#So yes I’m still gonna write it in
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*sighs in rarepair*
#yup it’s that time of the week where I vent in the tags about who knows what lol#You’re looking at me and you’re wondering who this is about#This is about me writing Sparrow x Nicky in Lawless lol#(Lawless is an ongoing fic of mine)#(Er technically Nick not Nicky- Nick Close? Yeah you know the one)#WHICH WAS ALWAYS THE PLAN#It’s not like a ship I’d want in canon per se (but then very few are) but idk they just give me Fiona and Marshal Lee vibes lol#But yeah not a new rarepair of mine in fact a pretty old one I just don’t talk about it cause literally no one else wants it LOL#And so I guess#idk in the context of the fic it’s like#The problem for me isn’t people not caring for the ship#Rather it’s the fear of them being turned off from the fic altogether due to its presence#But like I said this was always the plan (not that we’ve gotten there yet in the story)#So for me it’s part of the story#And it’s *my* fic#So yes I’m still gonna write it in#But idk I guess the thought of it all gets me a bit down/insecure#That’s it!#that’s my little secret lol#And now you know too#Person who decided to read my tags#It’s a silly thing to be down over really#But sometimes we get down over silly things#c’est la fucking vie!
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thinking about snarky cultural/theological commentary and. the thing about snark is this: it’s easy, and it’s instant gratification. it’s easy because you’re playing to a likeminded audience. you get the way they think, you know the sort of things they find ridiculous, and so you know what’s going to play well with them. it’s not that hard to come up with a zinger that’s going to earn you applause from your own side. it’s also pretty easy to make another human being who’s not on your side look stupid, because we’re stupid creatures and we all have plenty of exploitable weak spots. it’s preaching to the choir, and it’s preaching meanly to the choir. and then, your snark bears all its fruit right away. you get the glowing feeling of having scored points against the enemy while being patted on the back by your friends for being so brave. if you succeeded in being snarky, you get the rewards of snark that very instant.
on the other hand, seeking to share the truth you possess in a mode in which it could actually be received—that is, says St Thomas, according to the mode of the recipient—that’s hard, and it’s so far from being instantly gratifying that you may never see the fruits of it in this life. not only are you not thinking about your likeminded audience, you’re not even going to trot out the truth simply in the way you understand it and call it your best effort. rather, you have to try to get inside your interlocutor’s frame of mind and understand how the truth you know is going to fulfill their own priorities and longings. you have to understand them so well that you see the truth of their position, even if that truth is buried very very deep, and then see how that truth connects them to the truth you see. you have to be insightful, and compassionate, and so, so patient. you don’t get to score any points, with anybody. your interlocutor might still get annoyed with you and turn around and make you look stupid. but you can’t just say “I’m going to speak the truth and I don’t care who hears and how they take it”—you have to care how they take it, because the truth is relational, it’s given and received, not just spouted into a void. and frankly you have to care how they take it because you have to care about their salvation.
don’t get me wrong, there are times in every person’s life when they will be called to stand up and be counted, to put fumbling words to what they hold most dear even if they can’t make everyone understand. but I don’t know that it’s a virtue to be always focused on being seen saying the truth, with no consideration given to who hears you and what they’ll hear in it—and it’s certainly not a virtue to be always focused on being seen saying the truth in a mean and funny way. “instruct the ignorant” is a spiritual work of mercy. but instruct the ignorant does not mean “instruct the ignorant while making the knowledgeable laugh and/or high five.”
#obviously there’s a lot of middle ground between the one method and the other#but I think the middle ground has a tendency (especially on the internet!) to slide into snark#because you want people to know you’re self-aware! you want them to know you have a sense of humor!#it’s very vulnerable to stand up and say the truth in the way you understand it and so it’s tempting to cover it up with snark!#but snark is not a virtue!#YES if I’m gonna read a long-ass article on theology/culture/politics it helps a ton if the author has a sense of humor#but sometimes otherwise thoughtful and insightful writers go way too far!#too personal too pointed too uncompassionate!#to the point where it’s like. you can technically be correct and still be an asshole#because if your main goal in speaking is to make your friends laugh? you just might be a bully#and I get that there’s a specific kind of snark that’s meant to be commiseration between friends. like ‘you seeing this shit?’ kind of snar#but I just don’t know that there is a place for that on a public page on the internet#because the ‘this shit’ you’re seeing is usually a human person and they could very well read what you’ve written#tldr: you can’t abrogate your responsibility to be nuanced and compassionate#cate writes
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Yeah a teaser dropping on ST day would be cool. But can we agree that a DNA board reveal would be infinitely better?
#byler#stranger things#st5 predictions#st5 dna board#yes I know a dna board reveal doesn’t qualify as like major promo since most fans want something visual and real#and so it’s likely we’ll get a teaser regardless#which is great#but I’m just imagining the rest of the day being subpar in terms of stuff for us to actually analyze outside of the teaser#they released the s4 dna board during lockdown and a couple months before they even finished writing it#so s5’s board is definitely finalized by now#and it would cost them nothing…#well i mean technically it could cost them everything 😭#it’s just a matter of how on the nose they were about some of the titles it features#and if they’re willing to risk sharing that at this time when there’s still a year until release#i could see a decent amount of films on it being incriminating on so many different fronts#but I could also see some super random stuff in the mix that would distract people from reading into the incriminating stuff#it’s just something that could actually keep us busy analyzing for a while#a teaser would be everything we need rn#but the dna list is what I actually want 😭#i’ve been working on my own st5 dna board wishlist bc I’m so impatient for this#i’m gonna post it tomorrow#it’s time#and in the case they do reveal the dna board next week I want to have mine ready to see if there are any matches#i’ve also been working on my st5vision playlist for nearly 2 years now (jesus) and it’s time to share that too#soon!!
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You may ask “Emry how do you imagine it goes down if Neil and Andrew are comfy enough to use the pool they miraculously have to themselves”
Shameless flirting and simply enjoying each others company ✨
#i forgot Andrew’s stretch marks :(#I only just barely added it to his design so it’s not in my head yet#but I remembered the little trail of moles on his stomach#I think Neil would like them 🫣#but yes Neil asks to take a few pictures of Andrew and Andrew acts unimpressed but secretly. we know.#he’s surprised and almost flattered#after a couple he raises an eyebrow like ‘are you satisfied’#and Neil said ‘for now’#so Andrew changes course and goes over to where Neil’s still sitting at the edge of the pool to take the phone#’good. your turn’#oh god I’m gonna write a whole story in these tags#i cannot#that’s too much even for me#if you want more you know what to do#fan art#my art#aftg#all for the game#neil josten#andrew minyard#andreil#chibi#I learned how to draw chibis!
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lobotomy needed (or possibly already been performed)
also i meant to say “sam is also there” but it’s too funny to change it lmfao
#i’m still gonna make this though it’s just 3am and i’m delirious#i LOVE rango so much i’m gonna rewatch it tomorrow :3#it’s one of my favourite childhood movies and i was just thinking about it bc i love the aesthetic#and like… i’m so brainrotted that atp cowboys = dean there’s no other thought process that goes through my head#so furry / scaly spn cowboy au???? my favourite characters in the rango aesthetic?? FUCK fucking yes sign me UP#would also like to make art for it but i will probably actually write it when i finish my current small WIP#but yeah this makes me look like a crazy person#supernatural#spn#destiel#rango#rango 2011
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is anyone still in the mood for a hypmic imagines blog these days lol
#mod rambles#giant ramble incoming ->#the tag seems so..#dead. which makes me sad :(#it’s looking pretty grim for us yumes out there ngl#do the people still yearn for self indulgent romance with their oshis. lol#i am still very much a yume freak. perhaps more so lately. but i never do talk about my own yume ships loll#plus the yume community does not seem.. very pleasant. to say the least#i do kinda want to come back and write here#but not on this account. i’d make a new one#i kinda want to start all over tbh. like a fresh slate#plus it'd kinda force me to try and get back into the groove of writing bc i feel like i've forgotten each and every rule lol#also it's important to have a creative outlet!! even if i most likely do not have the time for one lmao#i do want to provide for the h.ypmic yume community on here though. plus i love to write#even though i'm not caught up on the drama tracks..#idk if i'm emotionally ready for them#yes i did see this is the final drb. i got the news while studying for my final the very next day so suffice to say i was not doing well lo#idk if I’d share the new blog though. but i feel like it’d be p obvious if were me? lol#but i also wouldn’t have the time to write or post so idk.#i have time rn bc I’m on break but#when school starts back up again I’m gonna be packed. esp since I’ll be starting neuro so that’s gonna take all my brain activity (ha)#also will be starting research back up again so that’s a pain#plus. truth be told this year hasn’t been particularly kind to me#i haven’t really been in the mood to write or share it bc of what’s been going on back home#my people are always on my mind all the time#esp my village#🇱🇧❤️#been doing a lot of rambling lately but not a lot of writing. hm#all this to say: i might be coming back but prob with a new blog. lol#i write a lot just to get to the bare basic point (hence the 30 tags)
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……………..who was gonna tell me the BEN drowned arg was gonna make me weirdly emotional huh
#yes i have not watched it until now#fake fan…. i know…….💔#BEN has been my fav for literally my whole life! i say with a suspiciously unwatched shaped arg behind me#but seriously damn😭#my little BEN loving heart and inner child loved the whole thing#ive been meaning to watch it forever but#im horrible at remembering to watch stuff LOL#and i’ve been having so much trouble with trying to design BEN in my au i thought oh this should help#…………it did but now i’m emotional#still gonna watch an analysis video as well bc… jadusable did not make anything incredibly clear and i need more context for AU writing#especially about….. yk. BEN himself. bc the videos were largely just following sarah#which is nice! love sarah i rooted for her the whole time and i almost cried at the end#but…. she aint the one getting an AU design here🤫#BUT!!! 10/10#fun fact: i begged my parents to buy me majora’s mask on my 3ds as a kid bc i loved BEN so much#but i could never even get past the deku link parts LOL#im notoriously awful at zelda games…… ironic i know.#tried majora and botw and twilight princess#sucked actual ass at all three it was unfortunate#but i haven’t played one since i was a kid#i would play it again if i still had my 3ds :(#anyways i just needed to babble#expect more BEN soon…… very soon………………..#i say as if i will ever NOT post about him HAHAHA#my shaylaaaa#obligatory heart eyes heart eyes#rambles#ben drowned arg
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#shut up magiccan#resident evil#leon kennedy#yes I’m gonna be lame and post my own Discord message#but yeah. in RE2R he’s a golden retriever of a man how the fuck did he get through police training#and in RE4R he’s still like. a good dude but he’s VERY hardened after everything that has happened#and yes the same could be said about the originals but RE2R does a much better job#at establishing how sweet and at times naive he is#and so far RE4R seems to be doing a much better job at exploring his trauma and how#the shit he has been through has affected him#before anyone comes after me. that’s not a dig at RE4#remakes SHOULD try to be different from the original and not replace them imo#and I can (and probably will) write a whole essay about that#not just games btw like. movie remakes too#resident evil 4 remake#re4r#resident evil 2 remake#re2r#leon s kennedy#leon scott kennedy
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daily writing update

lukercy one shot: 2,093
wip total: 6,065
#i mean screw me right but what if i told you it feels rushed and needs clarity edits lmaoo#it’s coming together pretty good it’s just gonna be longer than expected so it’ll take a while :’)#and yes i’m still gonna work on IR my beloved <3 i just follow no rules especially not my own lol#lukercy#daily writing update#tw smut
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Guess who finished writing the last chapter of Tainted City >:]
#it’s me I did#still gotta do some editing and have my partner beta read before I can post the last two chapters but#I did it I wrote way too much just dance fanfiction#what comes next? you’ll see#I do have plans but sometimes plans don’t happen#I hope I can still write the sequel after this but I’m about to graduate college so I have no idea what my life’s gonna look like next month#I also have some cirque du soleil fics I wanna write at the same time#yes cirque du soleil#I’m getting way off topic here#point is look out I’ve got two more chapters in the bank headed your way#and wish me luck
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this weekend was…absurdly miserable lmao
#yes I’m being negative again but in a much more general way than usual!#it was foreseeable since I spent the past like 4 weeks at my parents’ house with my sister and yuki#and always had someone around me#so naturally being back at my own flat in the city I don’t know anyone in has been shit#but I also didn’t even do ANYTHING to at least try to keep my mind busy 😭#no giffing no reading no workout no replying to messages and asks#just. laying in my bed and discovering I actually developed a widow’s hump from looking at my phone a lot and stuff#like 😭😭😭😭 that’s the high life my friends. my twenties have been glorious#and let’s not forget the crippling anxiety on top cause my very close future is still written in the stars and I’m coping so well!#someone save me bro#anyway I’ll drive to the library tomorrow and Tuesday and try to get some writing done wish me luck#Wednesday's gonna be so fucking exhausting as well work-wise I can't wait for the coming week :)))
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Two hours. I got two hours of sleep. I’m so frustrated with myself.
Went to the ER. Everyone was very nice. They gave me an IV bag of fluids (I was dehydrated! Sad cactus!) and a little ativan (teeny dose), which was nice at the time! Just a little amount, but the (mostly) quiet room, fluids, and meds managed to relax me a lot. Could have fallen asleep if the bed was actually comfortable. Then they packed me up, gave me another little Ativan to take home for tonight, and said they’d contact my primary. Cool cool. Got some much needed food on the way home, then took the pill and got comfy. Again, smallest dosage they make, so no feeling too good. Managed to muscle past my anxiety to fall asleep, and… 2 hours. Woke up. Tried to go back to sleep. Too frustrated and anxious and I feel like crap. What should I do? Just eat a whole gummy and hope that knocks me out? For me, that feels like playing roulette. Could work, yeah. Could make me sleepy and pliable. Could also backfire and make me feel sick and extra anxious for another 5 or 6 hours. What do I do? Roll back up to the ER? “Hewwo, I woke up and I need more benzos 👉👈🥺” haha funny, but I’ve seriously been thinking about it 😑
God, I’m miserable. Been sitting outside on the porch for a bit. Not quite an hour. Needed to get out of the apartment, but tbh, nearly 4am outside isn’t doing much for me. I just feel alone. It wouldn’t help with sleeping, per se, but just someone, I dunno, hugging or holding me for a few minutes would honestly save me a little. What a mess. Oh yeah, and apparently my kidneys are going 👎👎👎 down. Bad meat. Not great test results. Not what I’m focusing on tonight. I’m a mess. Anyway, this was my update. Sorry for all the walls of text. Suppose this is mainly for me to look back on in the future, but can’t pretend it’s not at least a little validating to put this all out into the world and knowing that maybe one or two people read this and I didn’t suffer completely without recognition. Yeah…
#this is a lot of text#not really a casual read#ok ok… I can’t sit outside forever#gonna go back inside and I dunno make a hot chocolatey drink. grab some snacks#TRY to feel good even though I don’t#YES will probably get a little high#hoping that the combo of sugar. salt. and thc will give me the sleepy tools to just pass out for awhile#just a few more hours! please!#omg I was so pissed when I woke up and thought I’d slept for awhile but realized I hadn’t#’ what do you mean the last text I sent was only two hours ago? ‘#seriously. I thought I fell asleep around 11 pm but it was closer to 1am.#stupid sexy ativan. messing with my sense of time#it really wasn’t that big of a dose! I was basically a little buzzed for an hour or so each time#but the doctor was nice and straightforward with me. I just dunno tho. I’m a big guy with a history of anxiety. .5mg is weaksauce#god I’m getting anxious just sitting here thinking about trying to sleep again#it’s feeding on itself. I’m trying to rationalize this but it’s just this feedback loop.#is this my life now? I’m outside. I feel so alone. I feel like I could die any moment. in a sword of Damocles way. it’s there and waiting.#ok sitting outside isn’t helping#after 4am and yes I see cars driving by. I hear the occasional siren. but I still feel alone in the world#please tell me life goes on? please tell me we’re not really at the end here.#I always feel like I’m staring at our final days. that we’re all barely here. fucking ghost planet. waiting to die.#there’s war and hate and everything is expensive and I can’t.. I’m not a part of this world. I’m too poor and sickly and so it all seems…#like we’re on our last leg. like the final days of a fire sale. this body feels fit for the grave. this world is the grave.#I’m scared#ok like I said sitting out here isn’t helping. Ian. please stop.#yes. yes. ok. snacks and drinks and distracting tv. let’s try this again.#sorry this is a lot#I spent the last 20 minutes writing these tags and getting progressively more anxious 😬#you can ignore this#text
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Not to be sappy on main but I’m gonna be honest with you, I’ve never seen love this adequately summed up:
“He knows, rationally, that other people have felt this way before, that there is nothing uniquely unknowable about their love, and yet no one will understand.”
#YES IM STILL ON THE NPXYR AU#I haven’t been able to write anything bc of it idk why I find this so appealing but I genuinely like it more than the original#I think it kind of shook something loose in me idk#this is quite literally exactly what love feels like to me#one day I’m gonna send grape all of this bc I still haven’t commented on that fic
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Alrighty, guess I’m gonna take the risk and post this.
(Pls don’t get mad at me, y’all. I’m just stating an opinion & ranting about my frustrations, I don’t mean to sound rude.)
This is certainly gonna make people mad. If you disagree with me or are upset by this, that’s fine, I get that everyone has different opinions. Idc, just please leave me alone & don’t harass me over it.
I honestly have a lot of complaints similar to this, but then I saw this happen with my favorite song, and it just absolutely upset me, so yeah-
Can we PLEASE stop over-sexualizing Wait???
Yes, I know that at the end of the day, I’m always gonna have my asexual bias, but I swear that I have more complaints than just, “I’m a sex-repulsed ace who’s tired of everything being over-sexualized.”
I know that a lot of things are gonna vary depending on the production, but at least to me, that’s not what this song is supposed to be. I know the Broadway revival does the whole weird thing with his suspenders, idc what the Broadway revival does, this song is supposed to be a soft, sweet, and genuine moment. (This isn’t an insult to the Broadway revival, btw. I do still love that production despite it making some choices I disagree with.)
Let’s review the scene & context surrounding it:
Sweeney has been presented with the opportunity to off Beadle Bamford, but he’s impatient af and wants his revenge now. On top of that, he’s also stressing over how to get to Judge Turpin. Nellie basically tells him to chill out and be patient, but like, in a sweet and loving way. The whole song is her trying to help him calm down and feel less stressed, upset, and tense. She can see that he’s dealing with a lot, and she genuinely cares about him and wants to help him. By the end, he’s a lot more calm, even if he is still thinking about revenge deep down. You see the calming affect Nellie has on him, and she’s happy to see him okay again, even if it’s only for a moment. He even internalizes her words. During Epiphany, he says, “Why did I wait? You told me to wait!” Obviously he seems to have misunderstood her a little, but it shows he was at least paying attention.
At its very core, this scene is a man who’s gone through a lot and is stressed, a woman who cares about him and wants to comfort him, and him briefly being able to silence the noises in his head because he really does find comfort in her words and her presence.
This is supposed to be a calming type of song, sort of like a lullaby in a way. Maybe this really is just a me thing, but it was never meant to be sexy.
There’s a lot of things that annoy me about the over-sexualization of Nellie Lovett in general & this song in particular, but the main one is that it makes everything feel less sincere. Idc if you have your headcanons, or if you wanna talk about NSFW stuff regarding this show from time to time, but treating it like that’s the whole thing, especially regarding her, just… Idk.
Nellie truly loves Sweeney, and it’s always annoyed me when people say otherwise, and when people say that it was just lust. When people over-sexualize her & every moment between her and Sweeney, all that does is prove their point, and it makes her relationship with Sweeney feel a lot less genuine. When she’s not allowed to have genuine, emotional, and romantic moments without it either being sexualized or played for laughs (or both in some cases), it both erases her complexities as a character and cheapens the moment. (I have another rant regarding By the Sea too, but I’m specifically gonna focus on Wait here)
She truly cares about Sweeney and wants to help him, comfort him, and be there for him. When Wait is instead seen as just seduction, it makes her feelings for him seem a lot less genuine. I would think that none of us Nellie lovers or Sweenett fans would want that, and yet my fellow Sweenett shippers are the ones that are most guilty of this. Do you not also care about the emotional side of their relationship? The sweet side? The soft side? The romantic side? Their friendship? Does it only matter to you if it’s sexy? (I’m not saying this is all Sweenett shippers, or even the majority.)
Idk, I’m just tired of people trying to take away their actual adorable moments and make it all horny.
(Does it feel like nobody’s appreciating everything else about their relationship and is trying to make everything sexual, or am I just ace & losing it?)
Idc if you want to write smut about them, idc if you have differing opinions. I really don’t want to sound rude regarding people’s opinions & interpretations, and I don’t want to shame anyone. There are even people on here that I’m genuinely chill with & like that do this, and I don’t want it to sound like I’m mad at them or don’t like them or anything. I’m just so tired of it all.
Not everything has to be about sex, you guys.
(More stuff in the tags)
#should i actually tag this and risk angering people#i mean tag it as being about sweeney todd#not as in tagging the people i’ve seen do this#definitely not lol#sorry if this whole thing comes off as harsh#i don’t mean to be harsh#i’m just so tired#and seeing this with my fav song was clearly my last straw lol#i have no straws left#all the straws are gone#they have been taken from me#yes i still include silly unhinged tags even in the angry rants lol#i’ve included so many caveats and yet i still feel like people are gonna misunderstand me#as scared as i am to post this i feel so free after writing this
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Heheh I love writing but also h aN d fU c k Ed uP
#I wrote an essay in under an hour hehe#glad that I actually really like history and this is fun for me because if it wasn’t I’d be in hell because#2 hours isn’t a lot for people#argrrhrhrh still like writing so much#only class I get full marks in hehe even art I’m not getting alot#yes I am bragging my hand will cramp for the rest of the day now <33#BUT SO FUN HEHE I LOV#I LOVE TO WRITE HISTORY ESSAYAYAYAA#did I mention I’m autistic and I am a fan of history#the French Revolution is so chaotic dude it’s called wtf is goinnggg on waitt gonna decapitate my neighbors!!!
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why is researching for a fic like this
#bam writes#rambles#this isn’t even for a fic that’s gonna be posted anytime soon#it’s a fucking sequel to a fic still in its planning and outlining stages#and before anyone asks yes it is a hobbit fic#every time I open a tab to check something I open like six more to make sure I have all the right info#I need to dig out my copy of the silmarillion tbh but my shit is everywhere rn#plus researching and writing is more fun than reading according to my brain#at least wikis condense info for me 😭#doing all this research and I’m still gonna butcher parts of the timeline for the hell of it#I’m joking it’s for plot#reconfiguring stuff just making sure I have names and lineages and places and such#but I’m still gonna fuck around with it#I’m actually having a lot of fun I love researching#it just always mean I have a window with sixty tabs of the tolkien gateway open at any given moment#the things I do for my movie-only five-minutes-of-screentime blorbo#praying I stay on my Figrid kick for a while so I can get some stuff done#got a oneshot in the works#got two wips to finish#and then my bigger upcoming wips#this duology. as we can see. that requires *a lot*#plus the *potential* outsider pov time loop fic *if* I can get it to work the way I want it to#fiinf
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