#This the best day I've had in a long long time
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CONNECTED!
desc ;; how can two best friends be connected forever?
tws & tags ;; best friend ! atsumu, nsfw, food sharing, vaginal, degredation, praise, impact play, slight daddy kink, breeding kink & begging
it started with an innocent question..
you're sprawled out upon his bed, laying on your stomach and scrolling on your phone, while best friend! atsumu does the same, except he is sat with his back against the headboard, and one of his arms stretched out behind his head, drawing attention to his flexing bicep in his black MSBY t-shirt.
you've spent the majority of the day hanging out, which you rarely get to do because he's so busy with practise and his contract with the jackals. but today was like a blast from the past, as you went on a run through the neighbourhood, talked shit and played videos games for hours like you used to. now you were both tired out and waiting for your delivery from onigiri miya to arrive.
but you were feeling peckish so you had a small bag of chips with you on the bed. plucking another one from the bag, you idly took a bite, and you were about to pop the rest into your mouth until atsumu leaned forward and snatched it right out of your hand and gobbled it up himself.
you gasp in horror, " 'tsumu! gross, you realise i already bit that one?"
atsumu quirked an eyebrow, but didn't avert his gaze from his phone screen. "so?" he grumbled through a mouthful of chip.
you saw his point. the two of you have been friends for so long, since before you could even properly remember. and he's been stealing and eating your food since the very beginning — and vice versa. without a care in the world as to whether the other's saliva was on it or not. usually you're quite weary about other people's germs, but with atsumu it was different since you're so familiar with each other and you know that neither of you have any oral illnesses. so what's the big deal if you eat something that's his mouth has already been on? you've already done so hundreds of times before.
but considering the sheer length of time you've known each other, the situation sparked a query in your mind. "we must share a lot of dna, huh?" you thought aloud.
atsumu halted chewing, and hesitantly looked up at you. "... what?"
"not in a genetic way! i just mean that we've been sharing food for so long. surely some of my dna must have incorporated itself into your system by now. maybe that's why you're so good at volleyball.." you suggested.
atsumu just stared back at you, dumbfounded. while you prattle on.
"i probably don't have as much of your dna in me, since i'm not a greedy food-stealer like you are." you tried to make a comment about his thieving habits, but atsumu seemed to be focussed on the wrong parts.
"that's not fair, is it?" he purrs with a smirk.
"what's not fair?"
"that you've not got any of me in you. like you said. even when we aren't together—"
"like when you are on the other side of the country competing in volleyball tournaments!" you add.
"yeah," he replies softly, "we're not really apart; i've still got a lot of you inside me. 'cos of that chip i just ate." you nod hesitantly in agreement, since he's got a good point but you can tell by the sinister glint in his eye that he's plotting something strange.
"but," he continues, "you've not got any of me in you. so how can we be connected?"
you blink. slowly, you take a chip from the bag and hand it to him. he takes a bite then gives it back to you and allows you to finish it with a smile. as you gulp, you declare profoundly, "there! now you're a part of me too."
atsumu tilts his head in amusement, and leans forward until his lips are mere inches from yours. "i think you can do better then that."
before you can even respond, his lips come crashing down against yours, and he captures you in a heated kiss. you're stiff at first due to this unexpected behaviour from who you thought was your friend, but there's something so addicting about the way his skin feels against yours. you let him guide you and soon you're melting into his touch, allowing your lips to weave together rhythmically, a small moan even slips past your defenses and rumbles against his mouth.
your basically sucking at each other's faces like deprived animals until he yanks himself away and rasps, "want something else inside you? something you can keep, angel?"
the moments after the faintest mewl of 'yes' escapes your mouth was a blur of atsumu lunging off the bed, readying himself at the other end and flipping your skirt up to rip your panties clean off in a matter of seconds. conveniently you were already in the perfect position, laid on your stomach with your ass hanging off the bed. all he really needed to do was spread those pretty legs and fix himself between them.
he rubbed at your folds with his fingers, and relished in your growing wetness. you could hear him groaning and thankfully for him, you couldn't see his obscene expression as his pupiled were stuck to your pussy. "fuck, such a pretty girl. where've you been hiding this?" he bit his lip, the mere sight of your delicious cunt alone was enough to get his cock throbbing his pants.
with no time to waste, he unzips his fly and smears his leaking tip across your hole, lubricating it further with his own precum. then, without warning, he thrusts himself inside your tight hole and gasps at the constricting sensation of your cunt suffocating his length. "damn, knew you'd be tight but— this is— fff.. fuck." he can barely get his words out. his thoughts were scrambled by your sweet walls clamping down on him like there were trying to keep him there.
his hands held onto your waist and his fingers dug into your soft skin. looks like he was giving you scars to keep too. due to his inability to move while your pussy was gripping onto him, your were allowed some time to adjust to his absurd length.
his girth shoved at your sensitive walls and it felt like he was pushing against your stomach too. he was just too much for your insides to handle, but it's not like there was anything he could do about it. plus, it didn't help that the stretch of your cunt to accomodate him was so euphoric and overwhleming, leaving you unable to form any more than a couple of slurred sentences, " 'tsumu, you're so big.. it's too much.."
"just need to take it, baby. i know you can." he reassured you in a low voice. you've never heard him quite so hoarse before; it was only feeding the growing pool of arousal between your thighs. his dick twitched eagerly within you and as soon as he bottomed out, he began to vigoursly thrust into you. piercing into your sopping hole at a rapid speed, despite how your walls desperately clung to him.
"atsumu!" you gasp, arching your back against the mattress as your fingers dug into the sheets beneath you, trying cope with the ecstasy coarsing through you from his thick girth. you weren't certain as to what was going on; a part of you still thought this was all one big overwhelming dream because of how surreal it felt.
you didn't understand what had overcome him. the two of you have been best friends since forever, and yeah, there was maybe a little bit of chemistry and flirtation before he left to join the black jackals, but any lingering feelings were shut down by the distance seperating you. never did you think he'd randomly get up and start frantically rearranging your guts on his bed. but fuck, it was a long time coming, you could feel the pent-up emotions behind each and every brutal thrust into your cunt. amplified by the lewd slapping of his balls against your sticky folds.
still, it confused you as to why he chose now to act on these feelings, and that manifesting through your feeble cries of, "why.. nghh— what're y'doing?" so weak and delicate, if it wasn't for your moans of delight and your hips instinctually rocking against his, atsumu might've thought you wanted him to stop (but that couldn't be any further from the truth.)
"sorry, (y/n).. couldn't— shit, hah, couldn't hold back anymore." he huffed out with his teeth grinding together, lips pulling into a wide smirk as he watches your tits bounce from the force of his cock. "gettin' too old for these games. and you're gettin' too hot for me to— mmph, to not do something 'bout it."
if it wasn't for the fact you were choking on your own moans from the way his length was splitting your poor pussy in half, you would've chuckled at his previous comment. you were both only in your twenties but he was claiming to be 'too old' for games.
but you kinda understood what he meant. being coy and play-flirting was cute in high school, but now it was time for you to come to terms with your feelings and act on them. you couldn't be more relieved that he took action; atsumu's dick working your needy insides was akin to receiving a long awaited massage, and finally undoing an strenuous knot that's been irrating you for ages. years, even.
"please keep going. i need you so fucking bad." you whined.
"drivin' me fucking crazy with this perfect pussy.." his jaw is clenched yet he spits onto his fingers and draws sloppy circles over your clit while he continues to ram into you. however, his pace grows sporadic and begins to faltered with each staggered breath he inhales. his eyes squeeze shut, "shit, angel, what've you done t'me? 'm close already.." his voice trails off, almost like he's losing steam until a final surge of lust-fuelled adrenaline shoots through him.
his eyes shoot open as his hips pick up the pace, piercing into your aching cunt even faster than they were previously, slamming all the way into your cervix repeatedly. "almost there. gonna fill up this little hole with all of me. that's what you want, huh?" deranged ramblings fall from his lips, while his brows are knitted together and his energy is focussed solely on ploughing into you, "you want me to leave a big mess in ya? so you keep apart of me forever. that what you want, slut? my cum dripping out of ya?"
your eyes screw shut at the intense sensation, and you bite down on the blankets in attempt to cope with it all. that is, until he delivers a harsh slap to your ass, which causes you gasp and squeal, "yes, 'tsumu! leave it inside me, please. all of it."
"you sound like such a whore." he chuckles, but only to conceal how badly that turns him on. he knows it's perverted, but there is just something so sexy about hearing his sweet friend beg for it like a desperate slut. it was humorously uncharacteristic. "ask again, baby. let me hear you, scream for daddy."
"i need you to— nghh, fuck! oh my god, i need you to cum in me. pleasee~." you pant, head spinning as he relentlessly pounds into your cunt, not faltering for even a split second. "i want you so bad.."
and that'll do it. your final breathless comment was enough to send him flying over the edge of his climax. one hand gripped your ass while the other held your thigh, and he heaved out a deep sigh as his thick load released from his tip and spurted into the safe confines of your pussy.
the warm sensation spread throughout your insides, like a sticky blanket coating your walls. it was beauitful, and there was no way he was going to let go just yet. not when your cunt was still gripping onto him; he wanted to savour it for as long as possible.
he leaned forward, and pressed gentle kisses across your spine and the nape of your neck, "you did so good.." you could feel him smile against your skin, as he whispered, "can you promise me something, doll?"
"mhm.."
"gonna keep that inside you?"
"of course." you hum, amused that he was still attached to what you were discussing earlier, "now we're connected."
"yeah." he nods, resting his head against your upper back and relaxing his frame against yours, "for a week, at least. then you'll have to visit me in osaka, and we can do this all again."
#atsumu x reader#atsumu smut#haikyuu smut#haikyuu x reader#atsumu x you#atsumu x y/n#atsumu x female reader#haikyuu x you#haikyuu!!
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"Come on, a few kisses won't ruin our friendship"

ఌ︎ Summary: After a terrible day, you run away from everything - to the only person who can bring you back to peace - Jungkook. In a cozy, semi-dark apartment filled with the scent of coffee candles and the warmth of whiskey, the boundaries between the two best friends are blurred. A friendly evening turns into something else: as you two talk about kisses, first touches, laughter, and memories, something that has long been hidden between words comes to light. One kiss and the night is no longer just a night.
ఌ︎ Couple: Jeon Jungkook/ The Reader, Jungkook/Y/N
ఌ︎ Age restrictions: 18+
ఌ︎ Size: one shot (3.6k)
ఌ︎ Tags: fluff, smut, from friends to lovers, best friends, romance, kissing, alcohol, support, tension, reciprocity, tenderness, first kiss, intimacy, mutual liking, night together, sex, unprotected sex, sex while intoxicated
ఌ︎ From author: So guys, unexpectedly for you and unexpectedly for me, I wrote this short story overnight 🤭 My sister and mom will kill me if she finds out that I don't sleep at night and write fanfiction 🤣 But I wrote it spontaneously because I saw an inspiring phrase on pinterest and it’s story instantly popped into my head 🥰 So I hope I didn't waste the night on this story (it took me all night to write it, translate, format, post) and here it is ✨ 💞 Enjoy 🤩💜🫶🏻
ఌ︎ Dedication: Of course for the first to my love of my life @curse-of-art, as well as to my most favorite girls @kelsyx33, @kooko009, @kookiesncreamri, @diame93, @kooklovee, @medstudentlifestyle, @tranquilreign, @someoneelse0109 you make me happy every time I go to the tumblr 💜🫶🏻
ఌ︎ Warning: English is not my native language, so the text may contain references or strangely worded sentences. Minors do not interact!

The city outside the window trembled with lights, as if tired of the day's bustle. Jungkook's apartment was semi-dark, the only source of light being a few scented candles on the floor, he loved so much. Jungkook lit them for you so that you could appreciate the new “black coffee” scent.
You were sitting next to each other on the carpet, leaning your back on the couch, whiskey glasses in your hands and a half-empty bottle and a box of chocolates between you. You shook the whiskey and ice in the big glass and exhaled heavily.
This day has been a real challenge for you. Your favorite sneakers broke in the middle of a rainstorm, and you were criticized at work for a presentation you had been working on for three nights. And to top it all off, your phone broke. The screen died completely, and you were left without connection, without YouTube videos of gamer streams, and most importantly, without music.
All of this knocked you out of your rut. You didn't know where to go, and for some reason, the only person you wanted to see on that terrible day was Jungkook. You wrote to him from your work laptop, it was late, but you desperately needed companionship.
You briefly told him how much fate ‘loved’ you and he laughed sincerely (a emoji in text of course), filling your soul with warmth, and then offered to come to his place and drink whiskey to send fate to hell. He had known you for many years and knew that the only way to help you was to be there for you, to help you relax and to talk to you. You were grateful for his support.
Now you could already feel the alcohol relaxing every muscle, erasing tension. Your hair was falling over your shoulders, and a light, slightly drunken smile was wandering across your face. You watched as Jungkook tilted his head slightly to the side, laughing at your grumbling about the day. It's been a few hours since you've been at Jungkook's place, but you still can't stop complaining about your fate. His eyes sparkled, either from the light of the lamp or from a few glasses of whiskey.
"I've been talking about this so much and I haven't even asked about you. What did you do today?" you asked, leaning lightly against his shoulder.
"Me?" He tilted his head back, looked up at the ceiling, as if remembering. "I spent the morning at the gym, had boxing practice, then had some boring meeting with investors. And then I stayed at home all evening, watching some stupid movie... Until you came," he added, looking at you with a slight smile.
"Oh, did I really save your evening with my life drama?"
"You always do," he said softly. And you suddenly felt your stomach clench. You smiled in embarrassment and turned your gaze to the candle. In fact, Jungkook always saves you, too. Even today.
You talked some more, your phrases softer, a little blurry. Alcohol removed the filters from your thoughts and topics of conversation. At some point - it's not clear how or why - you started talking about sex. It wasn't the first time you had a frank conversation, but it felt different. Maybe because of the tone - less joking, more serious.
"Kissing is what's really important to me," you said suddenly, putting down your glass. "Have I ever told you that I just love kissing? Don't give me bread and samgyopsal, just let me kiss."
Jungkook laughed, but his eyes showed interest. He looked from your face to your lips and back again.
"Really? Knowing how much you love samgyopsal... Even like that?" he smiled broadly.
"Uh-huh. It's like... I don't know, like a dance. Different rhythms, feelings. Sometimes slow and gentle, sometimes hot and hungry. It's like a way to understand a person," you said, as if feeling the moment.
"Do you remember your first kiss?" he asked, still smiling. "What was it like?
"Ha..." you hummed, leaning back. "Funny. I was fifteen and he kissed like a wet fish. But at the time, I thought it was the most romantic moment of my life."
Jungkook snorted, and you laughed with him for company.
"Who was it?" he questioned you.
"It was a boy from the parallel class. He liked me. He gave me so many gifts and fed me all the time. I think, what worked the most was this, that’s why I gave him my first kiss," you joked.
You picked up a chocolate candy and put it in your mouth, after taking another sip of the honey-colored alcohol. Jungkook laughed, shaking his head.
"You haven't changed since then," he said. "If someone guy bought you a wagyu, I bet a 20 thousand won, you'd sleep with him on the first date."
You raised your eyebrows and pushed him lightly in the shoulder.
"God, Jeon, who do you take me for?" you paused briefly. "Only if he was really good looking," you joked.
You laughed again and you felt yourself finally relaxing. Jungkook wanted to know more about why kissing was so important to you, so he continued to ask you questions.
"So what kind of kisses do you like?"
You thought, twirling the glass in your hands. You unconsciously bit your lip and it couldn't escape his gaze.
"With depth... But not always. Sometimes just a light touch is enough. I like it when it starts with tenderness, like an exploration. I love kisses that start when you don't even realize when they became so passionate. When you forget where to put your hands because you want to feel everything," you said as if you were living these words.
Jungkook was silent, looking at you intently. When you felt the silence, you turned your face to him and were slightly taken aback. His tongue ran along his lower lip, and then he nodded slightly.
"You described it all so interestingly. And now I'm not even sure if I want another whiskey or if I just want to know exactly how you kiss."
You giggled, awkwardly, almost hysterically, but the smile dissolved in his eyes. Jungkook began to lean toward you, and you were mesmerized, seeing only his lips. He was very close, and you screamed, instinctively stopping him.
"What are you doing?" you asked, your voice shaking with excitement. Jungkook didn't move away, just forced his gaze away from your lips.
"I was going to kiss you," he said, as if it was a normal thing between you. You turned away awkwardly, pulling away a little.
"Are you go out your mind? We're friends! Friends aren't supposed to kiss, even if we're drunk..." you said, feeling hot and your heart racing.
It would seem that after your remarks, Jungkook should have backed off, told a joke, and that this incident would have been just a misunderstanding.
But you felt him gently grasp your wrist, and in an instant he pulled you to him, settling you on his lap. You screamed, not expecting such actions from your best friend.
Your faces were separated by a few centimeters, and your hot breaths with the taste of whiskey, mingled You felt that Jungkook's grip was strong. His large palm squeezed your waist, giving you no chance to escape.
"Come on, Y/N. A few kisses won't ruin our friendship," he assured you. You looked into his eyes and saw a mischievous spark. "Just a test, especially since you like to kiss."
You were silent. Your brain was screaming that this was a bad idea, that tomorrow when you were sober would be awkward, that you would ruined everything. But your body didn't listen. You were sitting on his lap, hearing your heart pounding furiously, and even more furiously, his. His palm, warm and steady, held you close. Your eyes met.
"Kook... it's going to be awkward between us when we're sober," you whispered, not quite sure if you wanted to stop him or push him closer.
His eyes changed - there was no more mischief in them. Only intense expectation and desire. You felt his hand slide down your back, stopping at your neck. His thumbs gently touched your skin.
"It won't," he whispered and kissed you. His lips touched yours lightly, almost inaudibly. Like that "light touch" you were talking about. And only a moment later, the kiss became deeper, bolder, as if he had heard every word you said in that conversation and wanted to give you exactly that.
His kiss was really a dance. His tongue intertwined with yours, warming the wave of desire between your legs. Jungkook broke the kiss for a moment, but only to lick your lower lip. You felt his wet tongue on your plump pad, and then he bit you.
Your fingers closed on his T-shirt, as if looking for support. And your mind was empty - only the touch, only him.
The throbbing between your legs increased exponentially, and Jungkook didn't want to stop. His tongue penetrated your mouth again, making you even more intoxicated. He kissed you so hard that you felt slightly dizzy.
You could feel his cock getting hard. He was pressing lightly into your buttocks. He felt the same desire as you.
But as much as you wanted this moment to last forever, you had to take a breath of air. Jungkook broke the kiss and you slowly opened your eyes. He was still close, but on his lips, the same ones that had just kissed you, was more than a satisfied smile.
"How interesting," he said in a low, husky voice. "Turns out my friend is a pretty damn good kisser."
You sighed, but it sounded more like a moan-a held, raspy breath after a storm. His words made you smile, but somewhere deep in your chest, you clenched, as if this moment was on the verge of being real and dangerous.
"Can we consider the test passed?" you asked, trying to hide the tremor in your voice, although your hand was still holding his shirt as if you were afraid it would disappear.
Jungkook looked down at your lips and then back up into your eyes. His face was serious, and the touch of his hand on your waist was insistent. He lowered it to your buttocks for a moment, and then his hand, deliberately, slowly went under your blouse. He touched his fingers to your stomach, making your skin tingle, and then his fingers found your breasts. He squeezed one of them and you moaned reflexively. You immediately felt him harden more beneath you.
"How about we move on to the practical part of the test?" he asked slyly. His fingers played with your nipple, squeezing it between them. You almost choked when he lifted your blouse and took your bud into his mouth.
His wet tongue sucked in the tender skin. Your nipple became hard, pressing against the softness of his tongue. You whispered his name, almost silently, more like a pleading sigh than a conscious sound.
"Jungkook..."
His eyes rose to meet yours. Hot, dark, thirsty. And you knew there was no turning back. Everything that had been between you before disappeared in the pulsating tension of this moment.
Jungkook let go of your nipple, ran his tongue lightly around it, making you shudder, and kissed you lower, slowly, carefully, as if studying every millimeter of your skin.
His hand moved to your hip, slipping under your skirt. His fingers touched the inside of your thigh, warmly, decisively. Jungkook was in no hurry, but he didn't give you time to recover.
"You're so beautiful..." he whispered, swallowing your reactions, every moan, every shudder.
"No..." you exhaled, wanting to tell him not to give you these fucking compliments. He shouldn't.
"Yes," he argued. "Fucking hot," he whispered against your lips.
His fingers finally touched your underwear, which was soaking wet.
"Fuck... You're all ready for me, aren't you?" His whisper was deafeningly intimate. "Is that from just one kiss?"
You couldn't answer. Your fingers dug deeper into his shoulders, and your head tilted back. Jungkook pushed the underwear to the side and slowly slid his finger between your folds, making you shudder and clench your thighs.
"Relax... I want you to feel good," he said softly as he pushed his finger inside you. Your back arched in pleasure as he began to move rhythmically, feeling you grip him from the inside. You were tight, and it felt good on Jungkook's fingers. He felt a new wave of excitement as he imagined your tight walls enveloping his cock.
You sobbed, trying to hold back a moan, but it was useless. His thumb pressed down on your clit, and a wave of sweet madness swept over you.
"Tell me if you like it, Y/N..." his voice was husky, heavy with desire. He leaned down and nuzzled his lips into your neck, continuing to caress you from the inside.
"Yes, Kook... more... please..." you choked on your pleasure, your voice breaking. Your hips began to thrust to meet his fingers.
His smile was hot, almost animalistic. He took you to the very edge and suddenly stopped, withdrawing his finger.
"Not now," he said, leaning down to your ear. "I want to be inside you when you come. I want to feel you squeezing me from the inside..."
You could barely breathe. His words burned you from the inside out, and your body trembled with desire. You couldn't even deny how much you wanted your friend right now.
"Get up," he ordered in a soft tone. "Would it be more comfortable on the couch, or do you want to do it on the floor?"
You tried to steady your breathing. Your cheeks were pink and your lips were swollen from his passionate kisses.
"On the floor?" you stammered.
Jungkook smiled, but there was no trace of joking in his eyes. Only a fierce desire that burned the air between you.
"Do you want on the floor, on the couch, on the kitchen table... I don't care where, Y/N..." his voice was low, and he slid his fingers along your jaw, forcing you to look him straight in the eye, "I just want to be inside you. Right now."
Your body shuddered at these words, the feeling of butterflies mixed with arousal left no room for doubt if this was the right thing to do. It seemed that the air had become thicker.
You stood up from his lap, but he didn't let you go far away, just took your hand and gently laid you down on the soft carpet in front of the couch. The surface beneath you was warm, but his gaze was even hotter as he stood over you, pulling off his T-shirt. His torso, toned, with well-defined muscles, made you forget how to breathe. And his tattoos made him look even hotter and sexier in this semi-dark room.
He knelt down, leaning over you, and his palms slipped under your skirt. In one steady motion, he pulled off your underwear, keeping his eyes on you. And then - slowly, as if in a slow motion movie - he unbuttoned his jeans, pulled down his pants, took off his boxers, freeing his hard, erected cock.
You only had time to look at him, and this look sent a wave of even greater desire through you, your wetness between your legs became abundant.
Jungkook lay down over you, leaning on his elbows. His nose touched yours, and he kissed you more gently than a minute ago, as if he was thanking you for your trust. Then he ran his fingers between your thighs again, making sure you were still as wet - and you were even wetter. His breathing became heavier.
"Ready?" he asked, not taking his eyes off you. His tip was already touching you, tempting you in your most sensitive spot.
You just nodded, your eyes sparkling, your breasts rising in a ragged rhythm.
Jungkook pressed on and plunged into you. When the head of his cock began to stretch your hole, you felt a pleasant pressure at first, but after a moment he had to stop because you felt pain. You made a sound that sounded more like an exhausted moan. You raised your eyebrows.
Jungkook came closer and touched your lips, distracting your attention. He plunged his tongue into your mouth and you accepted it without question. He pressed and you moaned in pain into his mouth.
Your best friend continued kissing you, slowly entering you. He stretched you every inch of the way, and you felt your body accepting him... until the last drop.
He parted your lips, and another moan escaped your lips without permission.
Jungkook froze, letting you get used to it. His forehead pressed against yours. His breath mingled with yours. And only then did he start moving-slowly, steadily.
You no longer understood what was real and what was not. Only his body in yours. His hands on your skin. His name escaping your lips in every moan.
For a moment, he was almost exited, and then he plunged into you, knocking the air out of your lungs.
"So tight, I love it so much," he whispered into your ear, pressing your body tighter against his, fucking you rhythmically. Your legs intertwined on his ass. "Fuck Y/N you take me so well, so fucking good inside you," he swore without restraining his emotions which were like fireworks.
He suddenly began to move sharply and deeply. The sensations of these movements made you lose all control.
"Kook... damn..." you had never felt so good during sex before. You literally thought it was the best sex you'd ever had.
"Yes... feel my cock, it's so perfect for you, love" he said in a breathy voice.
And when he started moving faster, you couldn't hold back any longer. You squeezed his shoulders, stretched your lips to his neck, dug your feet into his hips, letting him in deeper.
"Y/N..." he whispered, "that's so good... I can't... I can't last..."
"I...me neither..." your fingers dug into his back. "Kook, I'm going to..."
And at that very moment he squeezed you tighter, gave you one last deep thrust... and you exploded inside him. He felt your body shuddering around him, your tight velvet walls squeezing him to the point of insanity. Jungkook abruptly pulled out of you with a deep, heavy moan. You swear it's the sexiest thing you've ever heard. He spilled all over your stomach, you felt his body cum splattering on your skin.
He froze, holding you in his arms, and then lay on top of you, you felt gentle kisses on your neck as your bodies shuddered with the last waves of pleasure.
And then - silence.
Warm, sweet, slightly dizzying silence and only the sound of your heavy breathing.
You were lying under him, covered in a sheen of sweat, his sperm flowing warmly on your stomach, and your cheeks burning. Not just from physical pleasure, but from the realization that you had just slept with your best friend. And while your body was still feeling pleasure, your mind was already panicking.
Jungkook stopped kissing you and looked up at you. Your skin was flushed, your eyelashes were fluttering, and your cheeks were covered in a red blush. You couldn't look him in the eye, you were so embarrassed, even though you had just let him into the most intimate part of you.
"You're blushing..." he mocked, and his lips stretched into a smug smile that made you pull your neck into your shoulders even more.
"Don't look..." you muttered, covering your face with your hand.
Jungkook laughed softly as he removed your hand from your face. His voice was a little husky, deep, still filled with an echo of pleasure, but calm and warm at the same time.
"Why are you so sweet now, huh? Y/N, it's..." he took a breath, brushing the damp hair from your forehead, "sooner or later it was going to happen anyway, we both feel this sexual tension between us."
You swallowed quietly. His gaze was so penetrating... direct. You felt your heart pounding again, not with passion, but with excitement.
"I just..." you swallowed. "It's the first time I've ever done something so... spontaneous."
"And was it bad?" his smile grew wider, and he traced your cheek with his finger. "Because it was absolutely... fucking good for me."
"Kook!" you punched him in the chest, still not daring to look him in the eye.
"Hey, don't be afraid of it, okay?" his voice became more serious, but didn't lose its softness. "We did what we both wanted, aren’t we? And I'm not going to let you make this about shame or regret. Because I don't regret it for a moment."
Jungkook kissed you again, this time gently, long, on the lips, moving slowly, as if he wanted to put everything he hadn't had time to say in words into that kiss.
You returned the kiss, allowing yourself to dissolve in this tenderness for a moment. His lips were soft, warm, soothing. He pulled away from you.
"We need to take a shower, and you know what else?" He touched your hair and playfully tossed it back.
"What?"
Jungkook stood up and knelt down. You sat down, trying not to look at his crotch. You were covered in his cum and tried not to move too much so that it wouldn't get on the carpet.
"I am hungry. You used up all my energy, woman!" he joked. You smiled, feeling secretly pleased by his words.
You stood up, watching him look at your naked body, and his eyes darkened slightly.
"Order the fried chicken , and I'm going to take a shower. I'm hungry too."
#jungkook x reader#jungkook x f!reader#jungkook smut#jungkook imagine#bts fanfction#bts#jungkook fanfic#jungkook friends with benefits#jungkook#bts jungkook#jungkook jeon#jungkook x you#jungkook x y/n#jungkook x oc#jungkook fic#jungkook x original character#bts x you#bts x y/n#bts jk#bts fanfic#bts ffs#bts imagines#bts smut#jk best friend#jungkook best friend
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bestfriend!hamzah who finds your diary and despite his moral compass telling him to leave it alone, he opens it and reads it ⋆ ˚ ꩜ 。 ⋆୨୧˚
warnings/notes: hamzah invading readers privacy obviously lol. pls don’t read peoples diaries/journals. this is all fiction and let’s ignore the fact that this is wrong and just see it as too bffs who yearn for each other badddddd. enjoy!
you had a long night; work and errands you’d been putting off for weeks that finally caught up. still, you wanted hamzah to come over for your weekly movie night. he argued with you, telling you ‘it’s okay, we can skip this week. get some rest’, but no, you were insistent on the fact that you wanted him over, you hadn’t skipped a movie night in over a year and you weren't willing to break that tradition tonight.
and now there hamzah was, laughing quietly to himself as you dozed off on the couch. "i am not going to fall asleep hamzah!" were your last words before you were in fact asleep on the couch, snoring and all.
without any hesitation hamzah scooped you up bridal style and brought you to your room to lay in your own bed, like he'd done countless times before. this wouldn't be the first time he'd have to let himself out because you fell asleep, it happened quite often actually. you liked that he took care of you, but part of you wishes he'd at least say bye before he left.
you adjusted in bed as hamzah tucked you in for the night, letting out a big sigh, too tired to even open your eyes. hamzah lingered for awhile, his hand at your hip. he always stayed a little longer than he'd ever actually admit to you if you asked him; but truthfully, he just liked watching you sleep. you looked beautiful. peaceful. perfect. maybe it was a comfort thing, maybe a bestfriend thing, or maybe a 'i'm in love with you and i don't want to leave just yet', kind of thing. which one? you weren't exactly sure. but you liked it.
hamzah sat at the edge of you bed, taking in the chaos that was better known as your bedroom. he could draw it from memory if anyone asked him too; your messy bookshelf filled with books you'd read over and over again, your collection of trinkets that only he had the patience to listen to you explain, or the pile of clothes that always occupied your vanity chair.
except this time he noticed something new he’d never seen before; your baby pink notebook titled 'journal' that you must have forgotten to tuck away after your chaotic day. it was out in the open, sitting right on your dresser.
hamzah mentally told himself 'no', that he couldnt do that to you. best friend's don't do that sort of stuff — break trust and promises. but his eyes lingered on it, he had the one thing that could tell him if you felt the same way for him all at his dispense. right in front of him sitting on your dresser. did all the stolen glances and late night messaging mean the same to you as it did to him?
he mumbled a quick "sorry" before grabbing your journal and hurrying outside your room to read the pages of your sacred diary. it was all normal stuff at first; you talking about how your morning coffee is your favorite part of your day, or how you had to get an oil change earlier that week and you always got scared when going to the car place alone, or what you did with your girls that day. but after some skimming, hamzah found his name. his heart dropped, scared that maybe he'd read something he wouldn't want to hear, or even worse, scared that you did feel the same and he'd have to go on and pretend.
"i'm not sure what i did in a past life to deserve someone like hamzah. he's the best person i've ever met. like seriously. he takes such good care of me. i don't say it to him much, but i appreciate him so much more than he thinks. today he said he likes listening to me talk, it's such a small sentence but it meant so much to me. i always thought i talked too much. it's so crazy to think that the thing you might dislike most about yourself, someone else loves most about you??? maybe i'm crazy but sometimes i wonder how different life would be if him and i were more than friends?? i dont know ?? anyways i have to go, he's coming over soon. i can't wait to see him!!"
hamzah swore he could break down in tears. there was no dramatic build up, just you talking about him so casually like he consumed your thoughts on a daily basis, and well, he did.
bad news for hamzah was now he'd have to go on and pretend he didn't just read what he did. but good news was; he'd gotten used to pretending. he'd gotten used to pretending he wasn't absolutely head over heels infatuated with you. pretending that those glances that lasted longer than they should have meant nothing to him. pretending that you weren't the only person he ever looked forward to seeing. pretending that he wasn't in love with you too.
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BOYNEXTDOOR WHEN YOU FALL ASLEEP ON THEM



you just feel like home to me, soft and cosy and so very peaceful ─── that my guard started slipping before i even noticed
'𝐸 . boynextdoor + fem. reader 1199 · friends to lovers fluff reactions ୨୧ skinship, unestablished relationship archive
은혜 : this is the first work i'm posting after a good month or so >< i've been so busy with exams and other things but i pulled through and wrote this during a period that freed up during school!! it's not my best work, but i hope you guys still enjoy!! i'll try my best to be more active ~
REBLOGS AND FEEDBACKS ARE APPRECIATED
myung jaehyun
jaehyun talks when he’s nervous. which is why your study session has mostly been him filling the silence with scattered thoughts about how unfair the history exam was, how the teacher stole his phone just because his alarm rang and how one of your classmates cheated but he “won’t name names.”
at some point though, he realises that you’ve stopped replying. he glances to his side. you’re slumped slightly forward, your arm bent beneath your head, fast asleep beside your open textbook and notes.
“you’re actually sleeping,” jaehyun mutters, his lips jutting out the slightest bit. “did i bore you that much?”
still, jaehyun shifts, shrugging his hoodie off to gently drape it over your shoulders. he pauses for a second before pulling it snug around you, careful not to wake you before sitting back, blinking down at his untouched question booklet.
he frowns.
“could’ve told me if i was boring you,” he mumbles, but his words don’t have bite. “and i don’t know what these questions mean.”
he doesn’t even pretend to study anymore. he just sits beside you, flipping your pen between his fingers and watching you breathe like it’s the most interesting thing he’s seen. you’ll definitely be mad when you wake up to see all the unanswered questions in his book, but that’s a problem for another time.
park sungho
you’ve been holed up at your usual corner booth, textbooks and half finished drinks scattered across the table. sungho’s voice had been the only constant. low, steady, teasing you every so often when you lost focus mid sentence, probably because you hadn’t slept in a good day and a half.
“you always make me carry the conversation,” sungho mutters, nudging your cup closer.
but you didn’t reply. he turns towards you, sarcasm loaded, and then stops cold.
your head is resting on your folded arms, face buried against the sleeve of your sweater. you’re fast asleep, the kind of sleep that only comes after fighting it for way too long.
“seriously?” he mumbles. “you fall asleep on me of all people?”
sungho leans back in the booth, tipping his head against the cushion, and sighs. “you’re lucky i like you,” he says quietly, glancing at your peaceful face.
when your shoulder slumps a little, he instinctively reaches out to steady you, arm looping behind you without thinking. his hand brushes your back once, like he’s checking to see if you’re real. or maybe he’s just making sure you’re still breathing after he saw you take three cans of red bull yesterday afternoon,
lee sanghyuk
you’re both sitting on a park bench after school, your backpacks between you, the sky turning pink and orange with sunset. the conversation had gradually faded into a comfortable kind of silence, only interrupted occasionally by the rustle of the leaves from the tree above you and a chirping of summer birds.
riwoo had noticed your head tilting slowly, your eyes fluttering shut. but he didn’t expect you to actually fall asleep on his shoulder.
he freezes. “wait are you–” he tilts his head slightly and you don’t move. “are you seriously sleeping?”
he can feel your breath against his neck, and for a while, he just stares forward, the faintest hint of a smile playing at his lips.
he tries his best not to read into it and fails completely. you murmur something in your sleep–unintelligible–the type of thing he could definitely spin into something he can tease you with.
riwoo pulls his hoodie sleeve over his hand and adjusts your head carefully so you don’t wake up with a nasty neck cramp. he looks away as he does it, face a little red.
“this doesn’t mean i like you or anything,” he mutters.
“okay. maybe a little.”
han dongmin
you’d been whisper bickering over a shared study worksheet, hunched over a table with you pencils and passive aggressive sticky notes, when you energy finally ran out. as it should, that’s what taesan thinks–you’ve been giving his snarky remarks for a good hour now. taesan caught the change in your posture first, how your pen slowed and your head dipping.
he glances over, annoyed, ready to make a cocky comment, only to see you completely out, your cheek resting on your folded arms, dangerously close to his elbow.
“you’re not serious,” he mutters under his breath. “you’re not actually sleeping when he have a project due–”
you shift slightly in your sleep, your knee nudging his under the table. taesan swallows, blinking down at you sleeping and exhales like it physically hurts him.
he sits there for a while, stiff and unblinking before he finally reaches over, so slowly it’s almost ridiculous, and slides his hoodie off to drape it gently over your shoulders.
you stir, but don’t wake. his hoodie’s big on you, and he looks away immediately, jaw clenched and face burning.
when a classmate passes by and sees, raising an eyebrow, taesan mutters about how “it’s not what it looks like.”
kim donghyun
you’d gone up to the school rooftop to escape the cafeteria noise, as usual, leehan in following with two bottles of pocari and that calm look in his eyes.
he notices how your replies start getting shorter, your eyes heavier.
when you nod off beside him, your head gently bumping his shoulder, he almost doesn’t react. leehan just blinks. looks down at you. Blinks again.
then–the faintest smile.
he doesn’t move. doesn’t flinch. he just watches the wind pull a strand of your hair across your cheek and reaches out, brushing it back with the lightest touch.
“you should sleep more,” he murmurs, voice quiet. “not just here.”
his shoulder shifts slightly, adjusting so you’re resting more comfortably. you don’t stir. leehan watches your brows furrow in your sleep, the way the corners of your lips twitch. you look pretty in the summer sunlight.
“i’ll wake you before lunch ends.”
but he never does.
kim woonhak
the game controller slips from your hand mid-match.
“hey, y/n?” woonhak turns, expecting you to be annoyed at his overkill win. instead, he sees you curled up on the couch, face buried against a pillow, your legs tangled in the blanket you’d been fighting over minutes ago.
he blinks. grins.
“seriously?” he whispers.
he carefully sets your controller down, then kneels beside the couch to check if you’re faking. “if this is some kind of trap because i triple headshotted you because i'm just too good–” he leans closer. sees the even rise and fall of your chest. the softness of your expression.
he tugs the blanket over you, then just sits there. watching you sleep. thinking about when exactly the friendship between you two got this comfortable. he also thinks about how well he did in the last match, too bad you fell asleep before he could rub it into your face. then he gets up and tiptoes to the kitchen, returning with your favourite snack. he places it beside you like some kind of offering.
“i’ll eat mine now,” he says quietly. “you can have yours when you wake up.”
he pauses for a second.
“you really should’ve seen my kill just now.”
#🖇’𝘑𝘜𝘚𝘛𝘍𝘖𝘙𝘠𝘖𝘜#⠀ ˊᯅˋ★net.com#boynextdoor#bnd#bonedo#boynextdoor x reader#boynextdoor fic#boynextdoor scenarios#boynextdoor reactions#boynextdoor au#boynextdoor fluff#boynextdoor imagines#boynextdoor headcanons#boynextdoor oneshots#boynextdoor smau#boynextdoor thoughts#boynextdoor soft hours#boynextdoor drabbles#jaehyun x reader#myung jaehyun#sungho x reader#sungho#riwoo x reader#riwoo#taesan x reader#taesan#leehan x reader#leehan#woonhak x reader#woonhak
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I was talking and I mentioned that I have my old Game Boy and original Pokemon cartridge. I said, "I think they still work."
I was told, "The internal batteries on the Game Boy cartridges have run out. They're all dead."
"Oh," I said, trying not to show how crestfallen I was. I felt like I was losing nerd cred for not knowing that, although I never kept up with that type of info anyway. I'm here for the fantasy and imaginative aspects of games, and tend not to follow the competitive or technical details.
I tried not to feel anything as I went home. If they were real animals, I reminded myself, I would have had to say goodbye long ago.
But like so many other people, Pokemon was my childhood. It was all I thought about and dreamed about, and the closest thing I could imagine to heartbreak was the knowledge that they weren't real. I spent nearly all my time writing longhand self-insert Pokemon fanfiction--far more than I spent actually playing the game. My Pokemon were with me in my imagination wherever I went. I started playing Pokemon Blue when I was 5, and the last time I had played it was probably when I was 9 or 10. I remembered I had turned it on again one more time after that, not to play it, but to look at my childhood Pokemon.
It was during high school, after a move overseas that completely upended my life, and I was struggling with the crushing blow of being taken away from everything I knew and trying to make sense of anything (least of all adolescence) in another language. All I wanted was to go back to childhood and have everything go back to how it was before.
Seeing my Pokemon, just as I'd left them, had comforted me. I had looked at their stats pages, taken photos of them with my digital camera (that I don't even know if I still have), and then turned it off without doing anything.
That was probably 9 or 10 years after the games came out. It had been a long time since then. I had long since taken the AA batteries out of my Game Boy Color and left it untouched. I didn't even have AA batteries anymore.
It had worked then. But now it had been 27 years... I thought about not trying to turn my cartridge back on. As long as I didn't turn it on, I could believe my Pokemon were still there, the way I remembered them.
On my day off, which happened to be Pokemon Day, I googled and read that some people on forums and Reddit were still able to play their original Pokemon games.
Then... it was possible. I went out to buy toothpaste. At the store, I asked where I could find AA batteries.
It was a big thing for me to be able to go to the store and buy things myself. When I moved at age 13, I felt like something went wrong with growing up. It was difficult to follow what people were saying, and people didn't always understand what I said either. I had been introverted even in English, but now I had enough negative experiences that I became afraid and stopped trying to talk to people altogether.
I threw myself into video games and reliving childhood memories. The internet was where I could communicate in my first language and understand. I lived online and didn't interact with the real world. On the internet I felt like I was understood and could find people who shared my interests the way I did, but in the real world it always felt like I could get hurt if anyone knew me.
I realize now that I could have had a better experience overseas if I'd known how to adapt and socialize, but this was not something I knew even in English, and trying to learn in another language made it ten times harder. I'm sorry now for missing out on interactions that I know I could have had, but I just didn't know how. I wouldn't know how until I learned, and it took me a long time to learn.
I grew up online, in the company of others who had trouble fitting in with the real world, even in their own language. Those experiences shaped me, and the friendships I've made and support I've received online are invaluable to me. The internet gave me a way to live, and through it I learned how to interact with others. But in many ways, for many years, it felt like my life was put on hold and I stopped growing up.
Several years ago I moved back, to not far from where I was born, and I was able to work for the first time. I began to interact with people and feel like I had a place in the real world.
After shutting myself away for so many years, every little step I made out in the world felt terrifying. But every little thing I did on my own made me feel like I was living for the first time.
Even something as little as going to the store and buying a pack of batteries.
I was directed to a shelf at the end of an aisle, and found myself looking at a rack of lithium AA batteries. Did they not sell the old kind anymore?
I walked around to the other side and was relieved to find the familiar black and brown Duracell batteries I'd known from my childhood. I felt more confident about putting in a battery that looked the same as I remembered. The smallest pack they sold was an 8-pack for $12.99. I really didn't need 8 batteries. I didn't have any other devices that used them.
I thought, what if I turn it on and it doesn't work and I'll have wasted $12.99?
I also thought we might already have batteries. I might be able to say, "Mom, do we have any batteries?" and she'd pull out two AAs from a drawer somewhere and I'd save my money.
But somehow I felt like part of what was important about this was being an adult and being able to buy my own batteries.
Yet... what if it just ended up making me sad? Was it better not to know?
I went to the checkout with just the toothpaste and stood hesitating at the edge of the checkout line.
If I didn't get the batteries now, and it turned out we didn't have any batteries, I wouldn't try it. I knew I would just put it off until even more time passed, and then... "Are you in line?" someone asked me.
"No," I said, and I turned around and went back to the shelf.
I bought the batteries.
At home, I took out my original Game Boy Color from the drawer where I left it, the one my dad had surprised me with when I was 5 years old and that I had brought overseas and back.

I put the batteries in and turned it on without a cartridge first to make sure the batteries were inserted correctly. The Game Boy logo scrolled across the screen and it made the familiar blinging Game Boy startup noise. I turned it off again, satisfied.
I took out my original Pokemon Blue cartridge, momentarily having to remember which way it went in, and slotted it in.
I turned it on, watched the whole Pokemon Blue intro out of nostalgia, and then pressed START.
My heart leaped for joy.
MY POKEMON!!!! MY POKEMON ARE ALIVE!!! 🥺🥺🥺
My original Pokemon, that were with me in 1998 when I was 5-6 years old, are still with me 27 years later. I want to cry!!! I love the old sprites, I'm SO happy to see them again 😭😭😭 the Pokemon look so little and cheerful at the same time, which I love 🥺🥺🥺 I know there are people with many more hours on their games, who have leveled all their Pokemon to 100. But these are my Pokemon who were with me through my childhood, and I spent many more hours making up stories about them than actually playing the game. I'm so happy to see them again 😭😭😭
All I want is to see my Pokemon. My other Pokemon are in boxes. Now, how do I get to the nearest PC? Where am I?
Oh... Oh. I have to confess something. When I was a kid, I was scared of the dark cave areas, and whenever I got to them, I stopped playing for a while. (I was stuck at Mt. Moon until I was like, 7.) So I never actually beat the game.
And here I am on Victory Road, with the team of Pokemon I was taking to the Elite Four, without an Escape Rope.
The only way for me to see my other Pokemon is... to finally make it through Victory Road, after 27 years?!
#pokemon#pokemon blue#kanto#gen 1#long post#text post#i know long format blog posts aren't standard here but i don't know where else to put this#i'm so happy i've had tears in my eyes. i had the BEST pokemon day i could have imagined#some people may be surprised i didn't just have a team of water or grass types but it was my first pokemon game and i wanted to be balanced#(also.. i'm not actually even sure i knew how to swim yet at that age?! i think i learned when i was 4-5)#BLASTOISE!!! my original blastoise my favorite i'm so happy to see him again!!! ;;---;;#i started training a drowzee because i needed to put pokemon to sleep for catching and hypno ended up just being so strong i got so attache#kitty helped me earn money to buy pokeballs with pay day#i always thought vulpix was incredibly cute and ninetales was awesomely beautiful#it was a tradition for me to have a haunter in every game because gengar is just so cool and cute (though i never had anyone to trade with)#but it's okay because haunter is also very cool and cute and i love my haunter#and i had a pikachu like red and yellow (but mine evolved!)#sorry about the overexposed 'screenshots' it actually takes a frustratingly long time to edit them into anything presentable even like this#but there's something nostalgic to me about seeing it on an actual game boy (color) instead of only the screen itself
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#this is one of my favorite pokémon of ALL time. this is one of those pokémon that#when it first came out‚ i had such a Visceral reaction to. i couldn't get over this fucking dog. and i still can't#THEY CAN'T FUCKING SEE!!!!!! AHJGSAKDGASJGDSKCGAJVCKABCKB#i love it SO much it's so fucking. cute. it's so fucking cute. so happy to see that blue haired bitch in the sv dlc having one#DAS IST MEIN BABY. I LOVE IT. lord this is the best. gushing over this dog#while also listening to discO-zone for the first time in a Long time#which is one of my favorite albums of all time. right next to probably vylet pony's cutiemarks and the things that bind us#and burn pygmalion from the scary jokes#there you go. there's my music taste lain out flat. kinda all over the place but discO-zone is one of those that i've loved since i was#a real youngin. and i just rediscovered it last night and UUUUUUUGGHHHH IT'S SO GOOD#MUSIC!!!! AND DOGS. feeling GOOD this morning#by the time this posts‚ it'll be like. two weeks later. but past me was feeling great when she posted this#about to start shiny hunting pawniard for a friend's birthday. technically getting eggs as i write this#wish me luuuuck..! it'll probably be his birthday by the time this posts. lemme check#oh yeah this is gonna post two days After his birthday. hopefully by the time this goes up i've already got the pawniard#HI FORGOT TO TAG THIS ONE#hisuian growlithe#hi from the future again lol his birthday was like a month ago by this point because i ended up queueing up this guy before all the gmax#forms. i totally forgot them. and this whole time i've been queuing them up and shoving them Above this guy. so it was even longer ago#that i queued this guy up at this point. teehee!
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Coming here to say masc presenting Julie is one of my favorite Julie ideas out there and that, of course, I needed to make a femme presenting Frank to compliment @cyanwyrmy and their wonderful Julie!
#welcome home#frank frankly#julie joyful#not a genderbend#fanarts! for u!#I'll admit...I've had this lineart for a long time#I wanted to color them too...but I botched the job!#also my LINES...the colors...they eat them#which I'm still sad about...this has to be one of my favorite line arts ever#maybe one day I'll try coloring them again...on digital#for now tho#making this to tell you masc presenting julie has lived rent free in my head since they were presented#and I would be a fool for not helping to include their partner in crime!#i love these two besties so much#sooo tempted to just post julie tho...I swear she is one of my best line arts out there#my art#masc presenting julie I adore#genderfluid julie joyful#repeat: not a genderbent for either
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taking requests (kind of)!
I want to challenge myself to sketch while I'm away (I'll be unavailable for 1-2 weeks starting tomorrow), so if you have any requests: drop them in a reply or send an ask, and I'll try to sketch it! Nothing fancy, just some fun pencil/pen doodles :)
Apart from that, I'll also try to continue working on the bonus Lafayette chapter for Coelestia (most of the chapter is done, I'm just the slowest writer ever lol)
In the meantime, here are some wips I'm cooking up:

🧡 Which one do you want to see next? I will say the first two wips are comics :)
And feel free to call back my old wips too, aka: the still-unfinished wips from my wip bingo cards (some of which are so old to me now that they look like different people! Also, many of them are part of longer comics, which are a big undertaking, and that intimidates me lol…) I don't want to abandon them; sometimes I just need some encouragement.
#that third wip is from March...time flies...every day I wish I could clone myself#ngl a lot of the remaining wips in my bingo cards (from JAN and FEB!) are for the same Long Comic#I've done the storyboards and most of the lineart for it...it's the backgrounds + coloring that are very daunting to me#I didn't include all of my wips or sketches but there's more (not pictured) + ones that I have/had(?) plans to animate#did I bite off more than I can chew? idk anymore!#I am just a creature.#she's trying her best#amrev
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said goodbye to him feeling weird!
#hes abt to go skiing w his friend im abt to go back to the uk to an ordinary life#he is perfect and I've felt appreciated none of the time and i think it's not his fault idk#not how racemic compounds work not how amphetamines work not how people work#french suits his mouth but german does a bit more i think . climbed to a very beautiful place#asked him to be my boyfriend then almost took it back yesterday. chemistry is not his strong suit#he carries things for me he catwalks he gives me his jumper when im cold he's good at kissing#he got me a beautiful necklace on a riverside in amsterdam he lights my cigarette with his#he holds my hand and his only complaint about me putting lipstick on his lips is that it wasn't evenly spread#his eyelashes are long and he's sharp and scarily productive and very good at navigation#always on time always the right place . i make a comment about being a beautiful collective and he says yes but it's odd that we havent#received the social benefits of it. what you mean? well when im alone or with friends people just...give me things. flowers baked goods#compliments a pack of cigarettes he says. he asks me if I've ever had to pay for a pack. i felt genuinely SO UGLY like am i. downgrading u?#ppl see me next to you and..what you get negative attractive points? gosh.#unfortunately shutting the fuck up is not my strong suit so i never let that go. he says nooo it's just you are So Gorgeous that you scare#people away. OK!!! he knows he's pretty and he uses this to his full advantage#you're cool and you're friends with all the club bouncers and you take such good care of me and you know#the state secrets and we can scheme murders together and i love that you love your friends#but when i joked we wont get to see each other in months and you said 'so?' that rly did smth very upsetting!!!!#twisting and backtracking is his strong suit but unfortunately seeing it happen is mine#and sometimes it's endearing and sometimes i want to kill him about it. he would be a very good diplomat#who the fuck stumbles gracefully on cliffs? anyway his voice is gentle and he says i don't want you upset#he holds my hands he says lets talk about it please i want you to know i appreciate you#he says all the correct things i believe 0 things out of his mouth and he can tell#i am snappy and terrible and calm. i tell him he's sweet and i want more i want to be missed#SHUTTING THE FUCK UP IS NOT MY STRONG SUIT! would you be ok being just friends? eventually.#and the next day ive decided what to do with you. what is that? you can still be my boyfriend. he says thank you.#walking is our strong suit so we go everywhere. i tell him about my best friend his head looks great thrown backwards#im afraid this is too good for me and I'm also afraid it's not enough. not asking questions is not my strong suit.
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If any non-writers want to have a glimpse into what it's actually like to write, then here. I've been stuck on this lame half-sentence for approximately thirteen days now.
#rambly little life updates in the tags. just chatting!#anyways this last little bit of Method Acting isn't going to be much over ~2k and I actually mean it this time.#I know I go over projected word counts constantly but I really think I know what I need to do with this and it shouldn't take long#and yet I can't get it down. I've got some parts of it in another doc but it's not cohering yet.#Why do I have to have an actual life that I need to do things in? why can't I just stare at google docs 24/7???#worrying about life stuff is my number one writing block inducer and unfortunately it's a busy time of year.#I'm finishing my degree in the next month which is great but the job market is... not the best right now ❤️ which is stressful.#so I guess I'll have a lot more time on my hands soon but I'm not really happy about it lol. I'd rather be employed but alas.#I live in a federal worker heavy area so you can imagine that the local job market is a little chaotic and crowded at the moment.#lots of very experienced people are back to job searching right now.#I think I'll do some volunteering with either the library or some clerical work with the local fire/rescue squad and see how that goes.#I need to pad my resume. I HAD a good one to go into the veterinary field but that derailed circa 2020#and unfortunately I don't know how far I'll get in non-medical non-animal fields with a skillset like 'reading dog radiographs'#or 'proficient in catching and handling reptiles'. they don't really need that in a hotel receptionist.#well. nobody THINKS they need that until there's a rat snake where it doesn't belong (which is their favorite place to be) but I digress.#so anyways now I'm kind of aimlessly wielding a gen studies degree amidst a collapsing... well. everything. a collapsing everything.#but hey. I've got The Characters to get me through it.#if nothing else then I have some yeehaw escapism and other wips/some oneshot ideas to start messing around with.#this got very off topic but oversharing online is ALSO something I've got to get me through it 😅#we do what we can these days.
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#y'all my birthday literally just started and it's been one of the best birthdays I've ever had in a really long time.#all my friends were so HYPED TO CELEBRATE **MY** BIRTHDAY and it honestly made me feel so loved and cared about#i was absolutely astonished by the love and time my friends put into their respective pieces and I love them absolutely to bits#my boyfriend also spent most of the day making my birthday cake 🥹 because i told him i wanted strawberry shortcake....#I JUST REALLY FELT SOOO LOVED TODAY#i still am just shooketh they were EAGERLY WAITING FOR MY BIRTHDAY...like WEEKS THEY WERE HYPED AND IDKKKK THAT JUST SO HEARTWARMING TO ME#i absolutely love and appreciate my friends soooo much. idk where I'd be without them#URRAAAAAAGGGHGGGGGGGGGGGG WORDS LITERALLY CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW MUCH JOY I FEELLLL#literally sobbed when they were showering me with words#😭😭😭😭😭 I'm love them sooo much#💗💖💗💖💗💖💗💖💗💗💗💗💖💗💗💖💗💖💗💖💗💖💗💖💗💗💖💗💖💗💖💗💖💗#Steph sent me the gift so early i woke up and was blown away#SoBS THEN IT JUST DIDN'T STOPPPPPPLPPP PLEASEEE BESTIES MY BIRTHDAY JUST STARTED 😭😭😭😭 IMMA SMOOCH ALL OF YOU
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When you see a post about romance or kissing or sm and just for a second you can't help but think of the person you're in unrequited love with.
#When you fall for someone harder than you ever thought possible#When you fall for the one person you should never ever have fallen for#And you love them beyond the universe but they will never love you back#Not in that way#They love you as a friend and you've been best friends since childhood#And then it creeps up on you and one day it slaps you in the face when you look at them and think oh. OH.#I want to spend my life with this person#I want to cook with you forever and pick flowers with you in our garden and paint the walls of our house#I want to dance with you and kiss you and watch the stars in each others arms#But you will never love me back#Even though I will always love you#Your smile#The way your nose wrinkles when you laugh and the way you say my name when you're scolding me#I cannot destroy what we have#And I will not dare to take the leap#I may never say it#But I love you I love you I love you#And I've been running from it for a long time#Picking people at random and chasing after them#To put as much distance between myself and my feelings as possible#But I can't help it anymore#I had to get this out somewhere. I know my blog isn't ideal#But at least she doesn't have a tumblr
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Trying 2 be so normal rn
#spent a lovely 3 days and then a v heavy last night w him . i cried into his arms and told him all the little worries & none of the#overarching things causing them. i was so afraid that this display of weakness would end everything and when we woke up the goodbye was so#short so i called him on his way back home and told him everything. he seemed to understand but im still scared but at least he has an#honest version of me ig. idk#he is lovely and hes trying to help etc idk if i've ruined everything but yh#anyway met w my friends i havent spent time w them in a while its been nice to listen to them#and look at them . and theyve said nice things#and comforting words. i have to remember that people dont just end up hating you#i was shielding my eyes from sunlight and a few of them put their hands up to shield me more#((hand over hand over hand over hand) and two weeks ago i remember i was walking with two of them and i said that i was cold and they took#their jackets off at the same time. i remember this buzzed but not sober.) i think i suppress the good things as a survival instinct and#I wish my head understood it makes things harder. Requires way too much evidence to believe anything and little evidence to doubt anythin#anyway i like him n i want this to work. im glad i have my friends. im glad he has his#and his space. he has people there and i have them here and im happy he can afford to live how he does#and i have a rly good therapist now and i hope itll help. Ps he looks lovely in my eyeshadow#i like holding my friends hands#the worst case scenario is that it's over. Ill see him around his city and#It might be painful but i'll live. I wont ban myself from all joy.#the best case scenario is that he understands what i said and he feels empathetic towards it and he will do what he can to help#and that he doesnt like me any less for it all. the best case scenario is what he said is the case.#im writing this post over the course of. 57 minutes and 25 seconds rn#one of my friends just had his hands around my shoulders he said its been too long and i agree#Ok im home now gn i have to wake up early tmrw morning#I rly hope its all ok#I hope itll all be ok
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The Sous Chef who dreams of the Sea - Sanji Week 2024 Day 2: Baratie
#Very lazy drawing this time ik but I've had a long day#This is the best I can do right now#Anyways love sanji he's my bbg#Sweet prince <3 <3 <3#Op#One piece#Sanji#Sanji fanart#Baratie#sanji week 2024#sanji week#Ord odd art <3
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my boss's boss's boss was talking to me and a couple of others about the importance of diversity in a team and they turn to me and go: I'm sure you know things we dont, you probably think of things that we'd never think about and that's so important
which I totally agree with of course but the only thing that came to mind when they said that to me was venom porn. Tentacle porn. Tentacle dildo.
not sure if this is the dynamic you want me bringing to the team but I've got you if so
#me sliding my eyes over to the wall as I picture a very detailed tentacle dildo: yeah for sure#Anyway I actually just had the best night#It's been awhile since I've had a time like that#So happy rn my mental health is temporarily cured#I'm going to sleep soon though because holy shit it's been a long day
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it's amazing how almost all of my friendships (and by almost all i mean Every save like three) are ruined by my own self essentially swerving into a wall and crashing on purpose due to my inability to believe my company could ever be even slightly desirable to anyone and i'd rather just burn it all and die than see myself as someone who intrudes and abuses people's kindness out of my own selfish desire to want companionship.
#i was going to post something similar the other night but i fell asleep instead#but i was thinking about how truly all cases for me boil down to#>i talk with someone and we have a great time >they express a level of joy in interaction >i get weirdly attached too quickly#>i am comfortable enough to openly be myself which inevitably ends on a weird interaction >i talk too much and am too clingy#>i convince myself that that was actually awful and annoying and not something anybody wanted to hear#>i decide to leave and never be seen again because i don't want to be hated more than i already am in my head#>i am miserable because i really wanted to keep talking to that person#i just had a random two day-long chat with someone who messaged me and we had a good time talking about chainsaw man#and it truly took not much time for me to start going off about other shit until i noticed replies got so much shorter and alienated#and i just stopped altogether. because yeah man you're not here for this and you're probably too polite to tell me to go fuck myself so#i'll just do it for you.#and I KNOW that that's a me problem.#I KNOW that that's my own brain convincing itself that i am worse than i actually am in the eyes of others#and i am AWARE of how unfair that is to anyone else. it speaks to a clear lack of trust that is also my fault#but there's also a reality that i'm just. Not someone that people are particularly Excited to talk to#and i feel like i've wanted nothing more than that ever since i lost it when i was 15 years old#i am Tolerable at usual and a Cartoon Clown at best. and none of those serve as particularly deep connections.#and i know that that's once again a me problem. and i shouldn't ever place that expectation on anyone. that is not fair. and i try not to.#but like. is it bad for me to want that to begin with?#should i just abandon the idea altogether and accept that yeah i am just destined to be a crazy hermit murmuring ramblings by themselves#is that the Morally correct thing to do? to just be alone? that's for sure what it feels like to me#that yeah that's what my life is always going to be. no joy in connection or sharing. just an endless stream of thoughts by myself.#that way at least my life won't get in the way of anyone else's lives.#and like. i am always hoping that someone would make a deliberate attempt to reach out to me even if i'm hell bent on isolating myself.#because that would be a proof that someone cares enough you know? that I Am an active choice that someone makes.#but that never comes. and that's not something that would be fair for me to expect or ask for either. would it?#might as well hope for a unicorn while i'm at it.
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