#This is from sometime last year i think?? enjoy
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niamhings · 3 hours ago
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thanks for tagging me 💙
Squid Game, Kakeguri, Gossip Girl
Green with dachshunds on them
Depends how I feel
Either skirt+top+cardigan or dress+cardigan
Scrambled
Mainly the receipt from buying the book
Pastel pink+black
CDs and Kpop merch
Rain+the scent it leaves on hot pavement
Random quotes/lyrics that are kind of vague
No
I don’t think anyone considers me a best friend, so idk who mine is
Pen, always black (unless it’s a title or something like that, then I may use colour)
In bed with all my plushies
I had Francis, Blob, and Irene, but they died after I went on holiday for a month, however the Council of Elders is still alive (terrarium). I’m planning on getting more
I got a hoodie from doing the school musical last year. It’s grey and says the musical name+cast on the back
I got a diary for school
I would want to see the Library of Alexandria
idk it feels like ages since I last celebrated Halloween
Using data to make graphs
I don’t have a favourite, but I really like Monet and Ivan Konstantinovich Aivazovsky
Depends how I feel
Musical theatre songs, and also lots of Taylor Swift and Hozier
I’ve driven once, it wasn’t on a road, I was kind of okay
I have two ear piercings, I definitely want to get more piercings (only on my ears), and I kind of want to get a few small tattoos at some point
I haven’t in a while, but I like both and I’m pretty good at both. I prefer baking, and I made cinnamon scrolls once that I want to make again
None on keys, but I have some on my pencil case and bag. I have a Stray Kids lightstick, a duck with a knife (not a goose), a rainbow pride ribbon, a Cinnamoroll one, and one from the school musical last year
I’m not particularly fast, but I enjoy swimming, especially snorkeling
I LOVED legos. I want to do more now. My favourite set was probably one of mg Lego Elves sets, I’m so sad they stopped making them.
We Don’t Talk About It
I can’t remember exactly, I watch a lot, it was definitely a Kpop mv
Pastel pink curtain bangs
Earbuds, I listen to music for long amounts of time and headphones hurt after awhile
Yes
An otter called Peach I got from an aquarium last year
I have no idea, I can’t remember the last time I went to an arcade
If anyone else is there They Must Leave
I listen to a bit of Olivia Rodrigo, and I watch an anime called My Happy Marriage
I got into the mock trial team at my school, and I had my first singing lesson of the year
Probably cherry blossom trees
It doesn’t say, and I can’t tell
I have Genshin Impact and Cookie Run Kingdom. Genshin is my favourite
On, I can’t risk it because sometimes there could be a spider and I HATE them
Save it until I can use it somewhere
Sometimes, if I’m writing quickly it becomes atrocious
The K-pop girl group Izna
Only if I’m on my own or with someone that I can just chat with, and I’m allowed to take breaks
I have a soup bowl with a little lid to keep it warm
Sleep
Middle of winter, rain and thunder, extra blankets, surrounded by my plushies, warm socks, getting to sleep in and stay like that
@hannamoon143 @itz-zipper @wandering-aloneo-o @transparentpenguinbackground @k1meoo @alilovesbuses @spri0ts @random-blender-nerd @wiltyflower27 @mycosylivingroom
50 Questions Just Because
What are three shows in your watchlist that you’ve been meaning to get to?
Describe your favorite pair of socks
Do you like smoothies?
What do you wear when you have to dress nicely?
How do you like your eggs?
What do you use to keep your place when you’re reading a book?
What color dominates your closet?
Do you collect anything? If so, what?
What sounds or scents calm you down?
What’s your favorite kind of uquiz question? (Lyric, color, aesthetic, etc)
Do you wear glasses or contacts?
What’s something about your best friend that you love?
Do you prefer to write in pen or pencil?
What are some places where you feel most at home?
Do you have any houseplants? Do any of them have names?
Describe your favorite hoodie. How long have you had it? What makes it unique?
What’s the last thing you ordered online?
What’s one historical event that you would have liked to have witnessed?
What’s your favorite Halloween costume from when you were a kid?
What kind of math are you best at?
What’s your favorite period in art history, your favorite famous work and/or your favorite style of art? If you don’t know any that’s ok!
Iced or hot drinks?
Which songs do you like to sing in the shower?
Are you a good driver?
Do you have any piercings or tattoos? Are there any that you want?
Can you cook or bake? If so, what are some of your specialties?
Do you have any keychains on your home or car keys? Describe them!
Can you swim very well? Do you like swimming?
Did you play with Legos as a kid? What was your favorite set?
Is your closet organized? If so, how?
What’s the last music video you watched?
If you could dye your hair any color, regardless of how you think it would look, what color would you choose?
Headphones or earbuds?
Can you read analog clocks?
Describe your favorite stuffed animal, either now or from when you were a kid.
What’s an arcade or table game (air hockey, ping pong, etc) that you’re really good at?
Do you mind if others are in the kitchen when you’re cooking or baking?
What’s one show you watch or musician you listen to that your friends know nothing about?
What was the best part of your day today?
What’s your favorite kind of tree?
What scent is your deodorant?
Do you have any games on your phone? If so, which one(s) is/are your favorite?
Do you shower with the lights on or off?
What do you do with spare change?
Do you have good handwriting?
What’s the last thing a friend recommended to you that you looked into and actually liked?
Do you like to go on walks?
Do you have a favorite plate or bowl?
What’s your favorite thing to do when it’s raining?
Describe your perfect sleeping conditions
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writingwisterias · 2 days ago
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WAITER! WAITER! Need me different era leons reacting to reader starting sobbing during rather chill argument. Idk if this make sense😭😭😭 i mean like if theres no fights or loud talking during the argument, leon is just complaining and being real abt it but it hurts reader bc they are sensitive and they start crying
HIII!
I actually love this, I'm the type of person to cry out of anger and super sensitive LMAO! I hope you enjoy <3
Warnings: Arguments, comfort, GN! Reader
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RE2:
You weren't really sure where the argument had come from at first, the day had seemingly turned out okay at first until you both got home
Maybe he was just overwhelmed from adjusting back to normality after the 2 years training
But it didn't mean he needed to pick at your outfit or just get annoyed at you in general
You tried not to let it get to you but after his 3rd comment you broke
His complaints weren't meant to be taken to heart but he forgot about how sensitive you were. How you haven't been through what he has
He's quick to change his tone, one that's more soothing and comfortable as he eases you.
Whispering sweet nothings in your ear, pressing you as close to him as he can in a hug to ensure you calm down with scent of him
He will apologize don't worry
RE4R:
It was barely an argument more of a disagreement over chosing the film to watch
He wasn't listening to why you wanted to watch your comfort film. Why today was hard so watching the horror he has lined up was not good
It was a short comment, one that you wouldn't have been bothered about normally but today you felt extra fragile
When he hears your sniffles he freezes in place it goes straight to his heart
He's smothering you with his love and affection because he feels bad, the comfort film is on and you won't be leaving his arms until he is sure you are okay
Infinite Darkness:
He's stressed at work, it's not his fault he's slightly short with you
And it's not your fault you didn't read his tone very well
He wasn't angry at you rather complaining about an ache he couldn't shake since his last mission
When offering ways to help he snapped saying that he could deal with it on his own
you didn't take offense to it understanding his need to be independent but it struck a nerve causing you to tear up
It only made it worse when he started to apologize and cuddle like you deserved it
You did. It wasn't your fault but somehow you wired your brain to think you made it worse for him
When you start sobbing he's moving faster to make sure you calm down, he knows your over reaction also isn't your fault and he should know to word his sentences differently
Damnation:
He didn't really notice that there was an off tone in his voice so he also didn't notice you were upset until he heard your sniffles
I think he would be confused at first a bit reluctant to give you the affection you needed to calm down but he's genuinely confused
He wasn't angry just annoyed at something and you are acting like he's stabbed your family member
Eventually he does comfort you and it's a long intimite comfort session.
I'm talking cuddling and running his fingers through your hair. He would apologise as well, its only a small gruff one but he knows your reaction isn't your fault.
He find it's cute how much you care, despite it being overwhelming sometimes.
RE6:
Again he relieves Raccoon City again almost within the events of the game
He keeps most of his composure until he gets home
You get the brunt of his anger and frustrations. Having to tip toe around him as he relives trauma.
It's not until you see he only acts this way with you that you snap. You can't help it you are angry with how he's treating you
I feel like hell attempt to come up with some bs that he's just that comfortable with you he shows a different side but he's not even falling himself
Promises to work on it and you have some understanding of his situation
You will get kisses and cuddles after
Vendetta:
He's a mess, you know it, I know it
So he's going to be snappy,short or even just not himself
He's really struggling at this point so when you do snap I think he's going to respond negatively at first
As he sees you grow more sensitive he will start to feel bad and it's actually his apology that makes you cry
The idea that even in his struggles he still cares about what you think is enough to make you cry
He's sorry for being a dick but also just confused at how him simply admitting that is enough for you to cry
Death Island:
Not in a harsh way but he would start to laugh, only because he finds it so cute
He's reassuring you that he's not actually angry his tone just doesn't always match his words or the joke doesn't come out the way he wanted it
His laugh makes you laugh and helps calm you down
I imagine he's very good at distracting you from everything that made you upset. A stable wall for you to use in order to calm down.
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rigordoll · 19 hours ago
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Sweetheart.
contains: college!AU, RE2Leon x Fem!reader, friends to lovers, kissing, suggestive at the end. This will have eventual smut in a future pt2!
I'm not an expert writing, English isn't my first language but interactions, reblogs and comments are appreciated!! enjoy :3
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When you started college you were scared as fuck to be honest. All your teacher's from high school and even your parents told you that college was hell and it was a completely different environment for you, that you must be very careful and not go trusting in every person in your way.
They weren't wrong about it but to be honest college wasn't so bad as they pictured it. Yeah, there was some weird people that you wouldn't approach to them even if you got payed to do it but they didn't mess with you or something.
You would say that college was almost like high school if you weren't failing almost every subject in your first semester, that was definitely the hell part. However, you managed to improve in the second semester and it went 'easier' for you, at least you weren't failing anymore.
Well, actually...
You were failing mathematics.
Imagine your face when you saw the test and realized you didn't know a shit about algebra, you were most definitely cooked.
It was hard as fuck and no matter what, you wouldn't understand it. Thank God you had Leon, he was the first person that approached to you in college and since then you sticked to his side.
He was such a sweetheart and helped you a lot, made the study sessions more bearable with his incredible bad jokes and actually explained to you what you didn't understand in the class.
Even right now when he was seeing your test and explaining you why your answer were wrong so it wouldn't happen again.
"Now, seriously, what the hell went through your mind to think that this was the correct answer?" Leon said without looking at you, he was focused reading your failed test and he genuinely looked offended at whatever you put on there.
"It's not that bad! give me that." you said with a huff, taking the piece of paper from his hands and put it into your bag without much care.
"Oh it is bad..." He said with amusement, if he dared to laugh at you, you would punch him in the middle of his perfect face. "But hey, seriously... you need to get a better grade in the next test." Leon said softly. "You can come over to my room and I'll explain you the basics." He offered.
Leon always offered to help you with your studies and he actually did explain well. It's just that you sometimes didn't pay attention to him.
I mean, you did payed attention to him, just not to what he was saying...
In your defense, being alone with Leon in his room was an appealing idea... Just not to study. You wouldn't lie, you may have a little crush for him since the beginning but you always pushed those feelings aside because he only saw you as a friend.
"You mean, later today...?" you asked, raising a brown with curiosity which caused him to roll his eyes. "no, later next year. Of course later today, silly." Leon said with amusement and you huffed at him. "But it's friday..." you already had plans, going to a party, drink, dancing and maybe hook up with a guy and pretend that it was Leon. Last part is clearly a joke, don't do that! but anyway, college life is good.
"I don't care, see you at 6pm." He said playfully before leaving.
Fuck him, but you did wish that it was in the literal sense.
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You were standing in front of his door and it was actually 7pm, ops.
but in your defense, you were busy getting ready to the party since you were lazy as fuck to to go to Leon's room then go back to your room, change your clothes, doing your make up and then go to the party, it would take her ages.
Before you could even knock the door, Leon had already opened it and it took him a moment to scold you for your tardiness since his cold blue eyes were roaming your figure and taking in your clothes option, now that was short skirt but the top was pretty, it was his favorite on you even if he never told you.
Leon cleared his throat before looking at you with a serious expression playing on his face. "first of all, you're one hour late. Second of all, why are you dressed like that?" He asked with curiosity, stepping aside to let you in before closing the door behind you.
"There is a party tonight at 9pm..." you said softly with a shrug before sitting on the edge of his bed and looking at him.
"I see, I hope that you don't drunk call me at 3am." He said playfully while sitting on the desk chair that was beside the bed. Anyway, he knew that if you called him he would pick you up without thinking twice but that isn't the matter here..
"I don't promise you anything.." you said with a chuckle while looking at him, he was dressed in grey sweatpants and a blue random shirt but damn, his biceps were on display. Focus, hoe!
Leon smirked at your answer and shook his head with amusement before searching for his notes. "Let's just get started with this so you can go to your party." He said softly.
An hour passed by with him explaining you the basics and teaching you how to do some exercises.
Honestly, you were having a bit of trouble focusing when he looked so fine and smelled so fine, you always wondered was cologne he uses because it smells heavenly. You also noticed him stealing some glances at you, more than usual.
Maybe it was because he was staring at your thighs and at how soft your skin looked... or maybe he was staring and your chest everytime you leaned closer to him to see what he was writing. he was most definitely having the time of his life when he caught you staring at him with pretty eyes while biting your pen before snapping back to reality and noticing how dumb you probably looked. He wouldn't call it dumb tho, more like hot but hey, he never said this.
"I think I got it, look." You said softly, passing him your notebook where you have just finished a exercise. Leon took notebook from you, his fingers grazing yours but seemingly completely oblivious of it.
He took a moment to check if it was good and you waited there patiently, when you heard a soft hum from him, you leaned closer. your head next to his and you rested your chin on his shoulder. "is it good?" you asked quietly.
Leon turned his head to look at you and now his face was mere inches away from yours. His eyes went directly to your lips and it took all his willpower to not kiss you right there since you were looking absolutely gorgeous there staring at him with doe eyes and glossy lips slightly agape.
Leon licked his lips and quickly looked back to your notebook. "Yeah, it's good." He said softly before looking back at you, you were smiling and looking at your book in his hands.
Leon didn't know why but his heart was beating against his chest, his hands felt sweaty and suddenly the room felt a lot warmer now, is the AC working or what the hell?
The tension was in the air and you when you met his gaze, you noticed his rosy cheeks and dilated pupils while he stared at every detail of your face. Suddenly, you remembered why you liked him. It's those cold blue eyes that look into you with intensity and adoration without failing.
You both just stared quietly in each other's eyes, none of you said anything or did anything even if your bodies were betraying both of you and itching for being closer to each others warmth.
It was such a comfortable silence, a silence that spoke volumes.
So it didn't surprise you when you hear the words. "I really want to kiss you." coming from Leon's mouth in a quiet tone as it was secret that he was telling you.
You just took a heavy breath while looking at his pink lips before nodding at him. that was enough for him to understand, he always understood your silence even if that happened rarely.
To be honest, you felt so cozy and warm when his lips touched yours. you swear that you felt butterflies in your tummy when he started to kiss you slowly, taking his time with you and his hand going to cradle your face.
It felt so right, Leon wonders why he didn't do this before. Why didn't he kiss you in every chance given?
It didn't took long before you were beneath him on his bed, kissing each other and exploring each other's body through the layers of clothes.
It seems like you weren't going to that party anymore... Leon's much better that any guy that you could found there anyway.
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HEYYYYYYYYYY, I'll leave this here.
I'll probably make pt2 later that will included an attempt of smut since I still figuring out all this write thing, but anyway, enjoy!
(I'm taking requests BTW)
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fleurriee · 22 hours ago
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Fleurr, can you do one where the reader is slowly developing memory loss?
here you are, love!! this is a really angsty one that made me shed a little tear just thinking about going through this, but i hope i did it justice <3
pairing ; neteyam x fem!reader
synopsis ; your mind is slowly beginning to dwindle, but neteyam is forever by your side.
themes ; angst!!! with a little fluff, memory loss
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Forgetting things was a part of your life now, as permanent as an extra limb.
You don’t recall the first time it happened, the first time you stood there, mouth agape and confusion etched into your eyes, as your brain tried its damned hardest to recall something in particular.
There’s something ironic in that you can’t even remember that.
At first, you knew you’d brushed it off as just a simple mistake, one of those moments, one of those days. But, as those days crept on, it slowly started to diverge from a rare occurrence into a common one.
Sometimes, it would be the smallest of things, things that you could argue you were bound to forget at some point — where you last left your hunting knife, what you had for dinner the night before, little things like that.
It wasn’t until you couldn’t remember someone’s name, where it really started to hit you hard.
And, unfortunately, that it was one of the things you do remember. Probably because of how embarrassed you were about it.
Nothing about that day was any different — you felt the same, you were happy doing the same things, everything was normal. When night had descended upon the clan, and you spotted a group of Na’vi in the near distance, one of them doing a stupid impression of another hunter from that day, that was when things had changed for you.
Turning to Neteyam, who sat beside you as he started to gather your food for you, you had laughed, enjoying the impression, and began to show it to Neteyam. But, the name wouldn’t come to you. You knew that boy, because you’d been hunting with him for what felt like a million times, talking and laughing, so how could you forget his name?
Your laughter had subsided in an instant, a frown creasing your brow, and Neteyam knew almost immediately what happened. Unbeknownst to you, your mate had been keeping an eye on you since the first time he’d noticed you forgetting things. He supposed it was only a matter of time before it would start to get serious.
Tears had welled in your eyes when the slow realisation that this was truly happening to you knocked you back harshly, turning your head away as you slumped down, mentally exhausted. The comfort Neteyam offered was nice, was appreciated, but even he couldn’t fill in the gap that was your fading memory.
One of the hardest things was coming to terms with it all. At first, you’d refuse the notion, your stubborn self adamant that these little random blips were just one-time things, but a little part of you knew that was never the case.
You’d think, after years of living such a way, you’d be somewhat used to it. But, it never gets easier, despite the help those around you offer.
Today was a particularly bad day. Not in the sense of forgetfulness — throughout, you’d managed to not forget anything, with is a miracle in of itself — but, you just felt… off. Your reality was just a constant nagging sensation in the back of your mind, nothing able to coax your thoughts away from it, not even spending time with your mate.
The two of you are sat close together, hidden within the depths of your kelku (home), the materials draped down so as to give you some privacy. Privacy was something you relished in nowadays, thanks to your… situation.
As you huddled with your mate, hands deftly toying with strings and beads as you continued on with making a new necklace for yourself, you began to wonder down into your thoughts, eyes slightly glazed over and unseeing.
When Neteyam noticed your fingers had stopped in their movements, his gaze pointed at you. His heart all but dropped at seeing your expression.
With a deep sigh, almost as though to prepare himself, he gently nudged against your shoulder so as not to startle you. When you bring your attention back to him, he nods down at your almost-formed necklace. “It’s beautiful,” he says, voice gentle, patient, as always.
A faint smile graces your lips, but it doesn’t reach eyes. Your head drops down. “You’re just saying that.”
Neteyam’s instantly there to care for you, a heartbeat barely gone by. He reaches out, brushing a stray strand of hair out of your face. “I would never.”
But, he would, and you know he has done. There’s nothing malicious to it, of course — Neteyam does it to make you feel better, and you’re immensely grateful for it.
He’s not right, though — the necklace can’t be beautiful because it’s wrong. Something’s missing, something important. You blink repeatedly, hoping your mind might change the way it looks, but nothing happens. As your fingers move the necklace between your hands, you try to notice something off — this was a pattern you know you’ve done many times, on many different pieces of your clothing, and yet, you can’t remember.
You can never remember.
This was supposed to be a little gift to yourself, but now it just feels foreign.
“Neteyam,” you whisper, voice nothing more than a caress, shaking. “How do I normally do this? I can’t remember.”
And, there it is — the inevitable.
He can feel his heart clench within its cage at your words, doing his upmost best to keep his face from betraying how it truly makes him feel. He knows you more than likely know, but Neteyam will always do anything to keep you from feeling anything less than you should.
Despite this being nowhere near the first time it’s happened, it’ll never fail to feel like it is. Every time you forget something, it feels as though he forgets it, too. The two of you are in tune together, two bits of invisible string wrapped tightly together. Whatever you feel, he feels, and every time your heart breaks with disappointment, so does his.
With a tight smile upon his lips, his large hand covers yours, gently moving them around as he guides you through. “Here,” he murmurs, allowing the two of you to work together as he swaps some of the beads around, creating the pattern that is oh-so you. “Like this — how you always like it.”
Neteyam shouldn’t be surprised when you lift your head to find tears pooling within your eyes. “I don’t remember,” you choke out, shaking your head in denial. “It’s like… it’s gone. Like a piece of me is missing. It always feels this way, but it never gets any better.”
Ewya, if Neteyam could wrap you up within the safety of his arms for the rest of your lives, he would. He’ll just have to settle for now. And, when he does, your body instantly melts into his, head falling onto his chest as you begin to hear the steady drum of his heart, a lullaby to your ears. “It’s okay. I’ll remind you, every time, you know that.”
The one question that’s always nagged in the back of your mind since this all started years ago forces its way to the front, and you can’t hold it back any longer. Not with the worries always crossing over one another. “What if I forget you one day?”
Neteyam stiffened. He won’t lie, he’s thought of that, too, but, in the middle of the night, when he awoke tossing and turning as he worried more about you, he realised he’d do everything to make you remember him.
He pressed a kiss to the top of your head, hearing you sniffle away your cries against him. “Then I’ll remind you who I am. I’ll do it every day if I have to. No matter how long it takes.”
There’s silence for a moment, before your arms wrap tightly around him, squeezing like your scared his disappear completely. “Promise me.”
“I promise. I won’t ever let you face any of this alone, yawne (beloved).”
You don’t know how long the two of you stayed like that, wrapped within one another’s embrace and the promises between you. The necklace was long forgotten, memories of your past together flitting in and out, relishing in the love for your mate. And, you would hold onto those memories as tightly as you could, with Neteyam on the other end of the cord, guiding you home each time they dared to slip away.
All you could hear was the almost-drowned-out noises of the clan outside your kelku (home), but Neteyam could hear nothing but the vows he made both to you, and to himself. If you ever got to that point where you forgot, he’d always be there to remind you of who he was. And, he vowed that he’d always be there to fight this slow battle with you everyday, day in and day out. Even if it drained him. Even if it killed him.
Because to Neteyam, you were worth all the hard work, worth all the pain, as long as there was a smile on your face.
Always.
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clarisse0o · 2 days ago
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The Mayor - Chapter 31
Lucy Bronze x Ona Batlle
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Alternate Universe: Mayor and Architect
Words: 800
Masterlist
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  This Monday morning, I smiled, reminiscing about the weekend. On Sunday, we had explored the turquoise blue coves around Marseille. It was with regret that we returned to the gray skies on Sunday evening. She had to go back home to her children, while I returned to my place, greeted only by an empty fridge.  
I grabbed my computer and sent her a message.
 How’s the easy girl doing? 
 "Did you eat a clown this morning or what?" 
It was Alexia, who had just arrived at the office. She observed me, surprised.
 "Ona! What did you do this weekend? Your face is all sunburned!" 
Indeed, Lucy had been right. September's sun could be ruthless, and it had clearly left its mark on me. I was busted.
 "Uh, I was in Marseille!" 
She sat down in front of me, staring.
 "You didn’t tell me! With who?" 
Caught.
 "With Marie! It was a last-minute plan, Saturday morning." 
 "Marie, that girl? Why don’t you ever tell me anything? We’re supposed to share everything! Does she work for the FBI or something?" 
I smiled at her.
 "Sorry, Alexia, I’m telling you now. It just happened, that’s all!" 
 "Tell me, are you having romantic little weekends now?"  she teased, winking as she walked out of my office.
 "Very funny, Alexia. We’re just enjoying life, that’s all!" 
My gaze shifted back to my computer, where a new message had just arrived.
 Fine. And you, Miss Tease? 
We fell into the habit of seeing each other regularly, Lucy and I, almost every two days in the weeks that followed, sometimes at her place but mostly at mine. She also took me on a weekend trip to her parents’ chalet in the Alps, filled with walks, restaurant outings, and passionate nights. I let myself go, not thinking about what this relationship was or where it was heading. Nowhere, I assumed. Sometimes I wondered what Lucy felt, but we never had that conversation. Out of modesty? Fear of hearing the truth?  
Through small hints, a few words, we showed our affection. But what level of affection was it? It was especially hard for me to go more than two days without feeling a longing for Lucy. I had a visceral need to touch her, to see her, to feel her presence.
  That Thursday evening, we were at my place.   I had work to finish on my computer, while she was poring over a huge city map, punching numbers into a calculator.
 "What are you working on?"  I asked her.
She turned toward me, her glasses perched on her nose.
 "I’m calculating the number of people responsible for security during Saturday’s Pride parade along the route. A real joy!" 
I frowned, and she added:
 "there’s a real risk of disruptions from extremist groups like Civitas. They’ve made threats. So, I’m double-checking everything the prefect and police have planned. I don’t want any incidents!" 
I smiled at her.
 "Are you going?" 
 "Yes, I go every year as Mayor. This will be my tenth! Impressive, huh?" 
 "More than me, clearly. Incredible!" 
I remembered seeing her several times at Pride, inaugurating the start of the parade. I teased her:
 "This year, you could ride on a float given the circumstances. I’ll come with you if you want!" 
 "Why not!"  she replied with a smile.  "Even though I’m not gay!" 
I began stroking her arm, still teasing her.
 "Hmmm, not even a little?" 
I moved closer, whispering in her ear. She turned to face me.
 "I’m a straight woman having a special experience with a gorgeous girl." 
 "Don’t take it that way, Ona. I didn’t mean  experience  like that." 
I pulled back, taken aback by her words. The term  special experience  didn’t sit well with me. She noticed my change in mood and tried to backtrack.
I pouted, turning my gaze away.
 "Words have meaning. It’s fine, I get the message." 
She moved closer and grabbed my hand.
 "Ona! Don’t make that face... Consider me however you want." 
She placed my hand against her lips. I pulled it back, straightening up.
 "What matters most, Lucy, is how you see yourself." 
She raised her eyebrows, clearly tired of the direction this conversation was taking.
 "Ona, seriously! Maybe you want me to come out this weekend at Pride? And then you can move in with me next week with the twins? And we’ll live happily ever after with lots of kids?" 
She spoke sharply. I was stunned, unable to find a reply. Realizing her harshness, she softened her tone.
 "I don’t like where this conversation is going, Ona. I didn’t mean to put it that way..." 
But the words had been said, unmistakably. She took my hand again.
 "I have to go; it’s already 9 PM."  She kissed me before leaving my apartment.
I was shaken. Even though I had suspected this wouldn’t go anywhere, the conversation forced me to confront the truth I didn’t want to acknowledge. I realized, deep down, that I had hoped for something more—a real relationship with Lucy, though I hadn’t admitted it to myself. Now, I knew it would never happen.
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aver-eesis · 8 months ago
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Worldbuilding stuff
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starflungwaddledee · 4 months ago
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did you remember to leave space for all your phantom limbs?
⋆。 ゚☁︎。 ⋆。 ゚☀︎。 ⋆。 ゚ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ˚★⋆。˚ ┊ ┊ ⋆ ┊ ★⋆ ┊ ◦ kirbytober 2024 #03 ★⋆ miracle // phantom // magic
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j-esbian · 2 months ago
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maybe the real voltron was the friends we made along the way
#so i finished. feels like they did not put a lot of thought into shiro or hunk's epilogue lmfao#overall i dont think it was Bad. it could have been better yknow. but again. it feels like they just needed a little extra time to breathe#in development. it's just bones.#i do think perhaps some of the criticisms i have seen of it are just from people pissing on the poor#i could fix her!!! ough i really do want to rewrite this sdnfksjfd but that would unfortunately require. having to watch this again#and i cant do that in 24 hours#im so sad this is disappearing. this is the only show for which i ever stayed up for the midnight PST release#back when only season 1 and maybe 2? were out i used to watch them constantly. sometimes in spanish to practice#like i wouldnt have ever finished without the threat of it leaving but this is the worst timing to reawaken my affection for it lmao#grateful for it. wish i hadnt waited so long#i did need time to forget the insanity tho bc if i had made myself keep going and finish at the time#it would have poisoned the ending i think. nice to finally watch those last 4-5 episodes with a fresh perspective#but at the same time this is How Many Years ive missed out on being able to talk about it lmao#maybe there is a renaissance. idk i havent looked into it too much but i guess i should now huh#we'll see if things are any different or if it's just the same shit i got tired of the first time around#but anyway. the show is still fun and i enjoyed it for the most part. very sad to see it go#mine#voltron
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buttercupshands · 9 months ago
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my friendship with canon ended now fanon is my new best friend
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but first a cute bird
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basically my mind decided that it's now free to draw whatever AUs and stuff that I want including random stuff like this
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and this!
I think my way of coping with 423 is just... ignoring it ever existed so now it's just this and an occasional canon stuff
but good for him he deserves to have all the fun fanon can offer
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fun fact: this was the first sketch out of all of them in this post!
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applejongho · 6 months ago
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honestly the y**ngi dui situation is one of the most interesting events that has unfolded in kpop... maybe it's bc he was my ult for ~3 years and my dad loves him (he has not spoken a word to me about The Situation tho so idk how he feels) but i do think the reaction that came out of fans is why it's so compelling for me to follow to a T
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shorthaltsjester · 4 months ago
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being a huge fan of tlou but also like. thinking that certain stories are built for certain mediums. like the entire theme of tlou2 is grounded and fresh because it’s a railroad/story video game that still affords you mechanical choices in how you navigate the world. i just don’t have a lot of confidence that presenting that story in a tv show with the minimal adjustments that they did in s1 will be fulfilling or compelling in any comparable way. because with tlou1 some of the like. beauty of that story was simply that it was such an emotive story contained in the medium of video games. and some of that was retained just by hitting similar or expanded emotional beats in the show, like the episodes that expanded on the life of the characters and the realities of that world. but truly so much of tlou2 emotional depth and ‘why does this story matter’ rests in the fact that’s it’s your hands on the controller, continually choosing to go forward in the story and have hope that it will work out in your-as-ellie-or-abby-or-somehow-booth’s favour. and you simply cannot get that in a non-interactive medium like television. like i do think tlou2 is a good story but it’s a good story because of the investment required by the player to keep pressing buttons and keep returning and to feel the adrenaline like responses of high intensity moments and be jarringly shifted into backstories that only increase the frustration. in general i’ve been thinking a lot about cross-medium adaptation and on the one hand i am glad that season 1 makes the story of the last of us more accessible to people who wouldn’t pick up a video game but it’s also like. maybe instead we can destigmatize video games as this inaccessible and dangerous medium a bit more instead of just . implicitly agreeing . like no maybe your mom won’t pick up a video game controller and play the last of us . but maybe you can play the game in the living room. sometimes the mediums that stories are told in aren’t just important but are actually foundational parts of how the information of a story is conveyed and that’s not only okay but is fucking fantastic. we should be happy actually that there are so many ways to collect a bunch of themes and ideas and put them together and hold them out to someone else and say “won’t you consider this with me. won’t you feel these emotions and care about these characters with me.”
#i’ve been thinking about this both for academic and personal reasons#where like. my thesis literally includes discussion of tlou2 and it’s profundity because of the players position as in control but without#real decision making power in the story#and it’s like. you’re the person animating these two ptsd ridden women who subject themselves to be puppets to their#own grief . and there’s something particularly resonant about the fact that you can’t change the Story. you can only play it.#and like . i’ve talked with my mom a lot about the last of us#since i played it the first time and it really just rocked my shit. and i remember walking out my bedroom after i’d finished tlou2#feeling that odd mixture of empty and completely fulfilled by a good story with tears in my eyes#and a few years later when i visited home and had happened to bring my ps4 along with me and i was having a rough time#my mom asked if i’d want to show her tlou. because she knew i loved it and because i’ve told her it has tropes she’d enjoy#but the only games she’ll ever play are point and click because she’s stubborn and some physicality stuff#but like i remember sitting on the couch just. playing this game and it wasn’t the exact same as her playing it herself . but sometimes her#commentary was like it was.#i just. idk man. tlou lover wants to be hyped but seeing the exact same visuals from the game just in tv show format is like#. what’s the point. why are you distilling the themes by removing the active (non)agency of the player and#replacing it with the passive role of ‘watcher’ in a story so emphatically about having an active role in the action#anyway#tagging this#tlou#for blog organization but this isn’t discourse or whatever just me thinkin my thoughts on my blog
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reticent-fate · 8 months ago
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part 11/26ish
anyone remember those scales with the springs in 'em? all i ever see these days are digital scales but those things made the best noises. i think i've seen some kitchen scales that still use spring mechanisms, but it's been a while.
technology is weird.
from the beginning
#otherkin hrt#fictionkin hrt#fictionkin#otherkin#digihrt#dg arts#-apomon#updates might slow down from daily since our brain ceased letting us do art about halfway through bfsdhjfbjshdbfs#oh well#i'm thinking of doing another fake in-universe pamphlet for a bonus though#specifically like talking about the “weight” stat#fun fact: we'd never stepped on a scale in almost a decade before finally seeing a doctor for the first time in that 10 years last year#we used to obsess over our weight in a way inherited from our mom's diet culture BS and then like#i'm pretty sure we split someone in the system who just managed to not give a shit#and everyone else that did basically got put in time out or fragmented to hell (we still don't know)#i think about this post i saw a while ago that talked about how like#weight (specifically as it is medicalized) shouldn't be a concern so much as if you're moving your joints and stretching them enough#and it should really only be a concern when it drastically changes in a short period of time because it can sometimes be indicative of#your body flipping its lid#the post talked about rapid weight loss specifically and how a lot of doctors will go “oh wow weight loss!! yay :)” when like.#no??? not yay???#anyways some medications can cause weight fluctuations too#our fibro medication can cause weight gain and tbh i don't give so much of a shit about that as i am curious about the mechanics behind it#our relationship to weight is mostly informed by being the one person in our family who never had to deal with fatphobia targeting them#but just because we weren't the target didn't mean it didn't affect us when our mom's whole life shifted around WW#i didn't want to delve into that in this comic tbh so aside from the little bonus pamphlet this is the last time it's brought up#but like a comic where we take a version of ourself through this kind of transition would inevitably have to touch on relationships to food#we're just lucky we finally found out that we can actually like... enjoy food without it hurting us?#part of the wish fulfillment of this scenario would (and is) the idea of getting to enjoy food without bodily discomfort#because on top of us almost developing an ED we also just have a garbage stomach
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adore-gregor · 2 months ago
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ayyy
#winter holidays ^^#i need this#i will finally have some time to do things i enjoy and see people again 🥹#normally i'm always a bit sad almost when uni ends because i'll miss it#the rhythm of it and all the classes there and people#not that i don't like the winter break#well this year i'm more glad than sad i still like uni but i'm just sick of telling people off bc i have no time#and also i miss some of the people i had classes with last year and also my sleep schedule is sooo bad#i'm so looking forward to sleeping like a normal person again#i will still have to study for exams (and also train) but i will try to fill my time with things i enjoy#like playing tennis 😍 i would play everyday honestly if i could#and i want to catch up with friends from uni i just hope they#*they're still in the city during the holidays bc often that happens that no one is there anymore 😅#but on monday i still have uni football but without the uni 😂 it will be a relaxing and fun day and i will buy some christmas gifts :))#altough now i'm on the way home to my parents and i will probably spend most of the time there#even though i like living in my uni city it can get lonely especially in winter and i realized i much prefer living with others#and right now my relationship with my parents is better than ever which makes me so happy 🥹 because it was rough sometimes when i was young#and i especially want to catch up woth that good friend of mine who left uni unfortunately 🥲 i will text him if we want to meet#anyways i also think i will feel better during the holidays being active and nature usually helps in winter#aaand it's only 2 more months until february and the days will get longer so i will get through this#honestly kinda sad but hey one day i plan on moving to a place with longer days and warmer weather hopefully that will help 😅#like i was so happy in summer i still remember ... like once spring comes around i operate in a good mood again#nevermind#rant
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yellowhollyhock · 2 months ago
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idk maybe this is a symptom itself and I just don't know how things work, but the reason I don't think I have adhd is because being bored or under-stimulated is such a foreign idea to me
like if I could spend the next ten years alone in a small room with no visitors--actually that's one of my favorite daydreams tbh. I go do things because I have to in order to live not because I'm done staring at the wall
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hiddenbeks · 8 months ago
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thinking abt her :)
#oc: heidrun#yknow i finished the dragonborn dlc the other day. for the first time in my life lmao#i think the last time i attempted it i finished the path of knowledge quest and then just forgot abt the game for several years again#but this time i managed to finish the dlc! it was alright!!#i enjoyed the fight with miraak. it was different and challenging even#i think i prefer this one over dawnguard. it's been several years since i last touched dawnguard so i dont remember everything#but i do remember that i found it tedious lol#maybe i should revisit it one day tho. the questline would work so well with the character arc of someone like heidrun...#like she would totally join the dawnguard thinking she could redeem herself in stendarr's eyes by dedicating herself to hunting vampires.#but then she befriends a vampire... and eventually Finally comes to the realization that things are not so black and white...#and that she doesn't need stendarr or the vigil to dictate what is good and what is bad... and that sometimes... gods are stupid#i imagine solstheim was very stressful for heidrun tho. i mean not the place but the events that took place there#the horrors of apocrypha. having to work for hermy to stop miraak. no longer knowing if she is truly in control of anything in her life...#but at least she found some werewolf friends to hang out with at frostmoon crag :)#wish there was a questline or quest related to them... i need more werewolf content in my gameeee#anyway!! heidrun returns to her cottage near ivarstead after all this to take a well deserved break from world saving <3
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alangdorf · 2 years ago
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❤️ The BOYS are REUNITED!! ❤️
Also some old pics of Ephy (plus a couple drawings of them in Chicory):
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