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I saw @qourmet's young madam lan art, and knew what I had to do.
#better drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan furen#horse#we need to name her horse IMMEDIATELY#Qingheng-Jun#She is stunning and beautiful and the design has me in a death grip#AND she's a horse girl? It was not even and option to not draw her.#Lan wangji has to get his biting and tearing and killing genes from somewhere.#Its maternal. He inherited the hunting instinct from his mother and an attraction to people who do crimes from his father#btw if yall haven't seen them; All of qourmet's prev generation designs are *so* good. I have genuinely gotten brainrot over CSSR and WCZ.#On every god that exists I WILL find a way to have them show up in the pd-mdzs comic canon. I've already scripted the comics. Its happening#Also it's been too long since I drew an equine. Why are there not *more* equines in MDZS. This is why I had to make the equineswap au.#I''m still not sure how a horse works. but I'm getting there.#Slowly I am creeping towards the necessary skill set I need to draw Qiyan Agula.#JQWS audio drama....I am gazing at you so fondly. I will return to you with power and strength (better comic skills to draw you)#we are a long way away but...that's the dream project.
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yes this is a repost but i need you to Hear me Out first
i hated the name i initially chose for him & i like this one Leagues better than the other one so like this he will stay to Me. ofc the other one will forever be floating around in the empty space of tumblr but it'll be deleted from this account so 🫡 godspeed @ all of you, sorry for the confusion in Advance
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mdzs dad alignment chart thingy
#ok before yall argue about how no one character is truly good or bad yadayadayada i know and i agree#this is just for the funsies and to bash jgs#you can look at it objectively and ill do my best to answer#but yeah. just my silly thoughts#lan qiren & jiang cheng arent here bc they are uncles but if they were they would be “complicated person / good uncle”#mo dao zu shi#mdzs#jiang fengmian#jiang cheng#wei wuxian#jiang yanli#qingheng-jun#lan wangji#lan xichen#madam lan#yu ziyuan#wen ruohan#wen xu#wen chao#jin guangshan#qin su#jin guangyao#mo xuanyu#jin zixuan#former nie sect leader#nie papa#nie mingjue#nie huaisang#jin rusong#lan sizhui
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This is specifically only about how he treated his kids, not his actions more broadly
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qingheng-jun and tianlang-jun aka the absentee father squad who gave up on the world after their wives died and whose sons proceeded to marry those dudes who fucking DIE but temporarily
#qingheng-jun#tianlang-jun#mdzs#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#mo dao zu shi#scum villain's self saving system#svsss
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The devotion of a Lan and why Lan Xichen will never marry
(unless that person is Jin Guangyao)
From the likes of Lan An down to Lan Wangji, the Lan, at times tragic, were deeply romantic and always faithful. It’s hard to consider love at first sight to be a genetic trait, but the evidence doesn’t lie. Not a single Lan married a person they did not love. Not a single Lan moved on after the loss of their soulmate.
Lan Forehead Ribbon
The mark of a Lan is their forehead ribbon. At first glance, it is a symbol of self-control. In actuality, it is a blatant declaration of wild passion. The ribbon which represents the obligation to regulate oneself, can only be removed by a destined one? Isn’t this just another way of saying, the three thousands rules are to contain us, for in the name of our soulmate AND ONLY for our soulmate, we observe no laws, no bonds, no morals? The Lan follow the dao, but not even the intentions and punishments of heaven can hold them back from their Destined One.
The Lan are kind and just to everyone. The woman who crosses the street. The child who begs for alms. The man who nearly drowns. They are all the same, no more, no less deserving of help. The world is a calm and reassuring beige, every tragedy of equal hue and intensity, every joy a drop of water in a deep well.
Only the Instance of Lan is that great disturbance in their life. A warmth worth suffering for.
It’s fascinating to look at all the joy and pain that love brought the Lan.
And the singular way they dealt with loss.
Lan concept of love
The common process of the Lan romance is a strong initial first spark. Love at first sight (or first fight for Lan Wangji).
After that comes devotion. Devotion during life is to seek to be with the other. Lan An and Qingheng-jun married their Destined Ones. Lan Xichen would disappear for months at a time to see Jin Guangyao. Lan Wangji tried his best, appearing at the burial mounds in Wei Wuxian’s first life, but was chased away time and again. In his second life, he drags Wei Wuxian back to the Cloud Recesses and follows him on his adventures. The first part of devotion is to keep your north pointed towards your soulmate.
The second part, is to not hurt others, or involve third parties. The ability to refuse to marry, unless that person is the one you love, is quite admirable. There will never be a Jiang Fengmian in the Lan family, someone who marries a woman he doesn’t love and causes both family and wife to be subject to rumors and mockery, children to self-doubt and insecurity. No Lan marries for convenience. They marry out of love or not at all. It must be reassuring to such a deeply romantic family, to not have to be forced by their elders into loveless matches. (Otherwise, before asking Lan Xichen to marry, Lan Qiren would be served to platter.) Lan Xichen already anticipates this and treats Lan Jingyi as heir.
Then at the end, after your Fated One passes away, the Lan leave too.
The founder of the Sect set a poignant example for all of his descendent after. Lan An left the monastery for the love of his life and returned to the mountain, leaving not even dust behind after they left.
Lan Yi, in the Untamed has a hinted romance with Baoshan Sanren. While she did not witness her lover die, she never married another person. She also spent the rest of her days in seclusion.
Qingheng-jun fell in love at first sight and stood against sect and world to marry and protect her. He paid for her ‘sins’ as if they were his. And after she died, he did not leave seclusion until his death during the war.
The current Sect Leader, Lan Xichen also went into retreat after the love of his life died. And he will never leave unless Jin Guangyao returns, or in pursuit of Jin Guangyao’s return.
Not even Lan Wangji was an exception. Sometimes people will say that he moved on with his life after Wei Wuxian’s life, citing his night hunts as an example. But actually, Lan Wangji ‘appeared wherever there was chaos.’ Why? Because he was looking for Wei Wuxian. Because he wanted to be there if Wei Wuxian found himself in trouble (which Lan Wangji was right, Wei Wuxian nearly gets dragged back to Lotus Pier immediately). Lan Wangji never ‘moved on.’ He was waiting. He was searching. Why was it so easy for him to accept Wei Wuxian had returned from the dead? Because he was hoping it would happen. Wei Wuxian had already ‘died’ in the eyes of the world once before, when he was kicked into the Yiling Burial Mounds by the Wen. But! Wei Wuxian returned stronger than ever, albeit with literal ghosts, but he was back all the same.
He was different than his father and ancestors. He was lucky to love the Yiling Laozu. Wei Wuxian was exceptional. He proved the dead could return--sentient! Why did Lan Wangji have to live as dead when his heart had not died?
Lan Xichen will never remarry. Because he’s already married. The moment he looked into the eyes of his savior amidst the flames of war, his ribbon found an owner. Why would he marry when his clan will not ask it of him? Why did he raise Lan Jingyi like his heir, a child whose entitlement and sass can only be rivaled by Jin Ling? A child who is capable of being rude to Sect Leaders with out repercussion? A child who oozes the confidence of someone loved, respected, and of high rank, when he is a supposed orphan? Because he is the heir Lan Xichen prepared when he realized he had already found the love of his life.
And the love of his life had married a woman. But that is irrelevant in the face of the Love of a Lan. It does not matter if the other party does not love me (Qingheng-jun, I’m squinting at you; Lan Wangji who asks what is to be done when the person he wants to protect refuses to return with him), what matters is that I love them. And that they do not want my ribbon, does not make it any less theirs (when Lan Xichen cancels the permission of the jade order, but tells Jin Guangyao that it still belongs to him).
Why did he, after the death of Jin Guangyao, retreat as Lan An did for his Fated One, as Qingheng-jun did for his wife, as a Lan does for his soulmate?
And why, do we find it tragic?
Lan Xichen before Jin Guangyao was untouched by worldly emotions. Because of Jin Guangyao, he descended from the dais and was made human.
Lan An cultivated in the monastery, because of his Destined One, he went down the mountain. When that person left, he left too.
All he did was return from whence he came.
While I believe Lan Xichen will open the coffin because even if he does not want to, the Lan owe Jin Guangyao, a life in seclusion is not to be pitied.
A gift for Meng Haoran
I love a Master Meng, exalted across the world. The beauty abandoned his post, to rest white-haired in seclusion. Often drinking under the moon, preferring flowers to the king. To the mountain I long to reach, this disciple can only bow here.
Li Bai Translated by Luna_reclipse
赠孟浩然 (Zèng mènghàorán)
吾爱孟夫子, 风流天下闻 wú ài mèng fūzǐ, fēngliú tiānxià wén 红颜弃轩冕, 白首卧松云 hóngyán qì xuān miǎn, bái shǒu wò sōng yún 醉月频中圣, 迷花不事君 zuì yuè pín zhōng shèng, mí huā bu shì jūn 高山安可仰, 徒此挹清芬 gāoshān ān kě yǎng, tú cǐ yì qīng fēn
李白 (lǐ bái)
Lan Xichen’s soulmate is Jin Guangyao and he will never trade him out.
Liu Haikuan, the actor who portrayed Lan Xichen in the Untamed, said in an interview, that Lan Xichen will never leave seclusion without Jin Guangyao.
Zhu Zanjin, the actor who portrayed Jin Guangyao in the Untamed, said that the relationship between Lan Xichen and JIn Guangyao is the same as that between Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji.
The Lan through their now 4000 precepts, have bound themselves with rule after rule with only one release. And because of this Destined One, descend to become mortal, and without them, return to the mountain.
Lan Xichen has proven through layers and layers of Lan patterns that his soulmate is Jin Guangyao and this soulmate was worth it.
I leave you with Liu Haikuan’s words, “Both of their lives were tragic, but the relationship they had was not a tragedy. A-Yao, through the end, was very good to Lan Xichen.” (他们两个的人生各自���是悲剧,但这段友情不是悲剧,阿瑶直到最后还是对曦臣很好.)
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The Other Mountain - ao3 - Chapter 28
Pairing: Lan Qiren/Wen Ruohan
Warning Tags on Ao3
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Wen Ruohan had long since passed the point of ever admitting that he was afraid.
His vanity would simply not permit it. After all, he was Wen Ruohan, the sect leader of the mighty Qishan Wen, the near-god, the would-be tyrannical ruler of the cultivation world. He had outstripped all others, his cultivation perfected far beyond what any of the rest could achieve. Perhaps it might have once been acceptable to be afraid when he was younger, when he was just one among many jockeying for position and leadership, but once he’d passed his first lifetime, he’d left such petty human things as fear far behind. Such feelings were as far beneath him as ants to a giant.
He would, however, admit to having some…concern regarding the upcoming battle with Qingheng-jun.
Other people might be able to comfort themselves with the presence of an army at their command, thinking to themselves that they would be able to simply overcome their enemy through force of numbers, but Wen Ruohan did not permit himself any such illusions. Qingheng-jun might be insane, Wen Ruohan had no doubt about that, but he was still immensely clever: he would not let himself be caught out in a bad position like that, taken by surprise.
He’d find a way to force a one-on-one fight.
And given Wen Ruohan’s current condition, it would be a fair fight, the likes of which Wen Ruohan hadn’t known in decades.
Qingheng-jun was after all an accomplished cultivator, talented and promising, and unlike the majority of such cultivators, who got weighed down with the worldly concerns of night-hunting and sect business and married life, he had spent ten solid years in seclusion focusing on nothing but growing his power and refining his techniques. He was much younger and less experienced than Wen Ruohan, to be sure, with much less time to have built up his power and knowledge – but Wen Ruohan, for all his own immense innate talent, was one of those cultivators that devoted much of his time to worldly affairs. He had always cared very much about making sure his sect took its rightful position as first in the world, and furthermore he had used up too much of his spiritual energy fighting the landslide; although the level of his internal strength had not been damaged, it would be months before he recovered enough qi to make proper use of much of it.
The prospect of such a duel would have been different if Wen Ruohan was still at the height of his own power, capable of miracles. If that were the case, even Qingheng-jun with his ten years of unbroken seclusion would pose no real threat to him. But as it was, there was every chance, in his weakened state, that the two of them would balance out in terms of strength. Nor did Wen Ruohan have any advantage in terms of temperament: they were both ruthless, both cruel, even vicious, meaning that false appeals to morality would be insufficient to distract Qingheng-jun long enough to win an advantage, the way they might if used against others.
A fair fight indeed.
Wisdom and experience against youth and promising talent – that was always a tricky match-up. Only fate could say who would come out ahead in the end.
This particular match-up was also particularly pernicious to Wen Ruohan. As a master of arrays, he relied more on having spiritual energy in his fighting style than most cultivators, since arrays and talismans both required ample spiritual energy to use effectively. In contrast, Qingheng-jun was a cultivator that specialized in the sword; while swordplay benefited from the use of spiritual energy, it was in the end a sword – failing everything else, it could always be used simply to stab one’s opponent.
Wen Ruohan could use a sword, of course. What cultivator couldn’t? But it wasn’t his preference, and he was a Wen, innately self-absorbed and self-indulgent – although he didn’t completely neglect his swordplay, he hardly trained in it with the consistency that Lan Qiren did, as reliable as any clock even with his second choice in weapon. On the contrary, Wen Ruohan always played to his strengths: whenever possible, he would much rather use his arrays, relying on his brilliance and his techniques, refined over the years to near perfection, than anything else.
Only this time, he couldn’t.
Wen Ruohan’s most powerful weapon, the black sun, was absolutely out of the question at the moment. It was an immense power, but an equally immense drain, and it fought against him as much as it did the rest of the world that it so thoroughly scorned. If he tried to summon it now, when the question of who would win that battle was murky and unclear, he would only be risking his own doom, and quite possibly that of the entire world. Naturally that was unacceptable – Wen Ruohan might be ruthless and tyrannical, but he wanted to rule the world, not destroy it. Moreover, he was an orthodox cultivator, not some sort of demonic cultivator that fueled their own power upon the deaths of others; carelessness, or even recklessness, with the state of the world would only damage his cultivation and make the bad result he feared even more likely.
Of course, the black sun was far from being his only weapon. He had his usual arrays, and plenty of less usual ones, but even with those, he would need to be measured with their use in a way he’d long since grown unaccustomed to. With limited spiritual energy available, he would have to dole them out sparingly, wisely, and supplement them with his sword – an unfortunate combination that pitted his weakness against Qinhgeng-jun’s strength.
In other words, a match against Qingheng-jun would be like fighting with one hand tied behind his back.
As a result, Wen Ruohan was…appropriately cautious. Not afraid, of course, but wary, vigilant, concerned. Presupposing nothing, not even victory.
He was less concerned now, after last night.
Lan Qiren had been – magnificent.
It was only to be expected, naturally, as no one that Wen Ruohan had chosen to give his heart to would be anything less. And yet, even with that in mind, he could safely say that his expectations, already high, had nevertheless been surpassed in every possible respect. Even Wen Ruohan with all of his many years of experience could definitively say that he had never experienced anything like that before.
It wasn’t just the sex, though that had been excellent as always, or even the unusual intimacy of bedding someone he felt he could genuinely trust and who genuinely trusted him – even if he just focused purely on the practical, the results of their dual cultivation had vastly exceeded anything Wen Ruohan might have anticipated. Lan Qiren had tackled dual cultivation with the same facility with steep learning curves that he’d applied to learning about politics or sex, and as a result, the power they’d been able to generate from it, the power they’d both shared…! Their cultivation techniques were not the most naturally compatible, but they had made it work, and oh, how very well it had worked!
Wen Ruohan was certainly nowhere near to being back to where he had been before he had blown all his spiritual energy on destroying the landslide, but he was confident that Cangse Sanren’s estimate of half a year or more to regain his power had been reduced considerably, and all over the course of a single, highly enjoyable evening. An evening that could be repeated in the future, both before he regained his power and yet again afterwards, finally giving him a chance to see if Lan Qiren’s exceptionally pure golden core would have any sort of effect on increasing his own power beyond the point that he had managed to get by himself…
The simple fact of the matter was that Wen Ruohan loved power, and always had. He had many times been accused of loving it more than anything else, whether wives or children or even sect, and he had to admit, though never aloud, that there might be a grain of truth in that accusation. To have two things he loved together, power and Lan Qiren both…it was as heady an aphrodisiac as he could imagine.
(Also, Lan Qiren’s reaction to finding his own power so substantially increased had been just as funny as Wen Ruohan had been anticipating. He had no regrets about sharing the power equally between them, and nothing would change that, no matter how many complaints of But it was supposed to go to you! or Surely you know I do not have a need for it or even the plaintive But how do I make the glowing stop?! Lan Qiren made.)
Even the song Lan Qiren had written for him had been beyond anything Wen Ruohan had anticipated.
The sound of it had been nothing like anything he was expecting, to the extent he’d expected anything. He’d assumed, he supposed, that the music Lan Qiren wrote with him in mind would be much like his reputation: intense but gloomy, moody and temperamental, unstable and vicious, possibly even somewhat discordant, the lurking insanity slipping its leash and showing its face to the world. Only it had slipped his mind that Lan Qiren, perhaps alone in the world, did not see him that way – and so the song was something else entirely.
It had been intense, to be sure. But it had been striking and grandiose rather than miserable, the music immediately and immensely compelling, extremely complicated in a way that made it impossible to pay attention to anything else, music that thrummed beneath the skin and swept the listener away with its enthusiasm. It was powerful and moving, it filled the ear with joy and sped the pulse with excitement. Listening to it evoked the feeling of being on top of the world – of being the best, of knowing you were the best, of being unrestrained by fear and doubt. Of being free of all the shackles of the world and knowing yourself to be capable of miracles.
It was Wen Ruohan’s beloved Wen sect’s self-esteem – many would say self-love – distilled into its purest form.
But it wasn’t just that. Underneath that exuberance and enthusiasm, the music had a foundation as steady as Lan Qiren’s unshakable principles, turning self-regard into self-assurance, into a bone-deep understanding that in the end you were purely yourself, nothing more nor less, and could be nothing else – and that that was all that you needed to be.
It married irrepressible confidence in the self to implacable surety of the self, and turned them together into power. Into impossible, unstoppable force, which broke down all barriers in its path.
Just like the two of them.
Wen Ruohan had never been the most musically inclined. He’d had a gentleman’s training, of course, and knew both how to appreciate good music and play an instrument if he were called upon to do so. Given his innate brilliance and quick learning capacity, he could even pull off a few tricks of musical cultivation if he really needed to. But it had never been a strength, and with art just as with cultivation, Wen Ruohan always played to his strengths. As a result, music had never been more to him than an enjoyable pastime at best. It had never made its way into his heart, never seized hold of it, the way it seemed to do for musicians.
He’d assumed it never would.
Well: he was wrong.
He could admit it, and joyfully, because what he’d gotten in return was so much better than being right.
Ah, Lan Qiren – Lan Qiren – Lan Qiren, who loved him, who trusted him, who saw him and saw everything he liked about himself, and who in return asked only to be treated with equal regard, to be loved as he loved, as if Wen Ruohan would ever have been able to do anything less –
“Someone’s in a good mood.”
For once, Wen Ruohan did not startle or lash out in paranoiac terror in response to someone having snuck up on him without him noticing – but only due to years of experience at being snuck up on by this particular person.
“And I suppose you, Lao Nie, are here to be irritating,” he remarked, much as he always did, turning his head slowly to regard his…former lover, he supposed.
There was a sharp stabbing pain in his chest when he looked at Lao Nie now, even though the man had exchanged the stormy expression of the discussion conference in favor of his usual relaxed grin, going back to being carefree and careless the way he always was. There was no sign of the emotional turbulence that had put him in such a bad mood, every indication wiped away and hidden, Lao Nie going back to pretending that nothing was wrong and never had been because that was how he had always dealt with the knowledge of his impending untimely death.
But Wen Ruohan knew the truth. He knew what was coming, and how much sooner than expected it was due, even though Lao Nie hadn’t shared that information with him. It hurt him to know it. Not as much as it hurt Lao Nie, who was the one actually dying, he knew that, but it was still pain nonetheless, and as a narcissist Wen Ruohan admittedly tended to rate his own pain as being more important than others.
Seeing Lao Nie here, now, brought up all sorts of uncomfortable feelings.
Seeing him now, here…
Wen Ruohan abruptly frowned. ��Why are you here? Did Cangse Sanren reach you so quickly?”
That seemed temporally implausible, if not completely impossible. Qinghe was far too far away – no one could fly that fast, not even him.
“No, I was on my way to Lanling already,” Lao Nie said cheerfully, which made a great deal more sense. “I bumped into Cangse Sanren while she was on her way out of the city and I was on my way in. Don’t worry, we swapped tokens: she gave me her pass to get through your army and into the city, and I gave her my sect leader’s sigil so that she’ll be able to order everyone back at home to collect those cursed coins in my stead. There’s no problem with your plan.”
It was annoying how reliable Lao Nie could be when he wanted to, Wen Ruohan reflected. That was the deceptively alluring part of him. He just knew Wen Ruohan so well – he could tell at a glance exactly what his concerns were and immediately speak to alleviate them.
He made everything easy.
“I’m here to help you find Qingheng-jun,” Lao Nie continued, his smile fading into seriousness. “If he’s trapped in Lanling City, he’s definitely going to go to ground somewhere difficult to reach with multiple people, try to force you into a one-on-one fight that would be more to his advantage. You and I are the only ones I can think of that would be strong enough to match him like that without getting slaughtered. With me here, we can check the possible places twice as fast.”
Like he’d said: with Lao Nie, everything was easy.
It had always been so easy.Easy, easy, easy – right until it was so difficult as to be impossible.
Like winning Lao Nie’s heart, or his loyalty, or his trust, or becoming anything more than just a casual friend that sometimes shared his bed. And not because of any lack on Wen Ruohan’s own part, any paucity or failure in his own feelings or even actions, but simply because Lao Nie simply lacked the capacity to be more than a friend to anyone.
Except maybe his saber.
Wen Ruohan didn’t even pretend to begin to understand how that worked.
“That’s right,” he said, and picked the easier path of not saying anything just yet. Lan Qiren was the one who always chose the harsher and more virtuous path, not Wen Ruohan. He’d wait until Lan Qiren was back and let him raise the difficult subject with Lao Nie, and then, if he had to, he would step in and forcethe man to let them help. “You are very welcome. Do you want to start on the west side of the city or the east?”
“The north, of course, while you take the south. You’re remarkably accommodating today, Hanhan; normally you’re much more possessive about these things! Here I thought I’d have to fight you first just to get a chance to help. Qiren must have put you in a really good mood.”
Not a good enough mood to deal with this.
“I sent Qiren away to Gusu Lan to deal with the coins, and I want to get this finished before he returns,” Wen Ruohan said shortly, and Lao Nie’s growing smirk disappeared at once, meaning that he understood the implication. Which meant that Wen Ruohan didn’t need to explain, but he did anyway, just to make sure that the message had been fully made clear: “The last time they met, Qingheng-jun decided that the taboo against personally murdering blood relatives was beneath him. He tried to kill Qiren. That will not happen again.”
No mercy this time.
“Understood,” Lao Nie said, solemn and serious as he so rarely was. “Understood and agreed. Don’t worry, Hanhan, you can count on me. The Nie sect’s motto is Do not tolerate evil no matter where, remember? Same thing applies when it’s who.”
Wen Ruohan inclined his head in agreement. If there was one thing that could be said for Lao Nie, it was that he was a consummate member of his sect. No evil meant no evil, no matter where, no matter who – just as he had been willing to turn against Wen Ruohan when he’d thought him beyond the point of saving, so too would he turn himself against Qingheng-jun, who had once been his friend.
His friend, and his source of guilt.
Lao Nie was as ruthless and careless with himself and his own heart as he was with anyone else’s, that much was true. Somehow that fact did not help in the slightest.
“Happy hunting,” Wen Ruohan said, and even meant it. Perhaps abiding by his sect’s principles would help Lao Nie the way abiding by his sect’s rules did Lan Qiren.
As for Wen Ruohan, he didn’t bother with such things. Rules and principles were both equally overrated – he didn’t need anyone else’s guidance, only his own; he would make his way in the world through the path he forged himself, and never doubt it for a moment. He mounted his sword and flew off to the south of Lanling City to begin surveying the possible places Qingheng-jun could be hiding.
The number of places was naturally limited, both by his (and Lao Nie’s) guess that Qingheng-jun would look for a place that would allow him a one-on-one fight and by Wen Ruohan’s own army, currently marching through the city and investigating every nook and cranny for those cursed coins. They had all been instructed to light flares if they saw any sign of Qingheng-jun, or alternatively if any number of their squads were drawn off and killed unexpectedly – that would be the first sign of him, more than likely, unless Wen Ruohan happened to get lucky and find him first.
He would prefer, if at all possible, to get lucky. His soldiers might not mean as much to him as his precious sect disciples, who in turn were not as important as his even more valuable family, but they were still his, and everything that was his was better than everything that wasn’t. Everything good under the sun should belong to him.
Now: where could Qingheng-jun be…?
Wen Ruohan could create a tracking array, look for any sort of bolt-hole where there were restrictions on entry. But who knew how many such places existed in Lanling City? Lanling Jin was full of rats that thought themselves vipers; every sub-branch probably had a secret treasure room and a secret armory and whatnot – and Qingheng-jun wouldn’t go find one of those, anyway.
No, he had too much dignity for that.
Wen Ruohan could understand that. Who wanted to risk losing your life in some stupid pointless little treasure room?
In fact, it occurred to him that he was thinking too small. Why search for him building-by-building like some common person? Let him use that same logic: where would Qingheng-jun be willing to have some sort of climactic final battle?
Qingheng-jun was remarkably similar to Wen Ruohan in many ways. He had a profound sense of his own dignity, enough that others would call it vanity, and he would never be willing to associate his name, whether in victory or defeat, with somewhere tawdry – and Jinlin Tower was full from head to toe of all that was gaudy and tawdry.
Especially to someone with a Gusu Lan sensibility.
After all, like it or not, hate it or not, Qingheng-jun had been born and raised in the Gusu Lan sect. Even when he turned against it, despised it, thought he had abjured it in every respect, he had still been shaped by it. Despite everything, he was unable to wholly give up the mindset it had inculcated in him, the principles it had taught him. If he had, he wouldn’t have been so concerned about seeking to implement a fitting punishment for all those he blamed for his wife’s death, rather than merely getting revenge – and he wouldn’t have been so invested in seeking to reform the sect in his own image, rather than destroying it. To implement new rules over the old, rather than to truly break free of the notion of rules entirely.
Gusu Lan, and Wen Ruohan: those two things together formed a very particular personality, with very particular preferences. So…where would Qingheng-jun go? Where would someone accustomed to the clean, gentle lines of the Cloud Recesses voluntarily choose to hide when trapped in this filthy pit of gold and greed?
Ah, of course.
The gardens.
Wen Ruohan might not the most devoted swordsman, might not be particularly notable as a musician, but he vastly preferred either of those subjects over the discussion of things like flowers – and yet, despite that, he had somehow spent a not-inconsiderable portion of his time over the past hundred years listening to the endless rounds of debate between Lanling Jin and Gusu Lan regarding whether gardens ought to retain their natural wild and austere beauty or be tamed into gorgeous wanton snarls of petals and color pieced together by human ingenuity. His Nightless City had established several gardens of each type just to avoid having that particular debate come up ever again, but the other sects still persisted in defending their preferences.
In a fit of completely characteristic pettiness, the Jin sect leader of several generations back – further back than Wen Ruohan could recall, which was saying something – had set up a single garden in Lanling City that was modeled after Gusu Lan’s preferred style, presumably to make the point that no one would possibly choose such a thing if they had the lush gardens of Jinlin Tower as an alternative option. The people of Lanling City had fulfilled this particular sect leader’s desire, leaving that particular park largely abandoned, although whether the people’s preference was a genuine aesthetic choice or merely the wisdom of not disagreeing with their local overlord had always been an open question.
It had been named, very snidely, the Paired Birds Promenade.
Yes: Wen Ruohan could see Qingheng-jun going there.
It would be just right for someone as self-important and overly dramatic as him.
(It wasn’t hypocrisy to say as much, Wen Ruohan informed the rather rudely goggling Lan Qiren in his mind. He’d never denied his flaws – he merely did not acknowledge them to be flaws when they were his own.)
And because Wen Ruohan was unquestionably brilliant, he found Qingheng-jun exactly where he expected to.
“I find it difficult to say whether it should be called vanity or arrogance,” Qingheng-jun said, almost as if he were continuing the conversation Wen Ruohan had been having in his own mind. He was standing on a lonesome hill towards the eastern end of the gardens, shaded by a scholar tree – he had a particularly heroic bearing at the moment, his pale blue robes and his hair lightly ruffled by the wind as he gazed out into the distance. “Coming here by yourself, I mean.”
“Did I rob you of the chance to show off your talisman work?” Wen Ruohan asked idly, stepping off his sword and onto the ground, feeling the circle of restriction that he’d expected to find snap immediately into effect, keeping anyone from joining them and making it an unbalanced fight. It was a good one, irritatingly enough. As he’d expected, he would find no obvious weaknesses here. “I’m not inclined to waste my soldiers for such a purpose.”
Qingheng-jun turned to regard him, his expression cold and indifferent. His face was oddly dissimilar from Lan Qiren’s, despite the strong resemblance of their features, both classic exemplars of the Lan style – Lan Qiren’s expression was often neutral, often flat, but rarely cold, and never indifferent. He was warm beneath his seemingly remote façade, the heat from his fiery temper and passionate heart always present even when he tried to suppress them. Qingheng-jun, by contrast…
There was nothing there.
“I would have thought that you’d think it a worthwhile trade if it meant wearing me down before we fought,” Qingheng-jun said, his logic pristine and ruthless, cold as any mountain snow. “Soldiers’ lives are meant for spending.”
His lip curled up in a sneer. “Or is it that my younger brother would disapprove of such a maneuver that now restrains you…?”
“Wrong on all counts. As much as I respect Qiren, for once his opinion was irrelevant to my consideration,” Wen Ruohan said, enjoying the way Qingheng-jun’s eyes narrowed at the praise of his brother. “You forget: my soldiers are mine, and are therefore more valuable than anyone who isn’t. Their lives may be for spending – but you think too much of yourself if you think I would bother to spend them on you.”
Qingheng-jun pressed his lips together briefly, but did not lose his temper.
“Tell me,” he said instead, voice slow and thoughtful. “What is it about him?”
Wen Ruohan arched his eyebrows, even as he waved his hand, letting his sword leap into his hand. “You mean Lan Qiren?”
Qingheng-jun inclined his head in agreement.
“You shall have to clarify. What about him?”
“You said that you…respect him.” Qingheng-jun sneered once again, the expression twisting his otherwise handsome face. “The so-great Wen Ruohan – I hadn’t realized that you respected anyone but yourself.”
“Myself and my family,” Wen Ruohan corrected. He’d always been quite clear about his partiality to his own clan. Like any good descendant of Wen Mao, he rated his clan above the rest: the sun in the sky above all had been his ancestor’s motto, proud and arrogant, and Wen Ruohan was only the most successful of his descendants, not necessarily the most ambitious. They were all like that.
“Yourself and your family – and my brother. Apparently.”
“And your brother,” Wen Ruohan said agreeably. “Apparently.”
He chuckled at the aggravation on Qingheng-jun’s face and meandered forward, his pace slow and steady, as if he were merely here to stroll in the park. Even his sword dangled from his hand, lazy and bored – apathy and indolence incarnate, his sloth simultaneously genuine and a deliberate insult to anyone he was facing.
“Does it really bother you so much?” he asked, though he knew it did.
“I merely wish to understand,” Qingheng-jun said. That was a lie, and they both knew it – do not tell lies, but of course Qingheng-jun considered himself above such things. “Only…why him?”
It was a good question.
Good, and also incredibly stupid.
“I haven’t the slightest idea,” Wen Ruohan admitted freely. “But that’s not how love works. Don’t you know that best of all…?”
He saw from the look on Qingheng-jun’s face that that strike had hit true.
“Or maybe I’m mistaken, perhaps you don’t,” Wen Ruohan concluded, a smirk curving his lips. “After all, from what I understand from Qiren, you couldn’t even live up to the lowest of his expectations for a son of Gusu Lan.”
Qingheng-jun scoffed. He was still pretending that he had the upper hand in their conversation, that he felt secure in his superiority over Wen Ruohan’s temporary weakness – but where his cleverness and ruthlessness might have worked time and again against Lan Qiren, with one very notable exception, it was nothing against Wen Ruohan.
Wen Ruohan knew him.
Not because he’d ever bothered to get to know Qingheng-jun personally. But rather because in Qingheng-jun, Wen Ruohan could see himself, and Wen Ruohan knew himself very well indeed.
“My brother does not set the standards of Gusu Lan,” Qingheng-jun said. “He is not sect leader. I am.”
Now it was Wen Ruohan’s turn to scoff.
“Do you really believe that?” he asked. “A name does not make a thing. Intent is meaningless in the face of action; the only thing that has ever mattered, in any context, is who actually does the work. It’s as true for sect leadership as it is for anything else – a sect leader is the one who leads the sect. A father is the one who molds the children. A husband…”
He laughed.
“Never mind. You wouldn’t know what I’m talking about.”
Qingheng-jun’s expression was ugly. “You mock me!”
“Have you only just now noticed?” Wen Ruohan said, now taunting openly. “And people say Qiren is bad at understanding others…of course I’m mocking you. Should I respect you? You? You, who are only here to die? You, who couldn’t even pull off a simple plan like kill them all properly…?”
Qingheng-jun drew his sword.
“Did you really think I wouldn’t be able to guess at once what you were doing?” Wen Ruohan asked him. “Me? The only difference between the two of us is that you are pathetic.”
“You know nothing about me,” Qingheng-jun said, voice cold as always, and attacked.
Wen Ruohan immediately lifted his own sword to block that first shatteringly powerful blow, feeling the cold of Qingheng-jun’s frost echo through his blade as he did. He brought his other hand up, summoning the array he’d kept dancing at the tips of his fingers and casting it into Qingheng-jun’s face.
As he’d expected, Qingheng-jun was too clever to fall for that – he’d known some sort of attack like that was coming and he countered immediately, casting a handful of talismans out and activating them at once, letting them take the hit that had been aimed at him, and following that action up with another strike of his sword.
His swordsmanship really was beautiful.
Such a waste.
Wen Ruohan was forced onto the defensive, using his sword to block the blows that were coming fast and hard, Qingheng-jun’s surprisingly vivid blue crackling against his own black.
“Foolish,” Wen Ruohan said, despite that. He’d been in far too many battles, and under worse circumstances, to let a strong opening unnerve him. “I am the only one who knows you. The only one who can know you.”
He meant it, too.
Wen Ruohan had been where Qingheng-jun was now. He’d fallen to the lowest point a man could go – he had lost everything, he had lost everyone. He had been tormented by the losses that had been caused by his own hand as well as those of others. He had been overwhelmed by suffering, suffused by it, drowned in it, and as a result, quite logically, he had gone insane. For all that his own isolation had been social rather than literal, as Qingheng-jun’s had been, Wen Ruohan too had found himself alone for far too long, painfully and completely alone. Of the people who had filled his life and his heart as a young man, there was not a single one left…
Like Qingheng-jun, Wen Ruohan had been a selfish man to start with. Being alone, being in pain – it had twisted him, made him cruel, made him indifferent, made him lash out at those around him, those reminders that life somehow went on even when his own felt as though it had stopped. His apathy had grown by the year, eclipsing everything else, eating away at his memories of joy and of excitement, until all those things that had once made life worth living were long forgotten. Until the only thing that could bring him pleasure was sating his sadism, making others hurt to see how they struggled and yearned to live, warming himself with that echo of feeling.
Oh yes – Wen Ruohan knew all too well what Qingheng-jun was going through.
He knew also that many of Qingheng-jun’s grievances and resentments were justified, or at least justifiable, whether they were against his sect, against the world, against uncaring fate and luck itself. He knew, because he had felt that way, too. He, and he alone, could understand.
He could sympathize, he could empathize.
He just didn’t care.
Wen Ruohan had been in Qingheng-jun’s position, yes. But he’d made it out again on the other side, because he was better.
“Did you do it?” Qingheng-jun asked him, casting out his sword in a gorgeous move, surrounded by swirls of spiritual energy that were as lovely as they were deadly, dancing around him like eddies of wind – Wen Ruohan was forced to dodge, retreating to the side before lunging forward, trying for a counterattack that Qingheng-jun deflected.
Not easily, Wen Ruohan could see Qingheng-jun’s arm shaking with the force that Wen Ruohan could put behind his blows, but successfully nonetheless.
Wen Ruohan quickened his pace, trying a different style of attack, fast rather than powerful, but Qingheng-jun met him head-on, his sword moving just as fast as Wen Ruohan’s, his steps just as sure.
The cold wind at the top of the mountain, blowing around every obstacle.
Lovely.
Such a waste, such a waste…
“Did I try to kill everyone, you mean?” Wen Ruohan asked, twisting the fingers of his free hand into a series of hand seals, setting up another array even as his sword clashed with Qingheng-jun’s. “Of course not. If I had, you would know. Or not, as it might be – you would be just as dead as the rest.”
“Not that.” Qingheng-jun bared his teeth at him. “Did you murder your first family?”
He matched the words with a pointed strike, all of his power behind it.
Wen Ruohan reached out and caught the blow with his free hand, redirecting the spiritual energy he’d been using to set up the array into the power he needed to protect his flesh from Qingheng-jun’s steel.
The way nothing would protect him from Qingheng-jun’s words.
“Yes,” he said, wrapping his hand around the sword to hold it, and Qingheng-jun, in place. “Though I did not mean to.”
He brought the array that he’d been working on earlier up all at once, forcing it into existence, and Qingheng-jun let out an involuntary shout as it opened up beneath his feet.
Now it was his turn to have no choice but to dodge, redirecting his own spiritual energy as a defense, pulling his sword out of Wen Ruohan’s grasp and leaping backwards into the air.
Wen Ruohan went after him.
“My first wife betrayed me,” he said, settling into what had once been his preferred fighting style, attacking with both hands in turn, array in one and weapon in the other. “And I betrayed her in turn, one after the other until there was nothing left between us but loss. In time, the two of us destroyed everything that we had ever made together.”
Even their children.
Wen Ruohan hadn’t meant for that to happen. He didn’t think his wife had, either, though of course by that point she had lost too much of her reason to really understand the depths of what they had lost – he’d done that to her, however accidentally. That was the cost of betrayal, the greatest cost. Losing his family had always been the one consequence that he had never been able to forgive himself for causing. The cost of his betrayal.
Just as his betrayal had also cost him Wen Ruoyu, the brother he had loved so much.
Wen Ruoyu had been the only sibling Wen Ruohan had ever really cared about – and he’d had many, brothers and sisters both. Wen Ruoyu was the one younger brother who had genuinely seemed to like Wen Ruohan, who had followed him voluntarily, the one who Wen Ruohan had permitted to follow him, however unwise it had seemed to be at the time. Wen Ruoyu had tagged along in his every step, had adored him and supported him and who Wen Ruohan had adored and supported in turn. As they had grown older, grown stronger, they had challenged each other to surpass their limits, and they had done so marvelously, exceptionally, unexpectedly. The two of them together had been unstoppable: able to overturn every obstacle in their path, blazing through the skies like twin suns, burning away the haze of the world.
If only Wen Ruohan had believed in him as fully as Wen Ruoyu had believed in him – if only he hadn’t let himself be blinded by his ambition, led into folly through his own weakness – if only he hadn’t lost track of what really mattered – if only, if only, if only!
“And then I went mad, of course,” he added matter-of-factly. “There is a point after which it is by far the most straightforward option.”
It was only very recently that he had been able to crawl out of the pit he’d fallen into.
Lao Nie had been the first to help him find his way. Fight evil no matter where, in his own inimitable style, though perhaps Lao Nie had not thought of it that way, driven as he was by his own self-destructive attraction to everything that could bring him harm, wrestling with the knowledge of his sect’s poisonous self-sacrifice and his own impending premature death. Whatever his motivations, he had forced himself into Wen Ruohan’s increasingly empty life, with his intriguing mixture of ruthlessness and joy, supreme selfishness and selflessness in one, his irrepressible humor and charm. He had coaxed Wen Ruohan first into curiosity, and from curiosity into enjoyment. He had shown him the way forward. No, more than that – he had pushed him down the first step on the road of having to actually live rather than merely survive, and for that, Wen Ruohan owed him.
Before Lao Nie, Wen Ruohan had very nearly let go of everything. His apathy had grown to such an extent that not even anger or pain could move him – as best exemplified by his new marriages, bloodless and political, nothing more than a means of getting him closer to his goal of ruling the world, of putting his sect above the rest. After his family had died, he had refused to remarry for so many years, for decades. He had even declared the subject of them taboo, and brutally executed anyone who so much as mentioned them, however obliquely.
And then he’d just…forgotten.
Those cousins of his who had hoped to take advantage of his unmarried state had all grown old and died, waiting for their turn; their children, his new advisors, had not known anything but his never-ending rule, as endless as the blazing light that filled his Nightless City at every hour. They had suggested that he marry in order to consolidate his power, and not seeing any reason not to, he had done so – not once, but twice. He had promised his wives sons and positions of power, and he had delivered on his promises. And then he had looked away from those sons, unable to look to closely at them lest he see the shadows of the ones who had preceded them. He had justified it by telling himself that he would make it up when they were older, when they were interesting, when they were grown men and fully formed people and like him. He had treated them as either prospective enemies, to be held distant for lack of trust, or else as extensions of himself, limiting himself to loving them as he loved himself, a safe and complete love. He hadn’t been able to do anything more.
He had been, though living, more dead than alive.
Lao Nie had been the first step on the road back to himself, but he hadn’t been enough. He hadn’t been willing to step onto the road with Wen Ruohan, to walk alongside him for that whole journey, the two of them together side-by-side, equal in their commitment to each other. He hadn’t been willing to go so far as to pledge loyalty and fidelity and trust. It hadn’t been his fault: Wen Ruohan, as he had been when Lao Nie had first encountered him, had not been worthy of trust, benumbed and accustomed as he was to treachery; he had expected it in everyone and far too often found himself justified, and he responded by being even more treacherous in turn. It would have been a very bad idea for Lao Nie to have trusted in him back then.
And yet…it had changed, in time. He had changed. He had started to find his way back, to rebuild the human that he had once been out of the god he’d nearly become, had changed into something different, into someone who wanted more. Someone who wanted those things, love and trust and the harsh pains of those emotions just as much as their easy joys.
But he hadn’t told Lao Nie about it. He hadn’t ever asked the other man for what he wanted.
He hadn’t wanted to be told no.
Just as Lan Qiren wasn’t a man made for lust, Lao Nie wasn’t a man made for love. He loved, yes, but only as a friend loved, not as a lover did. Not for him were the exquisite agonies and ecstasies of that type of love, a complete and consuming love, viciously possessive and exclusive of others, as much mutual obsession as anything else.
And yet Wen Ruohan hungered for exactly that type of love. For love, and faith, and trust – and then he’d found it, however unexpectedly, in Lan Qiren. Who was, no matter what his brother tried to claim, the purest example of a Lan of Gusu Lan, a man who always strove to live up to that which his sect aspired to.
Rules and righteousness, and a madman’s loving heart beating steadily behind it all: that was Lan Qiren from beginning to end.
And Qingheng-jun had asked Wen Ruohan to explain.
As if such things could be explained.
Wen Ruohan sneered and lifted his sword, bringing it down in a strike of his own, his spiritual energy blisteringly hot, the power of it seething and boiling with fury.
Qingheng-jun threw himself to the side to avoid it.
“Well done, Sect Leader Wen,” he said, after, glancing back at the devastation that had been left in the wake of Wen Ruohan’s blow, the furrows in the earth and the blackened corpses of flowers and bushes that had caught fire. He had a swordsman’s appreciation for the art, if nothing else, and beneath all that madness, he really was a consummate gentleman: he would not withhold his praise when it was justly earned. “It seems you retained more of your power than I had heard.”
“Retained? Regained.” Wen Ruohan laughed. “Thank your brother for that!”
Qingheng-jun’s brow furrowed.
“He hates you, you know,” Wen Ruohan told him, relishing the words. The Lan Qiren that existed purely in Gusu Lan had barely been able to admit that fact to himself, however true it had been; his Lan Qiren, in contrast, had accepted it and moved past it. He was far better a man than either Wen Ruohan or Qingheng-jun could ever be. “You pushed him too far this time. There is no coming back from this, no peace to be had, no compromise possible. The two of you can no longer exist under the same sky…I’m here for him, not for you. I am the instrument of his will.”
“Will is will, power is power. As you yourself said, intent is not action.”
“No, but intent gives rise to action.” Wen Ruohan smirked. “Come now, you’re far from young and naive. Gusu Lan may be full of prudes, but even Qiren had heard of dual cultivation before.”
“You…” Qingheng-jun’s eyes almost bulged. “With him?!”
Such a reaction was strange, and perhaps a little sad, Wen Ruohan reflected. He himself had wanted to dual cultivate with Lan Qiren and yet had nearly discounted the possibility, so certain was he that Lan Qiren would refuse to do such a thing with him. And yet here was Lan Qiren’s own brother, his own flesh and blood, the Wen Ruohan to Lan Qiren’s Wen Ruoyu, and he thought that Wen Ruohan ought to have been the one reluctant to dual cultivate with Lan Qiren.
“I did,” he confirmed, and nearly laughed again at the puckered expression of distaste and disapproval on Qingheng-jun’s face. Now there was one who wouldn’t have done such a thing even if his wife had liked him enough to agree. He clearly couldn’t even conceive of rendering himself so vulnerable to another person, to give himself to another without reserve. “It was glorious, just as he is.”
Qingheng-jun’s expression of distaste did not change.
Unfortunately, the perfection of his sword forms did not falter, either, and he really was a better swordsman than Wen Ruohan. Wen Ruohan was keeping up, the arrays he could summon his best weapon as always, supported by his experience in fights such as these, but he wasn’t winning. There was a reason he kept up the conversation, goading and hunting for weaknesses, looking for a way to throw Qingheng-jun off his equilibrium, and they both knew it.
Well, if such a way existed, Wen Ruohan hadn’t found it yet.
He knew that Qingheng-jun hated Lan Qiren, hated the Lan sect, but it wasn’t enough. Lan Qiren, simply by virtue of being himself, could cause far more damage to his brother’s psyche than Wen Ruohan could with all his taunts and jabs. He’d explained the full circumstances of their conversation to Wen Ruohan before he’d left, hoping to arm him with everything he could, and it had been all that Wen Ruohan could do to keep from laughing out loud when he’d realized that it had been Lan Qiren’s misplaced empathy that Qingheng-jun hadn’t been able to tolerate. Pity from a hated enemy, condescending comments from someone you thought had won over you, someone you thought was rubbing their victory in your face…
Amazing.
Completely accidental, of course, but amazing.
Was there any way he could use that?
“Tell me,” he drawled. “Do you really think of Lan Qiren as some sort of – ”
What had been the term Cangse Sanren had used?
“– some sort of seductive vixen?”
Qingheng-jun’s next blow went wide. Wen Ruohan took advantage at once, pulling back to catch his breath and take stock of his reserves – arrays required more energy than swordsmanship, and doing both was taxing. He’d recovered quite a lot from where he had been, but he was far from his peak; he needed to conserve his strength where he could.
“I really have to wonder about that. I mean, have you met him?” Wen Ruohan shook his head pityingly. “He is rather dreadfully boring, isn’t he?”
That was part of the wonder of him. Lan Qiren was boring, a rule-abiding stickler, a stern moralist, a monotonous old teacher despite his relative youth, but that wasn’t all he was. He was passionate and complicated, a mix of contradictions, a war within himself, all things within himself.
Even the boring parts of him were interesting.
“Quite good in bed, though. I assume it’s a natural gift, that ability to steeply climb learning curves and gain mastery over a subject…especially since it was quite evident that he came to my bed a virgin.”
Another strike that didn’t quite reach where Qingheng-jun wanted it to.
Because, of course, Lan Qiren coming to Wen Ruohan untouched meant that he really hadn’t done what Qingheng-jun had thought he had, his younger brother betraying him in bed with his wife, replacing him after he’d made such sacrifices – such unasked-for sacrifices, though it was clear Qingheng-jun had never thought of them that way. Everyone always saw themselves as the hero in their own story.
Only it was getting harder and harder for Qingheng-jun to pretend, even to himself, that he was anything but the villain here.
Wen Ruohan was getting close, he could feel it. Qingheng-jun’s swordsmanship was good, exceptionally good, and if he were anyone else, anyone other than the man who had hurt Lan Qiren, then Wen Ruohan might have entertained thoughts of trying to recruit him. He’d always valued talent, had always appreciated art no matter what form it was in, regardless of being its target. He was even willing to forgive terrible crimes for it, heedless of the cost – but only when the cost was to himself, or to his sect, or to the world.
Not to Lan Qiren.
No, there would be no way out of this for Qingheng-jun. Wen Ruohan was not going to hold back his blows, wasn’t going to try to recruit him, wasn’t going to show him any way out.
He was going to kill him.
Just as soon as he could figure out how.
He just needed a little bit more –
“He wrote me a song, you know,” Wen Ruohan said suddenly, motivated by some unknown instinct. His memory of little Lan Wangji’s face, maybe, all screwed up in distaste as he reluctantly made the suggestion, or else Lan Xichen looking so childishly appalled at the idea of such a thing, ameliorated only reluctantly when Lan Wangji had reminded him that they were already married – Gusu Lan were such musicians, really. Though he wasn’t sure whether such a thing would make an impact on a swordsman like Qingheng-jun…
“He what?!”
Apparently it would.
“How dare he – he wrote you a song – ”
Qingheng-jun’s blows were getting wilder and wilder. More powerful, but that had always been the risk of the game Wen Ruohan was playing. Qingheng-jun had been keeping him mostly on the defensive, or else letting him have openings that he then closed immediately – Wen Ruohan’s current approach was simply not working. He knew it, he accepted it, and he wasn’t so prideful that he would resist change just for the sake of doing so.
He needed to get Qingheng-jun off-balance just long enough to figure out something new.
“Of course he did,” he said, keeping his tone light and casual, echoing Lao Nie at his most unbelievably irritating. “Isn’t that what musical cultivators like him do? Write songs? I wouldn’t think it was that unusual – ”
“Why does he get to have a song?!” Qingheng-jun shouted, and –
Ah.
So that’s what it was.
“He’s never been my equal, never,” Qingheng-jun spat out, and Wen Ruohan could see the madness in his rage-reddened eyes now. “He was just an afterthought, a left-behind, a remnant – he shouldn’t have even existed! I had two younger brothers before him, only a few years younger than me, both of them talented and good, and they were all the sect elders needed, spares just in case something happened to me. If only they hadn’t died! If they had lived, my parents would never have felt obligated to try again for another, and Qiren would never have been born. My mother wouldn’t have needed to take medicine to have him, wouldn’t have weakened her health for him, wouldn’t have ripped herself apart at the birthing bed and gotten sick and died because of him – ”
“Blame your sect for that,” Wen Ruohan said. “Oh, wait. You already do.”
Qingheng-jun wasn’t even listening. “When she died, she took my father with her. It was only a living corpse that remained sect leader after that. All the burden came to me. All the responsibility, all the expectations, everything, and all the while Qiren could go on untroubled, dull and slow and fumbling and boring and nothing. Nothing worthy of that sacrifice, of either of their sacrifices. And yet…”
“And yet he gets to have the song,” Wen Ruohan said knowingly. “He gets to have that once-in-a-lifetime love, the type of love that haunts you and possesses you and drives you to extremes of destruction and creation both. The love you never had.”
Qingheng-jun’s next blow left nothing but wreckage in its wake, but Wen Ruohan was already long gone.
“It’s only to be expected from him, really,” he said, and let his voice drip with pity thick as syrup, as much of it as he could conjure. It wasn’t for nothing that Lan Qiren had dubbed him the second most obnoxious man in the world. “After all, Lan Qiren is everything that he should be – a true Lan of Gusu Lan.”
And that was it, that was the difference.
Not the difference between Qingheng-jun and Lan Qiren. Wen Ruohan wasn’t the sort of person who thought that everyone ought to follow their sect mottos blindly, thinking that there was only one way to live up to what they were meant to be; such an idea was restrictive and ridiculous. He himself was far from the true ideal of Qishan Wen, with his quixotic focus on arrays instead of swordsmanship or medicine, though he was still his sect’s true-born son, just as ambitious as anyone in his family, as arrogant. It had been Wen Ruoyu who had been the real outlier: possessive but willing to share, a collector of trinkets and people rather than strength or influence, sociable and generous rather than standoffish and arrogant, a spearman rather than a swordsman, lacking even the slightest traces of medical talent, disdainful of the trappings of duty or the temptations of power, lacking ambition for himself but avidly loyal to those he loved.
By any family standard, Wen Ruoyu had been completely unfit for the proud surname Wen.
Yet Wen Ruohan would have killed anyone who said that, anyone who might have suggested that his differences meant Wen Ruoyu wasn’t among the best their sect had ever produced. Not only would he kill over such an insult, he had, and often enough, too.
No, it wasn’t the difference between Lan Qiren and Qingheng-jun: it was the difference between Qingheng-jun and Wen Ruohan.
They’d both gone mad, after all. They’d both turned cruel and vicious, lashing out at the world that had robbed them of their rightful due, that had turned against them after all they had done for it. They’d both been driven by somewhat justified grievances until they’d gone too far and committed crimes with their own hands, both of them having fallen into the pit of despair, of apathy and malice and madness.
But where Qingheng-jun had thrown away everything that mattered, rejected family, friends, sect, wife, and even principle, Wen Ruohan was different.
Wen Ruohan, even when he had had nothing else, had always had his sect.
Even when he’d lost everything else, even when he’d forgotten the reason for his own existence, even when he longed to destroy everything around him just to make it all go away, he hadn’t actually taken that final step. He’d been Sect Leader Wen by then, and he’d always taken that seriously. His actions reflected on his sect, his actions defined his sect: all boats were lifted by the same tide, and sunk by the same hurricane.
If he led them to victory, they would benefit. If he led them to ruin, they would suffer.
His sect was his responsibility.
His sect was his.
All good things in the world ought to be his, the world ought to be his – and that meant he owed it a duty of care in return.
Wen Ruohan loved himself. He was vain, narcissistic, self-absorbed. He saw his sect as an extension of himself, and just as he knew himself to be the best, the finest cultivator in the cultivation world, nearly a god, so too did he know that his sect was the best. The facts did not matter, the truth did not matter, nothing mattered, nothing but his certainty of that fact.
He knew his sect was the best – and if they weren’t, it was his duty to make it true.
No matter the method, as Wen Ruoyu had always said with a grin. As long as you win, no matter the method…
No matter the method.
That was it.
That was it.
What was he doing?
Wen Ruohan spared a moment to shake his head at his own foolishness. Going up against Qingheng-jun sword against sword – he’d known he wouldn’t be able to win that way, but he’d been reckless as always, arrogant as always, counting on his arrays to carry him to victory as they always had. But he wasn’t as strong as he’d been, wasn’t able to fight with just arrays rather than with array and sword both, and he wasn’t as practiced at fighting from a position of weakness as he had once been, either. He had grown lazy in his apathy, sitting back and letting his power do the fighting for him, letting his army or his influence or his control of so many sects move the pieces for him.
He'd need to fix that, going forward. He should spar more often, with Lao Nie and Lan Qiren and others; he should bind his own power, cut off his own excessively strong cultivation, and practice fighting that way, to make sure he gave himself a real challenge.
There was no way for him to win like this.
So…why fight like this?
Just because it was expected? Because it was convention?
Does the sun care for the expectations of the earth? Wen Ruohan had asked Yu Ziyuan, laughing at her. I have never restricted myself for the sake of others. Why would I start now?
They’d been talking about marriage, but what was true for the marital was just as true for the martial.
Wen Ruohan laughed out loud.
Qingheng-jun startled at the sound of it, pulling back warily – thinking that Wen Ruohan was up to something, no doubt, and he’d be right to think so, too.
Wen Ruohan contemptuously threw aside his sword, letting it clatter to the ground. And in its place, he summoned another weapon entirely.
“A spear?” Qingheng-jun asked, clearly surprised. “Since when do the Wen fight with a spear?”
Wen Ruohan spun the spear around in his hand, and found it as warm and welcoming to him as it had ever been, without the slightest hint of rancor or anger despite how long it had been since he’d wielded it. The spear was called Zhencang, and it had been Wen Ruoyu’s spiritual weapon, the one he had made his name with all those years ago. It had been because of this spear that he had begged and bullied and bribed Wen Ruohan into learning how to use a spear at all, pestering him every morning and every evening until he begrudgingly agreed to practice with him.
More than practice – to adjust his own style, his footwork and his reach and his thinking, to match it.
There were many similarities, he’d found, between arrays and spears. Both were weapons of longer distance, excelling in middle-range attacks with greater reach and greater leverage rather than close melee that was the domain of the sword, and both could be used to devastating effect against those who were less familiar with them.
Wen Ruohan hadn’t used Zhencang since the day his brother had died, but neither had he left it behind. It had been habit more than anything else to bring it with him, the remnants of a long-ago vow that he had once made to himself. His brother had been alive and free, never confined, and so too would his spiritual weapon be – not for his brother’s spear was the lonesome fate of the cold treasury room, not ever, not even if Wen Ruohan never wielded it again in his life.
He’d forgotten.
He remembered now.
“Since always,” Wen Ruohan said with a savage grin. “Learn your history, will you?”
He lunged forward.
As he’d expected, Qingheng-jun did not have much experience in fighting against a spear. A spear was a soldier’s weapon, not a gentleman’s. The Lan sect prided itself on elegance, and its disciples followed their sect, alternating between the beautiful sword forms of which both Lan Qiren and Qingheng-jun were masters and the underestimated but no less potent power of their music. The spear, in contrast, was a utilitarian weapon, meant to fight horses or enemy soldiers, meant to stretch out one’s power onto others. And although it, too, could be elegant, in Wen Ruohan’s hands, it was all aggression.
Array in one hand, weapon in the other – yes, this was his preferred fighting style.
He attacked.
Now it was Qingheng-jun who found himself on the defensive. Now it was he who had to dodge, he who had to speed up, who had to block time and time again, receiving the blows instead of striking them.
Now it was Qingheng-jun who was going to lose.
They both knew it.
It was a shared understanding between them, shared in their eyes as they gazed at each other, in the growing smirk on Wen Ruohan’s face and the growing scowl on Qingheng-jun, in the increased desperation of his movements, in the way he spent his spiritual energy recklessly, frantically, but to no avail. He couldn’t find any openings, Wen Ruohan beating him down with spear and arrays both, using his sword only to fly and barely even for that. He couldn’t find a way out.
Wen Ruohan wasn’t going to leave him a way out.
Qingheng-jun’s fate was sealed, and they both knew it. He was going to die. He was going die, and his crimes were going to be covered up for the sake of the Lan sect and his sons, for the sake of letting Lan Xichen and Lan Wangji grow up as the sons of that brilliant but tragic swordsman that Wen Ruohan would have loved to have recruited and not of the murderous madman he’d turned into instead. He was going to die and be erased, be replaced by Lan Qiren first and by Lan Xichen and by Lan Wangji later, and there was nothing he could do about it.
It was just a matter of time, now.
He was going to die –
“No,” Qingheng-jun spat. “No! I refuse – I surrender.”
Wen Ruohan’s hand froze.
“You what?”
He must not have heard correctly.
“I surrender,” Qingheng-jun said, and threw down his sword. It clattered onto the ground, its beautiful tassel becoming stained by the mud of the earth they had churned up with their violence. “You heard me. I surrender myself to you. I request punishment for my crime – adjudicated punishment, and the chance to atone.”
“Why in the world would I grant that to you?” Wen Ruohan wondered. “Have you mistaken who I am? My Wen sect doesn’t have such beliefs.”
“No, it doesn’t,” Qingheng-jun agreed, and then he smiled, a cold nasty sort of smile. “But Qiren does.”
Qiren does.
He was right.
Qingheng-jun was right, damn him. Lan Qiren had said it himself, when they’d been talking about Wang Liu: What do you mean, what do I want to do with him? Naturally he must be given a fair trial and a fair sentence, a fair punishment. It’s different, once he’s been taken into custody: before, he was an enemy, and now he is a prisoner.
And I, at least, do not mistreat prisoners.
If Wen Ruohan killed Qingheng-jun now, after he had voluntarily surrendered, he would be executing a prisoner, not defeating an enemy.
He could still do it. He was a Wen, not a Lan. He wasn’t bound by Lan Qiren’s multitude of rules, he wasn’t bound by Lan Qiren’s conscience…but Lan Qiren was, and Lan Qiren would disapprove.
More than disapprove. He would feel guilty.
Complicit.
Wen Ruohan had himself said that he was here to act as the instrument of Lan Qiren’s will, and he had meant it. But if that was his purpose here, he had to decide whether he was going to follow that will to the end, whether to obey it over the dictates of his own inclinations. He had to decide if he was going to handle this the way Lan Qiren would have wanted him to, or ignore it and forge his own path the way he always had.
Whether he would do things in Lan Qiren’s name that Lan Qiren would never have wanted.
Wen Ruohan could kill him and then lie, of course. There was no one here but the two of them, no one here to see Qingheng-jun’s surrender – Wen Ruohan was a cultivator just like any other. He could kill the man and banish his spirit before anyone would think to question him, covering it up just as thoroughly as the mine had been covered up, as thoroughly as Qingheng-jun’s attempted massacre had been covered up. He could tell Lan Qiren that he’d killed his brother in fair battle, could bear the secret himself, relieve Lan Qiren of the guilt of knowing it wasn’t true.
He could lie.
But – if he lied about something like this…wasn’t he undermining the trust Lan Qiren put in him?
This is my promise to you, he’d said to him, and he had meant it. This is my oath that I will trust in you in the future, and be someone whom you can trust in, in turn, someone worthy of your trust. My promise is this: that everything I do in the future, I will do with thoughts of you.
Do not tell lies.
He’d said it, and he’d meant it.
That meant he couldn’t lie.
And if he couldn’t lie – then he couldn’t kill Qingheng-jun.
So, despite everything, despite Qingheng-jun’s victorious smirk that he itched to beat off his face –
Wen Ruohan held back his hand.
“Well,” he said, meaning shit and fuck you and fuck me and a thousand other curses that all wanted to come pouring out of his mouth all at once, none of them finding purchase over the others. “Well, then.”
Qingheng-jun laughed.
It was a desolate sound.
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There’s A Whisper In My Bones - New Chapter
Chapter 2: Murder on the Dance Floor
Summary:
Lan Wangji is faced with the crow who has been harrassing him, but something seems to be off.
Madam Lan must come to terms with her own identity as a spirit.
#writing#fanfiction#mo dao zu shi fanfiction#mo dao zu shi#mdzs#mdzs fanfic#mdzs fanfiction#wangxian#madam lan#qingheng-jun#wei wuxian#lan wangji#crow!wei wuxian#dragonji#dragon!lan wangji#crowxian#there’s a whisper in my bones#archive of our own#ao3#ao3 fanfic#ao3 writer
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Fractured Brother's by Haru_Okami
Time travel fix-it
9 chapters (work in progress) 15k words
“Sorry it's just what has become of our legacies. My own is filled with hypocritical judgmental practices that are held up on a mountain sized pedestal.” his scowl marred his beautiful features.
“It’s not your fault.” Lan Yi tried to defend but he just shook his head.
“Really you don’t think so. My legacy has segregated the genders to the point the don’t even share classes, not thought of or treated with the same respect. The whole sect strangled by rules with no context, contradiction added in the disguise of righteousness. 300 rules I created to guide the next generation, but each one had context.” He clenched his fist in anger.
“300,” Lan Yi gasped outraged. “When I took over leadership there was already 1800 rules, where did it all go wrong!” she was furious. “I would have loved only having 300 rules.” she looked almost wistful imagining how different her life may have been, Baoshan chuckled at her expression.
“It started with your father and the council I left hoping to protect your mother my daughter. Instead, they followed flow of politics at the time they started amassing the power for themselves and began to slowly strip your mother’s power away whilst still using all the knowledge and scores of music I left.”
We begin Fractured Brother's with a totally messed up confrontation at the Guanyin Temple. It's bad enough that it draws the attention of a number of Immortals and several gods. We learn a bit about the history of two Sects, Jiang and Lan. A choice has to be made by the two Immortals with which we are most familiar, and time is rewound.
There are immediate changes to the history as we know it. Wei Changze, for example, is much more important to the Jiang than rumor and innuendo would imply. The Lan and Nie stories change as well.
It's early days, the story has a way to go before completion. Even so, I'm extremely fond of the character of Wei Changze. There are scenes at Lotus Pier that are so satisfying to read. I predict major changes around Yiling as the Wei sect begins to make a comeback.
I've enjoyed the ideas of the Author so far and am eager to read more of this tale as it unfolds.
As a warning, do not expect Jiang Wanyin, Lan Xichen or Meng Yao to come across as sympathetic characters. The author doesn't promise redemption for any of them, and I completely agree.
#wei changze#qingheng-jun#wei ying#lan zhan#baoshan sanren#lan yi#mdzs#mdzs fic recs#mo dao zu shi#the untamed#other mdzs characters#a few gods
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SPRING BLOSSOMS
Final and fourth part in the "Seasons of Love" series, alongside Summer Rain, Autumn Wind, and Winter Lights
Rating: T | 14658 words | Wangxian
Established Relationship | Estranged Fathers | Domestic Fluff | Mild Angst | Angst with a Happy Ending | Happy Ending | Tooth-Rotting Fluff | Family IssuesI | mplied/Referenced SuicideI |mplied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism | Implied/Referenced Pet Death | Heart Disease | Rabbits | Podfic Welcome
“Lan Zhan, what’s wrong?” he asks. “Bad news? Is everything alright with Shushu?”
Lan Wangji tries to say something, but his voice fails him. When he finally manages to speak, he sounds hoarse.
“This letter arrived this morning,” he says. “It spelled my birth name on it, the one my mother gave me. I didn’t recognise the handwriting on it, so I set it aside to read it later."
Wei Wuxian is silent, giving Lan Wangji the time he needs to find his words.
“Wei Ying, this letter…it’s from my father.”
Or:
The story of how sometimes, even decades after something has happened, your past sneaks up on you when you're least expecting it.
#Sweet is rambling#Wangxian#The Untamed#MDZS#mdzsnet#CQL#Chen Qing Ling#Mo Dao Zu Shi#Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation#Wei Wuxian#Lan Wangji#Wei Ying#Lan Zhan#A-Yuan#Mo Xuanyu#Lan Sizhui#Lan Qiren#Qingheng-jun#Lan Xichen#Nie Mingjue#Rabbits#Tooth-rotting fluff#Rima's Fics#Rima's Writing
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Look me deeply in the eyes
Do you love me? You can lie. I won’t mind
(Hold Me Close - Madds Buckley)
Just thinking about Lan-furen and Qingheng-jun lately....
#mdzs#qingheng-jun#lan-furen#madam lan#Gusu Lan#Madds Buckley#this song is Them#also ngl i think the fandom is a bit harsh on Qingheng-jun#the man was a bad father no doubt call him out for his treatment of his sons that is fair#but like#when it comes to his wife#what was he supposed to do#not marry her and let her be executed?#it's not like madam lan HAD to agree to that#the other option was death yeah#but#it's not like he - a sect leader - could just let her go after committing a grave crime#id be p pissed if MY leader allowed murder bc Hot Woman#so unless we're expecting him to break every law#i don't really think he should be blamed for this anymore than lan-furen herself#considering we don't actually know why she killed the teacher#ANYWAY#qingheng-jun loving her so desperately and never knowing what she truly feels for him - if she'd have married him if she had a better choic#makes me feel things
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(sect leaders at the time wwx first arrives at gusu)
#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#cql#the untamed#wen ruohan#qingheng-jun#jin guangshan#jiang fengmian#nie mingjue#poll
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for All intents and purposes, 90% of anything that i say do or create for the birthers of the canon mdzs generation are either speculative or headcanons. idk if i'm going to Stop with the lan & jiang sects or if i'm going to go all out & include the nie, jin & wen sects & all their affiliates, & really the only characters i Truly Want to draw are the last Nie clan leader & his 2 wives & lan furen. Clan Leader Nie is slowly giving me uzui tengen vibes, if for no other reason than I Like to Think that Nie Huaisang's Mother is a crybaby like Suma & Mingjue's mother like hinatsuru
all that being said, i'm gonna log some headcanons
Wei Changze is an unfortunate only child, though there's a high chance that he's milk-brothers with Fengmian. wcz's only living relative is his mother, a small woman with no spiritual power to speak of who is nervous in the presence of men. the wei family in general is Small, & any extended family that still lives are so estranged from wei changze and his mother that they may as well not exist at all. while the jiang family was well-off and in no need of any new servants, a young man came by some few decades ago and bartered his sister off to the family in exchange for money and some supplies for travel. the then-clan leader took pity on the woman being sold off by her own flesh and blood and let her work for them, but within a month it became obvious that the reason her brother didn't want her was because they were going to happen on another mouth to feed and no man to claim a bastard. despite her reservation towards men, wei changze grows into the type of person who's unreasonably gentle with his own mother and he's one of the extremely few men that can exist in the same room as her alone without her breaking into an awful fit of trembling. his mother ends up being one of the midwives that helps bring jiang fengmian into the world.
knowing that she was raised on a Celestial mountain under an immortal, & knowing that xiao xingchen's name has multiple instances of the Sun radical in it, i have hcs that cssr's Name has moon radicals in it. i've tried thinking for sun & stars but i dont like it so the yue radical is in there, most likely under Radiant. she's a feral child, less in the sense of being a creature that acts impulsively and lashes out, and more in the sense that she just refuses to be tamed, by her master, by the sects, by the world at large. she's living life & enjoying it, "ain't nothin gonna break my stride, nobody gonna slow me down" kinda girl. she's level headed, very much likes to think things through, but she knows definitively what she does not want.
fengmian has an instant crush on jiejie, though to be wholly fair cssr descended on them like a celestial being herself to wreak havoc on lqr Immediately. wcz is enamored, but knowing he has no hope and lives with expectations of finding a nice subservient wife to fulfill his nice subservient life, he makes no move towards her & instead enjoys the light that jfm's eyes give.
cssr doesn't see the jiang disciples again for another year at Least, after the cloud-recesses incident that ends with her yanking Qiren's goatee out. she spends time in each sect as she wanders around, making friends in each one and by the time she's around yunmeng, her closest companion currently being the nie heir. like a boy in love, fengmian is intent on spending as much time as he can with her, learning her quirks and likes and dislikes, and she can see clearly that he's looking at her with rose-tinted glasses but makes no move or indication that she's intent on returning the feelings, mostly because she's not interested in him but also the idea of being a sect-leader's Wife, a position that would put her in the very proximity of the politics her master held such disdain for, was wholly unappealing
nie zhongzu was a trailblazer. he was very much a man who did not care of other people's opinions and very blatantly lived in a righteous way. if he wanted to do something that didn't affect the people around him in any direct way, he'd do it (like promoting a concubine to the status of Wife when doing so was highly frowned upon). he'd be a himbo if it weren't for the fact that he was a master of the 5 arts, extremely well read and the heir to a clan knee deep in sect politics raised with the expectation of taking this mantel. that aside i like to think he had sisters that carried that big beefy nie blood.
nie furen was a tall woman, her husband was just taller. the man was built like mingjue, a bull. she gives off willow-tree vibes, is probably a strong cultivator, collected in nature and relatively subservient. she doesn't want for much and has accepted her roll in being the political tie to the nies and behaves accordingly. really the only person that can make nie furen flustered is her husband's concubine, and not even in the competitive way. nie furen is gay & she enjoys huaisang's mother Very much as both company and eye candy.
concubine xiao laopo is nie zhongzu's childhood friend. well really she's one of the nie servants that got promoted to concubine after nie zhongzhu announced that he was going to marry her when they were children and the elders rushed to put a stop to his insanity. she's not a cultivator, and because she's not, she doesn't have much of an eye for either the education they receive nor a true understanding of the work they perform outside of "important" & "helpful to all" & "spiritual." that being said, her heart is still moved by whatever arts are presented to her. she's bubbly and quick to make friends with nie furen when the furen is married into the clan, and takes solace in the idea that their husband is a pretty open-minded man to bypass any shame she would otherwise feel behaving towards the recognized wife of the nie clan. xlp has an equal interest in men and women and was Probably present when nmj was conceived. i wanna name her Bu but i feel like thats too on the nose for the Me who recently got into cdramas
wen-sibling parents have the classic shounen + love interest dynamic, borderline main character & his tsun girl who berates him for his recklessness, except roll reversed. their mom is a physically strong woman, tall, wonderful cultivator, probably only shorter than nie-zhongzhu ((honestly she herself might be a nie descendant)). she's a bit on the stoic side and pretty headstrong, meanwhile their dad is a relatively small man who constantly gets into spats with his wife because she'll often have another wound that needs tending to whenever she comes back from hunts. he's Technically a cultivator, but no notably strong golden core and rather spends his time studying the flow of qi & how to best clear blockages in meridians. honestly before they're even married it's highly speculated that she gets hurt just to be doted on. she'll bite back but let him win arguments, and on distant night hunts she'll bring him back bushels of herbs that can't be found in qishan. more often than not she won't present them with any fanfare, but rather just leave them in a place he can find. they're awkward around each other before marriage & argue for the sake of filling white noise afterwards.
wen daifu is wen ruohan's third cousin. he doesn't wear his hair with any real embellishments or guans that denote status in the clan or even allude to his affiliation with the clan, despite the fact that his robes would give it away regardless. he has a gnarly scar on his body courtesy of the main family's children, and is often bullied onto nighthunts with them because he is the best practicing doctor of their generation. despite being brought on as a healer for the longer nighthunts and ruohan taking special interest on keeping his cousin by his side, wen daifu is pretty adamant about healing anyone from any sect that is injured in front of him. he's not taller than 5'7"/170cm, but his curt and clear way of speaking makes up for any attention he'd fail to garner just by existing.
wen ruohan is the middle of 3 boys and quite fond of playing weiqi. his older brother has no patience for sitting and playing board games with his younger brother, being a relatively active kid that enjoys pushing his weight around with other cultivators from his generation. his younger brother is half his age and takes a great deal of satisfaction in imitating their eldest brother but still looks to ruohan for approval. despite his attempts at imitating the eldest son, the youngest brother often finds himself on the receiving end of his peer's fists whenever their squabbles get out of hand. despite his penchant for being all-smiles, ruohan is fond of neither brother.
jin guangshan is the only boy in a family of daughters. all of the jin children are spoiled, and many of his older sisters made it a point to spoil him rotten. his father being elated that they finally have a boy to inherit the clan dotes on him and gives his boy anything he asks for, pardons any misgivings, and creates an environment that caters to his son's every whim. when he meets his future wife at the behest of his parents, his response is lackluster and despite being a beautiful boy, crushes her hopes with the weird faces he makes in response to being introduced to her.
qingheng-jun is every bit as quiet and intimidating as his youngest son grows up to be. he's a leader that gives off a cold and impenetrable aura that makes it extremely difficult for anyone to challenge his logic as sect-leader-to-be, but really quite enjoys it when someone is bold enough to challenge him. he's not the Most expressive person, but he is more than wangji. he just finds that there's not much worth having an expression over, certainly not in excess, and is adept at handling his tasks with the same grace his eldest will exude.
lan furen is a non-cultivator who was raised on horseback, traveling between the central plateaus and the eastern oceanfront. she's adept at living off of the land and while she isn't an inherently kind or social woman, it's easy to see that her heart lies calmest racing across the continent under the wide expanse of sky. she's an excellent marksman and roams with a band of for-hire escorts that keep cargo and people from harm on long treks. despite being a non-cultivator, she probably has the budding of a strong golden core that just isn't focused on in her daily life.
yu ziyuan is a girl about as demur as any other when she's sent to yunmeng jiang as a means of formal introduction to jiang fengmian. she's doll-like in both appearance and personality, but her chaperone comes with gifts from meishan yu to help push along the betrothal process. the gifts in question are resources forged through meishan yu, crystals refined in such a way that can react to and absorb spiritual power, much like how zidian functions. her meeting with cssr turns her bitter towards the prospect of marrying jfm but she is too proud and too filial to let feelings disrupt the process of their betrothal.
#mdzs#screaming into the void#thinks wistfully about ziyuan & jin furen being young women who were Very Good at the cultivation they performed#cangse sanren#yu ziyuan#jin furen#jin guangshan#jiang fengmian#wen ruohan#so many ocs#qingheng-jun#lan furen#wei changze#nie zongzhu#xiao laopo#nie furen#cw: implied rape#qourmet: aga
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WIP Wednesday
A snippet from the next chapter of You Are Of Their Ilk, continuing on from the last bit I posted a while back where Lan Qiren is finally confronting Qingheng-jun about the elders and stuff.
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“Were you intending on informing me, then, that you have seen fit to complicate the inheritance of the heirs I have provided?”
Lan Qiren blinks a little at the nonsequitur, but this is far from a new argument. There were many in those first months of Wei Ying’s living in Cloud Recesses who thought Lan Qiren planned to supplant his nephews as Heirs with the presence of his ‘own’ child. A ridiculous notion that he had very swiftly disabused the Sect of through both word and action, but an unsurprising conclusion for his brother to have come to after likely receiving the old news fresh from one of the elders he’d spoken with.
“It did not seem pertinent, when you were so unmoved and uncaring of your own sons’ births years ago. Why should I bother you for the introduction of one young orphan into the Sect, whose inheritance will be nothing save the education every other non-clan disciple receives?”
A muscle jumps in Lan Qihua’s jaw as he raises his cup to his lips to take a sip of his tea; Lan Qiren can’t help but feel that quite without his knowing it the conversation has become something like a sparring session, and he just landed a blow.
“What does it matter to you what I said to the elders when they came at my call? They retreated into seclusion, did they not? Your way is clear, you may do with the Sect as you wish.”
Lan Qiren tamps down another flash of irritation, hot and tight in his chest.
“None of this is what I wish,” he says in a fit of soul-weary honesty. “But I will do what I can to pass the Sect into better hands than mine, and hopefully leave it in a better state than you did for me. If you will not tell me what you said to the elders then I have nothing further to do here.”
Lan Qihua glares at him coldly enough that Lan Qiren’s feels the chill of it down his spine as if it were a curse, sure that later when he undresses to bathe he’ll find a mark on him somewhere, physical evidence of his brother’s hatred clinging to his skin. He stays silent, though, and so after a heavy pause Lan Qiren simply gets to his feet and turns to go without a proper farewell.
“Fengyi was right about you,” he says when he pauses at the door, hand resting carefully on the freshly-cut timber. He traces a fingertip along a whorl in the wood as his mind wanders to his Sworn Brother. His…partner, who had tried to tell him the truth of what he would find in an attempt to save him from continuing to be haunted by the ghost of the brother he’d really never had. “You’re nothing more than a shell of a man. If this is the greatest strength of the Lan Sect then it is no longer any wonder that those who once supported you discovered their cause is hopeless upon seeing what you’ve become. If I were to ever think to rely on you again in this life I would despair as well.”
Lan Qiren steps out of the house as porcelain shatters against the door beside him, razor sharp shards of what had moments ago been a teacup clattering harmlessly to the ground behind him as he steps out into the sunlight his brother has shunned to meditate on his own endless misery.
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Lan Xichen: He is a... complicated man
Lan Wangji: He's a fucking bitch that's what he is
Lan Xichen: Wangji!
Lan Wangji: :)
Mama Lan's ghost: *clap clap*
I think about the Twin Jades’ feelings towards their father all the time and I think there are a lot of ways it could play out for each of them but right now I am thinking about teen Xichen haltingly admitting to Wangji that sometimes…he finds it…difficult…to feel…charitable…towards their father…and in return Wangji is like Oh I legit hate him. I hope he dies and Xichen is like WANGJI! and Wangji is like Oh this not a safe space suddenly
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The Other Mountain - ao3 - Chapter 21
Pairing: Lan Qiren/Wen Ruohan
Warning Tags on Ao3
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As a child, Lan Qiren had followed his brother everywhere.
In retrospect, he could see how this could have been annoying, particularly to someone more than ten years older than him, nearly a man. But as a child Lan Qiren had not known it. He had only wanted to be closer to that magnificent figure, to his glorious brother who everyone praised and everyone loved and everyone admired – and Lan Qiren had admired him, too.
He’d been proud to be the younger brother of such a person, a distant but awe-inspiring figure, and he had basked in the reflection of his brother’s splendor. It had been the primary source of affection he had had, given his mother’s early death and his father’s subsequent disconnect from the world, and even his teachers, well-meaning, had often laced their praise with comparisons between them, absent-mindedly promising Lan Qiren that he would one day match his brother’s peerless example.
Naturally he had been unable to stay away.
His brother at the time had not been so disdainful of Lan Qiren as he later would become, and back then the Lan sect rules had been important to him, too, though perhaps not to the degree they had mattered to Lan Qiren even in childhood. The rules praised chivalry, courtesy, and generosity, and his brother had always wanted to be seen as a perfect gentleman – he had been so proud when people had first started calling him Qingheng-jun, respect and praise in one. Naturally he had not been willing to be so churlish as to be seen brushing off an unwanted much-younger brother, even one whose birth had led to his previously tranquil life falling apart, and so he’d put up with Lan Qiren trailing after him throughout the Cloud Recesses.
To and fro, wherever he went, asking all sorts of questions and trying to get his brother’s attention, unsuccessfully aping his mannerisms and his habits –
Yes, Lan Qiren supposed he had been very annoying.
Eventually his brother had gotten tired of being harassed and had in fact chased him away, at first only occasionally and then consistently, and by the time he had met He Kexin, he was accustomed to telling Lan Qiren to get lost and meaning it. There was a reason Lan Qiren had not really met He Kexin in any substantive capacity until it was too late.
But it did mean that Lan Qiren was very familiar with his brother’s habits.
People, Lan Qiren had found, were in many ways like rules: they did not change very readily, except from within. The passage of time could weather the Wall of Discipline, but regular repetition carved furrows into people as deep as the regular re-inscription of the rules did to the stone – people remembered, and people did, and did again, and habits once formed were difficult to get rid of even when you tried. And if those habits had been entrenched deeply enough, even ten years without would not rid you of them.
His brother would not be the exception.
Lan Qiren slowly made his way around the edges of the Lan sect camp, keeping an eye out for the sorts of places that his brother preferred – high places, with good vantage points, but still comfortable, with enough trees to shade him from the sun and wind. He was not overly subtle with his search, and his apparent nonchalance was enough to make the few Lan sect sentries who seemed to catch a glimpse of him look away once more. It was a breach of discipline, and foolish, for them to dismiss him as a threat simply because of the Lan sect ribbon that fluttered behind him as he went, and Lan Qiren had to swallow down the instinct to go over to scold them for it, reminding himself that he was no longer sect leader, no longer entitled to do that.
He was only checking the fourth such place when he was caught.
“Figured it out, did you?”
A cold feeling went down Lan Qiren’s spine.
“Xiongzhang,” he said, turning to look at his brother – who was alone, as Lan Qiren had expected. He was standing under a tree, gazing out at the world with his hands behind his back, the very picture of a handsome scholar, aloof from the world.
“How did you manage that?” his brother continued, ignoring the greeting. Perhaps he was still annoyed by the fact that Lan Qiren was no longer obligated to salute him, or by the fact that he chose not to. “I’m quite sure I left no signs.”
No time for pleasantries, then.
“Intuition,” Lan Qiren said. “I guessed.”
“Intuition,” his brother mused. “I wouldn’t have expected that. You were always so literal – as a child, if someone told you that you couldn’t do something, you never would, and if they told you could, you’d try, even if it was obvious to anyone with a brain that it was impossible. And if they told you must, you did, even at injury to yourself.”
That was true.
“I resented you back then, you know.”
Lan Qiren blinked. He had not known. He hadn’t had even the slightest idea.
“You and your devotion,” his brother said. “You always seemed to find everything so straightforward. Good was good, bad was bad, the rules were always right. You never doubted, never wavered, never suffered…it was as if you were a statute of marble, rather than flesh.”
“Never suffered?” Lan Qiren demanded, goaded out of his silence against his will – which was probably his brother’s intention. Lan Qiren had known from the beginning that he would never be able to win against his brother, neither in cultivation, nor fighting, nor even in words. He had come regardless. “You think I never suffered? How? Simply because I did not demonstrate it the same way you did, the way you expected me to?”
His brother shrugged.
“It dissatisfied me even then, though I did not understand why,” he said, because of course he was only ever focused on the impact Lan Qiren’s life had had on him. In his own way, Lan Qiren’s brother was as narcissistic as Wen Ruohan, though in a manner Lan Qiren found far less charming. “Why should you get to be tranquil and serene, sure of who you were and what you stood for? Only because of who and what you were: a younger son, free of expectations and free of burdens, with no cares…”
“I was alone. Our father cared only for you, our teachers prioritized you, our sect followed your lead, while I was too young, too awkward, not sufficiently talented, and you made it clear to anyone with eyes that you did not like me. Amidst our entire clan, in a place filled with people, I had nobody. Do you truly think I had no cares?”
“Perhaps you had complaints,” his brother said, dismissive as ever, “but you never complained. You never rebelled. Even your voice has always been even, unbothered, as lacking in passion as it is in despair. The perfect little Gusu Lan disciple. You never turned your back on the rules, not once, not ever. It never even occurred to you to do so.”
“Of course not! They were all I had – that one piece of the world that was equally mine as it was anyone else’s, the one clear guide to behavior that could show me how to win praise and avoid scorn. And the one time in my life I tried to go beyond them, to go out and seek my freedom and see who I was or could be outside the boundaries of the Cloud Recesses, I was forced to give up because of you.”
“Then why are you back now? I got you out, in the end. You should thank me.”
Lan Qiren choked. “You sent me to the Fire Palace!”
“You got out of it. Mostly intact, as far as I can see.” His brother shook his head. “At times I feel as though I should admire you, Qiren. Even the fearsome Wen Ruohan stands no chance against you…tell me, what is your plan, here and now? I see no one around, and you cannot possibly hope to stop me yourself. You don’t even know where to go, much less how to stop what is going to happen.”
Lan Qiren steeled himself.
“No,” he agreed. “I can neither defeat you, nor stop you, and I do not know where to go. I came here so that you would take me there yourself.”
“Take you there?” His brother sneered. “So you can try to get in my way? Why would I do a foolish thing like that?”
“Because I would suffer more if I saw you do it,” Lan Qiren said honestly. “Because although I hate you, I still find it difficult to believe that you would purposefully carry through with such a terrible thing – and I believe that you hate me enough to want to see me suffer through the realization that you would.”
His brother was silent for a moment.
And then, terribly, he laughed.
“Very well,” he said, his eyes curved into a faint smile, as if Lan Qiren had said something funny. “Very well. Why not? It’s not as though you could stop me even if you’re there.”
Lan Qiren felt his hands curl up into fists. It was one thing to know his brother hated him, hated him enough to want him to suffer in seclusion and then to die in torment and pain in the Fire Palace, and yet another to have it so blatantly reconfirmed to his face like this.
Was it really so bad, in his brother’s eyes, to love the rules that their ancestors had given them? Or was it merely his fate of being a younger son, never meant and never expected to inherit, that his brother hated so much? His tonelessness, his awkwardness…what part of himself would Lan Qiren have had to eviscerate to win his brother’s love? Or had it never been possible at all?
“First you will have to throw away whatever signal you brought, of course,” his brother added, still smiling faintly. “I’m not inclined to deal with Wen Ruohan in the middle of carrying out my plan.”
Lan Qiren obediently pulled out the flare Wen Ruohan had given to him and tossed it aside.
“Mm. And now any other flares, as well as other means of communication or any other components of any other plans you have put together either in the past or present to contact anyone else about where we are or what we are doing.” His brother chuckled. “Remember that your Speak meagerly tricks will not work on me, Qiren.”
Lan Qiren hadn’t really expected them to, but he’d promised Wen Ruohan that he would try his best.
He wasn’t sure this really qualified, but…it was his sect at risk. His sect, his rules, all those innocent lives - he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if he didn’t try everything he could.
As he rid himself of the back-up flare as well, and handed his brother the qiankun pouch containing his sword and his guqin, which his brother promptly left at the base of the tree, rendering Lan Qiren disarmed and helpless, he comforted himself with the reassurance that he had not really broken his promise. After all, he wasn’t really in fear of his life. He might hate his brother, but he was not afraid: that one burst of rage at the Lotus Pier aside, his brother had shown no inclination to violate the prohibition against harming one’s kin. At least, not directly, not by his own hands, and that meant that, disarmed or not, Lan Qiren had a chance, however minimal, to stop him before he set off the disaster.
He would simply have to improvise once they reached the core array.
He was – not very good at improvisation.
Once Lan Qiren disarmed, they left that place, the two of them flying together on his brother’s sword, which marked the first time they’d ridden on a single sword together since before Lan Qiren had reached the age of ten. His brother’s hand was cold where it touched Lan Qiren’s side, keeping him from falling.
The location his brother had chosen to set the core array was not far. It was a small cave hidden in the side of one of the many tall hills in the area, completely nondescript and difficult to spot even if you knew it was there – Wen Ruohan had been right that they would never have been able to find it any other way.
Cangse Sanren had been right, too. Lan Qiren wasn’t doing very well against his brother.
He’d lost control twice now, letting his brother lead the conversation, letting his brother set the terms of their engagement and yielding to him in all instances, following him as if he were still that small child that had so adored him. At least he hadn’t actually hurt himself this time, though that was likely only a matter of time.
Lan Qiren stepped down from the sword and away from his brother, putting some distance between them. There was nothing of note in the cave, nothing he could use to summon Wen Ruohan as he had hoped against hope there might be – even the core array, meticulously painted onto the floor of the cavern, was difficult to see.
He looked around, then pursed his lips. “You have a good view of the mountain from here.”
He wouldn’t have thought so. It was one thing to include the deaths of thousands in your plans, terrible as that was, but surely another entirely to want to watch…?
“Is that disapproval I hear?” His brother chuckled. “This is the place that destroyed her – that destroyed us. Do you think that I would not enjoy every last aspect of my revenge?”
Lan Qiren pressed his lips together more, wanting to say something censorious, but then he paused.
He thought again about Wen Ruohan. This was his first conversation with his brother since the moment he’d realized that he’d fallen in love with Wen Ruohan – and surely that made a difference, did it not?
In the past, he had only been standing on the sidelines, a cold and unbothered observer the way his brother had always mocked him for being – with his own problems, yes, but not the same ones, not those ones. But now he was right there alongside his brother, in the same boat, both of them seized by the same curse, that same terrible Lan heart that was birthright to them both. He, too, had someone in his heart, someone he could not bear to see harmed, someone for whom he would seek revenge, should it come to that.
Yes, Lan Qiren could empathize with his brother now, or at least he could to some extent. While Lan Qiren was certain that he would never carry out or even contemplate such an outrageously vile scheme as the one his brother had concocted, he could still feel the same rage and misery and pain at the thought of something happening to his beloved. Just the thought of that spy that had tricked Wen Ruohan, that Wang Liu that had goaded him into reliving his worst fears and preyed on his insecurities to get him to act as he wished, made Lan Qiren want to hit something, to hurt someone, in a way he had never felt before…
“No, I understand,” he said quietly. The realization almost made him feel a little happy, in a strange way. After so long, he finally had something that connected him with his brother again, as terrible as that connection might be, as terrible as the circumstances were. It had been so many years since he’d understood even a little of what his brother was thinking that it was almost a relief to be on the same page once more.
For some reason, his brother frowned. “You understand? What does that mean?”
“Merely that and nothing more.” Lan Qiren shook his head and straightened his shoulders. “Since the last time we spoke, I have gained new insight into your perspective. Naturally I cannot endorse your actions, particularly in this – I find the mere idea of harming innocent people as part of even a scheme of revenge fundamentally appalling, and I disagree with your decision to blame our entire sect rather than specific people for what happened – and I will of course make every effort to try to stop you, as you already know. But at a minimum I can understand the way you must be feeling.”
“Oh. Can you.”
“I have also fallen in love,” Lan Qiren explained, unsure of why his brother’s expression seemed to be getting worse and worse every passing moment. “I know now, as I did not before, the way that it burns you, the way it compels you. I know how it can drive you to new extremes of feeling and action. To lose the one you love…you must be in such terrible pain.”
His brother was gritting his teeth. He took a step forward, his hands curling into fists, his brows furrowing in irritation. “Whatever you think you’re doing, stop it. It won’t work.”
Lan Qiren blinked at him. “I am not doing anything.”
Did his brother think that Lan Qiren’s sympathy was insincere, perhaps part of some sort of ploy to get him to lower his guard? Was that why he seemed to be getting angrier and angrier? It really wasn’t…
Still, Lan Qiren wasn’t going to object to somehow having managed, for once, to seize the higher ground in the conversation…though he didn’t entirely know how he’d gotten there nor, now that he was here, what he was supposed to do with it.
“I do not have any illusions that I will be able to talk you out of what you plan to do,” he said, though in fact he hadn’t completely eradicated that last little bit of hope left in his heart. Realistically, he knew that the only way he was going to be able to stop his brother was to somehow find a way to signal Wen Ruohan – he had a few half-baked ideas going, but nothing solid as of yet – but he still wished that somehow a miracle would take place and his brother would decide to give it up of his own free will. “I just wanted you to know that I understand where you are coming from, that I can follow your line of thinking.”
“You know nothing of what I’m thinking!”
“Only what I can extrapolate, of course. You can correct me, but…you hate our sect and our rules because you feel like they were not enough to save her, is that right? Because our sect permitted such an atrocity to happen and even used her to accomplish it, yet turned around to condemn her in turn – you see it as hypocrisy. You see all our rules as hypocrisy.” Lan Qiren couldn’t imagine how miserable it must have been to start to hate everything you were raised with, and to such a degree as his brother hated. Even if he couldn’t forgive his brother for everything else he had done, he could at least pity him for having to go through that. “Though I do wish to emphasize that even in the most extreme situation, our sect cannot be held to blame for everything. In the end, He Kexin made her own choices – ”
Lan Qiren saw when his brother moved, but that was about all. He was not slow by any means – he was a perfectly adequate swordsman, with the reflexes that came with it – but he was nowhere near his brother’s level. He hadn’t been able to match him before his brother’s retreat into seclusion, and after…his brother had emerged even more powerful, unimaginably so, leaving him even further behind. When he acted, there was nothing Lan Qiren could do to stop him. Before he could react in any way, his brother’s fist had already made contact with his cheekbone.
The next thing Lan Qiren knew, he was on the ground, with the whole side of his face alight with pain.
“How dare you,” his brother hissed. “How dare you – you of all people – to say that about her –”
“I did not say anything wrong,” Lan Qiren protested, too startled to even to suffer, his hands rising up to protectively cradle his face. “She did make her own choices! Even putting aside the murder of which she was accused, she was involved in the business of the spiritual iron mine in Xixiang. She helped seek out cultivators to force into labor – ”
“The mine was their business,” his brother said coldly. “Or do you think I was such a poor sect leader that I willingly let Lan Muzhi speculate with our sect money and our sect’s name in such a grotesque fashion?”
Lan Qiren froze.
Lan Muzhi? The sect elder that had come up with the mine project had been Lan Muzhi?
“But – Lan Muzhi was the one He Kexin killed,” he said blankly. He needed to think about what this meant, but his brain simply refused to respond, too shocked to move. “Are you saying the mine was Lan Muzhi’s project? And then He Kexin killed him? But then – what happened with the rest of it?”
Such a death would almost seem fitting, the heavens meting out their own form of ironic justice in having the man who orchestrated the terrible project be killed by the woman who’d gotten dragged into it through her own willful blindness. Only…the pieces didn’t add up. If Lan Muzhi had been the person behind the mine project, and he had been killed by He Kexin, then who had killed all those people in the mine? Who had put in place all those suppression arrays to cover up the ghosts of the resentful dead? Fellow conspirators? Someone else?
And it still didn’t answer the most fundamental questions: Why had she killed him? Had she killed him?
Lan Qiren was suddenly aware that his brother was laughing again, jagged and bitter to the point of pain.
“You don’t know!” he crowed. “You don’t – you really don’t know, do you? They’ve been lying to you all these years, every last one of them…amazing. I thought for sure you must have figured it out by now, that you knew,but apparently I was overestimating you. You’re just the same as you were as a child, Qiren, just the same: slow and stupid and far too trusting. Stupider than even I thought, it seems.”
“What do you mean?” Lan Qiren demanded as he scrambled to his feet, ignoring the insults. “Who was lying to me? Why? What happened back then?”
“Oh, only what you’d expect,” his brother sneered. “The sect elders, of course! Or do you think those suppression arrays got laid down by themselves?”
“I know that,” Lan Qiren said with frustration. “But which ones? And what does that have to do with Lan Muzhi’s murder? Was someone else involved…?”
“They were all involved.”
“Impossible.”
“Is it?”
“It is,” Lan Qiren insisted. “That is going too far, it cannot be believed. Xiongzhang, you keep telling me I am stupid, that I do not understand. Fine, I accept it, I admit it! I am too stupid to figure it out on my own. So tell me. Tell me what I’m missing.”
He could figure out the basics from what his brother had said so far. Lan Muzhi must have gotten involved with the mine and used the sect’s name to claim it, probably with the aid of some of his allies – not the whole set of sect elders the way his brother claimed, because at least some of them were constitutionally incapable of doing such an underhanded thing, some too moral and others too stupid. But certainly he had involved at least another person or two, enough to help him cover his tracks, at least at first. Only he hadn’t covered it up well enough, because Lan Qiren’s brother had found out what he’d been doing and gone to investigate…only, while he was there, he had presumably met He Kexin and been distracted by falling in love.
No wonder the sect elders had been so against his courtship of He Kexin! Lan Muzhi and his group must have been frantic, knowing that she knew their secret, and it wouldn’t have been too difficult for them to play on the innate snobbery of any number of the other elders to get them on board in resisting the match. But the more they opposed it, the more determined Lan Qiren’s brother became. There was nothing like opposition to encourage a forbidden romance, let alone opposition you suspected to have self-involved motives; nothing would more inflame the heart.
And He Kexin…ah, He Kexin! To her endless misfortune, she simply hadn’t liked Lan Qiren’s brother, or at least she hadn’t liked him as much as he liked her. The highest compliment Lan Qiren had ever heard her give her husband was that he was “a bit all right sometimes,” along with a handful of completely unnecessary comments about how good he was in bed; that, at least, had been a subject on which she had been highly complimentary, even if Lan Qiren sometimes suspected her of mentioning it just to discomfit him. If only she had been a bit more mercenary – if she had been truly wicked rather than merely lacking in scruples – she could have convinced him to ignore the elders, married him for the protection of the position of Madam Lan, and done her best to fight Lan Muzhi from there.
But she hadn’t. She hadn’t wanted to marry Lan Qiren’s brother at all.
And then Lan Muzhi had died, and she’d been accused, and she hadn’t had any other choice.
Something must have gone wrong, for all of them. Lan Muzhi undoubtedly didn’t want to die, He Kexin didn’t want to marry, and Lan Qiren’s brother didn’t want to go into seclusion –
Something must have gone wrong.
But what?
“Perhaps I will,” his brother said, his lips twisted into a grimace. “You’d deserve it, you rotten hypocrite.”
Lan Qiren glared at him, too angry for fear. “Do you want me to beg? Is that it? Is that what it would take?”
“No need. You’ll be begging before the end either way,” his brother said, and Lan Qiren felt a sudden chill go through his body – what did his brother mean by that? “But fine, have it your way, I’ll tell you. I’ll tell you everything…”
“Start with what happened to Lan Muzhi, please,” Lan Qiren said, and then only belatedly recalled himself enough to try to keep the request a petition rather than the habitual demand it tried to come out as; he had become too accustomed to receiving reports as sect leader, but it wouldn’t do to try to demand anything now. His brother wouldn’t react well to a demand. “Did He Kexin kill him? And if she didn’t, why didn’t she say so?”
“Oh, that. It would have been quite difficult for her to argue that she didn’t kill him, given that she was the only person in the room with him when he died,” Lan Qiren’s brother said. “But no, as a matter of fact, she didn’t. He died of a qi deviation.”
He laughed coldly at Lan Qiren’s blank stare.
“Yes, a qi deviation,” he said with a sneer. “You see, he was having problems of conscience regarding what was going on in the mine. Of all ridiculous things… He tried as hard as he could to be willfully blind to what was happening, but as the leader of the project he was too close to the ground to really manage it. He knew that the go-betweens he’d hired were using forced labor, even if he lied to himself and pretended he didn’t. The emotional turmoil caused his qi to start to deviate, but when the first signs started to appear, he was already in too deep – he couldn’t go to get treatment because then he would have to explain what he’d done that had led him to such a state. And then, because of your precious sect rules, he’d have to be punished.”
“As he should have been,” Lan Qiren said, then immediately bit his tongue: he hadn’t meant to interrupt.
Luckily, his brother was too invested in his story to be distracted.
“She was arguing with him about marrying me,” he said dreamily. “I’d offered for her by then, no matter how many elders opposed it. She didn’t want to, not with such a secret between us, but he wanted her to accept my suit – rather a reversal from his usual position, I know! He’d spent so long trying to keep us apart, but by then he knew that I was getting closer every day to finding out the full truth of what he was up to. He needed to keep me distracted while he cleaned things up.”
Lan Qiren involuntarily hissed. He’d been a sect leader: he’d been on night-hunts, he’d seen the nastiest of inter-sect disputes, he’d read reports by the dozen. He knew about the massacre.
He knew what “cleaned things up” must mean in this context.
“Oh yes,” his brother said, with macabre relish no less than Wen Ruohan’s. “The mine had to be stopped. By that point he’d already given the order and sent his brother to do the business.”
“Lan Zhengquan?” Lan Qiren blurted out, interrupting again, horrified. He’d worked with Lan Zhengquan, for a given value of the word – he’d been one of Lan Qiren’s bitterest opponents during his entirety of his stint as acting sect leader. Lan Zhengquan was a staunch old conservative, with the ability to be incredibly stubborn and inflexible once he’d dug his heels in, and Lan Qiren had had to fight hard to get any number of proposals around his disapproval. It wasn’t always war between them – Lan Qiren was also one to value tradition – and they had collaborated on any number of initiatives in the rare instances when they could reach agreement on what would be the right way forward for the good of the sect.
For reasons Lan Qiren had never been able to entirely determine, Lan Zhengquan was one of the most influential elders in the sect, well-respected if not necessarily well-liked, the sort of person who could make other people go quiet and listen just by showing up. He had a knack for coming up with clever proposals and stratagems to get around their sect’s opponents, though often they were more ruthless than Lan Qiren felt entirely comfortable with. In truth, Lan Zhengquan would have been a brilliant politician and diplomat, an immense asset to their sect, but for his sole idiosyncrasy, which was that despite being hale in both mind and body, he never left the Cloud Recesses for any reason.
“Lan Zhengquan,” his brother confirmed. “Oh, how it made me laugh, all those years, every time you complained about him…he played you for a fool, just as Lan Muzhi wanted to play me. The way he tried to play my Kexin, but she was too strong for him. She wouldn’t have it. And so they were arguing, and that’s when she told him that the forced labor he’d looked the other way on hadn’t just been rogue cultivators, but whole families. Mothers, fathers…children.”
I didn’t want to go into my theories about the massacre around the children, Cangse Sanren had said.
A couple of small ghosts, she’d said.
A short ghost chased Wangji, but he’s all right, Lan Xichen had said, when Lan Qiren had gone to visit them briefly before leaving, as much an aid in gathering his own strength as it was to comfort and reassure them, emotional fortitude being just as important as physical ability. The grown-ups said a few times that the ghost was short. Is that important, Shufu?
At the time, Lan Qiren hadn’t known what Lan Xichen was referring to, so he’d temporized, saying that each night-hunt was different and that it was important not to overlook even minor details as they could be important to solving the ghosts’ resentment and liberating their spirits. He hadn’t realized…
“That was the final straw for Lan Muzhi, it seemed,” his brother continued on, as if it didn’t matter that the woman he’d married, the mother of his children, had looked the other way and in doing so enabled the kidnapping and enslavement of children. Perhaps it didn’t, to him. “To know that his too-ruthless brother was out there cleaning up his mess, and to know what the mess involved, to finally be confronted with the truth of it all – he keeled over right away, and dramatically enough that it stirred up a whole hornet’s nest of accusations. It’s a little ironic, actually: I expect Lan Zhengquan hadn’t been planning to massacre all of them in the mine, just to threaten them, maybe kill one or two of the troublemakers as an example for the rest so they’d keep their mouths shut. But then Lan Muzhi died and Lan Zhengquan had to rush away to deal with it, and from what I understand the people he’d had already there decided in his absence to just keep killing. And then what was there to do but keep covering it up…?”
“That was far from the only option,” Lan Qiren interrupted again, unable to hold himself back. “He could have confessed to his crimes and faced the justice of the sect, as he should have.”
The smile his brother turned onto him was positively ghoulish.
“Of course you would say that,” he said, voice strangely gentle. “Of course you would think that. That’s why no one ever told you.”
Lan Qiren felt cold again.
“You say that it’s impossible that they all knew. You really think that it’s impossible that they all knew. Because our sect elders are not immoral. Because they are not all cruel or wicked, not all selfish and short-sighted – the only thing they have in common, really, is how much they care for the sect, for our sect, for our sect and our family and our face. And that’s enough, isn’t it?”
“No,” Lan Qiren said, but he shuddered. “No. It is not. It cannot be.”
“It is. That’s how complicity works. That’s what got my Kexin, and it’s going to be what gets the rest of the sect, too.” His brother was still smiling. His brother was still smiling. “Everything’s easy if you do it piece by piece, one step at a time. First you tell them that Lan Muzhi borrowed the sect name to make an investment – well, that’s wrong, yes, but it’s not a very big wrong, especially when it turns out that he was using the investment to get valuable spiritual iron that the sect needs and would otherwise have to buy at a high price. Then you mention that he used sect money without permission – still wrong, yes, a little worse than using the name alone, but again, forgivable, understandable. He’s an elder after all, and they have more latitude than most…
“And once you’ve gotten them to agree with that, to start nodding along, only then do you mention, in passing, that he’d let the third party he worked with be the one responsible for getting the labor to work the mine, which is more than a little neglectful but really, as long as it’s now repaired, no real problem. No problem at all, right? Only then, later, it turns out – how terrible! It turns out, who knew, to be forced labor, slavery, and that’s horrifying, of course. But can you really say it was his fault…? Surely not, or so you tell yourself. He is your respected elder, your good friend, your ally of many years – surely it must simply be a mistake, an oversight, a dreadful accident. Right up until he tells you that yes, he knew, and he looked the other way, and then – and then – and then – ”
He laughed.
“And by then it’s too late. Just like it was too late for all those sect elders who were innocent enough of the mine but who got caught up in accusing my Kexin of a murder she did not commit but also could not deny. Just like it was too late for all the ones that Lan Zhengquan convinced to come help him lay down suppression arrays, a normal bit of night-hunting but complex enough to justify an elder’s presence, many of them unaware of why they were having such difficulty in putting it all in place – he only told them after, you see, and by then everything had already happened. By then, their hands were already dirtied, their names already stained by association with such an event, the whole sect at risk of being stained if anyone found out what had happened. Were they supposed to let the sect lose face by revealing all?”
“Yes!”
Lan Qiren’s brother startled, as if he’d almost forgotten that Lan Qiren was there.
“The sect elders themselves are nothing, the sect itself is everything,” Lan Qiren said. His fingernails had dug so far into his fists that his palms were bleeding. “For the sake of the juniors, if nothing else, they should have said something, they should have done something. If they did wrong, they should have been punished. Even if imposing that punishment risked revealing the shame of our sect to the world, even if it lost us face, it would have been worth it. The rules say uphold the value of justice, shoulder the weight of morality, not – not – do whatever is least uncomfortable!”
“Do not forget the grace of your forefathers.”
“Morality is the priority,” Lan Qiren retorted. “Be ethical. No dishonest practices.”
“Honor your teacher.”
“Stay on the righteous path. Do not associate with evil!”
“I should have known better than to debate the rules with you,” Lan Qiren’s brother said, the seemingly complimentary words accompanied by a disdainful sneer. “You, who never bend and never yield…tell me, did it ever occur to you to let me out?”
Lan Qiren paused, all his righteous anger dissipating in his confusion at the sudden change in subject. “Let you out of where?”
“Don’t play the fool! Out of seclusion.”
“What?” Lan Qiren was completely lost now. “Of course not. You said you were going into permanent seclusion to save He Kexin’s life despite her crime and repent for your sins in marrying the woman who committed such a crime. I heard you declare it myself.”
“And did it ever occur to you that I might regret such a decision?”
“All the time,” Lan Qiren said, bewildered. “I certainly would have, in your place. But what does that have to do with anything? You had already done it. It was too late. What could I have done?”
His brother was silent.
“Stupid,” he finally said. “Do you think I am stupid, Qiren, is that it? Or both of us? You, for your unbelievable claim that you do not understand the way the world works – you, who had all the power in the world as sect leader in my absence? Perhaps I really was stupid, for having ever believed in your stupidity, in your innocent façade. If it’s not against the rules, it’s fine, is that it? Is that how you draw the line?”
He took a step forward, his eyes malevolent, and suddenly Lan Qiren was afraid.
He could feel the force of his brother’s spiritual energy, just the way he sometimes did Wen Ruohan’s when the other man wasn’t paying attention – when he was upset or distracted or unbelievably angry. But unlike Wen Ruohan, whose spiritual energy was as hot as the sun, his brother’s power was cold, almost bitingly so. Lan Qiren could feel the frost of it on his shoulders, like the first dusting of winter snow; he could feel the force of it pressing him down, commanding him to kneel.
If he hadn’t been used to Wen Ruohan, he might have had no choice but to yield.
“What are you accusing me of?” he asked, fighting the urge to take a step back. His brother was being intimidating for a reason, though he didn’t understand what that reason might be. “Is that why you hate me so much? Because I – because I did not violate your orders and let you out?”
It seemed almost beyond belief. How could Lan Qiren have done such a thing? Even if it had occurred to him to break the rules, which it had not, there was still filial piety binding his actions. He had to respect his older brother, who was his elder, who was the rightful sect leader, who had made a vow, a public vow…!
And, well, yes, he had offered He Kexin the option to leave, had offered to break the rules for her, but that had been different. His brother had entered seclusion by his own choice, while she’d been a prisoner from the beginning, trapped in a life she did not want. Her punishment had seemed so entirely outsized for the crime that he believed she had committed…
Lan Qiren wondered, suddenly, if that was why she had refused.
He Kexin had known all along that the crime for which she was imprisoned was not the crime she had committed. She’d known, but she’d never told him, and when he’d made the offer to release her, she must have known that he didn’t know what she’d really done. Perhaps she had even known how horrible he would feel if he had released her and only later discovered the truth of it, known that he would feel that he had inadvertently made himself complicit in it, however tangentially. Perhaps she’d known that he, unlike so many others of his sect, would never have forgiven himself for it.
Perhaps that was why she had willingly stayed in her prison.
He’d never know, now. She was gone.
His brother was still advancing upon him.
Lan Qiren gave in and took a step back, but it didn’t help – his brother just kept coming at him, step by slow, purposeful step.
“You know what I’m accusing you of,” his brother said, his voice very soft. “You know that’s not it. You know what you did, Qiren. You know. You wouldn’t look so nervous if you didn’t.”
I look nervous because you’re radiating killing intent at me!
“What do you intend?” Lan Qiren asked, taking another step back. “Xiongzhang…”
“I think you know that, too,” his brother said, and smiled. “Don’t worry, Qiren. You’ll still be around to see the mountain fall and our sect crumble. You were right, earlier: I wouldn’t let you miss that. You’ll just be…hmmm…a few pieces short, that’s all.”
You’ll be begging before the end either way, his brother had said earlier, casual and unruffled.
It seemed that Lan Qiren had, once again, vastly underestimated how much his brother hated him.
“Maybe I’ll say you came out of the Fire Palace that way,” his brother added, and all at once Lan Qiren wasn’t afraid.
He was furious.
“Do not dare,” he snapped, and for some reason that was what got his brother to stop advancing and to look at Lan Qiren thoughtfully instead. “Have you not framed Wen Ruohan for enough already? No matter what you do, it will all blow up or come to nothing, just like every other one of your attempts to harm him.”
His brother sneered. “Is this you trying once again to convince me that you can empathize with my perspective because you’ve supposedly fallen in love? It won’t work, you know.”
“I was being serious,” Lan Qiren said stiffly, more than a little wounded. He’d been acting in good faith…as ever a mistake with his brother, it seemed. “Do not tell lies.”
“Ridiculous,” his brother scoffed, and reached for his sword.
Lan Qiren was unarmed, lacking either sword or instrument. He was barely standing in the face of the pressure of his brother’s spiritual energy bearing down upon him, and he was already weak, still hurt from his time in the Fire Palace even though he’d done everything he could to heal before coming here. But even if he hadn’t been, even if he had been armed and in peak condition, he still wouldn’t have been able to defeat his brother.
He’d promised Wen Ruohan that he would try to protect his life. He’d promised.
If Wen Ruohan found out that Lan Qiren had been hurt in some serious fashion, in this way, in violation of his given word, he would be hurt once again, and this time it would in some part be Lan Qiren’s fault…no!
“I have not finished,” he blurted out, voice shrill with desperation. “I am not yet done.”
His brother paused. “Done with what?”
Lan Qiren resisted the urge to lick his lips, which suddenly felt very dry. He was only going to have one shot at this.
“Asking questions, Xiongzhang,” he said, and bowed his head obediently, like a school child. “Just like you are always encouraging me to ask.”
There was a moment of silence, and Lan Qiren hoped – he hoped –
His brother laughed.
“All right,” he said, sounding cheerful again. Still angry, that wasn’t gone, but cheerful. “I suppose I can answer a few more of your questions. But only if you remember to ask with the proper level of respect.”
Lan Qiren knew what his brother wanted.
Do you have any questions for me? his brother had mocked him, every time they’d met, every single time since he had emerged from seclusion. You haven’t even asked any questions. Are you sure you don’t have any other questions for me now?
Mocking his ignorance. Glorying in his power over him.
Wanting him to beg, and to suffer, and to thank him for his suffering.
Lan Qiren knelt.
His brother smiled to see him on his knees, but gestured for him to continue.
Lan Qiren bowed his head until it touched the floor.
He didn’t care about the shame of it, insofar as bowing to his older brother, however hated, could ever be a shame. It didn’t matter, it was unimportant next to what he needed to accomplish.
He needed to stay alive and intact. He needed to find a way out of this situation.
He needed to stall long enough for Cangse Sanren, at least, to finish her work and get the Lan sect out of the way, a ploy that he’d been very carefully avoiding even thinking about lest he accidentally slip up and give her away. That had been the second part of their plan, one that assumed that even if Lan Qiren couldn’t actually find a way to stop his brother, which they’d admitted was likely, then at a minimum he would be able to distract him, to play for time and keep him here, far away from the rest of the Lan sect, away from his place of power and all his intended victims, away from where he could see her and realize what she was doing and stop her.
Lan Qiren had to do anything he could to buy more time. He had to wait and he had to hold out, because he had faith in Cangse Sanren. She would manage to convince his sect to move, saving their lives and their souls in ways they would never and could never know of, and when she did, she would send the signal…and as soon as her flare went off, his brother would know that he’d been tricked.
He would know that his brilliant plan of revenge would never be able to work as intended.
It shouldn’t be long now.
Lan Qiren hoped.
“Very good,” his brother said, good humor restored. “Ask your questions.”
Lan Qiren didn’t actually care about anything his brother had to say at this point, having heard more than enough to make him want to throw up and maybe scream, but he had always been a good student. If his brother wanted him to ask questions, he would find questions to ask.
“Were you always planning on targeting the Wen sect?” he asked. “Wen Ruohan made it sound as though his proposal of marriage to me came to you as a surprise.”
“It was a surprise. Though I suppose in retrospect that perhaps it shouldn’t have been. I just never picked you for one to violate Do not attach yourself to those in power and influence.” A chuckle. “I hadn’t been planning on involving the Wen sect at all. You can lay full blame for that on yourself. Such a wonderful dowry you brought your lover, Qiren!”
Lan Qiren pressed his lips together, but did not protest. His role here was to suffer.
“How would it work without them?” he asked instead. “What was your plan for me then?”
“I was going to marry you to Liu Xuesong, the daughter of Quanjiao Liu. Even if they weren’t one of the ones that initially offered for you, it wouldn’t have been hard to convince them. And then, once you were married, I was going to frame her for attacking you, execute her as an assassin, and go to war against them in your honor.”
In his honor? Lan Qiren felt sick, his belly roiling: if his brother’s plan had succeeded, the Lan sect’s disgrace and dishonor would have been ascribed to him. For all the rest of its history, his sect would have remembered him only as the inciting cause for such a disaster.
How much do you hate me?
“Though that’s not strictly true, actually. I was going to give you the opportunity to enter permanent seclusion with her to preserve her life, just like I did. It seemed fitting. Seclusion or the destruction of an innocent life – I was curious to know what you’d choose.”
Lan Qiren shuddered.
He didn’t know. He didn’t want to know.
“When Wen Ruohan made his offer for you, he made it sound as though he was just taking advantage of the opportunity,” his brother mused. “I thought for sure that he would throw you into the Fire Palace as soon as you arrived at the Nightless City, or fairly shortly thereafter once he’d finished having his fun with you. And then I was going to involve the Wen sect in my war, but only indirectly – we’d still be going to war in your honor, of course, but I could play it off later as some sort of misunderstanding. I’d blame someone else for it, some other sect, and we could make peace between our sects by picking their bones clean together.”
Another chuckle.
“A tyrant like Wen Ruohan can be appeased easily enough by giving him more of the power he hungers for. What’s a plaything in comparison to that? He would have been a good ally for the sect to have, at least in the short term; between his sect’s might and his own terrible reputation, he would have been quite useful. Besides, a continued war would give me time and room to grow and be something to keep everyone busy with after we’d abandoned the old ways… It was a good plan. I’d worked on my original one for so long, but this was better. It was worth adjusting to accommodate it.”
Lan Qiren felt pressure at the back of his head.
It was his brother’s bootheel, pressing his face further down into the dirt of the cave floor.
“And you just had to ruin it.”
Lan Qiren choked a little as the pressure increased, twisting his head so that it was facing the side – the one his brother hadn’t struck earlier. His cheekbone dug painfully into the dirt, but at least he wasn’t at risk of getting a mouthful of soil and being unable to breathe.
“Xiongzhang…”
“You just had to go and seduce Wen Ruohan,” his brother said. His voice seemed calm, but it was obviously fake: he was furious. “I had to figure out a way to fight the most powerful man in the entire cultivation world because of your wantonness.”
Wantonness? What in the world was his brother talking about?
His brother had accused him of something like that before, too, back at the Lotus Pier. He’d sneered at Lan Qiren for having whispered in Wen Ruohan’s ear, accusing him of having violated -
“Promiscuity is forbidden,” Lan Qiren said.
His brother grabbed him by the collar and threw him against the far wall.
Lan Qiren managed to catch himself and land on his feet instead, but just barely. His still injured ankle screamed in agony.
“How dare you!” his brother howled. His face was fully red, suddenly, as if he’d completely lost his mind – as if he were suffering from the early signs of qi deviation himself. Or perhaps not so early…he really had gone mad, hadn’t he? “How dare you taunt me with what you’ve done!”
“What are you talking about?!” Lan Qiren shouted back. “Why are you so fixated on this? Why do you care so much that I slept with Wen Ruohan?”
“I don’t care that you slept with Wen Ruohan! I care about the fact that you slept with my wife!”
Time seemed to stop.
“…what?” Lan Qiren choked out. “Me? With – with He Kexin? I would rather die!”
His brother thought…
That he’d –
With his –
With her?!
“Don’t lie,” his brother hissed. “I know it all. I know what you did behind my back, while I was locked away. It wasn’t enough that you helped yourself to my position, not enough that you won the loyalty of my friends and raised my children as your own, not enough that you were somehow able to seduce the king of torture to your side – you had to take her, too?!”
“But…I did not do that,” Lan Qiren said, still numb with shock. “It never even crossed my mind. Xiongzhang, I swear I never touched her like that! I went to my marriage without having ever even kissed anyone else! Do not tell lies!”
His brother was beyond reason. He drew his sword.
“Xiongzhang, please…!”
A flare went off in the distance, catching both their attention.
It was in the colors of Gusu Lan, and far away from the place in Xixiang where they should have been.
Cangse Sanren had succeeded!
Lan Qiren unwisely exhaled in relief, his shoulders relaxing by the barest fraction, but that was already more of a mistake than he could afford to make with his brother, who lunged at him.
Lan Qiren managed to dodge the strike by a hair, his brother’s sword going into the wall beside him. The shockwave full of power and flung-out gravel from the strike still stung.
“You think this means you’ve won?” his brother snarled. His eyes were red with fury. “You think you’ve won, do you, you bastard – you haven’t won anything. I’ll show you!”
He made a hand seal with his free hand, and suddenly the array on the floor beneath them activated, glowing bright with spiritual energy. Not just initial activation, either, but full activation.
“No!” Lan Qiren cried out. “The mountain!”
But it was too late.
The array beneath him was fully active, having roared to life under the command of his brother’s powerful cultivation. Already the signals were being sent out to the connected arrays, the power rippling out in steady stream, the tunnels starting to twist and the earth starting to break – the landslide was coming, and there could surely be no force powerful enough to hold it back.
All those innocent lives…!
Lan Qiren temporarily lost his head and lunged at his brother, trying to grab the sword away from him, though he did not know for what purpose, whether he meant to try to attack his brother with it or simply to try to use it to fly back to the mountain as fast as he could, to offer what little help he could, to save even a single life…
“You’re so desperate to save them,” his brother said mockingly, effortlessly knocking him back and to the ground. “So desperate for them, but not for her. Did you even care about her, my Kexin? Or was she merely a plaything to you?”
“She was nothing to me!” Lan Qiren realized almost immediately that he’d misspoken. “Xiongzhang, I did not sleep with her.”
“Lies,” his brother spat, and tried to strike him again. Lan Qiren threw himself to the side as fast as he could, and even so the blow still nearly caught his shoulder, leaving a painful cut in its wake. “Lies upon lies, hypocrisy of the highest order – I’ve never met anyone as shameless as you!”
He scarcely seemed to care about his plan failing, not when Lan Qiren was in front of him, the target of all his irrational hatred.
“Xiongxhang, please,” Lan Qiren said, holding out his hands in front of him, trying to ward his brother off. “What makes you think I slept with her? Who told you such a thing?”
“She did,” his brother said. “She said it herself! When I came to her and told her all my plans, my wonderful plans that were going to revenge us on all those that wronged us and kept us apart for all these years – the ones that she should have loved, the ones that should have made her as happy as they made me, because she always understood me, better than anyone. My Kexin. She understood me and I understood her; we were perfect for each other, we always had been. We could have been so happy, we should have been so happy – but no. We couldn’t. It was all ruined. Because of you!”
Lan Qiren had been backing off again, but now he stopped.
His ears had started ringing again. That high-pitched ringing of shock and horror –
Surely not.
Surely not.
“Do you know what she told me? She said that she would never agree to such a plan. She would never agree, not even if I was the last and only person left in the world that she could see. And then – and then – she said – ”
He laughed. The laugh was insane.
“She said that I wasn’t the only person she had left. And between the two of us, she liked you better!”
“Xiongzhang,” Lan Qiren whispered. “Xiongzhang, no.”
He had forgotten.
It had been such a long time: Lan Qiren had forgotten.
He wasn’t the only person with access to He Kexin’s chambers. Yes, he was her only contact with the outside world, but…there wasn’t only an outside world for her. There was also a further in.
His brother had had access to her rooms the entire time.
He was her husband. Although the strictness of his seclusion meant that he could not visit her too often, could not live together with her the way Lan Qiren and Wen Ruohan had (rather shockingly) settled themselves into, he was still entitled to visit her at least once a month. It was through those visits that Lan Qiren’s nephews had been conceived.
Lan Qiren had once offered to He Kexin the right to block her husband from her door, but she’d declined, laughing at him and making a joke about sex that had made his ears turn hot and red. He’d never offered again.
She’d never asked.
His brother had access to He Kexin’s rooms.
To He Kexin, who had never shown any sign of wanting to kill herself.
“Xiongzhang,” Lan Qiren said, voice trembling. “When He Kexin said that to you…what did you do? What did you do to her?”
“Only what you made me do,” his brother said. “Only what you made me do, Qiren. You took her away from me!”
Lan Qiren shook his head. His whole body was shaking now, violently, as if he had suddenly been overtaken by a freezing blizzard, one that sucked all the warmth out of his body all at once.
“How could you?” he asked. No, he demanded. “How could you? She was your wife! How could you kill your own wife?”
That seemed to penetrate his brother’s madness. He faltered.
He stared at Lan Qiren, still holding his sword, pointing it at him.
“You did it,” he said, but – more hesitantly. “Not me. It was you.”
“Do not tell lies, Xiongzhang,” Lan Qiren said. “I am not lying now. I am not lying: I did not have sex with He Kexin. Not once. I never took her to bed, I never kissed her, I never touched her with that sort of intent. Whatever you think I did with her, I did not do.”
His brother stared at him.
His eyes were very wide. He’d heard what Lan Qiren had said this time.
He’d heard, and he was starting to believe.
“I visited He Kexin regularly to discuss the status of her children, my nephews,” Lan Qiren explained. “It was my duty as the one raising them. At times, when etiquette required me to stay and there was nothing else to do, we would discuss – irrelevant things. Poetry, painting. That sort of thing. Passing the time. That is all, Xiongzhang. That’s all she was referring to. She…”
Liked me better than you.
“…may have been trying to get a rise out of you, with what she said.”
That was true, too. He Kexin had always enjoyed teasing people: sometimes gently, as with Lan Wangji, and sometimes more harshly, as she did during the times she was irritated with Lan Qiren.
Speak meagerly, for too many words bring only harm.
“No,” his brother said. “No. You have to be – you must have – ”
But his denials were already faltering on their own. Just as Lan Qiren knew his brother, his brother knew him: he knew that Lan Qiren would not lie. He knew that Lan Qiren couldn’t lie, not believably.
He was starting, at long last, to realize the real truth of what he had done.
To realize that he had killed his own beloved. That he had struck her down with his own hands.
That her life was gone, that He Kexin was gone, and it was all because of him.
For someone of their family, their Lan sect with their implacable hearts…there was really only one way this could now go.
Lan Qiren’s brother was already holding his sword. It wouldn’t take much to lift it to his own neck and draw it across, a clean slice, the same as the one he’d given He Kexin.
It was the only way this could end.
Lan Qiren resigned himself to have to serve as witness.
Sure enough, after a few more moments had passed, as the realization sunk in fully, his brother lifted his sword.
He put it to his own neck.
He –
“No!”
He turned and ran away.
Lan Qiren stared after him, watching as his brother took flight on his sword and disappeared into the wind.
Somehow, that was more shocking to him than anything else that had already happened.
Wasn’t his brother a Lan? Didn’t he love like a Lan, with that wild heart that burned all in its path? Shouldn’t he have been burned in turn upon realizing that he had destroyed his own heart?
Lan Qiren had always measured love by his brother’s standard.
If what his brother felt for He Kexin wasn’t love…then what was?
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A/N: Congrats to all the readers that guessed! :D
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