#So close to having a breakdown all of the time

[fear-is-truth]

Bestie hehe whose pullout game is worst and whose is best out of the characters Evan plays???

𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑬𝑽𝑨𝑵𝑺 — 𝑷𝑼𝑳𝑳-𝑶𝑼𝑻 𝑮𝑨𝑴𝑬

ft. tate langdon ‧ kit walker ‧ kyle spencer ‧ jimmy darling ‧ james patrick march ‧ kai anderson ‧ peter maximoff ‧ colin zabel — nsfw ; MDNI 18+

a/n: hey bestie i love your mind

⟢ 𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐃𝐎𝐍. (3/10)

his intentions are good. his execution? terrible. pull-out game is WEAK purely due to incompetence.

“fuck—wait, wait, oh shit, i was supposed to—”

feels guilty as hell afterward. “you don���t think i did it on purpose, right? you believe me, don’t you?”

⟢ 𝐊𝐈𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐋𝐊𝐄𝐑. (2/10)

kit TRIES to be responsible. really, he does. but he’s also a man who fucks deep and loves even deeper.

a very passionate lover and in the heat of the moment, he forgets everything else.

honestly, he doesn’t even try that hard.

if you reminded him, he’d listen. but if you didn’t? yeah, he’s finishing inside.

if you got pregnant, he’d step up immediately. his pullout game is terrible but he’s a great dad.

⟢ pre death .ᐟ 𝐊𝐘𝐋𝐄 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐑. (10/10)

doesn’t take risks; he’s got a good head on his shoulders.

his timing and self control are actually great. the pull-out game is strong with this one.

even before he met you, kyle doesn’t sleep around like most of his frat brothers, even though he totally could.

⟢ 𝐉𝐈𝐌𝐌𝐘 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆. (6/10)

jimmy knows he can’t afford to be reckless. he’s working in a freak show—not exactly the best place to raise a kid.

he also worries about passing on his ectrodactyly. even though you tell him constantly that it doesn’t matter.

most of the time, he cums on your tits or ass.

but when he’s drunk, he’s super impulsive, emotional. all self control flies out the window.

if you got knocked up, he’d have a mini breakdown and go on a two day bender but would also step up.

he will also propose immediately (after he gets his shit together)

⟢ 𝐉𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐒 𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐊 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐇. (10/10)

he is nothing if not disciplined.

if james ever decided to give you an heir, that decision was made long before the act.

lowkey has reservations because of bartholomew.

⟢ cult leader .ᐟ 𝐊𝐀𝐈 𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍. (0/10)

kai never pulls out. he never intended to in the first place.

at first, he’ll act like it was an accident—just for plausible deniability. he’ll moan about how tight you are, how good you feel, and then when it happens:

“fuck—couldn’t help it. you feel too good, baby.” he’s fake guilty, kissing your shoulder, murmuring “next time i’ll pull out, promise.”

next time never came. (but he did. inside you) at some point, he just stopped pretending.

“this is how it’s supposed to be. why would i waste it anywhere but inside you?”

if you tell him you’re not ready for kids, he’ll say “women are biologically wired to want children. you’re just brainwashed by feminism.” (i hate this guy)

0/10 cos he’s actively TRYING to fail.

if you got pregnant? he’d be ecstatic.

⟢ 𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐀𝐗𝐈𝐌𝐎𝐅𝐅. (5/10)

thinks he has great control, but he really, really doesn’t.

he’ll pull out last second. but he cuts it close EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

sometimes he miscalculates timing.

“uh. okay, okay—don’t freak out, but I MAY have just—wait, are you on the pill?”

⟢ 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐍 𝐙𝐀𝐁𝐄𝐋. (9/10)

very responsible. colin respects boundaries and never pressures you into risky sex. always wears condoms unless you explicitly ask not to.

“you sure? ‘cause, uh, i got condoms—like, a lot. not a weird amount, just… y’know, normal.”

lowkey wants to have kids with you… but suppresses the “selfish” fantasy.

his one weakness? when he’s tipsy.

the one time you were both drunk, making out on the couch, which led to hot and sloppy sex. you felt so good and he was so lost in it, and then—

“oh, shit.”

immediate panic. full-body guilt. buys you plan b, also flowers and coffee because he feels guilty.

overall he’s very reliable, just that one slip-up.

[sevsgiirl]

hi, ive been reading a lot of your fics lately and i absolutely adore how you write sevika mwehehe can i have a request? can you make a fic where reader unintentionally raised her voice at sevika during an argument and sevika went teary eyed with her puppy eyes, and after that reader promised sevika that she'll never do it again, maybe a lots of angst and fluff/comfort? thank you so much and please never stop writinggggggg AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

— sevika when you raise your voice at her

synopsis: you and sevika had one promise to each other; no matter what happens, you won’t blow an argument out of proportion. if either one of you senses you’re about to say or do something spiteful — you walk out. so what happens when you fail to do that and hurt her in the process?

tags: arguing, mentions of violence, screaming, miscommunication, hurt/comfort, angst, reader is kind of a bitch (I was lowkey projecting when I wrote this)

note: I’M SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG but as a girly who has serious temper issues this req hit too close to home :’) because my biggest fear is accidentally letting my anger out on my partner so thank you for sending this req in and for your kind words. ily <3 I hope you like this.

it felt like you two were running around in circles at this point.

you only ever asked sevika one thing and one thing only - to look out for herself and to stop playing martyr all the time. you get it. she has a job to do and she looks out for people. but how much more of playing sacrifice will it take before her actions eventually backfire on her?

maybe you sounded selfish, but you didn’t care. you were exhausted seeing your girlfriend come home all the time looking so beaten up - sometimes her prosthetic was missing, she’s limping, blood smeared all over her and there have been occasions she didn’t even come home. you ran around zaun in search of her during those days just to find her sporting new bruises and another broken limb in the last drop, clearly not wanting you to see her in that state.

but you did. you always do and you were getting tired fearing for her life 24/7.

“sweetheart, it’s not that big of a deal-“

you scoffed, throwing your hands up “of course you don’t think it’s a big deal, you’re only thinking about yourself, vika.”

you’ve been going on about this for almost an hour now and yet neither of you can’t seem to reach an agreement. you were both stubborn but the minute she walked into the front door adorning another black eye, bruised upper lip and new stitches, you knew enough was enough.

you shook your head, setting the medicine kit aside as you turned away from her because you knew if you stared at her for too long you were going to end up having a nervous breakdown. because how much longer until she realizes her self destructive behavior is not only hurting herself but you as well?

she sighed, leaning against the couch as she watched you gripped the kitchen counter, refusing to meet her eye.

“it’s not like I wanted this to happen. who wants to get their ass beat? but it was inevitable and if I didn’t get those payments silco will-“

“oh my god, who gives a fuck about silco?” you exclaimed, whipping around to look at her with a scowl “he is not worth getting your ass whooped every. single. day, sevika. he really isn’t and you need to get it through your head that this need to put your life on the line for people who treat you like crap is not doing you any good and it never will.”

“he has a plan. I wouldn’t be trusting him if he didn’t.” she argued through clenched teeth, trying to sit up and you only threw a glare at her.

“sevika, sit your ass back down before you hurt yourself-“

“no, because I hate it that you’re treating me like I’m so fragile and acting like my work means nothing and that everything I do is just for nothing.” she hissed and you only looked at her with your mouth agape.

“when did I say any of that?” you said as you stalked towards her “stop making it seem like my concern for you is just me trying to undermine you and your job when I’ve been here to support you since day one.”

“well, it doesn’t feel like it-“

“because fucking look at you, sevika!” you couldn’t hold it in anymore, your anger finally boiled over and words were thrown just to spite “you look like a fucking idiot every time you walk through the door and you have a new black eye, your mech arm is ripped off, your leg is limping or you can’t feel your left fucking ass cheek. I take care of you every single time yet you still to go back to silco just so he can put you through the same bullshit over and over again!”

“so what? are you just reckless or too stupid? which one is it?” you were breathing heavily and sevika could only stare at you with wide eyes and her lips parted.

she’s never seen you this mad before, not only that but what you just said to her… it hurt not only because you wanted your words to hurt, but because all she could think about is how you once promised each other that you’d never let your arguments get this far.

she understood where you coming from but if there was one person she’d never expect to blow up on her, it was you.

she closed her eyes and tried to muster up a response, but she found nothing. instead, you were greeted with silence as sevika turned her back on you and placed her hands on her hips.

you were still recovering from your outburst but the second the dust settled in and you realized your mistake, it was as if your factory settings were switched and you immediately walked over to sevika, your hands trembling.

“vika…” you said as you laid a tentative hand on her shoulder “vika, I’m sorry I didn’t mean-“

“j-just forget about it,” you didn’t miss the way her voice shook. she was never the type to cry in front of anyone, not even you most times, but you recognized the signs of her resolve crumbling.

with that, you wasted no time hugging her from behind, holding onto her like she was your life support.

“vika, baby, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to raise my voice I just…” you let out a shuddering breath and held her tighter “I just got so worried. I hate seeing you get hurt all the time and I know it’s your job and you know much I appreciate what you do for this city but just… I can’t afford to lose you, baby.”

you nuzzled against her broad back and let out a sniffle “because what if one day you just don’t walk through those doors anymore? what if it’s not your mech arm that’s gone, but you entirely? I can’t keep risking letting you get hurt until eventually I just lose all of you. that’d be the end of me and I can’t fucking do that.”

“I’m so scared of losing you, vika.” you said, your voice trembling “you’re the only one I have left and if I lose you I wouldn’t know what to do.”

it was quiet. so eerily quiet you could hear a pin drop before finally, sevika lets out a deep breath and loosens your arms around her so she could face you.

what you see once she turns around nearly shatters your heart into smithereens - tear stained cheeks and glossy eyes, she looked absolutely torn apart and you wanted to beat yourself up for even raising your voice at her in the first place.

“oh baby,” you cupped her cheek and almost as if on instinct, she leaned into it “I’m so fucking, sorry. I’m so sorry, vika. please f-forgive me. I just-“

she shook her head, placing her palm on top of yours “i-it’s okay,” she said “just… I understand where you’re coming from, and I’ll try to look out for myself more properly. but just know you’re never gonna lose me, okay? I’ll always be here with you. no matter what. forever and always.”

she squeezed her eyes shut and intertwined your fingers together “let’s just not fight like that ever again, okay?”

you nodded, engulfing her in a tight embrace “I promise.” you said, emphasizing every word “never again.”

[hyuckswoman]

“thank you for coming over i’m like freaking out i can’t seem to figure it out” you said handing jisung a cup of water while he settles down on your couch looking over your project

“i figured out what’s wrong by the way” he says not even two minutes into looking ag your project “really? thank fuck you’re here mate i’m like dangerously close to a mental breakdown” “when’s the last time you took a break?” “i don’t know man this is irrelevant” “i do think you should tale a break y/n, i saw on your project you confused the magnetic field orientation with the observational signal’s polarization direction, and i know that no y/n in her right mind would ever do that. you’re too smart for this” jisung says as you sigh sitting next to him. he was right. you kind of hoped he wasn’t because this rookie mistake was definitely your last straw. before you knew it you started crying

“i just- i don’t know this project has been stressing me out, and mark- i mean all my friends i’m doing so bad i feel like a shitty friend i just- i don’t know what to do… and now i’m crying in front of you this is so embarrassing holy shit” you say in between sobs. if there’s one thing about you, you HATE crying in front of people and you hate how sympathetic their eyes are when they’re looking at you

“y/n calm down this is not embarrassing, do you know how many times i’ve cried about this fuck ass subject? this whole semester is constantly bringing me closer to the edge i promise” jisung comforts you rubbing small circles on your back “what happened with mark are you okay? no pressure if you don’t want to talk about it that’s fine” he asks “it’s just, he called me earlier and i said i was going to see you and probably eat with you and he gave me shit about telling them we couldn’t see each other this week but then hanging out with you and- i told him it was the project but… god why am i such a shitty friend” you ramble dangerously close to breaking into sobs once more

“it sounds to me like you didn’t do anything, i don’t know why he was acting like that but he was just feeling hurt you have nothing to apologize for this will sort itself out don’t worry. and if anything this just proves how much he values and cares about you so really don’t stress about it okay? let’s just order food, eat, relax and then we’ll work on your project together how does that sound?” he asks still rubbing small circles on your back “it’s fine thank you… what about your project tho?” you ask calming down embarrassment creeping in from letting jisung see you in such a state “i already told you i’d half ass it, it’s done already so now i can completely focus on yours. now, what sounds good? chinese? indian? whatever’s fine with me”

you were really grateful he didn’t mention your outburst. you were really grateful he was the one you called. thank god you guys became friends…right?

29. stupid

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y’all i posted a mark bf texts and there’s a bunch of new people that joined…i feel shy this attention is…idk lmaooo also next week i have like two oral presentations, my finals r coming i am so stressed omgggggggggg i’m so over school i CANT

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[eggbem]

My biggest project from 2024:

The ASHPD/Portal Gun from Portal 2!

So I made this to take with me to RCCC 2024. I chose to cosplay as Chell from Portal 2, because 1. it had been on my bucket list since I played the game as a kid to make a portal gun and 2. because I had always thought Chell's outfit would be the easiest for a first-time cosplay. And yeah, the clothes were easy to acquire and assemble.

But this gun took literal blood, sweat, and tears to complete.

First step was finding a tutorial. I found this instructables by ThePropNerds, and followed it as closely as I could. I started the gun around the beginning of June 2024 (though by that time, I had already started purchasing the materials to make the prop) and finished literally the day before we left for the convention, on September 6th.

I made the white shells with florist foam, Bondo, spackle, gesso and spray paint. However, I would NOT recommend using florist foam for prop-making: it's what was in the instructable, but I had a few cosplayers and prop makers tell me EVA foam is a lot more environmentally friendly and a lot less toxic. And florist foam is very messy.

I think I liked making the barrel parts the most. Those were made with PVC pipe, Bondo, and spray paint. Then, the transparent casing was made with a cut-up electrolytes water bottle, and the light bar down the center was made from a clear toilet plunger handle :)

I made the claws and the barrel caps mostly from press-board, flimsier than the plexiglass the instructables called for, but I was having difficulty cutting plexiglass without it cracking...or melting from the friction of the saw haha.

I Bondo'd and sanded and painted all the components outside on my back porch, on and off through June and July, but mostly during the month of August. So that's where the sweat came in. And I got a lot of nicks and abrasions from the power sander. That was the blood.

The lighting is where the tears came in.

I actually enjoyed doing the lights quite a lot...for the most part. I didn't have any experience with soldering or wiring or LEDs, so I went to my parents' house, and my dad taught me the basics. Once he set me up with the tools I needed, I was soldering and taping and organizing everything just right. Everything was going smoothly.

And then one of the lights went out. And I didn't know why. And it took just that one LED short-circuiting for me to have a breakdown. Seems like an overreaction, right? Well, this was only three days before the convention. I had been working on this thing, non-stop, every afternoon after work for literal weeks, and I still had yet to fully assemble everything.

In addition, I was also still working on the long fall boots (those were legit a nightmare, I don't want to talk about them lol).

I was stressed out of my mind.

Thankfully, at that point, my dad took over and sent me home to get some proper sleep while he took a look at my wiring job. He found the problem, and the next day, he helped me get the lights fully functional once again.

I finished the gun just in time for the convention!

I went with my brother, who dressed as Cole from Ninjago, and his friend who went as Batman. It was so much fun, I met so many cool people and saw so many awesome cosplays!

And now I have a cool ASHPD prop to display in my room! I achieved what my kid-self could only dream of 😊

[utilitycaster]

Wizard Breakdown Tracker 2x09

Surprise, bitch. I bet you thought you saw the last of me. Except not because I said I might do this. And now I am.

As you may or may not know or care, the Wizard Breakdown Tracker began almost exactly four years ago (March 26 2021) and ran through the end of Campaign 2, including the Uk'otoa two-shot, echoes of the solstice, and occasional other appearances, covering the mental state of wizard NPCs. Because by the end of Campaign 2, we sure had amassed a cast of Wizard NPCs.

And it was pretty late in the game, is the thing, and the wizard NPCs begin quite early, and also when I was binge-watching The Pitt over the past few days I remembered the breakdown tracker, for obvious reasons* (spoilers for The Pitt under the cut lol) because really, what I love most in life and The Enjoyment Of Fiction is watching people who are really good at what they do have a little nervous breakdown so that I can experience catharsis. I'm very normal and being a high-achieving eldest daughter did not shape my psyche.

ANYWAY it is time for our wizard tracker, which is brief because we're at one (1) wizard NPC reveal so far, and while I know what they have coming for them, they don't.

Pumat Sol: Unbothered. Hydrated. Moisturized. Happy. In His Lane(s). Flourishing. Fitter. Happier. More Productive. Harder. Better. Faster. Stronger. He is doing great and I cannot wait until he meets Yasha but that's in like 6 or 7 episodes. He's vibing and he's thriving. 0/10.

Until we Nein Again, this has been: The Wizard Breakdown Tracker.

Ok actually just to be transparent here, I believe we won't run into any more wizards or see Pumat for a couple more episodes so I may have to vamp a bunch or skip it until we've got a slightly larger cast or idk, include Caleb or otherwise get silly with it; this may not be a weekly installment. but it will be semi-regular.

bonus Main Cast Doctor/Med Student breakdown tracker for cool people because the wizard breakdown tracker is kinda thin and it's funny as hell to do this. to me anyway. in reverse order of seniority:

Victoria Jiavadi: she has already snapped and told her mother to read the fucking room however she is actually finding out that passing out aside (to be fair I did NOT look close at the degloving and I'm not squeamish and also not physically present and I know it's not real) she actually might have what it takes for emergency medicine! 7/10, I don't think she knows how to relax but honestly this is a downgrade for her

Dennis Whittaker: apologies to my mutuals who have been hearing me talk about the most sopping wet cat in the state of Pennsylvania all weekend but while Santos might give him a heart attack with her REBOA antics, he's also starting to realize that he might be cut out for this after all. 6/10 and it's gonna go down if Carmen gets an OR quick; he got his breakdowns out of the way early so honestly it's been an upswing for him.

Dr. Santos: her vibe is that she's got it all under control but I know how this works and things have gone too smoothly for her I feel her time is coming this coming episode or the finale. Or maybe not. She might not crack until season 2. But I'm going with an 8/10.

Dr. King: perhaps this is revealing things about myself but my gut check is that she's going to handle the remainder of the shift like an absolute champ, pick up her sister, go home, and once her sister is asleep, fall apart for precisely 23 minutes and then listen to some calming sounds and go to bed herself. 5/10 for the next episode at least.

Dr. McKay: She did just drill through an ankle monitor and her kid is here. Like emotionally she's tough as nails but nerves are fraying. also I did watch the previews and I think chances are we're at like 9/10.

Dr. Mohan: I'm going to admit I think she's great but also unsurprisingly I bounce off of her a bit because she's so good and like, kind of emotionally healthy, honestly. I'm here, as discussed, to see extremely competent people experience mental breakdowns and in doing so have some cathartic release. Anyway she's also crushing it during the MCI so I'm saying 4/10.

Dr. Langdon: oh boy, this could go like. 2-3 different ways, and since this show was renewed and he's got good chemistry with the rest of the cast I'm going to say 9/10, there's going to be TEARS and NARC-ANON MENTIONS and MANLY YELLING but he'll get his job back on probation I think. I don't actually know how this works but also as someone with family on both the provider side and admin side AND someone who has watched all of House MD AND Scrubs I think they're more likely to bend some realism re: letting a doctor who was skimming opioids come back.

Dr. Collins: I hope she listened and has her phone off and is taking a hot bath and having a glass of wine but if she is she is probably at least having a much-deserved cry while doing so, and if she's not, well, she's trying to get to the hospital during an MCI, so also 9/10.

Dr. Robinavitch: bestie did you see the episode. it's showtime. I do want to call out verisimilitude specifically for the Peds room on the Pitt, although in my personal experience they are more likely to be "under the sea" themed than "forest/jungle" themed. but yeah you'll be in like a pediatric x-ray room and there will be elaborate murals of fish, and I think the choice to set this breakdown and all the flashbacks in a pediatric room specifically is a great detail. This isn't about reviews of The Pitt from the perspective of "person who does things in hospitals" though; it's about Dr. Robby, the most divorced man of all time without actually being divorced, absolutely losing it in the corner of a makeshift morgue mid-MCI on The Second Worst Day On This Calendar Date he's ever had, Maybe The First Which Is Saying Something, 10/10.

[alittlegiraffe]

Title: "Not Letting Go" – Part 15

The next few days were a lot.

Life didn’t slow down just because your heart was in turmoil. The kids had school, work was relentless, and the never-ending list of things that needed to be done around the house felt like it was crushing you.

And through it all—Marshall was there.

Not just physically, but there in a way he hadn’t been in years.

He picked up the slack without being asked, helped the girls with things you didn’t even realize needed helping with, and—more than anything—he didn’t push.

He didn’t push for answers. Didn’t push for conversations you weren’t ready to have.

He just… showed up.

Like right now.

You were standing in the laundry room, staring blankly at the overflowing basket of clothes, feeling like you were on the verge of a breakdown. It wasn’t just the laundry—it was everything. The dishes in the sink, the work emails piling up, the mess of emotions in your chest, the uncertainty of where you stood with Marshall, the way your own heart felt like it was betraying you by wanting him closer—

“Hey.”

His voice broke through the fog of your thoughts.

You turned, finding him leaning against the doorframe, watching you with that quiet, unreadable expression.

You forced a tired smile. “Hey.”

Marshall stepped forward, eyeing the laundry pile. “You good?”

You let out a slow breath, rubbing your temples. “I’m just… overwhelmed.”

Marshall nodded like he understood. And maybe he did.

Without another word, he stepped around you, grabbed the laundry basket, and carried it out of the room.

You blinked. “Uh—what are you doing?”

He didn’t even look back. “You got enough on your plate. I got this.”

You followed him out into the hallway. “Marshall, you don’t have to—”

He shot you a look. “I know I don’t have to. I want to.”

You opened your mouth to argue, but the truth was—you didn’t want to argue.

You just wanted to breathe.

So instead of stopping him, you swallowed past the lump in your throat and nodded. “…Thanks.”

Marshall gave you a small smirk, like he knew how hard it was for you to accept help, and disappeared into the laundry room.

And that’s how it went for the next few days.

Little things—things you had carried alone for so long—suddenly weren’t just your burden anymore.

The trash was taken out before you even noticed it was full. The kitchen was cleaned without you having to say a word. The girls had their rides figured out without you scrambling to organize everything.

And every time you felt yourself fraying at the edges, Marshall was just there.

Not forcing you to talk. Not making any grand gestures.

Just there.

Until finally, after one especially exhausting day, you found yourself standing at your bedroom door, staring down the hallway where Marshall had just disappeared into the guest room.

You hesitated.

Then, before you could overthink it, you knocked lightly on his door.

A beat of silence. Then—

The door opened.

Marshall stood there, already dressed for bed in a t-shirt and sweatpants, looking at you with mild surprise. “Hey.”

You hesitated, feeling a lump form in your throat.

What were you even doing? You weren’t sure. You just knew that for the first time in a long time, you didn’t want to be alone.

“…Stay with me?” you asked softly.

Marshall’s eyes widened slightly, but he didn’t hesitate.

“Yeah,” he murmured. “Yeah, of course.”

You exhaled, stepping back to let him follow you into your room.

And when you finally climbed into bed, when he settled beside you without a word, when his warmth was right there—it felt like something in you finally exhaled.

You weren’t ready to name whatever this was.

But for tonight—you just wanted him close.

[thebeddrawer]

“Back in the old days”

I found this picture of a kid with a very cool mohawk and I thought Floyd must have messed around with his hair so much and he probably has millions of photos of it too

(and the troll next to him is a clown/comedian rock troll , and Inshallah you will hear about that character later)

(and I made a lore for Floyd after the first time at a rehab-(yes come on. He was a 12-year-old kid that left home. Of course he’ll go to drugs without guidance.)- he met a bunch of trolls they named themselves the dream chasers…. they all have a dream to chase but they sat themselves in a band because they need money…. Two years later, Floyd had a breakdown and didn’t end a good terms , except with the clown/comedian rock roll )

A close up (next to the inspiration that I found on Pinterest )



[themeaningthemeaningthe]

TLT Alecto the Ninth Tarot Reading

haven't done any tarot in a while and wanted to get back into it with something a little silly. i felt 9 cards was an appropriate number for this reading, but i'm tired now, so i'll just be including a phrase or two from my little book that popped out to me (because i don't have card meanings memorized, and i like the writing in the book that came with my deck), and maybe some initial thoughts. feel free to interpret more

What's up with the friendship bracelets?

page of coins: "eager to explore new creative or professional opportunities", " inexperienced, but great deal of potential -- hmmm jod's last lyctor standing and zombie daughter christening getting into the empire business via friendship bracelets?

More G1deon backstory?

reverse nine of wands: "your setbacks have proven to be too much, and you feel broken under the weight of your responsibilities. the journey has been long and unfulfilling, and you cannot remember the point of all the struggle" -- oh my poor saint of duty

Alectostasia perhaps?

reverse two of coins: "you have taken on too much, and you are beginning to let certain things fall through the cracks...you lack focus, and your attention, patience, and energies are spread too thin" -- i don't remember how much we know about the timeline of the lyctors ascending and when alecto was entombed, but i wonder if perhaps the reason anastasia failed to ascend was because shit was happening with alecto. or if anastasia's closeness with alecto was what allowed her and samael to almost figure it out, but the realization that john had let them all fail and kill their best friends was what distracted her

Will there be a chussy (chest hole) scene?

two of cups: "refers to a healthy and mutually beneficial unity. it indicates earnestness, and bodes well for partnerships of all kinds" -- ya know what, i'll take something hopeful where i can get it

Wake reappearance?

reverse six of cups: "memories of the past yield sorrow. long-buried regrets suddenly resurface to haunt you. you must make peace with your relationship with your past." -- well, if there's one woman i can count on to be vengeful enough to come back as a revenant more than once, it's wake. i sincerely doubt she's made peace with her past, so maybe she'll return

Colum Asht reappearance?

reverse six of swords: "unaddressed conflicts from the past keep catching up to you... old habits perpetuate old problems" -- also has a theme of the past returning, so i'm gonna take that as a yes for some sort of Colum Asht reappearance

something about paul, please?

reverse three of coins: " suggests that the quality of your collaborations is beginning to suffer. you must take some time to troubleshoot and figure out where the snags are in your complex network of projects. whose input is not heeded? whose contributions are overlooked? now it a good time to check in with your teammates and reasses your shared vision." -- my initial thought is uhoh, but also the way this book writes all the coins minor arcana feels so funnily like corporate or acadmeic?? that i just thought it was funny and had to include the whole thing bcuz yeah that does sound like how cam and pal might approach an issue

a card for the beginning of the book?

reverse 4 of wands: "the foundations you have built feel unsteady. there had been a breakdown in communication somewhere in your closer circles, and it makes everyone feel ill at ease. someone in your life might believe they are fully committed to something when they still have doubts. this could spell disaster down the line." -- my first thought about this was john's hands and fists- his foundations have crumbled and he's left with only one baby lyctor and his reanimated dead daughter. and perhaps ianthe is having doubts about whether she made the right decision saving him instead of augustine at the end of HtN

and one for the end?

the star in reverse: "as the dust settles and the Tower lies in ruin, you may find yourself alone in the dark. reversed, the star cautions that you have fallen deep in despair and cannot move forward. signs of hope seem too good to be true, and you feel more lost than ever"-- hey man hey man hey why

[ultimate-shiruba]

A bit late, but I did want to do this eventually with some of my OCs.

I think I will start with my draco lizard, Obligate Draco Obani.

1. Obligate was an OC intended for a fanfiction of mine, "Once Bitten, Twice Hidden". He was intended to be a nod to the character Ghiaccio from Jojo's Bizarre Adventure at first, as well as act as a foil to Professor Von Schlemmer as a highly strung and short tempered engineer who is fantastic at replicating technology, but struggles to invent anything new. He has since evolved into his own person.

2. His favourite colour depends on his mood. His main colour is a sandy yellow, with blue eyes and black gloves and platform shoes.

3. Obligate is an Aries. While he is unsure about astrology, he does have an open mind to the existence of magic and the supernatural, despite being a scientist.

4. Obligate and I both have ADHD and High Functioning Autism. However, I have a significantly better temper. I am not as smart as him though.

5. Comprachicos by Pendulum. However Talk by Coldplay can also be applicable to him.

6. He has a couple hidden scars on his body. A faded one on his head from an experimental operation on him as a baby, and scars on the sides of his body where his fins were cut off.

7. Obligate is very passionate about the potential to reverse-engineer magic and prove its existence using Science. He has gotten close indeed...

8. He has a complicated relationship with Professor Von Schlemmer. However he is the closest thing Obligate has to a friend, even if they don't always get along. Unfortunately, The Professor himself however.. Often forgets that the lizard even exists... As well as forgot that they were once really close friends...

9. He is infamous in Onyx City with the reputation of a plagiarist with a horrific temper.

10. Survival tools, some snacks and water, and some of his devices and inventions, leaving almost everything else behind.

11. He doesn't often have reason to smile. However he may smile during a nervous breakdown, when someone manages to make him laugh, or in the company of someone he trusts. The latter rarely happens for him though...

12. He likes all kinds of music he can dance to or sing along to. He isn't picky.

13. He has no piercings. However he does have two transceivers on his head that was surgically placed there against his will and a prosthetic tail Schlemmer built for him (the Drachenkraft) after losing his own in an accident. He tries to avoid any body alterations where possible if he can help it.

14. His earliest memory is being yelled at by a scientist for showing developmental delays. He tries not to remember much of his childhood if he can help it...

15. He dresses in a white lab coat with black electrician gloves and platform boots with boosted heels. He likes to think of himself as a sort of punk scientist.

16. Like Professor Von Schlemmer, he is straight but asexual, however he also leans more to the demisexual umbrella. He fell in love with a dragon once.

17. He is temperamental, aggressive and impatient at times, but he is also highly empathetic and doesn't like seeing other people in pain. If he sees someone in need, he is willing to help them. However he doesn't take kindly to being taken advantage of and will carry out petty retribution should that happen.

18. He is fond of very spicy curries (he can't taste spicy foods, so the spice is more to prevent people stealing it). But if he had the option in Onyx City, he also enjoys sweet cakes, scones with jam and cream, and hotpot.

19. I am skipping this question because I legit don't have an answer.

20. He will tell the story of a dragon he once fell in love with. It is a true story, but not many people believe it.

21. His teacher back in his student days, Miss Moria Hearn (another OC) is someone he looked heavily up to.

22. Obligate is most often in his own labs in the Yellow Class science centre district of Onyx City, however he can also often be found in the Night Market peddling hand crafted weapons to barter for food or scrap metal. He can be encountered easily if one knew where to look and can stand out quickly when he is worked up.

23. He has an artificial AI Assistant, Bit. A holographic clump of polygons that can only say Yes or No. It was his attempt to reverse-engineer Schlemmer's artificial assistants of similar names. He wouldn't mind a proper pet one day if he could guarantee its safety and guarantee time to care for one.

24. He doesn't know his biological parents. His father figure was a human scientist known as Dr. Obani. He also has two older siblings, an oldest brother named Douglas Gemini Obani, and an older sister named Omnigela Pollux Obani. He hates his "Father" with a passion and has a very rough relationship with his siblings.

25. Many. From his attire to the shape of his snout to the transceivers on his head and the gloves and shoes he wears. My friend @hel-helly actually helped me finalise his design.

26. He would cry to "It Only Takes A Moment". It reminds him of a love he lost, and one he never truly moved on from.

27. If he was in his own media, it would be an Action RPG as he goes around Onyx City either jumping through Genesis Portals into the unknown and facing surprises on the other side, or fighting various monsters that attack at night in the citadel.

28. Obligate is in the middle of good and evil. All it would take to push him to be a villain is nobody caring about his existence and starving him of kindness of decency too long. To make him good, all it would take is a little kindness and company that is genuine towards him.

29. He would get along best with Professor Von Schlemmer. However he would also get along well with Silver the Hedgehog as well. He would take a while to warm up to Gold the Tenrec however. He would also relate to Shadow's grief and find some kinship with the Ultimate Lifeform.

30. He would absolutely despise Dr. Starline and if they met, Obligate would do everything in his power to make the platypus suffer slowly and painfully. He would also not get along at all with Dr. Eggman either. He has met neither of those villains.

31. He doesn't celebrate his birthday too much, but he would try to take it easy on special occasions.

32. One love interest in particular. A red dragon named Mercia he crossed paths with once. He swore his heart to her and hopes ro find her again. Eventually he will, and he will be one happy draco lizard. However, in other continuities, he finds love elsewhere. In one cracked AU (non canon), he even falls in love with Professor Von Schlemmer.

33. If he had musical talent, he would probably play either piano or violin.

34. He liked to sing and dance. He also loved to binge old science fiction movies.

35. Obligate is missing his dewlap, his fins, and his tail. He is insecure about his missing body parts.

36. Obligate works primarily as technical support for Onyx City. He does a lot of IT work, but also works to repair broken Civil Protection Robots as well. He hates his job with a passion but prides himself in being extremely good at it.

37. Obligate doesn't trust others that easily. He is often prickly and on-guard with most people until he can judge if they mean him any harm or not.

38. If he received a Hammer from Amy, his hammer would be one that creates pulses of electricity when it hits the ground.

39. If Obligate was in a Sonic Game, his play style would be somewhat of a boost gameplay with bonus air time coming from a pair of mechanical wings he invented for himself. Maybe with elements of Shadow's Chaos Control abilities from Shadow Generations for brief moments of fast reflex times.

40. Obligate likes to sing and dance. He is not a good actor however, despite being a bit theatrical in his reactions.

41. Obligate believes in the concept of fate and hopes to prove it exists one day. However, he is not fond of his misfortunes.

42. His childhood bedroom would have been very blank and featureless besides a bed, a study, and a bookshelf with academic books in it. He doesn't like to talk about it...

43. Obligate likes to sit on his tail or the Drachenkraft from time to time to think. However he is quite fidgety and will often change poses or expressions when lost in thought. He is also prone to tapping his head with his fingers or tapping the heels of his boots together.

44. Obligate is very intelligent. He can reverse engineer almost anything and is fantastic at coding and hacking into things. He is also a natural problem solver and is capable of tinkering and building devices in direct response to problems. He is also fairly observant. He lack common sense sometimes, and is not very creative. He is also socially awkward.

45. If he was canon or popular, I suspect he would be most shipped with Professor Von Schlemmer due to their chemistry interacting with one another.

46. Obligate would watch shows like the original Twilight Zone, and the original Star Trek. He would also watch the entirety of Neon Genesis Evangelion.

47. He actually can wear headphones. His ears are in a more human-like position on his head, they are just small holes in his head. However he struggles to wear his glasses and has to use tape to keep them on his head.

48. Depends on the level of terror, but Obligate is prone to freezing. If he manages to push past it, he will go into flight response. If backed into a corner, he will fight.

49. He can operate almost all vehicles with the same level of skill... In that he will manage to crash almost every form of vehicle in existence including Extreme Gear. He claims it's back luck, but most say it's skill issue.

50. Obligate thinks lowly of his appearance.

51. If Obligate was a robot, he would probably go insane.

52. Obligate would absolutely excel in game shows about trivia. He would likely be accused of cheating however.

53. Obligate has two siblings. His older brother is brain damaged and struggles with basic living. His sister is street smart and brutal. Omnigela also has written a fair amount of "Schlemmgate" fics and sells them at the Night Market out of spite. Obligate is most like his sister in the sense of being equally petty and spite driven at times. They get along like electricity and water.

54. Obligate loves karaoke. He would probably pick Bad Apple.

55. Obligate would have a more mellowed temper in 10 years. Depending on where his life leads, he would also be a proud father and try to be involved with his child(ren), and try to not be anything like his own "Father".

56. Obligate would celebrate holidays like Christmas, New Years, and occasional gag holiday like international Pancake Day. He wouldn't do much to celebrate unless he had someone to celebrate with however.

56 SONIC OC QUESTIONS

I've done 8 weeks of daily posting Sonic OC questions for anyone who feels like to answer, and now I'm having a break. Seemed a waste to not put them out here for you in a list/ tag game!

When and why did you make your Sonic OC?

What's your OCs favourite colour, their theme colour, and their fur/ secondary colours?

What's your OCs horoscope, and do they believe in it, or any equivalent?

How are you and your OC similar? How are they different?

Song Saturday! Drop a song that most closely describes their story/ life

What's the one detail of your OC you can never find in a picrew?

What's your OCs passion? Are they good at it?

Who is your OCs best friend? Do they consider your OC to be their best friend?

Is your OC famous in universe? If they are or were, what would it be for?

What would your OC pack in their bag if they had to leave home for good?

Does your OC smile often? What's their smile like?

Song Saturday! What's a song your Sonic OC would jam to?

Has your Sonic OC got any piercings/ dyed their hair/ fur/ any other cosmetic alterations? Would they?

What's your OCs earliest memory?

What style does your OC dress in? Is it the one they would like to wear?

Is your Sonic OC LGBT? In what way?

How kind is your OC?

What's your OC's comfort food?

Song Saturday! Drop a song by an artist who sounds a bit like their voice!

What's a story your OC tells others about themselves? Is it true?

Whos your OCs idol? Can be another OC, someone in the cast, or a real life person

Where can we most commonly find your OC? Where will we never find them?

Does your Sonic Oc have any pets? Would they want one/ any more?

Does your Sonic OC have parents? Hows their relationship with any family?

How many design iterations has your Sonic OC been through?

Song Saturday! What's a song your Sonic OC would cry to?

If your Sonic OC were the star of their own show/ game/ comic, what would the genre be? What would they do?

If your Sonic OC is good, what would make them a villain? If they are a villain, what would make them good?

Who would your OC get on best with in the sonic cast? Have they met them?

Who would your OC NOT get on with in the Sonic cast? Have they met them?

What does your Sonic OC do for their birthday? Or other special occasions?

Does your Sonic OC have any love interests? Will it work out?

Song ish Saturday! What instrument would your Sonic OC most likely play?

What was your OC's favourite thing to do/ game as a child?

What is your Sonic OC most insecure about their appearance?

Does your Sonic OC have a job? Will they ever/ always have one?

How easily does your OC trust people?

If your OC received a hammer from Amy, what would it look like?

If your OC was in a sonic game, what would their playstyle be?

Music-based saturday - has your Sonic OC ever acted? Were they or would they be any good?

Does your OC believe in fate? Do they like it?

What's your Sonic OCs childhood bedroom like, if they had one?

Can your Sonic OC sit still? If they fidget, how do they do so?

How clever is your Sonic OC? Define clever as you wish

If your OC became popular or canon, who do you think they'd be shipped with the most based on vibes and chemistry?

What kind of TV shows would your Sonic OC watch?

Vaguely on the concept of music or songs saturday: Can your Sonic OC wear headphones?

Is your Sonic OC a fight or flight? Or freeze, or fawn, or flop?

Can your OC ride a bike, drive a car, sail a boat or fly a plane?

Does your OC think they are beautiful?

If your OC were a robot, how would they look and act? What would they do? If your OC is a robot, what would they be if they were not a robot?

How well would your OC do on gameshows?

If your OC has siblings, how alike are they? If they have none, would they want siblings?

Tangentially Song Saturday; is your OC brave enough for karaoke? And if they had to, what would they pick?

How do you see your OC changing in ten years?

Does your OC do any festivities/ holidays? What do they do for them?

I love reading about your OCs! I will try to shoot an ask to anyone who rbs this, so please tag your OCs by name if you want specific qs!

[junewi02]

So confused. . . and stressed. . .

You can see it in his eyes he needs to chill out

[starry-bi-sky]

on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

[moxie-girl]

DRDT SPOILERS!

also hey. do we think the reason for David’s “people never change” breakdown is bc of what Arei said to him and then she immediately got killed? goddd do we think he genuinely wanted to believe what she was saying a little bit??? we never saw his face in that scene… and then she shows up dead - the very next day! - kinda like Xander… he’s this close to a breakdown I can feel ittt

[girlivealwaysbean]

i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point

[farfromstrange]

asked the matt murdock muse in my head if we could get some writing done, but he said we need to hold space for the lyrics of defying gravity.

[shannonsketches]

ngl gang I finished both my dissociation fixation games and got a rejection letter for a job I was a shoe-in for after a month-long, three-pronged review/interview process and I am not having a great time

[beeapartments]

Looks like no car for me until next week, I can't say I'm impressed by how the car situation has been handled so far. (But is there a car company that's guaranteed to be great about such things anyway?)