#The other two I saw in the hospital
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Motherfucker man.
Im part of a volunteer organization where we are there for peopleās last 72 hours. Itās an on call process, and Iāve only ever actually been to one call. A couple of other times when Iāve gotten the message i got the subsequent ācall canceledā message before my blocked time.
Today, however. Today I receive a call at ā ā :53 I respond at ā ā :57 and I leave my apartment ā ā :03. I check my watch on the elevator. It is ā ā :18. I talk to the nurse she tells me itās a good thing I got there when I did. She walks me to the room. I put my bag down and reach to the hand sanitizer to disinfect my hands before donning the gown and gloves. There is an abnormal amount of people in the room for a dying person. āItās happening nowā āwe havenāt even hung the morphine yetā. Its no longer a dying person.āCall the timeāā¦ āā ā :20ā. A nurse in the room says they held their hand the whole time, seemingly to no one, maybe to me.Ā
I turn. I leave.
Idk why I wrote that. The goal is so that the person is not alone, we donāt enter the world alone we shouldnāt leave it that way. And they didnāt their hand was held by a nurse that knew them. Itās a mix of emotions, in part I wish I could have somehow made my timing quicker there was 6 minutes of wasted time on my part. But it doesnāt matter if I was there, they had someone. Someone they have interacted with and thatās more meaningful. Itās sobering how quickly someone can pass. I was subdued. As I left another nurse pointed out to me I was headed the wrong direction and the first nurse that lead me told them to look at the monitors. They had to be physically turned away from the monitor after looking. They werenāt alone and thatās what matters. I wish I could have done more but what? I never got to see them. I saw the curtain and the nurses but never them.
#mylife#Myrambles#i turn and I leave#Before I leave I tell the nurse sorry#She says thank you for my coming over#I went straight to the room; I hadnāt signed in. And I never did#Itās weird while walking there I came across many people I know.#It makes sense my friend that lives in my building (I saw as I left my elevator) the coordinator for the clinical trial and my therapist#The other two I saw in the hospital#Maybe itās like the cock crowing three times#Maybe sign maybe coincidence#I didnāt talk to any of them beyond waving as u walked by
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iāll find you again in every universe. let us be a little more honest, let us have a little more time.
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#despite it all though badlands rumble is like. the only universe where we get wolfwood thinking vash died first... and i think that means a#lot to their relationship and how it may bloom if there was more to badlands rumble considering vash literally saw wolfwood carrying a piece#of vash after his supposed death. u know! despite the short time they were together vash still meant so much to wolfwood that he couldn't#just move on or forget him in anyway. needed to keep a piece of him for himself and the rest of his days. but ofc vash lives and wolfwood#was like ill beat ur fucking ass into tomorrow. there's just so much honesty in vash being able to see that gesture bc he wouldnt know#otherwise just how much he might mean to him. ANYWAY. trimax with with the eternal pining featuring the two chapters where imo#where the both of them really fell for each other... i wrote my thoughts about this on another comic i did before#but vash solidifying his feelings during the hospital arc -- ww solidifies his when he realizes his allegiances are permanently with vash#98 my lovelies but also to me they are so one-sided bc ww pined like no tomorrow and vash only realizes after ep 23?24? his heart did tickle#whenever ww complimented his smile though#and tristamp vw my beloveds. it really just feels like they get theĀ chance to be closer and closer and more honest with each other#with every version that comes about. in trimax they knew how little time they had but struggled so desperately to get closer. in 98 ww felt#more willing to forsake for vash. in badlands rumble theyre Angry but as mentioned earlier ^ more blatant truth... due to circumstances#mainly but has the chance to lead to discussions and tristamp literally. first day of knowing each other ww saves vash - 2 days later vash#saves ww like. Man. AND NOW THEY MAY POTENTIALLY GET EVEN CLOSER!!!! with s2....#ruporas art
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its always bad when its both me and janet, we can only take one set of mental illnesses at once not both
#they do not compliment eachother#this is what landed us in hospital last time#too much time and both of us#i feel like im going to end up back in hospital#ik if i told people things (not even all of it) id get myself sectioned (or whatever amercans call it)#like just the extent of my self harm is enough to get me in hospital#and tgats not mentioning janet or the messages or suicide stuff or some other stuff#like im not stupid ik im going to end up doing something and getting the cops called ik my parents are liars#i bet the school would call an ambulance if they saw my arm their so dramatic about medical stuff#tried to call an ambulance on my friend who fainted for a few moments#its ridiculous#and i couldn't move for about an hour and i feel like thats going to keep happening again#no one noticed but theyd definitely call an ambulance then#or if i have a meltdown or a bad panic attack#and by bad i mean multiple hour long unable to see or feel my limbs#whenever its both of us shit like that happens#and when i have meltdowns their big#screaming and head banging for hours#theyd kick me out of school again#and i was doing pretty good for the first time in two years too#people finally started listening to me because i could act sane enough that'll all fall apart again#janets so annoying#makes my life impossible and janets also suicidal but a fucking pussy and always stops me just before i can#ill never be able to die on purpose because of this fucking kid#tw mental hospital#tw police#were so conflicting in personality we can't do nothing#im so angry and janets so scared so we just sit in it forever#just gotta re trumatise ourselves again so the other fucks off for a while and we can function#its like ever time we are safe its both of us and we can't fucking take it
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I know it's Ryousuke but I genuinely thought it was a woman there for a hot second
#rewatching initial d now i live in gunma and lemme tell ya its an experience#very much a hey i know that! now š¤£š¤£š¤£#even if I'm down in Takasaki and not in Shibukawa or Maebashi#tho apparently the hospital is in takasaki which surprised me cause i misremembered that bit#was gonna go to akagi for the first time this weekend to see leaves but heard it might be better to wait still#so putting it on hold#but E is thinking doing a day at Haruna (up the ropeway which i haven't done) then Akagi#hit the two big ones#ALSO WE DROVE BY THE KANAMESHI SIGN AND I LOST MY MIND#one of those things i didn't expect to still be there but is#we were headed to karuizawa and saw some great waterfalls tho the leaves were only just starting to turn#and on the way back i noticed they did have a 86 & a sileighty under it and i tried to get a pic but my phone didn't focus in time š#will have to go back when i have my license#Wanted to do usui pass even if we were in E's kei car but it was closed#will have to go back obviously#anyways fuck do i love living in Gunma like genuinely perfect place for me#I honestly think I could live in Takasaki for the rest of my life which is kinda bonkers#anyways come to gunma we got great onsen beautiful nature no tourists and lots of fun roads to drive#(i actually kinda recommend avoiding the initial d ones cause some have preventive measures now and others are well....#crowded š¤£)#Anyways theyre still fun but with all our mountains we have so many more#wow long tag post
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Hmmm I kinda want to make a side blog for RPG Maker game development related things to be able to talk to more experienced people in that community, but at the same time I both donāt really think Iād get much attention and donāt want to accidentally spoil my own game (^^ ; ).
I have a rough story, concept doodles, a tileset, some character sprites, an enemy that walks around but canāt initiate battle yet (if I even decide to have a battle system), a couple rooms with some events, and a functioning run button, but Iām still lost on how to do much else at the moment. Especially since this program has the ability for scripting, meaning Iāll probably have to learn and actually retain another coding language.
So, Iām not very far at all lol. Idk how well thatād go over on the established fandom website, but eh.
#text post#incoherent rambling#project update#game project#Iām still also debating whether or not I can actually even make a proper horror game too#Itās the rule of like just being a horror fan doesnāt make you good at horror being afraid of something does? ya know?#I am trying to go with things that scare me personally but itās been difficult#either things arenāt concrete of concepts enough or are wayyyy too oddly specific to make anything about#which is quitter talk I know but how does one translate the childhood heebee jeebees of watching top ten gaming videos past bedtime ššš#or like the way too broad general fear of lack of control without making it too on the nose or too vague#truly a balancing act writing is#kinda ironically I am also a little bit less afraid of hospitals after having been to one for myself rather than family members#which makes things both more and less difficult???#on one hand I have better references for them now but on the other hand Iām desensitized to it š#I think I get used to things a little too easily for a lot of things to stay scary#the thing was a scary movie the first time I saw it and now itās a comfort film#funger was a very scary game until I first died and reloaded a save with little consequence and now itās just a spooky but fun rpg#but then at the same time thinking about a movie studio logo before a movie that scared me as a kid cause there was a monster in it#still gives weird left over shivers but actually seeing it doesnāt anymore for some reason#I feel like thatās how itās worked with most things Iāve ever been afraid of in my life besides concepts like death control or idk drowning#ugh writing is HARD#but actually making a functional and fun to play game is harder oh my god do I not know how to make puzzles#I have made swivel chairs that can be knocked and walked over but thatās about it and idk what to do with that knowledge lmaooooo#and I donāt want the entire gameplay loop to be read text search room get key repeat cause thatās boring#I have also desperately tried making a stamina system but thereās not much help with that online especially not in the rpg maker forums#the no necroposting rule sucks all the threads for questions I have never get answered and never will cause no one is allowed to due to age#anyway idk what to tag this probably wonāt get seen since itās not my usual anyway but eh whatever Iāll think about this#hopefully I remember the passwords to two blogs ššš
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saw the new teeny baby today
very smol, very cute, lots of hair
#eprika rambles#happy for my cous and his wife#i will say tho it's really funny that both my cousin's kids names are like#early alphabet area#actually i was hoping the new baby's name would start with D since the other two are B and C LOL#go down the alphabet lolol#also took pics of those cute like bby name plaques the hospital had on their wall#saw some w chinese names that will give me some good chinese name ideas for my characters LOL#thank you baby hospital
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Post s2e9 confirmations and speculations as of this ep, starting with confirmations and moving on to thoughts/speculations.
Before I start, just going to link my speculations as of a couple of episodes ago here because they're surprisingly either still relevant or have been confirmed either way. Of these, the main pieces still outstanding are Liu Min's phone and the serial murders.
Fountain boy low-key confirmed to be Liu Min's younger brother (Liu Xiao, apparently?). He knew Tianchen would soon be given the opportunity to "hunt" and lo, there is Liu Min (who even vaguely recognised Tianchen which makes sense if he's an acquaintance of his brother's). His own surname is Liu and obviously that's a pretty common name, but the fact he had someone driving him around means he's pretty rich and, well, son of a games company CEO seems pretty rich indeed. Apply law of conservation of detail and this one is now locked in at 95%. Fountain boy = Liu Xiao = "hunter" = hat guy (the last I'm a bit less certain of, but again, conservation of detail and there aren't many episodes left).
I'd been wondering about the weird focus the neighbour got in terms of his gaming so him being someone Liu Min wanted taken care of made that entire side of things click for me. Liu Min was terminally online and so was the neighbour. Tianchen must've thought it karma that he had this opportunity.
Third story: Tianchen as red eyes, going further and further as Tianxi is forced to watch until he goes too far even for her - at which point she broke free and tried to appeal to Lu Guang (but why him?). (All that said, Tianchen claims he killed both their parents, but we didn't actually see it properly in any of the flashbacks which could just be because they're being careful with the censors but I'm still side-eyeing it until we see exactly what happened. After all, there was no knife in the picture when we left the scene.) Tianxi's story I'm presuming is simply an animated version of what Tianxi is showing Qiao Ling to tell her story.
Speaking of, Tianxi "broke free" in her school uniform and that was also how she was found. Does that place the hoodie scenes in the hospital as before she fled? Because rewatching a bit of ep 4 and it seemed that QJ was talking to Tianchen-as-Tianxi then (could be wrong, 'Tianxi' never spoke that we heard in this scene but it being actual Tianxi rather than Tianchen raises so many more questions) which would imply she was missing after the hospital and that's when they implemented the disguising plan. Thinking about the "sorry" scenes in the third story and wondering if Chen Bin was the final straw for Tianxi.
First/second story: The Romeo and Juliet backstage they're at was indeed as I saw a few people speculating a production featuring Qian Jin's wife and her co-star. Tianchen "I killed them both" @ Qian Jin: wow he just like me fr. (But nah this definitely raises more questions about the murder of his wife). (Also, just to note that I'm putting the different perspective of QJ meeting LTX and LTC down to the unreliable nature of Xiao Li relaying info initially rather than alternate timelines. Can't rule it out, of course (and the blood on Tianxi in only one of the tellings has me even more hesitant), but unreliable narrator seems an easier fit at this stage. We also know QJ doctored the case files and if LTC outright told him "I killed them both" then that sure didn't make it to the files.)
Qian Jin's motives now back up in the air. Initially it seemed as though he wanted the powers so he could bring his wife back, but with the revelation that he had reason to believe she was cheating (and pregnant with the person she was cheating on him with) the idea he would want her back seems... a lot less likely. Also, his break from morals is placed a lot earlier than it seemed from the outside. Those in the police thought he was outstanding etc etc until his wife died, but he was gone long before that. Ultimately, in both cases with alleged cheating it doesn't matter if the person themselves was cheating because they didn't deserve to be killed for it, but it is fascinating that we're presented with these two similar scenarios from two entirely different perspectives. Li Tianchen and Tianxi as victims of domestic abuse by the person who believes they're being cheated on whilst Qian Jin is the role of the husband who believes he's being cheated on. (The way the pregnancy reveal is played - QJ not seeing his wife often because he was always at work, her startling when caught on the phone - it does seem like he takes the pregnancy as confirmation that she was cheating as the pregnancy couldn't have been with him. She's already dead at that point though.)
With the current timeline we have, I don't know whether QJ engineered the initial killing of his wife (and the fact the culprit escaped legal justice actually kinda makes me think that he didn't), but I do think he used Tianchen after the fact to set up the suicide and suicide note of the killer
The serial killings. We originally believed there were eight in total, starting with Emma. However, this episode shifts the timeline somewhat. Liu Min says thank you for dealing with "that woman", but he still seems to have use of his legs so presumably "that woman" isn't Emma and this is taking place beforehand. Which would imply there are a number of extra victims the police haven't uncovered. (The alternative is that this flashback was in a timeline before the Emma stuff went so wrong and Liu Min still had use of his legs? I'm really hoping it's not this because it'd break my brain a bit) This also somewhat explains how the police were unable to tie motives together for the serial killings if it was a killing-for-hire type scenario, though I do still somewhat believe there's some underlying logic that QJ either bought into himself or was able to make Tianchen buy into in order to believe the victims weren't "innocent"
#link click#link click spoilers#shiguang daili ren spoilers#this is less down the speculation end but I loved the intertwining metaphors in the entire 'hunter' thing throughout#as well as the parallels about the cheating and the lack of total confirmation around that#because it makes you compare the two scenarios and wonder#as well as qian jin and what he saw in li tianchen because I think he saw himself honestly#he didn't know at this stage about his powers so that's not why he took to him#(also. unrelatedly. I really don't think we're done with chen bin. he's a loose end (not) walking)#oh and I don't want to edit my older spec post but I do now think tianxi is the one with the phone double crossing the other two#which should be clear enough from what we now know but the whole hospital timeline is funky so thought I'd say
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Any house md fans that also read Cassandra Clares clockwork series? Because huddson (House, Cuddy, Wilson) reminded me of that dynamic quite a bit. House loves two people in his life, one he can love and spend a "lifetime" with, as Wilson dies from cancer. And the other, whom he can love and finish his life with after Wilson's gone.
Neither one is loved less and they both led their own lives, of course, but for better and mostly worse, they revolve around each other.
#i could go into more detail but id need to reread the series#those books were the first time i saw an ot3 of any kind actually work out and it wasnt even polyamorous really#but the two guys were best friends closer than close due to their bond as warriors#and tessa comes along and they all just fall in love with each other#jem has his illness thats going to take him away from them#and will has his rejection fears and difficulty talking about feelings#and tessa cant die... can't remember why or how but she just doesnt die#and somehow it all worked out for them to all be happy together#amazing#in my head cuddy finds house after wilsons death because she just knows wilson didnt go travelling alone#right after house apparently died#and she finds him heart shattered but this time its shattered wide open and able to be mended#and shes in her fourties and she has a daughter shes been raising by herself while working at another hospital#but despite how all reason says its not worth it shes always had impossible expectations#she and rachel choose to spend their lives with him because he's different now#since he ran out of vicodin during wilsons increasing pain hes forced himself through withdrawal#and he doesnt have the stress of patient care anymore to make his leg ache worse than it always does#hes not happier necessarily but more present in life maybe he thinks ten steps ahead but he doesnt worry about it#house md#lisa cuddy#gregory house#james wilson#hilson#huddy
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it was my birthday on sunday and i have known for MONTHS that my sister would be out of town and we are all adults and i still talked to her on the phone ofc she called me first thing when she woke up that morning and i saw her literally the next day but i still spent the whole day with a part of me just sad because she wasnāt there. and then the next day she was there and we fought!!! and she pissed me off and i pissed her off!!! but i still wanted her there and i think sometimes abt how idk if only children will ever love someone the way you love your siblings. that kind of love is inimitable
#d speaks#human stuff#just thinkin abt how. me and my siblings are at one anotherās throats whenever we are together#but when we are apart all we want is each other#thinkin about how iāve had a lot of objectively scarier shit happen to me but the day i saw my brother code in a hospital room#nothing will EVER top that as the worst moment of my fucking life#thinkin about how my best friends brother died two years ago and none of us know how to move on from that even now#thinkin about siblings thatās all!!! iām thinkin abt siblings and i blame that blog i just followed who was doin the same lol
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i think it's just in my nature to get stabbed
if i count this, then this would be the 3rd stabbing i have endured
#speculation nation#it very much follows the trends i saw in my prior stabs#aka tiny lil entry point but Much Blood#& other external signs such as bruising#like listen. she got me GOOD. i knew as soon as it happened that she cut me deep#slapped my hand over it and there was instantly blood. that doesnt usually happen for cat scratches for me.#this wasn't a scratch. this was a stab. i got stabbed in the Cheek.#nonzero chance it will scar. my other two stabs sure did.#also for new followers who have not heard the stories: one was a drink thermometer at work n the other was my machete#dropped the drink thermometer and tried to catch it. slammed it point-first into my palm. went a good half centimeter in. Ow.#machete was bc i was storing it in a random other box and forgot. upended it & dropped it point-first onto my finger#INCREDIBLY lucky it did not like. cut my finger off or w/e. it definitely hit the bone but it was on the backside of a finger#so it didnt hit anything essential. and really just kinda hurt like a bitch.#i have a backwards checkmark scar on my finger from it lol. i was very Very lucky.#also lucky w/ the thermometer that i didnt catch anything bad w/ it bc hands are really VERY incredibly intricate#sooo many things running thru those palms. i think it stabbed into muscle rather than ligaments. aka the less harmful outcome.#bc i still have full function of my hand! couldve been Much Worse.#aka what this means is i am a walking disaster and it really is a wonder i havent ended up in the hospital due to my many stupid accidents#anyways yea my cheek do be stabbed. guess that's why it bruised. crazy.
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wait, Derin how did your leaving make the hospital shut down?
I used to work as a live-in nanny for a pediatrician.
Now, the thing about hospitals in my country is that they are massively understaffed and massively underfunded. This is especially true outside the major cities. The staff are worked to the bone and receive little to no help in things like finding accommodation or childcare, making working in rural areas a very uninviting prospect; staff come out here, get lumped with the work of three people (because there's nobody else to do it), burn out under the workload and leave, meaning that those remaining have even more work because that person is gone. It's unsustainable and the medical staff are doing their best to sustain it, because people die if they don't, so to the higher-ups it looks like everything's getting done and therefore everything is fine.
My friend (and boss) worked one week on, one week off, swapping out with another pediatrician. This was necessary because it would not be physically possible for one person to handle the workload for longer periods of time. The one single pediatrician had to hold up the entire pediatrics ward, which was not only the only public hospital pediatrics ward in our town, but also the one that served all the towns around us for a few hours' drive in all directions. I regularly saw her go to work sick, aching, tired, or with a debilitating 'I can barely make words or see' level migraine, because if she took a day off, twenty children didn't get healthcare that day, and some of these kids' appointments were scheduled weeks in advance. She'd work long hours in the day and then be called in a couple of times overnight for an hour or two at a time (she was on-call at night too, because somebody had to be), and then go in the next day. Sometimes she would be forced to take a day off because she physically could not stay awake for longer than a few minutes at a time, meaning she couldn't drive to work.
Cue my niece's second birthday coming up in Melbourne. I'd been working for her for about 3 years, and she (and the hospital) had plenty of advance warning that I (and therefore she) needed one (1) Friday off. That's fine, we'll find someone to work that Friday, the hospital said. Right up until the last week where they're like "oh, we can't find a replacement; you can come in, can't you?"
No, she tells them; I don't have anyone to watch my kid that day.
Oh, surely you can hire a babysitter for this one day, they say. Think of the children! We really really need you to work that day. I know we said it'd be fine but we need you now, there's no one else to do it.
There are no other babysitters, she told them. Unless you can find one?
That's not our responsibility, they said.
But I'm not changing my plans, she's got plans by now as well, the hospital knew about this one day weeks in advance, and with absolutely no reserve staff they're forced to reschedule all pediatrics appointments for that Friday. Not a huge deal, it happens on the 'physically too overworked to get out of bed' days too. I go to Melbourne, she goes back to her home in Adelaide for her recovery week, all should be on track.
My niece gives me Covid.
This was way back in the first wave of the pandemic, and there were no Covid vaccines yet. The rules were isolate, mask up, hope. I had Covid in the house, and it would've been madness for my friend and her toddler to come back into the Covid house instead of staying in Adelaide. There was absolutely no way that a pediatrician could live with someone in quarantine due to Covid and go to work in the hospital with sick children every day. And no support existed for finding another babysitter, or temporary accommodation, so the hospital was down a pediatrician.
The other pediatrician wasn't available to do a three-week stint. They were also trapped in Adelaide on their well-earned week off.
Meaning that the only major pediatrics ward within a several-hour radius had no pediatricians. They had to shut down and send all urgent cases to Adelaide for the week. To the complete absence of surprise of any of the doctors or nurses; of course this would happen, this was bound to happen, it presumably keeps happening. But probably to the surprise of the higher-ups. After all, the hospital was doing fine, right? Of course all the staff were complaining of overwork and a lack of resources in every meeting, but they could always be fobbed off with the promise of more help sometime in the future; the work was mostly getting done, so the issue couldn't be too urgent.
It's not like some nanny who doesn't even work for the hospital could go out of town for a weekend for the first time in three years, and get the only public pediatrics ward in the area shut down for a week.
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As AJR once said
Oh, I'm spiraling now
#atlas adventures#started as an annoyance at a stupid app for being broken for the last two years and being worse this week#turned into āi need meds againā to āi can't even get into a doctor because my mom's availability conflicts with most doctor's hoursā#like i have a standing appointment every friday at 2 which is not able to be moved due to my therapist's availability#and my mom only has fridays and saturdays off starting this week#and every doctor's office that ISN'T a complete shitshow is minimum 45 minutes away so i can't go on fridays unless it's early as FUCK#i'm actually about to start screaming and sobbing. i can't fucking do this anymore#the nurse at my therapy office told me she'd contact me roughly around this week to see if i can get in with their main psychiatrist#since the np was a fucking SHITSHOW (i've posted about it before. it was BAD)#and i haven't heard back and i'm going on two months 100% unmedicated. hormonal AND psychotropic#i'm actually losing my fucking mind#i'm becoming morr manic than i've been in probably a few YEARS#it's just all internal doom spiraling so my mom hasn't noticed that āhey my child is about to fucking SNAPā#āmaybe i should call that doctor i promised to call in MAY because my child can't get in with their old quack gp anymoreā#i still need to call the hospital i saw the quack endo at to see if they take my new insurance and if they have any other endos there#because i do better mentally on hormone meds than on psychotropic apparently. didn't expect that but whatever#main problem with the hormonal correction meds is that it makes me dysohoric as fuck. but when am i NOT dysphoric anymore#everything else is better mentally with my hormonal. the mania (that i didn't even process as hypomania until recently tbh) the depression#i need at LEAST my fucking hormonals before i lose my fucking SHIT#none of this is normal none of this is normal
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my lucky golden frog got me a book today :)))) ive been looking for it for months now but it's always sold out but they just got a copy (the Exact copy i wanted!!) TODAY!!!! and i just Happened to go there and saw it literally two seconds after i said "would they have a copy of house of leaves- probably not"
#yayyyyy now i can read House of Leaves without having to worry about checking it out from the library for too long#so many people have it on hold that i can't renew it to check it out longer#and i didn't want to keep it very long if 7 other people want to read it too#i waited Several months just to get it when i put it on hold I'd rather expedite it for future readers#I'm way too slow of a reader now#the cashier mentioned that a lot of ppl ask about it and someone was just in two days ago asking#so i got pretty lucky there#i love my little golden frog :)#it's my lucky charm#i saw one last year at the gas station and instantly thought 'thats Absolutely a good luck charm' don't know Why#but i couldn't get it that day and the next time i went it was gone#but then right after i got out of the hospital at the beginning of this year#he was there on the shelf again :)#i take him with me out and about and i genuinely feel like I've had really good luck#like the fact that I've been visiting shoe stores for weeks and couldn't find Any new shoes while i didn't have the frog#but today i found the PERFECT pair of shoes while i had frog :) i am so fucking glad the insoles of my old shoes are FLAT now#i get those shoes with the giant thick memory foam insoles bc i need Support but then they go flat after a while
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you'd die ... you'd die ! / from madoka :)
bandersnatch | @quirk3d doesn't want chiyo to go!!
" have a little faith, " she softly asks of madoka, placing her free hand upon his. he hasn't let go of her wrist, eyes wide as they stare back at her. it hurts to see him so worried before she's even seen him smile. she may have chosen to become a teacher to have a break from the stress of being a pro hero, but that doesn't mean anything when explosions and screams ring out; she can't just hang back when there are people in trouble. that was never her personality, even before she properly learned how to use her quirk.
if chiyo can help, then she must. even if that worries madoka.
" they'll never even see me coming. " she squeezes his hand, gently starts to pull away. " get somewhere safe, and i'll find you after this all cools down, 'kay? then we'll eat something delicious -- forget all about this little hiccup. i promise. "
#quirk3d#i had the urge to go ' and then the next time they saw each other chiyo was in the hospital' but i figured i'd choose to be nice to them#asdfg thank you for sending this in!! i'm so soft about these two :' ))#grasp the dawn | my hero academia#i had to be there to be loved | interactions
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On May 19 Sgt. Michael Kunovich deemed him suspicious while outside the Super 8 motel parking lot. Aguilar Mendez was sitting down eating but started to walk away when the officer approached in his patrol vehicle. Kunovich began to question him, but Aguilar Mendez couldn't understand him or communicate well and repeated that he was sorry. That's when Kunovich decided to search him, and Aguilar Mendez resisted. Two other deputies arrived to assist in taking the 5-foot-4, 115-pound teen to the ground as Kunovich repeatedly stunned him with his taser, all seen on body-worn camera video. Aguilar Mendez can be heard screaming for his family and is seen trying to gain control of the taser as the officers note in the video. Toward the end of the 6-minute scuffle, the deputies saw that their handcuffed suspect had a small folding knife and disarmed him. Kunovich collapsed a short time later in medical distress and died at the hospital, the Sheriff's Office said. Aguilar Mendez, who came here from Guatemala, was staying with other farmworkers at the hotel. He is being detained without bail, which is the subject of another hearing as yet to be decided. (source)
I'm going to need you all to start spreading awareness about this case and sign the petition. I'm a 5'4 woman and I weigh more than him. He's only 18, indigenous and doesn't understand English nor Spanish really. I can't imagine how confused and scared he was. Tased 6 times and apologizing repeatedly and calling out for his family... he is not responsible for the police officer's death. The fact he's been held for 8 months without bail is disgusting.
Virgilio looks so small, sad and defeated in all of the images I've seen of him.
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The thing is that the portrayal of Neanderthals as having been inherently grotesque and alien to H. sapiens is something we will never have proof of. But we do have proof that, in different locations and in different populations across time, we all found eachother desirable. We saw eachother and wanted to touch. And the offspring were held by their mothers and raised and had their own offspring in turn.
When you look for the first proof that H. sapiens found Neanderthals repulsive, you have to wait until the Victorian era, when the white masters of empires were busy portraying Neanderthals as stupid, brutish, and (of course) dark-skinned.
In more modern times, weāve had people arguing that instead of seeing Neanderthals as Benighted Savages, they should instead be seen as Noble Savages, (allegedly) cruelly destroyed and driven from their lands by H. sapiens. Which one of their two you believe says more about your modern political views than it does about ancient H. sapiens.
And, whether we construct Neanderthals as Savage or Noble Savage, the fundamental assumption we project into the unfathomably distant past is still that H. sapiens saw Neanderthals as an Other, with the language we use being almost explicitly that of modern racial dynamics.
But we have no proof of any of that. We have no proof of hostilities. We know we co-existed and we had sex. Thatās it.
Humans obviously have sex with some humans and kill others. We also know that, when small groups of humans occupy vast spaces with infrequent contact with others, unique cultures will always form, some more hospitable, some more neophobic/xenophobic. But many cultures of small settlements placed among huge unpeopled landscapes place supreme emphasis on hospitality to strangers. Plus, we fucking love other social animals, as evidenced by how we befriended wolves.
Iām a humourless weirdo and a wet blanket about popular constructions of Neanderthals as āmonstrousā, and I freely admit it. But thatās because itās tied up in legacies of imperialism. Not only that, but it also privileges one culture (yours, mine, modernityās) as being most human by implicitly assuming we can project it onto people in the past. Since you donāt pretend that all global cultures share exact same values as you do, it doesnāt take more than a few momentsā reflection to realise you canāt do that to the past.
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