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I really enjoy the tropes you use in your fics, love a good exciting escape attempt. Now that the mines are out, it's got me thinking
Imagine going through all this trouble to get away from your captor partner in the hotel, only to end up fighting through somewhere even worse. And whoever is looking for you is extra worried bc the mines are so, so dangerous for a little human! There's gloombats and grumbles and bad air and flooded tunnels!
For example, imagine figure fighting a grumble that's trying to eat ya, because I'd really want to see who wins.
Or trying to escape Seek, and making it all the way to 200. It would be both terrifying and frustrating to get caught there of all places. Dam Seek ain't fucking around
I don't mind fluff, but some of the tropes are a bit over done and, well, doors is a horror game, so really darker themes are more appropriate and accurate to the source material.
And you are completely right, the partner would be mad frantic! I mean, not only are there more threats, but the other entities are much more aggressive here than in the hotel, and those beasts don't appreciate the fine things in life, like keeping a pet having a loving partner! Why would you do this, not just to them, but yourself! So selfish! You should just let yourself be snatched back up and taken to the hotel once more; so much cosier there, isn't it? If you're real nice when you apologise for all the hassle and heart ache you caused, you might even get a bigger room this time! So generous!
Figure vs Grumble? Eh, that could go either way… but look at them! Your saviour! Despite you trying to run away… As a small fun fact, I actually planned at first to have the reader in 'Always there for you' ask Screech to mention them to the Grumble queen so that when they get into the mines, if they couldn't escape the world they're in, they could at least take sanctuary under the Grumble queen. I dropped this detail because it was kinda redundant seeing as the reader was not going to escape in the end. But damn the reader could have become the Grumble queen's ward or something lmao.
#roblox doors#my fics#I don't have much to say about Seek the answer is yes#Seek would not fuck around
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Forced kisses while you cry, push at my chest & try to turn your head away. Grabbing your jaw to face me & growing hard at your failed attempts to escape. Too bad you’re embarrassingly weak. Are you even trying? I don’t think so, you want this. It’s okay, you can tell me. Say it.🔪
#Run. Go on. See how far you can get before I catch you. Firstly#I'll give you a head start#secondly if you will insist on running#I want you naked when I catch you."#I’ll give you 5 mins till your over my knee. I’m close I can smell you. Lil mouse. Where are you lil mouse. you hear footsteps. Footstep#every night#making you fear#if only you knew how much I’m around you whispers. My name I suppose you will need to know that for when you scream it ���#it is Z. next thing you know you are being slammed into the wall. I’m going to ruin you wrapping my free hand around that throat#as i run my fingers over your lips seeking entry
You slightly open your mouth i wont ask again and u push my fingers in.
“Suck#you do as you are told and suck on my two large fingers. Don’t you wish I would do that to your tight pussy?”growls grabs your jaw You fe#and the knife to your neck throat taken away. I turned you round roughly to meet my dark eyes#that damm fucking scar. You are even more beautiful close up growls.#cnc brat#desperate slvt#cnc daddy#daddy's good girl#bd/sm daddy#edging and denial#edging kink#cnc knife play#brat taming#bratty#bimbo training#bimbo doll#bimboification#needy slvt#slvt training#stupid slvt#cvnt
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what if i said hal's mom called him "hally" specifically as a play on halley's comet, huh. what if i said she did that because she knew no matter how far he went, he'd always come back to her, hm. what then.
#and then he wasnt with her when she died FUCK#jessica jordan#they could never make me hate you#hal jordan#green lantern#empyrean posting#i do think it's extremely fucked up how they diminished and rotted her character post spectre. i actually hate it so much#i dont really mind the rewriting of martin as a /not/ absentee and abusive father (even though it cheapens the complex relationship hal had#with him what with the being his mirror image and wearing his jacket and becoming a pilot in spite of how martin treated him. constantly#seeking validation and love from a man who not only would never but then could never give it to him) but then going on to act as if jessica#wasnt his most important parent just by virtue of her being his only one for most of his life and going on to say she was actually kind of#bad because she wouldnt support him when she looked after three sons by herself and also begged the air force to take him back when he was#about to be dismissed is sooooo. god. it irks me so much. she was always there for him and she may not have been perfect but she did her#damn best and now they go around acting like martin was the only REAL figure in hal's life growing up because they understood each other on#some special cosmic level?? go to hell.#talking to myself sorry
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ok not to be insane but the whole tom putting the bidding sticker on greg situ is SO indicative of their entire relationship bc its all about Tom’s desire for control and ownership over something (due to him feeling powerless and out of control in his relationship with shiv). Him putting that sticker on Greg wasnt just a hehe ill look after you way it was much more ‘I own you. You are reliant on me now and I OWN you’. Which is a sentiment that is the very FABRIC of their relationship, calling back to the ‘I will not let go of what is mine’ water bottle scene. Obsessed actually
#tomgreg#succession#succession spoilers#like its a small detail BUT ITS SO!!!!#their dynamic is fun BECAUSE its so fucked up#it also shows toms biggest weakness (his inability to understand when someone is using him/doesnt see him as an equal/will always betray him#whilst the tomgreg and the tomshiv relationships are very DIFFERENT#theres so many ways in which they are the same#mainly around toms desperate loneliness and desire to simply BE desired#for him to feel important to someone#and i think throughout his marriage he has felt undesired and unimportant#so he seeks importance from controlling greg#OUGH im obsessed with him actually#he also cant take the risk that would be finding someone who authentically values and wants him without wanting something from him#hes so trapped in the Roy Web#i have many thoughts about tom wamsgans#i love you mr wamsgans
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if ianto jones (NOT gareth david-lloyd. actual ianto jones) walked through your door and said he wasnt dead and he needed a kidney and you were the only match what would you do
i am holding his face in my hands, kissing that man on the forehead, and asking him if he wants the left or right one
#babygirl it would be an HONOR to be rendered immunocompromised for the rest of my life for you#you need a kidney? it’s yours. blood? i got that universal donor shit baby!!! i got liters of sweet sweet O- on tap for you#plasma. marrow. various snacks and soft drinks. you need a few quid? no fucking clue what that is. here’s 50 dollars. i love you#no questions asked. partially because i know it would get me nowhere. gotta assume the reasons are absurd and way above my pay grade.#when dealing with TW and its operatives understand that you will never understand.#you can seek out the truth but don’t try to wrap your head around it.#ianto jones is alive and in your doorway and saying he needs a kidney transplant and that you are the only match in the world? yeah alright.#side tangent: the clarification that this is not GDL made me imagine if it was him and it’s such a funny fucking visual#i hear a knock on my front door. get up and go to it. open it up and it’s fucking Gareth David Lloyd.#i’ve only ever seen him on TV/films or IG but this is a whole ass dude in front of me. and then he says he needs a kidney transplant#and he keeps talking and says that i am the only person on earth who is a donor match so would you please give me your one of your kidneys#just the image of some grown ass man that i vaguely know of spawning outside of my house and asking me to give him one of my organs#it’s so funny to me. how did you find my address? why am i the only viable match? how did you get THAT information? i love torchwood btw#he’s an actor who played one of my favorite characters but he’s also some random man#ianto jones#torchwood
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I don't know how much more explicit the message of "THIS IS GROOMING" could have been without Be On Cloud superimposing it in all-caps text over every one of Non and his teacher's scenes. People interpreting that as "cheating" are cracked in the fucking head.
#dead friend forever#dff the series#barcode fucking killed those scenes!!! the desperation and discomfort and resignation!?!!#the fact that Non was textually terrified of dying at the hands of Tee's uncles gang unless he found that money#and once he accepted it and Keng held that power over him did he lean in to kiss him.#theres a reason that even universoty professors are fired for having relationships with their ADULT students.#because holding a position of institutional power over someone like that in a relationship is deeply deeply disfunctional and bad#do you think that if you were a child that felt they had literally nowhere else to turn. not to parents. or friends. or partner.#and a teacher said they would fix all your problems in a room with a closed door and kissed you.#you wouldnt feel obligated to kiss back and offer yourself up in exchange???#because what?? you're too moral??? you'd rather die???#THIS IS HOW GROOMING HAPPENS. ITS ADULTS SEEKING OUT THE MOST VULNERABLE PEOPLE IN THEIR CLASSES AND HOLDING SOMETHING OVER THEM.#IF I SEE ANYONE CALLING NON A CHEATER AGAIN I AM GOING TO KILL.#ITS STATUTORY RAPE. YOU THICK FUCKS.#KENG MADE HIM KEEP HIS SCHOOL UNIFORM ON. HE'S A FUCKING PEDOPHILE.#IM GOING TO KILL.#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SOME OF YALL ARE THE STUPIDEST MOTHERFUCKERS AROUND. YOURE STUPID. YOURE SO FUCKING DUMB. GODDDDDDDDDDDDD
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killing people who don’t get an animals consent before touching them &/or ignore when animals are visibly uncomfortable with being touched.
#MOTHERS FRIEND DOING THIS WITH OUR CAT RN IM PISSED.#SHE DIDNT EVEN GIVE TOFU ANY TIME TO SNIFF OR ANYTHING??#Sigh.#tofu came downstairs to see what was up bc person was in the house#But person just immediately started petting her#even tho tofu was visibly uncomfortable and clearly just wanted a sniff test or sm#went to my room asap after that and tofu followed quick on my heels#obvs I let her sniff as much as she wants before petting her (if she even wants fuss) so she had a sniff and very much seemed to want fuss#so I gave her a few strokes and then sorta checked in and she swirled around and bumped her head into my hand (all the while her tail was#pointed straight up with the tip quivering a little every few moments - a sign of happiness/excitement to see a familiar person)#so we had cuddles for a bit until she hopped off my chest to go get water or sm :3#BUT I DONT GET WHY MORE PEOPLE DONT HAVE SIMPLE WHOLESOME INTERACTION WITH THEIR CAT LIKE THIS??#LIKE. CATS ARE SENTIENT. THEY SEEK AUTONOMY - ESPECIALLY BODILY AUTONOMY. WHY TF WOULD YOU NOT LET THEM GIVE/DENY CONSENT??#like. if you aren’t willing to learn enough about an animal to understand when it’s unhappy at the very least *why* would you interact with#one?? (This person literally has a cat as well.)#idk man these are the same sorts of people that’d probably do the ‘awww just give me a hug! I’m your auntie(/whatever)! why can’t i have a#hug? 🥺’ sorta thing.. like. BRO. It isn’t my/the cat ‘s fucking job to regulate/look after your own grown ass feelings.#SIGH..#just. The fact this person has like.. met tofu once. Lived in the same house as her for maybe 4/5 days one time and thinks the cat is#obligated to put up with her or whatever.#(This is how I imagine people be acting around cats when they’re like ‘idk man cats just don’t like me! Cats are just independent by nature#I’m just stood there having to listen to them shit talk a whole species bc they don’t understand consent (or at least don’t universally#value it - eg; with children; with animals) ANYWAYS. CATS ARE A SOCIAL SPECIES WHO HAVE DEVELOPED TO LIVE CLOSELY WITH AND DEPEND ON HUMANS#THEYRE OFTEN VERY AFFECTIONATE AND LOVING AND FORM LASTING RELATIONSHIPS WITH THEIR HUMANS AND WILL MOURN THEIR DEATH PROBABLY MORE THAN#HALF OF THE HUMANS WHO ATTENDED THEIR FUNERAL.)#If tofu doesn’t like you I don’t like you mate. I am wholeheartedly willing to cut people off if they act wrong with my cat - like - BRO.#IVE KNOWN HER LONGER THAN I HAVE MOST OTHER PPL IN MY LIFE. SHES GOT ME THROUGH WORSE AND IS ALWAYS HAPPY N EXCITED TO SEE ME.#That cat has done more for me than you ever have! She loves me with her whole fucking soul and I her with mine. If she picks up the wrong#vibes from you/you break any of her clearly set boundaries we are DONE.#(Obvs /nbh - nobody here. & generally lighthearted but uhh yeah needed to rant abt this bc I care strongly abt it and other ppl should too)
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drabble about chapter 3 javieran late night discord (campfire) conversations because i love writing the turning point where javier finally lets himself start making moves 💔☹️
“so,” javier gestures with his bottle, the last quarter of it sloshing to get his conversation partner’s attention, “tell me about yourself.”
“oh, i’m…” kieran fiddles with his hands, pries his eyes away from javier’s bottle as the other man takes a swig of it. if he let himself look any longer, they’d end up on his lips. “i’m just me, sir. just kieran duffy. ain’t got much to tell.”
“mh.” javier grunts a reply, and kieran would think that’d be the end of it, if not for the bottle thrust at him to punctuate the response. he thinks javier is just tipsy enough not to be offering essentially backwash on purpose. he hopes it is a kind gesture. he takes it and a swig to boot. rather not be drinking with a man so pretty, but he’d rather not be one to resist one, neither.
“”just” you say. what makes you so little?” javier’s beginning to pop another beer open on his seat. without the light of the moon, the scout campfire now feels like a long, long way from the clemen’s point camp, and he now feels like no one in the world could hear his curiosity. like not a soul in this world around could accuse him of gentility.
kieran, taking the new bottle as an offer to keep the old one, finishes off his drink. shakes his head like it’s bitter. like he isn’t trying to pick apart which taste is the beer and which is javier. “i ‘unno. suppose- no one’s cared so much before. i feel so little, i can’t say i feel right justified in going around and advertising myself. plenty of interesting folk around, and they sure don’t look like me.” javier cocks an eyebrow.
for once since months ago in colter, dark brown eyes meet green, and they stay there. grass plants it’s roots in rich soil, and it feels like home. kieran can see javier’s eyes flicker to his lips, and he convinces himself it meant nothing. uproots himself and looks back at the fire.
javier lets his eyes roam kieran’s profile a bit- his long lashes, his hooked nose, his sunspots- and suddenly he really, really needs another drink. he’s parched. he mirrors the other man’s fixation on the fire with another swig. “can’t say any of us nowadays look too alike. not unless you get the privilege of being born in the city, with money. every man has his story. if you think it is a competition, maybe you should consider yourself lucky that you haven’t lived enough chaos to be “interesting”.”
kieran snorts, “you don’t know the half of it… sir.” he tacks the term messily onto the sentence, hoping it’ll be enough to keep javier from strangling him to death for his tone. instead, he turns to see javier with a wide smile, drooping eyes creasing like a canine with it’s fangs bared. it makes kieran feel cold- like prey who yearns for the warm embrace of his predator’s breath on his neck.
“tell me then. what makes you so interesting and me so ignorant?”
#if anyone cares#my timeline for javieran is that javier immediately thinks kieran is so beautiful. like. from day one#but to be in love with him would be blasphemy#so he ignores it and allows it to fester and lowk eat him from the inside out until clemens point where he simply does not think inaction is#worth it anymore. he feels the dread of the pinkertons breathing down his neck and he says. fuck it. if i die tomorrow i’d rather not regret#not allowing myself to at least talk to the damn guy. and so he relents and starts being more and more openly curious of kieran#talking to him and seeking him out and spending time with/around him and even going out of his way to find him alone and keep him company#and he falls HARD and he falls FAST and he becomes so addicted to kieran and to … loving him that he forgets why they’re there in the first#place. forgets that he isn’t there to learn every single fact and tidbit about kieran. and every single pore and follicle on his skin as wel#this takes place right where they’ve arrived where everyone is exhausted from settling in and the camp is abnormally quiet because of it#but kieran is still up. javier sees him poking at the scout campfire. he always did enjoy the quiet of the evening where there’s no one arou#nd to harass him or threaten him or make him do anything he doesn’t want to. and javi figures now is as good a time as any.#grabs a case of beer and takes one drink from the first one to help with the nerves and sets off to become head kieranologist#anyway i’ll shut up#i hope yall love them like i do ☹️#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#kieran duffy#javier escuella#javieran#text#hero more like shakespeare#<- writing tag. because i didn’t have one before. and also funny.#this is gonna get 0 likes but that’s ok cuz i love them bad </3
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The Untamed ep. 32 & 50
Please don’t prioritize your sibling over me
#not sure if u guys will like the caption but it’s what i thought of 😭#alsoooo now that im thinking abt it#jyl’s death really sucked#cuz first of all jc and wwx cud have just flew to get closer to her#EVERYONE WAS FLYING AROUND AND KILLING PEOPLE BUT WWX AND JC SUDDENLY CANNOT FLY?!#but instead they chose to use 99% of their time to yell at each other first#and second of all why did jc just cradle jyl in her arms? why didnt he seek medical attention right away? was he waiting for wwx? for what?#jyl wouldnt have died if wwx didnt come closer to them and if jc immediately carried her somewhere safe and sought nedical attention#meanwhile in lan zhan’s case#lxc WOULD HAVE REALLY DIED (had jgy not loved him) but wwx still held lwj back#they really just waited for jgy to push lxc away as if they knew what was gonna happen#had jgy not pushed lxc im sure lwj would also push wwx away to get to his brother#and ahm… i dunno tell jgy to fuck off and then yeet his brother out of the temple#the untamed#cql#lan wangji#lan zhan#wei wuxian#wei ying#wangxian#my gifs
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i respect one (1) knight in le morte darthur and that knight is sir dinadan
#sir i would die for you#guy really took one look at a castle where to stay there you have to fight and beat two knights#and went no thanks i'd rather look for alternative accommodation#only to be dragged into it by tristram and then manage to gain entry#only to then be told that he has to fight with palomides and gaheris when they come to seek shelter#and turns around to tristram to say look i'm still knackered from fighting thirty knights a few hours ago and the two knights before#i've just been knocked off my horse by palomides#and quite honestly fuck this#(and then proceeds to say that lancelot and his eagerness to fight everyone landed him in bed with injuries for 3 months)#i love him your honour#he's just tired#anyway new blorbo acquired#sir dinadan#le morte d'arthur#le morte darthur#thomas malory#lit reads malory#arthuriana
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you ever see a fandom post that's like so far out of character you think it should be possible to deactivate someone's blog for them
#this is about that aftg venn diagram that said andrew is into astrology and neil kicks pigeons#1. no the fuck he would not be into astrology are you insane#2. who kicks pigeons why is that part of the venn diagram like its a normal thing are you insane#guys please tell me people arent going around kicking pigeons if so seek help#stop taking your problems out on the pigeons thats a living animal this has been my anti pigeon kicking psa bc why tf would you do that#what joy do you get from hurting an animal#marenposting#ALSO. ASTROLOGY. REALLY. FUCK OFF#andrew would not fall for that shit but nicky? allison? im not mad just disappointed#those posts about fandoms where people make up their own versions of the characters in their heads to stan are all about this fandom#which is fine its not fucking paradise lost its all for the game#but still do better men
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Watching Crazy Ex-Girlfriend from the start so I can finally finish the show, and I forgot just how badly Paula enables Rebecca's bad behavior immediately right out the gate in the biggest ways possible.
Also the actress playing Paula is fucking fantastic. Simultaneously a great best friend, an overbearing mother, an unfulfilled woman looking for better things, and an evil mastermind with an incredible voice! I'm excited to see where her character goes in the 4th season!
#Jack watches Crazy Ex-Girlfriend#crazy ex girlfriend#cxgf#rebecca bunch#I watched the first three seasons like years ago#but never watched the 4th#from what I remember it's a really good show and the title is extremely aware of itself lol. rachel bloom is brilliant#like Rebecca probably would have realized she fucked up and stopped fucking up Josh's life a lot faster if Paula hadn't shown up#but also without Paula there's not really a show. it is very much a show about Rebecca causing immense fucking disasters around herself#and it is very much a show of her learning to deal with those consequences and also seek treatment and form healthier relationships#I really wish I could tell the actress playing Paula how good she is#watching it again it's so clear in this first episode how badly Paula needed Rebecca to be a disaster#but also she isn't nasty in the way Rebecca isn't nasty they are just two messed up obsessive people dealing with their bad choices
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#i think it's a little fucked up but a little funny that my mental state is currently at such a bad point where it's like.#any stress sends me into emotionally constipated panic. where it doesn't really show through for the most part. for the most part i seem ok.#and then if you crack me just even a little bit it's like that one modern art piece can't help myself#where im trying my best to juggle and maintain the facade of being fine but you can tell im tired and one deviation away from crumbling down#but can i cry? haha no. instead i just panic. everything sends me into silent panic. and i just think about really dramatic responses.#i hold my breath and worry that if i do anything wrong everything I've worked so so hard for will just come toppling down#because it has before. something you've poured your heart into. something you've cared so much about. can just be. so. out of your control#and you lose your voice and you lose your agency and you lose your will to fight and you lose a little bit of yourself#I don't know if i will ever get it back. it's been a while. I don't know if i can ever regain my confidence back. i miss who i was sometimes#i used to be warm. i used to be sure of myself. i used to carry hope around like a small star. i miss her. the person i was.#someone who could light up a room without trying so hard. someone who could make others smile without giving it too much thought.#someone who could make others feel good about being there and being alive. i barely feel good about myself these days sometimes. somehow.#I don't know how to be that girl anymore. everything feels a little forced. it shouldn't have to feel this hard. it used to feel natural.#i have moments where i feel like myself again. happy. confident. and then im brought back to reality almost immediately.#i feel guilty for feeling good. i feel guilty for being confident. and then i go hating myself again. it does weigh on me. what she said.#im sorry that i used to like myself. im sorry it made you feel bad about yourself. see. i hate myself now. do you forgive me now? hehe#I'll get over it one day. I'll get over it soon. i hate feeling like this. the overwhelming ego death. it makes me feel really shitty.#i hate this hehe i want to run away so badly but i know running away never solves anything you come back and the problem is still there#so i will go through it and i will fail and i will fall and i will stumble and hurt myself and feel humiliated and terrible throughout#but it will be fine. but I'll get through it and realize it wasn't that bad. I'll get through it and try again and again until i get there.#i need to stop seeking validation from people who won't give it. stop seeking comfort from people who won't give it.#stop hanging with people who make me feel worse. and stuff like that. it's like quitting an addiction hhhh i don't get it#i have friends who treat me really well. i have friends who i love and love me a lot.#i just can't quit certain people. part of it is bc im scared of change and part of it is bc i don't want to be more reliant on others#especially the people i do really care about and love and who love me bc. i think. if i have one more abandonment. i will actually. mm.#i think i would fully lose my ability to love new people haha like. romantically and platonically. haha.#but anyway that's the trauma speaking i will overcome it I won't let it control how i live haha#i will be ok i will be ok spring will be here eventually it's just the seasonal stuff#tw health#delete later
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i kinda wonder how would other people rank their emotions/experiences in terms of what feels the best. for me definitely
#1 is the adrenaline rush/high when you push past your physiological barriers like i was talking about in another post, when you earn the feeling & actually feel invincible
#2 is the physical/emotional sensations when being intimate with someone you love (but you'd rate it as #1 at the moment you're experiencing it... that's just how it works...) oxyy/molly high are like echoes of the real thing (but still pretty damn close)
#3 is the shock of falling uncontrollably, especially at the very top of a rollercoaster. the fleeting feeling just as you're starting to drop, before you can feel the track under you again. that control is not willingly given except when you get on the ride this is important to note lol. there is no safe word on a rollercoaster (...yes i wanna go skydiving soooooo fucking bad lol...)
#4 is sadism (not really in a physical sense for me) like when i am in the zone being a piece of shit to my clients. manipulating the ones that treat me like shit is like an echo of that invincible feeling. i just don't do it very often bc of the effort required... like even for a feeling that good it's got a fucked up reward ratio most of the time so no thanks. this would probably rank higher if i didn't abide by a moral code/went further than i do but i can only imagine what that would feel like so it's sitting here instead. i refuse to find out in the interest of retaining some normal functioning in this area👍
#5 is masochism/exhibitionism lol it can feel aaaaaaaalmost as good as that split second on the rollercoaster & a bit of the invincible feeling. esp if it's kinda dangerous tbh that's most of the reason i even rank it this high. also very accessible because men are animals so the effort required to put myself in situations is very low lmao
#6 and beyond i feel like it's a bit more muddled but i'd rank most drugs here, followed by #7 being regular orgasm, #8 being when you're listening to music either dancing at a live concert or just on mushrooms/after smoking and having musical frission, enjoying it on another level like that. #9 being social reward maybe? i don't get that often but when i do genuinely connect with someone it feels at least as good as self harm (lmao that sounds kinda sad) and #10 being the endorphin high from having pain inflicted on me. not the same as where i put masochism though because it ranks differently when it's nonsexual. these might be reversed tho... social reward ranking depends a LOT on the person giving it to me
that's all i can think of tbh. maybe #11 would be like the feeling when you have freshly washed bedsheets and just took an everything shower with your routine completely taken care of + hair done and are kinda sleepy and not stressed about anything and drift off to sleep peacefully in a warm bed? that feels nice but it's also a lot of effort
are there any more good feelings in the world. lmk
#z#my big 5 subtrait for positive emotions being 14% might be showing#actually aspd#<- not dxed and not seeking help probably ever but i want replies from likeminded people if possible#i looked at articles where ppl talked about their best feelings for inspiration but like 80% of the things ppl mentioned are nothing for me#and the other 20% i either covered or are so far below these feelings that they were pointless to rank#competition is somewhere in there too but i dont feel like editing the post. strategizing + outsmarting ppl & winning is like#around 6? it's REALLY engaging but doesn't give the same adrenaline rush as my number one :p#this is sooooo subjective but im just curious#i feel like physically fighting would also probably rank somewhere up here for me but that's another thing i'm not eager to find out#tho i definitely have more enjoyable feelings in my body when i am so angry at someone that i need to fantasize about that#so that i don't actually fucking do anything and get the rage feelings out#than like regular fantasizing about sex or whatever
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Only get the front. Get earmuff sideburns. Doesn't have to qualify as mullet if you don't want that.
oh I know what I want, but my concern is having my shit fucked by the barbers around here cuz they are Not (should not be, anyway) qualified to cut hair. especially something a bit more stylized as this. also im concerned that it may not go well with my dresses and skirts, and also id feel kinda embarrassed having boobs with this hair cut as well. I said it before but id really feel like trip from star trek when he had to tell the klingons he was pregnant. I may or may not have some things going on but that's for future me to deal with
#asks#anon#the barbers around here would give me the old lady bump or a pixie cut#especially because im a ''Girl'' seeking a masculine haircut#theyre gonna fuck my shit uuupp😭#i may invest in that texturizing powder too. that stuff does cool shit to hair ive seen it#and my hair is already pretty thick and coarse
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thinking about how Benson and Randy would sleep.
they've both been through some shit at an early age and neither of them are handling it very well.
at first glance you'd think they're totally different, but I feel like they're actually so similar in sleeping position and style.
they can only fall asleep curled up tight, limbs close to their bodies. Randy for making himself so small he doesn't harm anyone by simply existing. Benson for some sense of protection, keeping the most vulnerable parts of himself safe, so no one can touch or hurt him. they both struggle to fall asleep, moving around and adjusting their position for hours, and then toss and turn when they eventually manage to fall asleep. both plagued by nightmares and uncomfortable night sweats.
what would they be like if they had to share a bed?
#just thinking thoughts and throwing my sleep troubles on randy and benson. as a horrible little treat 👍#tbh i want them to eventually get so attached they curl up around the other. both seeking to protect and to be protected#some fucked up sense of safety in each other's arms <333#benson would hold on so tight to the point of bruising randy#but i dont think he would mind the bruises much. it's a sign he's wanted and needed. that he's real.
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