#Reasons to not leave the closet

[drag0nalias0]

Oh suddenly this isnt a safe space *retreats further into the closet*

[jheselbraum]

I don't really have a point here because none of this is strictly canon but the thing about blaming Ford in fanon for not being interested in Fiddleford in the 80s or for choosing Bill over Fidds or for not getting over his internalized homophobia long enough to get dicked down in the bunker or whatever the hell you want to call it, is that... Fiddleford wasn't available.

Fiddleford was married, he had a child. Fiddleford is the one who asked Ford if he ever thought about getting married. Regardless of what other signals Fiddleford was sending at the time or how much or how little Ford accepted them... Ford was always going to be the other man. And maybe Fiddleford is just in a lavender marriage and Emma May understood going in that Fiddleford would be sleeping with other men, but then what does that say about Fiddleford? He's longing for a relationship from so far inside the closet that he has a child. A relationship with a man who's so far in a different closet his boyfriend literally doesn't exist on the material plane.

And what is he expecting from that relationship? Is he going to go back home to Palo Alto and travel back to Gravity Falls for business and a quick fuck? Is he going to leave his wife and child to live with a reclusive scientist in the wilderness? You can "Gravity Falls isn't homophobic in the 80s" all you want but the fact remains that Emma May Dixon exists and needs to be a factor when talking about these ideas from an interpretive standpoint. Fiddleford is a practicing Catholic as of 1982. His entire family is presumably still in Tennessee. Is he expecting to leave that support network behind in favor of Ford, a man who very clearly cannot fill those roles in Fiddleford's life? A fact that becomes infinitely more relevant if we consider the possibility that Fiddleford actually loved Emma May?

Like. Idk I just so rarely see these things get talked about, because usually the idea is that Stanford Pines is Just That Repressed (he is) that he ignored Fiddleford's advances or even flat out rejected them because Bill Cipher was manipulating him (he was) but like...

Even without Bill being involved, even without all the theoretical social pressure, how viable of a romantic option is Fiddleford, anyways? He's either in his Good Luck Babe era or he's actively trying to cheat on a woman he married completely legitimately and who he genuinely loved at one point. How do you make a relationship like that work?

[theloveinc]

two took edibles now all I can think about is you being takiishi’s little drug obsessed housewife that wanders around his home and annoys the crap out of Endo for taking up so much of Chika’s weird affection even tho you’re too spacey to acknowledge it fully

[qoldenskies]

Don’t feel pressured to answer or anything because I’m mostly just thinking out loud, especially if it’s part of future plot, but I’m so curious as to what Splinter was doing during the time Donnie was in the closet. Was he even there? If he was, did the boys just tell him he was having his meltdowns or something? Splints where were you those 3 MONTHS?

Also I keep thinking about Donnie’s shark plushie in Coming Undone… that’s all <3 Do they have a name?

they intentionally threw splinter off the trail! he's very in and out of their lives at times (like how he doesnt really know most of what they get into when they patrol) and donnie has already taken,, well, more emotional and physical distance from him compared to mikey, for example (this is shown through things like donnie asking splinter for advice to be "drastic measures", he has some BAGGAGE he is not acknowledging with his dad), so paired with them intentionally keeping things away from him and him leaving the lair more (i like to imagine he's taken up dating again.... get it splinter!!! so sorry about the trauma demon that has just taken your family though) it was kind of inevitable. donnie sees him around quite a bit and there's some skips through time so its not like he disappeared completely after crying to him about what was going on, but for the last month splinter didnt see him at all :( im sure he was aware SOMETHING was going on because they were all acting off, but he didn't catch anything until he came back to the lair after the curse broke and immediately walked into raph and leo trying to kill each other (they were hysterical with stress and didnt mean it, dont worry about it)

its just another case of seeing signs but not having the full picture. april, for example, knew about the distance donnie was taking from her the whole time (she very correctly clocked what he was doing on the rooftop) but even with their communication improving she didn't want to overwhelm him especially because he likes to double down,,, she regrets that now. most of the excuses from the other three were along the lines of "he's having a bad day/doesn't want to hang out right now" which is unfortunately very effective because donnie can turn into a recluse at times already, and why would they assume theyre intentionally trying to isolate him?

as for the shark plushie, donnie to me is the type of person who will she/her everything he owns and talk to objects so she DEFINITELY has a name, he probably picked a longer one like genevieve or eleanor or something. they all forget everything all of the names he gives things so they just call it The Shark Plushie. maybe ill pick one and bring her back for canary continuity, she's a queen

[shirogane-oushirou]

no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.

i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.

[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!

also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]

[jellyshark-jester]

Currently having a breakdancing session with myself<333

[flashbcaks]

sometimes.... transitioning is not an option currently. I wish all these posts telling ppl to take the initiative could take that into account.

[deus-ex-mona]

wishing a certain few coworkers a very merry

[qualityrain]

lowk annoyed everytime people act like the main reason why kotaro and shinpei do those stuff is romantic jealousy like guys ik this is a romance manga but cmon. not everything is abt romance. ok. theres so many other reasons and to boil it down into romantic jealousy is so 💀

[wawataka]

i had this button up shirt i really liked cuz it was bright blue and the two sides were mismatched so i bought it, wore it once, it stained me blue, and then it disappeared. that was three years ago. i have not found it since

[roseofcards90]

Stuff that almost feels like a dream, I was walking the dogs in the cold night in the neighborhood and it was strangely comforting, I appreciated the silence of it at least lol

[hooved]

i know everyone's told me to rest because i'm sick but i just can't. it doesn't feel right. i need to do everything i can rn because i'm scared that any second we'll be told to get out NOW

[todayisafridaynight]

what's also great about the ichi watch is that the gold and red goes well with the arakawa-inspo outfit i have..

[upthewerewolves]

I really hate that the default for all social media now is “mmm give us all your contacts unghh don’t you want us to recommend your profile to everyone you’ve ever known!!!” Because why the fuck did I make an alt account on IG so I could post art on there and immediately I’m getting followed by my entire extended family? I don’t even have any fucking posts up yet. So dead in the water before I even started, thanks.

[wastelandbabyblue]

People who think elk “moved out” of the house 😂 as if she ever lived there based on the dirty floors and outdated furniture that hasn’t been changed since 2011? Louis uses that place as a storage

maybe she likes apocalyptic vibes, we should consider that

[existentialflirt]

*kicks in door and runs in panting*

What if Xander is an egg and a lot of the friction in his relationships (with women), both romantic and other wise, is because they represent someone he wants to be? That someone being also a woman.