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I love coming out of therapy with the realizations that things are so much worse that I ever imagined. I'm grieving things I hadn't ever once thought about before today
#Oversharing in the internet times#Therapy#Ptsd#(Cpstd? Not sure I'm ready to accept that one yet)#My therapist: when do you feel safe? Me bursting into tears#Realizing that the answer is never#My therapist: who takes care of you?#My therapist: that makes sense you fought against pain your whole life#The torture thing was a relatively short period in your life#My therapist:make a list of what you've eatentoday me fuckkkkk#My therapist: let's make a list of the times you've felt out of control me immediately reliving some truly horrific things uM#My therapist: so tell me why you feel alone#My therapist: there's nothing wrong with you me bursting into tears again bc fuck does it feel like it and I didn't even know#Tell me why my last session was so intense and for what like pick a topic for the day goddamn
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OK JUST A LITTLE THING BECAUSE IM INSANE @cubbihue
Song: Plastic by Cheekface
#IDENTITY HORROR MY BELOVED#I want to watch him fall apart#I need him to explode#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#animation#animatic#art#digital art#fanart#body horror#I sent in an anon ask a bit ago about Chimmy being able to accidentally destroy himself if he realized what he was#and that idea makes me so so so crazy#The slow dawning horror that you arent yourself#followed by the horrific deterioration of your body as a direct result of your knowlege#like a punishment you cant undo#a horrible cycle of falling to pieces reinforcing this horrific reality and that horrific reality tearing you to pieces#you know now. you cant go back even if you want to#and the visual symbolism body horror of literally falling into pieces. AGHGhgh he's hollow in there just so you know#He could stick his whole arm in and not reach the back of his skull its just a dark pit completely hollow and unnatural#I like to think if you looked deep enough you could see stars#AUGHGH STRIPPING CHARACTERS OF THEIR HUMANITY MY BELOVED#removing even their basest comforts. Even their body isnt familiar to them anymore#Its this strange horrifying thing. What will it do next? Was it ever theirs? Should they be afraid?#and in my hands the answer will always be yes#Sorry Im going insane I love your au#I like characters who cling on to humanity that can never be theirs ♥
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Demon Twin AU but Damian has been seeing ghostly visages of his twin slowly growing up with him
So, the Danny Damian Twin AUs! They're fun!
But what if, when Danny fakes his death/is killed, he actually dies and becomes a halfa as a kid? Danny because he is Danny, has the great idea to live a double life upon figuring out he can be both ghost and human!
As a human, he goes to America where he gets adopted by the Fentons and live as Danny Fenton
I headcanon that halfas are very adaptable and basically get powers according to their needs. So he figures out how to portal.
As a ghost, Danny stays around Damian and helps him out. Sometimes he slips up and Damian sees Phantom right next to him.
To Damian, this is the Pit Ghost of his brother who has come back to haunt him, made even worse when he realizes that Danny is also growing exactly at the rate he was despite being dead. He thinks that Dannys last wish was to grow up with Damian that's why he's doing that.
It gets even worse for Damian when he realizes the ghost of his dead twin brother has been helping him invisibly the entire time and it's possible that that's why Danny's staying around
Now, I need you to picture one of the Batfam seeing Danny
Imagine them asking him about it
Imagine Damian having to explain that the ghost of his dead brother sometimes accompanies him
Of course, on Danny's human side of things, the Fentons finally made that portal and he has to take up being a hero in Amity Park. Meaning he has less time to look over Damian.
What does this look like to Damian?
It looks like his brother is fading away slowly because Danny's decided Damian is now in a safe place
This all comes to a head when Danny disappears for a long time, long enough for Damian to think he's gone gone
And then Danny comes back and he's injured or maybe he has a baby Ellie and for the first time in years actually talks to Damian and asks for help
#dpdc#dcdp#danny fenton#damian wayne#demon twins#also think of how bruce would react to the fact that the ghost of his dead son has been haunting his other son#imagine talia didnt know either#because damian has been keeping it secret#so they dont take away the only thing left of his brother#why did danny not talk to damian all those years?#it could be the angst of damian killing him#or it could be the crack of danny never realizing what it looked like from damians pov#the reason i added deaged ellie possibility is because i want to see damian panicking at the idea that his brother became a teen dad#did they receive sex ed before danny died??#damian having no idea how ghost sex works tries to figure it out by subtly interrogating danny#the answers make everything worse#dpxdc#dcxdp
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#okay yeah yeah everyone already knows why i draw them together so ofter#but you know what's funny. that it's not possible#it was never planned to be in the story; for many reasons it will never be in the story#it just kinda appeared on it's own when they started interacting#i also would like to address a person who wrote me an ask (which i will answer later. i reblogged the ask game and realized I'm too tired)#“pauk and the wanderer 26”#“How would these characters react to being stuck in a small room with each other?”#you know damn well what image you were putting inside my head#you know#pauk#the wanderer
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*stares at disciple SQQ falling into the abyss au*
oh you are so "SY-is-SJ" coded. You are so "fell into the abyss and suddenly remembered that oh i've been Shen Jiu this whole time, not just Shen Yuan. we are one and the same". you are so 'crumbling under the weight of the system and being in the abyss and the despair of never really being free and having suffered in both lives' built. you are so 'scrambling to come to terms with your existence and battling with which life is really yours, only to realize that they both are'. You are primed for going off the rails.
I'm so normal about this guys. i promise.
#svsss#mxtx svsss#svsss au#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#scum villian self saving system#scum villian#svsss role reversal au#IF I MAKE IT SY-IS-SJ THERE'S NO STOPPING ME FROM MAKING THIS AU QIJIU. LIKE IT MUST BE QIJIU IF I GO THAT ROUTE.#grinding my teeth. grips you by the shoulders tightly#the angst of YQY finding out SQQ fell into the endless abyss and falling into a despair that he couldnt save him AGAIN. him trying to go#through hell and high water trying to get him back. him and LBH are losing their shit. also the idea that YQY existed in SY's world too#not as an older brother but as a close childhood friend who was there for him for years up until their HS years where something happened#that caused a falling out. but YQY keeps trying to rekindle that friendship and never can in that world bc SY dies before they can reconnec#SQQ realizing that he misses YQY like a limb and thinking that if he sees him again he'll demand answers for his supposed abandonment but#also he just wants to hug him. just once. and then maybe punch him. not in that order. its the doomed soulmates guys. its the reconnection#obsessed obsessed obsessed. like HMMMM. SQQ knows YQY's fate from the book and the idea makes him so nauseous he has to sit down#bingqiu is fantastic but ALSO. QIJIU. 'SY-is-SJ' is decidedly perhaps my favorite trope for the time being if only for the pure and utter#self-hatred SY and SJ are going to inflict on each other. its about the mental breakdown guys. especially with chronically ill SY.#SJ hating SY for being sick. for being a shut in. they are a reflection of each other they ARE each other and they hate themselves#holding back from going off the rails about 'SY-is-SJ' au combined with him falling into the abyss#'no light no light' by florence and the machines is this au guys. ive decided it now
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when ur murderous puppy dog of an ex-boyf defends ur honor or something
#do you feel favored by him daniel#daniel ricciardo#max verstappen#f1#maxiel#*#**#hungarian gp 2023#max getting very agitated in first gif 😵💫#imagine you're daniel getting ready to answer a stupid and inflammatory question and then your#(friend? colleague? ex-teammate? the one that got away?) interrupts and calls them out for you#something something realizing you'll never have to be alone
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don’t ask me why i’m back at midnight i don’t know either. BUT EEEEEE
thinking about wolf!toji who when he finally gets comfy w touch and you are all comfy w teasing him and playing w his hair and ears and out of nowhere he nips your arm w his teeth
he’s just as surprised as you are— the action just came out of nowhere and just before he opens his mouth to apologize profusely and retreat into his old ways, terrified of becoming someone you are afraid of, you giggle.
“did you just chomp me to get me to stop? you’re the cutest thing ever!”
and he’s once again reminded of your near foolish fearlessness when it comes to him. how you trust him entirely and would never even fathom him in that angry, mean way he used to embody. no, from the looks on your face you’re just barely restraining yourself from grabbing his cheeks and cooing like a grandmother.
“yeah, and next time ‘m taking a finger with me”
okay i’m sorry im done I shall leave you be
OKAY SAGE SERIOUSLY ARE YOU IN MY HOUSE??? THE WAY I LITERALLY HAVE A SCENE WHERE TOJI TRIES TO PLAYFULLY BITE YOUR FINGER IN THE NEXT CHAPTER....
anyways yes i fully believe he would snap his chompers at you the way dogs do... obviously not to hurt but that's just their way of playing yk??? first time he does it he literally goes rigid. you’re being silly, sitting next to him on the couch and poking at his ears without a care in the world. he rolls his eyes at the antics—you seem to enjoy the way his ears flick every time you touch them. he halfheartedly tells you to quit it and yet makes no effort to get you to stop, too busy focusing on your quiet giggles.
and then without any warning, he finds his teeth nipping at your arm. you freeze. he freezes. he knows it wasn't hard enough to draw blood but it appalls him that he even bared his fangs at you in the first place. the guilt that washes over him is almost dizzying, intensified by a strange sense of fear. that's it—he's now exposed himself as the uncontrollable animal he's always been. you'll see it now, just how dangerous and scary he is.
he's waiting for your anger with bated breath, but all he hears is a chime of laughter. he glances at you, and finds the most amused grin he's ever seen. "i hope you know that lil chomp is not stopping me."
he blanches. "that... it didn't hurt?"
you raise a brow. "of course not. it basically felt like a tickle."
toji's head spins. the way you catch him off guard is scary. he always needs to backtrack and remember that you don't view him through that lense—that to you he's nothing more than an overgrown puppy. which, to him, is extremely ridiculous. but only someone as naive as you could stare at a wolf hybrid who has known nothing but violence and say that his teeth are nothing but a tickle. you are so stupidly compassionate, sweet in a way that warms his tongue—addicting and vice-like.
"you know these teeth have bitten off literal flesh, right?" he questions. you grin, eyes crinkling in a strangely familiar way.
"so? not like they'd do anything to me." your smile is blindingly smug, and toji's shoulders relax. once again, you are too trusting. it infuriates him—how correct you are. there is a pulse against his ribcage that seems to steadily speed up the longer he looks at you. so frustrating.
you reach up and jab your pointer finger into his cheek, and he doesn't think twice before trying to snap at it. your laughter echoes through his ears as you pull your hand away quickly, and the wry grin on his face seems all too natural.
"not do anything, huh? careful, next time 'm taking that finger with me."
#[𐐪— lovely mutuals. 𐑂]#— sage <3#HHHHHHHH SAGE IM SO UNWELL#HE WOULD ABSOLUTELY DO IT MORE WHEN HE REALIZES YOU LIKE IT#idiot (affectionate)#you lil genius mwah mwah#sorry for not answering this immediately i had so many thoughts and needed to write it all out#also never leave me be wtf??? bother me forever#especially about wolf toji mhm#anyways yes wolf toji certified biter it's canon#toji x reader#toji fushiguro x reader#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#wolf toji#tsbcac
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Do you think, at first, people would call Papyrus's name and he wouldn't respond. After all, its his name but it isn't his name, so it would take some getting used to hearing associated with him (even if there's no other alternative he knows about)
Oh YES
That happened a lot at the beginning, JUST after the incident, during the first Papyrus days
I'm planning to expand on that a LOT more on the comic but here is something in the meantime
I forgot to write things on the list, but it's too late now
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#GOOOOOOD THE ART ON THE FIRST PAGE TURNED OUT SOOOOOO PRETTY I CAN'T#AAAAAA#Ah yes#Papyrus never takes off those gloves#or the other ones he has or the others#or the long ones#first time doing a sans joke I don't think it's good I agree with papyrus#trying to write sans I realized I'm not very funny and can't make puns lmao but I'll try for him#forgettable-au#answered ask#undertale au#papyrus!gaster#papyrus#papyrus is gaster#undertale#sans#undertale comic#undertale fanart#sans undertale
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thinking fondly of you<3 want to ditch the kids and go to a winery this weekend? (drink some red wine(supernova))
also thinking fondly about jaytim. specifically, about how oftentimes we think of them as a slow burn… but you know what might make them a fast burn (an explosion?)?
one of them gets kidnapped and everyone thinks they’re dead:( but then they’re alive
Always, love, I'm sure they'll be happy to spend some time with their favorite familial babysitters, I'll give them a call tonight🍷💥
And OUGH. Yes. SUCH a classic action hero hurt/comfort trope, I'm always here for mortal peril being the trigger that forces a couple to realize what they mean to each other and that they WANT to take that chance!!
I am reminded strongly of one of feyburner's comics that I love so much... in this comic they were hooking up beforehand and this is the scenario that like. Makes it emotionally REAL for Tim and i love that sooo much... but also OwO
thinking about The Scenario:
One of them is kidnapped. Due to inspo in part from feyburner's comic, I'm thinking Jason. But it's been so long/the method in which he was taken leads everyone to believe that Jason's dead. EVERYONE. Tim included. Thinking that he's dead hits Tim harder than expected. Why? It doesn't make sense. I didn't even like him that much, what the fuck.
But he goes after the bastards who did it twice as hard, ridden by this sharp grief he didn't know he would feel. He's on a warpath. He's chasing down leads, shaking down goons, snapping at everyone that it doesn't matter that Jason's already dead this is about justice this is about vengeance this is about preventing it from happening again-- and finally finds the Organization's big base. Their big HQ.
Methodically he goes about tearing it down, one-man guerrilla style. As he moves through the complex, KO'ing goons, sabotaging weapons and computers, hell he might even rig this place to blow--
He picks up chatter about moving the 'livestock' and 'dealing with the troublemaker' and figures there must be human prisoners here. Possibly trafficking victims. He's been raising all kinds of hell, and security is just now going on alert as they find the evidence of his entry--
--when over one of the radios on the goons he just took out, Tim hears a very familiar and very alive voice taunting the Organization that he's out. They should have killed Jason when they had the chance.
Tim immediately factors Jason and the victims into his plans, gets in contact with Jason over the radio (full mission mode, no time for feelings or explanations yet) to work together on bringing this place down.
So by the time things are cleared up-- bad guys busted, victims rescued, base blown to smithereens-- Tim has been wildly coming to grips with the fact that Jason is alive after all and the confusing rush of emotions that's inspired in him, but Jason still has no idea that everyone thought he was dead.
So when Tim finally sees Jason in person, missing half his gear and still wearing the clothes he was snatched in, dirty and bloody and asking what took him so long-- he's not exactly thinking clearly, okay? Kissing him was a purely adrenaline/relief fueled action.
"Woah," Jason breathes once Tim gives him the chance. "What was that for?" "Thought you were dead," Tim muffles against the skin of Jason's throat. His pulse beats hard against Tim's cheek, his lips, sternly refuting the allegations. "Oh," Jason says, bowled over and bewildered. He's still holding Tim with an arm around his waist, his other hand cupping the back of his head, big and steady. "Well. I'm not." Tim squeezes tighter, his fists trembling in the back of Jason's shirt. Jason is solid, and warm, and alive-- and Tim might be in love with him. "Yeah," he apologizes. "Sorry. Had to check." Tim's clearly stumped him. "Huh." Tim doesn't let go. But neither does Jason. Jason clears his throat. "You know, I don't have the best track record with being alive after all," he says in a rambling tone so casual it makes Tim's chest hitch. "You maybe wanna... check again?"
#gotta be one of my favorite action hero romance tropes lolol#jaytim#don't worry wifey i am still brooding over that pirates au ask fjdlksjfsa i'm hoping to get to it another night i prommy <33#🍷💥anon#asked and answered#the vibe with this is absolutely tim only realizing how he feels after jason is ''''dead''''#and jason getting kissed within an inch of his life and going 'oh shit. u kno i never thought about it? but now that it's happening? y e s'#and then they have 'thank god you're not dead' sex on the plane home or smth lol#or if this is a more local HQ they have 'thank god you're not dead' sex at the nearest safehouse#tim cries it's great#my writing#didn't realize how long this was slapping a read more on it lol
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Hello, could I request the cute little turn TK does after talking about olive oil to remove spiders from someone's ear, before the surprise party at the firehouse 😊🤗. No pressure at all it not possible 🥰.
#911 lone star#my gifs#gif request#apologies for how long this took to answer - I had intended to link my set of him being surprised that included this moment#and then I realized today that I never did!!! and this was just sitting in my inbox!!!#SO you get a bonus bigger gif of the moment LOL#tk strand
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hiiii
I really like your comic with Leo and Donnie (whose dead)
Hi hello! 🙌✨
Ohmigosh I almost forgot about that comic!! Reeee! Thank you so much! 🤗✨ I loved drawing ghost Donnie and Karai 💜🩵 got me reminiscing about this panel fr
I'm a sucker for drawing spirits ngl hehe..
#ace answers#realizing i never had a solid ending to this comic..#hehe...oops?#i'm glad you liked it tho anon thank you!!#:)
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yo, do you have any screenshots where leo has the glow stuff on his markings? (Not sure what it’s called I’m stupid)
Can do!
#sp3ci4lk4y#answer#requests#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#anatawa hitorijanai#leo#rise#the movie#i never realized that his shell also glowed#donnie#raph#mad dogs#april#shredder#casey jr.
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CLARK FINDING OUT BRUCE'S HAIR IS CURLEYYYYY
It’s funny for two possible reasons: 1) Bruce looks even hotter with his hair mussed, sweaty, and starting to curl (duh) or 2) Clark is like WAIT, you have curly hair too?
#man’s been telling Superman’s hair back for years and never realized#that his closest ally and friend is also doing the same#it looks so silky on tv!!#yeah Clark it’s called hair products#what do YOU use on your hair#don’t answer that it’s probably L’Oréal isn’t it#bruce wayne#batman#dc#asks#anon#clark kent#superman
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Hello, hello! Could I request Tesla, Leonidas, and Hades getting a hidden blowjob from their s/o as they're trying to speak to someone?
His private office hours still had a few moments left on them. So they thought they would be safe. But, never under estimate the impatience and impertinence of young, eager grad students.
“Professor Tesla! May I please speak to you about my thesis report?”
“Good God man!” Tesla shouted as he slid into his desk with a loud bang. Hopefully just his chair hitting the edge, and not his partners head against the oak under the desk. “What is it now??”
“M..My thesis report…” The young man repeated. “You said you would look at it this afternoon and it’s 11:58 now.” Tesla ignored the urge to remind him that 11:58 would not ‘afternoon’ but that fact would seem lost on him.
He took the lad’s paper and began reading the first few lines. When suddenly he felt something warm on his still erect cock. Being a genius, he obviously knew what it was immediately, and cleared his throat as he adjusted his legs to close them and keep [Y/N] out. Unfortunately, he was also dating a genius, and they quickly moved past the weak barricade of his knees and began sucking him again.
“Yes, yes. This looks fine.” Tesla said in a rush as handed the papers back to his student.
“But Professor, you haven’t even read half of it.”
“Yes well what I have read looks fine.” His voice jumped when the head of his cock hit the back of their throat. The swallowing motion of the muscles constricting around it in a warm, wet vice. He suddenly had the urge to study anatomy to discover how they were able to do that.
"But Professor, how can I improve my thesis is you won’t give me notes! You promised me that you would give me feedback before I submit, and I don’t want to disappoint you. Professor Tesla, are you ok?"
Clearly the young man was starting to realize the beads of sweat by his neck from Tesla having to keep his moans and impulses down. Or perhaps he could hear the wet smacking of [Y/N]’s lips as the ran up & down his erection, because it was all he could hear even as he was talking. Or perhaps he could tell that he was seconds away from cumming right in front of one of his students.
In any case, he just snapped.
“GOOD GOD MAN! Show some initiative! I never sought out the gratification from my peers, and look at me now! If you think your thesis needs work than do it! Do not flagellate yourself at the alter of your betters to improve your station, DO THE WORK!”
The young man seemed both terrified and mortified by his shouting, and quickly grabbed his papers and rushed out the door. Tesla’s head hung a little and he little out a quiet, “I’m sorry” towards the open door.
He was quickly brought back, however, when his cock was again gulped all the way back down [Y/N]’s throat, and he moaned softly as he reached under the desk to hold their head their. Moving his hips forward only twice before he came down their throat.
“That was very cruel of you.” Tesla scold once he had wheeled his chair out. Glaring sternly at their pristine picture, despite having done something so lewd & inappropriate, as they dotted the corner of their mouth with a handkerchief delicately. His cock eagerly twitched at the image.
“I’m not the one that yelled at the young man.”
Tesla turned his head away at [Y/N]’s perfect retort and sat their ashamed for a moment before he adjusted his pants. “I’ll review his paper later.” He muttered. “But I’m not the one who suggested this little dalliance.”
“You certainly didn’t stop it either.” Damn their perfect retorts. “You should also maybe think of apologizing.”
“I…will.” Tesla thought that apologies were for the common man. But since he was being very common when he lost his temper (an animal really, driven by baser instincts) he supposed he should apologize just this once.
“I’ll see you later. In my office? For my turn?” [Y/N] teased gleefully before giving Tesla a peck on the cheek.
To which he went read face and shouted, “certainly not!” after them. Despite his cock twitching even more in his pants.
#;ask and ye shall receive (request answers)#record of ragnarok tesla#ror tesla#record of ragnarok#record of ragnarok scenarios#record of ragnarok imagine#ror imagine#ror scenarios#scenarios#imagine#shuumatsu no valkyrie#snv tesla#nikola tesla#tesla x reader#nikola tesla x reader#[I know this was meant for multiples but I realized I never did just a Tesla one. so I just went with my best one :3]
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Could we see more of your farmer interacting with Shane? Hugging, kissing, general touching 🙈 They're just so cute tgt i love them 🥹
theyre just kissing 😳😏
#stardew valley#stardew valley shane#shane stardew valley#stardew shane#shane stardew#sdv shane#shane sdv#stardew#sv shane#my art#OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING 😭this made me feel happy heehehe#also. sorry i couldnt be normal in answering this lmfaooo#btw ive had these two for like 2 years and i realized ive never even drawn them kissing. but i have in fact. drawn them inappropriately#goodnight everyone
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What are the ages of the characters???? (at list for the humans)
Spike: 19
Sparkplug: 42
Raoul: 21
Carly: 20
Chip: 19
they age as the plot gose on, but this their ages at the start.
#realized i never listed their ages anywhere woops#Carly#spike witwicky#chip chase#raoul#sparkplug witwicky#transformers fan continuity#transformers#tfs#transformers synergize#ask answering#text post
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