#Today kind of sucks
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Hey <3 really sorry to bother you, I read Who Holds the Devil since day 1, I absolutely love it. Do you know when a new chapter will be posted ? Take care
Hi there! I'm glad that you like it! And thank you so much for staying faithful to the fic for so long 💜
Unfortunately, this is what we call "catching me at a bad time" since today I've received unsolicited criticism, opinions, and/or complaints (some of them valid) on three separate fics, from three different people. So I'm kind of having my doubts about the whole "writing fanfics" thing right now. Or at least the "posting fanfics" thing.
(That'll pass, don't worry. I'm just being dramatic because I'm still trying to process and overcome all these new doubts and anxieties I didn't ask for but suddenly have to deal with)
On top of that, you happen to be the second person to ask me this question today, which is in no way helping my current situation. I'm pretty sure that wasn't your intention, but yeah.
Also, I'm afraid I might be getting sick again so, uh, there's that, too.
So, to be entirely honest with you, I don't know. I had hoped to get back to it sooner than this, but things are kind of difficult right now even if we ignore the shitshow today has been for me, my confidence, and my writing.
As always, I promise I'll post as soon as I'm able but, right now, I can't say when that'll be. So please be patient for a little while longer :)
You take care too 💜
#Amethystina Replies#Anonymous#I promise it'll pass#And I will get back to writing it#Hopefully soon#Today is just a VERY bad day for this question#Because one of the fics in question was Who Holds the Devil#And... uh...#The comment hit me where it hurts#In that sort of way where even if it's just a single person saying their personal opinion#Which they're entitled to#And they claim it wasn't meant to be negative#I'm still second-guessing EVERYTHING now#Since it's such an important part of the fic#And something I take so much pride in#And it doesn't matter that it's one of the things other people have praised me for since the very beginning#Because anxiety doesn't care about logic#And all I can see is that I apparently failed at something I thought I was doing well on#So yeah#Today kind of sucks
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*has several debilitating disorders* idk maybe i'm just lazy
#cancelled my psychiatrist appt because i just couldn't get up and i felt i couldn't face her#she's probably mad with me now :/ she already talked to me about missing appointments but i just couldn't do it today#i fucking suck lol im disappointed in myself. my depression has gotten really bad lately which is all the more reason to talk to her but.#idk i've kind of given up also. i stopped therapy months ago. i dont think she was gonna really help me anyway tbh
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pygmalion and galatea for aroace people
you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.
#fantasy high#fantasy high sophomore year#fhsy#riz gukgak#baron from the baronies#fh class quangle#class swap babeyy! bard!riz that's whats goin on!#I really need tags for these now I think lmao#ask to tag#I feel like this should be tagged something. but I dont know what#in my brain after the initial kidnapping class swap baron's thing is every time riz keeps his story abt them up in front of his friends#they get a little bit closer. they send him pictures of where they supposedly are n stuff#theres a scene in my brain only of kristen and riz on top of the van and kristen is like everything kinda sucks rn can u tell me abt baron#cause what you guys have is so nice and beautiful. and riz almost doesn't but he ultimately can't deny kristen a little peace#lmao I feel like dipping into baron stuff with the class swap is like showing my whole ass online again I just. I'm a#horror person before all else... I cant stop myself. canon baron is Great and Cool but that is kind of the thing. for a horror thing theyre#Too Cool. I think cool is kind of the neutralizer of scary. when a monster is a certain amount of cool it overrides the scary#and now u just have a Cool Monster#its so fucked for bard!riz this year bc he doesn't have an office (he's mooching off the school wifi from the AV club room lol)#so there's no buffer between adventure and home life. so baron just shows up in the strongtower apartment lmao#sophomore year bard!riz looks like a slasher protag so I just leaned into it I guess. he gets a mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon kennedy#well. its worse actually. they can show up where he is at any moment theyve proven this. but they dont#they choose to punish him slowly as he lies to his friends instead. baron is mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon and also a bitch#I think its gonna pop up if class swap baron ever speaks in a comic I do but their voice comes from like. inside their hollow face#it sounds like it's a lot deeper in there than that skull should be#tbh what I have rn is kinda like a bag of loose pieces that Can fit together into something great but I dont have the energy to#really sit down with them yet lol. Im doing this inbetween other things#it comes or it doesn't! it's fine. funny how today's bad comic day also. I wont say this is for bad comic day bc all my comics are#flawless and beautiful and perfect and awesome and beautiful and the best#but u should. if u havent drawn a comic today or at all ever u should draw a comic
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i finally fixed my links and started adding stuff to my INPRNT and REDBUBBLE, sonic, supernatural and teen titans stuff is up there, and i'm open to requests if you have a specific drawing you'd like to purchase form there
also here's some of the all time hits of mine for sonic and detroit become human enjoyers
on m RB i have a lot of stuff, supernatural, sonic, dbh and some fandom lgbtq themes stuff as well, i'd love it if you checked it out. Inprnt is mostly home for art that I can't keep on redbubble, but I also added a bunch of other recent stuff on there
#i'll still be adding one or two spn and tt art later today#id looove it if you checked out my storeeee#im currently unable to get the student benefit that i was kind of relying on getting -_- so i thought id advertise myself for once#supernatural#spn#sonic#sth#teen titans#redbubble#inprnt#prints#also you need a freaking. 100usd to be able to withdraw from inprnt apparently which SUCKS#and this moneys been freaking sitting there some of it is from a year ago man TwT
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Pages from trying to keep a little sketchbook-scrapbook type thing going for two weeks lol. I gave myself specific rules in hopes they might all end up more cohesive/consistent seeming, but alas, scribbly chaos reigns, it seems
#sketchbook#scrapbook#Actually I feel like these are kind of incomprehensible in photo form like.. In person holding the book its easy to look at#but as images on this scale I feel like there's so much tiny little text and small scribles and stuff you'd have to 'right click > open#image in new browser tab > zoom in' just to actually really see the thing. which for 7 images is excessive lol.. so. probably not the best#medium for sharing really but. I suppose I thought they might look cooler lined up next to each other. The whole part of using a#limited color palette is so that maybe they kind of seem to have more consistent color schemes or something throughout. but I dont#know if they look all that 'related' or not. I think these types of challenges I have always sucked at because I am a being of clutter and#excess. I can't just do like one little simple nice looking design and have that Crisp Neat calligraphy with evenhanded perfect lines#and perfect symmetical composition and etc. etc. Like some poeple post very aesthetically clean and cohesive looking sketch#pages or something but I simply cannot hold back the brain impulse to add more. more. more. Fill every single blank space with color#or a little drawing or a sticker or something. I take away 500 things and there are still a million there. Even when I thik I'm being#'simplistic' I'm still usually being 2x more complicated and cluttered than the standard or whatever lol. I guess thats clear from my#outfits/costumes though too. Like whatever that saying is from that person about something like 'before you leave the house take off one#more accessory. you dont need it' for me is like.. 'before you leave the house. add 10 more accessories. and 6 more layers. and another'#AAANyway. I wonder if also maybe some people would try to plan theirs in a way to look good or something or like.. plot things on the page#before placing them. I did sometimes have a theme for a day kind of (like day 10 I ended up finding a few gold and green things and then#was like.. hey... what if I looked for a few other things and only used these colors today') but aside from that I was just slapping down#stickers randomly and working around them to fill the page. Maybe a lot of neat minimalistic asthetic design is about planning and#having a Vision set ahead of time. instead of just complete random whatever. doodling whilst watching youtube videos or eating lunch. It's#a miracle actually I've managed to not spill any food on the book the whole time. anyway.. I do wish the highlighter really showed up. the#scanner kind of makes the colors look VERY different to irl. But also it got much clearer images than just camera pictures of pages. alas..#..Still oddly enjoy the phrase 'Salisbury Steak gently kissed with industrial pollutants'#probably my favorite section of 'gluing random papers and things onto the page' lol#Also I wonder if it's super obvious that I literally never ever use references when I draw (save for the few freakish looking youtube#face sketches) since everyone is always in the same positions and looking very similar ghhb. This could have been a good opportunity to#work on not solely drawing from my mind and try to do more Dynamic Experimental scribbles. NO. Same exact eye for the 90th time#be upon ye. But I guess it was meant to be casual 'daily doodles'. True 'practice' would make it seem too effortful like a full project. hm#(lol the one decimated pencil in the set... never hand me a writing utensil. i will passively destroy it somehow. shaving the sides of a#pencil off with a knife or snapping a pen in half as a nervous fidget without even realizing i've done it. sorry to the drawing implements)
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~Cavorting~
Damien's a grouchy bastard but boy he likes the skimmers. The somewhat beefier weight of the Xurfboard was a delight worth celebrating with some play out on the iceflats on Europa
BONUS
RIP that Goblin. SOME Vex were harmed in the making of these images XD XD XD
#destiny 2#destiny#destiny the game#destiny warlock#destiny oc#destiny exo#my oc#Damien-14#destiny skimmer#xurfboard#destiny screenshots#destiny Europa#look at this fucking simp with his infinite chain link bond#did he suck clovis' dick? probably not#but he would have#*kissy noises*#stinky rotten man#but today I'm letting him have a nice time#because sometimes he's kind of OK
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redhead :-)
#hiiiiii. time for my weekly check-in lol#slowly but surely figuring out this procreate thing. maybe.#school is still going fine.#school & drawing is p much all i do these days#while i was leaving campus today someone drove by blasting the song from dinner in america#& it is now stuck in my head#i was kind of surprised to hear it in the wild. in my mind that is a very obscure movie. idk#i might have to rewatch it. again.#anyway. it occurred to me that i could totally start making comics now#(being able to draw without being tied to my desk is awesome btw)#so… i might do that#i genuinely miss my boys so bad. like i think about them nonstop all the time but it’s not enough#i haven’t worked on their story (like… canon story) in a while#got sucked into the AU rabbit hole a bit#but i was listening to dhes’ playlist the other day & it got me thinking about the canonverse again#dhes’ playlist btw… pure rage & insecurity lol#so idk. i might spend some time doing canon stuff.#i have not forgotten about the monster boyz lore edit. i just… have no time for it rn#still gonna get it done though !#ok i have to leave. things to do etc etc#rainyrambles#artwip
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Culture - for the second day of @hetalia-rarepairweek ✨
I have recently been told about the British superstition of magpies and how of saluting magpies will ward off bad luck. The saluting is to show respect to the bird often connected with bad omens so that nothing bad will happen to you 🍂
#hetalia#rarepairweek2023#hetalia-rarepairweek#scotnor#aph norway#aph scotland#hws norway#hws scotland#this should perhaps have been under day 4 with folklore??? but it fit okay with today as well ig#felt like playing around with colours and the autumn vibes going on atm 🥰🥰#the magpies were surprisingly fun to draw - I usually suck at drawing animals but birds are okay#So fun how different countries will have these kind of superstitions that are so specific and other countries won't have heard about#I wonder what things we do in Norway that's Norway-specific 🤔🤔#I need to read up on all my books about superstitions and folklore 😅😅 this is def the season for it
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sonic save me . save me sonic
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feeling EMOTIONS!!
#i thunk im loneley i think i may be jealous#dont know why.#went to the ren fair earlier today it kind of sucked tbh..#i shouldve eaten the last meal i had was lunch yesterday#i cant talk for some reason
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I hate feeling like a big pouty baby when I don’t get sex 🥺
#about me#rejection sensitivity#really sucks#I was really looking forward to it#kind of deserve it tho I was a brat today :(#not in a cute way#personal#cream writes
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Hi, I love your Wish rewrite so much that I want to do a fanart. Is there any design for them or references to inspire by them?
Asjsksjaks I wrote a whole-ass essay responding to this but it got deleted so here it is again
First of all— thank you so much! Please tag me when you finish it, you’ll be my favorite person ever
Now I assume you mean Asha and Star inspo. They’re under a cut because I really delved into this lmao
Asha
For our favorite princess, I see Asha basically the same, but with a lot fancier accessories and outfits. In her concept design, she had lots of jewelry and beads in her hair and on her dress inspired by Moroccan and Amazigh fashion:
And then a fancy dress worthy of a princess. She’s supposed to be commoner now, but her concept art had some pretty dresses
Ahaksjaksjs sorry for the shitty quality this was the only photo I could find
Some other dress designs I loved:
@puertoricanbelle
They made this as a final transformation outfit which, honestly, I love. It’s giving Ariel’s final dress, but mixed with Queen vibes and tbh in the movie I expected a transformation dress rather than just sparkles hajsksjs @ghostguts
Like??? She’s a princess so she has the royal colors??? Idk what it is I just love this
THIS DESIGN below I believe is made by @hoaxghost, but—
Lookit??? Not too formal not too common, gold accents and rings and the silhouette of the dress isn’t just like Rapunzel’s but has dimension and tassels and sleeves and nose is not a cute button which I think is reminiscent of Amaya and Magnifico, them being her parents in this rewrite. The concept art picture I showed also showed her with a bit of a longer nose which I like
(Also I feel like they lightened the royal couple’s skin in the movie? Or is it just me?)
Star
I also looked at the concept art for Starboy
^something like the one right above, I think But I also adored @kiiwiibun’s design of Star
I think in my rewrite I even added how Star has a dark teal half-cape thing like they drew!
I do imagine Star to have a constant glow, since he’s, you know, a star. But whether it’s from his skin, his hair, etc, you can decide! You basically have lots of wiggle room for this since I don’t have a design fully locked down yet. And hey, maybe you’ll create the “canon” looks for this Wish rewrite!
(Ps if any of the people I tagged want me to remove their art please let me know and I’ll do it right away— also is anyone knows who made that last Asha dress redesign please tell me too so I can tell them I love them)
💜💛
#ahsksjajs sorry this took so long#I had finals today#Geometry I aced but Honors Chem frikin sucks man#Anyways yeah#please tag me when it’s finished!#I love and welcome fanart of any kind#Also like you’ll be my favorite forever so#sapphire answers#wish 2023#disney wish#wish disney#wish movie#wish#princess asha#disney 100#star wish#wish concept art#wish asha#asha wish#star x asha#fan art
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#trying so hard not to take it personal that no one showed up to todays tutoring session#I get that it is voluntary and most people don't have a lot of time now that exams are coming up#but at the same time#I am TRYING to prepare them for those exams!! and I spent a lot of time reviewing topics I haven't covered in a year to do that!!#I spent hours yesterday preparing this session#kind of sucks that all of that time was wasted.#like I do have to prepare myself for my own exams too and I could have done that instead of preparing this session that no one showed up to#we're usually a small group#like the highest amount of students I've ever taught in one session was 10 and usually there are 3-5#but no one??#:(#just feels like maybe they think I suck as a teacher or something...#vent#rambles
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Have you read The Spear Cuts Through Water by Simon Jimenez??
absolutely insane of the author to write an entire book about familial love and the importance of lineage and culture then have a main character not know about his own and lie about it the entire time. absolutely bonkers how that character is known and even sometimes defined by that false culture and its epithets. absolutely heart rending that when he comes clean to the other main character, he says that his culture is the least interesting (important) thing about him.
absolutely insane also for the only sex scene to be the last scene of the entire book.
#the spear cuts through water#just finished#book thoughts#simon jimenez#screaming crying throwing up in this Target today#i really really loved this book for so many reasons#five out of five stars fr#kind of sucks that i have to read Something Else now lol
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Im so desperate to know everything about Ishmael he is so interesting
good news i have his next chapter lined up for this weekend. it's a bit of a rough one so it's been difficult to approach. wanted to explore how allegations of sexual assault are used against Othered people... basically Ishmael grew up with a bit of a crush on Callum, the only human kid he really hung out with, and Ishmael's feelings & eventual advances are seen as inherently predatory and perverse compared to how the exact same stuff from a regular human teen would be received. but this part of the chapter is told partially from a transcript of Callum's journal so it's from a difficult pov. but i feel it's an interesting pov and one which contextualises Ishmael in his lab setting & shows how truly terrible his social skills & ability to read others were.
#ishmael for wide swaths of his childhood: yay i get to hang out with my friend callum today#callum at the exact same time: this creep SUCKS to be around and i'm unnerved#and like. due to the maladjustment of Ishmael.. he IS kind of a creep to others as we would understand it. like that's just the truth of it#he has no idea what boundaries even ARE because he has been treated his whole life as if he had none!#setting: siren
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fun fact about me is my whole body hurts at all times
#sorry i just stood up for like 4 hours straight and now everything hurts#my feet hurt my back hurts my neck hurts my hips hurt#everything is ouch#i mean#everything is ouch on a low level kind of always because my joints suck#but it's extra ouch today
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