#SHUT UP. THE WAY I CRIED

[magnusthepuppet]

i cant even say anything about the new episodes because i can barely form coherent thoughts right now. talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, never been done before—

[holyblanchett]

This entire scene from Afternoon Delight singlehandedly rewired the synapses in my brain, literally changed the trajectory of my life and affected me on a molecular level that I am forever changed.

[marymekpop]

a daily dose of sunshine & wisdom

[notcryingtoday]

you know, i might have been born so that i could meet you.

in all timelines, in all possibilities...

[the-gay-trashmouth]

I don't feel like the conversation Curly has with Jimmy right before Jimmy crashes the ship gets enough attention, because in that scene we get so much character information from both of them, completely outside of Jimmy warped perception. (Long ass ramble below the cut)

One thing I don't see brought up nearly enough is that Curly and Jimmy aren't just co-workers. They're friends back on Earth. He also brings up Jimmy's "hard times" back home, specifically bringing it up when he's trying to talk him down after he finds out Anya is pregnant. Now we don't know what exactly he means by "hard times", it could be anything from a depressive episode to a drug habit. In context though, I feel like it isn't a stretch to say it was something to do with the law, considering Jimmy is talking about having to face the consequences of assaulting Anya when they get back to Earth ("what do you think will happen when we get back?").

Some people then take the rest of what Jimmy says to mean Anya's assault was pre-planned as a way to tarnish Curly's reputation- I think this theory is bullshit. We see multiple times throughout the game that Jimmy is really good at just pulling shit out of his ass when he feels like he's cornered. He's constantly coming up with new justifications as to why he does things and how it's somehow never truly his fault. I think that's what he's doing here, making it Curly's fault for "pushing" him to extremes. "I was just so jealous of you, you're always dangling the life I want right in front of me, you don't even want it, you don't deserve it".

He's twisting his own disgusting actions into some sort of rebellion against the system, just like he always does, just to make himself out to be the poor, downtrodden layman with no other choices. A man pushed to extremes by the world around him. However, this is just Jimmy's rewriting of history, a way to shove blame off onto Curly, a way to manipulate him into going along with his plan. If he really did set out to ruin Curly's reputation he wouldn't have crashed the ship, he wouldn't try and manipulate him into going along with it by saying they could be remembered as heroes instead.

I also think this theory, once again as y'all are so eager to do, makes Anya's assault revolve around a man. It once again turns her into a plot device or means to an end rather than her own character. It shifts the focus onto Curly as the victim when she was Jimmy first and most ignored victim. Like Polle says "why are you still so concerned with HIM?"

But, anyways, by the end of that conversation- his manipulation works. Or, maybe it works. Of course we don't know exactly what's going through Curly's head, but he ends the conversation with "right..." And walks away. Either he didn't believe Jimmy when he was point blank telling him what he was going to do, or he did and genuinely bought into his manipulation for a moment, before snapping back out of it once the alarms actually sounded. Either way, the conversation ends with Curly walking away and letting Jimmy just do whatever he wanted.

That conversation also shows us a look into how Curly was "handling it". Basically throwing empty platitudes to both Jimmy and Anya. Never ever acknowledging the scale of Jimmy actions. An interesting thing to me is that, until the very end when he says "right", not once does he acknowledge what Jimmy is actually saying. Just repeating "we can fix this, you'll get through this, it's going to be fine" while Jimmy continues to talk about how he could still get away with it. It's like he barely hears him, and the same thing with Anya. Anya tells him, point blank, she doesn't feel safe. She hides the gun herself, and constantly drops hints about Jimmy, even tells him about the harassment, but time and time again he brushes it off with "I'll talk to him" and then never actually has a talk with him.

During the psych evals, Anya tells Curly she can't get through an evaluation with Jimmy. He makes sexual jokes and refuses to take her seriously. Saying "I find myself sexually attracted to the company mascot" while locked in a room with a woman who is at most a coworker you've only known for like 4-5 months during a company mandatory psych eval is at the very least non compliance, and at most sexual harassment. What does Curly say about this?

"so tell me about those horses"

And then nothing else. He doesn't get onto Jimmy about treating Anya with respect or taking this seriously. He let's him dodge questions and assures him how everything is fine. Jimmy is actively making the other crewmates jobs more difficult but Curly does. Absolutely. Nothing. And this is RIGHT AFTER he gets onto Swansea for letting Daisuke do a dangerous job. He knows how to be captain, he knows how to put his foot down, but he actively chooses not to with Jimmy, instead appealing to their history and friendship. Letting him slide with things you would NOT let a regular employee slide with.

Curly is a character defined by inaction. He didn't do anything when Anya first tells him that Jimmy makes her uncomfortable, he does nothing when she tells of the assault (off screen) or when she tells him she's pregnant (onscreen), he does NOTHING when Jimmy looks him in the eyes and tells them they can be heroes, if he just lets Jimmy fix it. That's what makes his ending all the more tragic.

His choice to do nothing until the very last second, when it's already too late and Jimmy has doomed them all, results in him not being able to do ANYTHING. he is stuck in constant pain watching as one by one his crew dies and every single time there's Jimmy, still avoiding responsibility, still manipulating the people around him, and he has to finally reconcile that this has always been who jimmy was, he was just too focused on the bigger picture to see the dead pixel.

When Jimmy gets the gun, Curly lets out what seems like something between a laugh and a sob. It's the last of Anya's predictions to come true. Anya was right, and Curly can't do a fucking thing anymore. his friend is a monster, a killer, and a rapist. He was never going to be able to "fix it", because it was never about Curly. It was about Jimmy, it was always about Jimmy and his complete need for control paired with his refusal to take responsibility.

And in the end we end up back in the party room back where Jimmy first created the character of Captain Curly in his head, the one that made it easier to blame. It's there that he makes himself the hero again, valiantly forgives poor Captain Curly and shows himself to be the selfless, responsible, perfect captain that he always saw himself as-

despite the fact that he was surrounded by the stiff remains of his crew, all of whom he'd had a hand in their death, and chewing on the leg of the only man who ever saw the good in him.

[superbellsubways]

everyone watch The Prince of Egypt neow

[shoopsthereitis]

ok so im still thinking about hadestown but also im thinking about tragedy and why I love tragedies so much. so not to once again talk about hadestown lets be real ill never shut up about it BUT there's a line in the last song:

“to know how it ends and still begin to sing it again, as if it might turn out this time”

THIS right here. its why I love orpheus and eurydice, its why I love jegulus and wolfstar, its why I love so many other stories of characters that are inherently tragedies. because it shows how beautiful love can be, even when it doesn't save you. theres something so !!!! about that. I can't even put it into words.

dont get me wrong I fucking love a happy ending, a story tied up neat and in a little bow, but oof a tragedy? a tragedy? I'm gonna eat that up every time.

[niamhthefae]

i'm sorry, is that the fucking soviet union? does their map still have the USSR on it? or did they just not realise that putting so many countries in the same colour all right next to each other would look like the USSR?

[brain-rot-hour]

[hauntingblue]

Jayce telling vi she won't make it on her own.... okay mr. projector...

[fraddit]

Not sure if I'm going to be doing these posts daily like I was before, but I was really starting to worry that I wouldn't be able to find my grove again on other fics, since I finished and posted my Big One last week. But this morning I wrote 538 words and also cried unexpectedly during one part. So things are looking good!

[zemnarihah]

pretty sure i have a kidney infection but i think everything is gonna be okay

[l0stw00d]

Also yeah uh I have a friend coming over but like, this is a Grown Up friend that I made as an Adult. And I'm the only person home. So suddenly this is less "bringing a friend round after school" and more "welcome to my humble home :) I am a human person who Lives Here :)" and let me tell you I am overthinking this in like. 8 different directions

[sieglinde-freud]

excuse the dogshit quality but loooook :)) they have unique idle sprites :333 unfortunately severas gameplay footage is in the enemy phase so they dont show if she has one and lucinas looks prettyyy normal but like. ohmmggoddd… theyre soooooo cuuuteeeeee!!

[mbat]

"you left me where i was safe" FUCK OFFF IM CRYING STOP

[heavenlysphere]

If I talk more abt pokespe disability I will go crazy over the singular child in hoenn that’s blind and can read braille because that was a writing decision that happened.