#This is a ramble

[medusagorgongirl1]

Picture this, Tim drake in his robin era. He's on the young justice team (he is their fantastic and mysterious leader thank you very much), he's batman's protege (and sure that began rocky but it's improving), and his parents are alive (he's gotta one up his predecessors in some way), and you know what, life is good.

Until of course his parents are coming planning to come to town, and he's looking at his grades because they're not that fantastic and everyone wants their parents to see good grades so he's (frantically) picking up the slack

And yeah he probably shouldn't be working on his math notes and homework in the common area, but, well tough shit, logarithmic aren't going to wait

And that's where kon find him, half bent over a notebook scribbling away with his nose inches from his laptop... this is typical Rob behavior in Kon's eyes, though a tad more stressed than usual

"What kinda report has the bat got you writing now" kon questions, looking at the bird who seems enraptured by the wonders of his laptop.

But Rob looks up blinks owlishly and states 'logarithmics'

'Is that a rouges name or some kinda gang, who the hell is logarithmics?' Kon replies mildly baffled cause whom the fuck is calling themselves logarithmics

Rob continues to state at kon, doing that whole analysis stare that makes kon question if he's the only one on the team with x ray vision. "It's 11th grade math" the bird finally states

Kon stares blankly at the Robin, because what?

"I'm doing my math homework... it's logarithmics" The bird clarifies

And that how Robin and Super boy end up smashed together in a chair debating over logarithmic, and maybe just maybe that's when Robin starts to realize that (even more maybes) maybe he likes to hear Kon talk and maybe logarithmics will not ever seem necessary, but hey at least they make him grin a bit

[toobytoobs]

Thinking of if Captain Marvel (Shazam) turned (sorta) evil and how that would happen.

I can’t actually see him going full evil cause Billy to me is a little ball of sunshine. But in the end he is a child therefore is more vulnerable than any of the adults.

So I can see revenge driving him to kill a villain, not inherently turning him evil, but definitely against his morals.

What if somebody kills someone close to him? What if he is forced to finally see the evil side of the world that even the adults can’t always handle? If he were to have a villain arc it wouldn’t be black and white. He’d be driven to do things by corruption and the idea that he was protecting someone else.

Billy is good, but in the end he is also a vulnerable child who has been given a great power that shows him the hidden evils of a world that has already done him so wrong. He doesn’t have the judgement of an adult as Billy, maybe he might as Captain Marvel with the wisdom of Solomon, but he’s also Billy half of the time.

Idk my brain is just making me sad thinking of a world where Billy was given to much power for his mental health to handle and then someone close to him was killed, nudging him off the edge into a pit of grief and revenge.

[theflashjaygarrick]

There's something about pre-Johns Hal Jordan wearing his dead father's jacket.

Hal Jordan stepping into the role of Martin Jordan's son, the jacket being both a comfort a memory and a costume. Almost play acting at being an idealised version of his father but never quite being able to live up to it.

Hal Jordan seeing his job at Ferris air in memory of Martin, because it was what he would have wanted, so that both Mr Ferris and Jessica Jordan could see the ghost of Martin still haunting the air base.

Hal Jordan believing that his father was never proud of him, fearing that he never could be proud of him, but hoping that if he models himself just enough like his dad it might be enough. That if he pretends to be the cocky, charming, and above all an effortlessly manly aviator long enough it will become true. If he wears his father's coat and cuts his hair a similar way then maybe then he can understand why his father was never proud. Maybe he can even agree with him.

But there's also the shadow of that. That cold awareness that as he tries to play act at the idealised father he clings to, the jacket almost like a hug, the parts of his father they don't speak about (because it is not nice to speak ill of the dead) might also be growing within him, whether he likes it or not. The part of him that constantly criticised a young Hal, ignored his achievements, made him feel like he was never going to achieve anything. (and in some dubiously canon stories Martin's habits of drinking and violence that haunted his childhood home). The fear that Hal may have already inherited the part of him that loved the sky so much he loved it more than his family. The reckless stubborn bravery that ultimately killed him, and with it a part of Hal.

So he doesn't think about that, not unless he needs to. He pulls on his father's coat and walks out into the night and stares at the sky and swears to no one in particular he will always be his father's son.

[notnowtobey]

I can’t help but think about how the last time Eddie was near death and imagining Shannon (in the well collapse), he also thought about Buck a lot. And that led to him realizing how important Buck is to him and Chris, and he put Buck in his will soon after.

So I’m imagining we get Ghost of Future Shannon appearing to Eddie. Maybe when he’s having another near death experience or maybe just a dream. And he is finally allowed to get some closure. To talk TO Shannon about her dying and how he really feels about it.

And then I feel like they could talk about the Chris of it all. Eddie admitting he’s doing everything he can for Chris, even sacrificing his own happiness. Eddie talking about trying to find a replacement for Shannon, another mother for Chris and another wife for him. He’s been following all the steps, doing what he’s supposed to, and he asks her why it isn’t working?? And she has to very gently take off his rose colored glasses, and remind him how much work their relationship took. It wasn’t magic, it wasn’t perfect. And it probably wasn’t meant to last. And maybe recreating their relationship shouldn’t be his goal.

I want to see Shannon asking how Chris is doing, and Eddie can’t stop the smile when he talks about him. He can’t stop himself from mentioning Buck and the latest thing they’ve been doing. He can’t stop talking about Buck and how much he’s been there for him and Chris.

And Shannon just knows. And Eddie knows. And then he wakes up.

[edenfenixblogs]

Not doing services this year for a variety of personal reasons (trauma season aftershocks, my grandma is dying (not this second or anything but hospice care has begun) and there’s logistics happening where we need to be available, etc.) But am doing breaking the fast at my cousin’s later.

Instead, today I found peace and meaningful contemplation while finally completing my plant arrangement and care.

Everything repotted.

Everything receiving proper light and care after a proper quarantine period.

Everything watered.

Everything receiving its weekly maintenance (fungicide, insecticide, wipe down leaves, etc.)

This year is hard for a lot of reasons that anyone following me for any length of time wouldn’t need too many guesses to figure out.

But also, this is a holiday devoted to reflection and remorse and owning up to your mistakes and committing to being better.

I struggled going into this day with the idea that so many people should be apologizing to me, yet I know they never will. It felt for awhile like I was being asked to apologize the the people who hurt me for making them hurt me. And I honestly felt resentful and bitter about it.

But the custom here is clear: Apologize. Mean it. And do your best to be better.

So I did. And it felt nice, actually. The trick was meaning it.

I apologized sincerely to people even if I didn’t know if or how I’ve hurt them, just make sure we were ok. And I apologized to people who owe me an apology. But not in a way where I was vindictive. I sat with myself. Because true remorse is the essence of this holiday. And I had to ask myself what I was sorry for. What could I honestly apologize for? Well, I apologized generally and offered to make amends. And not many people took me up on the offer or even acknowledged that I’d apologized. But if they had, I felt comfortable that I found a real and true thing I could say I apologized for and comfort that I could apologize if they replied with something I hadn’t realized.

But what did I find that was real and true in this time?

Well, I apologized for letting my trauma motivate me to see the worst in people sometimes. I apologized for not trusting some friendships to be strong enough to withstand this storm. I should never have let my fear lead me to close myself preemptively to avoid more pain. I shouldn’t test my friends who are already uncomfortable with certain things, in order to see if they actually are still my friends. Even though I didn’t know I was doing it, I still definitely did it sometimes. And I realized that as I reflected on this year and tended to my plants.

Apologizing, fucking up, doing better—these are all things that make us human. And even when we least want to apologize or feel as though others should be doing better, that’s not an excuse for us to lower our own standards for how we behave toward one another. And I can feel and believe that with my whole heart today. I hope it is enough.

G’mar chatima tova chaverim.

[a-heart-of-kyber]

No, no cuz listen.

@dealingdreams and I have discussed how Qimir/The Stranger gives trapped animal vibes. And she mentioned how maybe it was something similar to Ben wherein someone spoke to him from a young age in his mind.

(Kylo theme plays in the distance)

(It literally also played while Kelnacca...had someone else...in his head.)

And idk where, but someone pointed out that his cave has those Cortosis veins. So it, or maybe even the whole island, potentially has a similar veil of protection as the helmet aka blocking thoughts/energy etc.

Which means, if that's the case, this dude is hiding and has been hiding for a long time.

He only seemed to take on the "Qimir smuggler rat man" persona because Mae wasn't doing what she was supposed too and he wasn't even sensed by the Jedi in the force. Overall, he probably assumed he had laid low long enough to go unnoticed without the helmet.

Then he made himself very obvious, and if someone were looking/feeling/sensing they probably found him. Aka, his display on Khofar led Plagueis to the Unknown Planet.

Cuz remember...the helmet broke. He didn't have it on for hours after that fight.

I am personally not going to assume EU stuff is canon until it is made canon. So, while it could be Bal'Demnic, that has not been confirmed. Additionally, just because it could be Bal'Demnic it doesn't mean Plagueis has tapped that resource yet. It could still be unknown to even him until right now.

Now, whatever happened between Qimir and Vernestra, we know she thought he was dead. Aka, he was either actually dead or very close to dead.

(Additionally, this would mean that he initially had no reason to hide from her if he could assume she thinks him dead. So, if he has been hiding, he's been hiding from someone else.)

Plagueis most likely scooped that boy up and treated him like a science project for a bit. Screwing with him mentally in the process (a nice bit of further Sith ideological brainwashing). Then, of course, Qimir became the Apprentice.

(This would make him a bit of an analog of Darth Venamis. Far from the same, but taking bits of him...but also, surviving/escaping being an experiment.)

Which could mean he has been fed the Sith code and the Jedi code by those masters, but he has already had traumatic experiences with Both sides...leading to this lack of care for rules/wanting freedom.

(Aka Power of Two, not Rule of Two "rules rules rules if you never follow them, you never have to break them.")

And Qimir has repeatedly been compared to a Vampire in interviews and has comments and imagery within the narrative that lean that way as well.

(The floating/disappearing, "it was a very long time ago", the implication that when Sol knew him Sol was probably a child...being carried away in a swarm of bats-I mean moths)

I know so many people think Plagueis is involved with Osha and Mae...but I don't think he is, yet.

At the moment, I still think he's there for Qimir.

(Also, I'm not really pro having this guy show up for 3 seconds and suddenly literally everything is about him and he did it all. If he already did everything, where is he meant to go within the narrative exactly? If he already knows how to create life and Has Created Life?...anyways)

I think he's checking in on his potentially immortal or at least inhumanly long-lived test subject... I mean Apprentice (who may or may not have actually been resurrected). And, somehow, said Apprentice has linked up with a woman who was created using the force.

These two are literally Plagueis's version of Christmas.

P.S. I think he wants an acolyte for exactly the reasons he said. We have been repeatedly shown and told that Qimir/The Stranger speaks the truth...or, at least, his truth.

But...this doesn't necessarily disprove my other idea that he wants to draw out Vernestra have her go against Plagueis so he does not have to do that.

Going back to the idea that both of these Masters are powerful and they have both screwed him up royally.

And despite this, he can still fight blind in the force.

He is extremely balanced for someone who realistically shouldn't be if he's fully dark.

[beetlebethwrites]

I've been thinking about the way I update and I have a pretty simple question for you all. It's obviously been a hell of a long time since I've updated and part of that is that Chapter 5 is the biggest so far, with lots of branching and variation to cover all the various 1 on 1 interactions with the gang.

So my Q for you guys is whether you'd prefer an update when the whole chapter is done or whether you'd prefer updates when chunks of the story are done, leaving some branches unavailable while they're worked on. I know @barbwritesstuff does something similar although even more frequent updates wouldn't be anywhere near as frequent as updates by Barb.

Thanks gang! I'm hoping that a possible change might make me better at updating as there isn't such a massive task ahead of me constantly? But I really would like to know your preference on this, I know chapter by chapter is the usual way people do things but I'm open to trying and seeing if something new helps my productivity.

[pussymaster580]

No one understands Jon Snow post resurrection asexual (asexual because of death, and like is your dick really gonna work if your a corpse) x satin flowers ( doesn’t enjoy sex after ya know being a whore, and sees sex as only a form of please / derogatory ) like I do, when I say I like Jon x satin, I need their relationship to be absent of sex but like they are very much infatuated, rely on each other, this is like the only form because, otherwise the power dynamic between Jon and Satin is questionable....... i feel like i should have to explain and i wont

[sloanesallow]

me, expelling some sad resentment, mostly just to get it out so I can stop thinking about it and move on

do you ever find yourself... idk, jealous of the creator relationships within fandom? Like, you see all the stuff people make for each other or create together and it generates not just FOMO but that gross swirly feeling in your gut?

I grew up as the "butt" of a lot of friend groups where I totally thought I was friends with people, but then would find out they were hanging out together without me and making fun of me behind my back.

I've tried to make and foster friendships here, share Sloane in written and artistic form but perhaps she/me is not that interesting, or I don't have anything of value to offer. I've been told "oh I'll draw a scene from your fic for you because we're friends" only to be ignored when I try to reach out again, because I guess Sloane isn't as interesting as other people's MCs. Other times it is stories or game photos or mood boards or anything and nothing ever comes of it. I know I'm not entitled to anything or people's time, but it still hurts.

And I want to do nice things for people but I also don't want to seem like a suck-up just looking for attention. I guess it's easier to isolate, less risk of getting your feelings hurt. I tried to integrate myself on TikTok, but I have pretty much left that behind. I can't seem to make friends here, even when replying to people (it used to be so much easier). And I’m thankful for the Discord community, but even then I sometimes feel…alone or forgotten. It’s perception, but each little cut adds up. But yeah. It hurts my squishy brain.

So like, I think those horrible feelings come creeping back even in my grown-ass adulthood. I think I also set myself up for disappointment a lot, thinking something is going to happen and then when it doesn't I just feel... idk. Empty. Or stupid, which is how I actually feel now when I thought, perhaps naively, that maybe more would happen when I celebrated Sloane's birthday. Just like I wrote in the fic, forgotten.

anyways.

[supurman]

i dont resonate with the fact that they say jon has the potential to be stronger then superman because of his 'human dna.' i am ALLL for comic logic... but it makes nooo sense a human's dna could do anything for a kryptonians dna. kryptonians are described similarly to humans just many times more evolved then them. im not gonna get all sciency here because id be a hypocrite since many things in comics are meant to be seen as face value. however this is just something i cannot see for a moment. 50% human dna would make him weaker. but he WOULD STILL BE EXTREMELY STRONG. though, i really cant see jon as ever becoming stronger then any kryptonian let alone superman. but that doesnt mean he doesn't have other things he couldn't draw on if we want to get into more dna stuff, kon is definitely atleast 90% kryptonian minimum with some human dna in there yet hes written to be one of the weaker kryptonians. yet hes cloned from superman himself? just ...doesnt make sense!

he still is half human. he still is the son to lois lane. he would still be VERY strong, but also have resistance to average super weaknesses like magic and kryptonite. i dont know why they want to make him be someone who surpasses clark so much when he could be so much more in his own way. the more they take from clark to make jon seem better then the more they do a disservice to him.

[perplexingluciddreams]

it's the same language delays and impairments and shit that was the huge huge contributor to why my speech and verbal communication was so terrible and unreliable

just also affecting writing and ALL words. which, like, of course. common sense.

but i so wished it was different and that non-spoken words would mean i could say what i wanted

except the problem is i can't. because the problem is with the actual words, not the way the words come out.

of course there was other speech issues which contributed, but the language stuff was actually probably always the biggest thing. just never could recognise/understand that. and never could express it all in the right way with the right words - BECAUSE going back around to the exact same issue with LANGUAGE.

it is all too complex and nuanced. i can think about it all in my head and nearly grasp the edges of the thoughts with my mental fingertips... but then they slip away before it becomes anything solid enough to try and translate. it is not even raw thoughts, it is like ingredients for thoughts.

i don't even fucking know what i am saying, even in this post. maybe (probably) none of this is what i mean to say. and i will maybe never fucking know, because i can't understand the things i write when i try to read it back. because of language impairment. which has been the whole biggest issue in terms of communication my whole life.

[valzer-col-diavolo]

i need to learn every language. let me learn every language. why can’t i learn every language. LET ME ABSORB THE LANGUAGES

[wiccamoody]

can work be over so i can go home and read issue 1 of the new mystique book

[pixie-mask]

I keep thinking about the Idols and mortals. I think about Pan saying in regards to the Idols that Medusa "loathes us as much as she needs us" and it's kind of like that with the Idols in regards to mortals.

I mean like after The War it's made perfectly clear how scared and uncomfortable the Idols are with mortals, which is valid, but at the same time I admire the story for never acting like the Idols where ever necessarily good people. Apollo and Pan ( and Eros in the flc) bring attention to the fact that in the old days that the Idols were petty, cruel and did as they pleased because they had the power too. That they were better and untouchable and how The War changed their point of view.

Now the Idols hold a different kind of contempt for mortals, but like they also need mortals. Cause without us they literally die. It's said in game that the Idols seek out mortals that they can relate too (namely in terms of appearance though the Muses gave their Eidolon's to whoever). And outside of the uncommon moments not only do the Idols find someone they'd like to transfer to, but they also have to open up to the chosen person who and what they are and hope that the mortal agrees. Aphrodite especially "needs" mortals. Despite what she was put through doing The War we're told in the epilogue that two months after everything she immediately started a "retreat" in which she is worshipped once more. Like she lives for it, hence why there's such a presentation to her "passing on" ritual, at least when Grace comes. It puts into a big persepctuve why Aphrodite actually wanted Calliope to be present. Even if she only finds people that love and worship her the fact that Aphrodite is so easily ready to go back to people so long as it means she'll have followers again.

I'm also just astonished at how Grace is immediately an Idol. Outside of the necessary plot point. Yes Pan pushes her into her power cause he wants answers to what happened to Calliope, but like everyone acts like she should be so immediately different. This happens in some works of fiction, but for all intense and purposes Grace could still be considered mortal. Why would she suddenly do an overhaul on her viewpoint on things after becoming an Idol. The fact that Persephone and Pan are so surprised that Grace would give up her eidolon have such interesting follow up conversations.

Talking to Persephone if giving it up she asks if it was a difficult decision and if it's gotten even easier or difficult living in the mortal world. It gives even more of an insight on how much the Idols withdraw into their own worlds, I guess.

Then you have Pan saying that the eidolon is the only thing worth having, but like...is it? I know that if you save Freddie that Grace can call Pan out on this, but like what's so great about being an Idol. If anything the game shows most of the Idols we meet are miserable and forever locked into the worst moments of their lives. They all can't (rather couldn't) practically stand one another. Not to mention they are diminishing fast with other qualities of being Idols slowly fading. There's also the absolute nightmare fuel of eventually loosing who you currently are and becoming who the Idol is/was.

I supposed the one person you could compare Grace two in terms of new Idol hood would be Hermes, but...and I don't mean for this to sound wrong but Hermes didn't have a lot going on with their life. When talking we know that they didn't have a great home life and was homeless for quite a bit of time before being taken in by the previous Hermes. From what we gather they didn't have much of a life going on so why not become an Idol.

Grace is going through a rough patch in her life but I wouldn't say that she'd didn't have anything going on that would longtime restrict her going forward. I was so surprised that that was slightly touched upon in the dlc.

But honestly speaking of the dlc we can meet Eros just seem to be no different really or just going with his lot in life. (I know we can meet Medusa too but we’re sticking to the Idols). Eros still has a negative insight of mortals as he talks about our lack of interest in discovery. In some ways he’s right but he’s also wrong. So many things have changed or been discovered. But now we Hague different fields of thing lol s being discovered in all sorts of interest. Not to mention people being off born and learning about these things and more as well. Or how we can find ourselves wrapped up in the intrigue of what others like or suddenly develop a new hobby that we dive deep into. It’s a shallow judgement for someone whose world essentially shrunk and has barely grown again.

Hell in the dlc they almost seem…disappointed that nothing much is going on with them. The interest in them came and went if anything though the reveal was more impactful for Pan, Medusa, (and Asterion) so they could go without a glamour in public. They’re trying figure what the hell to even do with their lives. Apollo and Persephone at least seem to have an idea of what to do and hell in one (two?) of the endings Athena is provided a purpose by Apollo.

By all means it means it's like they barely knew how to get by and not they don't have to hide and they don't even know what to do know.

[the-bot-marg0t]

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