#RANT OVER i think its getting too personal
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kanghan dangerous romance (trips and falls down the stairs)
#gaiaxyposting#dangerous romance#mini (Hopefully) ramble incoming#ive been thinking about kanghan 'walking emotional neglect symptom checklist' for a while now#ever since that interview where perth described kanghan as someone who has everything except love#so much of his behaviour like how he always hesitates to believe he can achieve anything#and how he chases after sailom's praise. even the way hes so prone to crying#it all makes so much sense when you see it that way#and even the way kanghan's reactions to his dad seem disproportionate to how his dad talks to him (earlier in the series)#which can indicate many things! but it also makes me think about how often the effects of emotional neglect are viewed#because its perceived to not be as bad as other forms of abuse (spoiler alert! it is)#theres a bit more going on with kanghan but this ^ is likely a problem thats been going on for a While#kanghan is relatively well adjusted id say. the fact that hes able to express to his grandma that he felt neglected by his dad is Good#RANT OVER i think its getting too personal#i care him :(
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one of these days i need the full story of your dnd mishap
😭😭😭 please
the short story is our party had three people (2 players + DM) who thought we were playing a fun friendly magical campaign and two people who wanted to recreate a critical role campaign amongst themselves...i think if youre familiar w cr you might immediately see the issue there.
long story is people put WAY way too much personal shit into their characters and almost immediately started taking the actions of characters as genuine irl slights and like. two sessions in had already lost sight of the difference between the pc and the player.
oh shit this got really long im sorry i dont think you care This much but i havent thought about it in a while and it bewilders me every time-
SO i was playing a cunty rogue and had TOLD everyone 'hey she is probably gonna clash w the party at first, but she'll warm up to everyone really fast, so dont worry about that' like it was clearly in the spirit of building a realistic character who had her own hangups etc. which i assumed the others would understand bc they'd done the same. plus is it not boring and unreal asf if a bunch of strangers meet after a murder of someone close to them and all just get along immediately w no suspicions or secrecy? cmon man.
and yet. the two cr-people got really weird about my pirate character stealing (???) and sincerely pulled the dm aside to express their concerns about the 'level of violence being enacted' and asked that we all try to be aware of what class of people we did crimes against. like. they wanted me to stop stealing from the 99% and ask everyone if they were rich before i picked their pocket ig. ALL THE WHILE. ONE OF THE OFFENDING PCS WAS IN THE MAFIA?????? LIKE. DIRECTLY EMBEDDED IN THE MAFIA THAT RAN THE TOWN.
i suppose that pc was off the hook bc he did possess the elf cock that the other guy wanted so bad, so. love won. i guess.
anyway they ended up taking hours out of our sessions to just dialogue-rp about slowly falling in love in a complex way or something. except then the non-elf player was like 'actually, dm, can you give me a love interest npc i need to add more depth to my character.' or smth, to which our dm lovingly crafted a beautiful working class hero of a guy. which the pc proceeded to hard reject. what was the point of any of this? we may never know<3
need to be clear as well this was all happening over discord bc we all live in different timezones, my very close friend was up at 2AM for this bullshit every week. AND he didnt even KNOW these other people very well, but suddenly theyre finding fault w not just his character but him as a PERSON? i just rmrd they accused him of like.....negatively influencing me??? like. MORALLY???? brother we have been friends for 10 years you are nothing to us you dont know us like that lol.
but they did REALLY really hate my character, which eventually made me feel like shit all the time bc like. obviously im putting work into her, its a creative construction and to have it railed against that badly is not fun. so i said ok you know what, ill just make a new character, hopefully thatll keep the peace and we can salvage this.
so i pitch a new character and oh they LOVE her. they fucking love her concept. which was so.........the first character was a lot easier for me to play bc she was a little more like me, and this character was specifically the opposite....how am i meant to take that reaction, yknow
which also reminds me: the original pirate rogue i played was a tiefling (yeah yeah gay stereotype i know. im not subtle or original, whatever) and there was a complaint (made only half-jokingly, ykwim) that she was too white.
shes not even HUMAN what the fuck do you mean shes too WHITE. IM not white that should imbue any character i create w an inherent not-whiteness. but even still, again, she is half sea creature. shes not. human. to be assigned a race like that....hello??
anyway so these two cr-rp players eventually blocked me and my friend on tumblr without saying anything, and got confused when we found out and said 'yeah ok we dont wanna play dnd with some guy who has blocked us on other social media' as if WE were the weirdos. like they saw no problem w continuing this disastrous campaign as long as they got their mandatory monologue time.
the worst part is my dm made SUCH a stunning campaign and world and it was so so so fun outside of this mess, i still feel really bad they never got to realise the world fully. plus my character had a sickass backstory thing where she was like. slowly unlocking latent magic the longer she spent underwater bc her demon parent was abyssal and stuff. which is whatever but the sick part is she was developing SCALES and maybe GILLS. in like a nasty gorey way it was gonna be so cool. but noooo lets talk about strange morality and your lameass god for 1.5 hrs. at 11pm on a friday.
#ask#anonymous#sorry i will just never be over this#im a super evolved mellow person now but i will never ever ever forgive or forget this shit#im not even covering half of it i dont think and i def dont think this is coherent#but its fun to rant like a lunatic sometimes#anyway nyx you will always be famous baby!! they could never make me hate you!!! wild magic sorcerer cuntress<3#also to be so fair. i came into it w a bit of a bias against one of the pcs bc i hate warlocks fredhjcnkdsc#UNLESS youre doing smth funny w them idgaf about a warlock boo hoo you had to buy your magic. loser#but whatever it was a fucking mess. and i was still a people pleaser back then so i really tried hard to make my pc fit and be liked#which was lame in hindsight she should have torn them apart gfhdvjncx#edit: oh and the dmpc lay down after a meal at a campfire while we were travelling and i as an annoying ass player said#'dm your npc is going to get reflux if she lies down right after a meal' and my dm said 'can you shut up for 5 seconds ever?' and i said#'ok but if she is too sick to fight later dont blame me!' and the dm rolled for reflux#guess what happened to the npc.
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my niece stayed with us last night. it was pretty fun this time, probably because I was feeling better (if I'm already in pain or exhausted, I can't handle it). after we dropped her off, we talked to my mother for a little bit, and then drove to my in-laws. we were there for a few hours and because the guys were busy outside, i ended up talking to my mother-in-law for most of that time. it was... kind of good? I don't know. she actually showed some real emotions, just a little bit, but hey that's more than ever before! I even gave her a weird little shoulder squeeze/side hug, it was so weird.
anyway, I almost fell asleep in the car on the way home because I was so tired, and actually did fall asleep immediately on the couch.
#it's pretty annoying because my mother-in-law of course asked me how applying for jobs is going. I haven't applied for a single one yet#bc dude I can barely get through the day. I sleep for 12-16 hours a day. and I'm almost always in some kind of pain. and I'm not doing so#good mentally either. come on! I interacted with a handful of people in one day and had to sleep for like 6 hours.#anyway so I said it's a bit difficult because I'm constantly tired - it felt like the only thing she might kind of understand?#annnd she said its probably a vitamin D deficiency and I should get that tested (I won't because I'd have to pay for that and also I think I#read that taking vitamin D supplements doesn't actually help? I can't remember now and I don't want to look it up bc I know it definitely is#not the only or even main reason I am always tired.#I took vitamin D tablets for several months last year (?) bc my previous GP recommended it and. it did absolutely nothing at all#plus. like. I can't sleep. I sleep like shit. always. so. idk? that definitely doesn't help#and I sleep more when I'm in pain and all that too. so.#and she knows I have a bunch of health issues but. nope it's vitamin D because that's one thing and it's simple and here take a pill you're#fine now! wait why aren't you fine now? oh I guess you're just lazy 🙄#< that's 100% how that would go#ugh. Just let me sleep for 5-10 years. maybe that'd fix me....#like. I'm trying to get myself back (?) to being an actual human person again. I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with me. I'm trying to#live and not feel like I'm drowning every fucking day#finding a job is only gonna add more stress and exhaustion and everything. if I want to try to help myself this is the time to do it#okay rant over I'm going to sleep now#personal
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I hate being in between friend groups cause I'm SUCH a person that rambles about shared interests and tells people about their known interests but when all my current friend groups have been distant and/or aren't watching The Thing I Know They'll Like and won't for an unspecified amount of time but also get upset over spoilers... it sucks cause I feel very alone :( the shared interest thing is just one part of the equation but its certainly the quickest to notice. I'm never people's first and that's fine but it sucks when I feel like I don't have anyone yknow?
#im used to bouncing between discord channels yelling over new life series for a whole day when new episodes drop#versus now i havent had ONE good conversation and when i brought it up to the previous group chat no ones watched it :/#like i said this is compounded with the group chat has been dying in general and me being the most stable person there#but why is it always ME? why is it me that always gets left behind? why have i never been anyone's first thought?#the times where im in between friend groups is when i think i should just forego friendships all together and focus solely on my projects#but so often those projects need people to help. its so hard to create in a vaccuum#idk im just tired. its after dark so i shouldnt contemplate on my life too much#becca rambles#becca rants into the void of tumblr
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sorry i just. need to rant for a second
#cause dude the whole joost situation is SO fucking upsetting#he's mentioned over and over again how overwhelming this whole overnight success thing has been for him and to respect his boundaries#and instead of yk respecting his wishes “fans” go and make things worse by constantly overstepping and being creepy and weird like hello???#like why can't we all just be normal and take a step back and enjoy things#these people are gonna end up driving him off the internet and i wouldn't blame him one bit#and the worst part is the people who should get the memo obviously don't (or refuse to) bc this isn't an isolated instance#like its been going on for a while now#idk man i just think about how hard it must be for him rn#one of the things that turned me into a joost fan (besides his music) was his personality#like i obviously dont know him on a personal basis#but from the little bits ive seen he comes across as a really genuine and sweet and kind dude#super thoughtful as well. like i just love the way he thinks and his take on things#like i remember watching his eurovision interviews and just thinking oh man this dude's a ray of sunshine LMFAO#also the literal definition of resilience like dude's been through so much stuff and hes always managed to come out on top despite of it#and thats something i really admire about him too. like the way he put it as not letting your traumas be just that#but also something that can drive you forward#but yeah dude's had more than enough like he deserves to be happy and have some peace and ppl keep ruining it for him and it makes me upset#like i actually slept like shit last night and woke up feeling terrible and i wonder if what went down yesterday w the whole live thing#has anything to do with it lmfao#and you may be like ok well youre taking it too personally and letting it affect you#and yeah maybe youre right LOL but i cant help it i care about the guy and i want him to be okay#he seems to have a really good support system though so i hope things blow over soon and he can finally have some peace#anyway. rant over! 💋#raquel speaks
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I would like. To be in mutual love
#rant#yeah...#...........................................................................................................................................#look its like this. im chronically ill. i know its not totally up to me i cant go out 1-3 times a week trying ro meet ppl. i know i#cant even eat some days my tummy too upset. cant work some days cant even sit up. can barely keep up witj friends i already have#and i know the being drained wont get better. i might be this sick forever. and i know im prioritizing my own art over#meetjng strangers. thats a choice. i know its my own fault im lonely. i also just. i wanna build a relationship#that long term where u meet and become friends then best friends then fall in love and hey if ur lucky marry ur best friend#and i know that wont come from forcing myself on dates w ppl i dont like. i know no ones ever liked me before#i know i havent felt attraction in years anyway. i miss having a crush. but i suppose itd be sad anyway. to crush and not be liked back#to feel ill need to wait another 5 years for another rare crush. i dont believe in fate i dont think. so i might not ever#kiss someoje i like. i might not get lucky and hold a crushs hand. spend months or years with someone like that#i just. i hate so much romance isnt like skills. i cant just date 1x a week until i run into love#i cant even find 1 person a month to crush on let alone ask out. cause the feelings are luck too#luck of who u run into even if u go tl events. even wuen i had 10k tinder matches the only date#the only person who respjded. was someone with a gf who didnt have much in common with me and me not mucj w them and it#was just not enough click to even make a friend#god it makes me sad. id like to kiss someone special. hold their hand. hear em talk hours#i have friends and love em but i dont wanna kiss a friend. i just dont feel romancy very much.
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The last time I cried over missing my boyfriend was when I was drunk and 3 time zones away. Now Im sitting in my own bedroom, sober as can be, and I cant get him out of my damn head
#screaming.to.the.gods#i haven’t seen him in over a week - but Im supposed to tomorrow night#we’ve been texting all weekend too. He wanted to see me Friday. but I had a friend visiting from out of town#but Im also thinking about a conversation I need to have with him before our trip in 2 weeks#and Im only gonna get a few chances to have it in person which woulf be much better#basically explaining some boundaries *I* need because of some past trauma#and I know he wont have a problem with any of it. god he is so compassionate I am so fucking thankful for him#but knowing its a conversation I need to have is the stressful part#and I think that stress combines with being on my period and just. missing him. is what is making me an emotional wreck#but he said he has a gift for me tomorrow#and Im excited for it#i went out and bought him a pokemon hoodie#partially so I can have one to steal since he is so picky about his hoodies#but yeah. i really miss him and really want a hug. which is so wild to me#i hate when people touch me. i hate hugs. but he’s different#hes like a security blanket. warm and safe.#and I just want to be wrapped in that safety#uhg okay Ill stop ranting about my first world problems#love you guys though
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Just hit 21k words.... feeling wild... have a drabbl
#ik my writing is stiff#i am a stiff and stale person#ive tried to fix it before but i am just a solid chunk of awkward and stale#thus we get stiff writing and poor transitions#also the least interesting dialogue of all time lmao#i would crack a joke about how robotic my writing reads but that's too relevant to the times now#bc people are literally using ai to strip content and generate shit without a soul#its legit scary#like#my work isnt great or anything#but i think about writers i look up to and how their work is being fed to stuff like that#i just get real upset#anyway tag rant over#sprints away
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(dont read the tags actually)
#vent#god this year has been so fucking hard man#and things have been so strained with my friend#and i love them so much. theyre my best friend. but at this point are they?#cause they just keep getting pissed at me over everything#and acting really weird#and theyve just. turned into this unendingly angry and negative person to the point i feel like i can barely talk to them anymore#they are so short tempered which i mean they always have been but just not with ME yknow#like they for ten years were always so kind to me and weve always gotten along well#until the last like year#and i know theyre in a bad place but jesus theyve made it so hard to even hold a conversation anymore#and i mean i think things will get better if they can get out of their current situation. i really think we can go back to normal but just.#not til then. cause they seem like the only coping mechanism they use is pure fucking anger#and now theyve started directing it at me and im just. getting tired.#i cant tell if they are purposely pushing me away or not. but thats whats happening either way.#and its awful bc i just feel like its all my fault. like im not good enough#im not helpful enough im too annoying im just. not good enough care about anymore#they make me feel like none of my problems are important anymore and like i shouldnt even mention it if im struggling#meanwhile all they do is vent and rant and im really really tired but i dont think i can say anything#im trying to open myself up to being social with people other than them again.#they used to be my best safe space but now they arent anymore#but im still going to be there for them the best i can cause they dont deserve to be abandoned when theyre struggling#but i just hope they can get in a better place and idk. realize theyre kinda being a dick all the time#ugh idk#dont read this shit i just need to get my thoughts straight idk.#i was scrollin when i started thinkin abt this thats the only reason im writin on here abt it#probably gonna delete it in an hour anyway#moon
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I really REALLY wish people would start saying "have some sympathy/compassion" instead of "have some empathy". Feelings do often impact actions but....they don't have to. And a lot of problems arise when actions are taken solely based on emotions. The type of empathy I'm best at is cognitive empathy - recognizing and understanding how someone might be feeling - and that's a skill that's shaky at best. Emotional empathy I nearly completely lack. I can count the amount of times someone had made me feel their emotions on one hand (I think about three times in my entire life).
But then there's compassion. Compassion you can do regardless of empathy level. Compassion you can do regardless of how something makes you feel. People can have extreme levels of empathy and choose not to try to help someone that they could. Likewise, people can have zero empathy and choose to help someone. Emotions can influence actions but it's not the only thing that matters
I am technically not no empathy, but I'm so low and so bad at empathy and trying to apply it that I'm virtually no empathy. Moments of true empathy are mostly flukes for me. But I'm a very compassionate person! An example is when someone vents or is sad in a discord server that's really not about that/doesn't have a vent channel for a reason. Do you know how that makes me FEEL? Irritated. Irked. If it's a small line or two, fine, it slips out, especially when your reality sucks. Entire unprompted rants? Trauma dumping in the middle of other people's normal conversations? That pisses me off. But you know what I'll often do? I'll say a few words. Generally my policy is that I'm not going to devote a ton of my own energy at my own detriment for a stranger (had an issue with that online as a teen), but if it doesn't hurt me physically or emotionally to give a few kind words to someone hurting, then I see no reason not to do it. It doesn't take much time from me and it makes someone clearly struggling feel a little bit better. There's zero empathy or any kind of "I feel so bad for you" emotions there, and yet, because I generally believe in trying to make things better if you can, I comfort them. I acknowledge that someone is hurting and play my part to remedy the situation
This is why people need to decouple actions from emotions. You don't have to feel ANYTHING to do the right thing. Something isn't "less good" because their heart wasn't in it. If someone drops their wallet and you return it to them solely out of social obligation, guess what? A wallet has still been returned. Someone's money, debit/credit cards, and entire identity, was not lost. Someone was just saved a ton of grief by a simple act carried out by a person who doesn't give a fuck. The results of your actions is, for most every day circumstances, more important than how you actually feel doing them
#just ranting because like. i experience emotions very strongly but not because of other people#no/extremely low empathy comes with struggles yes#for instance i hurt people's feelings on accident because im truly just mentally unable to naturally understand why someone would be hurt b#what i said#ive gotten better and better over the years but its still hard. and still an excercise in remembering to think 'wait -#'how would i feel if someone said this to me?'#and if the answer is 'well I'd be pissed' i dont say it#but im still a very compassionate person#ive had to learn to set boundaries for that compassion because it was affecting me negatively!#the same way people say 'caring too much' has hurt them#well i don't actually care about a lot of the people i help. i care about the act of helping others when i can enough to show compassion#but i dont often care about the person or what theyre going through#(for the record i do care about close friends to the point where that whole caring too much thing is relatable. im EXTREMELY loving#just very selective about it)#idk 12 am rant about compassion vs empathy because im tired of having to block what i assume are generally well meaning people who throw#low/no empathy havers under the bus every chance they get#compassion is a CHOICE and one you don't need empathy to make
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#actually we should normalize that not being “beautiful” is fine#u can still aim for beauty but people who dont reach whatever that standard is shouldnt be treated poorly because of it#also for me personally#PERSONALLY#(you see that personally)#not putting ALL my worth into how i look helps with self confidence#i cant exactly change my physical features but i can really work on my personality#so if im having a bad day with my looks or im breaking out or whatever i dont spiral#its not easy to just change our thinking but i think its important to still try#ik it sounds kinda contradictory in a way#like oh beauty standards are narrow#but also dont obsess over it#but i think both ideas can exist#this rant is brought to you by losers on reddit rating people harshly based on a very narrow standards#and people WILLINGLY posting their photos on these subreddits#stoooppp#stop doing that to urself#like i get wanting to be considered pretty cause im not immune to this want but i still think people put too much capital into it#and get self conscious when they dont fit the standard#so they want to look for outside validation....from people who look to the standard......like how does that help you#theres like more to this whole idea but im just a person ranting on tumblr about some random stuff so i dont wanna keep going on and on
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i lovee groups and communication
#taking suggestions for how to make it more obvious that i'm this () close to kicking them off the project#the only person responding is my lab partner and she's also not ideal to work with#she keeps making big changes to my work .. girl focus on yours#dont you subhead my design concept hands off#but at least shes here.#sorry for the rant im just soo tired of it i cant stand this#this project this module my degree my peers etc its awful#tmi but i stopped using sleeping tablets and now im back because of this stupid project#cant sleep if i'm thinking about it#and that is always#like today i was on a boat enjoying myself one last time#was getting pelted by rain & hail#bigger waves than i'm used to#my reef kept coming undone because the mast was twisting .. ?#i'm not heavy enough to keep control of it in those conditions#(didn't go over but it was a close one)#and instead of thinking ohmygod there's hail and i can't see and i'm alone with a full sail i'm too small for#i was like damn i should be doing my group project.#balance is so far out of my reach its sad honestly
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im so over it with high school and especially with math class !!!!!
#im really worried that im going to start college and im gonna hate it just as much#i qualify for a free tuition program and I plan to attend college in my city while living with my mother#which is totally the most affordable option! and yet the most boring!!!!#everyone says that the college i plan to attend is just like a larger version of the highschool i already go to. ew!!!!#when i was finished with junior high i thought maybe in highschool... maybe there wont be puddles of piss outside the bathroom all over the#hallway.... well i was totally mistaken#i dont want to get too hopeful about college for this reason lol. and also. what if its just like highschool?? thatd kill me.#well im only a junior in highschool right now so i still have to deal with this for 2 more years blegh!! totally blegh..#i cannot keep up with school right now its totally freaking me out ive been pulling multiple all nighters a week and im still not able to#finish all my work and im just freaked out but im trying to be calm about it at least in front of other people#like i stay up all night to finish my work and then im too tired at school to do anything.. like ive been scoring good enough on my tests#and quizzes so thats good but i just dont have the energy for anything like im totally behind in math class!!!! like multiple assignments!!#sometimes i take a nap after school but i think most days im up till around 4am regardless of if i took a nap and sometimes i just stay up#until i have to go to school and then i try really hard to do my classwork but actually im so tired and i have to drink multiple coffees so#i can still sort of function like a person who got more than an hour of sleep... you know#well thank you for coming to my rant#gordbye#actually i hope nobody reads this
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(extremely long tag rant)
#sometimes it’s like ‘I have a handle on my ocd and it’s been pretty good!’ but that’s a lie actually#it’s just that I haven’t been constantly triggered and degraded in a while#but m’s parents are visiting! and they simply refused to do anything differently than they’d do it at their house#and listen. listen to me. I know I have a disorder that makes people moving things around in my house and leaving their shit everywhere#a big problem where for most it wouldn’t be an issue at all#and I don’t actually expect or even really ask my guests to follow my rules bc I think that’s unreasonable#I just have to fix the house every night before bed or I can’t sleep#but they keep staying up until like 1am and I’m not sleeping every night so I’m exhausted and I can’t wait up for them#so I wake up - house wrong. I fix it and then leave a room for 5 seconds - house is wrong. I go to bed - house is wrong.#I just get no fucking relief from it its constant. they don’t even push in their fucking chairs. it’s like living with children#and she complains about shit all the fucking time. ‘your floors are always so cold you know it’s not like that at our house’#okay well we rent so we have no control over that and also we live in entirely different places maybe houses are different here#she started making chicken - didn’t ask about a cutting board so she tried to use a cracked one I only keep as decor and THEN#she goes to start doing the chicken stuff after I get her out the right stuff and there’s fucking dog food out on the counter next to her#and she looked at my like I was such a bitch when I moved the bowls of dog food away. I’m not having raw chicken AND dog food on there#I asked them to not leave the dogs bowls on the counter too but that’s a lost cause ig. better than the diaper on my couch#it’s just constant and I obviously can’t just pick up their shit and tidy it the same way I can m’s#and he slides back into all these rude habits bc he’s around his parents again bc obvi that’s how they raised him so he regresses#I’m just so tired and I have another day and then they want to do 5 days for thanksgiving and 7 for Christmas#and I have to find a way to tell m that if they’re in my house for 7 days I’ll actually have to barricade myself in the bedroom#usually I feel like he and I are on the same side when it comes to his parents but lately I’ve just felt pretty abandoned and that’s hard#I had to take a benzo just to deal w them yesterday bc my heart rate was like 180 for an hour#AND I’m on my PERIOD#this was a long tag rant but I needed this#personal
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me just chilling and then i remember the time my mum threw out all my sketchbooks
#so basically my lifes work#IT WASNT RVEN THE FIRST TIME I KEEP FORGETTING😭😭😭😭 SHE DID IT IN THE OLD HOUSE TOO#it wasnt EVERY sketchbook but it was still a handful of books#but i dont remember or dont wanna remember stuff that happened in the old house anyway because it sucked bad#i dont ever hold grudges and i get over things rather quickly but everytime i think about it it still hurts#she was like ‘well youre not using them’#? because i drew in them already ?#????????#and so i just need to throw it out ok#its not like its a part of me or anything#it sucks that something so important and personal was just considered ‘trash’ by her#garbage#and it sucks that literally anything that was outside my room was trash or rubbish#like if its not inside my room then its dirty its garbage its nothing#i rememebr i was sobbing my eyes out the day it happened LMAO#now theyre all stuffed in my closet#anyway sorry for the random personal rant#i was just thinking about it i might delete this later idk#personal#jermspeak#i was laying in bed and then i remembered and i was like what the fuck
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broooo i got up because i thought i wanted to doodle a funny comic but i hate my art and i'm tired i'm going back to sleep
#i DELETED my progress nobody get to see it#but the idea was. eight out of ten monkeys does countdown.#doing the fuckin. the word game i'm too tired. 'jamie what did you get' [silence] [visibly tapping on the mic]#[muffled sounds of yelling as the other mics pick him up]#alex hasn't spoken for minutes he's tuned into the letters#the letters round! swhat its called#sorry i'm more of a big fat quiz guy than a countdown guy#or like. 'jamie what do you think' [audible click of his mic being turned off]#[he is visibly speaking. audience cannot hear him. nick is cracking up beside him]#the running gag of cutting jamie's mic starts after the first series when he does just keep dropping florid profanity#show airs pre-watershed please stop saying every swear word you know#eventually he gets it under control but the running gag lingers#hes like visibly calmed down over the years and yet they still cut his mic whenever they deem it funniest#going to sleep and waking up just thinking about the panel show universe it's everything to me#sorry half my personality is that i've watched every episode of techdif citation needed several times#and have an organ in my body dedicated to thinking about panel shows#woah tag rant#shut the fuck up about panel shows humbug!!! nobody care!!!
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