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So. That Florida Bathroom Bill, huh?
TW: bathroom bills, transphobia, internalized transphobia.
I ain’t beating around the bush. I will be using strong language here. If that ain’t your cup of tea or if you’re just here for my usual brand of gay fanart and fic, it’s okay to scroll past this post. Really. I won’t judge. This is one doozy of a vent.
For the people in my DMs asking me if I’m okay (as a trans person in Florida considering recent bathroom bill bullshit) I’m just… sitting here with an exasperated sigh.
It’s funny that the first time I hear of this is from a DM from someone on the other side of the world. I’ve been deliberately avoiding lgbt Florida news for some time because the more I think about it, the harder it is to be civil in transphobic conversations.
Last night I was deadnamed in front of a few people, and today at my graduation I’ll likely be deadnamed in front of a whole convention center. That’s what I get for not changing my name legally, huh. Oh well. Didn’t wanna go through all the paperwork just yet (in case I go for a different name) so I’m stuck with the one I’m sure I don’t want.
So again, I try not to think about it.
But yeah. It sucks.
Honestly? The bathroom bill doesn’t change much for me. It’s still the same shit as always.
The one time I went into the men’s restroom, I freaked out a cis guy so badly (poor dude was genuinely scared of ME accusing HIM of something bad) that I never did that again.
As for women’s restrooms (the one I most frequently use) that’s a whole other deal. Most days, I don’t pass. I’ll just go out and say that. I have a high voice, boobs, and a bit of hips. Some days I dress really feminine too, so it only makes sense. No one here is going to buy “see I LOOK like a woman but no see I’m secretly a ‘man but not quite’ inside but I wear makeup as a kind of exaggerated cosplay of a gender I am NOT, y’see?”
I don’t want to have a nuanced discussion of gender in the bathroom. Most people 30+ in age don’t even know what non-binary is and barely get the concept of trans. As much as I love being and educator and advocate, after a long road trip I want to piss and get on with my life. Also cis men have told me the horror stories of male bathrooms (how do you get shit ON the ceiling????) and then I’m thankful to have been “born a woman” or whatever.
Most days I don’t think about it too hard. But on my more dysphoric days or when on the blessed days I do genuinely pass more masc - when I go into the bathroom looking like this:
I genuinely don’t know which bathroom to use.
It’s embarrassing. Especially when there’s no family restroom available. And when I go to the women’s restroom, I sometimes get these looks. Brief, surreptitious glances they think I don’t notice. To ease tensions, I lift my pitch and give a compliment. I even puff out my (binded) breasts slightly as if to say, “Yes, I have tits and a pussy, does that soothe your cisnormative and petty fears that I would assault you?”
Jesus, some days I wish I could say that quote outright. But I can’t, and I know it’s not fair to them. They’re scared, I get it. I remind them of a traumatic experience. Sometimes, certain people who have nothing to do a trauma invoke fears of it unintentionally by raising their voices or saying something off or even existing. But that’s MY responsibility to fucking deal with that. Other people can’t help existing.
By and large, people with transphobic tendencies here are usually nice. Beyond, nice even. They’ll help you host a spontaneous ice cream party. They’ll buy you allergy meds when you’re choking. They’ll take you in after your mother kicked you out. Like I said, genuinely sweet and kind people.
Which makes it harder when they accuse trans people of transitioning to skirt military drafts, to cheat at sports, to deal with mommy issues. When they equate gays to sex crimes (yes, the ones you’re thinking of). When they refuse to call you your full name. When they call you a baby who refuses to clean her pooped diapers.
I try to be nice. But by god, is my patience waning…
By. Fucking. god.
I’m tired of the way it’s affected me. Making me feel worth less than cis folks, like my feelings matter less. Even worse, I hate how it makes me jealous and spiteful towards younger trans folks in better situations. Younger trans folk I don’t understand. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not an excuse to mistreat them the way I was mistreated. And I’m genuinely glad that they’re living a better life. I have to work on these thoughts, it’s my responsibility. It would be nice, though, to live in a world where I could devote more energy to celebrating our collective existence instead of surviving it.
That being said, I’m grateful for the people here and in person who have stuck by my guns. The people who check in on my when shit gets worse in terms of politics.
What helps most?
What really helps is when people get mad WITH me. For so long I was told my anger was something to be stowed away, to be quietly extinguished with calm words or relieved by some masturbatory exercise of civil discourse. You know. Where you get off to talking civilly but don’t actually get anywhere and you still have to live in a world that was just as transphobic as before. I just want people to be pissed WITH me. To share in my anger and frustration. To join me as I slam the desk, flip the table, and cry to the heavens,
This fucking sucks
Right now this matters to me even more than action. These check ins, sharing in my anger - it helps, it really does. Makes me feel less alone in the world.
#Trevor screams#Trevor talks#Godspeed if you got through this absolute motherfucker of a vent#tw: vent#tw: transphobia#TW: internalized transphobia#TW: some suggestive language towards the end#Florida#Florida bathroom bill#trans bathrooms#ron desantis
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TW: canon-typical discussion of genitals (something I never thought I’d say this about a Barbie movie).
SPOILERS AHEAD
I didn’t break up with anyone over this movie, but it did resensitize me to a lot of cruelty I’ve experienced as an AFAB. The “impossible to be a woman” monologue had me literally, LITERALLY sobbing in my friend’s arms. No exaggeration.
Also the movie is surprisingly applicable to the trans experience as well. The part where Barbie explains to total strangers (the creepy construction workers) that Ken and she don’t have genitals is… surprisingly relatable. All with that (forgive the pun) plastic smile and awkward tension.
Been there, sister. The way total strangers think they’re entitled to know about what’s in your pants is an unfortunate thing that comes with being not cis. Like, there are so many more things you could know about me. I’m an artist. A writer. A casual gamer, occasionally. I can use my hands to make fart noises that last up to thirty seconds.
So many fascinating things to know.
Like music to my ears
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𓆩 𓉸 𓆪 Kinktober 2024
• MDNI! porn with little plot
• all of these are x reader with no use of y/n
• both female and gender neutral readers featured
꒰33k+ words total꒱
1st. — “Hotter than a Burning Fire”
-> Face sitting + Inexperience, Robin Buckley
2nd. — “Give and Take”
-> Squirting + Edging, Steve Harrington
3rd. — “Bite her Hip”
-> Caught + Hate Sex, Nancy Wheeler
4th. — “Yer Killin’ Me”
-> Boot Worship, Arthur Morgan
5th. — “Girls on Film”
-> Being Filmed, Mickey Altieri
6th. — “Heaven in Your Mouth”
-> Throat Fucking + Breath Play, Rafe Cameron
7th. — “Closer”
-> Mutual Masturbation + Forbidden, Robin Buckley
8th. — “Oh Honey”
-> First Time + Domination, Kurt Kunkle
9th. — “Hearts a Mess”
-> Public Sex + Gag, Art Donaldson
10th. — “Ghosting”
-> Under the table, Javier Peña
11th. — “Burning For You”
-> Sleepy Sex + Cockwarming, Sejanus Plinth
12th. — “She’s in Parties”
-> High sex, Rafe Cameron
13th. — “Melting With You”
-> Double Penetration, Stu and Mickey
14th. — “As You Are”
-> 69, Ellie Williams
15th. — “Of Love For Love”
-> Cream Pie + Cum Play, John ‘Soap’ MacTavish
16th. — “Maneater”
-> Dacryphilia + Masochism, Kurt Kunkle
17th. — “What I Need”
-> Degradation + Cum Eating, Ethan Landry
18th. — “I was made for loving you”
-> Praise Kink + Body Worship, Steve Harrington
19th. — “Takin’ Time”
-> Spanking + Orgasm Denial, Joel Miller
20th. — “Sweet As Whiskey”
-> Blood Kink + Period, Vampire!Eddie Munson
21st. — “Wind You Up”
-> Hair Pulling + Rough Sex, Trevor (Hellraiser)
22nd. — “Eyes On Me”
-> Bondage + Femdom, Agent Whiskey
23th. — “Show and I’ll Learn”
-> Sex Toys, Robin Buckley
24th. — “If You Knew”
-> Overstimulation + Wet Dream, Joel Miller
25th. — “Hell And You”
-> Mask Kink + Knife Kink, Stu Macher
26th. — “You’ve Got Me Now”
-> Dry Humping + Tipsy Sex, Eddie Munson
27th. — “Happy Birthday, Baby”
-> Lingerie + On The Counter, Walter ‘Keys’ McKey
28th. — “Quit While Ahead”
-> Pussy slapping, Rafe Cameron
29th. — “Love My Way”
-> Scissoring, Tara Carpenter
30th. — “Suck It Up”
-> Marking + Possessiveness, Love Quinn
31st. — “Body Electric”
-> Cucking + Breeding Kink, Eddie Munson and Steve Harrington
taglist closed!
#kinktober#kinktober masterlist#kinktober 2024#smut writing#smut#stranger things x reader#arthur morgan x reader#scream x reader#rafe cameron x reader#kurt kunkle x reader#art donaldson x reader#javier peña x reader#sejanus plinth x reader#the last of us x reader#john soap mactavish x reader#trevor hellraiser x reader#walter keys mckey x reader#love quinn x reader#steve harrington x reader#robin buckley x reader#eddie munson x reader#nancy wheeler x reader#ethan landry x reader#mickey altieri x reader#stu macher x reader#joel miller x reader#ellie williams x reader
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nhl as textposts.. offseason is driving me crazy
#matthew tkachuk#brady tkachuk#connor bedard#trevor zegras#cole caufield#connor mcdavid#leon draisaitl#nathan mackinnon#william nylander#travis konecny#mattdrai#sidney crosby#roope hintz#evgeni malkin#mitch marner#patrick marleau#auston matthews#jack hughes#jamie drysdale#i want hockey back... haha im chill im fine *screams and throws up*#hockey textposts
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legally obligated to draw trevor’s stupid little costume in The Most Lamentable because it’s perfect
#the goes wrong show#tgws#mischief theatre#mischief comedy#trevor watson#chris leask#my art#only noticed once i started drawing that he’s still wearing his silly combat boots#they dragged him into those little poofy pants kicking and screaming lmao
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Me again. Just curious.
Regarding school, what subjects did you not enjoy at all.
For me it was IT and computing.
I know how to work a computer and use it, sure.
But if you had to ask me to explain stuff like programming or CPUs, I’d be completely screwed.
I wasn’t very good at the subject beyond the basics.
And it made me feel incredibly stupid. Outside of that I rarely had any regular trouble with other subjects.
What about you? If it’s okay for me to ask.
TW: use of slurs
Homophobic and transphobic Bible classes were a fuckin nightmare I tell ya (I went to PBAU. Not a great school for the gays but I gay’d the pray away).
Reflecting on my experience there is so funny because my parents hoped it would straighten me out and reconvert me to a Christian.
Instead I got gayer, found out I was trans, became an atheist and later an agnostic witch lmao. Fuckin wild right???
Still, if I hadn’t gone there, I probably would’ve stopped seeing conservatives and Christians as human beings. Going to college there (where parental restriction on how I lived my life was less) I was able to say
Listen. LISTEN. I’m gay. I’m queer. I’m the faggiest of all fags and (later on) the tranniest of all trannies. If that upsets you, you can leave. If that intrigues you but you’re not quite sure about this “whole deal” I don’t mind answering questions. And if you’re like me, welcome to the party!
Like this, I was able to engage in more genuine friendships than when I pretended to be a cishet Christian.
Probably not the answer you were looking for, but it’s what came to mind.
Oh, and I was thankful af to be done with math. After college algebra I’ve never done math again aside from addition and long division.
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he makes me so feral. i need to consume his soul (pos)
#musical beetlejuice x reader#michael myers#kieran duffy#bubba sawyer#kieran duffy x reader#sebastian solace#sean macguire#texas chainsaw massacre#billy loomis#scream#halloween#rdr2#beetlejuice#beetlejuice the musical#beetlejuice the animated series#tcm game#gta v#trevor phillips#michael de santa#trikey#stuilly#billy x stu#stu x billy#scream 1996#stu macher#pressure#roblox pressure#sebastian pressure#johnny sawyer#sebastian solace x reader
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When I was in Texas I felt on edge being out in the open because Texas, but there was one trailer with a rainbow flag and I always made sure to skate by it whenever I felt unsafe.
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oh i’m absolutely screaming rn
#actually screaming crying and throwing up rn#trevor zegras#jack hughes#quinn hughes#anaheim ducks#new jersey devils#vancouver canucks#nhl#hughes brothers
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Btw, I know it’s a video, but
This is a baroque painting to me.
#not renaissance! baroque#🪲#smosh#smosh pit#smosh courtney#smosh shayne#smoshblr#smoshpit#trevor evarts#courtney miller#shayne topp#reddit stories#reading reddit stories#smosh reddit stories#screaming#cw screaming
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Something about this video was so comforting. The humor, the in-depth talk, literally every moment felt like you were part of a sleepover and was in the room itself
#Also Spencer and Alex as the parents coming up at midnight to scream FALL ASLEEP#also underrated trevor moments?#courtney miller#angela giarratana#trevor evarts#damien haas#anthony padilla#spencer agnew#alex tran#smosh#smosh games#smoshblr
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#next to normal#next to normal uk#caissie levy#eleanor worthington cox#jack wolfe#jamie parker#jack ofrecio#trevor dion nicholas#ahhhhhhhhh#some of these are so freaking cool#and I'm screaming at some of the changes#the new i'm alive (reprise) choreo? Diana with her head in Gabe's lap after probably i am the one?
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We need a Scream video game im the style of DBD/F13/TCM/etc, mixed with Among Us.
I want a game full of characters from the movies (including especially my useless faves). You have them run around like chickens trying to survive Ghostface, all while players have to work together to figure out who Ghostface is.
Ghostface players can be solo (a la Scream 3), an Iconic Duo, or a team of 3-4. And any character can be a killer! Maybe you can pick different motives? Each character will have 2-3 preset motives you can choose from, including the canon motive for canon GFs.
I want them to be voiced by the actual actors. And I want them to have special voice lines with each other; at least characters who have some form of relationship, for sure.
#scream#ghostface#billy loomis#stu macher#sidney prescott#tatum riley#mickey altieri#hallie mcdaniel#nancy loomis#roman bridger#angelina tyler#jill roberts#charlie walker#robbie mercer#trevor sheldon#amber freeman#richie kirsch#tara carpenter#vince schneider#liv mckenzie#wes hicks#mindy meeks martin#chad meeks martin#wayne bailey#quinn bailey#ethan landry#danny brackett#scream series#horror games#txt
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harvey mentoring mike is actually peak level hotness
#SCREAMING#THIS IS SO HOT#harvey specter#s01e05#suits tv#suits usa#and yet dude still goes and bails trevor out#WALKS INTO A ROOM WHERE THERE R PPL WITH GUNS#!?!?!?!?!!?
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A lot of this hits waaaay the hell home. Half the time I can’t talk about my friends because they use pronouns differing from those associated with their gender assigned at birth and then I kinda have to either dance around using it or hope it’s a good day to where pronoun usage is ignored.
For the record, I’ve all but given up being properly gendered myself
complicated relationships with your parents are like. you cut up fruit and bring it to my room without me asking. i can't remember the last time you told me that you were proud of me. you told me i wasn't good enough for you but i'm not even good enough for myself. your hugs feel like coming home. i can't tell you anything that happens in my life. i doubt myself every day because of something you said to me when i was eight. would you like to hear about my day? please don't ask me about my day. i miss you even though you're in the next room. i wish we didn't live together. i've never loved or resented anyone as much as i've loved and resented you. are you okay? are we okay? are we ever going to be okay?
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My blog is generally pretty lighthearted and I stick to reblogging art and fic and fun stuff, but you know what. I feel like I need to say this.
I am a trans teen in the US. I'm seventeen, so too young to have voted. I'm terrified for my life right now. I usually post about college but I'm actually concurrently enrolled in high school still and the kid who sits behind me in first period government is a massive Trump fanboy. I'm going to have to go to high school Monday and talk about the election. I'm going to have to hear my deadname called and hear people in my super conservative high school talk about how happy they are Trump won. Everything is terrifying. I walk outside of my house and I'm scared I'll be shot. Several months ago I promised that I'd kill myself if that bastard won.
He did and I'm still here.
I'm not thriving. I'm not living my best life. I'm barely living. But I'm surviving. I'm coping. I'm trying my goddamned best. It's hard. I want so bad to just go and take as much medication as I can and slit my wrist for good measure and pass away in my sleep. But I'm still here. And I will be here.
I am in so much pain. But I'm living on spite and determination and everything I can scrape together. I know I need support and those around me need support. So consider this a support masterpost.
Support:
First thing you should see if you're a trans person in the US.
Here's a link to the Trevor Project and here's a link to their suicide hotline page. They've already saved my life once before. Please note - they recommend calling if you need immediate support. Donate if you can, please.
This post is both a suicide hotline masterlist and a post mentioning how something feels deeply wrong here with this election.
On the topic of something being wrong, sign this petition. I'm only seventeen but I did this and it might not feel like much but if we couldn't shoot that bastard (I am not pro-gun but I am when it comes to him) then we'll do the next best thing. Here's the link to the petition itself. Make sure to check the post every once in a while - the original petition got taken down and this is important.
I follow a lot of gimmick blogs, so I got to see this post encouraging us to be loud. Because we should be. Because if we die they've won and my mom didn't smoke weed on the steps of the state capital of Colorado to legalize it just so her son could roll over and die.
Here is the Tumblr Hot Beverage Masterpost, as I've taken to calling it. My personal favorites are the London Fog in the replies, earl grey with milk, honey, and vanilla (in the tags), and some additions from me are hot chocolate with peppermint melted into it, earl grey with lavender, caramel apple tea, and really anything else you can think of. Trust me. This post works better than you think.
Read this post if you haven't seen it already. It's half poem, half Tumblr being Tumblr, all wonderful to read.
Things I just like to see:
PM Seymour and Bettina Levy both have shown their support for everyone struggling right now. It might not be much, but I still really appreciate it and seeing support can really help.
The cat with the kind and reassuring face. No other context.
Four panel comic of hope. Because you're more than enough.
Can't find the post where I found this but this is a link to a virtual toy where you can make your own galaxy.
Please. Eat something. Drink a hot beverage. Draw, write, read, knit, sew, sculpt, bake, do something that helps. Reach out to friends, even if they're online friends. Talk to someone you trust. Make vent art. Write vent fics. It doesn't matter what you do as long as it helps.
Do not roll over and die. Live. Live on spite. Live on determination. Live on shitposts and live on heartfelt stories like this one. If you have anything to add to this post please do. Add more resources. Add more love to this post. I know I'm just a guy on the internet saying shit, but I still care about everyone who sees this post.
#screaming out of the abyss#transgender#election 2024#2024 election#support#trans#transblr#trans rights#fuck trump#survive please#support masterlist#support masterpost#encouragement#please reblog#trans rights are human rights#serious post#mental health resources#trevor project#ftm trans#trans story#say it while we can#donald trump#trump 2024#trump#president trump#election results#stress
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