#Toxic ex!AU
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Demons in my head. (I'm obsessed with the idea that Ghost has a toxic ex.) WIP.
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I love mabel and bill and i want to see them being bffs but i cannot see an interaction between them going any way other than this
#mabel has so much kindness in her heart but not for bill#mabel hates toxic exes#dipper is âI will kill you billâ#mabel is âI will make your life hell if you dont change and grow as a personâ#bill finds mabel much more threatening#handyman bill au#bill gravity falls#gravityfalls#gravity falls#bill cipher#the book of bill#book of bill#billford#mabel pines#gravity falls mabel#gf mabel#gravityfalls fanart#my art#digital art#art#krita#digital aritst
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An AU where Sylus is your new tall, dark, and handsome neighbor.
Heâs an enigma until you bump into him a few times at the mailboxes, community gym, front office, supermarket, etc. With time, you realize he isnât as intimidating as he looks. Heâs just a big, goofy softie with a penchant for music and eating food.
Eventually, as you become more acquainted with your neighbor, you invite him into your apartment. For small things at firstâa cup of coffee here, a movie there. You canât help the pull you feel towards him. Heâs good-looking, his voice is devastating, has a disarming aura, and heâs good with his hands.
Instead of inviting the creep of a maintenance man to fix things around your apartment, you employ Sylus with the promise of warm meals and good company.
He has no issues repairing your squeaky dryer, stubborn dishwasher, garbage disposal, and any other miscellaneous things that break in your abode. Heâs also a pretty good cook and sometimes speaks to you in different languages when youâre both a little tipsy on your couch.
Donât ask him to sing, though. Gods, you nearly shat yourself from laughing the first time you discovered he couldnât hold a tune to save his life.
You often wait on your balcony at night for him to return to his place so you can greet him in the parking lot. Sometimes, heâs gone for weeks at a time, or he comes home really late at night. He rarely leaves before sunset, always catching you in the breezeway with a disarming smile and a husky âHello, sweetie.â
You donât press him about what he does for a livingâhe once off-handedly mentioned that he works in real estate. However, you donât know what part of that profession causes him to come home, sometimes littered with scars and bruises, in the wee hours of the morning.
Regardless, heâs a treat to be around. You find yourself craving for more than just those smug smiles and your thighs accidentally brushing together whilst seated on your couch and talking. But you donât think youâd have a chance in hell with a guy like him. He seems married to his work more than anything.
Follow-up fic here.
#sylus x reader#sylus x you#neighbor au#neighbors to friends#friends to lovers#sylus#fic ideas#love and deepspace sylus#lads sylus#lnds sylus#l&ds sylus#something something he steps in when your toxic ex tries to bully his way into your house#or comes to your apartment to make you soup when he finds out youâre sick
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#zu art#comic#post dark cream#nightmare!sans#passive!nightmare#ink!sans#aim!sans#cross!sans#dream!sans#undertale#undertale au#utmv#oh no the toxic exes are at it againâ /j xd
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someone who lets you break them twice - hockey!ex!rafe - part two
warnings: angst đĽ°
You shouldnât be here.
Itâs stupid. Dangerous, even.
Thatâs all you can think as you stand at the bar, fingers tapping nervously against your glass. Itâs packed, the typical crowd buzzing after another one of the games. Itâs the usual fans, players, and people whoâve never touched a hockey stick in their life but still come to bask in the afterglow of a win.Â
Youâd sworn after the last time â after that night â you wouldnât let yourself get sucked back into this. But here you are. Itâs only been three weeks since you accidentally ended up fucking him.
That night after his game, with your date somewhere outside, waiting for you, oblivious. You didnât mean for it to happen. It was supposed to be closure, a final goodbye, whatever excuse youâd fed yourself when you let Rafe pull you into that dark hallway at the stadium. Maybe it was seeing him on the ice again, that high, that intensity, had done something to you. The way heâd stared at you in the stands, like he was winning just to prove something. Like he still had something to prove to you.
Now, youâre actively avoiding him again â which is hard, considering heâs everywhere. On the screens, in the tabloids, in your goddamn head.
âYou okay?â your friend asks, snapping you out of your thoughts.
âYeah, just... crowded,â you lie, forcing a smile. But she knows better, giving you that knowing look that says, Yeah, sure, totally not about your hockey player ex who's right over there.
âUh-huh. Heâs here, isnât he?â She doesnât even have to ask. The answerâs written all over your face.
âI donât care,â you lie. âI justââ
But you donât finish because thatâs when you see him. You take a sip of your drink, scanning the room out of habit. And there he is.
Rafe Cameron, in all his post-game glory, laughing with his teammates like he doesnât have a care in the world. Heâs still wearing part of his team gear like itâs his uniform for life, that stupidly tight team jacket stretched across those broad shoulders you used to run your hands down. His hair is still damp from the shower. He hasnât seen you yet â thank God â but you know itâs only a matter of time.
He always finds you.
You suck in a sharp breath and look away fast, pretending to be deeply invested in whatever drink the bartender is making.
Why did you come here again? To prove a point to yourself? To what, show him youâre unaffected? Stupid. So, so stupid. Heâs a mistake. A mistake wrapped up in six feet of cocky charm.
Your friendâs watching you, probably already figuring out whatâs going through your head, but youâre too focused on him. On the way he throws his head back laughing at something his buddy says. You canât hear it over the music, but you know that laugh too well, you can imagine the sound like clockwork. You should be past this. Youâve had closure. The kind of closure that leaves bruises and bite marks, the kind that shouldnât have happened.
âGirl, you need toââ
âShut up,â you mutter, but thereâs no heat behind it. You know what sheâs going to say. You know exactly what sheâs thinking because itâs the same thing running through your head:Â Why the fuck canât you stay away from him?
âNope,â she says firmly, like sheâs reading your mind. âNot tonight, okay? You said you were done.â
âI am done,â you murmur. Liar, liar, liar.
Itâs downright infuriating how your body reacts to him, even now.
You can feel it in your chest,  something that always pulls you toward him and hasnât let up since the day you first met him. Itâs maddening. Youâll ignore him, just like last time â except, okay, last time didnât exactly work out. But this time will be different. Youâll stay cool, stay calm, stayâ
âLeaving already?â
You freeze, your heart skipping for all the wrong reasons. You could walk away, pretend you didnât hear him. But you donât.
You slowly turn around, and there he is, standing right behind you, eyes on you with that same intensity that always makes it impossible to breathe.
He looks good. Too good. And he knows it.
âWhat do you want?â
He smirks, leaning against the bar like this is just another normal conversation. Like you didnât fuck him three weeks ago after months of silence. Like that didnât mean something.
âCanât say hi to my ex?â He cocks his head, a flicker of amusement in his eyes. âOr are we pretending that didnât happen now?â
You roll your eyes, taking another sip of your drink, trying to appear unbothered. But your body hates you. He steps closer, just enough that you catch the scent of his cologne â that stupid scent that still haunts your bed.
âIâm not pretending anything,â you snap, meeting his gaze. âI have nothing to say to you.â
 âYou were gonna pretend you didnât see me?â
âIâm not doing this with you,â you mutter, turning to leave. But before you can, he grabs your wrist â not hard, but enough to make you pause.Â
âTell me Iâm wrong,â he says, his voice lower now, more serious. His eyes bore into yours, searching for something. âTell me you didnât come here hoping to see me.â
He knows. He fucking knows. Heâs still got you wrapped around his finger, and heâs not even hiding it.
You jerk your hand out of his grip, your jaw clenched tight. âYou think I came here for you?â You can feel your pulse racing, the anger inside, because, fuck, maybe thereâs a part of you that did. âYou think I came here to throw it all away for you?â
He doesnât even flinch. In fact, he steps closer, heâs huge and takes up too much space. âMaybe you just wanted to see me.â
You let out a bitter laugh, shaking your head. âI have seen you, Rafe. You look like shit.â You take a step back, needing space, needing air. âNot everythingâs about you.â
He chooses to ignore your little comment.
âCouldâve fooled me. Youâre still thinking about it, arenât you?â
You know exactly what heâs talking about, and your body betrays you with a flush that spreads up your neck. That night. The way his hands had felt on your skin, the way you hadnât been able to get enough of him.
âIt was the adrenaline,â you snap, refusing to let him get the upper hand. âThatâs all it was.â
âThatâs bullshit,â he fires back immediately, stepping closer again, eyes locked on yours. âYou werenât thinking about the game when you kissed me. Or when you begged me toââ
âShut up,â you hiss, cutting him off, your cheeks burning with rage. âWe both know what happened was a mistake.â
Even as the words leave your mouth, you know how fake they sound. The memory of that night â his body over yours, his hands on you, the heat between youâ
âMistake, huh?â Rafe tilts his head, eyes narrowing as if heâs daring you to say it again. âThat why you couldnât keep your hands off me?â
You want to kill him.
âWe were both high off the win. I wasnât thinking. It didnât mean anything.â
His jaw tightens, and you can see youâre hurting him. He leans down, close enough that his lips almost brush against your ear, and you shiver despite yourself.
âYou werenât thinking when you came apart in my arms, huh? You werenât thinking when you told me you needed me,â he says, his voice a low rasp that makes you clench your thighs.Â
âStop.â Your voice cracks, and you hate yourself for it. You feel like youâre losing control, like youâre getting sucked back into him, the one you swore youâd broken free of.
âYouâre still thinking about it. I know you are,â Rafe murmurs, and his hand slides up your arm, fingers grazing your bare skin.
You swallow hard, pulling back slightly, needing space to think, to breathe. âYouâre not as important as you think.â
He chuckles softly, but thereâs no humor in it. âMaybe not. But Iâm still in your head. You still want me.â
You want to scream, want to shove him, want to do something to make him shut the fuck up because the worst part is, heâs not wrong. Youâre still here, youâre still drawn to him like a magnet, no matter how many times youâve told yourself youâre done.
And you hate him for it. Hate him.
âI donât want you,â you say, but the words come out too weak, like you donât believe them yourself, and Rafeâs eyes glimmer with amusement like he knows you donât.
âThat so?â he murmurs, stepping even closer, crowding you, his presence taking over your personal space in the best and worst way. His hand trails down your arm again, âThen why are you shaking?â
âIâm notââ you start, but before you can finish, his mouth is down on yours.
You donât even think. You donât have time to. One second, youâre angry, and the next, youâre kissing him back like you need him to breathe. Your hands fly to his chest, gripping the fabric of his jacket as you pull him closer. So fucking stupid.
You hate him, but you need him.
His tongue brushes against yours, and you moan into his mouth, hating yourself for how good it feels. Before you know it, heâs already pulling back, tugging you toward the back of the bar, weaving through his teammates with no hesitation, dragging you like you weight nothing.
âRafe,â you hiss, trying to pull back, but heâs not listening. He doesnât have to, he knows youâll follow.
âWhat the fuck are you doing?â you snap, but your voice cracks. Because you know exactly what heâs doing. Youâve been here before. And despite every warning bell going off in your head, your bodyâs already reacting, already wanting this.
He doesnât say a word at first, just spins you around and pins you against the door, his body pressing against yours, so close you can feel the hard lines of his muscles, the heat radiating off him. You open your mouth to argue, to push him away, to remind yourself why this is a bad idea â but then his lips are on yours again, and everything falls apart.
Rafeâs breath is hot against your neck, hands gripping your waist like every inch of space between you is unbearable. Youâve barely had time to catch your breath from him pinning you against the wall, his lips crashing into yours like heâs drowning in the kiss, like youâre still his to touch, to hold, to ruin.
And God, it feels like you are.Â
Even though every part of you knows this is a bad idea, knows you should have walked away the second you saw him, your body doesnât give a damn. It wants him. Itâs always wanted him. Youâre making out like youâre about to fuck right here in this tiny, dingy hallway, and thereâs no stopping it now.
He yanks your shirt higher, his fingers trailing over your skin in a way that makes you want to forget all the bullshit that came before this. His mouth is on your collarbone now, kissing down, down, like heâs memorizing the way your body reacts to him.Â
âI miss you,â he murmurs.
And itâs like all the airâs been sucked out of your lungs.
You swallow hard, shaking your head, refusing to let yourself believe it. âDonâtâ Donât say that.â
âItâs the truth,â he says, his gaze locked on yours. âI miss you, okay? Iâfuck, I hate this. Hate that youâre not there anymore, that youâreââ He breaks off, sucking in a sharp breath, like heâs struggling to find the words. âThat youâre gone. Like Iâm nothing to you.â
Just as heâs about to move lower, the door flies open. The sound scares you both, and Rafe steps back, his hands falling away from you instantly, leaving you cold, exposed, and pissed.
âShitââ Rafe mutters, straightening up, turning around to face the door. And there she is.
Her.
Sofia, the teamâs physical therapist â and the woman whoâs been at the center of all your doubts, all your insecurities, since she was hired a year ago. The reason you and Rafe broke up in the first place. Sheâs standing in the doorway, eyes flicking between the two of you. But it doesnât matter. The sight of her makes your blood boil.
You freeze, your body going rigid with the shock of it. You canât believe this.Â
Now? Of all times?
Sofiaâs eyes move to Rafe, and itâs like youâre not even there. Like this isnât the most awkward, tension-filled moment of your fucking life.
âRafe,â she says calmly, too casually, like she hasnât just interrupted whatever this is. âCoach needs you. Itâs important.â
Rafe tenses, and for a second, he looks torn. But only for a second.
You can feel your chest tightening, your hands curling into fists at your sides. Itâs always been like this. The way he looks at her, the way he drops everything for her, how they have this whole connection you were never part of. And it hits you again â she knew things about him you didnât. Important things. Things that shouldâve been yours to know first.
You remember the night you found out about the other teamâs offer â how blindsided youâd felt when you saw it on the news. It wasnât even that he rejected the offer. It was the fact that he didnât tell you. Didnât think it was a big deal. But he told her. You feel like throwing up by just thinking about it. The humiliation, the way Sofia had acted like it was normal, like she was so fucking in the loop.Â
And now sheâs here, again, like she always is.
You push past Rafe, your voice cutting through the tension. âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me.â
Rafe turns to you, âItâs not what you think.â
You scoff, eyes burning into his. âNot what I think?â You can feel the fury bubbling up, your chest tightening with every breath. âDo you think Iâm fucking stupid, Rafe?â You look between him and Sofia, your stomach churning at how casual she looks. Like sheâs used to this. Used to being thereâin the middle of things she has no business being in.
Sheâs standing there all cool and collected, glances between the two of you like this is just another day at work, another harmless interruption. She even has the nerve to offer you a tight, professional smile. Like sheâs the fucking victim. Like she hasnât been the fucking problem all along.
âShould I go?â she asks, voice sweet and calm, like sheâs offering to leave a fucking brunch.
That does it. You snap. The adrenaline from the fight, from being caught, from everything just crashes through you like a wave. You glare at her, feeling your pulse race with rage.
"Are you fucking serious?" you spit, stepping forward, your voice shaking with barely contained rage. âShould you go? You shouldnât be here. Ever. Youâre not wanted.â Every word drips with venom, and the look on Sofiaâs face changes slightly. She knows sheâs hit a nerve.
She always does.
Rafe reaches out like heâs going to grab your arm, to stop you from escalating, but you pull back hard. You canât even look at him right now.
âDonât fucking touch me.â
You canât believe this is happening. Again.
Rafeâs face falls, like he didnât expect you to react this way, like he hasnât been a complete idiot for months. You step back, creating as much space as you can between you, him, and her.
âWow,â You laugh bitterly, the sound hollow even to your own ears. âThis is why weâre here. This right here. You, herââ You wave your hand dismissively at Sofia, who still stands there, too composed for what this moment is. âYouâre so fucking blind.â
He looks like he wants to say something, to defend himself, but no words come out. Good.
Youâre tired of hearing his excuses anyway.
âI donât get why you couldnât just talk to me,â you continue, feeling the familiar burn of tears threatening to sting your eyes. But you wonât give either of them the satisfaction of seeing you cry. Not now. âBut no, you had to go to her. Sheâs your go-to, right? You tell her everything. She makes you feel better, right?â
âI didnât mean for it to happen like that,â he finally mutters, his voice low, strained. âI rejected the offer. It wasnât a big deal.â
âNot a big deal?â You let out a bitter laugh, shaking your head in disbelief. âOf course, it was a big deal, Rafe. I was supposed to be the last to know? You think just because you rejected it, it didnât fucking matter?â
Sofia clears her throat, shifting her weight uncomfortably, but you ignore her, your eyes still locked on Rafe. You canât believe how casual heâs being about all of this, like your feelings were an afterthought. Like you were an afterthought.
âAnd youââ You turn to Sofia now, your voice laced with venom. âYou knew the entire time. You both did.â
Sofia opens her mouth, but Rafe cuts her off. âStop,â he says, his voice sharp. âJust... stop.â
âNo, you donât get to do that,â you snap, stepping back, keeping the distance between you. âYou donât get to look at me like that. Like Iâm the one being unreasonable. I loved you, Rafe. I trusted you. And you broke that. You broke me.â
This is between you and Rafe, and sheâs just a reminder of everything that went wrong, of all the things he kept from you.
With a bitter laugh, you grab your jacket from the floot and push past them both, your heart pounding in your chest. âI hope youâre happy together,â you mutter, not looking back as you storm out of the bathroom, out of the bar, out of his life.
You storm out of the bar, your pulse ripping in your ears, heart slamming against your chest like itâs trying to break free from whatever this is. The cool night air hits your skin, but it does nothing to calm the heat in your body. You can still feel his hands on you, his mouth, the way he pulled you in like nothing had changed, like it was still him and you against the world. But nothing is the same anymore. He isnât yours to touch, and youâre not his to ruin. You canât keep doing this to yourself, letting him in just to tear you apart all over again.
Your phone buzzes in your pocket, and you pull it out, staring at the screen. Itâs a text from your friend, asking if youâre okay. You blink, forcing yourself to take a breath. Right. Yeah. Iâm fine. Just needed some air. Iâll be back in a sec. Lie after lie after lie.
Youâre done. For real this time. Youâve said it before, told yourself that you were finished with Rafe, but it never stuck. This time though? You donât think you could go back even if you wanted to.
Youâre tired. Tired of fighting, tired of waiting for him to figure his shit out, tired of being second to someone else. Sofiaâs just a reminder of all the ways heâs failed you, of the times he left you hanging in the worst way. But itâs not just her â itâs him. Itâs always been him and the way he never truly opened up to you. Not the way you needed him to.
Your chest hurts so fucking bad as the tears finally start to blur your vision, but you donât stop walking. You donât look back. Not this time. You donât make it more than a few steps before you hear it â his voice, calling your name. Loud, desperate.
You curse under your breath, not daring to turn around, but heâs quick. His footsteps are fast, catching up to you before you can get too far.
âWait!â Rafeâs hand grabs your arm, pulling you to a stop.
You spin around, ripping your arm from his grip, âDonât you fucking dare. Let me go, Rafe.â
He doesnât. His eyes are frantic, like he knows he already lost but isnât willing to admit it. âNo, weâre not doing this again. You donât just get to walk away like that.â
âLike what?â You scoff, wiping at your eyes with the back of your hand. âLike Iâm tired of the same bullshit with you? Like Iâm finally done playing this game?â
âYou donât mean that.â Thereâs something rin the way heâs looking at you, something that makes you almost hate him more. Because heâs right â you donât mean it. Not fully. And thatâs the worst part.
âDonât tell me what I mean, Rafe,â you spit, shoving his chest. He barely moves. âStop,â you snap, pushing him again. âJust stop. You canât keep doing this, showing up, pulling me back in, pretending like you care when itâs convenient for you.â
âI do care.â He runs his hands through his hair, exasperated, âWhy do you think Iâm here right now?â
âBecause you hate not being in control,â you spit back, chest heaving. âBecause you hate it when things arenât on your terms.â
âThatâs not it,â he growls, stepping closer again. Heâs towering over you now, but you donât back down. âYou think I donât fucking hate this too? You think this is easy for me? Iâm trying, alright. I fucked up, but Iâm trying.â
You laugh, but thereâs no humor in it. âTrying? Trying is telling me the truth. Trying is not keeping me in the dark while you run off to herââ
He cuts you off, stepping even closer, until you can smell the familiar scent of his cologne again, âYou brought a fucking date to my game!â
âAfter we broke up,â You hiss, shoving a hand against his shoulder, âGod fucking knows what you did with her while we were together.â
Rafe  grabs your wrist, pulling you back toward him. "Nothing happened with her," he snaps, his grip tightening for a second before he lets go, as if realizing heâs too close. "I never touched her."
You pull away, anger boiling over. "Does it even matter? You kept her close, closer than you kept me. You told her things! About us, like sheâs some fucking therapist.âÂ
He reaches for you again, his hand hovering near your arm before he drops it. "I never meant for you to find out like that. I swear, I was trying to figure it all outâ"
"Figure it out?!" You laugh, but itâs broken. "Rafe, you made me feel like I didnât matter. Like I was some... some extra piece in your life. But with her? You told her everything. What was I to you?"
He shakes his head, frustration evident. "You were everything! You are everything. But I didnât want to put you through it. All the shit with the team, with the offerâ"
"Thatâs not your decision to make!" you shout, the words tearing through you. "You donât get to choose whatâs hard for me, what I can handle. I couldâve been there for you. We couldâve done it together, but you shut me out. And now you expect me to justâwhat? Let it go because you say you didnât mean it?"
He stares at you, his chest heaving, his jaw clenched. You can see the conflict in his eyes, the same old battle heâs always foughtâwanting you but not knowing how to let you in. His hands curl into fists at his sides, and for a moment, it looks like he might say somethingâsomething real.Â
"Why didnât you tell me how you felt?" he asks quietly, his voice almost pleading. "If you were hurting this much, why didnât youâ"
"Why didnât I?!" You cut him off, tears brimming in your eyes now. "Because you didnât give me a chance, Rafe! You made it clear you didnât need me like that. I thought maybe if I just held on a little longer, you'd let me in. You chose her, Rafe. You always choose her.â
âI didnât choose her,â he says through gritted teeth, and thereâs something desperate in his tone. âIâm standing right here. You think I like seeing you like this?â
âThen why do you keep doing it? Why canât you just let me go?â
âI canât,â he says, his voice strained, like the words are being ripped out of him. He grabs your hand, softer this time, âBecause Iâm still in love with you. Iâve never stopped.â
You remember all the half-truths, all the nights you waited for him to choose you.
You shake your head, âYou only love me when itâs convenient. When you need me.â
âI told her things because I didnât want to hurt you,â Rafe snaps, âI thought I was protecting you, keeping shit from getting messy.â
You laugh bitterly, shaking your head in disbelief. âProtecting me? You let her in, told her things you shouldâve told me. You think thatâs protecting me?â
His face contorts with something like regret, but youâre not sure if itâs enough to change anything. His chest is heaving, eyes wide and wild.
But then he just blurts out, âYou kissed Elijah.â
You freeze.
Of all the things he couldâve said.
âYou think thatâs why weâre here right now?â
He doesnât answer, just stares at you like youâve ripped something out of him. Like you kissing someone else, even for a second kills him.
âYou were already gone. We werenât together.â
He flinches, âSo, what? You kissed him to get back at me?â
âWhat the hell does Elijah have to do with any of this. You know what? Yes, I did. Because you didnât even fight for us.â
âI didnât fight for us?â he growls. âYou broke up with me without even giving me a chance to explain. You didnât even let me try to fix it. You just walked away.â
You ended things so quickly, so coldly, because you couldnât handle the idea of fighting for someone who wasnât fighting back. You didnât even give him the chance to explain.Â
âYou think I didnât want to fight for you?â His voice cracks, and for the first time, you see real pain behind his eyes. âI was trying to keep my shit together, trying to balance everything, and I fucked up, okay? But I never wanted to lose you.â
âDonât fuckingâ â
âI watched you kiss him. I couldnât fucking look away.â He interrupts it physically hurts him to admit it. âI was right there, front and center, like an idiot. And I still needed you after that. Do you know what that felt like? Watching you with him, like I didnât even exist anymore?â He swallows, his jaw working overtime as he tries to hold it together, but you can see the cracks forming. âIt was like everything that I didnât say, everything I was too fucking scared to admit... it didnât even matter. You just moved on.â
âElijah doesnât matter, okay? He never mattered. But youââ You pause, the words dying in your throat, because you donât want to say it, donât want to give him the satisfaction of knowing how deep heâs cut you. But you say it anyway. âYouâre the one who made me feel like I didnât matter. You donât get it, do you?â Your voice is hoarse, worn from fighting, from trying to make him understand something heâs never been willing to face. âThis isnât about Elijah or Sofia or any of that. Itâs about you. Itâs about how you make me feel like Iâm always one step behind, always waiting for you to choose me when I shouldnât have to beg for it.â
His eyes well up, and for the first time, you see it â those emotions heâs kept locked away for so long. His lips tremble as he tries to say something, but the words get stuck, like heâs choking on everything heâs never been able to say before.
âI know,â he finally whispers, voice breaking. âI know itâs my fault.â His hands fall to his sides, defeated, and the tears spill over. âI didnât want to hurt you. I didnât want you to see me like this⌠weak.â
Your chest tightens as you watch him, his face crumpling in a way youâve never seen. This man who was always so put together, so guarded, unraveling right in front of you. You never thought you'd see him cry â not like this. Not in front of you.Â
He takes a shaky breath, his voice barely a whisper now. âYou were always so strong. So⌠so good. And I was terrified, okay? Terrified that if I let you see the real me, the part of me thatâs so fucked up, youâd leave. That youâd realize Iâm not enough. Not for you.â
His words hit you like a punch in the gut, and suddenly youâre not as angry as you thought youâd be. Youâre just... tired.
âRafeâŚâ you whisper, but the words stick in your throat, caught between wanting to comfort him and wanting to protect yourself.
âI know I fucked up,â he continues, his voice breaking with every word. âI pushed you away because I didnât know how to be what you needed. I didnât know how to let you in. And now youâre gone, and itâs my fault.â He wipes at his face, but the tears keep coming, his chest heaving with the weight of it all. âBut I love you. I love you more than Iâve ever loved anyone, and Iâm begging you for one more chance. Please.â
You donât know what to say. Youâve dreamed about this moment â him finally opening up, letting you see him. But now that itâs happening, it doesnât feel the way you thought it would. You donât feel victorious or relieved. You just feel... sad.
You want to believe that heâs changed, that this time will be different. But then you remember all the nights you spent alone, waiting for him to come home.
âI donât know if I can do this again,â you whisper, your voice trembling. âI donât know if I can go through this with you, only to end up back here. Hurt. Broken.â
âIâll change,â he says desperately, stepping closer to you, his hands reaching out but stopping just short of touching you. âIâll do whatever it takes. I canât lose you, not like this. Please.â His voice cracks again, and for the first time, you see it â the fear in his eyes. Heâs terrified. Terrified of losing you for good.Â
But youâre terrified too. Youâre scared of giving him your heart again, only for him to break it.
âYou donât get it. I canât keep waiting for you to figure your shit out while Iâm left in pieces. I deserve more than that. I deserve someone who isnât afraid to love me the way I deserve.â
His face crumples again, and he swallows hard, trying to hold back the sobs threatening to break free. âYou do,â he whispers. âYou do deserve that. And I swear, Iâll be that for you. Iâll be better. Let me fix it,â he pleads, âPlease.â
âFix what?â you shake your head, âThis isnât something you can patch up with pretty words or promises. I donât trust you. Do you get that? I donât trust us. You say you love me, but love isnât supposed to feel like this. Itâs not supposed to make me feel like Iâm breaking every time I look at you.â
His shoulders slump, and for a second, he looks almost boyish, like a child whoâs just realized heâs ruined his favorite toy. âYouâre everything to me. I thought I was protecting you, but I see now that I was just... I was just pushing you away. Let me try.â
You close your eyes, the tears finally slipping down your cheeks as you shake your head. âI donât know if you can.â
âPlease,â he whispers again, âDonât leave me. I-I canât do this without you.â
You donât know who you are without him either. Heâs been such a part of you, woven into your heart in ways that canât just be undone. Your heart breaks all over again, because youâve wanted to hear those words for so long â needed him to need you the way you needed him. But now? You already left.
You wipe at your face with the back of your hand, trying to calm yourself. You canât fall apart now, not when youâre finally seeing things clearly.
âIâm not leaving because I donât love you,â you say softly, each word feeling like a knife to your chest. âIâm leaving because I do. But I canât keep waiting for you to be the person I need. I canât keep putting myself through this. You had so many chances to let me in, and every time, you chose to shut me out.â
Rafe looks like heâs about to argue, but then his face crumples, his shoulders slumping forward as he covers his face with his hands. Heâs breaking, right in front of you, and it takes every ounce of strength you have not to fall apart with him. He looks at you like youâve just ripped his heart out of his chest.Â
âGod, Iâm sorry,â he sobs, his voice muffled behind his hands. âIâm so fucking sorry.â
You swallow hard, your throat tightening as the tears keep coming. Youâve heard his apologies before â after every argument, every time he made you feel small and insignificant, heâd say he was sorry. But those words have lost their meaning.
âI know,â you whisper. âI know youâre sorry. But weâre not good for each other right now.â
âI love you,â he whispers, âI love you so fucking much.â
You bite your lip, tasting the salt of your own tears as you choke back a sob. âI know. And I love you too.Â
#rafe cameron#rafe cameron x reader#rafe cameron x you#rafe fic#rafe cameron au#rafe cameron fanfiction#rafe cameron fluff#rafe x reader#hockey!rafe#ex!rafe#toxic!rafe#rafe x female!mc#rafe cameron x female reader#rafe imagine#rafe cameron imagines#rafe cameron imagine#rafe angst#rafe cameron angst#rafe x y/n#rafe obx#obx rafe cameron#requested#rafe outer banks#outerbanks rafe#rafe cameron outer banks#rafe cameron one shot#rafe cameron obx#rafe x you#rafe fanfiction#angst
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Bittersweet ! đ
mdni <3
series masterlist
~ in which Ellie breaks up with you and you go a little crazy ~
ex! ellie williams x fem! reader , abby anderson x fem! reader
college au!
warnings: angst, break up, cheating!!, cursing, toxic behavior, smut in future chapters <3 feminine and girly reader ,not proof read!!
To say that you were nervous was an understatement, you and Ellie have been on edge ever since you moved to seattle for college. At first you werenât going to apply for this university in particular but Ellie begged you to because she didnât want to do this without you, there were times in your relationship where she couldnât even breathe if you werenât in a 2 meter radius from her. Youâve been together for almost three years now, itâs been roughly four months since youâve moved in together and every day was hell for you since then, not because she treated you badly no..quite the opposite she did nothing, fucking nothing. You noticed her lack of impact in your relationships on a random wednesday when she left for her morning classes without saying anything , she didnât even spare a single glance at you not even a simple hug. At first you tried not to overthink it, maybe she just didnât get enough sleep, maybe she was stressed it was an exams week after all!! Right?? Fuck.. how wrong you were.
So you tried your best to take care of Ellie, you cooked her favorite meals, took her out to see the newest superhero movies, massaged her feet after a long day at her side job, got her some clothes she had been eyeing at a local thrift store, showered her with all your love and affection at all times!! Only that she didnât seem to perceive your efforts at all. Itâs not that she wasnât thankful, you know her she definitely was but still⌠something was very different.
Every time you tried to hug her she kind off..shrugged you off, always trying to find a reason to escape your acts of love. You wanted a kiss? âUhh sorry my lips are too chappedâ âI donât want your lipgloss on meâ âactually i have to goâ you could go on and on. No matter how hard you tried she always pushed you away.
A few minutes ago she texted you that sheâll be home from work soon and that you needed to talkâŚyour heart dropped to your ass but before you suffered an anxiety attack you decided to do your nighttime routine and make yourself look presentable for your talk with Ellie.
âHow the fuck did this go so wrong??â you asked yourself for the 80th time today as you stepped out of your steaming hot shower and wrapped yourself in your soft pink towel. A small laugh escaped your lips as you relived the memory of you as you showed Ellie the things you bought for the apartment, you wanted everything pink and white with a hint of leopard print and Ellie just went with it, no complaints just pure love for you and your girly things. It left a bittersweet taste on your tongue as you locked eyes with your reflection in the mirror while you worked your skin care products into your skin, you were so effortlessly beautiful one would never notice that you were in an unhappy relationship. Your skin was smooth, lips plump and glossy after applying your dior lip oil. You were a true bombshell, you thought to yourself. And damn..you were so right.
Youâve just slipped into your silky pijamas as you heard the front door creak open. You took one last glance in the mirror and fixed your hair before meeting Ellie in the kitchen. She sat by your dining table, the food youâve warmed up for her remained untouched like almost every day. ââm not hungry..â she mumbled, almost too quiet for you to hear so you just put the food back in the fridge. Now youâre sitting right in front of each other, in silence . No one dared to say a word, even though you expected Ellie to start the conversation. You studied her, the way she manspread on the chair, how she was fidgeting with her hands..oh her hands..god you were gonna miss them..though you havenât felt them in months. Okay focus now.. you noticed her troubled facial expressions, she was nervous and scared to look you in the eyes. You loved her eyes so much, they definitely were your favorite shade of green.
âEllie pleaseâ you finally spoke up, your heart raced, daring to jump out of your chest. Your voice has never been so weak, you barely made it without tearing up. The tension only thickened the more she thought about what to say, but you knew exactly what was happening.
âIâm so sorry i just..â she stumbled over her own words, finally meeting your teary eyes. Her heart ached as much as yours but she knew that itâs better this way.. âI canât give you anything back because i.. donât know why but i donât want to anymore i think iâve lost feelings for you a while ago and itâs just.. i canât explain iâm so sorryâ she swore she heard your heart shatter in the exact moment she spoke.
âis it because of your best friend? Whatâs her name?? Dina? Is she the reason for all of this?â
You sobbed, remembering the day Ellie introduced you to her new best friend Dina. She was so nice to you and you got along so well..until Ellie stopped bringing her to your apartment to hang out at her place instead, she claimed that they studied better that way. Yeah studying was definitely what they were doing..no wonder Ellie refused to touch you once Dina was in the picture..it all made sense to you now..fuck this bullshit
âi think i have feelings for her..iâm sorryâ
Ellie couldnât look at you anymore, shame eating her alive as she admitted to her feelings for her best friend. How could she do this to you? She felt crazy and would do anything for your forgiveness. She couldnât stand the thought of not having you in her life anymore, even if itâs just as friends. She liked Dina and sheâd ask her to be her girlfriend soon but.. you didnât need to know that.
âwow..â you scoffed and got up from your seat, tossing her duffel bag in her face. Ellie flinched and you almost laughed at her pathetic attempt to catch the bag before it hit her.
âpack your shit then, i want you gone in the next few minutes and leave the keys. Iâm sure Dina has a nice place for you to stay.â
Ellie noticed the way your eyes darkened, she knew that she was in for a ride after breaking your kind and beautiful heartâŚ
âoh fuckâ
she created a monster
âŚ
to be continued đ
pt 2
#ellie williams#ellie the last of us#ellie x reader#ellie x fem reader#ellie willams x reader#college au#bitter exes#toxic!reader#abby anderson#abby tlou#abby the last of us#ellie fic#light angst#break up#lesbian#cheating#toxic!ellie#tlou smut#ellie williams smut#abby anderson smut#ellie x dina#ex! ellie williams#wlw#wlw smut
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This is when they're finally kind of saying the quiet parts out loud of being into each other and Jayce is the first to step up on it, even tho he was the most adamantly against them being in a relationship initially. đ lol Idiot. Now he's gone and gotten all smitten...
I don't get to draw Jayce non-demon as much, but have been getting more used to it! He's just wearing a glamour here when he gave her a ride home. They end up finally kissing and all that shortly after lol
#Daniel Spellbound#Jayce Chinda#Lucy Santana#Jacy#Bleeding Magic AU#my art#my comics#she thought she was gonna have to get her baton ready to beat him and it took a turn lol#also she's referring to her hella toxic ex that was her last relationship...
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On a scale of 1 to Belos, how toxic is Romeo in your Gunntech AU? (Also what type of stuff did he do when he and Connor were âfriendsâ?)
Toxicity probably like 7 or 8 đđ. He lovebombed Connor and then devalued him, did minor experiments on him which left him with scars and whatnot, isolated him from the others.
#pj masks#fanart#gunntech au#digitalart#ama#myart#romecon#is that their ship name?#I donât ship them though#they are baaad for each other#okay well mostly Romeo#toxic exes
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Dude I'm just tryna enjoy my Arcane phase, WHY IS VOLTRON COMING BACK???
Yet again, my dumbass Voltron AU I'm too lazy to make into a fic on AO3 for because I want to get to the exciting parts fast, infests my brain.
Yes, we get Space Keith in THAT au, thanks alot arcane for making me interested in space yaoi, now I'm gonna be forced to incorporate that into everything
Shoutout to those two people who actually wants a fic based on my shitposting voltron dreams (Thanks, @alohaasaloevera and @queengeni for supporting my delusions)
#Voltron is like a toxic ex i keep coming back to every few years#except now it isn't on netflix#so I have to purely rely on youtube videos tiktoks and#oh god#fandom wikis#yikes#voltron keith#keith kogane#keith voltron#galra keith#vld keith#keith x lance#voltron au#voltron#voltron fanart#viktor arcane#arcane#jayvik#jayce talis#i guess i tag jayce aswell#if this post flops im gonna cry#this piece took 3 hours#đ#klance#galtean klance#i think I just spoiled a bunch of stuff with that last tag#nobody reads the extra notes anyway
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The Doctor𩺠and the Grim Reaperđ!
#fleetway#sonic the comic#fleetway comics#Vermin the cybernik#Shortfuse the cybernik#Shorty the squirrel#AU material#the I'll get my ex back one body at a time arc#Happy Halloween!#2 out 3#No one but me and two other people care about these two#but I will continue to push for the toxic yaoi
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So, it's Happy International Lesbian Day.
What are you gonna do these two?
#HERE'S HOW I DEPICT THEIR HUMAN HEIGHT#Femuto is taller than Mothra#Mothra doesn't like Femuto because Femuto wanted to claim Goji as her own despite Goji is Mothra's husband#meh whatsoever imagine if Mothra and Femuto were...ex-yuris in the past before separating#toxic yuri#godzilla#mothra#femuto#MUTO#monsterverse#kaiju#godzilla 2014#godzilla king of the monsters#godzilla kotm#legendary pictures#toho#human au#humanized version#au#gijinka
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A gravity falls au made by birdsmilk1 on TikTok that I drew as a gift for their birthday ^^
âWhat makes you think..just because he is dead that this is over? I am hungry for your demise.â
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Sinner Cinder for the Exorcist Neo AU đĽ
She's so damaged because she probs survived an Exorcist once- the arm is a parasitic demon thing provided to her by Salem, which I'm gonna headcanon as a witch before she died
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seeing his ex at an after party, but hey, who's to say he doesn't believe in second chances?
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â pairings: sukuna ryomen x oc actor! au
â warning: angst. sukuna trying to win his ex back. established gojo x oc. actor au.
â authorâs note: first time writing for kuna!! gotta say, it was fun writing angst :)
â word count: 1k words
disclaimer: iâm not of japanese descent and am unfamiliar with japanese honorifics, etc. feel free to correct me!
âOh fuck.â
Sukunaâs eyes widened, muttering in shock. His confident smirk dropped the moment Gojo Satoru walked into the room, seeing the cocky smile on the white-haired manâs face, his sky-blue eyes hidden beneath his rectangular dark blue glasses. However, the sight of Gojo didnât catch him off guard. The sight of the black-haired woman with striking lilac eyes left him speechless.
Himiko Nakamura. The memory of her just sends a shiver down his spine, and he can feel her fierce gaze through the crowd. No matter where she went, an overpowering presence followed, even in a celebratory award-afterparty such as this. She made her name as an actress at an early age â and it was one of the things that drew him in.
Sukuna couldnât help but plaster his pompous smirk back on his face, but the little twitch in his was evident when he spotted Gojoâs arm around her shoulder. He hated that Gojo could hold her so freely, so casually. He hated every second of it, he hated the way he smiled at her, he hated the way she gave him the smallest of smiles back. He hated the way she didnât shove him off when he neared her, and most of all â he hated that it wasnât him holding her in that way.
His red eyes followed Gojo with a burning stare, watching the way the white-haired man had his arm slung so casually around Himiko. He waited patiently, taking another sip of his wine as he swirled it around in the glass.
A minute or two passes before Himiko finally pulls herself away from Gojoâs arms, and Sukuna smiles to himself with a soft âFinally!â as he exhales. He sees her walk further away from the popular white-haired actor and towards the row of tables filled with drinks and snacks, and his feet take him closer to her.
He takes a step closer to her, one foot in front of the other and he feels his heart pumping harder in his chest. He adjusted his scarlet suit jacket, smoothing his pink hair down with his other hand, and he couldnât help but admire the way the dark violet dress she wore complimented her figure, the shimmer of the fabric and glitter with every little move she made.
Sukuna cleared his throat, his mind running wild with all the ways he could greet her, but none of them came up as he saw her bright lilac eyes stare into his crimson ones, and his heart stopped. She was just as beautiful as the day she left him, yet her cold gaze brought him back to reality.
âSukuna,â Her voice called out, and the bitter way she said his name had him rolling his shoulders back.
Her tone was an ice dagger to his heart, her disdain for him evident just by how she held herself. She stood proud and tall â like the walls she had built for herself when she was with him.
âHimiko,â His smile grew, and he eyed her up and down. âArenât you a sight for sore eyes?â
Her sneer deepens, eyes narrowing as she speaks in that icy tone of hers, âAs if youâd miss me.â
Sukunaâs eyes soften the slightest, but it flickers back to his cocky demeanour. He sees it in her eyes from how she tilts her head â she knows. Neither of them said a word about it, the pink-haired man glancing at his wine glass with an amused smile.Â
âYouâre sharp as ever, darling.â
âIâm not your darling,â She mumbles, âNot anymore. I think we both know that.â
He lets out a bittersweet smile, red eyes locking onto her lilac ones, âA man can dream, canât he?â
âHe certainly can, but it doesnât mean that itâs reality.â
âBut he can try until it is.â
She gives him a look, her hold on her glass tightening, âSukuna, donât.â
âIâm not saying anything specific,â He rolled his eyes, but his tone was uncharacteristically soft. âBut⌠but what if I were to try again?â
Himikoâs back straightens, âI assumed so since you did hint at it, but you know why I left, Sukuna.â
âI do. But I can change, you know that Himiko.â
âDo I?â Her eyes narrowed. âSukuna, I left you because you were so, so manipulative, you did anything to make me stay with you. I couldnât take it, and you knew it, so forgive me if I donât believe a single word you say.âÂ
Sukuna opened his mouth to say something else, but a hand on his shoulder halted him, his red eyes met sky-blue ones, and the dreaded Gojo Satoru smiled over at Sukuna with a lighthearted grin.
âHey Sukuna, long time no see!â His grin was too wide for Sukunaâs liking. âI see you youâve met my sweetheart.â
This irks Sukuna to no end, a smile of disbelief growing on the tattooed manâs face, âYouâre her sweetheart? Himiko, heâs going to ditch you for someone else by the end of the week.â
âNonsense!â Gojo grins widely, pulling Himiko to his side. âMiko, has he been bothering you with his bad jokes?â
â...Yeah, definitely,â Himiko mutters, leaning into Satoruâs touch. âLetâs get out of here. Iâve had enough partying for tonight.â
Sukuna could see it in her eyes, the way she avoided his gaze now. Her posture remained upright, but everything in her body language was enough to tell him she was giving him the cold shoulder. He narrowed his eyes, ignoring the way his stomach tied into knots.
âIt was nice to see you around, Sukuna,â Gojo grins, but it holds a dangerous glint. âBut hey, it was fantastic seeing you again.â
Sukuna rolled his eyes red eyes with a grumble, but he fell silent as Himiko eyed him as she passed, Gojoâs arm a bitter reminder that sheâs not his â and he doesnât have a chance at redemption; not like deserved one anyway.Â
As she passes, the speakers blare a song, almost as if fate was mocking him, heck he barely stood a chance the moment Gojo Satoru walked in with his arm around Himikoâs shoulders. Kali Uchisâ voice rings through the venue, the upbeat tempo a sickening reminder of his failures.
âWhy canât you see youâre dead to me? Just leave it be, youâre dead to me.���
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NEW CHAPTER IS UP! I ALSO FIGURED OUT HOW TO ADD A LINK! GO ME!
I want to post everything I have written bc I fucking love this story but I will keep updating once a week, keeping yâall updated.
Seriously tho, for the next chapters read the warnings bc it gets dark, even for me, and I usually write hella dark for fun, so just be careful and take care of yourself (:
Let me know if the link doesnât work bc I am new to this :)
#text post#gravity falls#gravity falls watcher au#fanfiction#gravity falls au#watcher au gravity falls#dipper pines#fanfic#mabel pines#gravity falls dipper#gravity falls mabel#let trans men be unhinged#trans dipper pines#the book of bill#billford#they are toxic exs your honor
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You know when I hear people say they want more messy relationships in ST, Iâm tempted to point my finger to the corner where Stonathan sits.
#to me they have toxic boyfriendism energy#why do you think I made them the way they are in my st bbc ghosts au#I will admit that Iâm not really into messy relationships myself but stonathan is a special case where I will consume it#like look at it this way#the ex of Nancy caught kissing her boyfriend who once beat him up in an alley back in 83â#there is drama there and I hope next season I get some good âstonathan shenanigans in stupidityâ moments#and have Steve and Nancy be snarky exes that gifts me back s1 stoncy friendship dynamic#and then Jonathan has a boyfriend and a girlfriend who fight for the right to wear the yellow sweater and the black denim jacket#itâs the fine wine of ST enemies to lovers stories#and itâs sad to see that barely anybody wants to drink it cause itâs sooooo good#note that I will be using the saying âstonathan shenanigans in stupidityâ whenever I can after s5 comes out cause it rolls off the tongue#amazingly#stranger things#stonathan
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