#THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT IM FUCKIN SAYING
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so when are we as a society going to talk about how cait hitting vi and then leaving her sobbing on her knees is a direct parallel to vi hitting powder and then leaving her in season 1
#i haven't stopped thinking about it all day#cait says vi has jinx's madness and vi responds saying look in the mirror#when they're all goddamn foils of each other#arcane#arcane spoilers#not to fuckin mention what that moment means for cait and vi as a partnership#'begs the question young kiramman.. what are you shooting for?' as she hits vi with the rifle that was meant to protect people#as she hits vi wearing the enforcer uniform that enacted so much violence on vi throughout life#looking down on her with zero remorse or care all the while knowing exactly vi's history#god im not fucking over it#caitlyn finally became another asshole criminal in a fancy uniform#my posts
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OH ARTHUR BENNETT.. such a gorgeous and intriguing character. terribly burdened by a GRUESOME set of crimes, his light suffocated by a HEAVY century of GUILT. so tragic, so dark and broody, and yet PAINFULLY awkward in any social setting ever
#jrwi fanart#cw blood#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#arthur bennett#OUHH THIS ONE WAS SITTING IN MY WIPS FOR SO LOOOONGwhen i took it out there was mould on it :sob:#BUT i think i was able to fix it up okay#i keep seeing SO MANY MISTAKES RRAAAHHH BUT YOU DONT SEE THEM RIGHT?? THATS ONLY ME. RIGHT?? EXACTLY.#THE KEY IS TO SAY. AND REPEAT AFTER ME. 'FUUUCK IT WE BALL#so anyway. arthur bennett huh? grizzly says that arthur is reaal fuckin difficult to play. and i SUPER get that. i mean LOOK AT HIM..#grizz often needs a minute to think abt what hes gonna say in a way that matches w that Stoic Personality. which is FAIR but also that#ends up making way for awkward confrontations like: the lady in the parky lot. he took too long to answer and scared her away.& I LOVE THAT#arthur is tragic and sad and cool and stoic but hes ALSO awkward and silly and kinda dumb and short sighted. HE HAS COMPLEXITIES#I LOVE WHEN TTRPG CHARACTERS HAVE A GOOD SET OF SHORTCOMINGS. ESPECIALLY WHEN U FIND THEM ONLY AS U PLAY THEM.#I COULd go on and on saying the same things w different words abt arthurs intriguing and entertaining character but i shall spare u. for no#ILL ALSO MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE HIS FLAVOR THO.. I LOVE TALL HOT BOY WHOS ONE W THE DARKNESS.. I REMEMBER WHEN HE FIRST MENTIONED THE#BADLUCK. N I WAS LIKE OOOHH THATS WHY HIS DESIGN IS SO COOL N CHAOTIC N ASYMMETRICAL. HES UNLUCKY!!! i love love love his design so much...#GRaaauruguguraguhhghghgh what else what else is there for me to spew on abt...i think im reachin a limit here..OH MAGNUS. i hope that#we get to know more abt how magnus and arthur met.. like How they became besties... ouuhh... I ALSO WANNA KNOW MORE ABT MARY DAVIS. LIKEHOW#he also apparently spent alotta time in a zone dominated by edward twilight? all he remembers is constant partying? I WANNA KNOW MORE..#i think i got room 4 one more ramble SO. THE ART PIECE.as i said its gone a lil stale BUT. im still very proud o the bits where hes allScar#I WANNA SEE HIM GET SCARYMORE. I like the idea of shadows solidifying to make him strange and eerie.like TEETH n CLAWS n SPINES n YESS#also the SILVER EYES.no1 does silver eyes like the show Claymore. they make em look so striking and eerie...i also like to think that#human arthur had deep beautiful brown eyes.just in my beaitufl heart.i mean look at him..i wanna cook him n eat him.ANYWAY#i think thats all my ramblin for this piece. now i gotta go cancel a single day i had ata hotel bc my work schedule change last minute FUCK#feel free to ramble in my tags aswell tho i read all of them and i chew on thenm and i love them so sos os mcuh
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I'm kinda baffled that I've only seen one Callum Crown ask blog so far. And it's... wildly out of character if I'm even allowed to say so. It must've been made before we got all this information on him or by someone who just doesn't know much about him. I don't mean to sound rude in any degree, I'm just surprised, is all.
(Please, someone make an actual callum ask blog, or I may have to do it myself. Which I am admittedly scared to do so.)
#dusty yaps#i would opt to make my own callum ask blog but#i am also dreadfully afraid of makin him out of character#i also dont know enough about him to confidently say i could pull this off#not to mention i already have a tobias ask blog that ive been neglectin#but it would be kinda funny nonetheless#every time i see that callum blog a piece of me dies inside#HE WOULD NOT FUCKIN SAY THAT!!!#i say#not knowin exactly what he would say either#BUT HED BE MORE RESPECTFUL THAN THAT#sorryyyy#the demons are gettin me#i dont even know if that blog is supposed to be callum durin his presidency#or after#its so inconsistent#sorry i just hate to see people get my fave characters wrong#but sayin that makes me feel like an ass#im scared people are gonna think im some self conceited guy who thinks he knows better than everyone else#aauuuhggghhh THE DEMONS
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ooooh man oh man the Asexual Angst™️ is hitting HARD tonight 😭😭
#WHY COULDNT I HAVE BEEN ACE AND ARO#MY LIFE WOULDA BEEN SM EASIER#BRO DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD ITS GONNA BE TO FIND A GUY THAT DOESNT WANNA BONE??? 😭😭#like im sitting here thinking a what the ideal scenario would be#n like the thought of telling my hypothetical boyfriend 'hey i dont wanna have sex ever' n him being ok w that???#like i literally cant fathom it#even in my IMAGINATION i cant think of a guy being ok w that#sigh..#jus. why me#how come everyone else gets to like#be in a relationship n stuff#n my irl friends are like 'oh youll find someone!!'#best friend saying that doesnt make it TRUE#like whatre the fuckin odds#could i not jus have been allo#ngl this ace thing kinda sucks#like truly honestly think abt it#could you honestly imaginr a guy being cool w not having sex for the rest a his life???#exactly#why did i get the asexual heteromantic combo#its ace but with Horrific Yearning#i think ive come to terms with it atp#but like damn...#shit sucks#doomed by the narrative to never know the (romantic) touch of a man ✌️🤪#hey God if You could jus like#make me not asexual overnight#thatd be appreciated#n like im not even depressed while typing this. jus resigned#asexual
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i was playing about dropping Fifty Drawings onto everyone's dashboard this week but the unfortunate reality is i am in fact being assaulted with images
#snap chats#this is what happens when i go on three hour walks i guess#might abandon some but i will spitball the ones on the forefront of my brain..#more for my sake so i dont fuckin forget cause I Am Starting To Forget Already dont read if. you dont want spoilers ???#not y7 spoilers. or i mean i GUESS there'll be y7 spoilers but i mean for my psts. i guess. only i care about that ANYWAY#i wanna draw a comic of aoki getting SOME kind of butterfly memorabilia or something with him and butterflies#i Was having a chortle with myself about Like A Butterfly but i was also like... Yk Butterflies Still Are About Rebirth#lame as hell ik but shut up anyway next one i wanted to do was Troubled Teen Jo getting in a scrap with arakawa#idk if i want this to be AFTER arakawa's become a father or not.. im still chewing on exactly what i want the direction of it to be..#i have an IDEAAAA just.. nothing concrete yet..#and then the one i wanted to see if i could do tonight was Beach Day With The Arakawas :) Cause IDK <:)#i really dont know.. for some reason i just got visions of them three at the beach.. maybe its cause of tonbi idk...#though the more i thought about that idea the longer it got and the more i was like 'maybe i can turn this into a fic instead'#a terrible sentence cause generally i never get anything done when i say that but it'd fr be too long to make a comic of#so at least for now maybe ill make a short fic.. just tryna figure if i want a jo or arakawa pov#i always think of jo's pov so i wanna challenge myself with arakawa. i always focus on jo and his pov of 'becoming a father'#but sometimes i also really wanna explore arakawa's pov on jo becoming another parental figure for masato. or smthn like that idk#ANYWAY LET ME COOK. im not a good chef but i can at least cook an egg lemme see what i got...#bye bye for now ill be in the kitchen (google docs) if anyone needs me..
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#good fucking god#im hanging out w my mom and i remember why i dont love hanging out with my mom#she gives in to toxic diet culture and is a huge reason why my relationship with food is so fucked upppp#minding my business making myself a rice bowl w sweet potato and avocado w miso tahini dressing 🤌🤌#and unprompted shes like#‘im on a new diet i cant eat any of those things i can only have 200 calories per meal#i miss avocado so much but i’d rather be skinny’#im like BITCH????????#thanks for sharing and also that ‘nutrition center’ u went to and bought a bunch of frozen food from is a scam#once u stop eating their special food they upsell you then ur gonna gain it all back i hate to break it to you#and also the key to losing weight is to exercise enough to offset what you eat#she does not exercise at all.#she made me fuckin weigh myself in front of her the other day and when she saw the number she was like ‘thats not that bad’#HELLO??????#is she trying to give me another ed? cuz her saying that is exactly how i developed an ed 7 years ago :-)#losing my mind actually#ive genuinely put in so much work and its such a conscious and constant effort to not fall back into those patterns#and here i am holding back tears while i try to finish eating
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ALSO OMG THE NEW TEAM CANADA CTM SERIES SKJDFSDJKFK
#IK I'M LATE TO IT BUT I NEVER CHECK YT ANYMORE. ANYWAYS I JUST WATCHED THE 2 EPS LAST NIGHT#theyre exactly the same. sobbing crying im soo normal abt it#alSO ETHO SAYING THAT HE'S WATCHED OLD COMPS OF THEM DOING MAPS???? king i cannot be normal abt this im so sorry#team canada ctm videos. what's better huh? yeah thats right you dont have an answer#Top Moment Of All Time on yt is them doing that one fuckinnnn puzzle w the sound effects and the hoppers. u know the one#beef in full mom mode. theyre all about to break up forever. fuckin beautiful
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Man
#My friend forgot that they said theyd come to my house today and even though i texted them.aboht it at 1pm which they read at 3pm they#didnt bother saying ANYTHING to me until literaly rivht now (its nearly 7pm so tge day is effecrively over)#and like. my friend is autistic (so am I obviously) so on one hand im like yeah they probably dont know any better but on the other hand i#WOULDVE known better not because im good with empathy or social stuff but just bc i put in an effort#and like . well what would i say cause. like i said theyre autistic im sure its not great to get upset with an autistic person for doing#something autistic BUT LIKE ITS STILL HURTFUL!!! AND IM AUTISTIC MYSELF#but my mom raised me to be like so painfully aware and competent (in real life online obviously i act like a madman) that its near#impossible for me to hang out with other autistic/adhd people without feeling like their fuckin dad bc they refuse to put in any effort#into our friendship beyond exactly that they feel like doing#and stuff like this is constantly happening like hanging out with them is always overshadowed by the fact that i have to plan everything#and take care of everything and remind them of everything bc otherwise they literally want altho i KNOW they can#*wont#but at the same time im TOO weird to hang out with neurotypicals but with other nd people its always shit like this#and there are few things i hate as much as having to take care of people in contexts like this esp cause it just means i have to mask way#more cuz the others wont put in the slightest effort meanwhile ANY social interaction is like moving a mountain for me ive just gotten#so used to the effort BC WHAT ELSE DO I FUCKING DO I DONT WANNA DIE ALONE#but neither of my friends are as driven with tbis as i am. like if theyre not motivated to do something they literally wont do it#and like im rarely motivated either but THERE IS NO CHOICE BUT TO DO IT !!! but bc i guess their parents never enforced any rules now#they are exhausting to deal with
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im too high to be thinking this hard about simon alkenmayer
#one would really REALLY think this would be one of those like.. tumblr deepdives or something#id say somebody should make one of those but like i feel kinda sick thinking about it too hard in general#it's just. such a strange experiment#and like in my little search thing i was doing#there was all this stuff. all this variety of horrific shit they wrote or whatever#but like . i cant even get through a paragraph or whatever#like if i read too much of that faq or whatever#i just feel genuinely sick. like. this 'experiment'#like.. i cant even talk about individual issues here because like. theres just the constant implication and context within every post#like 'yeah i eat people and you 'gentle readers' who are aware of me are the only ones who are off the menu'#like . girl you do this and insist you Care Not For Petty Human Squabbles or whatever#and then say something antisemetic . like dont you fry human fingers and restore antiques. why are you taking time OUT OF YOUR DAY--#and that's exactly it!!!!!!! what i just did!!!!! you can't even point out like actual fucking issues#because you gotta give the fucking cryptid legitimacy . like what the fuck am i supposed to do here#and like i'm paranoid . genuinely paranoid now for like . safety now#and dont get me started on the cop shit. fuckin grey light yagami or whatever the fuck#im thinking about this too hard but i need a deep dive and some genuine conversation and not on their terms lmao
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one of the most frustrating things about the situation w my abusive ex is how ppl act like they're an uwu innocent child with 0 agency? like as if i ~manipulated them~ into believing conspiracy theories about "freemasons brainwashing children" with me, rather than me genuinely being terrified of the ideas put forth from others about it and being terrified that was happening to me and i just didnt remember it bc I was trying to figure out why I was sexually abused by someone close to me and nothing was done about it and this was the only fucking way i could explain to myself ~why~ it happened? like yall have to convince yourselves im like this nefarious strategic alt right type with ulterior motives rather than someone who was fucking scared out of my mind, doubly funny if its someone ik irl from HS because like dawg- i definitely dropped everyone i knew because I was terrified, how in tf do you see that and think "well clearly hes being strategic and trying to control our poor sweet innocent babu who totally isnt 4 years older than you and totally isnt an adult who went along with you in believing this stuff because they wanted to", gotta be bc i forced them somehow right. give me a fucking break. they're not a child with 0 agency, they knew what they were doing, only when they realized it might hurt their image did they stop and try to blame me for alllll of it and why they believed in it rather than them wholeheartedly and willingly going into it. and even if you want to pretend that they are just a dumb baby and they just follow in peoples footsteps like a toddler, i still wasnt being fucking nefarious or strategic regardless,
I WAS F U C K I N G SCARED.
#vent#part of the reason it was so easy for both of us to believe-- i mean first of all let me say that i personally think they knew what they we#doing and thought it was funny to enable me and make me even more paranoid about this shit. but i digress-#the reason it was probably easy for both os us to believe is bc there were a lot of similarities between some of our ocs#like vince and ass having the same piercings- or how smiley and shit are similar to eachother in ways in spite of us hardly interacting irl#and not knowing about eachothers ocs and esp not knowing eachother during the conception of our ocs#and theres this whole thing in the Evil Freemasons belief about 'twinning' and i dont exactly remember the details of what that meant#but i think it was something about us being mirrored with eachother or some shit?? or we were both 'brainwashed together'#or something. idk. but thats the most charitibility im willing to offer them on this bc like i said i still think they were 'believing' tha#shit just to enable me and fuck with me- bc why else would it be so easy for them to just *drop* believing in this stuff if they#genuinely did and if i was totally for sure manipulating them into believing it with me? usually its not that fuckin easy and ya gotta#carefully deconstruct the shit you started believing in- and i doubt they could do it that quickly.#esp if they were totally for sure scared of it too like they pretended to be 😒#personally i would flip flop back and fourth on believing it was twinning or if we were 'soulmates' bc it felt really weird to see so#many similarities? but then i realized the things that were similar between our ocs at the time were just look too common of tropes anyways#and i clarify at the time bc this was before they were trying to fully be like me/my self insert specifically and then pretending some1#like me was just a common trope they could easily emulate 😒 bitch you wish you were half as unique as me thats why you emulate#dont front.#you had to literally copy my art style to make your art look unique bc it was so average before.
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tag rant but man i fuckin hate the new direction for loz
#its like. this is more on like. why is it bad that theres a zelda formula. why is it bad that all of the games follow this formula#that’s their identity??? like pokemon games and fire emblem games all have their own formulas so to say#and so thats their identity thats what you expect going in thats their niche their gameplay experience identity#and i just. really fucking hate how loz seems to be going the route of just. throwing shit at the wall and trying everything else#and nothing sticks so the more recent ones just feel like open world slop that dont excel at anything#so fuck this im going to play elden ring with a double jumping horse and great and challenging combat. i’ll play minecraft#yknow? and i dont understand why loz games feeling ‘similar’ is so fucking bad like???? every game series’ entries feel similar thats the#point yknow. if they suddenly made a fire emblem that was an fps for no reason other than to break convention and break away feom the#formula then what the fuck thats not even fire emblem any more. like. idk. i kinda just despise the newer stuff bc its so. middle of the#road whatever and has just about nothing i actually like and look for in the series. they dont have that niche identity any more#its a shift that just makes them like part of the open world white noise every aspect is honed down and done better in other games#its not like the formula causes every loz game to be really predictable or blend together fuck no#theyre still each very unique from each other even if they follow the same guidelines thats the fun???#like woah i wonder how the dungeons will differ what the new story and characters will be what new items#fucking hell boo hoo this game series’ games are similar to each other. almost as if they share the same central identity#absolutely just letting off steam and frustration here i hate when ppl treat the formula as a bad thing when it’s like. what makes them loz#like fuck its not like theyre exactly the same like i said theres a great deal of variety in what each one offers no need to just chuck it#all thats the kind of shit i come to loz for. i go to fire emblem for the specific leveling up strategy gameplay i go to pokemon for the#creature battling and specific world feel botw/totk just. do not carry with them the same signifiers of loz and they dont really have#identities beyond go do whatever the fuck which is not very compelling??? like can we at least commit to something here?#im yelling at shadows here im just. fuckin tired and feeling pessimistic abt this future of this game series whose core gameplay is one of#my all time favorites i really like the tightly designed linear-with-freedom dungeons and puzzles and world and all that#like the aesthetics changing is great and its fun to see different takes and tones on it but that core sense of things is like. The Point#of choosing to play loz yknow what i mean. like just bc its got ‘legend of zelda’ slapped on it doesnt gonna mean im gonna want to play a#vastly different experience if that makes sense. thats not the precedent thats not what you like. expect and associate with this#i feel like i sound like some entitled fuck abt this but like. is that tried and true style just going to be trashed in favor of this#honestly kinda bland everyman-ass style just bc it started to seem like it was getting stale. fuck this im gonna see what tunic’s about#likely delete later this was just a vent. ‘the zelda formula is a bad thing-‘ are you fucking serious rn#like hesitantly hopeful abt eow bc someone i know is excited for it so ill def play it but just. man
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still baffled that this man literally would call me his wife 🤧 said if i ever tried to marry someone else he would come and sit in the back til they say speak now 🤣 while he was fw anyone he felt like behind my back. thats C R A Z Y
#ONE DAY I WONT CARE#i wish it was soon#im just glad i don’t want him anymore#genuinely in the past thinking of my life without him felt like the end of the world#little did i know it was exactly what I needed to happen way before it finally did happen#HE IS FUCKIN 35#he would say “’I’m too old to be playin games like that’#smfh#fuckin played tf outta me#im so mad
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A continuation of Bakugo’s transformation story.
*this will pick up from Katsuki coming over to you and Mina.
“Hey I need to talk to you.” Katsuki says as he walks up to you and Mina. Not even giving either of you a greeting.
“Um, do you not see us having a conversation?” You ask him.
“Exactly, like I’m standing right here.” Mina said circling around Bakugo because he hasn’t even glanced in her direction.
“Yea, yea. I’m sure which ever celebrity you two are gushing over can wait until later.” He grunts.
“Oooop. He’s got us there. Are we that predictable??” Mina asks pretending to be surprised.
“Yes. Now let’s go.” And that’s the end of that because now he’s pulling you behind him and all you can do is try to keep your footing following in his steps.
“Jeez, slow the hell down. My legs are not as fucking long as yours.” You mutter as he continues to drag you.
“Not my fucking fault that you’re fuckin short.” He says and you can hear the smug smile on his face.
“Im only a couple inches shorter than you. One good pair of heels and I’d be looking down on you.” You inform him politely.
“Yea, like you’re gonna put on a pair of heels🙄”
And then you’re being pressed up against the wall while he hovers in front you.
“So what’s so impor- mmmhh”
Your words are cut off as he presses his lips against yours. You’re shocked initially but then you feels his lips moving against yours. All you can do is melt up against him.
Down bad doesn’t even begin to describe it.
After a minute or two he pulls away from you breathing deeply. It takes you both a moment to catch your breath.
“Is that really the important thing you had to tell me??” You manage to breathe out when your mind finally catches up to the situation.
“Mmm.. that felt important didn’t it?” He asks with his voice all husky.
You answer him quickly, “not important enough for you to be stealing me from my friend.”
His face pulls into a cute grin, “You say that, but you’re rubbin up against me like a cat.”
You then realize he’s right. Your arms are up on his shoulders while your hands rub up and down his undercut.
You try to pull back to correct this but steel hands land on your hips, keeping you in place.
“Where the hell do you think you’re goin? I still got important thing to discuss with you.” And then he’s leaning back down to meet your lips.
You can’t stop the smile that forms on your lips.
You’re both are so whipped and you both know it, but also refuse to admit it.
#imagine#bakugou x reader#bakugou katsuki#mha fanfiction#bakugou katsuki x reader#bakugou drabble#katsuki bakugo mha#drabble#bakugo headcanons#kacchan bakugou#bakugo katsuki#katsuki bakugo#katsuki bakugou#bakugo#bnha bakugou#bakugou
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okay, but soap w a reader w a high libido??? im crazy im going crazy i need him so bad
soap loves how much you want him. in fact, he thrives on it. every time you come to him with that wild look in your eyes, practically ripping his clothes off, it makes his cock throb with need. “fuckin’ hell, bonnie, ye’ve got an appetite, eh?” he’ll laugh, but he’s already grabbing at you, hands firm on your hips, pulling you against him. your libido matches his perfectly, and he’s always eager to meet you in the middle—or go a few rounds harder.
“ye dinnae waste any time, do ye?” he’ll say, his thick scottish brogue making every word sound dirtier as he growls into your ear. he’s all about intensity—rough kisses, hard thrusts, gripping you tightly as he fucks you like there’s no tomorrow. “ye want it that bad, aye? cannae ever get enough of me, can ye?” his voice is strained with lust, his hands gripping your body tightly as his hips slam into yours, the sound of skin against skin filling the air. he’s a man of passion, and once he gets going, it’s like he can’t stop.
but he also knows how to play with you, teasing just enough to drive you wild before giving you exactly what you need. his pace is rough, relentless, his cock driving into you hard and fast, making you gasp and moan as he watches with a smirk. “that’s it, love. take it.” even when you’re both spent, he’s still grinning, pulling you close, ready to go again. “ye’ve got me knackered, but fuck, i’ll never say no tae ye.”
#call of duty#call of duty x reader#cod mw2 x reader#cod mw2#cod#cod mwii#cod x reader#call of duty smut#john soap mactavish x reader smut#john soap mactavish smut#john soap mactavish x reader#john soap mactavish#soap x reader#soap x reader smut
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I reached fuxkinf 30 tags 😭
the way he’s shaking oh my god kit he’s so nervous i actually feel like crying just — that whole interaction, the laugh, the tears; everything is so vividly thick with emotion oh my GOD
And he cracks a small smile thinking he might cry too?! OH baby i am 😭😭 then he fucking says it ‘you told me to do it scared’ GOOOOOD KIT THAT FUXKING CALLBACK 😭😭 WHAT IT MEANS 😭😭 how he’s listened to you all this time, how he’s carried that lesson with him for YEARS 😭😭
So he’s asking u to marry him scared. That you’d say no. That he’s stutterz godgodgodgodgod *head in hands*
and when reader asks have you asked me ? And he’s like, he was gonna have a speech THEN GETS CHOKED UP ABT IT ARE U SRS RN I THINK IM IN LOVE W HIM 😭😭😭😭 and he’s like ‘maybe ill have to save it for later’ oh GOOOD he rlly would do that. I think he’s just so the type to prepare these things and have it all he thrown to the side in the last minute 😭
And its so real so true. You not needing anything else but just him asking it. To hear him say it. Ih god the devotion
And and and an ddint even get me started when he takes your hand, still shaky, runs his thumb across ur ring finger 🥺 dont eeeeven get me started there ill cry aksmdkdnn and he says ‘ok ill do it’ oh my fod biggest dork ever i love him
GET ON WITH IT HAJIME 😭😭😭😭
Then he kisses where the ring would be 😭🥺😭😭 then looks up at you even while youre scared 😭😭😭 will you marry me murmured into your knuckles oh my god ig my gohs skisbssinsiensincjrnd im gonna pass oUTTTG
Holding himself uprigjt to kiss u properly? Oh i would rusjsjdjdjdjdndn
And their banTER AFTER. How he places the rinf on you. THE BAAAANTERRRRR
His eyes are so soft that you knkw theyre for you <- ARE U KIDDING ME RN . RU FUCKING KIDDING ME RN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 im waging wars for him . Flinging myself across the ocean
KIIIIIT I LOVED THIS SO MICH as you can tell lol im barely coherent but like . I loved this so much i have no words
you told me to do it scared
Iwaizumi was sixteen when he lost all of his fear.
He doesn’t really remember exactly what it was that the two of you were talking about, or when, but he remembers how his voice echoed in the alleyway home — the shortcut, he called it.
Iwaizumi remembers rambling and he remembers that you let him; you were never one to cut him off. He was a good listener, as it could be especially hard to get a word in around people like his group of friends, but you?
Around you? He couldn’t shut up.
He was rambling on and on about something — he forgets what, but it was big for his sixteen-year-old self. Nerve-wracking.
“Are you done?” he remembers you asking, side-eyeing him as you walked.
“Uh, yeah. I’m done.”
“Great. What are you even worried about, Hajime?”
(He still doesn’t know what. It turns out that you were right, and it was so insignificant that he can’t even remember what was bothering him to this day.)
“I don’t know. Rejection. Failure—“
“Oh, please,” you scoffed. “Yes, because Hajime Iwaizumi is known for failing.”
He furrowed his brows. “Don’t be mad that I’m nervous.”
“Scared, Haji.”
“I’m not—“
(You gave him a look and he shut his mouth.)
“So what?” he asked then, dropping his hands in his pockets. You never really knew why he was so good with you, why he talked so much — you never dared question it. “How do I get over it and just do it?”
You smile, shaking your head.
“You don’t get over it. You do it scared.”
“What?”
“Fake it ‘til ya make it, Haji.”
(Iwaizumi doesn’t remember what he did, but he knows he did it terrified; he did it well, too. Passed the test, won the game, cleared the hurdle, got the job. Whatever it was.)
Iwaizumi was sixteen when he lost all of his fear. He’s twenty-eight when it all comes crawling back.
By now, he’s more than a decade older with a bunch of fearlessness under his belt, from spiders put back outside to funny noises in the yard. He’s carding his fingers through your hair on the couch you both picked out, and he hasn’t been this scared in a really, really long time.
(Probably not since you told him that he just needed to do it.)
Iwaizumi is scared because, for the first time in the three months he’s been carrying your ring in his pocket, he really wants to fucking give it to you.
He’s always wanted to — no shit, it’s why he bought it — but tonight is the first time he wants to ask you. He doesn’t just want to picture it on your finger, he wants to feel it against his hand when he holds yours.
The same movie you’ve seen four times plays on the TV. You’re leaned right against him; your eyes are heavy, you’ve yawned a few times.
Half of him wants to do it, half of him knows it’s late.
It’s just — it’s you in his shirt, in his sweatpants, in his arms. He has been yours for way too long to not have done this sooner, but neither of you have ever been in a rush to do anything.
Until now, half past midnight on your long weekend and all he wants to do is plan a wedding.
Iwaizumi can’t even sit in his imagination for long, because soon enough you’re sitting up with a look of confusion and you’re lifting his hoodie up, putting a hand over his heart.
“What?” he says, half a breath and half a laugh.
You look … concerned. He can’t tell whether he thinks it’s cute or distressing. “You don’t feel that?”
“Feel what?”
“Hajime, your heart is racing.”
“Is it?” he asks. He sets his hand beside yours. “Nope, don’t feel it.”
You roll your eyes, yanking his sweater back down as you sit at his side. “Well, something is making you two steps away from arresting right here. Spill before I call an ambulance.”
“It’s nothing, seriously. Watch the movie, will you?”
“But I’m nosy, damnit. Don’t you know me at all?”
God, so fucking well. Somehow, not well enough. Tell me more. Tell me everything I already know.
“It’s nothing!”
“Hajime,” you say, and finally your voice is stern. “Whatever you want to say, you know I could never be mad at you for it.”
Iwaizumi takes a deep breath. The box in his pocket feels like it’s made of fucking lead.
“I—“
“Stop. It.”
(He does. He stands up instead.)
“Okay, wait,” you start again, “I didn’t mean leave.”
“Give me a second, damn,” he groans, dusting off his pants, checking it’s still there. Of course it’s still there, but if it wasn’t, this would be bad.
Iwaizumi knows you deserve a thousand flowers and a candle-lit beach, and maybe he’ll give you both. But he’s neck-deep and the water is rising; it’s now or within the next hour, really.
“Hey, are you alright? You’re pale,”
“I’m fine,” he reassures you. Iwaizumi kneels in front of the couch.
“Hajime,” you say again, face contorted in worry. “Seriously, are you—?”
You don’t just trail off, you jump off the road.
In one of his hands is a box. A small one, fitting for a ring. His other hand rests on your knee.
“Are you—“
“—dead serious? Yeah,” he says, sounding way less strong than he looks. “I am.”
He opens the little box, showing you what’s inside. It’s in your colour, a pretty diamond glistening beneath the warm light of your table lamp and the movie. You swear you even mentioned that shape once, probably years ago.
“No,”
“Yeah,” he says, “yes.”
“Are you serious?” you whisper, feeling your tears jerk to the surface, rimming your eyes. You rest a hand on his.
He’s shaking.
“Hajime,” you laugh, wiping a hand under your eye. “You’re shaking.”
He sighs.
“I know,” he nods. Iwaizumi cracks a small smile — he thinks he might cry, too. “You told me to do it scared.”
Your brows furrow and unfurrow in the matter of a few seconds. Yeah, you did say that.
(You were sixteen and talking about less major things, but you did say that.)
“So I’m doing it,” he finishes. “Scared.”
“Scared of what?”
He shrugs. “That I’d stutter when I ask you to marry me. Or that you’d say no.”
You smile. “Have you asked me?”
“Not yet. I was gonna make a speech, but I,” he slows. He stops — he has to, he’s getting choked up. “I might have to save it for later.”
“I don’t want a speech, I wanna hear you say it.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
“Okay,” he says. Iwaizumi takes your hand in his shaking hold, his thumb swiping over the top of your ring finger. “I’m gonna do it now.”
“Get on with it, Hajime.”
You’re unmistakably excited.
Iwaizumi kisses where the ring will be if you tell him yes. Scared and all, he looks up at you.
(He speaks the words you’ve been waiting for into your skin. Will you marry me? murmured into your knuckles.
You don’t even tell him yes. Not coherently, anyway.)
You throw yourself into his chest and he has to hold himself up against the coffee table behind him to kiss you upright.
“Yes,” you answer again, over and over. “Even if you were scared to ask.”
“It just means I love you, doesn’t it?” he murmurs, taking your hand and moving it back in front of him. He slips your ring onto your finger. “Just scared on the off chance you were gonna spit in my face—“
“Shut up,”
“Hey, don’t talk to your fiancé like that.” Iwaizumi hesitates, looking up from the ring to your face. His eyes are so soft that you know they’re for you. “That has a ring to it, doesn’t it?”
“Fiancé,” you repeat. Husband to be.
“Yeah. That does sound pretty good, doesn’t it?”
“Just imagine how I think fiancée sounds, honey.”
“And look — you didn’t even stutter.”
“Oh, come o—“
“Careful what you say, now. Happy fiancée, happy life, Hajime.”
“I don’t think that’s the saying, but okay.”
note; tagging @shotorus because this is your man :3 happy late birthday sel!
#pls read this#hq!!#hajime#oh my god kit. oh my god. KIT. the way i cried reading this. and for u to dedicate this to me too oh my god im actually BAWLINGN#the title alone has me by the throat i swear to god!!!!!! i love premises like that.#him rambling and you let him? oh my heart cant take this cANNOT and the idea of exceptions !!! of acting diff around you oh GOD#how he’s a listener w his friends but w you wont shut up ?!?!! IM ACHINF . i love that so much and is such a darling resd on him 😭#i truly think he’d only be super talkative w people hes super close to/feels safe being that way with 😭#i also think he looks calm and put together all the time bur is lowkey a worryrat and srsly considers EVERYTHING. 😭 i think he’s like oikawa#and i love how he cant even remember what it was — bc it was that insignificant !!! EXACTLY !!!#also calling him haji? PRICELESS . my heart will burst and die . my absolute FAVOURITE nickname for him oh my god#whatever it was — he did it terrified <- KIT PLS I LOVE THAT SO MUCH . i looove that . because hajime is an image of tenacity for me#he persists and persists despite being scared . despite it being hard . oh ym fod your characterisation of him here i could actially cry#YOU ARE SO RIGHT about spiders and noises . he is def the guy to call 😭 goes out w a slipper for roaches too 😭😭#but my god seeing him scared now at 28 its !!!!!! doing smth to me !!!!! aching my heart !!!! twisting it#and FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 3 MOS HE’S CARRYING THE RING AND HE RLLY WANTS TO GIVE IT TO YOU HelllOOOUGHHHH ?!?!! IM FUCKING CRYINF#no shiTTTY UTS WHY HE BOUGHT IR 😭 he doesnt just want to picture it he wants to feel it <- oh my god kit if i could just . please . CRYING .#you in everything that is him and him being yours for way too long oUGH i loved that line sk much kit gonna have it tattooed on my ribcage#half past midnight on your long weekend and all he wants to do is plan your wedding 😭😭😭😭😭😭#and how he cant tell whether you look cute or distressing . UR HONOUR HES IN LOVE jakdjd i adore the bits abt his heart racing too😭😭😭😭#its so cute and reader is so sweet and hajime is soooooo hajime 😭😭😭 how he’s so nervous oh my god please give him to me#‘is it ? nope dont feel it’ PFTTTT TKAMSKDJD LOSER snjxjd kit u know how much i love ur dialogue aksnjd their banter and chemistry is so cur#cute* & omg how he knows u so fuckif well. sometimes not enough. tell him more . everythinf he alr knows . oh god#if intimacy could be explained in a single paragraph kit. it would be that. sjznsjd hes so nervous i want to squish him#how he checks if its still there?!?! give me a sec dammit?? ph my god and how he truly wants to give u more bc u deserve more but HE CANT#HE JUST CANT HELP IT . HES SRSLY THINKING FK IT . hes neck deep and the water is rising 😭😭😭😭#and the exchange if disbelief oh my god kit i love love love raw moments snd this feels so real . so unrehearsed . UGH IM IN LOVE WITH THIS#the fuckin BOX WHILE HIS Hnd rests on ur knee oh my fod illc ry ‘dead serious’ he answers too quickly akdjsj less strong than he looks!!!#im crying . the shape the diamond the everythinf akxnjs the thought he put into it for you oh god i could CRY .#the gradual transition to tears !!!!! even when you’re saying the same thinf ‘are you serious?’ oh god i could cry i am actually crying
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“wait—!”
“stop fuckin running.” he says, punctuating every word with a thrust. “knew exactly what you were doing earlier, slut!” he seethes, grinding the tip of his cock into a spot that only he could reach.
“fuck— i know! im sorry!” you moan and choke, head being forced into the plush throw blanket.
“fuckin’ slut wanted this cock? you get this cock.” with a growl in his throat, slamming himself back into you. shit, was he that mad about you sitting in his lap? “yeah, you know?”
“yes– fuck im so sorry! fuck!” you scream, legs shaking in ecstasy as you try to keep them open. you cry when he slaps your ass, hand prints indented into your skin.
he never responds, hands on your hips as he plows himself into you from behind. only growls emit from his throat when he starts a rhythm that makes him feel good. he was mad, mad that you didnt ask to sit on his lap, yet he didnt care if you did. the only difference being that you were in public.
so was he mad about something so small? yes. thats exactly that.
but he loves random punishments, and you do too.
“going to ruin your fuckin’ whore body.” he laughs, nails digging into your skin. “you dont get to cum, i get to.” he cruelly says, angling himself to go deeper. he hits a spot that felt deeper than your cervix, and that kicks him off. “take it, take it, take it!”
your eyes roll back to your skull, brain being fried from the constant thrusts into your cunt and having to not scream his name.
he pulls himself, spurting white, thick ropes of cum on your ass and back. it ran hot, burned even if you could call it that. you try to sit up, yet he slams you back down.
“you thought i was finished with you? another thing to punish you for.”
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