#Systemic Bad Writing
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please help i just had a dream where svsss was a dating sim. so, of course i tried pursuing shen qingqiu, but it ultimately backfired because suddenly he realized that he was in a dating visual novel?? and since i put myself as a guy, he just refused to show up to special in game events to avoid me interacting with him???
and obviously i was like "wtf why isn't he here?" when he didn't show up. then at some point i explored the area, and the screen suddenly zoomed in to show sqq talking to sqh (supposedly telling him all about the little situation). next thing i know, both of them are slowly turning their head to stare at the screen in pure and utter terror
also in some part of the dream, i think i did some liu qingge events or something and as his affection levels rose, he would continuously jump scare me by popping up out of nowhere and go, "its not like i like you or anything!!" while covered in blood and holding out a demonic beast head as if it were a box of treats
anyways, totally random question guys haha if i made an svsss visual novel dating sim would you guys play it. no reason in particular at all.
#im actually learning how to code right now#if i hyperfixate enough ill turn this to reality bc im kinda bad at writing fanfiction#no promises though#i prob had this dream bc i stayed up till 5 am last night playing a date with death#idk if dream liu qingge was accurate bc personally i see him more as just being like 'for you.' before leaving#but its a funny thought to have with liu qingge acting like that sporty emotionally constipated tsundere character lmao#anyways dw if i do make the game i would build a chaotic ass harem route jesus fucking christ that'd be hilarious#the scum villain's self saving system#svsss#mxtx svsss#shen qingqiu#shang qinghua#liu qingge#cumplane
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mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.
now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.
He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.
(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)
The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.
The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.
And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.
(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)
The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.
anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)
#mxtx svsss#svsss au#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#disciple shen yuan#scum villain#svsss#*points at SQQ/SY* i want him to go nuts. as a treat. let him crumble just a little over the stress of his fate and the stress of survival#and the stress of having a lack of autonomy over a handful of his decisions. starry craves angst and she craves a very specific SQQ angst#he was a number 1 hater back in the day and lbr being a hater takes energyyyy. ive heard that this man was the BIGGEST hater i wanna#see him rip a man to shreds with nothing but his tongue and a voice that could cut marble clean in half. skin a man alive sqq you deserve i#*mortal kombat voice* FINISH HIM#i love without-a-cure but unfortunately i dont think SQQ would be able to have WAC and also survive in the abyss.#the succubi nest that adopted him tried seducing him at first. it didn't work. but he did somehow charm them with his cringefail ways#so now they have a brand new mortal big/little brother to dote on. SQQ is frankly delighted to learn all about succubi culture that doesnt#revolve around sex. he makes quite a few friends/allies in the abyss because of his pure fascination and unbiased desire to learn about#demonic culture and all the different niches and nuances of it across species. he's still going insane tho. like that's not stopping.#there's a single LBH pov chapter in the fic and its frankly so unhinged it was fantastic. he's so possessive. he straight up goes:#'oh SQQ isnt gonna be the next peak lord. he's ascending to heaven with me when i do :)' when Sha Hualing (also peak lord) told him that he#couldn't keep his disciple in the bamboo house all the time. what was SQQ gonna do when LBH ascends and he becomes the new peak lord?#gosh that first chapter is rotating around in my mind so bad. LBH was SO unwell. like losing his actual shit over SQQ near the edge.#i so want to write a oneshot abt this where SQQ is also in hysterics (albeit over slightly diff reasons) and tells LBH on his knees:#'this disciple deeply apologizes to his shizun. for he will not be ascending to the heavens with him.' right before he falls into the abyss#this au being disciple SY is for shits and giggles but i can also see it happening for regular SQQ bc 'fuck it im a dead man either way'#frothing at the mouth at this idea also being a SY-is-SJ au too. for the extra angst of SQQ trying to bear the weight of multiple lives on#his shoulders and trying to figure out what is real and what isn't and if he's meant to suffer in all of his lives no matter what he does.#not once in his life has he ever been free to do what he likes has he? self-hatred to the max. he's going mad. poor boy :]
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Yeonjun about the strain he felt while preparing for his debut solo project ✙ "GGUM" MAKING FILM
#yeonjun#choi yeonjun#tomorrow x together#txt#ggum: making film#gifs#creations#userzaynab#useryeonbins#skyehi#rosieblr#megtag#hibiebear#heyiri#ultkpopnetwork#kpopccc#kpopco#this are like the rawest emotions we've seen from him... I feel... it's really sad to watch him like this#i mean I know they're under lots of pressure and stress#It's only natural when you work with so many people who you could potentially disappoint#and I know it was his choice to make this solo project happen now but i feel like the company could manage his schedule better#because why he films till 3 am and then right next day has a flight to another country for a concert...#and now we know from soobin they're super busy again#I'm worried his body will just say 'enough' one day and something bad will happen :(#and you have him work so hard and stress and then all this losers online whose biggest achievement is getting 100 likes on a post#writing the worst things about him for no reason... its not that hard to be kind and you dont need to have an opinion about everything :D#at the end of the day that celebrity you hate so much is still pretty and successful#and you're just a friendless jobless empty-headed rotten fool with likes on a post that mean nothing once you close the ap#I'm just glad all this is still fun for him and that he has such a great support system: his members family staff who care about him and us#all we can really do is support them and send them lots of love fr ;; you've done well my jjunie ily ♥
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the thing about characters like arthur morgan and harry du bois is that people will bend over backwards to argue that their worst choices are out of character. that being low honor or doing terrible things is simply for gameplay reasons and nothing more, but that couldn't be further from the case. truth is, they have the capacity to do all of those things because they're capable of doing them, and it's just as in character for them to indulge their worst traits as it is for them to be better.
#disco elysium#harry du bois#rdr2#arthur morgan#tbh the way people often write low honor arthur is like. its clearly just a fetsh thing#but at the end of the day that's *him*#maybe at his worst - but still him#sorry but i adore low honor arthur. and i hate that people have such bad misconceptions of him because fandom often writes him so ooc#because they have such a terrible understanding of how the honor system and his character works#or they just want an excuse to write kink lol#which is fine but like. it's really inundated fandom with a false impression of him
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Whenever I think about a tired or resentful Caretaker, I imagine an insecure Whumpee trying to "alleviate" their pain and trouble.
Like, Whumpee sees Caretaker grow more and more fatigued during their time together, and so they start trying to take care of themselves. They try to take their medicine without asking Caretaker, they try to comfort themselves after a nightmare or a breakdown. They try to cook by themselves and bathe by themselves. Even if they fail at some aspects, they're still satisfied since it means that Caretaker doesn't have to worry about them anymore.
Whumpee thinks about how Caretaker's probably busy, or how they have their own personal problems to deal with, or how they've probably experienced a good/bad event while trying to take care of them. And so they start keeping their feelings to themselves, not opening up because they don't want to burden Caretaker.
Or suppose the situation escalates to a point where Whumpee believes that their Caretaker shouldn't have to carry the burden of taking care of them, and they decide to run away. Perhaps they stay in the streets, or go to a random person's home, or even one of Caretaker's friends' homes (if they know the street).
But while Whumpee's trying to be selfless and take care of Caretaker's feelings, they don't realize that it's making Caretaker worry about them more.
#whump writing#whump prompt#whump scenario#bad caretaker#(i wouldn't really call caretaker a bad caretaker but the tagging system and all)#whumpee#caretaker#tired caretaker
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Modern Day Bingqiu + Moshang Sugar Daddy AU where...
...Shen Yuan's only friend mentions a website where Sugar Daddies can meet Sugar Babies, but Shen Yuan misunderstands and thinks it's a website where lonely people pay for friends. Out of curiosity he uses the website and connects with Luo Binghe who is trying to use his good looks to help support him and his ailing mother. Shen Yuan invites him over to his house and Luo Binghe comes over expecting to service some old guy, but is surprised to see that Shen Yuan wasn't that much older than him and only wants to play video games and watch shitty shows. Eventually Luo Binghe falls for Shen Yuan and tries to actually sleep with him, but Shen Yuan never picks up on it and believes that Luo Binghe doesn't actually care for him, only his money, but he has grown attached to him and continues to pay for him just to hang out
Meanwhile Shen Yuan's only friend, Shang Qinghua, had mentioned the website because he started working as a sugar baby. His writing career hadn't taken off yet, and he was hoping to make money while banging an attractive rich dude. The problem is because of how picky he is + not knowing how to be a sugar baby, he has trouble finding work until he meets Mobei-Jun on the website. Mobei-Jun is a rich CEO and the hottest man Shang Qinghua has ever seen, and he thought he hit the jackpot until it is revealed that Mobei-Jun just wants to hire someone to do his job as a CEO while he lazes around. He wants the benefits of his position without doing the work, so he pays Shang Qinghua to do it for him (if he stepped down then his uncle would take his position, which he doesn't want, so he believes hiring a sugar baby would keep his uncle's eyes away)
This AU could go many ways, so I'll leave that up to you
#very bad sugar daddy au#as in sqq and mbj suck at being daddies#lbh and sqh just wanna go to pound town#but are stuck with emotionally constipated tsunderes#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#peerless cucumber#luo binghe#shang qinghua#airplane shooting towards the sky#mobei jun#bingqiu#moshang#fanfic ideas#sugar daddy au#writing prompt#mxtx#svsss#scum villian self saving system#long post
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whump fic where whumpee is being held captive by whumper and continually tries to escape to find where caretaker is being held so they can get out of here together, but as the story progresses it becomes more clear that whumpee is a victim of stockholm syndrome/brainwashing by "caretaker" and is actually being rehabilitated by "whumper" after being rescued, not kidnapped
#whumpee thinks whumper is torturing them but in reality theyre trying to treat old wounds they dont even remember sustaining#fights against being drugged but actually they're experiencing withdrawal symptoms after whumper flushed out their system#whumper making threats that whumpee will never see caretaker again but its not a threat its supposed to be a calm reassurance#the slow slow burn of whumpee realizing just how fucked their situation is and having to face that reality#whump#whump community#whump scenario#whumpee#whumper#whump ideas#implied whump#whump writing#whump prompt#whumpblr#defiant whumpee#caretaker#bad caretaker#carewhumper
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It will never stop being amusing to me that the warning Ianthe gives Tamlin in the beginning of ACOMAF about how Feyre will get either killed or abducted by other high lords and kept for breeding essentially came true.
How Feyre ended up exactly how she feared she would with Tamlin: A waifu who does basically nothing except have her little art studio and her little desk job and pops out babies for the high lord. Sure, what you want in life can change and consent makes all the difference, but it is still an absolutely WILD narrative choice.
#sure hope feyre gets to see the world she wanted to see someday#but idk ...why would you write it like this??#WHY SARAH?#anti sjm#i guess#it's not really anti feyre#being a mother is nothing bad#im just baffled#sarah needs to get that forced breeding kink out of her system somehow already it's seeping into all her books lol#acotar#feyre archeron
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the neurologist i shadow is so funny bc she has a valley girl accent and yet she's the smartest person in the room. this woman was casually doing case consenus ab a man w frontotemporal dementia in the highest girliest voice imaginable. i want to be her i think
#case consensus is basically where several neurologists/doctors meet to decide what the patient's case actually is#im genuinely not sure why this medical center does it this way but they write down data on paper THEN input it into the digital system#which i have qualms w bc i feel like it wastes so much time#but literally my whole role at this internship is inputting this data into the system so i should probably be grateful they do it this way#but in that one meeting everyone was all over the place so this at the ending of the meeting this woman goes#“that... was frantic.”#in the most valley girl accent known to man#and ever since ive integrated this as my response to everything#youre right. that WAS frantic#she also was like “sorry im unfocused. need lunch rly bad” at one point during the meeting#this neurologist is just like the rest of us fr
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the poor little meow meow-ifictation of saionji in this fandom has got to stop i can't take it any more
#he is an interesting character yes and i like him but some of you act like he is eternally and exclusively a victim which is not true#yes he is a victim of akio and of the narrative (like every other character. he is not perticularly special in this regard)#no he is not a victim of the patriarchy (he in fact benefits from it directly at the cost of the girls around him)#no he is not a victim of wakaba (??not sure where this even came from) no he is not a victim of anthy (watch the first episode again maybe)#some of you are at all times 2 steps away from becoming the next misandry in the utena fandom person#“erm the way he is punished by the narrative for failing to live up to the masculine ideal of the prince-#-is basically just as bad as the systemic abuse he participates in putting girls through“#good lord i do not want to hear your takes on any real world feminist issues#m#bad takes#(should probably remember to use that tag. even though this isn't really about anything super specific)#and it's not about any of my mutuals to be clear. you all know how to actually be critical of how much he sucks#AND write good nuanced analysis. shockingly you can do both. actually i don't think one is possible without the other
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something simple to try to get out of art block (it didn't work)
#alek art#ninjago#zane julien#2024#i am very unhappy with this and sooo in order to feel better i am going to talk about him#system zane is very real to me. i always give him six main alters (but i do believe there is more lol)#systems cannot just pick and choose who front depending on the day i am very aware (i am a system) its more on the nose symbolism#the fifth one crossed out is the ice emperor. in canon he exists in zane's mind as an “alter ego” of sorts which is crazy to me#character has canon dissociative episodes... amnesia... and several different “personalities” / identities? sounds familiar idk#i talked a lot about this hc on my long ass zane hc post thanks for the ask btw npderzane#its not an au its just how i see him so just imagine every zane i draw as system zane. ill only specify it in the tags if its system related#that one post thats like. 'being a did system sucks which one of us poured instant coffee in the bathtub!' thats the average zane experience#he wakes up and everyones like “mannn zane you were going crazyyy on prime empire yesterday” and hes like ??? i did not play any video games#and then he looks at the calender and 6 months have passed. semi true story that happened to me#also alters having incredibly different food preferences is funny. zane doesnt eat anything ever vs boone who eats raw meat sometimes#zane having really weird characterization? and its very inconsistent / bad writing uhhh alek explanation is hes a system and nobody can mask#man its 1 pm :|#i hate this drawing so much i dont even want to look at it but it took time so ill post it#i also have another zane drawing in my drafts i should post. from like 2 months ago???
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the Jin Lan city arc is going to haunt my nightmares because it is genuinely the embodiment of one of my biggest fears/pet peeves.
Shen Qingqiu is stronger than me because what do you mean all of these people are yelling over you, slandering you based on a misunderstanding, and are twisting your words but you dont just start screaming and crying?!
if it were me, the moment the Old Palace Master opened his mouth i wouldve started swinging.
#someone write me a wish fulfillment fanfic where shen qingqiu crashes out and starts swinging#ik one may point out that binghe did add fuel to the fire but... hes binghe so he gets a pass#mxtx#mxtx svsss#svsss#scum villain's self saving system#jin lan city#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#old palace master#qiu haitang#also i dont feel bad for qiu haitang at all like wtf get outta my face#live laugh love binghe
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this is not a ship post, but something that frustrates me a lot in fanon concerning Jason Todd that attempts to soften Jason's return to Gotham for the sake of found family domesticity or easy hurt/comfort or just sliding him into the Batfam sooner, is they all seem to fundamentally misunderstand Jason.
because there seem to be a lot of fandom popular concepts of Jason coming home much sooner and just not having his whole Under The Red Hood arc. which in theory is fine and i can see the want to simplify canon to make room for your lighthearted more fluff-leaning concepts. but in everyone without fail, the way they address the clown-shaped elephant in the room is by having some throwaway line that "oh Jason quietly kills the Joker and moves on".
when the Joker being dead or alive is not the *point*. if by some chance accident, the Joker had died prior to Jason's return, whether by ridiculous freak accident, getting whacked by a fellow villain, hell even someone actually doing so to avenge Jason, it *would not* satiate Jason's anger. because Jason's end goal in UtRH is not to simply kill the Joker: it is to make *Bruce* kill the Joker. Jason's anger is directed to the idea that to Jason, if Bruce truly loved Jason, he would've killed the Joker. that is love, for Jason. compromising your personal values for love and not letting someone go unavenged. when Jason was Robin, almost every angry or misguided thing he did was born of love. he wanted to kill/hurt Two-Face because he believed Dent killed his father. he was so angry at Felipe because an innocent woman was dead due to that man's actions. he wanted to save his mother in a situation he knew he shouldn't be in because he loved her. his anger, his violence, it is driven by love and feelings of righting wrongs. that is how he thinks wrongs *should* be righted. that is how you avenge and *love* someone.
because so long as Jason's return to Gotham doesn't end in Bruce killing the Joker (which, it never will bc Bruce is Bruce), Jason will never forgive Bruce. you cannot wave away the layers of hurt and complicated trauma by killing Joker offscreen. because Jason will still be angry that Bruce didn't avenge him. in his eyes, that means Bruce did not love him enough. he was not truly loved by Bruce the way he loved Bruce. bc Bruce was Jason's whole *world*. prior to being taken in, Dick and Tim, they had support systems. they had loved ones. they knew what stability and healthy family love looked like. Jason *didn't*. and that's not to say that Catherine Todd did not love him with her whole heart and thus he loved her, but it certainly wasn't a stable and safe support system for Jason to grow up in. Bruce was Jason's first real sense of a stable, healthy life. and so of course Jason poured everything into Bruce and loved Bruce so devoutly. Bruce was his world. like he says, if it had been Bruce, Jason would've stopped at nothing.
so his betrayal is rooted in that he was not avenged, not that Joker is alive. so long as the Joker does not die by Bruce's hands, it will never be enough for Jason. (in this era, at least.) notably, this is also why i don't think it would change a thing if Jason knew the whole "oh Bruce wanted to kill the Joker but Superman stopped him" tidbit that fanon has really latched onto as a way to pacify Jason's anger toward Bruce. Jason knowing that wouldn't change a thing, in my opinion. because Jason knows Bruce. and a tenant of Bruce's character is that he grapples with murder *every day*. the whole point is how *easy* it would be for him. he is a human weapon, trained by killers, trained to be deadly. he is the greatest strategist to exist. he knows he could kill someone and get away with it. *no* trace, no proof, nothing. and he knows he *wants* to. wants to kill the Joker, Joe Chill, anyone who's hurt him that viscerally.
but he *doesn't*. that's the point. Bruce wakes up every day with that question on his mind, and every day the answer is the same. Bruce's morality is not a decision he made in an alleyway when his parents died, it's a decision he continues to make every day and he *must* continue to make in order to remain who he is. Jason is quite familiar with the fact that Bruce grapples with this daily. i do not think it surprised nor fazed Jason to know that Bruce did *consider* killing the Joker. that he wanted to. maybe even planned to. but a consideration, a want, a plan, is just a thought. it's nothing substantial, and substance is everything to Jason. at the end of the day, Bruce didn't. he was talked down by *Clark* of all people with an excuse of diplomatic immunity, as if Jason and Bruce don't both know that Bruce could've *easily* found a way to make it look like an accident or some other loophole. because he's Batman. there's always a loophole. he always finds a way when he actually intends to. but he never actually intended to kill the Joker. so he didn't. and Jason would know that there was never an intent. it's an interesting piece of fodder to add to the nuance of Jason and Bruce, but honestly, i think it'd make Jason angrier to have that excuse thrown in his face. as if Bruce hasn't beaten Clark half a dozen times by now. it's a flimsy nonsense excuse that Jason would rip to shreds.
so while yes, i understand the wish for easy lighthearted fanfic that doesn't have to deal with the nuances of canon, i think that Jason's character will always be so deeply robbed and altered if you try to fix his thirst for vengeance with an off-page killing of Joker at Jason's hands. it was never the point. the point was that -in his own eyes- he wasn't loved enough for Bruce to make an acception. he realized that not even his *death* would come before Bruce's Mission. Jason truly believed that Bruce loved him and held him as the most important thing in the world, and now he has proof that Bruce didn't. because the Mission mattered more.
i'm not saying i have a solution to this conundrum if you're attempting to solve it for fanfic/fanon, nor am i even saying it's a bad thing it exists. i just think it becoming overwhelmingly common has led to misunderstandings surrounding Jason's motivations and feelings about this arc and it's an unsatisfying solution that only seeks to pacify Jason's rage and his trauma responses for the sake of found family-ification.
#necrotic festerings#jason todd#fandom meta#idk man this isn't too serious it's really just me noticing this becoming a dominate thing#also this post isn't a subtweet at literally anyone specifically#it's a commentary on a trend as a whole#so no one think i'm like. being shady pls.#and if you write jason killing the joker himself during this era that is okay and it's valid#i just don't want the fandom largely treating it as in character#but ooc fanfic is allowed to exist! that's valid yk!#also i once again wanna reiterate all of this is commentary on *this era*#this is a pre-flashpoint meta.#jason's realtionship to his trauma *wildly* changed in both new-52 and rebirth so yeah. he's at a point he's “moved on”#and either seeks to kill joker himself or seeks to just let go of the whole thing#depending on the arc#(but if i get into that then i get into my feelings on how jason has had no consistent characterization in the past decade. so.)#(that's a can of worms we're not opening here it will make some ppl mad and i'm not dealing with it.)#is this how i start writing serious character metas and not unhinged shippy ones. idk#i've got others in my head but#i fear the discourse#if the discourse on this post gets bad i will turn off replies and reblogs idc#this is me testing the waters. ig.#also if a single person tries to argue about tim not having a loving family i will bite you /lh#yes he did. the drakes make not have done the *best* job! i'm not arguing that.#but they loved him and he had a support system.
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Jimmy and Curly from mouthwashing are unironically such important comfort characters to me as crazy as it sounds. Their human portrayal does insane things to my brain as someone struggling with severe mental health issues and trauma.
I see different ugly/scary parts of myself in both of them. Stuff from my intrusive thoughts that scares me, the way system fails mentally ill, and such. So yeah, these two and their narrative regarding mental health and accountability matters a lot to me.
Also some of you are ableist as fuck in the ways you talk about Jimmy lmao. We can absolutely talk about his wrongs and the evil he has done without punching down people that hallucinate, are delusional or suffer from personality disorders.
EDIT: adding my tags because I am deathly afraid of being misunderstood
#All of these characters do to be honest from swansea to anya#surviving SA and addiction are also demons familiar to me but there's just something unique about the uglyness of Jimmy that comforts me#Curly makes me wonder about my own privilege and times I maybe have been Curly at some point. And the whole faking it till you make it#Curly has so many apparent mental health issues aside from depression that i WISH fandom explored more. talk about his hallucinations more#mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#sorry just needed to get it out and maybe offer some perspective for those not understanding why some might like Jimmy's character#it's so easy to write him off as some evil with no other qualities but that isnt how this world works. jimmy is so real and that matters#doesn't that make him so much more interesting? how you can be so human and yet make such bad decisions that are your responsibilities alon#while acknowledging that the system very much failed jimmy
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”afab nonbinary people are transmasc and amab nonbinary people are transfem!” what if I killed you with hammers
#exorsexism#also intersexism bc agab is often Extremely Arbitrary#like I’ve seen people say transmasc and transfem are more nonbinary inclusive than trans man and trans woman#but in my experience they’re literally not#like congrats you invented a new system to misgender us but you’re pretending it doesn’t. great. really useful.#i don’t think transfem and transmasc are inherently bad but people use them as a way to rebinarise people#and treat amab nonbinary people as Basically Trans Women and afab nonbinary people as Basically Trans Men and like. no! gross! stop!#that’s misgendering me I do not like it#trans writing suffers from CRIMINAL lack of knowledge on what nonbinary people actually experience or are#and it’s so fucking isolating man
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Kozue accession as one of many surprises in an anarchic last year of operation at Ohtori.
In my freshman year of highschool there was a group of kids who spent 8th grade as the last class of students at a middle school that was to be decommissioned. The teachers were all either waiting to jump ship or retiring, a lot of work went undone, alot of student cruelty went unchecked. The upkeep was dismal, the roof leaked, light bulbs that extinguished themselves were not replaced, the students were only allowed in certain parts of the school. There seemed to be a liminality to the experience, spending most of your days within walls that would be torn down that very summer.
That's how I imagine Ohtori without Anthy and her power, a strange dwindling thing still shook by the conclusion of normality and humming with anticipation of the deathblow.
Anyway, Kozue Co-prez!
#not necessarily the path i think she would take but one i think would be interesting and cause tension within a narrative i wont be writeing#kozue kaoru#miki kaoru#touga kiryuu#rgu#post-cannon#kozue i find really interesting in that she oscillates between wanting freedom from the system and power in the system through her brother#so if freedom is her endgame as id like to think it is for the students#than id have her choose the wrong path first but by chooseing to grasp power in her own right it is a step away from co-dependence and#towards self actualisation reguardless#of the position being very bad for her and anyone else given the implied proximity to that bastard Akio#anyway this causes a schizm in the student council leading to two groups meeting separately in a thus unseen basment and the student counci#balcony respectively#like in the schism of 1378 when there where two than three popes in Europe for like 40 years#my art#oh oh final note#was really tempted to give kozue her black rose uniform cause its the best on the show#but i think if she were negotiating she would ask for the boys cut#ended up looking very mcr#revolutionary girl utena#noticing that the student card is the size of a paperback book#post-canon
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