yo, I was talking to one of my friends earlier about good omens fanfictions and he brought you up?
Turns out he was reading your fanfictions in one of the toughest times of his life (before we met) and it made him feel like he had to stay alive- Because he had to know how it ended.
I have his permission to send this in, however I wanted to add something:
Thank you for saving my best friends life. I love him so fucking much and I never would've met him if you hadn't had written fanfiction for the silly little show me and him bonded over.
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Okay.
Right.
Hello.
When I first got this message last night, I had to put my phone down because... well, I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't even see the screen anymore, I was sobbing so hard. So I am sorry I didn't reply sooner. I had to process some Very Big Feelings.
I'm not sure, even now, I have the words to articulate what I'd like to say, so forgive me if this is a little messy.
I'm not exaggerating or being superlative when I say that writing that story saved my own life. It gave me a reason to stay, gave me an outlet for my grief, allowed me to write my suicidal ideation into something physical (the Pit) and therefore conquerable, by holding on to the knowledge of who you are, choosing who you become, choosing life, love, hope, over the darkness. If you had any idea how much of the story had been written at midnight with white-knuckled hands that reached for the laptop because if they didn't, they'd have reached for something else...
*shakes head*
(Am crying again, sorry)
So to have written this thing whilst clinging onto life with all that I had left, and then to hear that all my pain and trauma somehow gave someone else a reason to stay...
I can't. I... I really don't have the words.
I'd like you to tell your friend, though, that I'm not the person that saved his life, he is. He fought the Pit and won, we were just by his side.
Your friend is extremely brave, and I think also very lucky to have found a friend like you.
But as for thanking me for the story - you are so welcome.
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medicate
meditate
save your soul for jesus
throw a punch
fall in love
give yourself a reason
quit your job
cut your hair
get a dog
change your name
change your mind
change your ways
go back to school
go back to sleep
tell the secret you can’t keep
break a vow
make a new one [vow]
but please stay
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Pearl Jones - Please Stay (1964)
Wonderful, pleading Detroit soul, produced by legend Gino Washington.
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