#TryingToMoveOn

[xfadednightmare]

Life lately... Time slips by, one day fading into the next. My mind’s loud, but the world feels quiet. I’m searching for something, anything, to make me feel alive. But for now, I’m just here. Maybe it gets better. Maybe not. Life lately... is a blur, and I’m just trying to keep moving. 🌙💭🌧️

[andy-tyson]

Date: February 1 I see them laugh, live, and move on, While I’m trapped in shadows of a haunting dawn. How do they smile, pretend it’s all fine? I’m stuck in that moment, lost in the line.

[a-music-project]

Project 2

Without You by Kid LAROI

He’s done or at least that is what he said. He also said “you know I love you…I just need to be alone to figure some stuff out” and a whole bunch of other shit that drowns out as I remember how similar those words are to words spoken to me 26 years ago. “I love you and can’t wait to spend the rest of my life figuring things out with you.” So similar but totally different my ripped out, beaten to a bloody pulp and totally shattered heart screams. How do I live without you? My first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first lover, my best friend and the ‘one’ who I cannot see life happening without. How do I go on completely alone? It seems impossible, can I go on? I have never been alone and this scares me to death. How do I live without you?

Good Things Fall Apart by ILLENIUM & Jon Bellion

Alone, did I cause this? Did he cause this? Is anyone right or is anyone wrong? In the beginning I never thought I was your type. With time we just clicked like two halves that equal a whole, the ying to my yang, kind of thing.  Known by all as the couple who definitely would last, how do I tell people? How do I expect others to understand when I am still trying to wrap my head around it.  There is no reason, that I have been told of, so there is no way for me to explain, I guess sometimes good things fall apart.

Te Fuiste by Enrique Iglesias

Porque te fuiste? My head shouts out! This house is so empty and my thoughts are oh so very loud. I do not want to remember yet I can’t seem to forget.  I find the more I want it all to stop, the memories only come all the more. Tears flow unbidden only to be politely served up with a side of  anxiety, loneliness, emptiness and distress.  Gone all gone, the kids are all grown up and I am left alone, my best friend has left he walked right out the door. I have no one to talk with anymore.  Who can I talk to now? I’m alone, I am alone without you.

Unwell by Enrique Iglesias

“I’m feeling kind of empty, looking kind of dented, Now that you're gone” I can’t eat, I don’t sleep, and I cry all the time. Who is this wounded person? I don’t know her. Heart so torn, it feels like it will never be well again. I want you back but would I take you back after what you have done? No one cheated, there was no violence, no sign that you would choose to be gone. Somehow I must move on.  I am still holding on, now that you are gone I really do need to move on. My broken heart is all he left. How do I move on? 26 years thrown away, now that you are gone. “Cause all of my friends are worried again, they know I’m not well without you. I’m unwell, I’m unwell without you” Tell me how…please, tell me how…yes, tell me how to be well without you! I just want to move on without you! 

Overpass Graffiti by Ed Sheeran

Once upon a time you were my everything, what I called home. You said this would never end, I was your everything. Now you try to make me believe I will be just fine on my own. Because 'you just want to be alone, to figure some things out’. Am I supposed to hope you will return? You told me to move on. I know you belong with me. Yet here I go, it is time to move on! I might stumble. I might fall.  But watch me grow cause here I go, I will try to move on. “Go Girl Go!” I yell to myself. Don’t listen to your sad broken heart, you’ve got this. Maybe I can’t fully move on just yet but I can start to pick up the pieces.

The lyrics from this song sums it all up:

This is a dark parade Another rough patch to rain on, to rain on I know your friends may say This is a cause for celebration, hip-hip-hooray, love Photographs in sepia tones It's so still, the fire's barely fighting the cold, alone There are times when I can feel your ghost Just when I'm almost letting you go The cards were stacked against us both

I will always love you for what it's worth We'll never fade like graffiti on the overpass And I know time may change the way you think of us But I'll remember the way we were, you were the first full stop Love that will never leave Baby, you will never be lost on me

This is a goddamn shame I never wanted to break it, or leave us tainted Know I should walk away But I just can't replace us, or even erase us The car was stuck, the engine stalled And both of us got caught out in the snow, alone There were times when I forget the lows And think the highs were all that we'd ever known The cards were stacked against us both

I will always love you for what it's worth We'll never fade like graffiti on the overpass And I know time may change the way you think of us But I'll remember the way we were, you were the first full stop Love that will never leave Baby, you will never be lost on me......

[moonlightheretic]

Cruel Comfort

I used to think love was just for other people. I could never understand it, solitude appealed to me more.

But, then I met you on chance alone.

You were unexpected. 

And for the first time, I preferred someone else over the company of solely myself. 

I didn’t realize I loved you until you turned me down. 

Kindly. 

You have never said anything unkind to me ever, even when you reject me it is full of compassion. 

“Find someone closer.” 

If it was so easy I would have already done so. I can’t imagine anyone else, you are the only one for me.

Your words do not deter me, you aren’t fading from my mind. 

Am I destined to remain heartbroken?

Thanksgiving was a cruel comfort. 

Happiness abound, everyone elated and full of cheer. 

I see them and I see us. The robed couple sitting with their coffee, fresh from the spa. This place has so much to offer those that come in twos. Here, I thought the distraction would be enough, the holiday would be enough, but I only see you in the faces of strangers and I can’t help but stare. I only see you playing golf in the afternoon light. I see you recording this place with your phone and walking the trails. 

This place is one stroke away from a landscape painting reincarnated into reality. You would appreciate it. 

I wish you could see it. See me. I could offer you so much. 

I can’t help but think of what could have been. What this holiday would look like with you and I. I wish I could enjoy it knowing there was a possibility between us, a bud of hope that could bloom with each passing moment. 

But I shouldn’t be thinking of you anymore. 

My friends are losing patience with me and soon I will have to bury your name under false smiles and silence. 

Your name is an uncommon one, just as is your spirit, but I keep seeing it in odd places. 

In places where it shouldn’t be...you follow me and you are unaware of it.

Is the universe showing me signs? Or am I bending the universe around you--to my will?

I still hope, I still pray for you while also wondering if maybe one day I’ll forget you. 

Like you have probably forgotten me. 

Maybe if I was thinner, smarter, prettier, you would give me a chance. 

But you deem me unworthy of conversation. 

Maybe one day, I will forget your steady brows and soulful eyes, the purity in your grin, your tall frame and warm embrace. Maybe one day I will forget this hopeful feeling. 

I do not regret loving you. 

I can’t make myself regret it, not today, not tomorrow, not ever. 

I might have to block you, but I don’t want to. I am afraid of a future without you. 

In loving you, I never felt more alive. To move on I will have to kill a portion of myself. 

The Question I cannot answer is...do I remain in this place because I want to or am I only preserving my life?

[verbalmind]

Rebound.

Feeling like what you did to me, you couldn’t do it to her. 

Not being able to contact her… you called my phone 5 times hoping I’ll answer. 

And then every time I answered that put the stamp on when she didn’t answer I was sure to pick up the phone. 

You did this cycle to me so many times you probably forgot how it even started.

I ended the cycle because I didn’t understand it. You came back to me… you found a way to get in contact with me… and nothing changed. 

Me: Why stay in something when you're not giving me what I want. 

Me: I tried so many times… I tried to stay in it… I tried.. I gave you so many times to fix what was wrong… 

I found my voice and when I did… you made me feel like I was wrong.. You gaslighted me… you made me feel crazy and complete shit… 

I’ve always wanted answers but your lips were sealed… I was talking to a wall on issues that mattered to me

After a while, your compliments, your lip bits, your laugh, and your smile just felt fake, felt like manipulation because it was… 

I had my wrongs too… 

I was quiet, I was wrapped in an emotional ball…

I knew what I wanted... I knew what I thought I wanted and when I would even slip some of it out…

I was left with silence, I’m wildn, or who is this talking to me… 

We would get in heated arguments and all I would do is block, block because I didn’t want that type of anger in my life

It's been in my life before and nothing good has come out of it…

My dad would have that type of anger and it would lead to nothing but destruction and with the anger we brought out of each other it was leading to happen to us. 

I’ve always felt like you never saw me. You saw me I could become. You saw the me , that was probably her. 

When I saw you I saw the you. The you I had in the beginning. As we continued to talk I didn’t recognize who I was talking to. It was as if I was trying to play chess in the chance of winning to win who I wanted back. 

Come to the realization that you who are now, is who I’m going to get because it’s you. Or it's you when you're with me. 

I have to accept what it is… which is nothing.

Which is nothing more than memories, good and bad. 

Nothing more than moments, what-ifs, that are slowly disappearing, and me wanting to reach out to you. 

Reaching out to someone that is no longer there. 

The goodbyes have happened. And they will continue to happen until your nothing more than a memory. Until you're nothing more than something I think in passing. Until I don’t think of you at all. 

Yup. Damn.

[nowimscaredofheights]

“Am I gonna be alright?

I wanna kick myself for falling so hard

Momma, can you die from a broken heart?”

~Maddie & Tae~

[dkcod]

JUN 25...

POR QUÉ NO PUEDO DEJARTE IR, SACARTE DE MI MENTE?!

Hoy me acordé de ti, el olor de tu perfume se hizo presente, junto a tu sonrisa y tus ojos que me tenían pasmado; y mi cabeza rápida y estúpidamente comenzó a imaginar un futuro lejano con nosotros reencontrándonos, amándonos, viviendo la vida que ahora vivo sin ti...y me reí entre llanto y alegría. nostalgia y melancolía.

Luego me reí de mi mismo, y me alegré de la idea de que sea feliz con otra vida, sin mí. Una vida donde estás rodeada de tu propia felicidad y en tu propio camino; me alegra pensar eso y deseo de todo corazón que te esté iendo bien, muy bien. Por favor, hazlo, dame la razón. Dame esa razón y dejame verte feliz el día de nuestro extraño reencuentro.

[ha-jokes0nyou-ha]

There’s this darkness to me.

I’ve always hated it yet I find myself embracing it at times. I’m not what I seem to others. But, I’m also not as bad as I think to myself.

[ibecryingsometimes]

Sometimes...

Life is so fricking hard sometimes... I don't know what's worse them coming back and being the same not caring person or them not coming back at all... I think I know which one is worse for me and unfortunately its not the first one... I really need to work on that. 

[kcreamz]

I trusted you. I trusted you with my entire being. And you made me regret it. I finally opened up and let my walls down and you made me remember why they were built up so high to begin with. I gave you a part of me that I can never get back. All the times that you said that you cared, was that just a lie? Was your mission just to hurt someone else because of your own insecurities? You are just a coward. You were selfish. You made promises you didn’t intend to keep. You were just playing with me like I was a puppet and you were the master. You knew you had control over me. But one thing you didn’t think of, is how much better off I will be without you.

[olympappclub]

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[boxfullofregrets]

I wish,

I had a rewind button in my life so I can do things differently. 😶

[bohemianbookworm-blog]

In love with this series right now. Trying to mend my broken heart after finishing A Court of Wings and Ruin ❤ #acourtofwingsandruin #perfectruin #laurendestephano #tryingtomoveon

[abnrmllyyours]

I let my feelings come in the way of our friendship and this is what we’ve come to.

You forgetting me and me still trying to forget you.

@i-am-hopelass

[just-psycho-thoughts]

I thought I found my home here, but you made sure there was nothing left to find

y.s.

[justarandomcaitlynne]

so my aunt passed away in June. my grandma (who she lived with,) is auctioning the house and everything in it. Today was the auction, and I have been so heart broken because that was my second house. that was the house I grew up in, where everyone would go for family events, gatherings, etc. anyway, the auction today made me realize that I’m not over my aunts death, and seeing everything owned by her getting sold, ripped me apart.