#Self-care through walking
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this picture isnt real its all happening in twilights head and she's listening ta this as she's having her bi horse fantasies
un blurred below the cut as well as the lineart with flats cuz i want ta show it off sue me
edit: ignore that the images changed slightly i noticed a shading error i missed and it was bothering me 💀
#mlp#twishy#fluttertwi#mlp fim#my little pony#my little pony friendship is magic#fluttershy#twilight sparkle#spacie scribbles#twilight narration voice: ''i have to go...'' id say ''its getting late and i need to put spike to bed''#fluttershy would yawn. a gentle cute noise befitting for such a cute pony before she would turn her head sleepily towards me#she would look at me with her big beautiful eyes and study me for a moment before saying in her sweet soft voice#''are you sure you dont want to stay the night? i would hate for something to happen for you on your walk back home...''#oh fluttershy...always looking out for her friends. such a caring and gentle soul. my heart would swell at the thought although#id hesitate....and in response fluttershy would get closer and gently push her muzzle against mine...#''please twilight...stay the night...''#my heart would be galloping out of my chest as the moon would gently glow through the window#the pale light highlighing all of fluttershy's delicate features#its as if luna herself planted the moon in this specific way...on this specific night... just for us....#spike‚ interrupting the daydream: twilight are you...narrating a self insert you wrote abt you and one of your best friends???#twilight: ....NO. BUT. DONT TELL ANYONE ABOUT THIS OKAY#spike: oookay! you got it. i wont tell a soul.#*he then tells everyone except fluttershy*#im crazy guys i swear#i just wrote fanfic abt twilight sparkle writing fanfic#she has a fanfic section of the library its all just her x fluttershy#good lord these horses.
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I love the idea that Gabriel is one of the few beings in existence capable of understanding the scale of Sam's torture in the Cage. Sam's trauma might make him "out of reach" to ordinary people in some respects, but it also gives him an otherworldliness that puts him on more even footing with supernatural beings like Gabriel.
#but i also dont think gabriel could understand sam very well and wouldnt even want to if he hadnt suffered himself#not that u need to suffer to be empathetic just that gabriel is naturally scornful and self absorbed#he doesnt care about sam until he has a reason to#yes gabriel is one of the few angels to value humans but he doesnt see them as perfect equals#but the fact that sam 1. took a nosedive into LUCIFER'S CAGE for all of humanity's sins#and 2. somehow SURVIVED the ordeal and came out the other end walking and talking#dramatically alters the way gabriel sees him specifically and wouldve to some extent even if the asmodeus arc hadnt happened#by the end of s13 after everything both of them have been through he's unable to see sam as anything other than his equal#and i think having someone capable of understanding the cage and lucifer the way gabriel does would end up making all the difference#supernatural#gabriel spn#sam winchester#sabriel
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a purely self indulgent whatever this is about a vibe I love
there's just something about an eerie town, a few old friends, a slowly building sense of dread, radio static, an outsider, I think we're being watched, remembering
oxenfree 🤝 the fernweh saga
Aelsa Trevelyan - The Fernweh Saga, Book 1 // The Beast From 20,000 Fathoms // Oxenfree - Night School Studio // Paramore - Figure 8 // Aelsa Trevelyan - The Fernweh Saga, Book 1 // Oxenfree - Night School Studio // Trocadero feat. Meredith Hagan - Contact Redux // unknown // Aelsa Trevelyan - The Fernweh Saga, Book 1
#am I transmitting? is anyone listening?#I literally played through book 1 of the fernweh saga 4 times and went - dang I need to replay oxenfree#come get your loops kids#won't say what kind - time/physical/self inflicted/generational; could be one could be all#being trapped in a gravity well of a place is a true bonding experience#fernweh saga#oxenfree#web weaving#I wasn't gonna tag this but what if I convince someone to consume either of these pieces of media#there's something missing from this but it's probably better than adding 1400 additional photos#it's literally just self indulgent who cares if it's incoherent#I feel like bly manor could fit in here as well#the whole - she would wake / she would walk / she would sleep / she would forget bit#the 'it's you it's me it's us'#the ghosts being trapped at bly and the living always coming back
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Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡
So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.
At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.
Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.
I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.
So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.
If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.
#spotatalk#i'm just gonna drop this in the queue I guess?#but I'm writing this on the last day of june so....#whenever this rolls around will be a jumpscare abd a half I guess?#I think honestly I coukd do a full breakdown of the Crew and why they're all expressions of me but like#quick summary is#Reset: Wants approval from people but mostly clings to the past. is afraid of losing his brother and acts on it to bring him back. i#<- I lack that conviction to do whatever you have to to get your way. i worry my brother and I have a weird gap between us we wont repair#Orchid: Uhhh woman. lots of pressure that she had at one time that's now no being pressed but she still tries to live up to it also.#<- I don't like the pressure of being a woman. also gifted-kid who cannot move past the pressures imposed to be 'perfect' and it's screwed#Stereo: Pulled into a situation he doesn't want to be in initially. it's bad for him but he likes the people so he decides to stay#<- I see the good in people. even when they hurt others around me. I was a bystander often and should've left the situations. paralelling.#Monochrome: Afraid. No purpose or preperation in life. soneone offers to guide him and he takes that offer because it's better than home.#<- Kinda self-explanitory but I've got little direction and feel lost a lot of the time. If I'm given a path I usually walk it no hesitation#and... for fun let's do some others!#Haphazard: Cleaning up after others since childhood. he's never really gotten a break and sees any sort of mess as an enemy#-> He's fixing rifts in universes I gotta patch relationships. there's so much conflict and I'm always so overwhelmed by it#Lost: He's got amnesia. no clue where he is. where he's from. who you are. who he is. he'll know when he gets there. he's sure.#-> I've been hsving minor issues with my memory for years. i coukd be forgetful but sometimes it just escapes me and that's spooky#Teddy: Isolated in her universe for years. she self-mutilated until she liked herself. when she finally met people she compulsively lied#-> Much more extreme version of how isolated I sonetines feel. hobbies can't replace human interaction but it's hard#oh and Ichor: God who loves mortals but cannot seem to find ones who will prove hin right for his trust and care#<- I've got a big heart. i express it often but the sentinent is scoffed off a lot. I get beat down about it and just keep moving forward#Pretender: Knows who he is. however the world doesn't like it much so he acts how they expect him to or isolates away#<- I still present femme when I'm nb/agender. i bend and break to people's perception of me. if I can't solve something I run.#okay I feel more insane than when ai started but these stupid skeletons have helped me through so many mental health problems it's only a#little bit funny 🙏
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Weird piece of self care advice:
As long as you’re not injuring yourself, there’s no fucking “best” type of workout. If you hate the types of workouts you’re doing then you should find another type of exercise because there’s probably one out there that you won’t hate.
Like I finally realized after 7 years of being a cross country runner that I HATE running. I’ve always hated it. But it was familiar and everyone thought it was such a good form of exercise so I stuck with it.
In college I realized I like ice skating and weight lifting and I finally got back into working out because of that and it’s so much less hard on my body and doesn’t cause pain flair ups for me.
Just putting this out there Bc I think it would have been helpful for me a few years ago to have someone give me permission to change the type of exercise I did.
#self care#working out#exercise#hypermobility#my hypermobile ass was just popping and clicking my way through running#in so much pain#it got bad enough that I partially dislocated my knee and couldn’t walk on it for like 6 months#and doctors couldn’t figure out what was wrong with it so it just stayed fucked#the point is listen to your body when you hate something#there is no moral gain just suffering for the sake of suffering
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Had a little mental breakdown bc i, a genius, spent the last 3 days laying in bed thinking i could just sleep my way through recovery 🙃
#nope!#my husband literally took me for a walk#he walked me to the fridge to get water#then he had me give leia her pill#then he cut up an apple for all 3 of us to share#then he walked me out onto the deck#water food sunshine#I'm a plant#just imagine a sobbing human man being gently lead through the steps of basic self care#that's me#my husband is a blessing upon this earth#ben gets personal
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some of the threads probably could've been handled better but as a whole I love alphinaud's HW character arc so much
#saint.txt#spoilers#major spoilers#ishgardposting#long post#in tags#the reason him being the mouthpiece for ish.gard at zenith annoys me so much is not just bc he robs esti.nien of a much-needed moment#but also bc alphi.naud should not be seeing himself in the ishg.ardians. he should be seeing himself in the *vault.*#HW spends most of its runtime explicitly forcing alphi.naud to see for himself the real actual cost of war after an entire series#of patches where he has played with soldier's lives like they're distant toys or tools and even then doesn't fully conceptualize it#until esti.nien extremely bluntly tells him he's sending someone he cares about into mortal peril like he's asking them to go to the store#as much as I hate it HW through sohm al directly challenges him bc he just blindly follows the ishg.ardian assumption that all#drav.anians are vicious and violent monsters hellbent on destroying poor innocent ish.gard and in his own complacency#he has directly participated in perpetuating the violence and war crimes committed against the drav.anians.#I don't want alphi.naud standing in for esti.nien to relay how badly the vault has betrayed its people#I want alphi.naud's threads to line up and for him to have a genuine realization that he has done a horrific act of violence to an innocent#party and have to struggle with what this means for his sense of self. He killed dragons in sohm al and justified it as self-defense.#alphi.naud should stand there at zenith and for all his conviction realize that he sees himself in the vault. bc he has directly sent#soldiers and friends who trusted him directly to their deaths with a flick of his wrist while he sat nice and safe from on high#nice and safe and protected from the realities of his violence / and perpetuated a great act of evil bc of his own complacency.#that he treats someone he cares abt more like a tool and never considers there is a real chance that for every battle he sends them into#they might never walk out of again - just as the vault sends scores of dragoons and knights to die needless deaths against dragons#and he only realizes this fact once someone else very well-acquainted with the cost of war points it out to him#HW's threads of 'you do not need to be intentionally evil or an asshole to perpetuate evil acts' is so good
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Mom bought me a calming app that’s actually working :)
#tc talks#i like it. they play like night ambience sounds while walking you through it and it very nice#they got a variety of ppl with different stuff on it but#this one dude really helped. speaks in a way that doesn’t stress me trying to follow instructions of give me brain fuzz#im also gonna sit in the shower for a bit#self care 😎
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thinking about how the “you can’t love someone until you love yourself” thing is bullshit!! it ignores the fact that we are meant to connect to each other and to love and that sometimes you experience emotions so intense they must become externalized, like rage or fear, and that part of what makes you capable of bearing your own sorrows is letting someone else hold them too. and in a society that is dead set on convincing people that they are never enough, it’s just asking you to never love anyone, to never let yourself connect. it takes so much work to be alone or to pretend that you are, but people aren’t ever alone. that isn’t to say it doesn’t also take effort to care for people, but the reward is so much greater when you let yourself love people. by loving people around you in any way (romantic, platonic, familial, aesthetically, etc.) you are making yourself just as lovable
#keep seeing tiktoks about people not wanting to start a relationship/friendship/whatever bc they don’t love themselves#and i understand it because that’s what we’ve been told as the new reason for self care of whatever#but it’s bullshit#you are not any less capable of loving others because you are struggling with loving yourself#and you’d probs find that by loving other people you find your own life saturated with more love and care#so much so that one day you’ll realize that (incoming mary oliver) you don’t have to be good#you don’t have to walk on your need for a hundred miles through the desert repenting#you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves#marble woes
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whenever i think/talk abt a "you" it's at least 5 different people usually
#ive been thinking about how you separated the star of david into triangles and taught me about the equilibrium about as above so below#are we in equilibrium? ive been thinking about the star of david and the rest in peace beneath it#fuck the fascists and fuck how they took you and fuck how theyll take everyone. am i good at analysis?#it turns out weve all been lying a lot. it turns out the person weve all lied the most to was ourselves.#ive been thinking about your 5 journals and a whole week of crying just to realise our sin. you felt like a nucleus inside a fuzz of#electrons and i felt like the fuzz of electrons. we caught a ribbon and followed it past the point of discomfort#this is how you breathe so that you dont die and this is how you breathe so that you do. on your own terms.#i am going to be a good architect. i am going to be a good engineer. i am going to be a good neuroscientist. i am going to be good.#i reserve the label for being a let-go-of-labels person. i am going to be the one who lets go of identifiers#and make it my identity. how do you achieve constant bliss? separate the nucleus and the fuzz.#suffering from the impact of the self and the self-image، you told me about the bliss of separation.#okay. let them hate the cloud. youre inside of it all. i am nothing. this is not a label for the self. mereology is a lovely thing.#baby you are ripping through all these spiderwebs just to live. this is part of the normal developmental process. i am surrounded by people#who throw sums of millions out of their mouths like any other lovely word. i cant stand the thought of your loss#except only in theory. ive been thinking about the bird with the broken wing in florence and how we stood around it until#two friends picked it up and took it home in hopes of nursing him back to flight. ive been thinking about how we are designed to care#for each other. tomorrow you will have your dreams crushed. the day after you will keep going. we are sharing#in the wonders of being perceiving beings. isnt that enough? why do you need to perceive the monstrosity of your own soul? is it#because i love you? is it because you love yourself? you love yourself enough to allow yourself to feel the terrible corners of you.#you can finally stand on your own. you can only stumble forward until you walk for the first time.
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guess who finally got to go to a therapist again today after losing their other one
ME!!!!!!!!!!!
#im so sorry that happened youre really strong#o get through it#afterwards i had to walk back to my mums which was around 20 mins#i just ended up playing fine by lemon demon on repeat to calm me down lmao i didnt have earbuds so i just played it out loud while walking#stayed at her work for the rest of the day helping her and got back home at dark#the appointment went well i think. i fumbled my words to an ungodly amount and couldnt think properly#i barely could keep eye contact and just ending looking all over the room and then just wall. ty wall. was just slumped in the chair adsfgh#it was weird having to tell someone about myself#and whats happened in my life#while i was talking i was just like damn huh that did actually happen to me#i guess ive just repressed a lot of stuff and then having to bring it all back up again and trying to explain it as well was just weird#like when i told her about some of the stuff that happened to me during school she was like etc and it was weird because i dont really see#t but i just feel like she shouldnt be saying that to me. i dont know it just feels weird. i dont see it as anything even though it is some#hing i guess. like when she asked about me self harming i just said how it is because i guess to me its just nothing. even though i know se#f harm is not good to me it kinda doesnt feel like anything. its just yeah i do/did. nothing of it i just yeah. i need to figure out how to#feel again. thinking and understanding as well i suppose.#okay skaluli shut up i dont care stop talking.
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Good morning good morning everyone!!!!!! 💖
#another self care day for me!#i'm gonna play a game and then later i'll go my dads and watch a film#i slept well last night! my mum gave me a pillow she had spare and I stg it's magic i've slept through the night all week#without waking up a ton of times 😭 normally my sleep is awful#feeling a little sore from my strength workout yesterday so i'm gonna be having a day of rest#i'm not a massive workout person i do it 4 days a week and I walk a lot but i don't go the gym i aint paying#i lifted my dad's 30kg weights and my nephew was amazed lmao 😭#he's 2 but its still cute#anyway!!! anyone got any plans for today??? i hope you all have a lovely day! ilyyy#well i try to workout 4 days a week my low mood has made me slack lately but that's fine#hoping to get some new tennis and badminton equipment soon so i can spend the summer on the courts!
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i NEED to be healthier my body is sending me every possible signal that im not taking good care of it
#personal#the vicious cycle of not taking care of yourself -> too tired to take care of yourself -> not taking caring of yourself -> [...]#holding myself at gunpoint to make like a batch of veggie soup this sunday and have one bowl every day at least !!!#and i Have to find a way to make exercizing more appealing#thank god i finally got confirmation today that im getting a permanance and with that will come a small budget for self-care#and i 100% plan to get one of those walking treadmills you can use while working and i will use it while playing games too !!!!#but it could take up to two months for the change to go through and i Need to make a real effort to be in better shape before that#i Know my quality of life will improve and i Want to put in the work but first i gotta muster the energy and for that i need to eat better#i need to plan ! i need to stop trying to make my life simpler all the time bc im just cutting corners and paying the price elsewhere#figuratively shaking myself#bitch !!! get up !!!! move !!!!!!
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when you've been depression-prone for long enough you can start to self regulate. You learn to notice the signs when your mental health is about to take a turn for the worse. And when that happens what you gotta do is sigh, get out your 'Homo Sapiens Biological Needs' checklist and make sure you are fed, watered, exposed to sunlight and lightly exercised like a plant-puppy hybrid. And if the dopamine still isn't hitting after that then this is a good reason to skive off work/school, tuck yourself up in a blanket, eat comfort food and indulge in fanfic or video games or whatever you like
#i realise this is hard often too hard#and thats ok#just do whatever u can to look after urself even if its just pulling open the curtains instead of leaving the house#im just grateful to be at the point after all these years where I respond to suicidal thoughts with 'oh this bitch (me) needs a walk'#it really does get better#and going through mental illness will make you more resilient in the end#depression#mental health#mental illness#self love#self care
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waugh i think i'm dealing with therapy hangover today...
#talkin through your trauma is good but boy howdy it sure does make you think about it again#i got today off so. i'm just takin a self care day. getting some chores done around the house and drawing and gettin out for a walk
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Feel like locating my secondary school PE teacher and sending him some kind of hate message tbh
#just thinking about the time he basically; apropos of nothing; decided to make us run a 5k all through town#i mean we ended up so far away from the school it MUST’VE been a 5k in total#and the people who completed each leg of the run the quickest (so; the fitter people) were allowed to rest until everyone else made it#then we had to keep going once everyone was there#which mean whoever got to the next checkpoint last wouldn’t get to rest at all#of course your girl was last#i ran most of it with somebody who just got out of hospital and she was insulting me the whole time for being unfit and saying she would’ve#left me in the dust if having surgery hadn’t impacted how fast she could currently run#i was like i wish you fucking would leave me alone#i was in so much pain. the stitch i got didn’t go away for absolutely AGES. i tasted blood in my mouth#of course everyone told me it was just my own fault for being fat and lazy and never running#like i didn’t do PE twice a week and try my hardest#just because my hardest didn’t look as good as everyone else’s hardest didn’t mean i wasn’t giving it my best#but this fucking man didn’t seem to know that#and i just have to wonder if crushing my & other people like me’s self confidence was the goal#or if he just didn’t understand the fucking thing he’d VOLUNTARILY become a teacher of#you can’t just make a beginner run a 5k!!! people who find it harder need longer breaks!!!!!!#he put me off running for SO fucking long. he & the girls he continued to gang up on me#whenever i run outside i think i’m going to hear laughter#and whenever i stop to walk i think i’m going to get verbal abuse#the way i’m twice as good a teacher as he was. and i quit. says a lot doesn’t it#i really think i might look him up and sign him up to be visited repeatedly by jehovsh’s witnesses#or just run repeatedly past his house with a sign on my back saying FUCK YOU TIM#i can’t actually remember his first name. it’s something similar to tim#i think he deserves bad things to happen to him so i don’t care if it really is tim#i change everyone else’s names but who the fuck cares about him#personal
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