#So if anyone wants to RP with this boy hit me up :3

[audioroleplayconfessions]

soo i thought about sending escaped this directly w no anon, almost did,but i chickened out the moment his profile faced me

in short,i just wanna him to know how great of a writer he really is

I've been into audio rp for years now (6 to be exact) artists came and went,some are still here,but since i watched him ,there was no space to question who's the most talented of them

for all the years,no artist actually truly affected me like that,i never meant it when i posted "crying" in any other fandom,like maybe i teared up

but escaped.. he never gave me the chance to lie about it

if i said i cried i did,if you checked my pillow it would be wet

if i Said I'm bout to throw up (this is just my body's reaction to extreme emotions not a bad thing) i did have a knot in the bottom of my throat

if i said sobbing i was hunched over shaking

i never said it when it never happened ,all if those happened

no writer had a character stuck in my head without a day passing with me not thinking about them for 3 months straight like he did with raven

no writer had me listening to songs crying and sobbing like a widower who lost her husband at war thinking about like he did with crow

no writer gave me a mirror with a happier ending to my story like he did with ash and thadd

no writer made me swoon as much as he did with Fletcher

no writer made me as excited to being the listener like he did with slasher

no writer left me satisfied like he did with Benji

and there's more where those came from

i just wanted him to know that from my overusing of the term dandy boy to the sobbing i go through almost everyday ,i wouldn't change a a thing

my biggest lucky hit is blue infinity popping in my FYP and my biggest mistake is it not appearing sooner

he had me in ways i never thought would be in

i never believed when people said that so and so artist changed their lives,but i think i found mine

(not to mention the standards he sets from his posts about his girlfriend)

you changed my life, escaped audios.

i wanted to actually say this instead of silently appreciating because i want him to know that whenever he thinks he had no impact on anyone,that he'd remember me,a random anon tearing up as she writes this

that when he thinks he did nothing on this earth, he'd remember that there's someone who thinks of this works daily and gets emotional over them

when he thinks that no would support him that he'd have somebody always waiting for the next audio to appear

soo yeah, you are my favorite writer, escaped. thought you should know?

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[diivineray]

SHIPPING INFO. Answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

What’s your OTP for your Muse(s)?

I have a lot-- most are currently inactive but you'll know when you see them. I'm open however to creating new OTPs and spazzing about them with you.

What are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping?

Its fair game. I am willing to write just about everything except for like underaged stuff. Everything else is fair game if we discuss it beforehand. I'm not easily triggered by things, and a lot of my muses tap into that risque and taboo nature so come at me bruh.

How large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable?

I agree with what Ash said. we just don't like dealing with toddlers.

Are you selective when shipping?

Not really. I go based off chemistry. This isn't just a muse related thing, its also on how well we write together. Sometimes our writing might not mesh and that's okay. point is, I'll always try.

How far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW?

idk once clothes come off, bow chicka bow bow. I love smut, I'm not shy about it. I do not use read more's but I will tag. This blog contains heavy amounts of it so it shouldn't be surprising.

Who are other muses you ship your muse with?

Oh boy, literally every one of my muses with @deathfavor. Xie Lian and Mu Qing with @feietouhuo, their love transcends worming. Mu Qing will also eventually come to know their deep infatuation with Pei Ming. (We still have hope.) Also, I don't know if you'd still be down for Peilian, but like 🥺and, of course, anything with Xian le trio. @dcstinyscdgc with Fei Fei and Ruolan <3 some new ships i got going with leona I am loving with @verreprincesse & @duunswitch ! Of course leona's very OG prince @farspirit. If i am forgetting anyone hit me fndsklfs but the gist is I got a lot <3

Does one have to ask to ship with you?

Nah, but if that helps you by all means go for it. I think ships work very much like real relationships and I love when things kind of just pop up on their own. When the chemistry is cooking ya know?

How often do you like to ship?

i'd be a lying hoe if I said not all the time so.

Are you multiship?

yep!! There are some muses it might take me some time to open up with, but every muse is different, and I don't wanna do myself the disservice of missing out on cool peeps by not branching out.

Are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less?

half and half?? Like I love ships, but I also really do like exploring other aspects of my muses than just the romantics.

What is your favorite ship in your current fandom?

twst: leovil tgcf: fenglian /peiwen mdzs: wangxian

Finally, how does one ship with you?

Asks !! IM's !! I know IM's suck, but I don't give my discord very easily these days so IMs are the best way to go.

tagged. @feietouhuo ( sending you smooches thank u worm qing) tagging. @dcstinyscdgc, @verreprincesse, @duunswitch, @ghostlypath & anyone else who wants to do this

[heartsdefine]

⋆ NAME?: Bean / Bee

⋆ PRONOUNS?: they/she, in that order of preference

⋆ MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?: oof, uhh...it's hard to say when i have so many. probaby elspeth cousland or vasilisa here atm, along w/ anais evernight @thiefscant

⋆ RP PET PEEVES?: probably just...not being given anything to work with in threads or in plotting circumstances. i try to come to people with ideas when i reach out for plots myself, and always put a lot of effort into ensuring my replies haves something for my partners to respond to and build upon, so it's frustrating when someone hits me up to plot with no idea what they're interested in exploring or gives me a reply that's just their character reacting to mine with nothing new to build from.

⋆ EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS?: oh boy i've been roleplaying since i was a kid lmao. i originally rped primarily on forums. first, it was a hp forum (rip) and then years later i joined a dragon age forum, then a multifandom crossover forum that was a lot of fun. from there i decided to try out tumblr and it really stuck. tl;dr: i've been roleplaying on and off since i was about eleven years old, so that's like...22 years of experience???

⋆ FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: it truly depends on my mood tbh! i can write all three under the right circumstances, and i enjoy them all in their own way. i guess i lean more towards fluff and angst over smut, but i have been known to discuss the sex lives of our muses with my partners (as long as everyone is comfortable with it), and then occasionally write it out with them in thread or meme form.

⋆ PLOTS OR MEMES?: both! it helps me to keep a thread going if i have a general idea of where we both want it to end up. but i also love getting memes and replying to them and continuing them into threads spontaneously. it works a bit better for me than starter calls, which i am notorious for never finishing (sorry!).

⋆ LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: again, both! shorter replies are easier for my brain these days, but i love a longer thread as well. it just takes me a while to get around to replying to longer things, as i want to give my partner plenty to work with (even if i can't always match their exact length).

⋆ TIME TO WRITE?: literally whenever the muse strikes, which is unfortunately highly sporadic and constantly bouncing from muse to muse.

⋆ ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?: all of my muses have a little bit of me in them, i think. that's one of the joys of writing. finding parts of yourself in others and exploring or processing your own experiences through fiction can be liberating and cathartic (though i think it's also important to see and work with characters who are different from you). so yeah. there might be more of me in my ocs than my canons, but i like to think there is a little shard of me in all of them. <3

tagged by: @lunawish <3333 tagging: @ghosttsar, @avrorean, @gggno, @wayan9an, & anyone else who wants to!

[cherrping]

Searching for a Roy/Riza 1x1

I am forever Royai trash and always looking forward to roleplaying it with anyone. I love sending head canons and plotting up kooky things. I don’t mind playing either Roy or Riza. Canon, Canon divergent, or AU I can plot and brainstorm on.

I have plots under the cut.

A few things about me:

She/Her, 33 Years old, and prefer to rp with 21+

I do enjoy romance in my rps, it makes it fun for me but I don’t ask for it to be the end all and be all.

I am a lazy-lit, semi-lit I guess? I enjoy fast-paced rps. I don’t mind if you send me a one-liner. I prefer typing 1-3 paragraphs. If you want to send more 4+, go ahead! I don’t want to feel like I’m limiting your creativity.

I post at least once a day. If things come up, you want to change the plot, or you are no longer interested please tell me. I promise I won’t get upset.

Also, if you want to do multiple RPs, that’s perfectly fine with me!

You can poke me to reply. I sometimes forget to hit send or think I replied when reality tells me I didn’t.

I prefer to rp 3rd POV in paragraphs. Willing to do action RPs if in the mood.

I prefer to RP with women (cis and trans) only or people who use she/her/they/NB pronouns. No offense to the guys but I’ve had too many bad experiences and creepy men wanting to rp out kinks and fetishes I want no part of.

I don’t mind getting to know my partner OOC-wise. I understand if you want it to be strictly IC. I rp over discord.

But I do enjoy gushing about head canons and this pairing

I do find it fun to do IC chatstyle rps while waiting for posts if you like things like that.

I’m pretty flexible about gender. I don’t mind playing male or female roles.

I don’t mind a bit of darkness in my rps but I do like to balance it out with fluff.

message me if interested!

red string of fate. - What if they could see the string that connected them their entire life. They spent years trying to sever it only to think deeply about it once they see the string finally fray? (bonus if there's a mental bond too.)

I just woke up from a 6 month coma and I don’t remember anything about the past 5 years but that’s kind of okay because as a trade-off this gorgeous stranger sitting at my bedside is saying he’s my husband

Possibly modern or normal timeline Royai AU:

Roy considered Van Hohenheim an old acquaintance but hadn't heard from him in years. Which wasn't out of the ordinary for the man, he comes and goes with his own time and rhythm. Which was out of the ordinary when he was asked to care for his children as his ward. Roy was hesitant for a moment, he was a busy military man and doubted he could properly care for any children. With a little convincing from Hughes (and a discussion of how the public loves a good feel feel-good story), he decided to take them on.

Riza considered this to be one more thing added to her plate, wondering how Roy could possibly handle this but she was caught by surprise seeing how well he adapted to fatherhood despite taking on two very traumatized boys.

Modern AU

Can be done with or without alchemy, can be discussed more.

It was rare that Roy took Hughes's offer to set him up on a blind date, but decided to do so to help shut him up. He counted his blessing when Hughes found an endlessly charming woman for him but felt a spray of cold water when she told him she didn't want to meet him again. At a loss of words, he agreed.

The next day, the color nearly drained from his skin when he saw his newest transfer from Briggs was the woman he went on a date with last night.

‘you’re my normally really pedantic and fussy assistant so i get really confused when you start sending me office memos with typos of randomly added letters turns out the added letters spell out a declaration of your love for me’

'my really stern and strict (but secretly nice) boss and i have to fly somewhere on a business trip and during the plane ride she fell asleep on my shoulder she looks so cute and peaceful i’m melting on the inside’

I fell in love with you three lifetimes ago and I’ve been looking for you ever since but I’ve been starting to give up and my friends’s new crush has your eyes and oh god I’m not going to steal someone’s date just because I’m hoping you’re the person I met in a past life (jk yes I am)

We only remember each other in alternating lifetimes so every lifetime we have to find one another and convince each other that we’re soul mates but half the time I won’t believe you and half the time you’re already dating someone else

“I’VE BEEN TEXTING MY FRIEND FOR ABT A WEEK NOW AND THEY DONT REPLY BUT TURNS OUT I WAS TEXTING A RANDOM PERSON AND THERE WAS SOME DEEP PERSONAL STUFF I SENT OH MY GOD WHY ARE THEY CALLING ME NOW?” AU (+BONUS IF THE PERSON CALLS AT 2AM)

[fornassau]

Rules and Characters Post!

Mun’s name is Castor, but I will answer to Tori as well. I am transmasc and my pronouns are he/they. I’m pushing 40 and have written for well over 25 years.

This is an independent multi-muse blog for several characters from the show Black Sails and the novel Treasure Island. Muses will be listed at the bottom. You can hit up my inbox anytime with RP memes or otherwise, I love plotting but I like spontaneous writing as well! Feel free to hit up my private messages and I’ll get back to you as soon as I am able.

Since this is based off rather violent characters, there will be NSFW on this blog. I will not write any NSFW content with anyone that is not of the appropriate age. Some things can get very dark and if you have certain triggers, please warn me ahead of time before writing. Also please remember that the opinions of the muses on this blog are their opinions. I don’t necessarily agree with everything that they do.

I like to write semi-para or multi-para, but sometimes I’ll answer asks with shorter responses. I like when others have the same sort of style but I realize that it’s not for everyone. You don’t have to match my post length.

I reserve the right to drop threads. It just happens sometimes, I think all of us writers go through it. I love asks, but I’ll respond to the ones I can and really feel. Also, I’m not a stickler about replies and I’ll never harass you for one so please don’t do that to me! However mun is very nice and ND, and likes to check in on his lovely writing partners. Sometimes this has been misconstrued and I’ve been treated like shit. Really, I’m a friendly person. ^^<3 I like getting to know those I write with.

I ship chemistry. And I like to write far more than just ships. I love drama, anguish, pain and suffering. If you do have an incling on wanting to ship some of my boys, we can always discuss it.

I can’t follow back from this blog as it is a side blog, but I’ll be following you back from my main blog which is @bxnnxrxd . Feel free to follow that main blog and feel free to follow my Our Flag Means Death blog, @izzyeffinhands .

Crossovers and OCs are welcome to engage with any of my pirate folks. I love Our Flag Means Death as well as Pirates of the Caribbean, and anything age of sail, so feel more than welcome to bring your characters here.

The following is a list of muses I write for Black Sails. If you have any questions, feel free to ask away. Flint is the favored muse of this blog.

Billy Bones.

Captain Flint, aka James McGraw.

Calico Jack Rackham.

Captain Charles Vane.

Lord Thomas Hamilton.

[maeglinthebold]

AO3 Wrapped

From this ask game.

How many words have you written this year?

438,169 posted to AO3, and though this is artificially inflated by a good portion of it being RP and continued works from 2021, I also wrote way more than that besides (isolated scenes, pure wank material, stuff that will never see the light of day, etc.)

I’d like to thank a new fandom getting its hooks in me (OFMD) and the ending of Roswell New Mexico being so inspiringly bad for those high numbers, up from 166k in 2021 and getting me almost up to my 2020 levels (514k). 

2. How many works did you publish this year?

69 - LMAO that was NOT on purpose.

(That's an average of 6.3k per fic.)

3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?

I really enjoyed writing Hell of a Night: it was angsty and dramatic, but I liked making Stede and Ed fight a literal Kraken before they could get back together.

4. What work of yours has the most hits?

World Enough and Time - OFMD, rated E, published at a sweet spot for people interested in reading Stede/Ed. I was proud of the use of contemporary poetry, though, and very proud of the goofy sex those old men got up to in that. 

5. What work of yours got more feedback than you expected?

Start Where You Are (and Change the Ending) had some great conversations in the comments I feel like, mostly about Izzy. I wanted to get the antagonist thing right and not make him cartoonish. I feel I did that, but it’s way more work than I want to put into his character in the future, as I just don't care for him personally. Anyway, good conversations were had in the comments here, and that’s what I consider to be good feedback.

6. Favorite title you used

How the Mighty Fall (They Fall in Love) I suppose!

7. If you use song lyrics, which artist's songs did you pull from the most?

I think I saved myself from being a Fall Out Boy bitch by being a Halsey bitch first and foremost. Am I mad I used “The Lighthouse” lyrics for RNM fics before I started writing OFMD fics? Yes. Still mad. 

8. Pairing you wrote the most for this year?

Malexa with 28, followed by Blackbonnet at 16

9. Favorite pairing you wrote for this year?

Definitely those two, Malexa and Blackbonnet. I not only can't choose between them but I'll add Kyle/Max/Liz, Michael & Liz, and Maria/Kyle as honorable mentions. 

10. What work was the quickest to write?

That’s not an entirely fair question because I have so many short works that I banged out in one sitting. Also I usually have no problem getting words down once I have an idea and I have the time: it’s why I love prompts. 

11. What work took you the longest to write?

What We've Built probably took the longest by word count ratio because I kept crying during the writing of it. 

12. How many WIP's do you have in your docs for next year?

Shhhhhh. If I don’t promise anything I don’t disappoint anyone (including myself).

13. What's your longest work of the year?

With @haloud, and also continued from 2020: I Was Just An Only Child of the Universe (And Then I Found You) (117,908 words)  

With @singerofsongs: Ask for forgiveness, never permission (41,989 words)

Solo, but also a continuation from 2021: Never Let You Go (40,800 words)

14. What's your shortest work of the year?

I had quite a few double-drabbles all coming in at 200 words (by Google Doc’s count, if not AO3’s): 

Deep

Hautdesert

Watching

Adrenaline

Aftermath

Reading

15. What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

All of them. I have 17 works marked as incomplete and I will always consider them on my to-do list. Updates could happen at any time. You don’t know.

16. What's your most common "Additional Tags" tag?

Established relationship, Hurt/Comfort, Polyamory, and Humor. 

I made an effort to add “Humor” to my tags this year because it’s something I consider myself good at and thought I should advertise. 

17. Your favorite character to write this year?

By the numbers, Maria DeLuca, and that’s as it should be lol.

As far as an interesting new challenge, I’d say Stede Bonnet: it’s hard to reconcile him sounding fancy half the time and using scientific names for moths and yet also coming up with “Mr. Wavy-Blade.”  

18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

Alex Manes. Missing from most of season 4. Missing in our hearts since season 1. The version in my head is cool, it just kept getting harder and harder to reconcile him with canon. 

Also Izzy Hands, for reasons mentioned above. 

19. What's one pairing you want to explore next year?

I don’t know what new ones will grab me, otherwise more of the same! 

20. Which work of yours have you reread the most?

Probably How the Mighty Fall (They Fall in Love)

21. How many kudos in total did you get this year?

5,792

22. Which work has the most comments?

I Was Just An Only Child of the Universe (And Then I Found You) but again, that one’s been going since 2020!

23. Did you do any collaborative works this year?

Yes, loads! It’s the best part about writing fic! Thanks to my rp partners: 

@haloud: Without Question, foolish men have tried, but only you have shown me how to love being alive, stranger in a strange land, Even If It's Just in Your Wildest Dreams, love and life lines, I Was Just An Only Child of the Universe (And Then I Found You), there is a lighthouse in the middle of the deep end, You Make Me a Believer, From Roswell with Love, Kiss Me Like Your Ex Is in the Room, 

@a-singer-of-songs: Ask for forgiveness, never permission, Tell me all your thoughts on God / Cause I'm on my way to see her

@lizzy-leo: Sinking in your Eyes, Chasing Golden Nights

24. Did you write any gifts this year?

Yes! In addition to my birthday ficlet gifts (Maeg's Hobbit Birthday Gift Ficlets 2022), I wrote a few other fics I gifted to people this year: 

The E-Word for @dr-lemurr

Embedded for @haloud

Oh, she's sweet but a psycho for @primalmusic

If You Really Loved Me You Would Share Him for @haloud

Drawn for @haloud

25. Did you receive any gifts this year?

Yes! I got some lovely ones this year: 

You Bring Me Hope by @tasyfa

ours by @infp-obsessing-over-everything

i sleep to dream (the trail beneath your feet) by @haloud

26. What's your most common category?

“Multi” (the tag I use to indicate a poly ship) is my top category! 

27. What do you listen to while writing?

I like to watch video game playthroughs actually. Shoutout to @nyssaismyrealname for endless hours of HZD, HFW, AND GOW:R to have on in the background while I write.

28. Favorite work you wrote this year?

Though it’s still a WIP, I’m really loving Dangerous. Miluca Witch/Werewolf who have caught Hunter Alex and will probably fall in love with him knowing me. Turned Alex into a bunny rabbit so what’s not to love?

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

“And a stake to the heart kills you?” [Michael asked.]

“Doesn’t it kill everybody?” Alex chuckled. 

“Yes,” Maria said. “Though I don’t know about—what the limits are of blood healing us? Haven't had much opportunity to test it, luckily. But I’ve definitely killed a vampire with wood through the heart.” 

“Any kind of wood?” 

“Heh,” Alex interjected. 

“This isn’t Supernatural, Michael. It doesn’t need to be a holly branch or something.” 

“Wow, you…” Michael grinned. “You had that right there, didn’t you? For someone who claims her life is nothing like hit CW series Supernatural.” 

“Shut up.” 

Michael grinned. “Okay. Okay, how about garlic?” 

“No worse than any other human food.” 

Michael nodded thoughtfully. He would really miss eating if he became a vampire. Not like these Civil War vets who could only miss hard tack and gruel. “If I drop a bag of marbles…”

“I would be pissed that you dropped a tripping hazard in front of a disabled veteran,” Alex said sternly, but Maria laughed before Michael had a chance to worry he was serious. Alex smiled. “No counting compulsion.”

(From “Drawn.” It made me laugh.)

30. Biggest surprise while writing this year?

I had no idea I wrote quite that much! 🙃 Probably a cry for help.

[lil-ms-darkness]

Recompense

Levi Ackerman x OC

A/N: A year ago, I created an OC (BellaDonna Lee) as a character who would be one of my characters in an AoT RP me and a friend were planning. The rp is no longer an option, but I gave her character so much thought, and I honestly just love her, so this is going to be a scene I imagined between her and Levi.

This has mild spoilers for AoT Season 3, so if you're not caught up, read with caution. It doesn't spoil plot, but it spoils Levi's backstory and an event that takes place. Oh, and this is a long boi.

I don't know if anyone cares, but I listened to Daniel Di Angelo's Love is Evil and Issues while writing this.

I may use my blog to post random one shots and scenes I think of for my ocs, maybe some x readers. We shall see. Hope you enjoy.

𝕷𝖎𝖑 𝕸𝖘 𝕯𝖆𝖗𝖐𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖘 🥀

Bella dries out a glass with a fresh rag behind the long bar, standing near the wall, where a young boy with messy brown hair and tanned skin gobbles down a plate of eggs and sausage, a cup of water sitting next to his plate. He sets the fork down and chugs the glass, only to be met with the sound of running water as Bella immediately refills it with a water pitcher for the third time. He looks up at her with uncertain but thankful hazel eyes. She nods and he returns to eating. 

It’s a small crowd today, only a gentleman at the other side of the bar and a couple at the table in the corner near the door. She walks over to the man at the other end of the bar as she throws the cleaning rag over her shoulder so she can toss it in a bin marked “dirty”. 

“Want another whiskey?” She asks, unable to see his eyes past the brim of his hat. Wisps of blonde hair graze his jaw and curl at the base of his neck. 

“Do I gotta pay for that one, too?” He grumbles and she suppresses an annoyed scoff.

“This is a bar, so yes.”

“What about the twerp? He hasn’t paid for his food. You give out charity only to those you want to?”

“You’re a big boy, you can pay for your food. He’s an orphan.”

“He can get a job like the rest of us.”

Out of the corner of her eye, she saw the young boy lower the fork from his mouth and look over.

Without a word, she grabs his glass by the rim but he grabs her wrist. She clenches her teeth and wills herself not to wince as she looks at him. He lifts his head, finally and her gold eyes meet deep brown eyes. 

“I recommend you let go of me and get out of my bar, or it’s going to be a very bad day for you.” She warns, lowly, feeling all eyes on her. 

He growls and yanks his arm away, casting his gaze to the boy. He stands and walks over, reaching for the plate. The boy let out a gasp and sat back as the mans thumb hit the lip and his fingers slid underneath. He stops, feeling a metal rim against his temple. Then there’s a chilling click as the hammer of the revolver is pulled back.

“I’d choose your next actions very carefully, Sir.” She hears the front door to her bar open, but Bella doesn’t even bother to look up. “If a single piece of egg falls from that boys plate, I’m going to pull this trigger, and it’s going to be the end of line for you. Or,” She says, cooly, with calculated venom dripping from each word, “you can walk out of here with your life and never step foot in here, again. Take your pick.” 

The man scowls and stares at the wide eyed boy before he removes his hand, the fork clinking against the ceramic as he does so. He lifts his hands and backs away, cautiously as she continues to hold the gun towards him. She can see his gaze flick down to her hand,

“Don’t. You’ll be dead before you even touch me.”

He glares at her and curses under his breath as he continues to back away until he makes it to the front door. He backs out and vanishes. Only then does the carefully put the hammer back in place and tuck it back into the pocket of her dress. She looks down at the boy, then the man who now sits in the middle of the bar. He’s seen it all, but he looks unbothered. She shakes her head, 

“I’ll be right with you.” She looks at the boy again and his trembling lip. “Hey, Jakob, look at me.” 

The boy looks up with his dirty face and dreary eyes.

“That wasn’t a one time thing. You’re going to get that everyday of your life. Don’t let people like that man treat you that way. If they do, make them regret it. Got it?” 

He nods, once, and she smiles. Seeing her smile, he smiles and blushes faintly. “Eat up.” Then she makes her way to the customer. 

“Sorry about that, I had to deal with a disgruntled customer.” She noted his short black hair with an undercut and pale skin. He’s familiar, but she can’t quite place him. He looks up and his intense gray eyes catch hers. He looks young, she’d guess early or mid 20s, max. “What can I get you?”

“The owner. I need to talk to them.” 

Her hackles rise and she nods, “She’s a busy woman, can I ask what this is about? She doesn’t like to be disturbed with stupid shit.”

“I had an incident here and caused some collateral damage. Wanted to come in person and talk to her about it.”

Bella examines him and sighs, “Belladonna Lee, I’m the owner.” She offers her hand. The man reaches out, shaking her hand, 

“Levi.” His handshake was firm, and his hands were calloused but very clean. She watches him pluck a napkin from the counter and dry off some water around his hand and she raises an eyebrow. 

“So, you’re the one that traumatized my bartender and damaged my bar. He sent me a letter and I had to cut my vacation short. Had to fix the door frame and replace the broken window, let alone buff out your shoe prints from my bar. I hope you’ve come to pay me back for that, it wasn’t exactly cheap to fix.”

“I actually came to get a drink.” He says and she folds her arms.

“After all of that, why should I serve you?”

He didn’t even say a word, instead just dropped money on the counter and met her gaze again. 

She looks up at the now empty table where the couple had been, sighing. They probably left before they could see a murder up close and personal.

“What do you take?”

“You got tea?”

She let out a sudden laugh, a chesty laugh that escaped her before she could stop it.

“You came to a bar for tea?” She asks, incredulously.

“I came to discuss recompense.”

“You don’t look the type to give two shits about making things right, Levi.”

“Perceptive, but not exactly a detective. You don’t know me. Do you have tea, or not?” 

She sighs, yet again and can feel the beginnings of a headache coming on. She walks a few feet away and rummages through a small box. She plucks out a few smaller tins and a flat muslin square before she digs through her glassware. 

“I don’t have teacups, so you’re stuck with a regular glass.” She puts some of the herbs from the small tins into the muslin, tying it off with a small piece of elastic and dropping it into the glass. She adds warm water and sets it down in front of him. He pushes his payment forward and she quirks a brow.

“That's too much-”

“Keep the change.” He sips the tea and she can see his eyes flinch a bit. “Got any honey?”

“No, sorry.”

He shakes his head and she examines him in fascination,

“So, what was going on that resulted in all that damage?”

“What’s with the kid?”

They look at each other as they speak in unison and Bella clears her throat, 

“You first. What did you say?”

“I asked what was with the kid.” He motions to Jakob, who has finished his food and is now sipping his water, eyes lowering, looking ready to fall asleep.

"Why?" She asks, cautiously, her hand ready to pull the revolver again, if need be.

"You're taking care of him, but he doesn't look a bit like you."

“I guess I just like kids.” She offers, bluntly.

He sips his tea, wincing again, and she wonders why the hell he’s still drinking it. “People don’t pull guns on people if they ‘just like kids’, nor do they take stray kids off the streets. You run a secret orphanage or something?”

She shakes her head and grabs another rag, walking over and folding it gently. She replaces the dirty plate with the rag and gently pats it so Jakob can put his head down. The boy hesitantly lowers his head onto the rag and falls asleep. She walks back to Levi and sets the dish in a bin of other dirty dishes to be cleaned later, 

“No, but I do try to be a safe space for kids up here. I do want to open a home for orphans in the Underground, though. Not an orphanage, but a place for them to be safe." She could have sworn she saw Levi’s shoulders bristle at that, but his calm expression confuses her. She must have been seeing things- the pressure of her headache getting more pronounced. Maybe it was a migraine. 

“Why?” He asks.

“What’s with all these invasive questions?” She asks, cautiously, examining him closely.

“Making conversation, aren’t bars where people go to socialize?” He asks, flatly before taking another sip of his tea, this time without grimacing.

She purses her lips and looks over at Jakob, sound asleep, then Levi. She folds her arms and leans her back against the liquor display and Levi watches as a few jet black strands of hair fall from her ponytail. 

“Truthfully, I do love kids, but it’s more…complicated, I guess. My dad left before I was born and my mother was exhausted working two jobs to support me. I hated it, but she’d tell me stories of other kids who had it worse. There was one she told me that haunts me to this day. There was a little boy who lived with his mother, she was a sex worker I believe. But she died, and I can’t remember if it was illness or if she was murdered. But the little boy stayed with the body of his dead mother until he died, too- starved to death…” Her eyes are somber, and she looks over at Jakob again. 

Levi is silent for a long time, and Bella assumes he’s waiting for her to continue. When she doesn’t, he speaks up. “The world is cruel. It’s not fair, and kids need to learn to handle themselves.”

Bella looks over at him, “That boy who starved to death had no one to teach him. How do you learn if you’re not taught?”

“You learn the hard way. Figure it out.” 

She scoffs and looks down at her dress. 

“If they want to survive, maybe. But that doesn’t mean children deserve to experience pain like that…Imagine how frightened he was…how much pain he was in…” She digs her nails into her arms. 

“Something tells me there’s more to this than just that dead boy.” He muses

“My…" She takes a moment to collect herself, "My own mother died. Semi-recently. When you smashed up my bar, I was in Karanes collecting her belongings. And it’s weird being alone. I mean, I’ve been living on my own for years, but it’s different not having the choice to go see her.” 

He hums and sips his tea, again. 

She looks over at him and has to admit, he’s quite handsome. His black bangs falling into his chilling eyes and slight dark circles, the line of his jaw and serious lips. He has few wrinkles around his mouth, and she wonders if he ever even smiles. A neatly buttoned and crisp white button up with a black blazer over top. He even smells clean, unlike Bella's scent of boiled eggs, whiskey and burned bread.

His eyes find hers and she holds his gaze, round golden eyes with thick lashes and soft lips, thick black hair tied in a ponytail with loose wisps grazing high cheekbones. Strong shoulders with a waist that curves in gradually. Her legs are lost to the limp drape of her dress.

“What about you?” She asks, softly. 

“Hmm?”

“I gave you some pretty personal information about me. Don’t think I give that out for free.”

“I have to pay to get to know you?”

“If I don’t know you, yes. You do.”

He smirks, slightly and it’s so subtle and yet completely transforms his face. She swallows and pushes down the fluttering in her chest. So he does smile, after all.

“I’m not very interesting.”

“The damage I had to repair begs to differ. What happened that day, why did you shoot someone out my front door. Why did you smash my window with a chair?”

“Somebody was in the way and I had to deal with him.” 

“So ominous, and vague. You don’t expect me to accept that as an answer, do you?” 

“I do, actually.” He finishes the tea and sets the cup down before standing. She is sad to see him leave, even if she is mildly frustrated and her head is pounding. She had forgotten about it completely as they were talking. 

“Thank you for coming by. If you ever need another drink, I’ll keep the tea stocked. And invest in some honey.”

He nods, and when the front door slams open, Levi spins on his heel quickly, Bella's hand plunging into her dress on instinct. A young teen stands in the doorway, panting, sweaty, and covered in blood. 

“Matthew! What is it?!” Bella asks in a panic, running around the bar.

“I-It’s Eric, the boys from the other day found him! They beat him up really badly, one of them had a knife and-” 

Bella’s eyes become wild and she runs for the door. A hand on her shoulder stops her and she looks over at Levi, heart pounding and making the pressure in her head worse. The throbbing made her dizzy.

“Calm down.”

“Don’t tell me you’re going to stop me from helping that boy!”

“I’m not, but if those boys are still there and they attack you, you can’t help anyone. And I doubt you have the resolve to use that revolver on children.”

“THEN WHAT DO YOU SUGGEST I DO?”

“Let me come with.” It wasn’t a request, she could see it. He was going, regardless of her answer.

[unfocusedwill]

to be a raider at different levels

Inspired by this post by Matticus.

It’s been a long time since my last post for a variety of reasons, but most notably a culture of self-censorship as I had been raiding in a guild that preferred to keep its affairs intensely private. For better or worse, that chapter of my raiding career is over as of DF.

I’ve stepped back from pushing HoF on a 4 day schedule to raiding 2 days a week for CE. We reformed/started the tier about a month late but finished out the tier at around US 150 - ironically, right around the same rank as my 3 day guild from Legion. We’ve come full circle boys.

Since then, I’ve been enjoying the less rank-focused atmosphere and just having fun in the game. However, the level I play at as the player has not changed. I level capped a mage on a RP server last week and solo geared/pugged my way to aotc over the course of 4 days. I did this for fun and also as an ‘experiment’ because I was curious to see what the path to aotc might be like for a solo player, or maybe someone getting into raiding. I wanted to see how groups would react if I didn’t link achievements or queue up with high ilvl.

The fun part was accomplished, but that’s about it. I may have hidden my account achievements and unlinked my main on rio, but I still have all the knowledge of someone who’s played this tier since day one with a focus on gearing for raid as efficiently as possible. I reached 385 from farming Forbidden Reach rares on day one, hit 396 in normal later that night, 400 from pugging heroic on day 3, and finished out aotc a little after midnight into day 4 and ended the week at 401. This is in sharp contrast to the casual guild I joined on server, which had many long time players stuck at sub-400 ilvl and still progging heroic. The difference in gear and raid progression speed was surreal. But, no matter how much I may have been RPing being a “new 70″, that’s because it wasn’t progression for me. I knew how to gear and had the focus to farm rares. I actually overestimated the minimum ilvl people expected for normal and heroic pugs and had no trouble getting into premade finder groups despite no logs or rio. Being a mage buff helped. I targeted groups, especially groups advertised as “alt runs”, preferably of people with mythic kills on their mains, that had no mage - and almost always got an invite. All of this in and of itself is acquired knowledge and skill in navigating groups and raid comps. And of course, I knew the boss mechanics, so if anyone was kicked from groups for failing mechanics or grossly subpar dps it wasn’t me.

So many players are still genuinely trying to attain aotc, progging heroic for hours each week, and might still rely on make a wish community initiatives to get it before the end of tier which is rapidly approaching.

I don’t know whether to be depressed or empowered by the experience, really. It really drove home how impactful the knowledge, mindset, and skill set of the player is. Even if I wiped all of my existing records and started on a new account under a completely new identity, I know I would still climb back up to CE+ in short order because that is the level I’m at as a player.

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In reference to Matt’s post, I want to stress that being a aotc or CE (or HoF) player and playing in an aotc or CE guild are two entirely different things.

The level of the guild you play in determines the minimum requirements you must meet to pass trial and stay on the roster in that guild. The level of player you are is determined by your personal skill cap, problem solving ability, and how above and beyond you go, even when your guild doesn’t require it. You’re raiding at the right level for you if the skill level, time investment, goals, and expectations of you and your guild are aligned.

As you go up the ranks, the minimum amount of commitment and performance expected of you increases, yes. I ask of you, where does the motivation come from? Are you adjusting your behavior and expectations to meet expectations set by the guild (because you want to raid in that guild), or are you this way as a player because that’s what makes sense to you and how you prefer to play the game?

Many mythic and CE guilds struggle from its raiders having differences in commitment. Chasing after the ‘slackers’ to do their weekly M+ for vault, for example, or not putting in the effort to learn how to play their rotation correctly. Over-performers resenting other raiders for not trying as hard as they do. Or worse, raiders who blame the rest of their team for ‘holding them back.’

A mythic guild is mythic (but not CE) because it’s dealing with a mix of aotc and CE players under the same roof, and either unwilling or unable to replace or improve the aotc players. A CE guild likely won’t have more than a few “aotc-level” players, but they are still quite common up and down the rankings due to the ever-so-common favoritism that tends to happen in guilds everywhere. Basically, they’re there because a friend or significant other in a position of power is guaranteeing them a spot, and at the CE level it is possible to do just that and rely on the stronger players on the team to carry them indefinitely.

HoF (previously Horde, and bifactional going forward) is where things kind of start evening out and people start being on the same page. Carries aren’t totally unheard of but... well, if they’re holding the guild back that much, then they wouldn’t have reached HoF to begin with. Let’s not talk about Alliance HoF.

Hard work matters but to anyone looking to raid “at a higher level,” I would strongly encourage you to first figure out your own level and consider whether the mindset and playstyle of a higher level player is something that resonates with you. Not everyone enjoys it. It’s not as simple as “just keep at it and eventually you’ll be world first material.” I for one know that I will never raid at the WF level (and you would have to pay me a lot to even consider it.)

a note on Endurance

Endurance isn’t a one way street. I find that I have more or less infinite patience for high pull count bosses... if wipes are meaningful and what we learned from each wipe brings us closer to killing the boss. Wiping because someone on the raid team is horribly inconsistent or still haven’t learned how to deal with a mechanic they’ve already seen many times? Not so cool. This creates an interesting paradox for me where my focus and endurance increases exponentially with the level of the players I’m raiding with. On the flip side, I have very low patience for groups where the raiders themselves are the affix.

Lastly, I would like to briefly touch on the value of having an analytical mindset. A high level raider is or has developed analytical and good independent problem solving sense. I do not think this is up for debate. Even if you don’t log dive after every wipe (and yes, it is definitely possible to get lost in the weeds of logs and miss the bigger picture) a high level raider knows what questions to ask, how to find the information to answer it, and how to use that knowledge to play even better in the future. All top raiders are data analysts, basically. You can list off specific things that a higher level raider should do, but it’s more important to understand why those things are important, and understand how it all fits into and enables a higher level of success/consistency/performance as a raider. A checklist will only take you as far as the items on the list itself. A mindset will take you everywhere.

[schimmelspore]

Alright, storytime.

Im telling yall rn that there will be typos, i just dont care rn

I already had a rather full day when it comes to talking to people and doing things, so all i wanted was a nice quiet evening to rp with a friend and Chat with my Partner.

Thats not what i got.

The doorbell rung and when i opened, the young mother (shes 17) that lives up on the highest floor asked me to let her and her 3 day old baby in. I did, obviously.

Turns out that her boyfriend and babydaddy (18) is incredibly aggressive and manipulative.

I knew him, i barely knew her. He was okay when they moved in a few months ago, but he was talking a big game with nothing to show. Back then i just rolled my eyes. Another neighbor from the next house did the same.

He rung up a storm at my door, so i closed my living room door to get the mother safe and answered the door. He was incredibly agitated, but lucky for me he seems to think i would break his jaw if he overstepped with me. I wouldnt lol but i like that he seems to fear me enough to behave.

I told him that with this kind of Agitation i dont care for the reason, im not letting him close to a new born.

He blamed her for how upset he was, said she will steal his child (he wanted to change the babies last Name to his own and the mother said that thats not happening and she wouldnt sign the paper like that)(the New borns grandmother has custody of the kid anyway)

He also threatened the mother with his own suicide, holding a huge fucking knife to his neck. I asked him about that and he said that he did it because his life is shit, he doesnt want it anymore and that his (ex-)gf brought him to that edge.

Now looking at both of their demeanors.... nah, she didnt. And i already knew he talks a lot of bullshit.

I managed to get him to calm down, because he didnt find a point to hit with his Aggression with me. I talked him into giving me the key for their apartment (there exists only one) and got him to go to work. He works nights.

With that he was out of the picture for a few hours.

When i came back inside, the young mom was talk with the grandmother on the phone. Granny lives halfway through the country. They were saying they had to wait until friday to get her away from here, so i asked why. No money. And i was like alright, im gonna buy you a train Ticket, give me the money back when you got it, its fine.

Then my neighbor from the next house messaged me with something unrelated and i was like "yo. Are you home?" She wasnt, but i gave her a quick rundown of what was going on and she was here 20 minutes later to help.

We went up to the apartment to get the mothers and the babies stuff and to see what to do about the dog (huge german sheppert/malinois Mix, former security dog, the goodest of boys) that used to belong to the grandmother. We decided that he needs some walkies and we would see how to get him in the morning, baby comes first. Ill tell the dog Story later.

She packed hers and the babies stuff (hers fit into half a grocery bag) and brought it down into my apartment. During this i found out that he manahed to discourage her to seek my help (i had offered her help a few times), that he had Power over all the money, always took the one key when he went out so she couldnt do anything, told her to not wear bright colors or make up, and let out his Aggression on the doors, walls and things.

Yes, he punched a hole THROUGH THE WALL.

Towards me he had said earlier "yes im often aggressive, but i dont let it out on her or the kid."

The attentive Reader might now raise their brows. "Im often aggressive, BUT-" is always followed by excuses or lies. He lets it out on things and uses that to say that he doesnt harm anyone and such. Which is bullshit. Thats no Environment for a young mother, her new born, and an old dog.

Anyway, the mom slept in my apartment and i did the best to accomodate both of them. We got 2h of sleep maximum.

In the morning, we took her to the train, rushing to the car as quickly as we could, because homeboy had spammed her woth messages and by the end he was like "i just lost my job because of you" so aside from it being the end of his shift, he could have been on his way earlier. But luckily we got her to the car without issue and he didnt Show up at the train Station either.

(Fyi no employer in germany would fire you for dealing with the birth of a child. Thats just not a thing. at least not in my experience. If he got fired it was because he didnt talk to them about it or because he was an asshole and bad at his job. Or didnt show up. But who knows if that even happened or if he tried to guilt trip her)

We rushed to the Plattform.... and the train was cancelled. Shit. Okay. She was able to take the next one an hour later and was then soon safely on her no stop 3h train ride to where the grandmother would pick them up to care for them.

Mom and baby are safe and by now hopefully settle for an actual nap.

After that me and my neighbor drove back home, to a pissed off 18yo asshole standing in front of the house in the rain because i had his Keys.

Im genuinely glad that he is too scared of us to try shit. My neighbor is a tiny petite Lady of 38 years, who used to do kickboxing and handles 60kg dogs with ease. I am a kinda broad if short 30yo trans man who looks intimidating thanks to my piercings and attitude. He went off muttering insults and we only gave him the key if he gave us the dog.

We were this insistant because he didnt take care of it. There was no dog food in the house (he didnt buy much for his now ex and the dog to eat, hes very self oriented) and he only went out with the poor doggy during the night for like 15 minutes. For a german sheppert/malinois Mix. Yes you heard right.

Its not like the young mother could have done it during her pregnancy, that dog needs someone with enough strength and calm authority. She hated it but couldnt do much about it.

And fyi, i had offered them to walk the dog sometimes. They never took me up on the offer and i think it was because homeboy was scared i would see that things were wrong.

Anyway, with that we had the dog, walked him, fed him, let him rest.

And for the first time since i met this dog, he was not whining after about 20 minutes of being in my flat, with a blanket and a bit of sausage in his belly (my neighbor later went to bring him some actual dog food.)

So now the mom and the baby are safe, the dog is with my neighbor who will either train him to be able to keep him or find him a new and better home. She is very passionate about that.

Meanwhile i am decompressing. Once everyone and dog was out of my apartment and the doors closed, i immediately teared up. Gotta love the neurodivergent overload reaction. I cried for a bit and will curl up for a little while on my couch... though i have to leave in an hour for my job Interview.

Im just happy all went kind of well.

And homeboy is going to get in trouble woth the janitor and Administrator of this house. They cone over today to check on the flat, ecause i mentioned to them (before any of the above happened) that i heard the doors are all broken and they probably need help.

Might Update once i get the tea on that.

Might have to give a full storytime on what the fuck went down that i have a mother and her 3 days old kid sleeping in my living room after i bought her a train Ticket to berlin

[thedarkestdragonknight]

LFRP/LFC - Jacques Cresent (Mateus)

Jacques Cresent, the Dragon in Disguise

The Basics ––– –

Age: Thirty-Three (33)

Aliases: Grumpy Dragon (by close friends), The Primal Killer

Birthday: 5th Sun of the 5th Umbral Moon (October 5th)

Race: Au Ra, Xaela | Great Wyrm/Dragon (Genetically modified by Garlean Experiments)

Gender: Masculine, Male (He/His/Him Pronouns)

Sexuality: Demisexual, Polyamorous, Demiromantic

Notes on his Sexuality/Romantic Side: Jacques is categorized as a demisexual with strong homosexual or androsexual leanings. He is open to sexual activities but only once he has forged a strong enough emotional bond with the person that he will have sex with (Such as his partners P’shali and Swath for example), he simply prefers men in most cases. This also ties into him being Demiromantic as he has to have that strong emotional bond before he feels any such love/romantic attraction to a partner. (Thanks to @talechaser-ffxiv for helping me out on this one!)

Marital Status: Single

Alignment: Chaotic Neutral for the most part, he can sometimes delve into Chaotic Evil if situations come up that break him. He can also lean into just straight up neutral.

Server: Mateus

Canon Divergent: For the most part, I do my best to keep Jacques as best as I can leaning into the lore of the game. However, him being what he is (IE: he can turn into what is essentially a ‘primal’ of sorts) is more than just a bit lore breakery. This rarely comes up in RP unless the person that I am RPing with is comfortable with it obviously and it is something that I keep very well guarded. Overall I am a person who tries her best to keep things lore and canon friendly but I am very open to the ‘screw this’ option as well since myself and my IRL partner often times fall into that category with our RPs. Never be afraid to ask if I’m open or okay with something folks <3

Physical Appearance ––– –

You can find more detailed information about certain things on Jacques’ character page. Specifically his scales, horns, etc.

Hair: Jacques’ hair is actually extremely long, when he doesn’t have it up in the ponytail and braided it reaches down to just below the base of his tail. His hair is very silky and soft as well since he generally tends to put a lot of care into it. Color wise, Jacques’ hair is a very brilliant silver color which shimmers in the right lighting and has a slight iridescence to it. His hair also has very light aquamarine/teal (mako colored if you would) highlights in it though they are hard to truly notice.

Eyes: Jacques has very bright Aquamarine/Teal (Once again a ‘mako’ color if you would) eyes by default with a very bright Teal Limbal ring around them. However, because of events one of Jacques’ eyes has turned into that of a Great Wyrm to tie him into his dragon form. His left eye is his wyrm eye and it appears a lot like the eye of Hraesvelgr or Nidhogg in terms of looks with the colors ranging from Reds/Crimsons, Oranges, Purples and Blacks to tie it into his ties with Bahamut, Nidhogg and Midgardsormr. His right eye is his normal eye which is the Teal coloration mentioned previously.

Height: Jacques is a giant standing at a tall 7 foot 1 inches (The maximum height for Au Ra), the only things that are usually taller than him are Roegadyn’s and even then it’s not by much.

Build: Jacques is a very muscular and toned male Au Ra, he’s got broad shoulders and tends to have a slight ‘taper’ to his waistline, a sorta hour-glass look to it really but nothing to the extreme. His arms and legs are both extremely muscular due to constant battles and fighting on the front lines. Generally speaking he’s basically a very athletic build and his many years that he’s spent fighting show through either his choice in armor (Which is generally form fitting) or in his more 'casual’ attire which he doesn’t often go around in. Basically he’s a big, buff dragon man who can probably break anyone in two if they pissed him off enough.

Distinguishing Marks: The major things to note about Jacques would be that he has far more scales than your typical Au Ra. The entire lower half of his arms from the elbow down are covered in thick scales with plating along the backs of them (from the elbow down to the back of his hand basically) and the same is said for his lower legs which also have dragon like feet instead of normal humanoid feet. Jacques’ facial scales are mostly around his eyes with small ‘stripes’ on his cheeks, his entire back starting from the top of his neck is covered in scales with an alligator/crocodile like appearance to them (chutes if you would) and they wrap slightly around his sides. These scales carry all the way down to his tail which is longer than your typical Au Ra tail and it ends in a large flail/fin. Honestly a good idea of his appearance would be this piece that I recently did of him.

Common Accessories: While Jacques isn’t the sort to actually wear jewelry in recent days he has taken to wearing a singular ring on his left (our right) hand, the reasons behind this aren’t really known at the moment but it ties into his relationship with P'shali Talechaser and Swath Lodestone. Other than the ring on his hand he will sometimes wear 'earrings’ which will hang down from the base of his original horns, these tend to vary and depend on his current mood so to speak.

Additional Features: Basically looking at the image above for an example of what he looks like he has dragon like feet which have ‘toe beans’ (AKA Paw pads) on the bottom, more scales than your typical Au Ra. His tail is longer and has a long line of spines that run down the length of it as well as a fin like flail at the end. Three sets of horns and a large scar over his chest. Not shown is the more recent scarring around his Left Eye (Wyrm eye) due to taking a straight up gun blast to the face.

Personal ––– –

Profession: Sort of a Mercenary for ‘hire’ so to speak but otherwise he really doesn’t have a profession at this point.

Hobbies: Crafting housing items and general carpentry. He loves cooking and more specifically baking and making elaborate dinners. Fishing in his spare time is a big one as well, lastly he loves singing when he is alone.

Languages: Common, Draconic

Residence: Could be considered a Drifter, but has a house in The Mist with his partners Swath and P’shali

Birthplace: Rumored to have been in Ivalice (Potentially Rabanastre) but he doesn’t know for certain

Religion: For the most part Jacques doesn’t really have any sort of Religious beliefs nor does he really care too much about it.

Patron Deity: Azeyma, the Warden

Fears: Failure, Betrayal, Losing himself to madness, losing his mind, falling to insanity, Hurting his Loved ones

Relationships ––– -

Spouse(s): P’shali Talechaser and Swath Lodestone (While not married it’s pretty much a given that they are basically spouses by this point), Polyamorous relationship.

Children: None

Parents: Unknown, his parents were killed when he was young and he doesn’t remember them.

Siblings: None

Other Relatives: None

Pets: Erebos (Black Chocobo, Retired Racing Bo and now Fighter), Midgardsormr (Grumpy Great times a Thousand Grandpa companion)

Traits ––– -

Extroverted / In Between / Introverted

Disorganized / In Between / Organized

Close Minded / In Between / Open Minded

Calm / In Between / Anxious

Disagreeable / In Between / Agreeable

Cautious / In Between / Reckless

Patient / In Between /  Impatient

Outspoken / In Between / Reserved

Leader / In Between / Follower

Empathetic / In Between / Apathetic

Optimistic / In Between / Pessimistic

Traditional / In Between / Modern

Hard-working / In Between / Lazy

Cultured / In Between / Uncultured

Loyal / In Between / Disloyal

Faithful / In Between / Unfaithful

Additional information ––– –

Smoking Habit: Jacques is a very heavy smoker though he tends to try and keep his smoking to more private areas so not to disturb anyone around him. He’ll smoke a lot when he is stressed or simply having a bad day in general. It helps to not only calm him but to take his mind off of everything happening around him. Drugs: Nope, Jacques hates any sort of narcotic due to his past. He has good reason to not trust any such things and will avoid them. If he is pushed to try them he can easily lose his temper and lash out violently. Alcohol: While he doesn’t heavily drink, Jacques has been known to toss down a drink or two when in good company. He tends to however prefer actually drinking things like Teas over any sort of Alcoholic beverage.

RP Hooks ––– –

Honestly, when it comes to Jacques I am open for anything really. I can’t really think of ‘hooks’ per-say so it’s often hard for me to think of situations or settings. I tend to be very open with my Role-play and I do not mind plotting things out, I’m pretty much an anything goes kind of person so long as it’s okay with both parties. Jacques’ RP’s can be either very fun and slice of life to dark and brutal depending on what anyone wants. So really, all anyone needs to do is ask and we can see about setting things up! Basically, I’m all for plotting out things and just going from there! Whatever works for my RP partners and the like, I’m pretty much okay with just about anything and everything lol doesn’t matter if it’s fluff/fun times or dark themed. I’m game!

The major things that I ask is that characters don’t know too much about Jacques (IE: his capability to transform into a dragon, the Wyrm Eye [Though this can come up in RP since he doesn’t cover it anymore] or just things that they shouldn’t know upon a first meeting), rumors and such are fine (Such as people whispering about the massive dragon that attacked Foundation during the events of the Vault or the dragon that killed Nidhogg, etc.) but characters knowing too much are a bit of a turn off. Jacques isn’t the sort to go out and just let all of this information out for the world to hear, he’s very secretive and keeps so much hidden just so that he feels ‘safe’.

On another note, while Jacques is with both P’shali and Swath their relationship is open meaning that he is very much okay with having more ‘mature’ moments with people whom might catch his interest. Any romantic relationships or anything that might come up from such things will be kept separate in their own ‘story’ so that things won’t get too confusing obviously.

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Contact Information  ––– –

For the most part Tumblr DM’s, Asks or Submissions are the best way to get my attention or to spark an RP. Other than that, Tells in game if I am online will also be a means to get into contact with me. If you wish to contact Jacques in game please message me on Tumblr first before doing so. I do not share my Discord with people as it is a safe space for me and I prefer keeping it private to people that I feel are a good fit and good friends.

On that note I tend to be very shy and hesitant with RPing with people I have not RP’d with before. So please bear with me if I seem hesitant to RP with you if I do not know you, ESPECIALLY if it is a more mature RP. I am glad you enjoy my character(s) but I’m still learning how to be more involved in the community and not have major anxiety whenever I speak to new people.

@mooglemeet | @ffxiv-crystal-rp

[angelanimedesaray]

Hi there.

I just wanted to let you know I stumbled upon your fic “Wings in The Dark” about three weeks ago. I’m not a huge fan of AOT, but I’ve always fancied Levi in a sense. I saw a nice fan art of him awhile back and it made me look into seeing if there’s any good fanfics to read.

There was. “Wings in The Dark” was unlike anything I’ve ever read before, especially since I don’t read x readers often. However, the story pulled me in very quickly and sunk its hooks deep.

Your characters are well established and developed, with their strengths and weakness laid out, clear details and engrossing story progression. The story breathed with life.

I was so invested in the fic I finished it within the week. If I wasn’t reading it I was thinking of it. It actually managed to make me tear up in a few places. I was physically upset when I reached the latest chapter and there was nothing else to read of it. While it made me immediately jump on to read more of your works, amazing as Wings in The Dark was, I couldn’t forget about it easily and had to read it a second time around.

Long story short I just want to let you know I’ve become an avid fan of yours, and you are an incredibly talented writer. Keep up the amazing work! I love it so much!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKK Thank you thank you thank you <3 This made me so happy, and definitely got the gears turning to focus on the next chapter I was kind of trudging through. Wings in the Dark is one of my Big Three Levi Fics lol--Wings in the Dark, A Demon's Promise, and Through The Looking Glass (Gotta get back to that one soon, I've technically started the next chapter), So I'm very proud of it, expecially with all the love it's been getting. I went on a full binger for a while writing just Wings in the Dark cause there was so much happening in that fanfiction, and I think it's the only fanfiction I have, Slow Burn wise, where the characters have officially established a relationship. So far. We shall rectify that soon in at least one of the other Big Three. Hehehe But yes, I'm very happy to finally be writing in the medium of an ongoing, healthy relationship, yesssssss. And to be honest, my Reader was originally an OC I created for the AOT RP community, but hardly anyone interacted with her, sooooo....fanfiction! And you guys get Wings in the Dark! Yay! Which is quite the ambitious project, like, wow, just wait till we start hitting the Main Story years, right now that's still a couple years away, but ooooooohhhhhhh boy is it gonna get juicy. It already is, but juicy--ER, lol. Anyway, yes, thank you so so so much, a lot very much, it made me very happy, lots of love <3 <3 <3

[immortalarizona]

update, part the second

fun fact about 5e encounter balancing

did you know that even with nearly half the combat-capable NPCs out of commission (Buppido was unable to speak due to an unfortunate roll on the long-term madness table, Ront died a while ago, Derendil was a walking friendly fire hazard due to an addition from me to his statblock, and Morwenna was incapable of spellcasting due to a crisis of faith we will get into very soon), a non-optimized level 3 party can still take down a cr 6 kuo-toa archpriest in just over one (1) round if the remaining characters are allowed to gang up on her?

at least Blopp survived long enough to get off that earthquake spell I added to her stat block to reflect her increase in power that was described in the book, because I went into this session with the explicit intention of offing Derendil (everyone, including me, was getting bored with him and constantly kept forgetting about him during rp) via Dropping A Fucking Building On Him

and thank all the dice gods, everyone's dex saves cooperated with my Evil Plan

Derendil and Shuushar fail their saves and die instantly. by some miracle, my players all pass their saves. Morwenna also fails, but the fighter was right next to her and had enough hit points to tank the near-max damage I wound up rolling, so I fudged things and allowed the fighter to shield Morwenna with her body and take the damage for her for reasons of Gay.

oh, Blopp also fails her save and gets crushed by the consequences of her actions. this somewhat ruined the dramatic scene I had in mind where she would curse the party with her dying breath and invoke the power of Demogorgon to Fuck Them Up, but what else do you do

so anyways, this leads into the moment I had been planning since the beginning of the campaign--the moment when the fun funky homebrew rolling table of cursed buffs I made to encourage lots of angst and even more trauma bonding kicks in. (I had already run the mechanics by my players weeks beforehand and worked with them to spice things up for their individual characters. let's just say that there were a few that had quite a bit of opt-in body horror attached, and oh boy, did my players opt in >:D)

aND THEN DEMOGORGON EMERGES FROM THE FUCKING DARKLAKE

(my rogue player was just staring at me the entire time I'm reading the boxed text like :| and I found it way funnier than I should have)

and most of the group is at, like, 3 whole hit points, and some of the NPCs actually went down during the fight, and they have to book it to the southern docks where Ploop arranged for the boats he was bribing them with to be

(as an aside: do you want to find out which NPCs your players do and don't like? just knock a couple down to 0 hit points and see which ones they bother to feed a goodberry and which ones they consciously leave behind!)

I had Buppido fall to his knees in reverence to Demogorgon when he emerged, mostly because I got tired of trying to figure out how to operate him when the jig was pretty much up anyways, so I had him fall to Demogorgon's rampage also. it's fiiiine, he's gonna return later as a fucked up hybrid of a deathlock mastermind and a deathlock wight during Gracklstugh anyways :D

so this is the group that survives to flee Sloobludop: all my players (bard, rogue, ranger, fighter, artificer), Jimjar, Morwenna, the twins, Sarith, and Stool. not gonna lie, I was pleasantly surprised that anyone bothered to save Sarith after Derendil downed him during his rampage

they escape, but the scars remain

as do the curses

we're back in oosrp now and thus far, in order, we've had:

the artificer transform into a fucked up tiefling-adjacent dude with goat legs, a goat head, and a damaged moral compass (the rest of the party has yet to discover this last effect, hehehe)

the ranger--who, mind you, whose favored enemy is fiends due to Backstory Trauma and has a thing in his head that hates demons--transform into a demon with fangs, extra eyes, talons, a scaled tail, horns, three pairs of wings, and also two mouths on his pectorals that scream for the Thing In His Head that he cauterized shut with a fucking torch

the rogue, who is a tiefling who has SO many issues revolving around her demonic heritage, ALSO undergo a demonic transformation involving sprouting another pair of horns, another tail, wings, an inability to eat anything except raw meat, and also some terrifying new instincts involving her brand-new claws that have already led to her losing control and slashing Jimjar, an incident which led to her having to be coaxed back onto the boat

also the fighter (a warforged whose whole schtick is that she's slowly repairing herself until she achieves her full capabilities again) acquired the curse that caused her to zap anyone she came into contact with

for the NPCs, we have: Morwenna with the fiery version of the fighter's curse, Topsy with a curse where her voice echoes with the screams of the damned and does psychic damage to anyone who hears it, Turvy with a less extreme version of the demon transformation curse because I feel guilty inflicting that much body horror on a child, Sarith with a curse that is going to make him question what the fuck he even is now and whether he deserves to still be alive, Stool with the curse where Demogorgon claims your soul after you die so you can't be resurrected because nothing else felt quite right, and Jimjar with the curse that has probably the least effect possible on him (devil's sight in exchange for sunlight hypersensitivity) because it would be suspicious if he wasn't affected at all

it hasn't kicked in just yet (the player and I are saving it for next session proper), but the bard is gonna undergo a similar demonic transformation where he literally becomes cold-blooded and also a psychic vampire of sorts, because foreshadowing make our brains go hehe

speaking of foreshadowing, let's talk Jimjar

so when the rogue sprouted wings and literally took off in a panic, Jimjar called out some quick instructions on how to fly so she didn't, y'know, fall into the fucking Darklake. and now she, the bard, and the ranger are about to ask him how the Fuck he knows this much about flying. (it is because Jimjar is secretly the shapeshifting moon deity of my setting, but he's gonna bullshit something about "uhh.... yeaah....... so one time I pissed off a witch and spent like a year as a bird..........." in the hopes of throwing them off his trail. I am having the time of my life, for the record)

Jimjar is also secretly omniscient, because he's a fucking god, so of course he knows that the bard is not who he claims to be. and recently, unbeknownst to any of my other players, Jimjar and the bard had a short conversation where Jimjar basically let the bard know that a) I know that you're not what you pretend to be, and b) if you hurt anyone here (the bard had literally just taught the twins a bit of sign language so they could comfortably communicate with the rest of the group now that Topsy's voice was out of commission), I will make you regret it (he was cleaning under his nails with his knife the entire time). the bard now secretly has it out for Jimjar, and part of his goal during the above "hey buddy, how do you know how to fly, exactly?" conversation is to turn the rest of the group against Jimjar so that he can take the fall for the Traitor and Traitor-adjacent cards that came up during the tarokka reading in session four.

and of course, I can't tell my bard that the reason Jimjar knows is that he's secretly omniscient, so I send the player one misleading question:

"so doppelgangers live in the Underdark. do you think [your bard] would know that they are capable of reading minds?"

step four: profit

another Road Trip to Hell update, because it's been a hot minute and oh boy, shit has gone DOWN

let's see. where Were we the last time I gave an update

ah yes. it was literally last week

see I lose track of time because so much goes down in the out-of-session rp channels I set up on the campaign discord

speaking of the oosrp, we handled most of Sloobludop via that anyways

I was a bit silly last Thursday and stayed up until 4:00 in the morning doing oosrp (I didn't have classes on Friday due to holiday reasons). everyone else stayed up except the artificer. it was funnier than it should have been when he messaged the chat the following morning like "GUYS WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED."

so basically

party arrives in Sloobludop. the fighter immediately wants to go tidepool-ing. most of the party joins her.

the rogue, after having a conversation with Jimjar where he basically tries to earn her trust back due to. y'know. Shenanigans, and is as obvious about his status as a deity as he can be without outright saying it. (he hands the rogue HIS OWN HOLY SYMBOL. this moment was hilarious for me as a dm), then realizes that "oh shit, we left Sarith and Stool unattended. Where Are They" and goes to find them

they are by the docks. Stool is playing in the water, and Sarith is chatting with them without rapport spores, because May I Remind Y'all that my Sarith is now a zombie plant man. this leads into me coming with an in-universe explanation for this on the fly, which leads into the concept of the "manymind" (except it was a lot more zalgo-ed when I sent it out in the Sarith reply, because I figured it's one of those concepts that doesn't translate quite right into words), which led to the rogue making contact via Stool with some part of the mind of Araumycos, and now like half the party is convinced that Stool is secretly gonna be the bbeg. all because of some silly lil zalgo text I added on impulse.

the ranger wound up going Dad Mode on Topsy and Turvy when Topsy's kleptomania almost got her in serious trouble in the Sloobludop market. it was very sweet.

but when the ranger returned to the tide pool with the twins in tow, that's when the party realizes that "oh shit, we left, like, everyone unattended, didn't we."

thus begins The Hunt For The Missing NPCs

and thus begins My Evil Shenaniganry

see. the party knew that Blopp's cult to Demogorgon was collecting humanoid sacrifices. so it's not like this came out of nowhere

the party also knew that Shuushar's idealism overrides his self-preservation instincts, Derendil fully believed he could fly at the moment and was bound to get himself into trouble if left unattended, and that Morwenna was very emotionally fucked up following her involvement with the death and resurrection of Sarith and was wandering off somewhere to go get hammered and have an emotional breakdown at the moment

in short

they knew that none of these NPCs were in a state, mental or otherwise, to defend themselves effectively should someone attempt to kidnap them

that someone being none other than members of the cult of the Deep Father

the ranger and the fighter look for Morwenna, because out of those three, she's the only one they really care about, hence why I put her in this situation. they do not find her. I have the ranger roll a survival check to see if he can track Morwenna's scent trail (this was how he found the twins earlier, for the record). he rolls, like, a 21. internally, I rejoice

because where does the trail lead, but right to the area with the altars

I rule that the trail vanishes there, buried by the stench of muck and blood

the ranger talks to one of the kuo-toa whips there (I don't remember his name and I can't be bothered to check lmao) and receives a reply which heavily implies that Morwenna is going to be sacrificed to the Deep Father very soon

cue the panic from my players

and the explicit threats of violence from their characters

(for context. the fighter and the ranger are both in love with Morwenna. the rogue is to but that is not relevant to this particular predicament at the moment)

so the fighter rolls strength (intimidation) to hit the ground and try to crack it. she rolls, like, a fucking 23

I rule that the resulting noise is enough to get the attention of the bard and the rogue, who were off fetching Sarith and Stool (the fungus bros were staring at the fungi on the walls and being generally unsettling). they run over

it is 10:00 PM. I do not wish to run a combat encounter over discord chat, and neither do my players. unfortunately, the most in-character course of action for most of them right now is Violence. the bard is our last hope, both in- and out-of-character.

the bard takes the whip guy behind the altar to have a little chat. he returns not long afterwards, having acquired information about the ritual taking place at midnight and also freaked the whip guy the fuck out. (no one else knows it but me and his player, because we conducted that part over dms, but the bard got to use one of his College of Whispers features for the first time. it was delightful for me as a dm)

violence has not been averted, but it has been delayed. the party heads back to camp to regroup. emotional breakdowns are had, including that banger of a conversation where my last Campaign Art came from. (for context, the ranger gave the twins hand crossbows for purposes of self-defense, and the rogue accused him of trying to turn them into child soldiers.) it is almost midnight. my players and I are all riding an immense adrenaline high

the rogue and the fighter head away from camp and end up resolving most of the Morwenna-centric tension between them. (Morwenna's romantic situation is a Whole Fucking Mess that we will unpack later, don't worry!!)

the ranger reveals to the bard that he died while hunting a demon alongside Drizzt Do'Urden and had to claw himself free from his own grave after something living in his head brought him back

also the bard and the ranger begin flirting almost immediately afterwards (the ranger took his shirt off to show the bard his scars)

this is the moment that Sarith decides it would be a great idea to shoot his shot. it was not, in fact, a good moment

the ranger has his second emotional breakdown of the hour, because he is still plagued by guilt for his participation in the death and resurrection of Sarith. the twins and Sarith give the ranger hugs

and then Sarith asks if he can kiss the ranger. the ranger says no. Sarith goes to mope in a corner and pretend everything is fine while the ranger teaches the twins about the importance of consent while cuddling under the blanket the artificer knitted him

the rogue and the fighter go to Plooploopeen's house to bully him for information so they can rescue Morwenna. I get to deliver exposition, a kickass monologue of emotional foreshadowing, as well as two potions of healing and a potion of water breathing to the party

the party's long rest finishes. it's like 10:00 PM in-game, about two hours until the ritual begins. Jimjar has snuck off to do fuck knows what (only later does the party discover that he used his innate disguise self capabilities to infiltrate the cult's stronghold in Blopp's hovel and grab Morwenna's hammer and shield). I ask the party if they have any final preparations they want to make.

and then the actual session begins.

yes

all this happened between sessions

tbh I'm glad it did. a) it means less time with the stupid voice-destroying kuo-toa voice I attempted the session before, and b) it meant that we could kick off the session with the Good Stuff

aka VIOLENCE

(to be continued in a reblog because tumblr hates me)

[crowsent]

tales from the smp: the village that went mad ft. salt losing his goddamn mind

“im jack. and. im a farm person, and i like p o t a t o e s”

starting the stream well i see. ponk coming in with generic potato boy and i love him for it

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QUACKITY

QUACKITY

“my name is helga, wife of badboyhalo” QUACKITY

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karl: “bad, explain your character other than person that beats up their wife”

bad, immediately: “well, i do declare that my name is jimmy and im the mayor of this town”

and then bbh just fucking starts spinning around when hes asked what the name of this town is, theres a pause, and then he fucking hits us with “not a very good town, town” like BAD

this is why i love this man

this is why i fux with this man

he is unparalleled

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but as much as i love bbh and would literally murder god for him, he still canNOT match the quiet theatricality of mr corpsehusband saying “im gonna turn around and itll all make sense” and then he has a fucking CAT TAIL

corpse “choke me like you hate me” husband is a fucking CATBOY ladies and gentlemen

hes a fucking catboy which further proves something which we already knew was true all along: furries exist in minecraft and are, in fact, accepted in society and treated no less differently than humans

this is why fundy and antfrost can just walk around without anyone telling them shit

this is why wilbur can fuck a salmon

corpse “catboi” husband paved the fucking road and drove down in a custom vintage jaguar so every other furry on the smp could fucking drive behind him in a second hand porsche

i salute you mr corpsehusband

truly amazing

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miles memeington, connoisseur of steak and bob, “bob the builder” need no explanation

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CORNELIUS COMING IN WITH THE BRIGHTASS NEON GREEN BODYSUIT EVERYBODY

GIVE IT UP FOR CORNELIUS

BEST RPER ON THE ENTIRE SMP

CORNELIUS GREENBODYSUIT EVERYONE

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tubbo with the very cute ‘i am robin, i am an orphan child” being IMMEDIATELY ruined by karl sayin

“dont let technoblade hear about that”

i love this already

i love this already

feed me technoblade lore. the man never fucking uploads so i have to get content adjacent to him

i wanna hear about technoblade the orphan killer. i want that backstory lore

and also i wanna protect robin the orphan boy because hello???????????

that skin???????

let me adopt you mr orphan boy

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i love quackity just very casually going “my husband and i had intercourse” at the fucking TOWN MEETING BY THE WELL

truly

quackity’s comedy is unmatched

“hes into lots of weird stuff. he taught me this one thing called dunderhead”

and IMMEDIATELY someone (cant tell who, i have auditory processin issues) fucking goes “i DO NOT know this woman” and tbh if i were in that fucking town hall listening to my fucking weirdass neighbour casually lay out all her family secrets, id fucking say that shit too. id fucking disown this bitch as my neighbour. id fucking pretend she doesnt exist

like

imagine your fucking next door neighbour siddling up to you in the fucking w*lmart while youre just minding your own goddamn business trying to buy a fucking banana and your next door neighbour helga is dressed in a fucking bikini going “my husband fucked me so hard i couldnt walk” and even though you are clearly not interested and trying desperately to get away from her and her wackass gossip, helga goes ahead and fucking LISTS OUT HER HUSBANDS KINKS IN THE FUCKING FRUIT AISLE AT FULL VOLUME

id die

id just fucking die

id uninstall life right then and there

id pack my fucking bags and take a fucking extended vacation to guatemala and never return. id fucking change my goddamn name just to ensure that people never associate me with this woman.

thats what quackity is doing and i am very thankful this man exists and has given us the treasure that is helga

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cOuLd iT Be iN ThE nAMe oF SaTaN???????? 🤔

karl

bruh

bustin out the fucking OLD conspiracies huh

“or could it be in the name of content on karls stream”

and hes just casually breaking the 4th wall too huh

kinda stealing techno “ill read donations in the middle of rp bc i need a distraction” blade’s go-to method there huh

its fucking funny tho. hes narrating this all serious-like but then he just goes “content on my stream uwu” and unrepentantly shatters that suspension of disbelief (in a good way)

but it wouldnt even matter bc apparently, satan and karls content have no difference

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does protection exist in the smp? im worried for helgas health

the woman visited 3 different fucking houses in one night

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i love how the rp just stops dead in its tracks around the campfire

no one was using any of the names

corpse was out here calling everyone by their actual names and not the names of their characters

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this might just be bc im a pathological liar whos seen and heard shit but

i love him but

i mean

bbh cant lie

the man cannot lie

his voice is off, pitch wrong, tone sus

he is deffo a murderer

being accused of something hes not would make a person defensive/angry and bbh is not either

the man is LYING

and his argument/defense was LITERALLY tubbos

man cant lie

send this murderer to hell

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tubbo can lie, but imo hes not. his voice is the voice of a person whos telling the truth

man is legit the doctor

a doctor who chose to fucking lay on the LORE

father killed in the red-eyed village wars????? mother taken from a young age?

motherfucker brought the LORE

motherfucker brought the SOB STORY

motherfucker legit said “here is my canonical in-character reason for being a doctor fuck you”

and honestly

what is bads defense?

karl asked if the town should kill an orphan over a mayor and there is legit no right answer to that

there is no good rebuttal

so bad straight went “you make a great point. just execute me”

amazing

10/10

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idk who said it but “orphans just suck up resources” whoever you are i love you

i was eating my chips in peace but then i almost choked

thank

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I FUCKING KNEW TUBBO WASNT THE MURDERER

his voice did not match

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my bets on fucking ponk

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its fucking DREAM

DREAM MURDERER

my respect for this man

motherfucker

shouldve known

he was kinda quiet at first but then he suddenly started talking a lot

son of a BITCH

gg dream

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round 1 wasnt very rp heavy but

i can excuse that

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who in the FUCK is making choking donald duck noises

who

bbh got a new skin cool

WHO IS MAKING THE CHOKING DONALD DUCK NOISES

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corpse, about dreams death: “they killed him in front of me”

the town: “who was it corpse?”

ladies and gentlemen corpse, without a moments hesitation: “im also blind”

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so the murderer is deffo not corpse. deffo not tubbo. probably not lazarbeam probably not bbh

that leaves quackity, george, and ponk

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MY PARTNER WAS KILLED

MY PARTNER WAS KILLED

i knew corpse was a catboi but i didnt know that mr dream “i went on a date and almost married a fox” wastaken partnered with a fucking catboy

what is this

dnf is out, dream corpse is in /j

bruh

MY PARTNER WAS KILLED

bro

the tragedy

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CALM DOWN WENCH THE BOY DID NOTHIGN

CORPSE

CORPSE

STOP

CORPSE

standing up for tubbo like that

corpse

please

my heart cannot handle this

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okay so its deffo not corpse and tubbo. most likely not quackity after that fucking disaster at the campfire. probably not lazarbeam or bbh. still think its george and ponk

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CORPSE

he got executed trying to console tubbo who legit WENT IN THE PRISON TRYING TO LOOK FOR HIM

BRUH

WHAT THE FUCK

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TUBBO

no

TUBBO

technically its robin but

TUBBO

he lost his father so quick what the FUCK

i will murder god for robin

the little shaking head he does after corpse got killed. going completely silent as he lost the one family he had left.

bruh

robin bby no

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I KNEW HE WASNT THE MURDERER

tubbo

im sorry

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I KNEW IT WAS PONK

was wrong about lazarbeam/george tho

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bruh

what the fuck

tubbo/robin honey i am so so sorry

catboi corpse i am so so sorry

[sapphire-innit]

Would it be helpful for y'all if I mentioned the VOD I'm at when I do these? Imma start trying to label it when I'm at an actual VOD in anycase lol.

VOD: Tommy Is Holding It Together in Exile with Dream

(rp) "I'm going to be at the party! Don't worry I'm going to be at the party!" ...he said it so many times. I know he doesn't show up, so why...? It doesn't seem like the thing he would just Forget, he has memory problems but the party doesn't have to do with Alivebur or anything sad even

also does anyone else get the feeling Dream listed off "all of Tommy's friends" thinking about the fact that he was definitely going to prevent them from coming somehow

that long tables gonna SUCK when it's just two people huh, this is gonna be the Worst Beach Episode

lol Ghostbur Lying about HTS2 and being hit with the line "Ghostbur would never lie" and the strangled "YOU SHOULD WRITE HOW TO SEX 3" LMAO

LOL I love them bullying Cashapp for money lmaooo

cc!Wilbur pointing out the time dilation (aka Tommy's been visited every day) and cc!Tommy actually asked to change the subject;

There are two wolfs inside you: One loves that every moment is full of small roleplay moments and in character bits. The other really wants to hear cc!Tommy's thoughts on his character adfsdfds

"I Liked it more when it was just me and you Dream" F

.........he really did just give him armor out of no where. I hate how grateful he is, considering Dream's the one who took his armor in the first place >:| and Tommy really does seem genuinely grateful, thanks I hate it

"I WANT THAT GREEN BOY OUT OF THIS HOUSE!" lmaooooo phil if only

"I'll help make sure Wilbur gets the invites out" .....

I've heard this is where Wilbur gets chased by Dream, did that happen on screen? I'm not sure if my playlist has it, but if it was caught on camera I'd really like to see it

[myimaginarywonderland]

Okay, so this post will talk about Lance but I will also give my opinion on the Lando situation since I think it is important.

First off, I think it says a lot about Lando that he made an apology. Now, be it because of the backlash he faced, because he actually saw the harm he was causing or because he genuinely regrets it, that is something I don't know. What I do know is that by apologising for it, he acknowledges that his behaviour was wrong and that is really important because it shows that he reflected on himself.

While I do still feel irked by something about the message, be it that he isn't naming Lance or Lewis who he both targeted with his actions in different ways and apologise to them directly which he might have done in person, so I am not able to judge it or be it the weird sorry at the end, I can put aside my feelings and say that this was the right thing to do and is also setting an example for his fans who were one of my main issues with all of this. They then know that saying that was not right and might learn from it themselves.

But this post isn't about Lando. This post is about Lance.

As most of you might have heard, Lance was really affected by what happened on track. He can clearly see that he is anxious and uncomfortable in his post race interview and what happened afterwards tells the story (I don't really want to talk about it because this is something private that he did not share and it is like with the story on Twitter something that was shared by other people who he didn't give the right to share it too so I don't want to spread it any further.)

This is who Lance is.

Someone who is sensitive and takes a lot of things personally.

You want to know why? Because he has, as a person, always been blamed for his dad's wealth. As if he choose to grow up with a billionaire dad. As if he is somehow responsible for it.

And he has always been painted out as someone undeserving, someone that doesn't have talent and totally owns his position to the money of his dad.

Now, let me just give you some data because I want to totally discredit this made up stuff with no roots.

In 2015, he won the Toyota Racing Series. He won by a bit over 100 points. The second finisher was his teammate. You might now some of the other drivers who competed in this series for example one Callum Iliot or Artjom Markelow.

Or in 2016,his first season in Formula 3, he finished fifth. The winner of that year was Felix Rosenquvist (a great driver) who was also Lance teammate and had only one DNF in comparison to Lance 5 and a DSQ. Now, there are two other drivers, one that was the runner up in Antonio Giovinazzi and a fourth who was Charles Leclerc. Pretty competitive field if you ask me and to finish 5th as a rookie,is impressive.

Now, fast forward a year to when he won the F3 championship. He won over his teammate by a margin of over 150 points which is so impressive, even with the two more DNFs his teammate, Maximilian Günther (another great driver) had that is quiet a lot.

Now, if you really want to use the argument that he skipped F2 against him, there is another driver you should be discrediting just as much. You guessed it, M*x V*rstappen. He also went straight into F1 which was a definite mistake but nobody ever likes to say that. I would also like you to remember that Lance did not drive for F1 as a regular driver immediately after he won the championship, no in 2016 he was a test driver, so he could slowly get used to F1. (This is not official but I would guess it's the thought process behind him being a test driver.)

Now, in 2017, his first F1 season, he was teammates of Felipe Massa. Might have heard of him, lost his championship to Lewis by one point, was teammate of Micheal Schumacher and a generally way more experienced driver. Yeah, you wanna know what the difference between him and Lance was in Lance first season? 3 points. And Lance had 2 more DNFs. You know what else he got in his first season? His first podium. In his first season, he became one of the youngest people to ever achieve a podium. With just 7 rounds into his first F1 season, in an okay midfield car with a way more experienced and older driver he was up against, he achieved a podium. And during the entire course of the season, that would remain the only podium for the Williams team that year.

Now, onto 2018. Williams was not as bad as in 2019 but they were still nowhere in terms of pace and he still didn't finish last in the championship (but I don't think we can count this season.)

In 2019, Checo became his teammate. And Checo in my opinion is one of the best midfield drivers, so there was already a lot he had to go up against and he was still so young and had less experience. There is a 30 point difference between them. Make of that what you want but for me, sure it was not Lance greatest season but now you have to think if Racing Point where really that good go be the fifth best car or if maybe, Checo just got more out of the car with his experience and talent. And than, you have to consider that he was still young and only had one season where he was truly competitive (that 2018 Williams was not something you could truly challenge anyone with.) And to then be up to one of the best midfield drivers who is widely appreciated and adored by the paddock, is a lot. Maybe for some of you it was too big of a gap which is alright.

However, don't dismiss his talent. He has had a good junior career and was up to some of the drivers you love and call talented, he even beat some of your faves. Maybe you don't see him as the next great driver but he is not a bad one and truly deserves a seat if you consider his achievements. Maybe he could have proven himself more if he had a season in F2 which is fair but that doesn't take away from anything he has achieved.

And even if you don't see him as talented, that gives you no right to bully him online. He can't change who his dad is.

Now,onto the money. I see a lot of people saying that he is only in F1 because of the money (which I hope you have by now realized is not the case.) But really, let's talk about the money.

Money is something that sadly plays a big role in F1. F1 is above all still a business. And businesses want money. So, why not take someone who has money and talent like Lance? Where are you all saying Michael only got his seat because of money (he is a pay-driver after all or at least he was one when he came to F1.) And now let's talk about his move to Racing Point. Can you truly blame Lawrence for wanting to make his sons dream come true? Wouldn't any father if they had the resources do this? Wouldn't any father want to fufill his son's dream, even if it might be seen as unethical by some or criticized? Would you really care if you saw how happy your kid was? Would you really care if you saw the glow you kid had? I don't think so.

I already said it but he was at Williams before he was at RP. His dad doesn't own that team or have any chairs in it.

Let's forget his profession for a second. Let's say you don't find him talented as a driver or just don't like him, fine. You are entitled to your opinion and sometimes we just don't like people, it happens.

What else would you have against him?

He doesn't post on social media often because people already bully him enough for his family. There is basically nothing you can dislike about him there.

And as a person? He is quiet and basically does nothing to anger people. He is literally just a normal dude. He goes on trips with his friends, he does sports to stay in shape and watches sports. He is not even posting personal stuff because he doesn't want to give people more room to bully him.

If you saw him on the street, would you think he is from a rich family? He does not look like it at all, he looks like that guy from your local sport who is literally just a college student trying to get through life.

And not only was he discredited for all his accomplishments because of something he had no control over but he also saw another driver proudly display a symbol that has been used by people who killed people who belonged to his religion. He saw a driver weat that symbol in cooperation with a company whose boos seems to be a Neo Nazi.

Lance has had to go through to so much shit just because his dad was rich (which Nicky's and Lando's also are, yes I know it's less but it's still more than any of us will probably ever have.)

This boy does nothing wrong.

Did he make a mistake with the maneuvers on Lando? Yes. But he is still so young and also new to F1, he can still learn and is growing as a person and driver. He is expected to perform more just so he proves his worth which he already has because people discredit him for having a rich dad.

Have you seen what he has done this season? He would be in the top 5 had it not been for the last races where none of the DNFs where his fault. Neither was getting Covid or being ill but people literally made fun of him for being in pain, saying stuff like "Did Daddies boy have a little stomach ache?" Yeah, because F1 drivers aren't trainex to perform no matter what, aren't putting their health last when it comes to these things and might have to be really bad if they can't drive and are not even going out of their room.

He has improved so much, he is not blaming other drivers even if they clearly hit him (see Charles) and he stays calm. Because he can't afford to be to emotional since some people would hate him for rightfully calling out others mistakes and just maybe saying that their faves are not flawless and make mistakes (like Charles.)

He has to act a certain way or be a certain way because what would happen if he just showed more of his personality? You call him dull, boring but you don't even try to get to know him. You don't even look up videos where he is more open and comfortable.

He is awkward infront of the press because he has to fear to be discredited or to be questioned about his worth every second.

And all of this pressure, this mask and this pretend eventhough he is just as human as the rest of us. And you see how hard it is, how much he questions himself, how his self-doubt increases and ultimately what happened has happened.

Because while it is just an easy insult for you that you can post anonymously online, it is one of thousands for him.

And you know, he didn't grew up in Europe. Sure he competed with some of the European drivers later one but he didn't have any of them when he started racing and he might already have been an outcast because people would already have seen him as different since his family didn't need to make sacrifices to get him to wear he is now. At least not financially ones. And then, when he came to Europe there were these already formed friend groups and it wasn't easy to get into them. The only friend he had was Esteban and I am so glad. This seems like such an unlikely friendship because they are from totally different backgrounds but that might have been what connected them in the first place. So, with basically only Esteban who liked him from the competitive times, it must have been pretty bad (not to say that the others hated him but I don't think they really cared for him.) I am so glad to see that he now also has Checo and that they get along and I hope that stays this way eventhough all of what has happened (which is also not his fault and I am sure that if he had any say in it, it would have been done differently.) Maybe we can even see their friendship when Checo stays on the grid. And with the potential of Seb next year, that might be the only other friendship or friendly connection he might form.

He is so strong for having to endure the dislike of so many people and he is still so kind and so sweet.

This has been a long post but one that I have wanted to make for a long time. If you got this far, I applaude you.

[violet-t-9]

Check in on my (not very realistic) wish list for episode 137

1. Sheepleb interactions, I don’t care with whom - I need sheepleb my beloved to interact with people for reasons. I know the sheep-shifting may only last for 1 minutes but that’s 10 rounds, surely enough to get some sweet RP in.

YES Cad grab the sheep yes YASHA SCRATCH THAT BELLY sheepleb interactions my beloved. Jester yes make sheepleb move his cute little ears I love y’all. YES SHEEPLEB chew on Yasha’s coat. I never knew I would love a sheep but I do now apparently. Yasha continuing to pet sheepleb and continuing to hold Caleb after he shifts back I love her so much-

2. Caleb or Beau accidentally and telepathically speak to people by thinking too loudly. I can’t wait for their reactions, it will be hilarious.

Well, Caleb did so but more deliberately, and it was more enlightening than hilarious lol.

3. Beau and Caleb discover the third function of their eyes (if dark vision is included in true sight, then they are missing one feature).

Nope, the eyes were used against them again to expose their locations, but haven’t ever been used for mind control yet, so I’m okay with that.

4. Beau and Caleb do not gain any new eyes (pretty please, come on).

I mean they have bigger problems but yeah I got what I wanted!

5. Wait no it’s the astral sea there is no wild magic effect anymore :( but can they at least encounter some unique astral sea creatures, features or something as fun as Aeorian wild magic.

Well... That was a lot of astral sea creatures. More precisely creepy meaty enemies. I think it was fun! In a horrifying way, but fun.

6. Someone mentions Yussa and discuss the probability of saving him (honestly though I don’t know how that’s going to work).

Jester mentioned Yussa pretty soon but I think they are a bit... preoccupied to save anyone at the moment, oops.

7. Getting closer to the city and discovering more of its nature/power/how to stop it.

Wow that city description is cool oh boy I got chills from the empty city suddenly bustling with people. Also that Caleb telepathy experiment is so creepy and terrifying. Is the city alive?! With flesh and teeth?! EuughhHHh. Timorei the terrified rebel/Fear they first met (who seemed to be on Lucien’s side), with Elatis and Luctus opposing him? The Aether crux??! Ira/Wrath who acted in a sort of beast-like way and seemed antagonistic towards Mirumus and Gaudius?? It’s good to know the Somnovem are in fact far from one mind - their opinions seem pretty divided. Aether crux might be the way to go, couldn’t they just destroy all the Somnovem, since they want M9 to kill some of them anyways? Does the entire city function like a living body?

8. Beau and Yasha continue to flirt even in the astral sea and travel side-by-side or physically interact.

Twin initiative 21 yeah let’s go- wait when I said physical interaction I didn’t mean it like that come on!! Stop hitting each other. Also Yasha’s small “I love you but” aww. It was still a little bit flirty somehow lol loved it. ALSO the air kiss was so cute I can’t with these two and their awesome PDA. They also searched the building together!

9. Jester really doting on Artagan/Sprinkle like she never did before.

I mean, she paid him way more attention that’s for sure :D

10. Jester and Fjord have a longer one-on-one conversation or fight like a badass battle couple that they are.

Hey they were both great in combat and explored together! 

11. Obligatory wish for Essek’s fancy dunamancy or magical items (Bonus: we get to see one of those high-damage AOE offensive spells that he couldn’t cast).

AYY LIGHTNING BOLT HYPE! It was sort of an AOE too! Loved his flair as always. It’s not dunamancy technically but I’m counting it because cool purple-black spell.

12. Obligatory wish for Caleb’s polymorph spell (sheepleb was perfect, GIVE ME MORE).

Nope, but the sheepleb we got was awesome. 

13. Tiny Veth interactions with party members (Bonus: with Fjord, or sheepleb).

Nope, the effect probably didn’t last long? Or they just forgot about tiny Veth lol.

14. The party members try to reach Molly through Lucien and Lucien reacting more to things that they say.

They didn’t catch up to Lucien at all, but I have a feeling that they will next episode.

15. They catch up to Lucien and Cree somehow and manage to stop them from returning the city to the world (or at least start the combat).

Combat was started at the end of the episode with Cree! They did catch up to Cree! This is going in the right direction at least.

16. Successful divine intervention from Cad or Jester.

At least Cad and Jester both tried! They weren’t successful, but still.

17. Yasha decides to brute force through a problem and succeeds like the true Barbarian that she is.

I mean, all the combat is brute-force and Yasha did eliminate one of the flesh horror monsters with her cool holy avenger swing!

18. Someone pushes the big red button and derails them.

Nope! They’ve been focused and on task and that’s good! 

19. The wizards and their complicated whatever it is being addressed or developed more.

Not Caleb smirking at Essek using fire bolt then proceeding to use one himself and get a natural 20 I- that was so cool?? What?? Have I mentioned that I love those wizards because I love them. They also float the fastest of course.

20. Heroes’ feast/short rest or a long rest that they well deserve (Bonus: they have great rolls on the HP).

Nope, but I mean they probably need one soon.

21. Obligatory wish for Essek’s room in the tower.

Yeah nah this one is just a permanent feature on the wish list don’t mind it.

22. Oblitagory wish for Cad being a MVP in and out of combat.

Cad turned Caleb back (baaaaaaye sheepleb I love you), healed the group and discovered a lot about how the city worked, including using decompose. 

23. Veth being thirsty for Davexian still, or for whatever other Astral sea creature they are going to meet.

“Want to do some apple picking?” LMAO I’m not gonna count that of course but it was funny.

24. Obligatory wish for everyone to remain relatively happy and alive by the end of the episode except Lucien and Cree (they can perish, but now I kinda want Lucien to not die since he had some strange reactions), and the episode ends on a terrifying cliffhanger as always.

Score: 12/24

Welp, that took a turn. I did not expect so much Eldritch horror and expected way more humour (which in hindsight was unwise considering how the story is going lol), but honestly I’m not complaining one bit. Matt’s voice acting and everybody’s performance are top notch and the world-building is just *chef’s kiss*, terrifying or not. 

Bonus:

The subtitles said “bleating” when everybody yelled before the opening theme I’m dead lmao also “some a bit sheepish”, courtesy pun of the DM.

“I mean... *bleats*” hahahah I love sheepleb so much

Poor Essek had to start the combat on low HP, sadness. To be fair, our wonderful DM was busy playing many characters and giving beautiful expositions and the players were busy being captivated by all that! 

“When in Aeor” Fjord lmao making his face into a big red eyeball, as one does.

Torrent of Teeth ughhhhhAHH what an attack name

Caleb casting Widogast’s Web of Fire was the hottest thing I’ve seen, no pun intended - it was hotttt.