#TW: end of life care
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Yandere! Love God x Reader
Soulmates do not always meet in every lifetime. Sometimes, a person may become a bird that soars the skies while their soulmate becomes a fish that swims the depths of the sea. Other times, a person may become a little flower in a field while their soulmate becomes a large cactus in a desert. More often than not, the stars must align for soulmates to meet in a single lifetime.
You, however, are the exception. You will meet your soulmate in every lifetime for as long as your soul exists.
After all, your soulmate is the God of Love, an immortal being that ensures that you will meet in every single lifetime.
It doesn’t matter if you’re a little plant, an animal, or a human – he’ll always find you and love you. When you’re not there by his side, he patiently waits for the glow of your soul to return to the mortal realm.
It’s become a pattern of his, a habit. When you leave his side due to your life’s candle burning out, his world will be drowned in grayscale and monotony. He goes about his days without much care for anything, his duty taking the forefront of his mind.
But when you reincarnate, your soul colors his world with his love for you, brightening up his days. To him, it doesn’t matter what you are, just that you are – that you exist. Your existence takes the forefront of his mind, his body, his soul. He devotes everything to you for as long as he can, eager to dye you in his colors in every one of your lifetimes.
It doesn’t matter that you don’t remember him – he’ll remember for the both of you, filling pages and pages with his memories of you. It doesn’t matter that he has to start all over again in every single lifetime – he’ll gladly fill you with his love for you over and over again. Because, to him, you go beyond just being his world – you’re his universe.
So, for most people, the stars must align for soulmates to meet in a single lifetime. But for you, your soulmate forces the stars to collide so that he can draw your constellation next to his again and again for the rest of eternity.
#yandere oc#male yandere#yandere x reader#yandere x you#tsuuper ocs#tw yandere#yandere god x reader#yandere god#yandere love god#Aizono Tsuu OC#2024 yan/monstertober tsuutarr#male yandere x you#male yandere oc x reader#male yandere oc#“would you love me if i was a worm?” the answer is yes#listen you don't understand how devoted he is#like if u were reborn as a worm... he'd put you in the best terrarium and just do his best to take care of you until you live our your life#ofc he kind of prefers it when ur a human just bc he can talk to you but he really does just love you man#(he will never get a happy ending tho bc he's fated to live forever and you're fated to die and reincarnate forever teehee <3
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
they really 50/50’d the thunderbolts with characters i like and characters i couldn’t give less of a shit about
#i could go my entire life without seeing walker again#bc they completely fucked him up with the ending of fatws#evil captain america good great hes us agent for a reason but then they made him help bucky and sams debut as captain america#and i instantly lost interest#now hes just a self absorbed asshole character instead of a reflection of the us military and all its arrogance and faults#he always needs to believe whatever he does and thinks is best#having him stop and help sam and bucky after they were so against him completely ruins that#yelena? awesome#red guardian? awesome#bucky? im hesitant bc they keep fucking him over but inside im still 14 and still love bucky barnes so awesome#but does anyone care about ghost or taskmaster? bc i sure as shit dont#i sunno im probably not gonna watch it anyway but still#also directly comparing that shot of bucky blowing up the car to the one in tws just shows how badly colour graded thunderbolts is#it looks like a commercial#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#marvelous#thunderbolts#marvel#mcu#bucky barnes#yelena belova#red guardian#john walker#taskmaster#winter soldier
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
chat i think i have lost my sanity.
#ooc#ramble tag#lazytown#why does LAZYTOWN have me in a chokehold#to be fair it is fae!robbie and elf!sportacus#BUT STILL??#blaming this on my life sucking and reverting to when i was happy in my childhood#bc this has happened with lps monster high phineas and ferb and now this#which were all things i enjoyed in my childhood but STILLL#nearly 23 is this embarassing#maybe but should i care#(i fear people judging me but theres always space on the internet for peeps so UGHHH)#anyways#vent tw#bc it got a bit much at the end
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
just told my boyfriend’s whole family that my dad’s a drug addict!!! :) during family dinner!!! :)
#ugh#i feel awful#every time i have to talk about it i end up feeling SO anxious and sad after#also it isn’t like i just blurted this out out of nowhere btw#for context: his dad was asking how my dad is doing (my dad is in a long term care facility)#i was talking about his mind deteriorating and bfs dad asked if i think it’s because of the facility#i said no i think it’s because he’s a drug addict#whole table went silent#boyfriends dad looks SHOCKED#he goes ‘i didn’t know that’ and i’m like well :) yep! my whole life!#bfs mom already knew from when i first moved in#but anyway#now i’m having trauma flashbacks#love it :)#clari overshares#tw drugs
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
#tiktok#palliative care#end of life care#tw death#uk#tw death mention#death mention tw#death ment tw#sky news#uk news#tw medical#medical mention
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
everyone talks about how people being mean to them about their appearance in middle school or high school — or whatever time in their young adult lives — negatively influences the way they act when they’re hit on or develop crushes is so real, except the person who was mean to me was my mother so i’m fighting so many beasts at once and i’m so scared girls
#misc.#i hate talking abt this bc like i’m so ashamed i could ever care this much abt it#but like it’s killing me. it’s been killing me for my whole life#i have never ever ever ever thought i was pretty for more than a day at a time#i think my worth as a person is tied to how i look. like in a deep ingrained way bc i KNOW that’s not the truth. i know it with everything#in me. but as a child i was not taught that#i was taught the version of me that could be loved was a perfect one and any straying from that would be the end#and i can’t even fathom that a person may like me. that’s sickening. that’s so terribly unkind to think abt myself#it’s ruining my life. i want to be so much more than this person#i don’t even want to be pretty i just want to not have think about it ever again. i want to not care#body tw#body image tw
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
Mirror, mirror, on the wall...
Who's the fairest of them all?
#lowkey cringy caption but I thought it was fitting given the context#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#original character#who I still haven't figured out a tag system for lmao#Kat and Nia and their multiverse of madness#alternative title: what a difference half a lifetime can make#summiya at 18/19 vs summiya at 34/35 is like night and day. she barely even looks like herself anymore#or maybe.. she looks more like herself than she ever did? what came before wasn't her. it was an empty porcelain doll devoid of personality#hiding the rotten nature underneath that's been steadily seeping through#and now that she has been thoroughly destroyed her outward appearance finally reflects what she was like inside all along#but just as she manages to convince herself of it. she looks in the mirror and refuses to accept that this is who she really is#where did that gorgeous girl who was so excited for her wedding day go? or the one who lit up upon being showered with compliments?#what happened to them? to her? how did she sink so low?#she was supposed to be better than this... better than her siblings. she was always better than Zaheer and Aiza#but now she's easily the worst of the free. their betrayal doesn't even compare#she deserves death for what she did. she looks at the bruising on her throat and wonders why it wasn't enough#why he didn't press just a little harder. then at least she wouldn't have to live with the shame#how awful of her to wish for that. she is getting what was coming to her. she did all of that for the shame. it is her punishment#she doesn't get the mercy of dying and escaping the consequences of her actions#she is by no means innocent. what's happening now is simply justice being enacted. she's sure of it#she's alone and ruined and miserable. having driven away everyone who could have possibly cared for her. not that anyone did#perhaps it's better that way. maybe then no one else will look at her and realise just how different she looks from her younger self#she wasn't happy back then either but she was content. she was taking the first step towarcs the perfect life she was promised#now that very save perfect life is crashing and burning all around her. perhaps it was inevitable. it was always going to end this way#(sleepy tags so I apologise if they make no sense whatsoever or are just rehashes of stuff I've said before. I'm tired. gonna go to bed now)#oh. before I forget though:#injury tw#bruises tw
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
Me:
Real life events:
#flashing tw#gif tw#flash tw#ugh. don't want to vent on dash about the same thing again but got bad news about ol' dog (again). we don't know how much time he still has#with us but probably not that long. He's comfy and happy he just has symptoms strongly hinting at him being in the end-of-life stage#But also he's been gleefully swinging by death's door for the last year so I mean.#He requires a lot of around the clock care and cleaning now which has been going for over a year and I'm generally deep into that mechanical#routine / apathetic mode about it. Not a fan of how I process trauma nowadays but it is what it is#expect writer's/artblock on my end again#It's hard to run this blog to a satisfactory degree when I'm constantly in ''coping in advance'' mode#ugh#negative tw#pet illness tw
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
Favorite Artful Dodger scene so far:
Belle: "He's dying, isn't he? What can we do?"
Jack: "Hold his hand and see him into the next life."
Also, the parallels between this and Jack's earlier speech about how dangerous it is for a surgeon to play God. No matter how good a doctor you are, you still have to be a person - it is being a person that makes you good, and if you lose sight of that, you'll fail.
And when you've done all you can as a doctor, there's still something you can do as a fellow human being. Be there.
#death tw#artful dodger spoilers#the artful dodger#medical tw#hylian rambles#there is something about the sacredness and intimacy and terror of death that gets to me#it might have something to do with the fact that i volunteered doing fundraising for a hospice program as a teenager#never did any actual end of life care and didn't want to but still saw a lot of how it affected my coworkers and our clients#something a coworker said still gets to me. she said when people ask how she could do this job she says 'how could you not?'
17 notes
·
View notes
Text
had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what
#lolaa.txt#what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!'#'i wouldnt lie to you!'#okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time.#its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa#also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!'#yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up.#i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men#and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man#so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up.#and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face#that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense.#shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin#you dont have to worry about anyone else.#im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to#never really have#im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are#if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box#then when would you have any space for self discovery#youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats#and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that.#and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names#and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy#and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares.#and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look?#then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness.#SORRY RANT OVER.#im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric.#tw homophobia#tw transphobes
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
Hey I am so sorry to say this and nothing in particular triggered it but it keeps running through my mind and I just um. I'm so sorry but Kitty is most likely no longer with us :(
#danes have very short lifespans :(#and of course andrea would get her the best care but they just have a lot of bad health problems#and even if with the best care she lived on the highest end of their life exptancy . that would still be extremely pushing it#im not saying this like 'omg is meredith dead' ThEoRiEs its just kinda . true#my dad has wanted a great dane for as long as i can remember lol so#and my mom hasnt agreed mostly bc of their size but also their health problems#and i think my dad has been ok with not having one bc of their lifespan#im so sorry to say this i just had to get it out bc i keep thinking it im sorry 😭😭😭#tw animal death
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
So we all have that one person we have such deep philosophical ponderings with that we entirely dissociate from our sense of self to the point it feels weird to be “back” by the time the conversation ends?
#philosophy#philosophical#that one person#dissociation#my dad btw#hhhhhh#it’s rare though#it usually takes a few hours and I already burden him enough with my problems as is so#I gotta do it responsibly#can’t wait to get comfortable enough with my therapist to do this to them#therapy will end one of two ways#either they somehow fix me#or I break their mind first#also likely option is I end up in some form of mental#institution#tw sui ideation#tw sui implied#tw sui talk#because I care so little about my life atp#for the first time#ever#I’m planning to be completely open with them#no corner of my fucked up mind will be left unexplored#rip my future therapist rip#like oh yeah ahaha I actually do have this entirely unlogical beliefs and intrusive thoughts#and I logically know they are entirely unrealistic#doesn’t stop me believing them tho#and get this get this#I actually use specific delusions to cope with others!!!#an entirely self contained mind fuck
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#so ive never really done a vent post like this on here (or anywhere for that matter)#so idrk how this is gonna go but ig im gonna try it anyway cause idrk what else to do at this point lmao#look. listen. i know. i know *logically* that if i did die or disappear or whatever i know people would miss me#i know people would be sad and heartbroken and i know people care about me listen. i *know*#but i just. i cant help but think that everything would be better if i just. wasnt here#like. i just feel like such a burden to everyone around me. like i feel like i make everyones life actively worse#especially my dad#god he deserves so much better than me#i treat him so fucking badly like. all he asks of me is to keep my spaces clean and i just fucking. dont#i let the shit and the garbage pile up until hes overwhelmed cause i cant fucking bring myself to do simple fucking human tasks#cause of my fucking adhd or whatever#even though thats just an excuse#i should be able to do these things! i should be able to function like a normal human being!#i should be able to keep up with my hygiene and my chores and my school and work responsibilities!#but i cant! i fucking cant!#god im so fucking tired im fighting. im so tired of trying over and over and over again all for it to not fucking matter in the end#cause im right back where i fucking started#god all of this is just a shitty excuse to continue being a shit fucking human being#i dont even feel human anymore lol i feel *less* than human#god i wish i was less than human. i wish i was a fucking dog or something#that way i wouldnt have to worry about this bullshit world#that says a lot about me huh#im gonna end it there#ignore this pls#vent#tw vent
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
i have all these draft documents of half finished fics full of lines i love but that are so fundamentally flawed i can't figure out how to finish them and can't kill my darlings mercilessly enough to get past the roadblocks so i just reread them over and over and think damn this is kinda fire. wish it was anywhere near shareable.
#UGHHHHH 10k allydia fic full of dead end plotlines that lives in my google drive you will always be famous to me and me alone#allison is resurrected and i have this short bit about the five stages of grief vs the five stages of decomposition but idk if i can keep i#bc it works better if allison was dead longer. but i LIKE those lines............#i have like the barest of bones for like 6 different parts of the tw hunger games au fics......#scott one is at 4500k but i decided a while ago i need to change one of the main plot points and it's killing me bc that's like 90% of it#but i like the writing and it's like three scenes from completion!! but i can't bring myself to be happy with where i brought the plot 😔#SICK AND TWISTED!!!!!!!!!!#the tua fic that is my white whale..... reverse robins plot points plan and like four different false start documents......#the robins ghost au i never figured out a plot for....... the tommy dies instead of barb au........ THE JASON CARVER TIMELOOP STORY.......#i really like the opening i wrote for the jason time loop but that's all i wrote bc i realized i'd have to figure out a plot and rewatch s4#and like. :/ idk if i'm willing to do all that. for jason carver?? well.#i have this criminal minds fic where reid gets the flu bc he refuses to get vaccinated bc he's terrified of needles after georgia#and jj shows up to check on him bc she's also dealing w the georgia anniversary so she's desperate for proof of life#and it's like 80% done but i stopped super caring about cm a few years ago and now every time i remember it i'm like :/#i could spruce that up and post it if i really wanted to! it's not bad at all! but will i ever do that.........#OH MY GOD the like 4k i wrote from the POV of this girl stalking reid?? like i wanted to do a casefic from the unsub's perspective#i forgot about that one i was really invested in it for a while actually did a lot of research and really tried to make her sympathetic#shoutout to the random extra from that episode w jason alexander who i decided was gonna be Gwen The Stalker <3#throwback to my criminal minds era that was wild#anyways truly it is the allydia one the twthg xovers the reverse robins and the tua longfic that haunt me constantly#i always cycle between thinking about one of them on and off
1 note
·
View note
Text
Poor Penny isn't doing too well. Poor thing turned 16 just yesterday and her back legs started to go and she's just been deteriorating. She had episodes of blanking like she doesn't know where she is or what to do. She had a seizure in the vets and she hasn't really perked up since. She lifts her head to look around but that's all.
She's home for now and I'm trying to convince mum that if Penny needs to be put to sleep it should be at home instead of at the vet.
They don't do home visits but there is a specific service to do that at home
#my wee penny#I'm exhausted so its not the best writing#pet death tw#pet death#not yet but it's likely end of life care now#novustrad
3 notes
·
View notes