#SORRY TO GET SAPPY ON MAIN

[night-chimeras-cry]

BlogTember Day 1: First Askblog OC

This is Dragoş/Romania-cat. This little guy was my start back in my college days, and one of the reasons I burned out on askblogs on deviantART. (We didn’t even have any real appearances of the human Romania in the series when I made him, so I just made up everything about him myself. He’s a bit more OC than canon character!) There’s no trace of the blog anymore, as I deleted everything to avoid dA’s rampant AI from sampling my art. But the memories remain. I’m sad it’s gone, but so glad the good times happened.

[here-there-everyfuckenwhere]

I joined the OFMD fandom almost a year ago (can you believe it??) and I remember watching it for the first time and then reading all of the amazing fics and seeing all of the beautiful fanworks about this show and thinking “man this show is really something special but like.. kinda weirdly unrealistic? like there’s no way that two people can find each other and fall in love that quickly and that deeply” 

And in the meantime I literally met my soulmate at univeristy and we initally bonded over our mutual appreciation for OFMD and Flight of the Conchords and. yall. lemme tell you. rewatching the show now is A Whole Different Experience. 

[daltonistic]

I don't mean to derail the meaning of this post, and maybe this is just me being sappy, but I really do think that "weird pets" feel love, they just don't express it in the same way.

A few years ago, when I moved to my college campus, my roommate and I bought a beta fish named Freyr. Very quickly, he became my fish—he would stay on my desk because of its proximity to a wall outlet, and I took over the majority of feeding/cleaning duties. I absolutely loved that little guy. Anytime someone would come over, I would immediately introduce them to Freyr. He was the life of the party, so to speak.

A few months later, I was hit with an incredibly bad depressive episode. Like...I didn't trust myself because they put me on the forth floor with a window that opened all the way kind of bad. My roommate had gotten really worried that I was going to do something *silly* while she was gone for a few days (not necessarily cause she wanted to leave, it was an obligation). I told her that if I tried anything, nobody would be there to keep Freyr company or fed until she got back. So I didn't do it. And I got out of that episode.

That summer, I was put back in my really abusive situation, where I'm still currently stuck because I live in the States and can't afford to go anywhere else. It wasn't all bad, though. I still had Freyr. And even if he couldn't verbally show it, I know he felt the same kind of anxiety I did. When things got bad, he would hide in his little mushroom stump, kind of like how I would hide too. I wanted him to feel safe, though, and I did everything I could to make his stay better. I upgraded him to a more spacious tank, got him new plants, a better hidey hole, some stim toys, the works. He would swim so many laps all the time before perching on his favorite leaf. He was happy. I could tell.

As time went on, Freyr started getting slower and more tired. I was worried for him, I've loved this little guy for so long, and I didn't know what I would do without him. But bettas in captivity have a lifespan of 2-5 years, and at this point, he was probably pushing 4. But I still took care of him as best as I could. And he would still perch on his favorite leaf , and rush to the top of the water when food was involved, and boop the glass when my fingers were there.

Some time later, and I had to go out of state for a week. I didn't want to go, but I really didn't have a choice. So, I did what I had done several times before—I gave the tank a good cleaning, gave him a treat and an automatic feeder, and just talked to him. I told him where we were going and that I was gonna be so happy to see him when I came back. Freyr never responded, but I know he understood. When we got back, Freyr was still there, swimming around, albeit slowly. And when I gave him a treat, he came to the top of the tank. And he booped the glass where my fingers were.

Two days later, Freyr was gone. Lying next to his favorite hidey hole in the center of the tank. I tried to wake him up, but I knew it wouldn't do any good. So I sat there and sobbed. My little guy, the life of the party, the fishy hero who stopped my suicide attempt, was gone. And I was so worried that he was never going to realize how much I loved him. Then someone helped me realize exactly what had happened:

Freyr knew his time was up. But he wanted to see me one last time before he left. For his own closure and mine.

Say what you will about "weird pets" but I know love when I see it. And love is stored in the glass boops.

[starflungwaddledee]

happy birthday. you are so, so loved

[achillesapple]

one thing i love about hermitcraft is how transparent the hermits are about the creative process. it's ok to take breaks. it's ok to finish a project and realize you don't like it. it's normal to get halfway through a project and feel like you want to tear it all down. it's ok to use references and tutorials and obvious inspirations. talent is a hoax and the best way to improve is to consciously learn and practice.

when people are cagey about their failures it's easy to feel like you're uniquely horrible and hermitcraft always reminds me that everyone who makes things struggles the same way i do.

[newwavesylviaplath]

those poor girls on here that already have below average bmis and keep talking abt how they need to lose more weight. i hate everything that's ever led them up to this point my heart legitimately aches for them.

[spnstillstudies]

i’m not actually sure how to articulate what this milestone means to me. i’m new to the fandom, this blog is barely over half a year old, and this was initially just a challenge for myself to see just how far i’d get—expecting to play around and drop it a season or two in.

but i wasn’t burning out a couple seasons in, i was still having a lot of fun. i saw how you guys really connected with my art, and were getting excited whenever i’d post, which started making me excited to post. i’ve felt accomplished at the end of each season, but i think this is finally the point where i believe i can truly execute this project fully❣️🎉

i see your likes, your reblogs, your tags. there’s regulars i recognize and appreciate, and others just passing through who are also incredibly kind! i’ve felt unbelievably welcome here and it’s really given me a creative avenue like never before.

thank you all, genuinely, for appreciating my art (even outside of the fact that it’s supernatural!) and being the greatest cheerleaders i can have in this endeavor. i’m well and truly determined to see this through 💜

[doomordestiny]

whatever you do don’t get sappy and sentimental about the beauty of befriending people online

whatever you do don’t think about how amazing it is that people separated by oceans, timezones, or thousands of miles can still find comfort in knowing each other

whatever you do don’t get emotional about how distance does not and will never keep people from finding communities and friends that they care for as deeply as they would any irl connection

[lorlocks]

Gravity Falls has always had a special place in my heart because I too spent my summers being raised by my penny-pinching, crotchety, criminally negligent uncle. I was already 19 when the show premiered, but my sister and I were blown away by how much it reflected our own childhood.

This summer, my uncle passed away very suddenly. None of us got to say goodbye and he didn’t want a funeral, so it’s been hard to find a place to put the grief.

Then, a week later, the book of bill dropped and the Gravity Falls revival took off. I rewatched the show and it was exactly what I needed. The final episode where the kids hug Stan goodbye had me sobbing, it was a very cathartic proxy ‘goodbye.’

So I wanted to say thank you, to all my fellow fans, to the entire GF production team and to my uncle Steve. The guy that let a 10 year old drive his cherry red corvette and got our whole family banned from a fair for fist fighting a carnie.

Thank you, and see you next summer!

[jinkiesmariz]

Nobody talks about how crazy @jurygarroth s art is like jaw dropping ly pretty bEAUTIFULLL such a consistent quality and ouuuuuhgghhjjed I can’t put it into words anytime I see any bits of his work i like Fall to my knees and curl into a prayer because what the hell!!! What the hell!!! Lucy is such a nice guy too like sorry to get sappy on main but he’s so cool and silly and funny and just a pleasure to be around AND this motherfuvker has the prettiest art known to man and some of the neatest MCD headcanons Ive Seen??? Idm im just like on the floor because what the hell hes so cool we should hunt him for sport….

[xxplastic-cubexx]

sorry if you've already mentioned but what (re?)ignited your love of comics/x-men/cherik? curious because there are so many different adaptations of them

i think im gonna speak for a few (or a lot of) people when i say that TL;DR the wolverine x deadpool movie that came out this summer is what pulled me back into comics and i COULD leave it there but i will go into excruciating and unnecessary detail instead because i love an origin story and i love oversharing.

under the cut tho because im nice sometimes (there's also wxdp doodles in here. if you want to see that)

ironically (and probably commonly), growing up i was more of an avengers kid. Kinda. Loosely <- binge watched the cartoons and movies and read copious amounts of comics and fics and i am hoarding fanart in my old dresser as we speak ok 'loosely' is a modest lie.

embarrassingly i remember getting into discus cause of captain america LMAO so yeah needless to say i was a Humble Fan- me joining my school's comic class/club didnt help either (shoutout to my teach from that she was the realest one out there for. A Multitude of reasons). she definitely is was inspires me to even draw still and make comics and i often think bout the tips i learned from her class tbh she was great

back to the movies t and comics tho, i got into em because my brother would offer to take me and that's how we'd hang out (i rarely saw movies in theaters and i even more rarely went anywhere as a teenager. still kinda like that today tbh ooops) and yk. it just snowballed after that.

my brother and i have always liked comics- he just more than me for a while (though he still very much loves comics and As We Know From My Posts we still talk about them whenever i see him To An Exhausting Degree)

durin then i was really into stony and i have a few surviving doodles i made but those are between me and god. and anyone who asks tbh LOL

'snap can you make this related to x-men again this is long' ok so fast forward to This Summer again I Still Don't Really See Movies but my brother offered to take me and this was the first time i'd actually seen an x-men movie in full

as a kid i only remember seeing the 'perfection' scene between erik and raven in first class while i was channel surfing. pretty sure i changed the channel after seeing mystique naked cause i was scared my parents would get mad at me if they caught me watching it LOL

BUT MOVING ON As A Kid i think it's also natural you'll sometimes watch 92 if it's on And I Did though evidently it didn't stick too hard (i do remember really liking beast and gambit though.... still do really): my knowledge of x-men was. INCREDIBLY sparse. like diabolically so so i didnt have too much expectations (aside from the fact i vaguely liked deadpool beforehand).

tbh i dont know why my bro never took me to see any of the x-men movies. it's not like he doesn't Also like x-men (90% sure nightcrawler's his favorite but my brother will be caught dead saying he has absolute favorites like that)- he owns a bitch load of deadpool comics/omnibus sets too (of which ive read over the years and reread this year) but Shrug moving on

Much Like Most Of The Internet i fell down the rabbit hole that way. i have some doodles i made a couple days after seeing WxDP that i now have an excuse to throw at all of you Look And Perceive

and so. As I Do. i got curious and told myself i'd binge watch all the x-men movies the week before i went back to school And Then I Did ft. My Brother Sometimes and then i said i'd binge watch all of '92 and And I Did That ft. My Brother Sometimes But Less So and now we're here. currently watching Evolution...

once i got to school i realized i lived near a comic shop and started getting into the comics that way (the first ones i got since going down this rabbit hole was Magneto Was Right!, The Resurrection of Magneto, and The Trial of Magneto. if you were curious !!!!! clearly i didnt care too much about context i just needed to see My Guy jelvejlkvj i have no regrets and Evidently ive read more since)

i'm pretty sure what dragged me into cherik specifically was the fact i saw a clip of The Famous ending to 92 where erik's aghast at the notion jean even has to question his love for charles. i think that was what officially had me refocus my lens on them: not a single poolverine thought after that LOL (all the cherik posting i saw on twitter definitely helped too but that was the nail in the coffin for any other interests i had: i was locked into cherik and x-men in general now)

that clip specifically, i was surprised at the fact they- frequently even- have the x-men franchise say erik loves charles and vice versa so bluntly. even if it's not meant to be romantic, i fear im just a fan of how casually the word's thrown around with them two and i got tender bout it all. Then Yk. i just live for the drama. the hilarity even. the sincerity .... they make me sick if i think of them too long so im gonna end it here

before i go tho ironically enough, the first x-men issue i owned was This one (story a this is that while stuck in some wacko dimension charles accidentally gets himself trapped in logan's mind while utilizing his astral projection. if you were curious). pretty sure i got it for free with another comic set i got years ago since our old comic shop loved to do that, but it's poetic aint it. maybe ill doodle something referencing it..

i should probably look into finishing this arc someday im Dummy curious to even know how it started and how it ends.....

[sparrrorow-art]

yo! late as always cuz college has been killing me, but happy pride! have a celebratory Zuza - she said what she said

and i will say - please stay safe. and remember how far we've come. right now there is a lot happening in the world, my own country is being turned authoritarian by a bigoted governement who wants us dead. but we're still here. we're still here, we're still queer and we won't disappear.

[nrd-answers]

Happy New Year from the NRD Ask Blog :]

I want to start this off by saying thank you to everyone who has enjoyed my art and my characters thus far. I started this as a little one off fun event on my main blog, yet now it's exploded into this huge story with so much more engagement and support than I'd ever anticipated. It means so much to me, you have no idea

This blog pulled me through some rough patches, some crazy shit in my life, and I'm really grateful for the people who've stuck around when I was inactive (for months cough cough). You all helped motivate me to try new things with my art, and it's very encouraging to see people actually like my characters

I have so much planned for this blog, so many character arcs and art and designs, and I hope you all are excited for the story they have to tell.

Happy New Year from me, NRD, and all the other characters you have yet to meet, and thank you for listening :]

[lunarbun-ships]

shut up im posting abt him again

i forgot how much this silly billy meant to me i kinda regret letting the shitty fanbase get to me back then and dropping him from my f/o list

bro already moved up to my secondary main he is very special 2 me,,,

[javierpena-inatacvest]

Some Madeline gets super sappy on main below the cut 🥹

Tomorrow, I turn 28.

It's safe to say that 27 has been one of the best and biggest years of my life. I got married, I traveled, I started writing and posting on here, I got off birth control and turned into an uncontrollably horny mess OOPS met new friends, and most importantly, for the first time in a very long time, finally really felt like myself.

One of my favorite artists released this song yesterday (I'll put it down at the bottom), and the whole theme of the song is reflecting back on the way life used to be, and not taking the little things for granted as you grow up.

Mentally, I'm pretty sure that most of the time, I still think of myself as being 14 years old. It's hard to believe that I'm an actual adult, doing real adult things.

Fun fact about me, I've been dating my husband since I was that ripe age of 14. This year marks the first year I'll have spent half my life with my best friend, and thinking of all of the stages of life that we've been through together to get to this point really has me feeling a way. We've gone from being literal kids, going to prom together, going to college together, graduating, getting real jobs, buying a house, getting a dog, getting married and now thinking about having kids of our own. Having someone who's been by my side to watch how we've grown individually and together and has been there to cheer me on through it all is something that I'll never take for granted.

While I think there's a little part of me that will always still be that goofy 14 year old, the other part of me is so grateful that I have so much to look forward to in this next stage of life I have ahead of me. Most importantly, I think that little 14 year old version of me would be really proud of how the 28 year old version of herself turned out to be 🥺

Here's to all the things ahead in year 28, and all the things from 27 that have made me even more excited for whats to come 💛

Also if you've made it this far, you get to laugh at the little weirdos my husband were (and still are)

[capn-twitchery]

sorry for sappy on main but i wanted to say if you've left nice comments on my art or sent me an ask about my ocs in the last month, thank you so much, it really, really means the world to me!!♥︎

the past 3 or so years have been hell for me creatively for a lot of reasons, & even though it really knocked my confidence--i've been excited to draw & drawn more in the past month than i have in a Really Long Time ;; it's been nice

it's still something of a battle but thank you for helping me with it♥︎