brokenheartbyjacob

[brokenheartbyjacob]

I hate everyone that hurt me in the passed!! Now that I am more clear, my feelings and emotions are roller coaster towards these people everyday. I'm questioning their love and intentions towards me?? Is it because of money, I'm an idiot, I'm gullible, I'm from the Philippines and they think me as no body??? OR I just trust everyone around me way too much. I wanna cut off everyone in my life but one of my daughter, is that wrong?? My other daughter hates me and disrespectful (teenager) I'm not ready for it, I don't have it in me to raise a teenager. I think she is better off without me. I just wanna break away and run anywhere but here!!!

[brokenheartbyjacob]

I think I forgave him from cheating on me because we discussed it on a safe place (therapy sessions) then he stopped going and gave up on working thinks out through our therapist. He felt that he had enough and wanted to move forward without help. So, now I think the reason why I'm stuck on leaving or staying because we never discussed or talked about what happened in 2019 and ALL the BS with his family.

[brokenheartbyjacob]

Hod do I tell him that I want to move on without him? Why when I wanted to leave, he becomes the husband that I wanted him to be, and at this time, I don't feel what a wife should be feeling when he say "I LOVE YOU" I feel nothing, exhausted and done with it.

[brokenheartbyjacob]

5 posts! Thank you TUMBLR to be my outlet..

[brokenheartbyjacob]

Why everyone here in my house burst my bubble when I get happy and excited... even a friend from far away. Why can't they just be happy for me or just keep their opinion to them selves.

I don't get happy or excited very often. My happiness is like a butterfly in your backyard then flys away before you could totally appreciate it's beauty.

My daughter is just like my husband or ex-husband to be, always criticize and makes fun on whatever makes me happy.

#goals #thoughts #everydaydiary #feelings #free #lonely #sad #alone #life is #anxiety #depression #brokenhearted #gotcheated #movingon

[brokenheartbyjacob]

Why when I tried to do something positive it always go sideways🤦‍♀️ I know and believe that everything happens for a reason but what's happening is punch in my gut and adding disappointment and rejection in my life!! And to have NO support from anyone is depressing and I feel worthless.

#goals #thoughts #everydaydiary #feelings #free #lonely #sad #alone #life is #anxiety #depression #brokenhearted #gotcheated #movingon

[brokenheartbyjacob]

He always ask me why I stay up so late and sleep so much in the morning till noon, so I did asked my self??? Because I stopped drinking and sober off and on for years and I have depression and anxiety from him cheating on me for 15 years...It's only had been almost 5 years since I found out that he was cheating on me for 15 years, I caught him 😪😪 so I'm healing, and cleansing all the toxic crap that I have been doing, and he want me to act as if nothing happened. Moving on is not as easy for anybody! My heart is broken! And it took me 5 years to realize that I am broken and part of me died and I am mourning. Why can't he understand that!!!!???? #cheatinghusband #anxiety #depression #brokenhearted #tryingtomoveon #struggle #everyday #feelinglonely #feelingworthless #feelingnothing #feelingnobody #tryingtosurvive

[brokenheartbyjacob]

I feel better today but anxious. #anxious #depression

[brokenheartbyjacob]

In 2016, I found out that my marriage was a lie!! My husband has been cheating with on me with hookers and strippers and who knows who..I'm sure he had an affair as well!! I have been married for almost 21 years, do I stay or leave???...it's a struggle everyday. It gave me PTSD!!!, Anxiety, Panic Disorder and Depression. I'm living my life because of my daughters and not for me anymore. #marriage #anxiety #depression #brokenhearted #gotcheated #movingon

[brokenheartbyjacob]

My Heart was Broken in May 08, 2016, and still Broken!