#Soulpain

[thelonelysilent]

Ich fühl mich scheiße, wie das letzte stück Dreck, du hasst mich, ich habe dir das gefühl gegeben du bist mir egal, deine Vergangenheit wäre mir egal, ich habe das getan wodurch dich andere gebrochen haben, ich hab dich in deinem tiefsten Inneren verletzt, du bist enttäuscht von mir, willst mich nicht sehen, hasst mich, und das alles zurecht. ich habe die Person die alles für mich ist so sehr verletzt und enttäuscht, etwas das ich nie wollte, aber ich habe es getan. Ich hab dafür gesorgt das du denkst ich bin wie alle anderen und einfach nur ein selbstsüchtiges stück scheiße. Du bist alles für mich und ich hab vertrieben. Keine Ahnung ob du willst das ich verschwinde aber ich glaube schon. Ich hab alles zerstört, ich bin ein verrückter Idiot, und habe alles verloren, ich hab dich verloren. Ich weiß nicht ob du das liest oder nicht, aber ich werde dich immer lieben, du bleibst allea für mich, nur durch dich habe ich gelernt was wichtig ist, und ich habe dich im tiefsten verletzt. Und werde es wahrscheinlich nie wieder gut machen können. Ich wollte/will ein glückliche Zukunft mit dir, aber ich hab sehr wahrscheinlich die Chance darauf zerstört. Ich weiß nicht ob das alles verarbeiten für dich ist oder ob du das alles genau so meinst. Aber ich hab's geschafft dich so sehr zu verletzten und mich selbst in ein tiefes Loch geschubst. Ich wünachte ich wäre nicht aus dem Auto ausgestiegen. Ich hab das gefühl ich bin das schlimmste was dir je passiert ist.ich hasse mich mehr als alles andere und ich wusste nicht Mal das man jemand so sehr hassen kann. Ich will das alles ändern, aber wozu wenn du nicht mehr da bist. Du warst die einzige Person die für mich wirchlich da war, und muss alles kapput machen. Ich will nichts mehr als das du glücklich bist, aber ob du das jemals wieder mit mir sein kannst keine Ahnung. Du hast nur das Beste verdient und bist wundervoll so wie du bist vergiss das nie. Ich Liebe dich. Vlt ließt du es ja. Und ja ich würde gerne wissen wie es in dir aussieht und wissen was du alles durch gemacht hast, damit ich weiß wie du geliebt werden musst, aber ich hab das gefühl für all das ist es zu spät, und es fühlt sich immer mehr an das du gehen willst und das zerreißt mich nur noch. Ich hab das wahrscheinlich verdient, aber du hast das nicht verdient was ich getan habe.

[poolman70]

I have lived on this rock for 53 yrs. I thought I'd seen and felt everything. Well God or whatever is in control I've really, I mean really tried to be a good person. I've lost most of the people in my life that I have loved.yet I keep trudging everyday to put a smile on. And everyone around me don't know how I hurt. My one solid is my 25 year old son he's a great kid, I was lucky to find my soulmate, she's the greatest woman that I could dream of, strong, smart, and yes beautiful. This creator or whatever you want to believe "tests" and we must have"faith" what about me! 😭 My wife is dying from cancer now. I cry all the time, uncontrollable. I'm 53 what am I going to do. I've had 5 back surgeries. Who would want a broken man. So what I want everyone that ever reads this. Is it can always get worse. And when you look at those homeless people begging on the street know that they have a sad story, show them love cause we can be dead tomorrow. Love is powerful you could change their life. Always try to be a good person it's not for God or anything but your soul.

[saudadeseventeen]

A te mamma.

Un giorno ti perdonerò..

un giorno cancellerò la solitudine che ho provato quando necessitavo i tuoi abbracci!

cancellerò il rancore e la rabbia che mi sono trascinata ..

ti perdonerò mamma , ti prometto che un giorno riuscirò a scavalcare il dolore e a sorvolare sull'amore che mi è mancato , sulla stima che ricercavo ..

un giorno non cercherò più di piacerti in modo disperato e fallimentare..

un giorno mamma .. un giorno ti perdonerò .

Quante notti ho passato a piangere con la speranza che tu aprissi quella porta per regalarmi un abbraccio , se solo tu sapessi quell'abbraccio quanto l'ho desiderato ..

ah cara mamma .. se solo sapessi quell'abbraccio quanto mi sarebbe servito , quanti sbagli non avrei fatto se tu mi avessi salvata una di quelle sere .

se solo sapessi quanto sono stata sola e quanto sono stata forte nel combattere i miei mostri , quando la mia testa mi diceva di arrendermi al dolore e non mi lasciava via d'uscita .

sai mamma .. ho passato una vita a non essere mai abbasta per te , sotto il tuo duro giudizio e continue critiche .

un giorno ti perdonerò per come mi hai fatta sentire ..

un giorno se Dio vorrà sarò una madre ..

un giorno sarò una madre che abbraccerà sua figlia e la salverò quando lei crederà di abbandonare questa vita magnifica ma molto dura .. io le ricorderò ogni giorno che la amo ..

solo allora potrò perdonarti!..

e ti ringrazierò per il male che mi hai fatto, ma oggi no .. oggi lascio al dolore il potere di cambiarmi .

Lascio al dolore il potere di ispessirmi ..

Lascio al dolore il potere di lasciarmi amare per due ...

Lascio al dolore il potere di lasciarmi abbracciare senza vergogna.

Un giorno uscirò da questa rabbia, te lo prometto mamma..

un giorno ti perdonerò .

Mah sappi Mamma .. che quando lo farò non cercherò più le tue braccia, perchè mi saranno estranee.

ti amerò per sempre

tua Wanda.

[not-so-sure-yet1]

The definition of insanity has never made sense to me before you. I use to think, "who in the world would continue to do the same thing over and over again thinking the outcome will be different?" I now know, someone who repeats the same thing over and over again hoping for new outcome must have loved you. Because when it is good, it is so good and nothing in the entire universe could ever feel this good. When its good I understand why people do drugs, that feeling of cloud nine at the tips of their finger tips. Like no one in this world could touch this happiness... But when it bad, I realize why there are recovery centers, why people who have been doing drugs for years always look like they are in pain. I understand the withdrawal of a drug that so deeply woven into my very bone marrow, that I throw up and feel the pain of all the places you touched. Its like a fire spreading slowly, and then I take a hit and the retreat into the safety of the toxins and clear my mind ready for the cloud nine that you bring... tell me, what's the cure to the poison that is toxic love?

[clayberry24]

Soulpain - Todobaku Comic (Part 1)

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[mxxi-lbr]

My Life hurts so bad, mommy.

– eigenes.

[hydrostudios611]

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[sacredscorps]

Thought of the day! 🧠

Healing begins internally then projected externally... 🙏🏾❤

[brock08]

It doesn’t go away, it doesn’t get easier, you just seem to lose a little more of yourself each time until there is nothing left of the person you once were. Sadly this world seems to have created far more takers than givers.

[murphykismet]

Sometimes it stops. And sometimes it just changes to something else to quell that soul-pain. #soulpain https://www.instagram.com/p/CMx1Gt2AEcI/?igshid=1qu5ru0ix2pcd

[thelonelysilent]

Dein schweigen bringt mich innerlich um

[kmac4him1st]

Many times, I have impulsively let my disappointments define my reaction. It is not pretty when that happens. I am continuously learning to change it up and turn to God first. With my dashed expectations, and my broken heart, in hand, I put them in God’s Mighty Hands and let go and let Him direct my response. #disappointment #hurts #betrayal #unbelief #brokenheart #doubt #fear #soulpain #surrendertogod #believegod #seekgod #knowgod #trustgod #believegod #listenup #heargod #thebridegroomsvoice #changeitup #hearttoheart https://www.instagram.com/p/B1qr1OkggOS/?igshid=l35pr5s2ur97

[heretherebedork]

Chief Jiang has a mental breakdown, finds out his doctor has been arrested and basically just... loses his mind. What a darling boy who deserves the world and so much more.

And then the only worry that Doctor Chen has is to make sure YueLou is okay.

These BOYS. The worry, the precious moments, the eye contact full of worry and love and pain and anger at the world around them.

[clayberry24]

Soulpain Part 2

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[tatyana-dreaming]

So i can’t argue that it was pretty vindicating in the Warner/Shaw production (2013/2017) version of Eugene Onegin when, after singing “goodbye forever!” silence falls and Anna Netrekbo’s Tatyana endows a stunned Yevgeni with a STEAMY AF kiss before she abandons him in the snow.... but it will never be as gut-wrenching as this production was. It’s so much more painful and intimate on a SOUL level the way a kiss never could be.

I mean, just look at the last gif, when Tatyana HUGS HER ARM AROUND HIM - seriously, are you TRYING to HURT ME??!  it’s working

[redfredpoetics]

Distance

Sofa surfing Surfing oceans Same difference really

Sailed here together but Solo boarding the waves Silence deafens no boogies

Struggling in riptides Strangled by seaweed and memories Saltwater choking our souls

Shallows of broken dreams Submerged in drama and controversy Silence is deafening from you

Soul mate stolen Secret seeker Your here but you seem so far from me