#Ugh I have so many thoughts ….

[kanthonyism]

deeply glad that Anthony and Kate fucked off to do their thing and weren't their for Lady Whistledown reveal because if they'd been their the show runners would have also made them react in a way that is so Out of Character for the sake of whitewashing Penelope and getting their unearned pay off and it's fr so unrealistic that she wrote the nastiest shit about everyone and was not shunned 😭😭😭 like what happened to stakes and consequences

[hecckyeah]

I know most of us are curled up in the fetal position and sobbing, but I have to be that annoying (helpful??) voice of reason.

THE BREAKUP IS NOT PERMANENT. if it is, I'll eat my hat.

every move this season has led to this, ever since literal episode one. it was foreshadowed and I'm mad that I was too dumb to see it. and unfortunately, I can see the reasoning behind it. as a writer and a human I can see it. for Tim, it just got to be too much. he walked away to protect her. he saw the pain this issue put her through and he couldn't live with it. he's right: things will never go back to normal, but he's too thick headed and in pain and reeling from the last week or two to fully grasp what is the right thing to do. he's always done the right thing, even when it was painful, except for today. he pushed away his friends, lied to his supervisors and respected leaders, did both of those things to his girlfriend who he loves more than anything, and it kills him. he's not thinking straight. and I can understand how his first reaction is to isolate himself.

interestingly, he and Lucy are in an incredibly similar place right now. they're both isolated, confused, hurt, in pain, and unsure of the future. they're facing hardship and changes in their careers, they're fighting demons from the past that have reared their ugly heads. and instead of buckling down and working through it together, Tim decided for the both of them that he needed to be alone.

is it super realistic as far as actual people's reactions go? maybe not. but is it lazy storytelling, like I've heard thrown around? no, I really don't think so. you have to remember: these are two extremely independent people who have either never had a truly deep, long lasting relationship, or been burned by the one they had. they're also both stubborn, driven, protective, and have a shining moral compass. and for better or worse, those things are going to clash sometimes. as screwed up as it is, Tim probably thinks, in the depths of his pain, that leaving is the best thing he can do for Lucy. to let her be with someone who's not going to drag her into all his mess and mistakes and be a potential danger to her career and, most importantly, her life. but he's not in the headspace to realize that she doesn't care how hard it is-- she loves him, and only him, even with all his baggage.

he didn't break up with her because they argued or because he's annoyed with her or anything else. he did it because he's trying to protect her from himself, something she doesn't need. and he just needs time to heal and realize that they need to fight for each other, not against each other.

[inkyveins]

The urge to write a crossover fic between The Newsreader and Chess is staggering.....the timelines practically run parallel, Chess happens in the mid 80s and you could easily have it be '85, which goes with the Australian Chess Championship (restricted to Australian players, but with a small amount of high-ranking international ones allowed).

OR if it's a smidgen later, after Freddie leaves the circuit as a player and goes into reporting, there's a whole wealth of stuff to go into about being deeply closeted (please for the love of God, Freddie for some reason meeting Dale and Tim???) and character arc parallels! Florence, meet Helen. Svetlana, meet Helen (and low-key I think it would be REALLY funny if she and Anatoly and/or Molokov had like a dinner or something with Geoff and Evelyn).

[shiganshinaslut]

Thinking about Megumi and Yuuji THEY MAKE ME SICKKKKK

[strongtowerluxuryapartments]

figueroth and sandra lynn faeth; daughter and mother // dimension 20: fantasy high

fantasy high: junior year - a very merry moonar yulenear // lady bird, 2017 // ijeoma umebinyuo - questions for ada // alexuma // wych elm - susan smith // joan tierney - the elektra complex // fantasy high: sophomore year - hellbound // imma_slytherin - fig the unfaithable and the summer sads // nora kasten // honeytuesday // fantasy high: junior year - untapped rage // ethel cain - family tree (intro) // lynn emanuel - single girl. one room flat.

[roguelioness]

lost in the solas and mythal and lavellan dynamics, thoughts percolating

mythal prodding wisdom towards pride; lavellan coaxing wisdom from pride

mythal, all-knowing, but blind to solas; lavellan, painfully ignorant, but sees solas

mythal in a position of power treating her best and closest friend as an inferior; lavellan, in a position of power, treats him as an equal

mythal valuing solas' knowledge; lavellan valuing the man

[nateezfics]

hongjoong and this damn black tank top….. (ft. yunho)

[joicecubes]

hey guess who’s absolutely losing it over the stan twins again (spoiler alert its me)

so i was innocently scrolling tiktok when i was introduced to this DIABOLICAL au idea: firstly, what if ford really had shot stan with his crossbow when stan first showed up at the shack? and secondly, what if ford tried to bring him back to life frankenstein-style? (full credit to tiktok user @44boora for this idea, go check their account for some gut-wrenching art) (also… full post below the cut this got long)

but like i was thinking about this, ford bringing stan back to life specifically, and how dependent the concept is on this specific time in his life. i just feel like any other time and under any other circumstance, ford would have been able to, eventually, accept stan’s death. we see it at the end of weirdmageddon, where ford is ready to accept that the stan they all know and love is gone now that his memory has been erased. he tells mabel as much, and only realizes there’s hope for him when mabel is determined enough to push back against ford’s logic. ford believes very intensely in his own perception of the world. he believes in science. theoretically, he believes death is death, and there’s nothing he can do to change that.

but then, think of ford after he’s been betrayed by bill. this ford is at his absolute lowest. he can’t trust his own perception of the world anymore. he’s seen the truth of what their relationship was and the horrors he was so close to unleashing on their universe. he is desperate to right his wrongs. he’s losing sleep, his body is abused every time he closes his eyes, and the end of the world as he knows it is iminent if he doesn’t succeed in making the portal as secure and unusable as possible without dismantling it entirely. the only person he believes he can trust after everything that’s happened is stan. so he contacts him for help, and in his time waiting for him to arrive, cannot stop thinking of the worst-case scenario: that bill could still be coming for him. so when he opens the door to stan, his high-strung, paranoid brain doesn’t see stan, and he shoots.

he shoots his own brother with a crossbow and kills him.

ford is not usually one to blatantly ignore a scientific fact. again, death is death, and there’s nothing he can do about that. and yet, in a state of such intense grief, when his entire world is already close to crumbling around him and he’s holding his dead brother in his arms, there’s nothing else he can feasibly do but deny. so he does.

he lives in denial of a lot of things. that stan’s death is final, obviously, but also his reasonings for attempting to do the impossible and revive him. ford likes to believe he operates purely on logic, so he tells himself he’s doing this because he has to. without stan, he can’t prevent bill from entering their universe. he’s still the only person ford can trust, so reviving him is another step in his ultimate goal of stopping bill and saving the world. it doesn’t matter that its never been done before, ford will do it anyway. and he believes that he can, because as much as he thinks he’s moved on from his hubris, he’s still acting off the assumption that he’s special. he’s so far ahead of everybody else, so naturally, if anybody could accomplish the impossible and bring stan back from the dead, its ford.

and so he denies that the real reason he’s trying to save stan is not a logical one. he denies that he’s running entirely on emotions. it would be foolish to try something so risky and impossible and time-consuming if he were only doing it because of his crushing guilt and decade-long yearning, so he tells himself there’s so much more to it than that. he can’t just be doing this because he loves him, right? he’s not that shallow. he’s not that desperate.

and yet, he is. because as much as ford wants to deny it, he can’t live without stan. he can’t live with the knowledge that he was responsible for stan’s death. if he didn’t succeed, his grief would surely kill him.

[eggbertith]

downgrade of the century

[deoidesign]

Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between

[crowdeerdire]

Kel is off to art college and she misses her bf, Cove ╥﹏╥

[cowboyunderscore]

my roman empire is razumikhin always calling raskolnikov “rodya” or “rodka”, but raskolnikov only ever calling him “razumikhin” i could (and do, to the disparity of my friends and family) talk about that for hours and write a million essays

[herewegobebe]

TAEMIN 태민 'Guilty' MV Trailer [x]

[irisbaggins]

This episode validated me so much. I left a comment on one of the shorts on YouTube, and I fucking clocked it. I was right. K and Evan worked together on helping people after Magic Broke, and after Evan left K felt like they had to do everything on their own. I'm just gonna attach my original comment below (everything bolded is to emphasise what I feel very validated on due to the new episode):

YES. Exactly! K and Evan are, fundamentally, very similar in their complexes around others vs the self, aka how they view themselves and how their value is tied to their usefulness. I don't know why they broke up, but my money's on the fact that both Evan and K were drowning in guilt for their actions relating to the breaking of magic, and that put a strain on their relationship. Especially as both K and Evan started to become self-destructive (or, even more in Evan's case) in their attempt to "fix" their mistake. I have an inkling that their breakup was more due to them drifting apart because of their Atlas Complexes (taking the world/their family on their shoulders) rather than an explicit Wrong having happened.

But yeah, Evan is fully in the right about his bodily autonomy and K having ignored that. However, what this clip doesn't include is K's actual reasoning and mindset around this. They wanted to "fix" Evan the same way they've been "fixing" magic as Itsy, and they thought they could do it all on their own; do a massive task that should have been done by a community all by themselves. K attempting to heal Evan and then proceeding to royally screw it up was just the natural progression of K's spiral; they were going to create an explosion at some point if they continued to act as they were. It was just, unfortunately, Evan's arm that got blown up, and not their van.

I am just. I called it. In a YouTube short's comment. I called that the reason for K's erratic behaviour was due to their guilt and sense of responsibility, and K nearly spelled it out when talking to Jammer. And with this confirmation, I feel even more bolstered in saying that I genuinely think that K didn't think through their actions when attempting to heal Evan; they saw that Evan had been hurt and scarred after their breakup, and most likely felt guilt over that. They weren't there for him, which led to him being hurt and having an injury heal wrong. K's a healer at heart, someone who tries to help and fix things, and here's living proof that they weren't enough. That they weren't there for Evan because of their own complexes. They just...hadn't considered what it means to heal an already healed bone, especially when magic is less "whimsical" and a lot more realistic right now.

I could go on and on about K and how their character is amazing, but I'll leave this here for now and bask in the feeling of having my analysis hit true. It's really helping my confidence which I need, oh no I have so much to write for my thesis

[triglycercule]

mtt therapy moment except dust keeps taking breaks to talk to phantom papyrus and horror just wants this to hurry up so it can get to his turn because he couldn't give two shits about dust and killer's trauma and killer physically cannot discuss his issues and just starts zoning out while crying for some reason during it

and i'm the therapist listening to all of this writing down notes fervently because ITS CANON MATERIAL CANON I NEED TO GET THE CANON MATERIAL

[tangents-within-tangents]

Thinking about the song "Ship in Port" by Radical Face and clones

Thinking about the line "Farewell to the chains we were born into" and what that can mean for the clones

Thinking about how "But I have always stayed in place/Under that old illusion that it's safe" could equally describe Hunter, Echo, and (s1+2) Crosshair's complete opposite approaches to the Empire and post-war life.

The way Crosshair clings to his identity as a soldier of the Empire

And Echo as a soldier of the Republic

But Hunter puts his identity as a soldier behind him

Crosshair fights for the Empire to gain purpose

Echo fights against the Empire to save his brothers

And Hunter decides the Empire is too strong to even try to oppose

"A ship in port is a safer one"

"but it's not the reason it was made"

"So forgive me if I wander off"

"And forgive me more if I just stay"

Thinking about what The Bad Batch could have been if it had more fully explored the differences between those ideologies

(Thinking about what The Bad Batch could have been if it had dedicated more screen time to the 'reg' clones within the Empire and the underground network's fight to free them , instead of just sidelining Echo and Rex for a hypothetical clone rebellion show we might never get)