#Withdrawl

[stutterhug]

Hawks Fall

[beccawise7]

The silence is a reply.

Everything they don't say is everything you need to know.

~beccawise7💜🖤

[night-bloomss]

It’s been over a month since I’ve stopped taking bupropion or any antidepressants. For context I took Prozac and bupropion within the last five years.

So far, I feel my life has changed for the better. I quit cold turkey on them which is a risky decision, but overall I haven’t had any side effects. I feel happier and I feel like I’ve been getting back to my old self before I was depressed but still a newer version of myself.

While I still have lots to work on such as my confidence, I feel like I have better mindset on things. To be quite frank, I was spiraling really bad within the last year, I lost myself, my passions, my job, and I became codependent in my relationship. I’m doing a lot better and my state of mind is clearer, my relationship is better, my passions are slowly coming back and my sense of identity is back as well.

I’m doing my best to become the best version is myself. I’m not saying SSRIs or any antidepressants don’t help but they weren’t for me and that’s ok. No matter what I’ll keep bettering myself and try to improve bit by bit.

If you’re reading this, thank you and I’ll keep updating my thoughts

[bluebird-poetry96]

A Peak at Chronic Illness...

It's 3:52am and I haven't been able to close my eyes once.

Some birds are chirping or should I say screeching.

How lucky they were to get some sleep.

When I haven't been able to get a blink.

My cat is annoyed, at my tossing and turning.

My mind racing, withdrawal has set in.

I don't have a primary care doctor right now, so I can't get a medication filled and,

God, I am in pain.

All I want is some sleep right now. But I can't even get that.

So much anxiety,

I feel itchy and sweaty but cold, but hot, but cold again.

Blanket on, blanket off.

I'm furious at the American healthcare system, how broken it all is.

I take medication as prescribed and I forget that you can become physically addicted and can go through withdrawal.

I didn't expect it to set in so fast.

So many times in the last year have I gone without it because of my old primary care, but this is definitely the worst time I've had.

-Raven Blue Bell

[mezmer]

Sweetest gift from @sakuramom so I could sticker my laptop up more :D

[acidicstars28]

I've been on a VegasPete kick (cause what else is new?) for a bit, and have found myself unsatissfied with a lot of the vegaspete playlists I come across either on spotify and youtube. Maybe I'm just too picky. I'm not saying there aren't songs in said playlists that I haven't added to my own vp playlist, but like can't we be a tiny bit more creative people. If I see Unholy or S&M once more, I'm gonna cry/scream/die, jury's still out on which. Hence why I have recommendations. Take note, this is an entirely opinion based post so don't get mad at me. Also I lean more toward rock/heavy metal/metal and shit, so if you ain't down with that, this ain't for you.

My recs as follows:

Practically anything in the Bad Omens discography. Their music is so good, but I have a few songs directly for Vegas and Pete that the lyrics are just 🤌

Vegas- Just Pretend, Bad Omens

Take Me First- Bad Omens

Pete- The Death of Piece of Mind

Also see by Bad Omens:

bad decisions

Like a Villian

IDWT$

Nowhere To Go

What do you want from me?

FERAL

Nothing More- You Don't Know What Love Means (either regular version or the one ft. Taylor Acorn depending on your mood)

Theory of a Deadman- Say Nothing

Banks- Waiting Game

Poets if the Fall- Carnival of Rust

Sleep Token- Dark Signs

Higher and Say That You Will

Practically their entire Take Me Back to Eden album

I would add a lot of Evanescence's music as well aside from like Bring to Life which I've seen on many playlists.

I might continue to add to the list if the mood so strikes me. I just needed to vent for now. Feel Free to add your own and continue the list.

[cmdrtartarfan]

Me when ao3 is down

[sickandpink]

Why does it literally feel like I lost an organ or something like my body just cannot function right now like something really important is missing

[spam-and-or-vent-account]

Moodswings are a little funny. Yeah, I was sobbing 3 minutes ago but I'm Better Now. I'm actually the most content I've been in my life. In fact, I feel like a completely new person! This Will Not Last,

[sidepiecevents]

I haaaate when i forget to take my antidepressants cuz if i dont take em immediately after noticing i end up 3 days into withdrawals crying over a fucking gacha game 🥲

AND i work midshift so if i take them in the morning it messes with my brain too much and i make stupid mistakes

Which leads to me putting it off MORE 😭.

This is bullshit

[ourinternallandscapetarot]

"We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us."

– Joseph Campbell

Instagram @ourinternallandscapetarot

[wannabesimmer96]

I'm trying to quit smoking/vaping and caffeine... My body wants to rip itself open from the seems. There is so much pain and random burst of just wanna get violent for no reason rage... It doesn't help when I'm emotionally obliterated and hiding myself in my closet... Life's hard right now but it will get better.. chin up all my peoples going threw withdrawals/depression/just mental health in general..

[frombehindthepen]

Did Anyone See the Signs?

Did Anyone See the Signs? #MentalHealth #Depression #Psychology

Image Credit: Pixabay “I didn’t see the signs.” “I never saw it coming.” They don’t always look like what you may think they look like. They may cry for help, but it might not be done audibly or it may mean no one is paying attention and listening. Sometimes, people may walk to the edge of the cliff, wanting to stop whatever pain is brewing and stewing inside, and decide one of two things, jump…

[psychonautkittysworld]

Day 4 withdrawing from seroquel (I'm waiting for my meds they were delayed.) I feel so lost in my own head, I just want to sleep but I keep tossing and turning and my mind won't shut off. I want to hit myself to make the talking stop. I'm tired. The thoughts of self harm are screaming. I can't hold down food. The only thing that numbs the voices is having mind blowing sex with my husband and even after I can't help but want to break down.

[life-is-pulchritudinous]

Withdrawals are never fun. I took addy too many days in a row for school now I have this pit in my stomach that aches. I feel slightly intoxicated. Nauseous all day. Feel like shit. I’m slightly shaky. Sweaty and hot all day. Can’t eat. Beyond drowsy. Vivid dreams with major night sweats.

I didn’t mean to do this. My mind, body and soul are paying the price. I could barely function at work going through withdrawals and let alone school? You could have tossed my textbook out the window, it was useless to me. I need my ADHD medication to be able to work and do school. Day 2 of a T-break from addy… I just want this pain in my stomach to go away!

This happened once before. I’m happy I caught it so early this time. Last time the withdrawals were much worse. I feel so sluggish and so so gross.

[elenas]

“He makes the sun rise on the evil and the good.”

Midnight Mass dir. by Mike Flanagan