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#Omg I should use a tumblr poll to decide my college#(I should not)#Ok here's the problem . I already accepted I was going to school B flat bc I didn't think#I was getting into anywhere else#But I applied to school C sharp for shits and giggles and got in#The problem is they're both great schools#And I toured C sharp and feel honestly really neutral about it#I didn't love it#The campus is ugly as FUCK#And other than some like schedule things that would be nice I'm not married to it idk#I didn't feel a pull to it or anything#And everyone around me is hyping it up so much probably because passively my father and grandmother want me#To stay in the states for school#But I don't know that I want to do that!!#But I'm also terrified of getting myself into a situation I can't get myself out of#But if I end up a semester or a year behind because I realize I don't like it then. That's liveable#But 5 years behind. I don't know. I don't know that's liveable.#Like obviously I would live. And going abroad would be an incredible experience#And I'm scared of the drinking culture and not making friends#But I'm scared that *neutral* is a deeply horrible way to feel about a place you've committed to for four years
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okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is
#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#not art#fhjy spoilers#its!!! gods I will Be My Ass in the tags rn. but thats so like. deliciously setting typical#like porter's desire is to transcend and his contempt for the world he's in feels. idk Real#like he plays the game bc he wants to win and be done with it. how do I word this#yknow. being a god would like. be his win state. when he gets that happening thats it his story is done he checks out#meanwhile the bad kids do actually just like playing the game lmao. like they love adventuring!#theyre so solidly Of This World. they carry the values that can only be born of it and they like having mastery over it#its a meta angle that I think is very fun specifically for d20 being in such a unique position in the zeitgeist when it first started#the rat grinders are from DnD Writ Large. porter wants to escape. but this is the bad kids' home its Their Actual Play Show#which makes it so fucking excellent to me that porter's question is somewhat of merit! its their show and it tries very hard to punish them#and they just straight up dont listen to him here lmao bc they hate him but! since the moment the academic track ended its been clear#that they save the world bc they Like Playing. With Each Others#thats what riz thinks the core of adventuring is! thats why fig stayed! and I also think thats why this hovers over elmville now and#a dead god is coming back in the school gym. porter is a shit evangelist but even if hes a good one I dont think it wouldve worked like he#wants it to. the only way he couldve escaped is if he'd not involved elmville at all. thats where the bad kids met dude#its a shitty place that fucks with them but they all come back here bc they wanna play with each others#and in that regard I think thats what the stress tokens ultimately means. Is This Game Still Fun To Play. ITS A RAGEQUIT LIMIT#Im literally running from one end to another of this conspiracy board Ive pulled out of nowhere#Ill draw after this I just wanna get this out. gods this episode has done nothing but furthering my delusion of grandeur actually#Im the hottest smartest manthing on earth Im king fucking midas over here. anyways uh! great ep!
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This is the devastating reality in gaza.
Even if children don't lose their lives during the bombing, they lose their limbs, their loved ones. You know how many kids who lost their legs loved playing football? How many loved to run and walk and ride a bike? How many lost their arms who can no longer feel it, no longer wear a bracelet around their wrist? There are kids who lost their eyesight due to the bombing And getting crushed under the rubble. Keep demanding a ceasefire, this should not still be happening. 44th day.
#to think about how these kids are still not safe even after all of this#they still could get bombed whether they're at their home or in a shelter or in a hospital or even a school#i know of two little girls who survived the bombing of their house#and after getting out of the hospital they stayed at their relatives house which got bombed but they got killed this time by Israel#they only survived 8 hours after the first bombing that lost them their parents and their home#i have a video about them on my blog the journalist who was keeping them company in the hospital posted it#share this#palestine#gaza#israel#important#current events#free palestine#ethnic cleansing#free gaza#gaza strip#gaza under attack#gaza under genocide#israel apartheid#israel is a terrorist state#israel is an apartheid state#usa#america#un#save the children#we are not numbers#video#human rights#yemen#joe biden
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how do you survive as a toh artist
who said anything about surviving
#the joke is i havent drawn toh in months. badumtss#and that i am constantly in a state of crumbling at a molecular level. but we stay silly#im alive. promise . iv been getting beat with a bat by life for about four weeks now im waiting for it to End before i can draw for myself#again#but on serious note. i dont think of myself as a toh artist bc its not all i draw#it's just all that i post hERE :) smiles. unless yall want my original content too?? but it's mostly for school slash portfolio#vanishing back into the shadows etc etc . adieu
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Shout-out to this fandom and everyone who’s “medicine” for getting sick is self inserting with our comfort caretaker blorbos.
(Seriously though what’s going around)
#I got sick last week#everyone is sick at school#family at home got sick#tumblr moots are getting sick#friends across the state are getting sick#two of my classes today were canceled because the professor got sick#we all need to just stay at home with our imaginary blorbos#daycare attendant#sb sundrop#sb moondrop#Daycare attendant au#dca fandom#sb sun#sb moon#sb eclipse#sb daycare attendant
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They're so silly!!! The extended gang!
#sylvia's half-black half-blonde hair...hopefully it stays btw#it would be interesting to see the link between phenotypic effects and psychological state in her#since the sabnock family have high volition and good control over their wicked phases iirc#she doesn't seem like she'd go into an “evil” sort of origins#just super enthusiastic with her desires or smth#anyway the gang drawn together like that reminds me of kagome kagome the vocaloid song#m!ik#mairimashita! iruma kun#mairuma#welcome to demon school iruma kun#sabnock silvia#sabnock sylvia#beem r. judain#crocell chima#asmodeus alice#valac clara#also unrelated but azz is becoming way more laid-back and chill and it's good to see character development#he's friendly and approachable now basically lmao getting rid of that former egocentrism
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on one hand i think tim walz is a genuinely decent guy who would make an awesome vice president (without considering if he’s “too liberal” to earn votes etc).
on the other hand i’m minnesotan and yall can’t have him
#he made mn literally a trans refuge state. which means i would love for him to have a say in running this country#but also stay here please#us politics#tim walz#he’s everyone’s dad#pioneer of the conservatives are just kind of weird movement#former teacher and public school supporter#given current options? pretty fucking ideal candidate to me#but part of me does not want to share
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Man I wonder where the leader of the fear realm could've gone, it's alMOST LIKE NEVIN HAS AN
#had to re-edit the image real quick because the original edit was from a post I made about Drew years ago#and while the Drew thing is becoming less and less likely. Nevin havinv one has basically been canon since#someone mentioned Greg's (was it Britney's) aura being familiar in s2ch1. ive been putting together a list of every line#that points to Nevin's aura throughout the whole thing (most from s2ch1 but then s2ch10 came out and it was really canon at that point)#but clearly i'm running out of time to say ''i fucking called it'' before it's explicitly stated and i dont want to be in another situation#where somebody else will beat me to a theory and me posting anything about it will seem like copying them. sorry about that btw i had#thought i had already mentioned theorizing that nevin was possessed by a demon in that old theory i made but i had forgotten that one was#super old and was about sigma. so no copying there i just got extremely paranoid there was a mention of a cult and i was like ''nuh uh#that's way too specific and out there of a detail to end up in both our theories'' and i forgot the rest of my super old post was outdated#as hell. and echos had gone ''yeah they're so similar!'' and i took their word for it but now i'm realizing they were probably just trying#to be supportive. so yeah no copying there i was just beaten to the punch of saying something. but i will NOT back down from the aura shit#because i have been calling that shit FROM THE START or at least since i started reading ibvs back when ch20 came out.#also not backing down from saying chris was the worse friend because these past few chapters are the first time isaac has done anything tha#could knowingly upset chris meanwhile chris has. let edward drag isaac to the lair after isaac said edward would beat him up. chose not to#believe edward was holding the secrets over their heads because 'it was something isaac had said' and then immediately distrusted edward in#the next chapter because a random person he didn't know said to steal a book (might i mention how that entire scene proves chris' lack of#development and refusal to take responsibility because it perfectly alludes to when chris had brought those fireworks into his old school#and makes me wonder if charlie has actually gotten him in trouble with his past schools or if he's still just not taking responsibility#and if him following nevin to the woods to test out their powers is an extension of ''if something bad happens its not my fault''#like seriously this man would bring a mysterious suitcase onto a plane if he's told to). uh what was i talking about agai#anyway on a related note my mental state has only gotten worse since i left tumblr and the habit of thinking about chris instead of sleepin#or doing schoolwork has not stopped. so i was still failing for a while and might graduate now but am still staying away from tumblr.#so yeah this was a little update and im not going to linger this time im just going to leave tumblr again right after hitting post#addendum because i just can't let things go. and was thinking about chris again. i don't think his lack of development is because of bad#writing (anymore. i used to.). instead i'm certain his character arc is going to continue into him following someone (nevin probably) into#doing something really bad. and then he'll finally get actual consequences and go 'oh shit i fucked up real bad this time'#if you think that theory is reaching too far into the future you should hear mine about isaac dying at the end lmao
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Just a heads up, I'm probably gonna be a little quieter/less active for a bit. Just found out my lease isn't getting renewed so I have to find a new place by the end of August, so that whole process is gonna be taking up a lot of my time and energy 🙃
#about me#so many wips i want to work on and instead i have to pack and look at apartments#and try to guilt our property management company into giving us a 6-month lease because we were already hoping to move states in March#but i don't finish grad school until december so i have to stay until at least then#i am. not happy to say the least
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I work as the person in an amusement park who watches the children who get lost. Here’s some advice. This also applies to any mentally disabled adults that are under your care. Keep in mind that many places will not look for a minor ages 13-17 unless it is close to closing or they are disabled, as corporate considers it a strain on resources and employee use.
1. Teach them your phone number. Best gift you can give them. I’m not supposed to have my phone out at work but I can cut down dependent’s being-lost-time by probably 400% if I can contact you. It also assures the children That We Are Doing Something and that They Are Helpful and Smart. If your dependent has a poor memory, apparently writing your phone number in sharpie and then covering it in nail polish makes it stay all day, even if they’re sweaty or getting in the water. I haven’t tested this but I’ve heard a lot of moms recommend it. I’ve also seen bracelets with little plates or the beads saying the phone number.
Addendum: your dependent may tell you that they know your phone number, but they actually only know your passcode. True story. This summer has been a lot better, but last summer exactly one child the entire season knew his mom’s phone number.
2. Acknowledge that dependent’s memories are faulty, especially in new places. If you tell them to meet you in X spot or that your stuff is all in Y place, they may not remember where it is or remember how to get there.
3. All dependents, but especially little ones, have shit time sense. They might find your stuff, wait there for a minute or two, and truly believe that they’ve been there for an hour. Half the small kids that are brought to me are ones who *know* where their stuff is, but haven’t seen an adult they know personally in 5 minutes, so they’re going to panic.
4. Don’t take naps!!! And don’t let your dependent go anywhere you can’t go or at least go where you catch them at the end!!! Yes you’re staring at the play structure your dependent entered, but can you see them? No? Then there’s a good chance they went elsewhere. So many of the littler kids that are brought to me are brought by genuine, good-hearted strangers who see lost children and take them by the hand. Away from the spot you’re napping in front of/staring vaguely at.
5. This might just be something from my work, but we will not call dependent’s descriptions over the loudspeaker. This is because if an asshole were to see your dependent, hear the description, know it’s a lost dependent, and decide to steal it, they can then use the excuse, “I know where your guardian is! Come with me!” And then lead them out of the park or toss the dependent over their shoulder. Do you know how many crying and screaming dependents leave the location every day? A lot!!! We’re a fun location!!! We’re not going to know if the dependent is screaming because they don’t want to leave or if a stranger is taking them away. We might call the description over the loudspeaker if it’s past closing time and the dependent still isn’t found. But before that, we will only report it over secure radios across the park.
6. Tell a park worker right away. Preferably someone with a radio. Even if you spot the dependent within the next minute, that means the dependent will have less being-lost time. Especially if we already have the dependent with, you guessed it, me. Also please tell us when you find the dependent.
7. Take a picture of your depdendent at the start of the day! That way security guards can have a good idea of what to look for. One mother told me her daughter was blonde and showed me a picture. Her hair color looked brown to me, but then I knew what to look for in the crowd.
8. Keep at least one person in your group in one spot at all times, especially if you don’t have access to your phone or forgot to give out your phone number to the guards. That way they can find you if they pick up the dependent. If you are the only person in your group, then PLEASE stay in one place or at least stay with ONE security guard. It sucks for the dependent if they can’t find you right away even if the both of you are looking for each other and a guard is helping them. You are NOT helping if you panic and run around. And keep your goddamn phone on you and answer calls from unknown numbers!!!!! God. This is a good time to do that.
9. If you lose your dependent in an attraction like the lazy river at a water park, and you have that ONE person staying in place, then this is what you can do with 1+ mobile people.
A. If only one person can be spared to be mobile, have them pick a spot and stay right there, watching the river go by. Eventually, if the dependent is in the river, they’ll go by.
B. If you have two people that can be mobile, both start at the same place in the river and go opposite directions. If you meet up again without spotting the dependent, well, they’re not there.
C. If you have more than 2 people, you can do B but also station different adults at the lazy river entrances/exits.
10. Don’t blame the dependent! Even if they ran away and/or are pissy that you’re upset once you all reunite, trust me, there’s a 99% chance they’re upset too. Yes, this is a good time to have a serious conversation with them. Yes, if this is a repeated problem, and/or you warned them you’d leave the park if this occurred, you should not back down. But also - they’re dependents. They’re not stupid, and they should be told consequences and dangers so they can make good decisions, but they will never have the adult/guardian perspective that you do. Be kind.
Also please for my sake teach them if they’re brought to someone like me, that it’s THEIR job to be safe and listen to me while us park workers look for you. It’s YOUR job to find the dependent, not the dependent’s job to find you. I had a six year old little girl genuinely toddler-howl at me because she wanted to go look for her mom. I’ve never before heard a kid her age howl like that. I can trick kids out of crying 9/10 times but howling came as a surprise lmao. I think I can manage it now that I’ve experienced it but damn.
Also make sure those kids are DRINKING. Being in a water park is NOT the same as drinking water. They should be drinking every 15 minutes at LEAST, I am NOT kidding.
Also if I call you to tell you your kid is here, please don’t call or text me back after you have the kid. I’m sure other places have phones for these types of things but the only one I have is my personal phone. And I am happy to get the kid off my hands and into your arms, but I’m using my personal phone so plz. Don’t call me back. Absolutely call me if you need directions to my ‘office’ in the park. Don’t call or text me after. I have stories about that hoo boy but this post is already long.
#I am not exaggerating when I say howling#not in a wolf way more like a howler monkey if you have no idea what human toddler cries sound like#I like kids of all ages but there’s a reason why#I’m not going to teach elementary school#I am the person in the *place I work* where if a kid is lost#the staff brings the kid to me until the parents are found#so like. I’m never going to see these kids at their best#I wish I could just hug them but I’m barely allowed to hold their hand if I’m escorting them to get water#this time of year their emotions are heightened by the fact that they’re almost certainly dehydrated#but if they’re a flight risk I do NOT want to risk losing the kid#so I have to wait until#a coworker comes by to get them some water sometimes#the howler girl = this kid#this kid was reunited with her mom without too much time going by thank god#she was a huge fucking flight risk omg#she desperately wanted to go find her mom and I’m like#GIRL you are the lost six year old ITS YOUR MOM’S JOB TO FIND YOU!!! Your job is to stay safe!!!#and color this pretty picture oh god please look back at the coloring page instead of calling upon the hounds of hell#I like to assure every kid that is brought to me that#1. mom’s (or whoever) not going to leave without you (sometimes this is a lie judging from the parents.still very important to tell kids thi#2. they did the right thing asking for an adult’s help#3. as they are literally a kid it’s not their fault they’re lost (again a little debatable with the older kids but still they’re minors)(so#I tell them all this)#4. it’s their job to stay safe while we find your mom#5. now do you want some water?#it’s more obvious in the pale kids but I’ve had so many Black and Brown kids come up to me the last couple days looking positively pink#those kids needed water. so I try to get everyone water#it pisses off my coworkers but idgaf. everyone has a legal right to water in this state esp in the summer#and even if they didn’t#fuck you I’m stealing it. these kids need water
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so sad for absolutely no reason
#👆 girl who stayed up till 3 am talking to her bestfriend about how depressed and trapped we both are for about 4 hrs#it's like that gracie lyric#you have to laugh before you start to cry😭😭#like ab toh funny bhi nahi lag raha jokes bhi nahi banaye ja rahe#oh but i love her so much i absolutely LOVE people with whom i can just be sad#im tired of people who constantly try to make the sadness go away or try to cheer me up#like sometimes you just gotta sit with your feelings na#at one point she was ranting and i said mere paas kuch kehne ke liye bhi nahi hai kyunki it literally feels like im listening#to my own thoughts on my own lying in bed at 2 am like hum itna same kaise sochte hai😭#and she laughed and was like but ye sahi hai na aise sochna like it feels wrong but it's the truth and im like i don't even#know but oh it's so good to not pretend to be okay#we're so similarly hopeless and tired cause like one point mein inevitably we talked about#the future living together our apartment and then i was like mujhe bhi ye chahiye but mujhe itni umeed uth chuki hai life se#ki koi excitement bhi nahi aa rahi like i already know ye sab kuch nahi hone wala and she's like haina same like i want to say#ki we'll do this and that but im like lol not gonna happen ab i can't look forward to things in the future im like if im living it then ok#then i can accept ki oh ok this is really happening im happy now wow but usse pehle nope#and we were talking about ki like yaar future toh ab dikhta hi nahi hai kya hoga it all feels so blurry and like a dark tunnel#atleast bachpan se we knew what was next school college but now it's like now what?#i know all these thoughts and feelings are pretty common and probably everyone's facing this but bhai.#it's fucking hard i didn't know life was gonna be like a constant battle where it kicks you down#again and again and again and you're bloody and no energy can't get up but you still have to because if you don't you'll sink#soooo deep in that state ki bahar nikal hi nahi paoge#OKAY 8 hrs sleep mandatory for me what the fuck why am i writing a ventpost at freaking 11 am girl go have lunch or something 😭
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Thinking about Kristen Applebees so hard rn. Might go rewatch literally all of freshman year.
#its my year anniversary of d20 fandom#or like it was a week or two ago#maybe this is how i celebrate it#there was a whole period of time when i wasn't caught up on all the intrepid heroes seasons where i would like#whenever i started a new one i would literally not stop fucking watching it until it was over#like i had school and i did not care it was just wake up start watching be in school watching as much as physically possible get home#keep watching stay up til 3am watching and then repeat at 7 the next morning#i internally referred to it as a d20 bender and it was honestly the best#i also did it with acofaf the second time and techinally ive done it with starstruck and sophomore year twice#Shoutout to the time i was watching the fhsy finale during art and had to leave to sit in a bathroom stall to cry#wild times#honestly the best part of school i just destroy my mental state if i do that shit any other time#whoopsie tag essay#d20#dimension 20#fantasy high#d20 fantasy high#fantasy high freshman year#fhfy#kristen applebees#d20 kristen#fantasy high kristen#kristen fantasy high
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#personal shit below the tags#just venting about getting dragged into high school drama as an adult#which is my fault because i help coach a high school dance team#long story short my best friend is moving out of the state and won't be coaching next year#and is trying to set it up so i take over as head coach#but she was talking to two of the kids about it today to give them a preliminary heads up and#they straight up said that if the current assistant coach gets the job#none of the team will be going back#but that if i get the job everyone will come back#this grown ass woman has thought i've been trying to take her assistant coach job all year#when i have been perfectly happy as a volunteer#and this whole thing was extremely validating and such a bummer all at once because like#i just won't engage with the drama she's been trying to bring and it bums me out that the kids have noticed it#i've been trying really hard to stay professional in front of them and thought i was doing a good job#i HAVE been doing a good job#but the captain knows what i'm like as a coach because i was her head coach her freshman year and so she's noticed the difference in me#so yeah incredibly validating because every time i've been down this year about this#i've been like 'they know which of us is here for THEM and not the STATUS'#and it turns out i was correct this whole time#they DO know and they have been feeling it which is the last thing i wanted for them#so yeah validating and a bummer all at once#we'll find out within the next couple weeks if i will still be coaching next year#every time i vent about this i feel like i'm trying to sound like i have the moral high ground#it gives me the ick about myself
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Can't stress enough how much I will NOT stand for mindless hating on Gen Z. I have concerns and criticisms of some trends among them, sure, but I will advise the ones in my circle where possible and defend the rest to anyone who tries to do the bullshit to them that got done to us. Gen Z are such a great generation in so many ways and I will be the older adult I needed for them at every opportunity.
#this post brought to you by students in my pretty conservative state staging walkouts to protest our governor's anti-trans school policies#THOUSANDS of students across the state#my generation could never#hell my peers were 70% of the reason i stayed closeted until college#gen z
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You know I don't think the transmisogyny in Butler's work is Unrelated to the (Misinterpretation) of their work as saying "Drag is a post-modern art form that destroys gender".
Because both comes from the same root ya know. The inability to see the MTF figure as a subject, only forever the object to be interpreted by the masculine subject (And yes, the masculine subject does include AFAB academics, like duh. Most every transfem who engages In Academic Feminism knows this we just aren't allowed to say it without them kicking us out).
So Butler makes their argument (and it's a good argument! Despite the transmisogyny!), and it becomes twisted up in a veneration of Drag instead, and I can't help but think it's because the way the argument goes slots perfectly INTO that same inability.
The masculine artist making a feminine model into an artistic statement! It doesn't truly matter that the feminine model and masculine artist are in the same, because that's still the easiest way to reform Butler's words while still upholding the logic of the heterosexual Matrix! (And their words must be reformed, Gender Trouble is so heavily assigned that it must become assimilated into the gendered logic of college kids, and that's where it's gonna go)
So it becomes this "Drag Queens reveal the artificial nature of gender" when like, No, no they don't. Maybe a couple have, maybe? The vast majority don't engage the question at all, however, and a sizable minority base their entire schtick AROUND the immutable nature of Gender and Sex!
(sorry Tumblr threw one too many posts about Drag my way today, enjoy this post over a decade out of date)
#(I do wanna state again that like in the academic circles I run in I do think Butler has gotten enough pushback...#compared to others in the field especially.......... a very very very long list of others tho few as successful as Butler of course)#grad school life#i did even like that drag queen movie on Tubi! I'm not just a hater!#but like Queens are not doing the thing people say they are!#anyway stay posted here for more “Clearly cribbing off of Emma Heaney's book” posts
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looking at the calendar seeing i’m moving in ~20 days is making me feel sick. i know nothing good at all will come in terms of my health if i stay in osaka, no hospital will really help manage my pain or even get me disability support or accommodations and trying to find a job in this place like this would be hell too. but the fact that i’m moving away from my family has just fallen on me like a pile of bricks and is absolutely crushing me.
#the part where i’m going to go back to school for a bit part time…i literally don’t care about it’s just a way for me to be in tokyo area#absolutely apathetic in terms of that and i think as far as work goes i’ll be trying to get some bookkeeping/financial certs#but i don’t want to be without everyone surviving on my own like a damn roach#i’m good at it too. fucking good at surviving.#but they’re the only people i really have in this world and i don’t want to be away from them#and i don’t want to beg my mom to stay#that wouldn’t really be good for me and she needs to go back to the states soon or her greencard will get taken away#innko talks
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