#Therapy would also fix me ngl

[naprauxen]

I think hot sloppy steamy lesbian sex would fix me, just saying.

[itshype]

How I Met Your Brother (DC x DP)

Dan joins the Justice League - not as part of his rehabilitation, but as a reward for doing so well.

Tucker makes the grave mistake of mentioning Dan in front of Jazz. And as an eldest sister myself I would not be happy about an alternate version of my sibling being left completely alone in the world, no support, no family to then be turned into a psychopath. And I would be furious for them to then be imprisoned - not for life but for all time?

However, unlike me, Jazz is the world's foremost authority on ghost psychology. She has Dan out of his Thermos and in a larger enclosure within the week.

Now, a lot of fics have Jazz as a magical therapist who can say a few sentences and make any bad guy cry. Sorry, not today though.

First, they resocialise Dan like a feral cat (solitary confinement does make people get loopy), sitting outside his enclosure and hanging out, doing homework etc. This sort of gets him to figure out emotionally that he's no longer in the timeline where everyone he ever cared about died.

Danny discusses with him how many nightmares he's had over just the idea of losing his entire support network the way Dan did and he can't imagine what he's been through. But no emotions are not, in fact superior to having negative emotions.

After a few months, he decides that he does in fact want to actively try and get better. He goes to a therapist (because family members can't do therapy!!!) who's just unhinged enough to get a kick out of counselling a ghost from an alternate timeline.

There's only one relapse. Clockwork fixed it and they don't talk about it.

A month or so later they let him out of the enclosure for good. They offer to symbolically destroy it but Dan thinks they should keep it just in case.

While Dan's humanity has returned, his actual human half is gone forever. But he's interested in doing something with himself. He can't get a GED, or a degree, or be an astronaut. Maybe something in entertainment?

Tucker makes the grave mistake of mentioning that the Justice League headquarters are in space. Dan isn't as powerful anymore now he's no longer a halfa, but he knows he's handy in a fight. He loves space and due to having them repeatedly and ineffectively implemented against himself - a deep knowledge of international war tactics.

NGL, this isn't where I thought this story was going. But Dan is now an international politics, war policy and foreign affairs expert, I guess.

He helps a fair bit on the team, but his key contributions are his encyclopaedic predictions of how different international communities will react to events. If an out of control meta in Paris takes down the Eiffel Tower, he predicts which countries will immediately 'crack down' on their superpowered citizens - that sort of thing. It's invaluable for their PR team and young meta safety.

He's a friendly guy, doesn't judge anyone for losing control of their powers or going 'too far' on a villain who hurt their friends and family. And he never shuts up about his kid brother who is apparently also his best friend. He briefly mentions a baby sister he's never met and that makes everyone pretty sad.

He doesn't consider this Jazz his sister. He's already had a sister named Jazz and isn't looking for a 1:1 replacement. This Jazz is more like a mum-friend. However, he never had a Danny or an Ellie in his last life.

"My little brother told me about the trick to this level in Doomed 17, want me to explain what you're missing?"

"Sorry, I really can't possess you, even for 'anti mind-control' training. That isn't how overshadowing works, you can't become immune without exposure to ectoplasm in dangerous doses. No, I can't get you some pure ecto, my baby brother would kick my ass to hell."

"Yeah, my baby bro and I both wanted to be astronauts, I died so it's not in the cards for me anymore, but he has a real shot still, we're all rooting for him!"

Most Justice League members think he's a dead eldest brother with living siblings he's still in close contact with.

It's all fun and games until he tries to take a bullet for Batman during an ambush and it's actually an amnesia ray designed to make Batman forget about a specific case until the bad guy can complete his plan.

"I killed you all before, and I will do it again."

[quill-firefly]

You know, it drives me crazy to know that technically there’s two (at least in terms of prominence cause I think there’s also a TFA one though it doesn’t seem as talked about) canonical Shattered Glass continuities: the one made by FunPub and the IDW reboot.

Cause the thing is, those two comics have vastly different Megatrons and Optimus Primes.

Like we have FunPub Megatron who is a mathematician and Optronix who was a librarian that backstabbed his way to the top.

Then we have the IDW versions where Megatron is a miner/civil activist who keeps getting tossed into jail and Orion Pax who is a senator in this version.

And what fascinates me is that in the FunPub version, Optimus actually lives (though he becomes Nova Prime). Meanwhile, in the IDW version, I think he dies (?) or well his fate is much worse in comparison to FunPub!OP.

Also what’s up with both Megatrons having a fakeout death? FunPub!Megatron does get killed by Cyclonus but he comes back as Galvatron. Meanwhile IDW!Megatron gets defeated by OP and is momentarily thought to be dead (he just went into self-exile).

There’s not actually a lot of difference between the two OPs (cause honestly they both seem insane), though I guess one could interpret FunPub!OP as much more depressing cause the only reason he’s evil is cause he saw life as meaningless unless history remembers you and when he becomes Nova Prime, he’s still a little jerk but he’s tamer so I assume that was his original personality. IDW!OP just wants total power and only initially hides behind a nice facade.

The two Megatrons are vastly different though in my opinion. Cause FunPub!Megatron really was just some guy who predicted civil war and was good enough to want to stop it (this Megatron wasn’t affected by the caste system, he just genuinely saw something wrong was happening and chose to do something about it). IDW!Megatron was someone who was affected by the caste system and was trying his best to bring attention to it. FunPub!Megatron is also very nice (like not overly nice but he’s genuinely such a nice guy and this is why he’s my favorite aside from him being a nerd lmao). IDW!Megatron is a bit more jaded (which is fair cause the caste system is horrible and his “friend” is an asshole).

Even the relationship between OP and Megatron are different in both continuities. I’m pretty sure in FunPub these two never interacted before the war, where OP gets pissed that this random mathematician is opposing him. In IDW, OP and Megatron were “friends” with OP even bailing Megatron out of jail, though their “friendship” was already toxic even before the war cause Megatron seemed to really see through OP’s BS.

All this to say, there should really be a crossover between both continuities.

SGFunPub!Megs and SGIDW!OP meeting would be kinda fun and dangerous, especially if they meet each other before the civil war broke out. Megatron wouldn’t know who OP is while OP would see another version of his Megatron who he could possibly trick. Also this has the added bonus of a hilarious scenario where Megatron predicts OP is the cause of the civil war through math and that pisses off OP cause genuinely tf you mean you computed that through math. This one is more dangerous though as OP genuinely wants power and will not be swayed by whatever Megatron says.

SGIDW!Megs and SGFunPub!OP might honestly end up the happier version ngl. Cause OP clearly has an existential crisis that Megatron can probably fix by convincing him that OP can still be remembered in history by doing the right thing… such as being a civil rights activist. Like… I’m just saying maybe FunPub!OP needs therapy (and unlike IDW!OP, he actually gets a canonical redemption arc so he’s not completely lost).

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Anyway, will I write this? Maybe (I really shouldn’t though cause I have a series and two writing requests to finish lmao). Because I am officially employed now and thus have a fixed schedule unlike the previous weeks where my schedule was erratic (which is not good for my OCD as I need a fixed schedule or I will be very upset sksksksk) as I had nothing to do but read, play video games, and exist lmao

[rueclfer]

smau series ideas!!! or something!!! idk help me finally commit to it

1. camp counselor au

ngl kinda self explanatory lmao touya x y/n are camp counselors at the camp they used to attend as kids. very minimal angst tbh i want this to be v sweet and tender <3 childhood best friends to lovers type shit! heavy pining! lovesick dumbasses!!

2. fleabag inspired au

not rlly fleabag but the essence of it probably! y/n is going through the thick of it and someone recommends the local church's phone subscription to daily advice/bible quotes/confessions -> enji todoroki is the head pastor for this church -> guess who runs the phone subscription? assistant pastor touya!!! i do want this one to be angstier + confront religious beliefs, eternal damnation, the push and pull between love and religion and touya's daddy issues !!! but also keep it silly u know???

3. normal people inspired university band au

ok i'm merging these 2 eep. childhood family friends x unrequited love/one sided pining x falling out to reuniting in university where he's in a band and y/n is a hosts for the college radio <3 maybe some emotional constipation and misunderstandings and yearning. i want this to be kinda lighthearted thooo.... heavy on loser touya!

4. postwar rehab patients au

canon adjacent? ish? dare i say my rendition of a fix-it? kinda? y/n attends the same rehab center as touya -> heavily monitored, heavy mental + physical therapy. y/n is one of the many severely injured survivors that came out of the war, touya is the reason why they're there. inherently going to be angsty (for touya ssooorrryyy) bc its canon adjacent but also would like a tender "they saved each other" type thing IDK call it hurt/comfort or something

[ghouljams]

how does one become free of insecurity? i’m already doing therapy but i feel i’ve only moved away from hating myself so much i want to d*e into just thinking everyone’s better than me

It's a long journey, but well worth it.

I don't think anyone is ever truly free of insecurity, but I think there's also a lot that is unpacked simply through the language we use to describe ourselves and the jokes we allow other people to make at our expense.

Therapy is great at helping you deal with the big feelings, but sometimes little things get caught in your head and it's hard to shake them. Here are some things that I do to keep myself feeling good, and also some things that I'm working on:

No suicide jokes. I make it a point never to joke about "oh I'll just kill myself" or anything like that because ultimately it just makes me feel worse and nobody finds it funny. It's also a good way to change your thinking and direct your solution brain away from "I'll just end things when shit gets hard." This one is a constant battle.

I compliment myself whenever I have the chance. I take every compliment someone gives me. I pretend to be vapid and self-absorbed. I make kissy faces at myself in the mirror. I tell other people how pretty I am, and I don't fucking care if they think I'm a stupid bimbo because I'm trying to love myself and that's more important.

Being kinder to my younger self. This one feels weird but I found myself being mean to little Ghoul when I was really sad. It feels easy to take out your anger on a kid that didn't know any better, and it doesn't guilt you because that's you that you're hating. But look. You were just a kid. You weren't stupid or ugly or unlovable or evil, you were a kid. I just caught myself calling my teenage self ugly the other day on my way to visit my mom and I had to stop and go "why am I saying this? I was just a kid." And it made me cry a li'l bit ngl, but if felt... idk it felt good in a way.

Don't let fucking anyone tell you, you're not worth it. Does your friend make jokes about how dumb you are? Or how you're so cringey? Or so embarrassing or bad at something or forgetful or WHATEVER? Yeah, fuck that noise. Tell them to stop doing that. Tell them it hurts your feelings and if they still don't stop they aren't your friend, they're your bully. I fucking hate bullies. Don't let anyone talk down to you, I don't care if it was a joke at first, it's not funny anymore. Fuck them.

This is something I'm working on, but when you start fixing one insecurity another will probably pop up. I've been working for a long time on liking how I look, and it's gone really well. But now I'm insecure about my intelligence. So I have to stop myself from calling myself stupid or not answering questions. I just fucking rocked my work trivia party, and Mr. Ghoul thinks I'm smart, so I just gotta keep track of my wins. Sometimes you realize that making yourself secure in one thing makes you insecure about another, but that's ok! There's a learning curve to all of this.

Everyone thinks everyone else is better than them. You don't have to be the best at everything, you don't even have to be the best at one thing! What's important is that you're doing your best. People notice when you're working hard, even if you're not churning out the best product because it means you care about it. Which brings me to

Done is better than perfect. Sure it would be great if you were God's most specialist soldier, but think about how much work that would be! Ok so you're not the world's best knitter, but the scarf you made your friend is their favorite scarf anyway because you made it. So you're not a world class writer, but you had a story in your head and you wrote it down. That's better than it never being written at all. Also just because you think it's bad doesn't mean other people won't think it's a masterpiece. Hell, half of the fics I wrote when I first started this blog I could write better now but that doesn't make them bad, it just means I've gotten better.

We as humans are constantly improving and evolving. Don't let who you are no stop you from striving towards who you'll be in the future. Taking one step down the path towards loving yourself is better than giving up and hating yourself forever. It's slow going, but man I've been doing this shit for a decade and I'm so much happier than I was at 18.

You might think that the more you improve the harder and faller you'll fall back to the bottom, but the lows don't get that low again. You're doing great. I'm proud of you.

[shentheauthor]

Fuck it, I’m bored. Nine sols gender/sexuality headcanons.

Kuafu: Gay cis man. I adore him. Look at him. He’s not subtle. He says jiequan, who literally walks around half naked, is “stylish.” I know what you are.

Goumang: She gives trans lesbian vibes. I also adore her. Free my girl, I could fix her

Yanlao: Homophobic /j. Nah fr tho, I think he’s a cis het man, but like, he isn’t gonna be homophobic or transphobic. I don’t think Penglai has that kind of thing. Grandpa is an ally, yay

Jiequan: That is a GAY MAN. Trans maybe? I haven’t decided, but what I do know is he is GAY. Look at how he talks to Yi. He’s gay and down horrendous and needs some therapy PRONTO. “Gay people who cannot be in a healthy relationship because they suck so bad” representation

Lady Ethereal: Bisexual demigirl, she/they! Also I hate that they didn’t let her keep her original name in the EN version. Fu Die is pretty!!! Dammit!!! But yea Lady E gives me strong bisexual vibes. She also had a thing for Yi. EDIT: SHE CANONICALLY HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH A WOMAN LETS GOOOOO THE BISEXUALS ARE WINNING

Fuxi: Listen. Listen. He and Nuwa are identical twins. ONE of them bitches is trans. To me, it’s Fuxi. Trans man Fuxi is real to me. No clue what’s going on with his sexuality, and frankly, I don’t wanna know

Nuwa: I think she’d fw neopronouns. Her gender is a mess, and she wouldn’t really care to define it. Rotating her around in my brain. As for sexuality, same as Fuxi

Ji: Agender, he/they, and bisexual. The devs wanted him to be agender/nonbinary and I am CLINGING to that. They’re real to me. Also I think they and Jietong had a thing. I won’t elaborate.

Eigong: cis lesbian with every mental illness, banned from all public spaces. She gives old, wise queer energy until you dig deeper into her personality and see oh, she needs to be on some kind of list. Kind of iconic, ngl.

Yi: arospec/aspec, probably agender, but he has a job so he doesn’t care about that shit rn. He/him because that’s generally what people default to. Would not touch jiequan with a ten foot pole. Could have potentially had a thing with Lady Ethereal had everything not gone to absolute shit.

Heng: same as Yi lmao. Genuinely. They’re the AAA siblings

Shennong: Pansexual. Considers himself cis, but there’s definitely something else going on there. He doesn’t want to unpack that. Frankly, he is valid.

Bonus:

Chien: Trans girl

Shanhai 9000: gender is a solarian concept it doesn’t give a flying fuck about (it/its pronouns). Same with sexuality.

Abacus: also doesn’t care about gender or sexuality, but he will accept whatever pronouns. It’s whatever to him.

Shuanshuan: Intersex! Might grow up to be queer, but honestly, he’s just a baby rn. I’m not about to go in depth there

Chiyou: finds the concept of gender fascinating, chose he/him pronouns because he liked how they sounded. So what I’m getting at is: trans Chiyou

[deadassluv]

18 days until chaos theory

That trailer killed me y’all. BROOKLYNN WHEN I CATCH YOU BROOKLYNN. The way she burned their photo without caring is crazy (kinda glad she did cause they need to retake that photo) and YAZZZZZ! If something happens to Yaz I’m gonna lose ittttt, like the girl is doing better give her a break :( The Benji fight will kill me too, but I know I will a 100% be on Kenji’s side. Not that I don’t like Ben I love that stupid blue eye angel. I really need some answers about that Yaz scene cause it’s making me worry. I don’t know if the part where she’s shouting “run” to Sammy is after or before the entire situation with the Suchominus. I hope is not before cause that would mean Sammy actually ran and left Yaz alone. I really want to know more about the new character. Ngl she seems interesting. People say she might be Mae’s daughter, or Ben’s girlfriend, even freaking Darius new love interest 💀 I don’t think any of this “theory’s” (If you can call them that) are genuine. She looks like a 12-14 year old, so I don’t think she’s Mae’s daughter or nobody’s love interest.

Now the reunion…the freaking reunion. This young adults are going to need therapy after that. I know damn well the only ones who might take the situation calmly will be Yaz and Ben. Darius, Kenji, and Sammy are not gonna be okay. We already know Kenji has some anger issues, he literally seems like he was going to punch Ben during that fight, so he’s not going to be happy with Brooklynn. Darius is going to feel sad, betrayed, disappointed. My boy is going to cry, the girl he loves is literally against him. Same with Sammy, just like Darius we can tell that Sammy has suffer a lot because of Brooklyn, and knowing that Brooklyn has been hiding herself from her! And their friends will destroy her. The poor girl hallucinates Brooklynn likeeee yeah she’s not gonna be happy either, she might be mad too.

Actually can we talk about Sammy’s treatment, like what’s up??? Why is the character that cares the most for the group the one letting left behind, like the people she considers her family and her actual family abandoned her. I feel like everyone just puts her in a position that she’s not supposed to be in. Like yeah she’s still the same happy girl but her happiness is so toxic. During the fight between her and Yaz I was nothing but feeling a little disappointed towards Yaz. Don’t get me wrong Yaz’s reason wasn’t bad but abandoning your girlfriend wasn’t the best option, Sammy has problems too, they should be there for each other. And when Sammy says “You sit here and you blame me for not knowing how much you grown? But you left me in the dark, you did that!” And Yaz responds by saying “I did that” she doesn’t denies the fact that she left Sammy in the dark….that’s kind of messed up. I know they “fix” their problems later on but let’s be real…did they actually fixed anything? When everything is over Yaz is gonna want to go back to her island because at the end of season 1 she still wants them to go to her island!! even after what happened?!!

Also I better see more Kenji and Sammy duo in season 2. We didn’t get enough of them in season 1, they’re so sibling coded so I need moreeeee. Same with Ben and Yaz.

Anyways some thoughts and things I wanted to share. Are we ready for Chaos theory season two? Cause I know I am! (I will cry with the first episode)

[curious-about-dramas]

The Heart Killers EP 8 - (text) reaction

We're already 2/3 done with this. I don't know whether I love or hate this.

Also, I told myself these posts will be text only, but I sooo wanted to make gifs for a bunch of scenes from this episode.

PART 1 / 4

We begin with fadelstyle, lovely :) And immediately Style turns it sexual, of course. "Did you get turned on while we were on the way or what?" I feel like most of the quotes I am writing are said by him, he really has the best lines.

Style's helping with the fake story on why they're looking for Bison - that's a really good lie he's telling, ngl. It's as close to the truth as possible, it's plausible. For someone who's told the least amount of lies in this show, not bad. Also, he's also looking for Kant, which Fadel obviously is less interested in.

So demanding, Style! Although I guess after that scare at the pool and driving all day, he must be quite tired. Still Style is really not taking his kidnap as seriously as he should be.

He's not your boyfriend anymore, Fadel? Are you sure about that? I love seeing him fighting/denying Style like this. (And Style not falling for it.)

Also, LMAO the lady is sooooo helpful. One glance at Style in that crop top and she's willing to help out, condom and lube included. Just like the lady at the market. (In all honesty, I would too.)

Kant is already back on land, safely in bed. And wow, how did I not notice before that tattoo on his left arm?! It looks so big and dark.

Yep, beach house that Bison proposed in that previous episode. Also, this means that Bison brought Kant into his real home, in (probably) his real bed. Where is Bison, though? Ah, gun ready, I see.

He's hurting so much, oh Bison. And Kant knows and sees and still goes for it "How did I make you feel?" I feel like Kant would be a great police negotiator, with how he's dealing with Bison, both now and on the boat.

"Fast. Hard. Furious." - OMG Style, I feel like you should have asked yourself if you got turned on on the way there. Aren't you coming on a little bit too much? Love his confident smile though - Dunk is seriously pretty; lets see how long it lasts.

Fadel is soooo not having it, LOL.

The hand movement exactly like in Style's fantasy from episode 3 - Fadel moving Style's hand all over his own torso!!!!!!! Literally a dream come true for Style. This should be celebrated.

Fadel's face says otherwise though, damn! Yep, handcuffs.

Look, I'm gonna say it and then ?m gonna deny it for ever and ever - bisonstyle anyone? But please no, I love Dunk with Joong and First with Khaotung exactly as they are. I love the comfort fixed Thai BL CPs give me.

"Didn't you say you're tired? I bet it's because you run your mouth too much." LOL Well, he's never too tired for you, sweetie. It's like when you're absolutely full, but there's still room for dessert, you know?

Unserious music, but I think Style is rather serious. He loves his dad dearly. And death here is somewhat of a reality, because Fadel really is a killer. I love that Style's tears are for the one person that Fadel is 100% sure Style loves, and thus (he/Fadel) can appreciate them more.

And Fadel's instinct is to comfort Style, of course. I know he cannot show it, like "Don't worry, I'm not ACTUALLY gonna kill, but please tomorrow and the following days be scared as if I were." Your love is showing, Fadel.

What, fishing?! I'm sure he never got any close to fishing his whole life; also isn't it hard to make a good throw with the net? It kinda looks like some forced therapy session, eh Bison?

Oooh, Babe is a serious matter for Kant. And Style, but mostly Babe - Kant did all this for him. I still think Bison talks big, but we saw - and most importantly, Kant knows - that once Bison failed a mission to protect Babe.

I guess I know now why killers aren't supposed to talk with their victims - the more they know, the less likely they are to kill them.

And Bison does NOT have the safety on … psycho crazy Bison, indeed. The parallels between couples is amazing, because we get to see them in similar situations, but because of their different personalities and different dynamics we get completely different outcomes.

He looks almost encouraging, asking Kant to go further. It feels like cruelty, anger, and encouragement all in one.

That was not a bad throw, though, right? I guess they must have done some workshops on this.

PART 2 / 4

He actually caught 2 fish - that's way more than I thought he would, LOL. I am guessing they have no food on this island. Fadel is usually the one taking care of this, not Bison. But still, this should mean it's not that difficult to get back to where civilization is. Kant and Bison do feel in the middle of nowhere.

All these references to western films - 10 Things I hate About You, Fast&Furious, Cast Away. I feel like it's the first BL with so many western references, am I right?

He's actually calling Bison Wilson, LOL! Is Kant channeling his inner Style right now?

"I just wanted to see you fooled for once." … ouch

Unhygienic - really? Cooking outside, on the beach, and you're worried about blood from a little cut? This reminds of that scene from We Are where Pond's character cuts his hand with some paper and both Boom and Phuwin's characters were all over him like he was about to die.

WTH?? They're not alone on the island?! Kant's learning more about Bison from this servant than in all his time investigating.

Style is way too happy driving while kidnapped.

Aren't you a mechanic, Style? Can't you fix it? Mmh, no, too much smoke. Also, add Harry Potter to the western references.

Is that water … and food? Yes, and food. Taking care of the "engine", eh Fadel?

Actually Style, the murderer is already here, in case you forgot. My guess is that that's also the point - he forgets about Fadel's real work because to him Fadel is not scary. With the exception of those few minutes at the gym, after he had just learned the truth from Kant, he was never really afraid of Fadel. I do wonder if Fadel's ex also found out the truth and was afraid, that's why Fadel left him. In EP5 Fadel told Style he could change his mind about Fadel after knowing the truth - and here Style shows (not just tells, but actually shows) Fadel that he's not. I feel like Fadel loves Style's fearlessness, especially when it's related to him.

"Take it. Take them all. (…) Take my cars, my body, my heart. Take everything." *swoons - me, but also inwardly Fadel*

See, Fadel listens! First at the motel, then with water, food, and now they leave the car behind.

I feel like you're pushing your luck, Kant. Yep, food thrown away - but we already knew that (from the preview). Both food and water thrown away? Again, see the parallels between the brothers and their hostages.

I also feel like this time alone and not on the run, not searching for anyone (like fadelstyle) is needed between kantbison because they have more that needs healing - more lies, more hurt, more crazy. fadelstyle are basically married at this point.

It's the one thing Bison consistenly told Kant that he hates - learning the truth from other sources, when it's too late. Kant already messed once with James about this.

The safe word ……… he used it now. And to think he didn't use it while on the boat, when he was about to jump, but he's using it now. And yet Bison still shot. I need to watch this again, da*n. Amazing acting as usual, of course.

"Bet there's a family of cannibals inside" LOL, Style! Yeah, you're travelling with a murderer, Style, don't be afraid!

OMG the people for Style, really. Unbothered by being tied and threatened with a gun, they go on with their drama.

"If you love him, why did you fool him?" Oh, Fadel, life is never black and white, sweetie. I feel for you though. Also, personally I could never forgive infidelity, my comment about black and white is about Style and Fadel's situation only.

And the dramatic head smack on the piano … yeah, these are Style's people! I love this.

WOW, only half way through.

PART 3 / 4

Officiating a marriage, Style?! This is so freaking cuteeeeeeee. Oh P'Jojo, what have you done?

"Love is a risk, isn't it?" OMG, I can't stop smiling!

"Do you take- I do. And if he ain't true for a moment, will you do me the honor of shooting him?" And Fadel SMILES!!!!!!

No humanitarian causes behind the assassinations, but money … would you look at that. And Keen so ready to take over. He is very ambiguous, just like in the novel.

Trying to escape, Kant? It is very difficult for him to escape, though, right? He's still on an island and would have to take a boat. You chose really well, Bison.

"You're not fooling me again … you're not fooling me again, are you?" Oh, Khaotung looks so small there, crying … it must be so hard for Bison to trust again, especially trust Kant again. Could you imagine if this faith restored was shadowed in any way? It would literally destroy him. They're back together, so sweet.

Proud of your boyfriend, Style? Novel Style was also really proud of his boyfriend's cooking skills. I love that gets to be proud of him … and Fadel scowling as always, perfect.

You don't look too reluctant to eat, Fadel. What a good boy indeed! And he told Style not to be nosy - impossible! With who are you mad exactly, Fadel? Leave the grooms alone.

Since when is kidnapping a "romantic road trip date"?! I would love to know what goes on in Style's mind, it's fascinating.

"You two look really good together" - couldn't agree more! JoongDunk forever.

"You bicker, you fight, then you bone" - ahahahaha. Does it sound familiar, Fadel? It's so Style's style.

I love that Style is soo at ease. Kidnapped, in a strange house in the middle of nowhere, car broke down … no worries.

It's a musical, so they have to dance. Poor Fadel danced so freaking much since meeting Style.

And now acting serious, as he tells Fadel that it wasn't trivial and he's willing to fight for them. Also, Dunk's delivery here is really good - keeping serious, but as light as possible. Kudos!

Oh, shit! Was not expecting that! WTH?!?!!

PART 4 / 4

Thank God Fadel really is a murderer, good reflexes and always ready!

"Let me help" … of course, always.

Aaaand the bathtub.

Cutieeees kissing, so sweet. That nose bite, OMG. And this kiss is now officially the best FirstKhaotung, better than the angry one in OF EP9, sooo hot and loving. (I wouldn't have said no to some tongue, tbh)

"How come you're a hitman?" - now that's a good question. I feel like Kant and Style are doing a whole better investigation, now that the police doesn't care about it anymore, than before.

"I just think there's no one out there who wants the best for you more than I do." He's telling Fadel he loves him in all and any way possible. He is persistent, we already know that.

Style definitely has a thing for nippies - from episode 1 he keeps going at them. It kinda makes you wonder if Joong is sensible there and if so, how difficult it was to film.

"Go ahead. Blow my head off whenever you want." Which one? Ehm for science, does this in Thai also have a double meaning like in English?

Style kissing Fadel's hand like that - this definitely feels like GMMTV's version on the beach scene in Love Sea EP2. I need someone to make a parallel between the two scenes. Also, JoongDunk following the steps of FortPeat - yes, please! EDIT: the similarities are in the gestures alone, not the feelings nor the message behind. This is important.

"As long as I'm alive, I'll make you kiss me again." Fadel says no, for now. We'll see.

Finally some brain, Fadel! It should have been obvious, especially given that (apparently) Bison has visited that place before. i guess he never went there with Fadel though.

And the preview for next week - does Keen find Fadel and Style? It has to be him, right? And Style got hurt too. Also, Fadel going after Kant, fist and gun first - fair. It seems that Bison won't go after Style, at least not in the same way - again, fair. But he (Bison) is still looking out for his brother - good.

[storynerd121]

DBD thoughts bc i'm almost done with the show

spoilers for episodes 4 and 5 under the cut

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my poor bby boy!!! He's so traumatized and i love him so much. istg watching Charles' trauma made me straight (heh) up bawl. he did not deserve any of that and i fucking despise his father and the idiots who killed him. also ngl i kinda cheered when he shoved the night nurse off a cliff bc how freaking dare she make him relive/flashback to his trauma?! thats not okay!? (i totally get how it was kinda scary for the others tho) anygays charles is amazing and deserves the world <3

also i absolutely love that you can SEE edwin realizing that he's madly in love with charles when they hug. like he is so smitten and then he's just like has his oh moment. i love it!! also poor monty when he told him he wasn't talking at him after they kissed. oof sry sweetheart. i love edwin and charles together i swear they're so cute!!! the way edwin reassures charles when he's upset and also fixes his coat collar?! IN LOVE. they deserve a happy ending and some therapy to deal with both of their traumas (or at the very least a long conversation abt it with each other... therapy would be preferred tho).

also jenny's date?! shit went from "aww omg how cute!!" to "holy fucking shit what???!!!" real quick. also jenny is a complete vibe and i love that for her.

also those assholes (the ones murdered by Maren). they kinda deserved it ngl. i felt so bad for maren when she started to cry and i love that crystal was just like 'omg maren what did you do' in this concerned voice. i love crystal she's awesome and i rly hate that demon dude. bros just annoying at this point, fuck him.

also niko is so sweet omg i adore her!!! she deserves the world and i want to give her a huge hug (like I do with 99% of the characters lol). acibdisyvbkiw i wanna be her bestie so bad. she was so sweet for setting up a date for jenny o she would be happy (even if it ended badly nad she probably should've gotten consent first). and i just love her way to much for my own good.

overall, 10/10 on the show so far. would very much recommend. thank u for reading my random rants <3

[wetcatspellcaster]

I just re-read the chapter and bro...The way you write Astarion internal monologue with the dissonance between what he believes he deserves for his years of suffering versus his own moral compass about killing all these people is beautifully well made.

When he says, "It's not fair," it hits close to home for me. I understand that anger and bitterness, of having to be the bigger person. It's not fair to have to be the person who "breaks" the cycle, to have to go after understanding and finding ways to deal with the problems that others have caused you. It's something to be angry about, and rightly so, because it's not easy, in fact it's really fucking hard. And this anger comes from the fact that we know we deserved more, that we deserved to be treated better and all that shit they did to us was shitty as hell.

So yes, I understand you Astarion :'( but if I went into therapy you can too <3

I had a recent conversation with my therapist about forgiveness and how I always felt guilty for not forgiving because everyone says forgiveness is how you "get over it", especially my family who are religious. And she had the audacity to respond with, "You owe no one forgiveness. Your anger is yours and no one can tell you when it ends. You are the one who suffered and only you can say how great that pain is, so if you want to die angry of the people who mistreated you then so be it."

I was SILENCED.

It sounds silly, but having confirmation that there is nothing wrong with feeling angry and not wanting to forgive and yet it not affecting my healing path was a surprise.

Ah, therapy is just WOW, right?

Well, thanks again for another chapter, I'm loving the angst <3

ahhh, thank you for writing to me. I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter, it took me a while to get right :)

To be honest, I think this is also the brutally unfair side of pairing Astarion with someone lawful good. it's my preferred ship dynamic, but I won't pretend it isn't painful. His first chance at freedom, and he's already got someone telling him what to do with it - even worse, he cares about their opinion. Going from having no free will to having it, but also being judged? Pretty unfair to be honest. beyond Act 1, there is no moment of true freedom, because the kind of freedom Astarion wants to indulge in is modelled on what he think Cazador's life has been, and therefore has conseuqences.

Like, in Party Favours, I can romanticise that, bc it's so silly and the hard work takes place off screen. We can laugh about him being 'selfishly good', or good for his own gain, because he's made his peace with it and it's more just a demonstration of affection. the time skip helps me cut out all the messiness, and Astarion 'fixes himself' a lot more on his own steam because he doesn't have a relationship to pressure him into it. Here, in the canon timeline, we have to witness (and I have to write, fml) all the pressure points where that change is both his choice but also forced by his circumstance. Like, yeah, you have freedom - do you want to use it to please someone else? But that person is also the first thing you've wanted - is wanting something a shackle, or a lifeline? Would it be easier to be alone, so that you wouldn't care about how you exercise your new free will on the others around you...

anyway, I think it's neat and I like it a lot, I think it's the crunchiest and most interesting way I can think to do things. But it sucks, ngl. Getting a crash course in caring about other people when no one has ever cared about you is unfair. But I think it just means the transformation is painful because it's quicker, and I believe he ends up happier in the end.

[einsatzzz]

How does fandom characterize/mischaracterize your characters ship in fanworks? for Kana

Hi Lou! I forgot to queue this skjdfhjsvfhsf but here's the answer for your second ask. Thank you again for sending them! Putting an old Kana pixel art here as it's kind of relevant hehe She does not give a fuck 👍✨

In terms of general fandom depiction/characterization, I feel like there will be a divide on how people would interpret her gender - whether she would be depicted as some set gender like female or male. Majority would probably depict her as female because we(creators) use she/her on Kana by default and her voice too (or maybe they even saw tk/rv Kana), but I can also see a good amount depict her as male because of her clothing and behavior.

I say gender, because I know there are people out there with strict preference with the genders involved in their ships. I don't really see anything bad with it of course, everyone has their own preferences, as long as they don't force it on other people. But the simple truth is that either and neither of those interpretations are correct.

To be honest, besides gender, there will definitely be people who will also fight on how they interpret her character in general, which would highly likely reflect on how they depict her dynamic with the character she's being shipped with. Though, I honestly won't blame this hypothetical fandom. Even I, someone who knows her current full lore, still feel like her character can be quite difficult to grasp at times (easiest is when she's involved in a comedy scene ngl) and I also get surprised by the (bull)shit she's capable of/can think of. Though, one of the most mischaracterization that people can do for her is to either extremely woobify her or extremely vilify her - in general, just seeing her in an absolute black or white way. Thank you @ciaossu-imagines for mentioning this to me hehehe 🫶🥰✨ sjbfjhvfs

For other possible shipping-related mischaracterizations, I'll just list them:

Love (and therapy) can fix her and bring back the light in her eyes - *smacks roof of the car* This bad boy can pack so much hatred, bitterness and emptiness. Jokes aside, I want to emphasize more that love and hate are two sides of the same coin. She can only hate that much because she already had a lot of love in her to begin with.

Depicting Kana crying from some shipping-related situation? Or tbh...for any situation people would think she'll cry from considering the current information revealed about her and any available canon information in KHR that's retained in KHRe - *smacks roof of the car* This bad boy can pack so much emotional repression.

I see this so often actually, but there really will be people out there who only care for the ship itself, rather than the separate characters that make up the ship. This won't be a Kana-exclusive instance in the hypothetical fandom, but an instance of such would be a grave sin against her character itself. It would really show if they ignore Kana's other important relationships with other characters (like Kurumi, Yui, etc), just to inflate their own ship more.

And that's another episode of: Thank goodness my OC is not a canon character!

[daydreamerwonderkid]

Jason Todd

Send Me a Character Ask Game

First impression: I don't really remember what my first impression of Jason was. I think I knew he was the Red Hood first before I knew about him being the second Robin or how he died in the first place. I do remember reading A Death in the Family and feeling gutted at how brutal his death was. I think I just felt bad for him tbh :/

Impression now: I support all of Jason's right and wrongs. Especially his wrongs XD

Idk how to put it properly, but I think what I find most appealing about Jason as a character is just how fucking messy all of his relationships are. It's hard not to sympathize with his trauma and I do think he's right to be furious with Bruce and about what happened to him. I honestly cannot blame him in the least for the sheer amount of hurt and distrust he feels towards Bruce and the rest of the Batfam. To me, it makes perfect sense why he acts the way he does.

At the same time, I really wanna shake him like a maraca and get him some therapy STAT XD

Ultimately, I just want to see Jason happy. I dunno what form that should take or if Jason would ever allow himself to be happy in the first place. But I genuinely think he deserves some peace after everything he's been through.

Favorite moment: The entirety of Under the Red Hood is a fucking treat to me because Jason is 19 fucking years old and he manages to pull off every part of his elaborate af scheme. Motherfucker drove Black Mask crazy enough to the point to break the Joker out of Arkham. He planted a bomb on the Batmobile by slow crawling towards it for over an hour. He completely dismantled Black Mask's operations like it was joke and made himself a genuine threat to both Batman and all of Crime Alley/Gotham. Fucking iconic.

Idea for a story: *sobs in mountain of unfinished WIPs*

Favorite relationship: I know there are a lot of mixed opinions on this, but I do love his relationship with both version of the Outlaws. The writing wasn't always the best, but I like the idea of Jason having his own crew and getting up to their own chaotic shenanigans. He genuinely needs more friends who get him.

I also love his complicated/messy af relationship with Bruce. What can I say? I love drama and I love especially flawed characters desperate to fix their broken relationship, but both are completely at a loss at how to even start. Good shit.

Oh, and his relationship with Dick is great. I love how close they eventually get as brothers and how Dick doesn't hesitate to believe Jason when he says he isn't involved or didn't start shit to begin with. I also enjoy it when they fight, ngl. Gotta love me some quality depictions of the Cain instinct XD

Favorite headcanon: Jason being a theatre kid/literature nerd. Mostly because I also love the theatre and classic lit as well :3

[aesterblaster]

Ik you said to send hot takes but what about your hot takes 👀👀

NYAHAHAHA THANKS FOR ASKING

*clears throat*

IsagiRin as a ship just doesn't work for me. Odk why just. Sorry I can NOT see your vision bestie. Half of the Blue Lock ships don't work for me especially when centered around Isagi because that boy switches side characters like they're pairs of shoes. In Blue Lock one or two sus or even sweet moments doesn't really amount to much to me because everyone has them here. That doesn't automatically mean date on a riverside resturant. On the other hand I totally could see Bachira x Isagi but I just think of them as really close friends because that's what gives me the most comfort being as some of the people who really saved my life were friends. I think it would be better if Bachira had a friend first and focused on himself before getting into any big relationship. Idk I guess that's more of a personal preferance

SPEAKING OF, I hate people who write Blue Lock smut w a burning passion. I'm not even gonna hit the whole iTS IMMorAL train it just usually sucks all the fun and personality out of the chosen character and is just trying to be as gross ans shocking as possible and twist them into somehow being pervs just bc they get all hyperactive when they play soccer. Like GET THERAPY. Half the time I go to the bllk tag im just scrolling like HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT.

The anime gets a lot of slack but like... It's very difficult to transfer things from one medium to the other especially things as philisophical as Blue Lock

Fandom interpretations of Shidou are usually weirdly ooc because they wittle him down to like how cray cray he is or whatever and completely ignore for example, his respect for people who are also creative and out of the box or his ability to deal with lonliness and being othered by everyone

Characters that shouldn't be hated nearly as much as they are: NOA NOEL. You heard it here folks. I genuinely believe he's just trying his best and honestly most coaches would've asked to drop half the player he has to deal with by now like cmon you got an emo gymrat who was forced to become like you, you got a playee whos EYESIGHT IS FAILING but will literally start falling apart if you bench him, you got..kaiser and his lapdog ass cronie who dont listen to your plans at all, you got an entire rift between new and old players. Like how do you even fix that when you can't send people home (i think)? He gives good advice sometimes ngl and they're winning games so like...

Cont. Sure he isn't as funny or amusing to read as Lavinho or Chris and he isn't as open as Snuffy but DAMN IT he's doing his job ok? And all the dad son moments between him and Isagi are to die for.

Naruhayas little miniarc is honestly has the saddest backstory implications to me. THERE I SAID IT. Rin's is indeed tragic and heartwrenching but can be fixed, he can move on and heal if he so chooses. Bachira...ok nvm bachira's ties with it. Hiori's is an absolute tear jerker but he is still in Blue Lock. He still has some time to grow. Naruhaya? There's nothing that could be done to fix his position or bring him up or cut him from the weights dragging him down. We see so many characters in the Blue Lock universe rise from their poverty through soccer but DAMN IT NARUHAYA EXISTED TO SHOW THAT THAT IS A LUCKY AND FEW 2 PERCENT. HE PROBABLY HAD TO GIVE UP ON EVERY SINGLE ONE OF HIS DREAMS JUST TO SUPPORT THE VERY FAMILY HE LOVES SO MUCH. HIS PARENTS LITERALLY DIED. DO YOU UNDERSTAND? BACHIRA STILL HAS HIS MOM, RIN AT LEAST HAS HOPES OF RECONCILING WITH HIS BROTHER AND HIORI MIGHT ONE DAY SAFELY CUT HIS PARENTS OFF BUT HIS ARE IMPLIED TO BE GOOD PEOPLE JUST..STRAIGHT UP DEAD. AND THE WAY HE STOLE FOOD ALL THE TIME???? IM GOING INSANE.

Ok thats all for now LMAO

[owlight]

who do u ship ur moots with and why?

With me ,cuz they no one would love them like I would

I did it once on valentine but imma do it again cuz I like matching Characters with ppl for fun,if I forget someone my apologies ngl

@swampstew with Rustass Kid,I feel she could actually either fix him or make him worse ,but either way I think it will be interesting to watch that develop ,beside she is the canon wife of his ,I think u can see her in the last appearance of kid ,helping him, definitely happened, don't go check it ,trust me I'm a reliable source

@nekomacheercaptain weirdly enough,not Corazan ,but I feel she would work better with Ace ,I think he could keep up with her cat in heat energy and will be very cool dude to chill with for her,And won't catch on fire (he won't mind it if he did) and if she tripped he will help her, it's very beneficial to all parties involved

@downforsanji I think sabo would be a very suitable candidate for her, mostly cuz I think she deserves someone who always wear nice clothes and gloves plus he kinda goofy when he is in love which why I think they might hit it off ,she will though have to deal with him giggling and kicking his feet everytime Luffy is on the newspaper so idk

@luffyinlove with Luffy,I think she can fix him ,and he is like a stray dog you feed once and he never leave your side,I feel she would accidentally fed him once and he think they are meant to be now,I think she can tame him or something idk something

@sanjis-all-blue Rob Lucci ,she can fix him ,I think he would be head over heels for her but never admits it ,then he will be like a cat always near her till Hattori ask her on his behalf on a date,it goes well,as long you ignore he sometimes tries to bite her out of spite or his sociopathic behaviors,it's a 9/10 relationship

@zoros-sheath Smoker ,I think she can definitely pull him,he would be like very shy around her and all grumpy but melt like putty when she caress his cheeks,he would be very nice and carry her to safety when time need that, cuz he built difference and can't Express his affection without begin protective

@lawsvalentine kuzan, because she put me with shanks and I haven't forget but I'm nicer so I will give her a half cooked dilf,he would be lazy af and sleep on top her so she doesn't get up to work , definitely carry her in his bag like ppl who carry Thier Chihuahua in Thier bags kind of couples energy

@icy-spicy killer because she deserves a man with big tities and great personality that isn't a part of the red hair shanks pirates, I think also killer would playfully play fight with her and give her piggy backs when they walk a long distance,pretty wholesome

@usopps-devotee Ussop, cuz that's in the name ngl,he would no cap be those aesthetic plants boyfriend and she gotta deal with it ,he put his gats or goggles on her head when he want to have them off cuz he find them cute on her and it's easier to find when they are on the person you always look at

@kenruu Mihawk, both got attractive but mysterious and intimidating energy, Probably both got very good Sharp eyeliner game,He cooks for em and Mihawk low-key bad at Romance but make up with his act of service and gifts ,lu is just chill like a punk capybara, would probably pull other one piece men if needed I think

@sanjisblackasswife legit no cap Sanji ,I think Canonly she belongs to Sanji like she can fix him,I feel it in my bones,give them one night and Sanji would be a changed man,mf will become a devoted man simping to one woman and it would be her, though he would possibly also die the moment his eyes meet her bare tities so maybe ... exposure therapy with him Slowly so he doesn't die and she get a happy long relationship

@roronoaswifey Zoro, I think he deserve a cute wife ,she is good wife energy and also very pretty so they can be power pretty couples plus I think she can get him on a leash and stop him from drinking so much , maybe get him addicted to pussy idk ,but she definitely fix him

@chiquititaosita 🧍 Sir crocodile, I think she deserves a dilf that can give her everything she want and need plus she got the energy of having a daddy kink so probably he can help with that

@quinloki Doflamingo,I think they can make him worse and unhinged but he might stick to Thier side ,also he would probably enjoy Thier rants and opinions ngl ,they would be oddly wholesome together

[infinitethree]

Okay, you know what?

The bastard is almost, on an aesthetic level, not terrible to look at while he’s like this.

Asleep, he can’t be a fucking sociopath or an asshole. Those too-clever eyes of his aren’t judging and dissecting, they’re closed.

The absence of that bright blue gaze makes him seem surprisingly vulnerable.

So does the way Daz has, in the short while he’s been asleep, already snuggled up to him and is being clingy.

After the last few hours of running around looking for him, it’s a relief to know that he’s been mostly fine all along.

Naturally, when Daz didn’t come home, Raine got worried. The Council, aside from Lee who had been kept out of it, have been searching his known hidey-holes for hours now.

Obviously the HQ was one of the first places they checked, but the wall that leads into the hidden room was sealed off. They assumed that meant he wasn’t there, so they ignored it.

It wasn’t until Aster, in a last-ditch attempt, decided to open it up and check that the bastard was found.

He’d been fine, thankfully. Just having hyper fixated on the code and shut out everything else.

Aster carefully takes his com out and taps out a message to the others.

ShiningAster: bastard located. fine but asleep. focused on coding body for Innit, forgot he has a human body.

RaineStorm: seriously?? uhg, at least it’s normal shit this time

RaineStorm: as opposed to soul crushing despair and existential terror

Khons: need help moving him? ShiningAster: staying here. fell asleep on me, he has nightmares. also touched starved. might be less bastard if he gets good sleep

It’s only a little bit of a lie. Technically, none of that was wrong, but the implication was that Daz wasn’t strongarmed into accepting.

RaineStorm: yeah his nightmares are BAD and music only kinda helps.

ShiningAster: I think I can fix it. saying more will make him pissy

Khons: well if he’s not in trouble and staying there we’re going to bed

ShiningAster: night

RaineStorm: gn

RaineStorm: it’s gonna be really funny seeing him fall for you ngl

ShiningAster: its gonna be weird as fuck for me

After a moment, he switches to DMs.

ShiningAster: at some point we have a kid. Not adopted I think. looks just like him. her name is Azira. means rising star.

RaineStorm: WHAT THE FUCK??????

ShiningAster: also he made a deal to help with Innits body for seeing the same shit I do. but for me obviously

RaineStorm: oh my god that stupid asshole

RaineStorm: maybe he’ll learn his lesson. bc you’re def good to him, I know you.

ShiningAster: hes capable of being good to me back. too busy being petty for now though

RaineStorm: yeahhhhhh. he’s def an acquired taste. but he really is a great guy when you get past his him-ness

ShiningAster: lol

RaineStorm: he figured out I’d want a heated tub, art studio, and a porch. it’s freaky tbh but it’s nice.

ShiningAster: sounds fake but ok

RaineStorm: you’ve never seen him be like that so it’s hard to picture but it’s true!

That’s not quite right; Aster has seen Daz be kind and generous to others…he’s just never been the target.

No, maybe that’s not fair. He’s dragged Aster to a place of being better in a way he never would have done on his own. Despite his attitude, it did still benefit Aster.

Granted, he’s also been an asshole on purpose for literal years, so. That kind of events out.

ShiningAster: honestly just want to eat his damn food without being drugged

RaineStorm: something something the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach

ShiningAster: it sucks so bad to play chicken on if Ill suffer when I touch his cooking

ShiningAster: usually its worth it. at least until whatever he put in it hits

RaineStorm: and now we know why

ShiningAster: maybe therapy will fix him

RaineStorm: ngl I think not thinking he’ll kill anyone he loves will do wonders on its own

RaineStorm: but therapy will help too probably

ShiningAster: cant say much for obvious reasons but hes fundamentally broken. has been for most of his life.

ShiningAster: but Id never have a kid if he didnt seem in a good place. so whatever he does works

RaineStorm: have you considered it might be the power of love

ShiningAster: fuck you

RaineStorm: I’m serious!! think about it, he’s spent like 4 years thinking being loved will get that person killed

RaineStorm: he might have divine confirmation but he’s stubborn. might not feel real

RaineStorm: soooo someone who loves him despite his bullshit might be the thing that makes him be less…yknow

Ah, another reminder of how deeply fucked up Daz actually is.

ShiningAster: could be having someone who knows his secrets or even just Innit being out

RaineStorm: remind it that it needs a new name btw. too close to existing ones

RaineStorm: but yeah that probably helps too

RaineStorm: I feel awful I never noticed he was so…unwell

ShiningAster: hes good at hiding what he wants to hide. cant blame yourself when hes a master manipulator.

Said master manipulator mumbles into Aster’s chest, voice small, “I missed you.”

And, fuck, something in his chest feels like it cracks when Aster realizes what and who Daz must be dreaming about.

There’s nobody it could be but his former mentor. The person who gave him everything he ever wanted…and then committed an unspeakable sin against him.

Clearly, Daz still misses him. Despite what Dream had done to him, a part of him still misses the person who crushed him infinitely worse than anyone before him.

Despite only getting brief glimpses of that time, Aster gets the impression that Dream had been someone whose preciousness went beyond words.

Yet Daz couldn’t stomach letting him have his way after what he did. He rejected a place as a near-god beside someone who, despite the sickness in his soul, was devoted to him to a disturbing degree.

That…takes a strength of will that Aster isn’t completely sure he could match.

Fuck, nor does the decision to use the lethally broken enchantment as a backup plan.

If the rest of the server had failed to kill him, Daz would have chosen a death so agonizing that it chills Aster to his core.

It’s not hard to see why Daz is so…himself, honestly. Aster might not be able to think like him, nor agree with his actions, but in a fucked up way he can follow most of the logic now that he has the pieces.

He swallows as Daz’s voice wavers and cracks. “You said you’d protect me, so why…”

Aster adjusts his arms to a more comfortable positon, and messes with his hair more. “I’m not him, Daz. You’re not Tommy any more. Dream was sick– you know that.”

Horrifyingly, Daz starts shaking as he cries.

He rushes to add, “But– but you can have something new. Fuck, if you can be even halfway decent, I’d fall for you pretty damn quick. You can be charming, you know? And– and pretty romantic. It was– maybe it wouldn’t be awful. If you just stopped being such a bastard–”

At a loss for what else to do, he cuts himself off and starts humming.

Eventually, Daz slips back into deeper sleep.

But the memory of this unsettlingly fragile side of him will remain in the back of Aster’s head. Even when Daz is being the biggest bastard he can be…Aster knows he’ll remember this.

[littleperson404]

Hooooooo boy arcane s2.. i'll vent below the cut lol. in short, this whole show has got me like

Vi and cait just fucking... disolving!! Cait what are you doing noooo. I mean she felt a lil weird from the get go and i just kinda hoped it would be fixed but nah...

And then jinx kinda being adopted by isha and her adopting isha oh my GOD. Adorable mute lil child. And using what looks to be sign language in a couple scenes

Btw i forgot the name of the orange haired girl, but why the FUCK she in bed with cait right after she and vi basically "broke up". Looooord i wanna PUNCH HER

Rip jayce, just... in general. Poor man is fucked. I mean a beard does look good on him, and the what looks to be improvised leg brace(s?) Is really cool.

Viktor becoming a messiah was NOT on my bingo card. He actually looks like every depiction of jesus i've seen 😂 and the fuckin staff too god damn.

And viiiiiii oh poor girl. Going thru so much shit ugh. Vi need therapy and an actual friend.

Also VANDERRRRRR AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

And mel... mel pls be ok

Ambessa... idk what to think about her tbh. But ngl i enjoyed watching her beat cait up a lil in sparring lol

Oh right and cait shooting off jinx's finger holy fuck. Then AIMING AT A CHILD. As i saw someone else put it, she either could have royally pissed off jinx by killing a child, created another jinx through isha, or get pummeled by vi for shooting her sister. Fucking... AAAAAAAAAA

And now im gonna be typing as i watch episode 6.

I love isha being nice to vander. Adorable. And vi and jinx tentatively working together for him is mmmm.

Please viktor, at least bring his mind back

Aw isha has clouds drawn on her arm. They dont look like tattoos, i think its just chalk.

Aw the watercolor memories hhhhhhhhh.

WAIT JINX AND VI'S HAIR COLORS MIX TO MAKE THEIR MOMS HAIR COLOR! Its simple but i love that shit.

I wonder if we'll meet their dad at all.

Oh god damnit cait and co wtf are they doing near viktors place. Fuck off leave them alone.

Arcane is also just so gd pretty mmmmm. Every scene is a piece of art

Viktor stop being pretty

Oh right jinx's new finger is pretty cool ngl

Also vi hot help. Im too queer for this

Pff, calling cait a mongoose. And the return of "cupcake" ugh my heart.

Cait saying "a bloodthirsty muderous beast" followed by vi saying "my dad". Oh cait im glad you can put shit together. You smart but blind dingus. The look on her face all "wait a damn minute".

Jayce... jayce what are you planning

Oh no... just oh no. So much oh no

Have i said i love isha? Cuz i love isha

Oooohhhh they were PLANNING OOOOOOO

Jayce is NOT ok. This man needs help. Serious help. Bro almost shot a child

Ah, single leg brace. Or did he get that from the explosion... ah fuck im bad at details.

Oh the soundtrack of this show is so GOOOOOD. Tho i have to agree that the imagine dragons opening never really fit to me

Oh god he hit vander. Pls dont revert, vander.

Jayce... jayce no. Jayce istg.

FUCK

JAYCE

VIKTOR NO

Wait... nooooo nononononono oh no viktor- VANDER! VANDER NO NOOOOOOOO

Oh he's in so much pain oh no. And whats with the lava. And oh no her guard, i forogt his name.

Wait was her guard the fling?

Noooooo isha. Isha what are u doing. I s h a. ISHA PLS NO!

ISHA

I need act 3 yesterday pls oh god