#So I'm only sort of alive
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It was finally time for Shinsou and Monoma action in the anime, let's go! Also just Aizawa being Eraserdad to all of them kids.
#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#shinsou hitoshi#monoma neito#bnha#bnha shinso hitoshi#bnha shinsou#bnha monoma#aizawa shouta#eraserhead#bnha aizawa#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#mha#Manga reader right here#Anyway I'm still alive#Or not so much#Pretty sure I'm getting sick again#I've been getting several bad headaches throughout the last few days#So I'm only sort of alive#Ninjago AU updates will still come#Eventually#byeeeee
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sad: falling out of a hyperfixation
tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it
#oughhhhhhh#this is about the dca fandom but also about every other strong fixation ive had over the years lol#i know it's normal and inevitable esp for less popular works or minor characters with little canon content#and there's nothing wrong with smaller communities of course those rock#but there’s just something special about getting into something at the same time as a lot of other people all at once#and existing in this chaotic fandom space that's just bursting with creativity and passion#i've been in fandom spaces for as long as some of you have been alive and i've only come across that sort of unbridled joy like#a handful of times at best#it's just a heartbreaking feeling to see real lightning in a jar fandoms like that wither away as people drift away#(understandably so!)#anyway don't mind me i'm just having thoughts#musing about fandoms past as well#that i too eventually moved on from but remember fondly even if im not active in anymore#also my music just aint hitting right so im just sitting in silence which makes me more Contemplative(tm)
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brodinsons AU where they are both acting the entire time the plot occurs. They both know both sides of what is happening at all times.
#brodinsons trying to plan a way to preserve both of them and it just keeps getting more and more difficult#like Loki tells Thor his arm went blue in the fight and Thor is like. oh. we SHOULD leave. and Loki is like yea u distract i'll get everyon#Thor hand Loki having a mind link of some sort idk like Loki falls and that genuinely wasn't meant to happen but then the link doesn't die#Thor knows Loki is being tortured with Thanos and Loki knows Thor is stuck on Asgard#Loki tells Thor to be Odin's favourite until the man dies and Thor convinces Loki to 'just attack Earth then'#they act out the 2012 movie#Loki goes to prison and is like ugh just leave me here \(´O`)/#and Thor is like okay fine but only until father dies. BUT THEN THE ELVES ATTACK#they get out and pretend to be at odds#Loki dies#Loki wakes and is like hey im alive im going after Odin and Thor is like i'm a LITTLE BUSY FIGHTING FOR THE UNIVERSE!!!#and Loki is like mmmmmmm doing it now#Thor finally wins and is like whew im so exhausted........... loki? you there?#and Loki is like. well yes. im here. in Asgard. you should come back! Odin is gone btw#Thor: where did he... go...#Loki: aged care home#Thor: ........................................... *cackling*#Loki: :D#Thor: got em good
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finished mother 3 for the first time last week so here's my take on a claus lives au
#thinking abt the irreversible damage done to claus' body and how much he must have suffered... :[#he's alive yes but many of his days are spent in discomfort...#only the pigmasks could give him the accommodations he needed to power through. but now he's without all of that. he has to live with it now#he's always freezing because of how much steel is in his body#that old jacket is the only thing that brings him any sort of warmth despite how much he hates it#this is a general hc but lucas went mute during the 3 years due to not really having anyone to talk to#it's also why he didn't learn much sign :')#i was in a lot of bodily pain the other day so of course i gave it to claus#mother#mother series#mother 3#mother 3 fanart#mother 3 art#mother 3 spoilers#lucas mother 3#claus mother 3#mother 3 au#kinda wanted to draw more of this before i posted it but whatever i've been rotating this game around in my brain for so long . i'm so ill
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What if Yaz and Sammy are engaged in Chaos Theory!?
Like, I know them well enough to know they'd do anything to be with each other constantly. They love each other so so so much, and if that means getting married in their early 20's, then that's how it has to be!
Chaos theory will take place in 2022, which means Yaz will be 22 and Sammy will be 21, so I highly doubt they'll be married in ct. But I truly and highly believe they will be engaged.
Idk if the ones working on the show would let that happen, cuz they're not the "main main characters" and they're not "the main focus", but let's be real, it's YASAMMY we're talking about. The quirky lovely dovely couple that would propose to each other at the same time. They're not going to let some storyboard artists or show workers stop them from fianceeing eachother.
(lol, get it? They'd be fiancees and they're fianceeing eachoth- no, okay.)
But to summarize it all: I think, but mostly, I HOPE, Yaz and Sammy will be engaged in Chaos Theory.
Thank you.
#Sorry for my ramble. They're just the only thing i have in my head#I'm not complaining tho. They sort of completed my life. I wouldn't be the same without them#I love them SO MUCH. like. no words can describe my love for them#So if they are engaged in chaos theory then.. I just might be the happiest girl alive#jurassic world chaos theory#sammy gutierrez#yasmina fadoula#chaos theory#jwct#yasammy
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so your newborn brother is in the icu fighting for his life and the thing you're worried about is topanga not spending valentine's day with you?? bearing in mind that this is after you ruin the baby shower she threw for your mother by hiring a stripper because you wanted to hurry it along even though topanga told you several times that she'd still have time for a date with you?? DEATH to cory matthews
#how is he genuinely this inconsiderate of anyone other than himself omg#and i'm so mad that the show made it seem like he was right to tell topanga that she had changed too much#like no?? it's like mr feeny said: they're both growing up and it's a good thing that she knows when to prioritise things other than them#that moment when topanga sorted things out at the hospital for amy and reassured alan by calling him dad was the only good part#and it makes me believe topanga was the child they wished they had instead of cory#no because how are eric and morgan both so caring and sweet and then cory's the most dense selfish idiot alive#kinda off topic but i'm so sad eric never ended up having children of his own when he's been shown to be so good with them#especially now with tommy#but cory of all people ends up having two kids?? and being a teacher to several of them??#don't make me laugh#boy meets world#topanga lawrence#anti cory matthews#my post#thoughts#fandom things
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Me trying to make my Teen Titans hyperfixation as long as possible, because I've been obsessed with the same media for 9 years and I desperately need change
#like i still love freemakers and it probably won't end since the characters kinda became some sort of mascots of my profile#and i'm very attached to them#but god being in such a small fandom where new things appear only thanks to a few fans is EXHAUSTING#i like being in it to be part of keeping the fandom alive#but it's exhausting#with teen titans fandom it's nice to see so many posts about it and also fans interacting with my posts#since it's much better known than freemakers#yeah#hyperfixation#rant#meme#teen titans#the freemaker adventures#fandom
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there's a part of me that wants to make evil ex-watcher spike the villain of s4 because i genuinely cannot imagine anything scarier for a season's big bad than the grandpappy of sicko mode wesley and giles with the ring of amara who's already killed like 5 or more slayers hunting buffy and her friends for sport-- and not like in that limp dick way angelus did like he's GOING to BLITZ THEM because he KNOWS that when you go for the sidekicks it makes a slayer LIVID (which is hot) and WEAKER (which is part of being a smart hunter). like he's very aware of how deeply emotional and intimate the relationship between a slayer and watcher can be OF COURSE he's going to try and kill giles to send buffy off the edge and through her off her game. he's not here to torment her into insanity he's here to get that nifty little ring and have a go at the conscious slayer before he tries to wake up the other and see if she's worth his time.
but also i want them to end up making out a lot so i need to keep them in a certain level of proximity for it to make sense on a timeline that's not radically different from canon (basically i don't want them to be in the s5 stages at s7 for my own sanity, tho now that i'm saying it.... that's kind of a hot concept? oh fuck me this is HELL)
#train.txt#william was a watcher#this is the spike where you see where the giles-wesley watcher template comes from lol#also he's going to KEEP the gem of amara ENTIRELY BECAUSE HE'S SNEAKY LOL#i still need to sort..... dru out.... and i have..... no ideas...... on what i want to do there.......#if all else fails...... spuffsilla#I NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW I'M KEEPING ENOUGH OF THEM ALIVE THAT BUFFY WILL STILL FUCK HIM LOL#THIS IS MY ONLY ISSUE#HOW DO I KEEP HER LIVE TO FUCK HIM AND HOW TO I KEEP ENOUGH OF HER FRIEND ALIVE THAT SHE WILL STILL FUCK HIM#is this how bangelus shippers feel?#if so they're truly god's bravest soldiers
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almost 4am can't stop thinking about the meaning of the idiom 'to have blood on [someone's] hands'—to be responsible for a person's death—combined with the fact that Zach is the one we are specifically shown with Daryl's actual blood on his hands (once for real and once in a dream)... Not Josh who had been holding the sword Daryl fell onto, but Zach who took the sword out.
#super dark times#+ part of it that's insane to me is: Josh COULD have easily ALSO gotten (literal) blood on his hands—we see him go to check for a pulse#after Zach did... but we don't see his hands during that—they're left out of the shot! we just see his face. and when we see his hands next#there's no visible blood on them (if any got on he theoretically wiped 'em off ig? similarly Zach's hands when seen AFTER the shot of him#touching Daryl ALSO don't rlly show blood anymore—we see his hands in the leaves tho so it prob went there) BUT SO there was a CHOICE made#to give us a close up shot of ZACH pulling his hand away from the wound with blood on it... but to NOT do the same/smthn similar with Josh.#and yet ZACH is the one who CAN'T ACCEPT THE ROLE HE PLAYED IN ANY OF ITTTTT!!!!!!! GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!#this post brought to you by me rewatching the Zach + Charlie on the phone scene and needing to just. stop and scream at Zach being#like 'Josh‚ or fucking somebody else‚ they went up there and if they found Daryl alive—' LIKE BRO. YOU *KNOW* HE WAS DEAD.#YOU KNOW. YOU KNOOOOW. YOU WERE THERE. YOU KNOW HE WAS ALREADY DEAD. the denial. the trying to find any fucking way that#there could be even a sliver of a possibility that it WASN'T even PARTIALLY his fault.... shifting the blame entirely onto Josh...#[plus like. the 'somebody else' only added in after Charlie was giving him shit for trying to complicate this more—at first he was#straight up saying Josh was the one that fucked with the body]... aghghghsfd he makes me INSANE#also fwiw. i'm forever a 'Josh didn't harm anyone on purpose until AFTER his fight with Zach at Zach's house' truther. that provides#at least SOME sort of motivation to push him over an edge into... the shit that happens. anything before that just fuckin' doesn't make#sense. To Me. ive already written a lot on my thoughts about all of that though [uhhh in the tags of my gifset of the fight at Zach's house#anyways. im also NOT trying to say 'ah so we should Just Blame Zach' because nah nah this whole thing was a fucked up accident. they're all#to blame. plus Josh did horrible shit at the end On His Own there's no way of getting around that—but the messiness of how Zach handled the#initial incident and how that ripples out across the whole movie is simply soooooooo... ghghGHGhghGHGhghghgh. To Me.#in conclusion: im soooooooo normal about the characters in this movie (<- lying)
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THE POWER'S BACK ON!!!!!!!! IT CAME ON 7:23 SO LITERALLY LIKE AN HOUR AGO OMGGGG
#gu6chan's musings#I'M SO HAPPY#ITS BEEN 84 YEARS.....#It was so funny too like bc of the lack of sleep/poor diet/psychological stress and having to run around so much yesterday i could barely#walk today and was literally nodding off mid sentence and tonight me and my sister were (playfully) bickering about when we'd go down to the#creek to gather water for the toilets; our uncle was there sorting out when we'd probably have to go and buy gas again and we were all just#teasing each other about it and saw the light come on in the kitchen; shrugged it off thinking the generator started or something and then#it took like 3 seconds before we all froze and went 'OH'#it flickered on and off for a second and we were just slack jawed and when it came back on we literally started RIOTING#cheering; hugging; clapping; everything 😭 WE WERE SO HAPPY ITS FINALLY OVER!!!!!!#the funny thing is i was talking about collecting water for the bathroom from the creek (which is at the bottom of a VERY steep hill) and my#sister was on her phone so she was the only one still eating dinner and i was teasing her about it like 'ill get the water when SHE finishes#her food lol' and we started poking at each other but if she hadn't taken so long on her pizza we literally would have been gone for the#lights to turn back on 😭 im so happy right now I DON'T FEEL LETHARGIC ANYMORE!!!! WE'RE ALIVE WE MADE IT!!!!
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this is a very specific scenario, i know, but barton trauma-bonding with a hero and vice versa because they got stuck in the middle of the desert together due to the fact that they were both simultaneously betrayed / LEFT TO DIE there, but they managed to survive after they spent some time vehemently refusing to help each other in the beginning. though, they soon began to help each other (albeit reluctantly) because they realized that would be the ONLY way that they would survive this. and barton tries to kickstart their bastardization arc™ by telling the hero to kill the people who dumped them there. and this is because, in his mind, they don't deserve to live. then barton goes on to tell them that he's planning on killing the person who betrayed him so it's fineee if the hero does it,, because he ain't a snitch + won't tell anyone they killed anyone (,: now whether or not the hero actually starts their bastardization arc is up to them, of course, but if anyone is interested in a plot like this... HMU because i think this would be such an interesting dynamic to roleplay 👀
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#ahh. we love... two people that normally wouldn't interact on friendly terms.... trauma-bonding? 🫠 idk LOL but something-#about this plot satisfied a dynamic that i've been wanting for a while and that is the ' people who hate each other become friends -#through a near-death experience / something that FORCES them to depend on each other ' type of thing and just. Thinking about how-#ruthless the desert can be in terms of survivability makes it that much more believable for me that two people would only really-#be able to stay alive there if they actually start collaborating with each other and set aside whatever differences they may have had-#from before so yeah. plus i just... idk why but i just kind of want barton to be friends with a hero okok though not through traditional-#means ofc because they would hate him which is more than deserved. though just imagining them trying to get 'back to normal' after this-#happens and by that i mean them having the usual 'hero-villain' dynamic BUT it doesn't work especially in barton's case-#bc they showed barton that they could trust him and he actually LIKES them as a person now so they just kind of. Meet in secret-#sometimes now and because they were out there for a while (i'm thinking probably around 2-3 months) perhaps they-#depended on each other for comfort too bc OMG is that a long ass time to be deserted somewhere and so man's will just sort of cuddle-#up to them like they did in the desert with his head in their lap as they run a hand through his hair and basically. Yeah they've got a-#complicated relationship now to say the least 😅#tw: mentions of murder.
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Thinking about how I rarely get the yuri I want in non-yuri specific media that has canon queer characters or a least a sizable yuri fanbase
#korasami was the first time I got what I wanted and bubbline the second and then never again#why don't most canon yuri ships appeal to me#99% of pokémon's popular game ships are objectively wrong#why are you shipping Hilda with Rosa when her childhood best friend is right there?#Jasmine canonically regularly hangs out with and admires Erica#stop making kris and lyra related when their only similarity is their hair style make them make out instead#mad that pricefield is technically canon when max regularly swoons over kate#still never understood how Kim and Ron got together (they never would have let Kigo become canon at that point)#but also Kim was too good for Ron tbh and I thought he'd be cute with Monique#I will probably never like HarleyIvy because Ivy was always a dick to Harley in btas and hardly a better option for her than the joker#(at least I can enjoy HarleyJoker knowing it's a terrible and toxic ship without having that reconned in all future media#and pretending I have some sort of moral high ground)#but also JokerHarley fans are terrible and keep them away from me#I bet you if the joker was female yuris would eat that shit up#where is my AkaneRanma yuri I'm dying please#I just need akane to be bi for ranma give me bi akane merch#invisible talking moose#someone watch Jubei-chan with me so I can stop being thr only person alive to ship her with Freesia
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I wish people explored the fact that the player is an unfeeling husk more
#like. it has so much angst potential#bro is LITERALLY not even alive. they don't have any sort of free will whatsover#what if they gained sentience... what then....#ugjiugih i cannot be the only one insane about this i'm screaming#talking talking#get a snack at 4am#gasa4 snackcore
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the leftism leaving people's bodies when someone is from the american south:
#prince.txt#i dont want to articulate my full thoughts bc it's. well i'm deeply sleep-deprived but the way the south is treated as a Monolith gets me.#every state is a monolith. every city is a monolith. every town is a monolith. we're all the same. there are no minorities in the south.#IT'S NOT AN EASILY DIGESTIBLE MONOLITH. IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE. THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE IN THE SOUTH WHO -AREN'T- A PART OF THIS IDEA#THAT PERMEATES THROUGH SO MUCH OF OUR CULTURE AND DISCUSSION.#The South is a multifaceted region with all sorts of people. there are so many minorities here. who are treated like shit by the system.#our politician's actions are the only things that speak for us in the eyes of some. because that's all they see when they look at the south#all they see is a place full of bigots. and not a place that's as alive as where they are.#fuck. this is not articulated too well. might delete but its been on my mind a lot because of helene.
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#i love driving *so* much. like i was made to move i think. i was made to Go#i could do it for hours. days. just keep going and going. coasting. racing. cruising#i learned to drive stick today. and i drove down a highway that was pretty empty. and it wound through hills. groves of trees#tall grasses. i passed a winery and a small town or two with populations of only a couple hundred. large fields and farms#cows and horses. a rodeo fairground#it was beautiful. and no one was around. and i just drove and it's my favorite thing ever i think#god. it's like swimming in a moment. does that make sense? it's like i have nothing to worry about#and i love driving as the sun sets. i also love driving in the city at night when everyone is moving and living and doing all sorts of stuff#i love the lights and the smell of cold concrete. i also love the sun on my skin and wind through my hair and the smell of nature#and i love passing through it all. things slow down and speed up at the same time. i think i love it for the same reasons i love liminality#because that's also sorta what it's like#ugh#i hope someday part of my soul gets to fly a rickety old spaceship through the stars#there's an itch there that needs to be scratched. it won't happen in my lifetime but. maybe sometime later#anyways. i'm so glad i'm alive#sometimes i remember when i couldn't imagine myself older than 16/17#and i think about all my favorite things i've experienced. and everything i want to do. and i hold it so tightly#i'm just glad i'm here#sap says
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i am so tired of being out of shape but i have no idea how to fix this. someone should invent exercise that doesn't make me want to shoot myself in the head.
#i can only exercise when the exercise is secondary to some kind of activity with visible progress that makes sense to my brain.#i don't mind boring tasks! i can do boring tasks as long as they are visibly ACCOMPLISHING something!#if it feels like running on a hamster wheel i will simply stop doing it and there is no way to force myself to continue long-term.#i can soldier on for a little while but it just makes me exhausted and burnt-out and so so depressed.#i have tried habit-tracker apps i have tried habitica they do not work!!!#the activity ITSELF needs to be reinforcing. checking a box on an app after the fact is not it.#i need to be like...sorting a huge field full of heavy scrap metal into organized piles. or something.#i want to do hard physical work that has obvious physical results in the world around me.#lifting heavy things repeatedly for no reason = psychological torture to me. i feel like i'm in a lab experiment.#lifting heavy things repeatedly in order to accomplish some kind of overall task = rewarding and fulfilling. i feel alive and connected#to my body.#i am currently the skinniest and also the weakest i have ever been and i am having a bad time.
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