERE THEY BOTH SUPPORT EACH OTHER?????? THE FACT THAT SEA USED TO BE VERY SHY AND JIMMY NOT VERY COMFORTABLE WITH SKINSHIP BUT THEY MET IN THE MIDDLE AND SLOWLY GREW TOGETHER TO THE POINT THAT SEA CAN NOW TEASE JIMMY OPENLY AND JIMMY ACTUALLY INITIATES PHYSICAL TOUCH NOT BECAUSE SEA IS THE ONE WHO NEEDS IT BUT BECAUSE HE – JIMMY – DOES?????? THE FACT THAT THEY BICKER AND INCLUDE EACH OTHER IN SOME OF THE MOST IMPORTANT MOMENTS OF THEIR LIVES LIKE THEY’VE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR DECADES WHEN THE TRUTH IS THAT IT'S ONLY BEEN A COUPLE OF YEARS??????
IF ANYONE NEEDS ME I'LL BE SOBBING ABOUT THEIR FRIENDSHIP IN MY PADDED ROOM FOR THE REST OF THE EVENING
#WHEN I TELL YOU THAT FOR A MOMENT I THOUGHT I BLACKED OUT AND SENT THIS TO MYSELF#YOU SIMPLY GET ME ANON#THEY ARE JUST SO DARLING IDK WHAT ELSE TO SAY#MY SWEET CHEESIES MY GOOD TIME BOYS MY HONEYBUNCH SUGARPLUM SCRUNKLY SCRUMBLE SCRIBBLYDOINKY POOKIE BONLY BLIPY GOOPY LITTLE GOOFY GOOFBALLS#jimmy jitaraphol#sea tawinan#jimmysea#m: ask
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i LOVE crazy meta posts and wild speculations, i write unhinged interpretations myself, and fandom is first and foremost about having fun.
but i am very, very tired of seeing serious theories that constantly call the final fifteen fake/a conspiracy/a magic trick/etc. retconning that scene would take away the ENTIRE emotional weight and the importance it has for both their character archs.
#alex talks good omens#good omens#ineffable husbands#crowley#aziraphale#good omens season 2#go2#aziracrow#crowley x aziraphale#ineffable divorce#the final fifteen#should i start a timer for how long it's gonna take ppl without reading comprehension to start arguing with me#i will simply reply with this meme over and over until you get it#anon hate in three two one-
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please don’t be sad little sprout, you are loved 🌱 🖤
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#🌱Thank you<33🌱#I guess my latest vent art post made some of you guys worried. I'm sorry ;;n;; )#but I'm alright. well.. kind of? Like I haven't done anything to myself kind of alright?#maybe I should explain bit about my situation but at the same time I don't feel comfortable to open up too much#but simply said it's about doing art as a job and mental health#Things haven't been going well but I am getting help for my mental health#This is all what I will say for now about my situation#I apologize again that I made you guys worried#but I do warn that I might post more vent art if I get enough energy to draw#this is just one way how I deal with my emotions#but if you don't like vent art I suggest to block the words vent and vent art#I remember tumblr has this option somewhere??#and uhh.. I don't really know how to end this post but thank you everyone who has been sending support<33#I might not know how to reply to them but I have read them all and I'm very thankful for all the support what you guys have given me🌱#Thank you🌱#ask#anon#me talking
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does draxum have anything to show for harassing the local swan population or was the mission a bust bc ngl that would hurt a lot (:
swanatello.
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#this is a small update but the temptation of dropping just this and only this#and then making you guys wait for the rest#was simply too strong#it felt like a good beat to rest on yknow? it feels good to me idk#also i dunno how to draw people and not make them prettyboys im sorry :/// theyre all glamourcats#its my au and i get to do what makes ME happy u w u#swanatello#asks#anon#rottmnt#rottmnt au#rottmnt fanart#rottmnt comic#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt#tmnt 2018
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out of curiosity, would you consider yourself butch?
used to be a blonde underweight twink and now I'm a based jock still got the chanel bag and the sick albeit matured mind of a suckpig to prove it so I'm gonna let you decide whether you wanna call me that word just cuz I got a pussy and short hair. I promise you that there have been enough advancements made in the art of lesbian sexual dynamics in the past 50 years to broaden the vocabulary used to describe the plethora of types of masculine females.
#being called butch just reminds me of how much males have the freedom to navigate between male archetypes and how people pay attention to#the distinguishing features of these varying masculinities#but when a female is seen as masculine it all gets lumped under the “butch” category#her masculinity is seen as unnatural and therefore incapable of being considered genuine or taken at face value as it is with males.#its always brought into question instead of taken in consideration with the rest of the woman's life and experiences and her particularities#Hence... Butch is still being treated as though its a huge lesbian cultural phenomena instead of a specific niche thing#also i dont mean to invite the “you dont pass!!” anons again bc that idiot is missing my point entirely (which is that im truly not trying)#but the fact is that for the past 3 years i have found myself increasingly navigating the male social world#and discovering what it means to me as a female to have access to the ability to take my “masculinity” for granted... relax#forget about it#etc#i think thats entirely antithetical to the Butch thing which seems to rest on the tension of other peoples expectations of her#people broadly are more surprised to find out that im interested in women just as much as they're surprised that im a gym queen iykwim...#ive worked hard for this and now that ive gotten the Woman Social Role thing pretty much entirely out of the way i am living the dream#i think a large part of that is learning as a dyke to appropriate the language of gay men theres a reason their terminology had#staying power even when their scene was *literally* dying meanwhile all that seemed to survive from dyke spaces was butch n femme ??#its because theirs didnt necessitate the building and maintenance of a scene in order for the subculture to hold its head above water#their labels *largely* weren't predicated on their relationships to gender roles and its telling that for dykes it was#their labels rested on the need to simply show up anonymous n be able to easily flag whether they were looking to fuck or be fucked#alongside the set of circumstances under which they would be fucking or getting fucked or what have you#it all comes back to the restrictions of female social blah blah blah and i think the sooner we collectively set down what we see as our#responsibility as lesbians and as feminists to Be A Woman the sooner we can step outside of that#n start thinking clearly about our individual circumstances and the necessity of putting on your own oxygen mask first before helping others
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could make for one very strange and very odd tasting triple-date night (feat. Squid buddy, and the poor bachelor squad in camp)...good luck greygold XD
Sorry for the late reply regarding the silly Piña Colada Plan, anon!
Also don't. Don't take this one seriously like at all- I just. really wanted to make that pun. Can't resist a silly knight pun.
#I could not for the life of me figure out how to respond to this#Without just like- simply agreeing with you - an amusing concept to imagine to be sure!#THANKFULLY (or unfortunately) the pun gods threw a bone at my two sole surviving brain cells#But thank you anon! Greygold will take any and all luck that they can get 8'D
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yeah yeah yeah I know Gortash is "ugly," you know, the way human beings that don't look like boilerplate final fantasy anime boys are ugly.
God forbid you wanna fuck a man that isn't a Genshin Impact face mold shoved on the thin waifish twink body that is our golden standard for attractive to everyone everywhere.
I apologize for thirsting for a man who doesn't look like Ryan Reynolds or Chris Hemsworth, I know that's wrong of me, because your sexual attraction for the mass marketed western ideal of masculinity is more widely shared by consumers, and perpetuated by business executives.
when your sexual attraction is predominantly conformance to societal conventions of beauty, you are of course superior to myself. your human experience truly is the correct way to live.
well done!
but you know you can't be superior to others, if we are all equal.
someone has to exist at the bottom, for someone else to rise to the top.
so be content in having the correct opinion on what is attractive, and stop asking me why I'm attracted to Gortash of all people.
because you're so much better than me, queen. because if I wasn't attracted to Gortash, you wouldn't have anyone to look down on.
I'm doing you a service, my queen. I'm making your mediocrity look exceptional.
#enver gortash#getting tired of these anons man#baldurs gate 3#bg3#why do you like him hes ugly#its really simply#i wanna fuck ugly people#do you really need me to explain#go chase after timothee chalamet i hear he'll date just about anyone these days
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Please learn to use tags.
Half the stuff you share is Hilarious, and half is unhinged fucking garbage.
It would be nice to be able to filter out the later half...
my sincerest apologies. shall i run each post i think about reblogging by you, O Great Anon, so that you may deem if i should tag it "#funny" or "#not funny"?
#the only unhinged fucking garbage is how you think this is a reasonable thing to send#i stopped caring about follower count on this site ages ago and honestly do not care if you unfollow for this#if we're mutuals then theres like a 50/50 chance i care. if we talk outside of tumblr then id be hurt but id more just lose respect for you#for thinking fucking anon hate is a reasonable way to approach this#anyways i run this blog for me and i simply do not feel like spending 1/3 of my time online typing up the same 'txt' 'video' 'art' tags#if it bothers you that badly youre free to unfollow. if you send anything else on this point youre getting blocked
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do you ship ravage and drift? you draw them a lot and they're always so touchy lol
nah. they're really touchy amicas, tho. probably because im always touchy with my friends and it just kinda rubs off on my art. ravage is my Me character so i do end up giving him traits i have. one of those is being touchy with people he cares about 🤷♂️. he's especially touchy with drift as when they were grouped together in the dead end (which is where they met in my brain), ravage spent a lot of hours curled up in drift's car alt with laserbeak and buzzsaw for shelter. that touchy aspect never really left their dynamic.
and besides,
drift/deadlock's candle has always been lit for someone else.
(plus an extra doodle of them)
#ask: anon#tf art#transformers#more than meets the eye#transformers art#maccadams#maccadam#blight rambles#drift | deadlock#drift#ravage#tf ravage#transformers ravage#mtmte#transformwrs idw#not gonna go all out on tags here#my art#good rule of thumb for me is that unless it is specifically tagged as ship then its not ship#not much of a transformers romance person in general#like there are exceptions and i DO enjoy tf ships. i am actively encouraging ppl to ask about em/about my opinions on ur otps#but my rav and drift are amicas#very TOUCHY amicas. i draw them touching a lot bc i think theyd be pretty physically affectionate with one another#they hug. they cuddle. drift carries ravage occasionally. they speak through hand simply just to feel the contact. ravage puts all his#weight on drift on bad pain days. drift does the same for him. its a big part of their dynamic. its the Trust that comes with that touch#theyre sparkbonded to each other as amicas too. like these two cant really get closer. but its not a romantic dynamic 🤷♂️#i cant stop you from seeing it that way and. im not gonna try lol. but anon asked so i figured id answer and talk a bit more about em#idk rambling in the tags
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Annie and Finnick for the like and dislike game? 👁👁
i really like the way Annie presents herself. yes she speaks you know. twice. but the first time, she thanks Peeta and treats him like a normal person that did a kind thing for her, which is something he’s definitely not getting from anyone else in that moment, and the second time, she doesn’t have any problem kind of going for the throat and throwing Finnick’s name around in a way that she thinks will strengthen her point and her credibility. it shows she’s smart, she’s calculated, and she’s also probably pretty eloquent when she’s not under massive amounts of stress.
this is kind of a cop out but a) she’s in like six sentences and b) I really like her so something i dislike about her? i don’t like her ending at all. i don’t think Finnick should have lived, but i also really dislike that it was just widow mother done, it kind of feels like ok well Finnick’s dead but at least he’s got a kid! and already Annie’s spent the entire series as just. Finnick’s. so it’d be nice if she wasn’t just the mother of his child in the end. she’s a very minor character and it’s a silly gripe but yknow
i think the thing I like most about Finnick is how ridiculous he is. he has absolutely no problem being over the top and making a fool of himself and yes it’s partially an act, but then we find out in Thirteen once Annie’s back that he still is naturally pretty funny. and i think it’s cool that despite all of That he manages to have a good sense of humor and try and bring that to some really terrible situations
something i don’t love about Finnick is how he just refuses to tell Annie anything about the rebellion. like brother you are shooting yourself in the foot there. obviously she was going to get picked up the second the arena blew out and his overprotectiveness means that she had no idea that was going to happen, so she had no time to even try to run or protect herself. he also ended up showing that he doesn’t trust her, kind of infantilizing her, and as a result probably massively fucking up his relationship. it says a lot about how he sees her and that’s that she can’t take care of herself so he has to do it for her, and that’s a pretty ugly way to look at your partner honestly
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#ask and you shall receive#lovely anon#thg#finnick odair#annie cresta#see I never have issues putting odesta opinions either separate or together in the tags bc I know I’m right skdjdjdb it’s bc the characters#simply told me so#oh for the record. if the gf ever did something even remotely close to that and kept something important back from me bc she was worried#about the effect it’d have on me. I would go one thousand percent ballistic bc that is simply not your call to make!!! and this is something#that actively puts her life in danger!!! this is something that means she gets tortured for months for information she does not have and#thinks that she will probably die there and never get out and that is not his fault but at the same time. she deserved to know that he was#doing something that could put her in that position
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hi! i always love your MDZS/CQL takes; can i ask what are the questions you think CQL is asking, as compared to MDZS?
I haven't actually revisited either canon in ages, which is making me nervous. what questions the novel is interested in can be pretty contentious all on its own! @mikkeneko has an excellent answer in the notes here which I reccomend to everyone. My own thoughts are honestly pretty scattered- I keep on deleting things and going hm, that's not quite right.
So, for the obvious-to-me example, people reasonably zero in on the creation of innocent doctors/radish farmers who Wen Ruohan is holding hostage. In CQL it's easy to infer that Wen Qing and Wen Ning are maybe the only cultivators and almost certainly the only combatants among the Wen remnants, and their status is much more ambiguous in the novel, which I personally think is asking, essentially, "and so what? were they wrong to run, when they had a chance? Do they deserve what Jin Guangshan will do to them if they go back? Aren't they just people, actually?" Whereas the question that CQL is asking is more to the effect of "What does Wen Qing owe these people, when she is their only defence? What is she entitled to do to save them, at other people's expense? If she fucks up that moral calculus, what then? Does it matter if she's personally fond of some of the outsiders who are going to get hurt? If one of them saved her brother? Later, this question will flip to what Wei Wuxian and Jiang Cheng, and the parallel to Jiang Cheng's situation in particular is, I think, genuinely pretty fun. You're giving up the Wen as soldiers who've laid down their arms in exchange for Wen Qing also grappling with leadership and the question of how many horrors she can stand to look the other way on to protect her own people. one reason I keep deleting so much is that a lot cql's changes were motivated at least in part by censorship, which I think we mostly share a general and justified distaste for! but I also think that within the bounds of that censorship the creative team put a lot of work into actually doing something interesting with those changes. Or, for another example- nieyao! There's a much greater emphasis on the nmj-jgy relationship, it's unambiguously very close and they are clearly extremely important to one another, and I think that's because the cql team has a lot to say about love, trust, power, and the ways those things interact, and that reflects back on all of the other relationships in play, including Wangxian. Almost every time, when CQL chooses change a relationship they make the characters in question closer- that's true for Jiang Cheng and Lan Wangji, for Wen Qing and the Yunmeng contingent, for Zixuan and Mianmian, and Huaisang and Meng Yao. It's even true for Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian, who have a close and trusting relationship in first life! CQL puts a much greater emphasis on "all right, so you care, what next?" How do you choose someone and then choose to be good to them? What if there's a massive power disparity between you? What if you seriously disagree about your priorities and morals? How do you trust someone who's betrayed you? When is it a stupid choice to trust at all? How do you have faith that you know someone well enough for that trust to be meaningful?
for legal reasons i would like to specify that it's not that mdzs isn't interested in these problems. i do remember wangxian's literal trust fall. cql is asking these questions all the time about everyone. also for legal purposes i'm not suggesting that cql lwj and jc love each other. but! they establish a three month wartime partnership looking for wwx and then jc immediately drops him on wwx's say-so despite apparently having a positive enough opinion of him to tell wwx he thinks they should make up twice. lan wangji will later tell wwx he thinks he should loop jc in on the second flautist! these are people trying to navigate some kind of relationship/shared interest/community, as opposed to a hateful void. cql wants to say hey, how do you go about this? while I'm here and rambling cql also puts a lot of emphasis on wwx's connection to yunmeng and changes things up so instead of feeling alienated right before he leaves our last glimpse of him there is happily picking lotuses and playing with a kid! in both stories the narrative is asking who do you protect? who do you leave behind? can you ever get it back? but the angles are very different.
#why are there so many people who simultaneously argue that cql dumbs down mdzs and also that mdzs is the slow reveal of how wwx is a#perfect angel who has never done anything wrong in his life#being let down by everyone around him#surely you have to pick an option#but lan wangji and wei wuxian being close friends in the first life really does change everything#i have seen people (reasonably) be annoyed with this as an adaptation choice#but! i like this change a lot and i think they do interesting things with it#There's still a lot of emphasis on what makes them so particularly perfect for each other but imo moving Lan Wangji into the category of#people wwx loved in the first life#shifts the focus from#when will they get together#to#What it would take and what would they have to do for these people to have to do to have a successful partnership?#If loving someone is the first step what comes next? Who do I want to be to the people around me?#i love the focus on wwx's trust issues as trust issues! problems that he's had with lwj specifically before!#and the solution isn't just oh well lwj is perfectly trustworthy#though that's obviously part of it#wwx has to like. decide for himself to do some things differently this time around in order to reap the rewards of being really in it with#someone. and lwj does too! it's a journey they're on together#i have simply rambled in all directions i'm sorry anon
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Oh no, I hope all the folks annoyed about the influx of radioapple art with Lucifer in a dress aren’t talking about all the recent art of flapper!Lucifer. I've been seeing tons of radioapple art with Luci dressed in drag as a flapper girl and being all flirty towards an incredibly flustered Alastor, and I've loved every bit of it! No sign of any of the usual Manlyman!Alastor/UuU!Lucifer crap, just flapper!Luci teasing a VERY red-faced Alastor. I really hope that's not what people are talking about😟
I think I've seen pics of that floating around Twitter. Love the dress design, made me want to draw Alastor in one T.T Idk if that's the one any of the other Anon's were talking about specifically, but even if it is, don't let that take away you're enjoyment of it. You are 100% allowed to like things even if other people dislike it.
This is fandom. Curate it with people and fandom art/fics/edits etc... that you enjoy and ignore the rest 😊It can be irritating and disheartening to see people hating on something you really enjoy (I get the feeling, I've felt the same way about characters and shows I like) but at the end of the day, you loving it and them hating it doesn't actually hurt anyone. We're all here to have a good time, whether that's gushing about a ship/show with a like-minded community or ranting about it with a like-minded community. Both can be fun and cathartic.
I mean, even if you did like UwU Lucifer and Manlyman!Alastor, I'm not going to seek you out and tell you all the things I dislike about it and why you shouldn't like it, nor should anyone else. I'm not here to rain on anybody's parade. That's why I rant here, on my own blog, in my own little space, with fans who agree and understand my frustrations. That way anyone who doesn't want to see my posts can block and/or mute me and go about their day enjoying the content that makes them happy.
Make sure to give the flapper!Lucifer and flustered!Alastor art some love so the artists know you're enjoying it too! As an artist myself, that does wonders for our motivation to draw it more often LOL
#seriously tho#enjoy what you want and ignore those who don't#i kind of get annoyed with flustered!Alastor but like#only in certain ways#I love it when he gets flustered but Im also a very picky eater (in terms of fic and art) so even the smallest things can annoy me lol#but thats why you simply scroll past#or block#or ignore it#and your fandom experience will be exponentially better because of it#curate your fan space and it'll be so much more fun I promise#I've been doing it for years 👉👉#asks#anon#anonymous#radioapple#appleradio#hazbin hotel#alastor#hazbin alastor#lucifer magne#lucifer morningstar#the radio demon#hazbin hotel alastor
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How come you're not a popular blog? Does it make you upset that all your friends are better than you?
A) I don't want to be "popular" I'd rather have a small few in whom I call friends than a million people I call acquaintances. People have their preferences and mine is to not have a lot of followers/follow a lot of people. I value connection which might not be what other people want and that's okay, I'm happy being "unpopular" ♡
B) firstly, popularity doesn't equal "better" and secondly, this isn't a competition. Nothing makes anyone "better" than anyone else and it certainly isn't numbers that makes someone popular. I cater to no one.
If people like me, great! If people hate me, alright cool! I'm not here for everyone and everyone is certainly not here for me, world doesn't revolve around me and my ships, as the world doesn't revolve around others and their ships. We all are just out here vibing!
I'm an idiot on the internet popping off about my f/o for me, myself, and I. If people want to tag along for the ride that's a bonus and I feel honored that people actually want to invest their time in my ships/me when I'm reality they don't have to but they do and thats amazing.
#what a weird fuckin' ask.#Hey anon how come you felt the need to hide behind anonymous? Why hide?#Is it because you are too scared to have a conversation with me to my face (so to speak)#or were you simply trying to bait me into getting upset? Sorry my guy /gn you picked the wrong person.#Maybe me from 2017 cared about that garbage but I don't care anymore. it's been super beneficial for my mental health 💜#where tf did this even come from???
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hey i really think you should do an anon death counter if ya want... think it would be pretty cool...
all these dying anons remind me of 'dumb ways to die' except by the hands of medic tf2 lol
im not sure what the exact number would be at this point.. but considering the amount of anons that usually die either in posted asks or right in the askbox, it would not be a small one!!
#we've have a pretty decent amount of anons die in posts i believe#and those i could go count for an accurate number (so far)#but it would be funny if i were to include the anons i just delete right in the askbox as well#of which there are.... very many#i have lost count#but if youre curious#if i give an anon a warning not to do something in a post#and then i receive an ask doing that anyway#it gets deleted#i warned you! you did not heed the warning so i am killing you#some examples of this include biting me or surprise hugs or not hurting my birds or whatever else..#you get one (1) warning if im generous and then im killing you if you disrespect me#hate and general disrespect of course gets deleted right away im not answering those i simply will not waste my time <3#and then every once in a while#there will be an ask that i just dont know how to answer yet and it sat in my askbox for far too long and i never got to it or#sometimes ones i just dont feel like answering#many many many poor anons that have been slaughtered by my hand it seems aheh#the doc is in
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regardless of the "learn how to be alone" dravel, being lonely actually is really bad for your mental health and can be very painful :p
#i've been doing so so bad#and i've had breakdowns frequently this past week#and i dont have friends or family or a partner or even a therapist lmao#so im alone and thus only feeling worse and worse#my mom has been in an unusual bad mood lately so i havent been able to talk to her at all#but today she asked me to go to her to the store bc she wanted me to buy smth#and on the way we watched the snails and she found them cute (she has never appreciated snails before)#and now i instantly feel a bit better and a bit more normal after only 15 min of hanging out with her#it's so easy for ppl who have family or friends or a partner to judge and criticize me#but like.... u have ppl close to u and u know nothing abt what it feels like to be in my position#it's so condescending and lacking of compassion#i dont understand your pov either but at least im not TELLING YOU directly how much i judge you#like ppl judge me so hard for feeling miserable in my loneliness... but it's easy for u to say those things#like u dont feel my despairing loneliness bc u have a fkn partner. u have fkn friends. or a fkn family. easy for u to judge me from up ther#anyway im much better at being alone than most ppl bc im still alive and im enduring the pain every day#other ppl have ppl around them 💀 only others who are all alone can understand how much it hurts#and it wont be fixed by loving yourself or loving to be alone or whatever other bs they use to criticize u ._.#being alone IS harmful to your health. there are studies on it and im not just making that shit up#i AM allowed to feel pain bc i dont have anyone#ugh esp ppl w partners who can receive physical and romantic attention.... when they judge me.....#stfu forever u have no idea how i feel 💀 and u could never know simply by having had a partner at all...#but yeah. it bothers me too bc i NEVER see someone on here and go#damn i hate this sm i gotta let them know by sending them anons or vague post abt them#like i dont get up in their faces and tell them all my judgemental or bitter or hateful thoughts abt them#even this post is only bc other ppl have taken the liberty to without my consent or having asked tell me directly how pathetic i am#how im not allowed to feel alone. how i have a victim mentality so on and so forth#i never tell other ppl things like that. even if i think them (which honestly i rarely do unless they're extremely toxic TO other ppl) i wo#say shit abt it to them.... ??? like why?#when i sometimes see like ppl have friends on here or talk abt their partners i can feel bitter and jealous#bc im surrounded by seeing things i so deeply crave but im not a humanbeing worth of those things
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i saw that you used to hint at oc stuff on twitter (don't ask me why im digging im looking for zola stuff lmao) why don't you post more about them?
i am simply terrified that if i post oc things online someone will steal the concept and run with it faster and better than i ever could have and then i will be devastated forever and ever
more seriously i have very little to show for any of my oc things (adhd brain making life difficult as per usual awawawawawa) and every time i've shared oc things in the past i've ended up never following up on it and it makes me feel bad and guilty so i've just convinced myself i will Never talk about my ocs until i have something substantial i can put out there
#mio answers things#anon#i'm getting a little better with making things for my ocs#on account of having friends i can actively share my brain rot with#but i still dread the feeling of posting a character and being forever haunted about never doing anything with them ever again#(echoes of custard howling in my mind)#just like how i dread having a repeat of that time in middle school#where i talked about my werecrow oc in the comments of a bigger artist's works#and they ended up making their own werecrow oc immediately after#they very much directly aligned with mine#but it got wildly popular on their account and they made a ton of art for it and i just#ended up deleting any evidence of mine because i felt so bad about it skjdfhgkldhfkgj#like i have no problem with people taking inspiration from my designs#i think it's fun seeing people design vy2s with two toned hair and kyos with pink eyes and hair pins w#but like. the thought of posting my oc and having someone run them through a blender to make their own character makes me feel. bad.#i can't articulate the specific reason Why it makes me feel bad but it does skjfghdkjfgsdhkjf#like if i finally posted theater gang stuff and then saw someone else take those concepts and make them into their own characters#i might just collapse into a pile of beef trimmings and never get up sdfkjhglksjdfg#it's silly and i don't know why my brain's like this but because of this in combination with my fear of posted oc things haunting me foreve#i simply will not be posting <3333#(and also just that. i'm incapable of producing enough artwork to make my ocs matter in a public context i think.)#(like you breed affection for a character through familiarity)#(which you only really get by creating A Lot Of Art)#(and i cannot do that <333)#(so instead most times i post it's a few handfuls of likes)#(and that doesn't really feel worth it to my brain when i could just settle for going insane over them with my friends skjdfhgkjsdf)#i really think this last year has just taught me that i really. honestly truly prioritize the reactions and feelings of my friends#over strangers on the internet#and it feels a lot more comfortable that way w#AH
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