#One of my hear me outs ngl
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fruggle Ā· 7 months ago
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The request is shattered dream please
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Here he is, shattered boyo. Drawing him instead of doing college work was therapeutic.
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dizzybizz Ā· 9 months ago
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"this is regrettably the best kiss of your life, you understand?"
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rainesjupiter Ā· 3 months ago
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Beneath the veil of the Moon, another pair of vows was made. Here we sow the catalyst for a mother's grief. For the Will's rage. For the Queen's madness. Now cometh the Age of the Stars.
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lemongogo Ā· 1 month ago
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anyways . silly thing
#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#lg doodles#animatic#i want it done.get out of here u stupid dog#ITS CHEESY.IM SORRY ! IMSORRY <embarrassed .truly#but i think. a gf revival would not be complete w/o me trying my hand at a shitty animatic. this 1 is for me dwg#as annoying as the whole process was it was kind of fun ngl. . like ive never been good at keeping a consistent style or chara model#and this was rly good practice for that .. i think looking at it now its like. no its crazxy its insane bc i dont ever want to do it again#at least in the immediate future but watching it back im like ok well.icouldve at least done that better. or tried to loosen up my vp and#made it feel less flat . <thats the devil talking & trying to get u back in on it.thats what i mean liike its fun but its evil and tiring#also im so creatively burnt out ik i couldve done so many fun ciphord gore things but i ug a 'shrug' pff 'shrug' i ?. yk#if only i didnt have the disposition to want to finish everything in one sitting. i think thats why i like static illustration#more bc u get more like. topical variety in a shorter amt of time u feel. anyways i remember hearing this song 4 the first time and in#my need to apply everything ever to my hyperfix i was like omg crop circles soo stanford lol. omg a deal he made when he was young.. & no#it doesnt feel so great does it .. (ciphordd)..then the eyes & fate i was alr convinced but when it got 2 the stanley part ab the taking hi#fathers brothers name i was like ok well fuck filbrick 1 . but rewritten for canon events anyways HELLO???????? AND U WILL DIE THE SAMEE?#much cooler version is still stuck in my head but i hope that u can get the same rudimentary vision i have
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holysheithyall Ā· 7 months ago
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ā€œIā€™ve done the math, thereā€™s no solution. Weā€™ll never lastā€
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kunikisss Ā· 2 months ago
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airenyah Ā· 1 year ago
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Reasons Why I Need a Sexy JoongDunk BL
If you know me, then youā€™ll know that itā€™s actually kind of funny that Iā€™m asking for this. Me. A sex-repulsed leaning asexual who, for the most part, tends to stay away from (overly) sexy and/or horny series. And yet I really want a sexy JoongDunk series. A messy, Only Friends-type of series even, perhaps.
Make no mistake, though. I donā€™t actually want it for me, oh no. No, I want a sexy JoongDunk series for them, for their sake. Because I feel like theyā€™d have a whole lot of fun with it.
And hereā€™s why I think so:
Reason #1: Dum Dum
Definitely the most obvious reason, but the LOL Fanfest Dum Dum performance: the fact that the choreography was like That. And the fact that it was their idea to switch up who bites who for day 2:
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Not to mention the fact that Dunk actually bit Joong for real:
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I'm just saying, they wanted ā€œhot and sexyā€, they chose this:
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Reason #2: ā€œWeā€™ve never done this beforeā€
The way they kept bringing up how Hidden Agenda is more mature than Star in My Mind and how there were scenes that theyā€™d never done before*, it seemed to have been a big deal for them.
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*see here for some eng subs (this video is unfortunately heavily edited)
Reason #3: ā€œFavorite episode of Hidden Agenda? Episode 8!!ā€ā€‹
The way Joong immediately said episode 8 was his favorite, smiling expectantly at Dunk...
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...and then was very adamant when Dunk couldnā€™t decide between episodes 7 and 8:
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Considering their comments of how ā€œepisode 8 is specialā€ because theyā€™ve ā€œnever done anything like this beforeā€... Well, dare I bet itā€™s their favorite episode because of the ending specifically. Unless maybe they were particularly excited about the stalker story line. I donā€™t think theyā€™d done that before either.
Reason #4: Ep8 watch party live on Instagram
The way they actually sat down and went live on Instagram in order to watch, react to, and comment on the entirety of episode 8.
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And considering Dunkā€™s comment at the beginning of this live about how itā€™s ā€œsomething we've never done beforeā€ Iā€™m absolutely convinced they chose ep8 to react to specifically because of the ending lmao. Unless, of course, they were extremely hyped about the stalker plot. There were no creepy stalker plots in Star in My Mind, nor do I remember any significant stalking in Joongā€™s other works. Or maybe the two of them were referring to the scene where Zo bites Jokeā€™s arm. I donā€™t remember any biting from Star in My Mind, so who knows, it might be that. What else was special in ep8? Oh right, Joke punched the stalker. That canā€™t have been the ā€œweā€™ve never done this beforeā€ thing, though, considering Joong was literally in a Mafia series before. Also, he punched Pepper in Star in My Mind. My theory still stands.
Reason #5: ā€œIt was more intense than thisā€
In that instagram live they also dropped that a lot was cut from that scene and that it was supposed to be more intense than this. Uh, boys...? What kind of choreography did yā€™all on set come up with for this scene exactly??
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(I canā€™t stop laughing at Dunk's face when he agrees with Joong saying that a lot was cut. He looks like he suddenly bit into a very sour lemon lmao)
In conclusion:
Clearly they had a lot of fun with the Dum Dum performance and it seems that they were very excited about getting to do something more mature with Hidden Agenda, and also getting the the chance to do something that theyā€™ve ā€œnever done beforeā€ in ep8 specifically. So my point stands: I think theyā€™d have a blast playing a sexy series together. I want it for them.
Bonus: Vampire BL
Bonus points if this sexy JoongDunk BL that Iā€™m asking for is a vampire BL!! Hereā€™ā€‹s why:
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You can find a more extensive list of vampire mentions in my JoongDunk Vampire Mentions Masterpost here.
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absolutepokemontrash Ā· 2 years ago
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The ā€œbrother in christā€ thing gets even better when you consider that Jesus probably wasnā€™t even born at the time the brothers fell in Nightbringer lol
According to some religious texts that are not necessarily canonical to the Bible, but are still held in high regard (ie. Danteā€™s Divine Comedy) like Paradise Lost, Jesus was already around in Heaven when Lucifer was still an Angel, and part of the reason Lucifer fell was because Jesus was the one who was going to die for humanity. Lucifer wanted to do it for the glory, while Jesus wanted to do it out of love for humanity.
ANYWAY, none of that is really canon in Obey Me, but fucking imagine-
Mammon: Okay so whatā€™s happening with Jesus over in the Human World?
Belphegor: I meanā€¦ something pissed him off, heā€™s flipping tables.
Mammon: Wait what?!
Beelzebub: Yeah, he caught a bunch of merchants in the Temple selling stuff and now heā€™s yelling.
Belphegor: Waitā€¦ merchants? (*turns to Mammon*) HOW DID YOU MANAGE TO PISS OFF JESUS?! HEā€™S LITERALLY THE MOST CHILL MOTHERFUCKER-
Lucifer: Mammonā€™s sin and scumminess can break even the most patient of men, it seems.
Mammon: Hehehehehā€¦ *sweats*
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stinkypeanutbutter Ā· 8 months ago
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Iā€™d like to headcanon that some of the squad have shared playlists , and one giant one for them all . They check out each others Spotify or Amazon or YouTube idk what they use anyway they check it out and if it pairs similar to their own , they join together and create one to play when they are chilling or showing to the others . The BIG one is them all together , meaning lots and lots and lots of bickering over what song gets put in and what doesnā€™t . Usually , itā€™s just Aiden complaining about the songs he canā€™t add ( VERY mixed style , some songs are a little too goofy . But donā€™t worry , heā€™ll add them on when no oneā€™s looking )
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riftedrivers Ā· 24 days ago
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Wait the way jyugo just vanished was do hot???? Like imagine that as like in anime form like???? Like the entire way he changed???
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sleepiilemonade Ā· 1 month ago
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Guys Iā€™m literally at a birthday party with like 40 people and I canā€™t stop thinking about him I pinky promise Iā€™m not insane
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james-spooky Ā· 2 months ago
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this is a test
#iā€™m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters thatā€™s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring letā€™s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk iā€™m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad thatā€™s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isnā€™t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw thereā€™s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i donā€™t#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like iā€™m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much itā€™s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books theyā€™re all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry thatā€™s made everything a bit messy. i shouldā€™ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think youā€™re being annoying i literally donā€™t care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now itā€™s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i donā€™t really have any thoughts to put here idk if weā€™re halfway ermmmm omg itā€™s#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. itā€™s wild how itā€™s basically almost christmas. like#what. thatā€™s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesnā€™t crash or#smth cause iā€™ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but iā€™ve saved it and holy jesus itā€™s a lot of text im just sat here giggling thereā€™s really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldnā€™t that be crazy) so wait thereā€™s 140#haracters and 30 tags so whatā€™s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i havenā€™t done maths lessons in two and a half years iā€™ve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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babacontainsmultitudes Ā· 1 year ago
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*breathes in*
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bluerasbunny Ā· 1 year ago
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this song is soooo c!dream it is insane
like it is just him. i need you all to see my vision here i need everyone to hear my point. hear me out guys hear me out.
i am going to ramble so aggressively under the cut but hear me out here stay with me. this may not be coherent and that was because it was written in a haze. no idea what i wrote just hear me out
'The looking glass, so shiny and new How quickly the glamour fades'
its like the SMP. a shiny and new existance, something new he crafted for his friends and yet the glamour fades, it all falls apart and it dissolves and it crumbles in his hands.
'You made a deal, and now it seems you have to offer up But will it ever be enough? (Raise it up, raise it up) It's not enough (Raise it up, raise it up)'
do i even need to explain. the revival book. the deal for it, the crushing realization that reality is not what he thought, that infinity is possible and eternity is a truth, and this is not enough for him. he needs eternity. he needs forever, it will never be enough. he offers up his sanity, his grasp on reality, in exchange for a promise of eternity. hear me out-
'Here I am, a rabbit-hearted girl Frozen in the headlights It seems I've made the final sacrifice'
the rabbit dream agenda. this is just the rabbit dream agenda but also he is frozen in the headlights of the role he has to take on. he has to be the villain, he has to make the final sacrifice and give himself up to the box he's being placed in; because there is no other option. a trapped rabbit cannot flee. a trapped rabbit can only fawn and freeze and fight (reminds you of the prison, doesn't it?).
'This is a gift, it comes with a price Who is the lamb and who is the knife? Midas is king and he holds me so tight And turns me to gold in the sunlight'
oh GOD there is so much i can say. there is so much this post is going to be years long there is so much. the revival book is a gift. it is the gift, and it comes with a price. the lamb and the knife, discduo, vaultduo, however you want to see it; who is the lamb and who is the knife will change and rotate. tommy is the lamb in exile, dream the knife. dream is the lamb in the vault, sam the knife. dream is the lamb in the finale, tommy the knife. the roles will change, the gift always comes with a price. companionship is a gift that comes with a cost. hear me out stay with me here
'I must become a lion-hearted girl Ready for a fight Before I make the final sacrifice'
guys its the fucking disc finale its the. its just the disc finale that's the disc finale thats th. he has to shed his heart, he has to make the final sacrifice, he has to be ready for a fight because he needs to protect, he needs to defend and he needs to stand for his ally. he needs to mold himself from a rabbit to a lion, prey disguised as predator, a rabbit in lions clothing. the final sacrifice is just a price he has to pay. the gift of companionship will always come with a cost, and dream is more than ready to walk into it.
'And in the spring I shed my skin And it blows away with the changing wind The waters turn from blue to red As towards the sky I offer it'
OOHHHH god so much.s o much i can say theres so much there is so much. he sheds his attatchments like a snake shedding its skin, letting them dissipate with the changing winds- and he sheds himself, too. he steps out of his skin and changes the winds, walks a new path not of choice but of necessity, because this is all he can do. what else can he do, when faced with the reality of his situation, of his existance, flawed and cursed with mortality that he can cure? what else can he do, when faced with the reality of his server, his friends, lost to conflict, lost to disagreements, and he can fix it. he can fix it, they just have to trust him, they just have to hate him. he has to be a viper, a snake in the grass, he has to be a lion because he cannot be a rabbit. he cannot be prey, not anymore. c!dream is prey acting as a predator. he is a rabbit cornered and biting in retalliaton read as violence. he is a snake hissing and biting, desperate to be left alone and to be heard. he masquerades as a lion, a dragon, a beast of unknown proportion; but he is an animal that burrows and clings, grapples with the past and craves companionship and distance at the same time. the waters run from blue to red as he offers revival, as he offers himself.
this is a gift. it comes with a price.
okay im done this was probably so incoherent but i am in a c!dream and neurodivergence fuelled haze right now and i need you guys to hear my insanity /hj
no i will not be elaborating or explaining any of this
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honeyvenommusic Ā· 8 months ago
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#glass animals#honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk iā€™m just huh????#likeā€¦.. when i say wore out#i cannot describe how much i listened to it#i usually have some vague idea even if itā€™s a ridiculous number#like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened)#i cannot recall w this#gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke#so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao#(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to dĆ©jĆ  vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol)#anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. šŸ„¹ i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night#driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldnā€™t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in#sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who????#had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused#it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping iā€™d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song#then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky &#ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work#(i was right & it blew her miiind)#god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok#iā€™m sure people are v quick to say theyā€™re overrated bc of that but idk & iā€™m glad i donā€™t know. theyā€™ll always be this#highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift#a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didnā€™t & should have ended them#as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?)#a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever
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writereleaserepeat Ā· 2 years ago
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Hear No Evil - Chapter 5
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CW: bbu, bbu-adjacent, pet whump, institutionalized slavery, dehumanization, dehumanizing intent by using it/its pronouns, ableism, blood mention, scar mention, non-sexual nudity
It felt wrong to touch the boyā€™s face. It felt wrong to touch a person who had been endlessly abused into mindless submission, someone who had been trained through pain and suffering that they had to exist at the will and command of another. It felt wrong that the boy was still sitting naked, all but skin and bones, entirely unmoving on Rowanā€™s floor.Ā 
What other choice did Rowan have? Was there another way to communicate with this boy, oneĀ  that wasnā€™t as direct as physical contact? Necessity, Rowan reminded himself as the boyā€™s face turned upward in his palm. Iā€™m doing this out of necessity.
Even as he gently guided the boyā€™s face to look upwards, he refused to meet Rowanā€™s eyes, his gaze directed towards the floor. That was alright. It was going to have to be alright for a while, Rowan suspected.Ā 
After a moment he let his fingers fall away from the boyā€™s chin. He wouldnā€™t have admitted it, but he was relieved when his new houseguest held the position rather than dropping back to the ground.Ā 
ā€œHey there,ā€ Rowan greeted. He did his best to smile. ā€œI donā€™t know if you remember, but my nameā€™s Rowan. I know this is new for you, but itā€™s new for me too. Itā€™s new for both of us. Iā€™m sure youā€™re probably scared, but weā€™re going to get through this. Weā€™re going to have to learn together, alright?ā€Ā 
The boy didnā€™t even blink.Ā 
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Master didnā€™t seem upset that Pet was holding still and looking up at him. By the hint of a smile on Masterā€™s lips, it seemed that he was pleased by the unusual posture.Ā 
It didnā€™t dare meet Masterā€™s eyes, of course, but now it could try and read his lips. Even if it couldnā€™t decipher the words that Master was speaking, it had already come to enjoy the soft murmur of Masterā€™s speech. The kindness and warmth was enough for it to relax.Ā 
Newā€¦ newā€¦ new for both of usā€¦ learn togetherā€¦
Pet knew that it could do that. Pet was happy to learn new things for its Master, and it was going to try its very best to do them well. Failure meant punishment, but even worse, failure meant disappointing Master. Disappointing its old Master is what got Pet into this mess to begin with. It could handle any amount of pain, however Master chose to train it, but disappointment always burned the deepest.ļæ½ļæ½
Pet can be good. Pet can learn with Master.Ā 
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It struck Rowan that now only was the boy still naked, but the stench of waste and sweat clung to his body. The putrid odor of the liquidation event had begun to seep into the room at no fault of the boyā€™s own.Ā 
Of course - Rowan privately scolded himself for forgetting. The facility never gave its victims the luxury of proper hygiene, and this one had been stuck at the liquidation event for days, before eventually being stuffed in a box. There was no wonder that the boyā€™s curls were slicked down with grease and dirt.Ā 
Rowan attempted a smile. He knew it didnā€™t reach his eyes, but how could it, when he knew how much pain this person had been through?Ā 
ā€œHow does a bath sound, yeah? Can we do that?ā€ Rowan offered this enthusiastically. Rowan also knew that his bathroom was a bit of a disaster, scattered with half-empty shampoo bottles and skin care products he hadnā€™t used in weeks. He tried to soothe himself by rationalizing that the boy wouldnā€™t particularly care about the roomā€™s cleanliness.Ā 
There was no reaction to Rowanā€™s offer, not a nod, not so much as a twitch. It was all he could do not to sigh, worried that any sighs would be interpreted as misplaced frustration. The last thing he wanted to do was set the boy on edge.Ā 
He remembered what worked earlier, the very gestures that had lured the boy to his bedroom in his first place. After giving himself a determined nod, Rowan took a few steps backwards, and gestured with a low hand to invite the victim to follow along.Ā 
Much to Rowanā€™s relief, the boy understood. He scampered forward on his hands and knees, eyes glued back to the ground, every bone on his gaunt frame showing. As much as Rowan would have preferred him to walk on two feet, this was going to have to do for the moment. Just enough to get him cleaned and settled in, nothing more. Then they would begin work on rehabilitation.Ā 
As soon as Rowan opened the door to the bathroom, the boy bolted forward and into the tub in a tangle of limbs and apparent enthusiasm. Rowan hadnā€™t spoken a single word or made a gesture. He smiled in spite of himself, and cocked his head to the side.Ā Ā 
ā€œAlright, I guess baths are okay? Thatā€™ll make this easier.ā€ Rowan thought about the many victims that had been tormented by water, scalded or frozen at inhumane temperatures, or held beneath the surface until they drew mouthfuls into their lungs. To have a victim who was at least amiable to the cleaning process would relieve the burden on them both.Ā 
The boy had resumed the typical kneeling position in the tub, seemingly unbothered by the hard porcelain. Rowan figured it was best not to try and correct that for the time being. One step at a time. Be encouraging.Ā 
Rowan leaned over to the spigot and slowly turned it on, carefully easing the handle towards ā€œH,ā€ and diligently checked the temperature as water began to flow. Once it was comfortably warm he plugged the drain and watched as the clear liquid began to pool around the boyā€™s legs. Rowan almost swore he heard a contented sigh as the boyā€™s eyes slipped closed.Ā 
For the first time in more than a day, Rowan felt himself smile, a genuine smile. And for the first time, he felt that maybe he was cut out for this.Ā 
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Pet was grateful for the washing before it even began. Its old Master was so particular in keeping Pet clean, and would have his servants scrub Pet down every day beneath a stream of hot water. Sometimes the soap was floral, other times it was citrus, but it always left Pet smelling wonderful. Handler never gave it such luxuries when it was sent back to the training facilities.Ā 
The water rose ever higher, first over its thighs, then over the pale skin of its stomach, until the water finally came to a stop right above its navel. It could have groaned with how pleasant the warm water felt on its aching legs and bruised knees. For a moment it nearly dared to speak, express its gratitude for the kindness, but knew better than to open its mouth without being told.Ā 
Still, it was a treat to have Master wash it rather than a servant.
Master gently cupped warm water over its head, and Pet closed its eyes tight to keep the water out. With each new splash of water Master continued to talk away, his voice nearly as warm as the water, wrapping around Petā€™s shoulders along with the suds. Of course, the words were still indistinct, and Pet listened in case there was a command it could discern, but it was already starting to think that maybe Master just liked to talk. Pet wouldnā€™t mind that at all.Ā 
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ā€œIā€™ve never really had anything to name before,ā€ Rowan mused aloud as he worked his fingers through the boyā€™s curls. The texture was so much deeper than his own, the ringlets rich with weight. He made a quick mental note that the dollar-store shampoo he used for his own pin-straight hair would most certainly not do in the future.Ā 
ā€œYou see, I had to name a goldfish when I was a kid,ā€ Rowan continued as he began to rinse the shampoo out. ā€œI had to name it, and I stalled for weeks. My parents kept asking me, and my sister kept bugging me about it, but I just didnā€™t have anything. My mom eventually suggested ā€˜Goldy,ā€™ and I just went with it. But if you canā€™t tell me what you want to be called, at least not yet, you deserve a name. A proper one, something with a bit of dignity.ā€
He wondered if there were websites to help with such a thing. namesforyourbrainwashedhumanslave.com? It wouldnā€™t surprise him.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re going to have to learn to wash yourself in the future.ā€ Rowan gently wrung some of the water from the boyā€™s thick head of hair and hoped he wasnā€™t pulling on the roots. ā€œItā€™s okay if that doesnā€™t happen right away. Iā€™m more than happy to help, but I want you to feel comfortable doing things on your own, without having to ask me. You can come in here and have a bath whenever you want. The apartment incorporates the cost of utilities into the monthly rent already, which means we can use as much as we want at no extra cost. Itā€™s nice to have almost unlimited heat in the winters, especially this far north.ā€
As he began to carefully wipe away the grime on the boyā€™s face with a warm cloth, Rowan nearly startled when the boy leaned into the touch. He hadnā€™t expected to feel pressure returned against his hand. After pausing long enough to pull himself out of the shock, Rowan pressed on and began to scrub at the dried blood on the side of the victimā€™s face. Flakes of muddy brown and deep crimson scabs covered the deep gouges that ran from his temples, down his ears and jawline, almost down to his neck. Given the extent of the damage, it was a wonder there was any skin left.Ā 
ā€œI hope one day you can tell me how these got here,ā€ Rowan murmured as he got a good look at the wounds for the first time. Blood flaked away and fell in hues of brown into the water, mixed with fresh red from the most recent and still-weeping wounds.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m sorry,ā€ Rowan whispered before he could stop himself, because he knew he had to be hurting the boy, no matter how gently he tried to proceed. The wounds were deep, and Rowan wondered if they needed stitches. How was he supposed to tell? Maybe they were too wide for stitches, maybe the scar tissue was already too well-formed.Ā 
They were different than the scars that Rowan had seen on other victims before, and he had seen the aftermath of many instruments of torture in his time. These scars were jagged, and they were as wide as three fingers across, as though they had been continually torn open. It was the first time Rowan saw them this close up, and he noted that the cartilage of the ears was warped and knobbed. Again, something like he had never seen before.Ā 
The water had turned a translucent copper color, and Rowan tried not to be sick as he reached in to drain the bathtub. A quick hand gesture and the boy got out of the tub and knelt back down on the bath mat.Ā 
Right, towels. Dry him off.Ā 
ā€œLetā€™s get you dry, huh?ā€ Rowan spoke. Maybe it would help ease whatever tensions were running through the boyā€™s mind if Rowan kept narrating what he was doing. He imagined it would be beneficial to take away some of the nerve-wracking suspense, and instead replace it with vocalized certainty.Ā 
Forcing a smile on his lips, Rowan grabbed the freshly-laundered towel he had set aside, and held it out in the boyā€™s line of sight.Ā 
ā€œIā€™ve got a clean towel here. If you want to do it yourself, just grab the towel, and Iā€™ll stop. Otherwise, here we go.ā€Ā 
As soon as the terry cloth made contact with the boyā€™s shoulders, he leaned into the touch, his upper body shifting a few centimeters closer to Rowanā€™s own. Again. This time, Rowan didnā€™t startle quite so easily. In fact, he was surprised at himself, and the happiness that blossomed in his stomach.Ā 
He knew he couldnā€™t take happiness in this forever. There was no joy to be taken in a human being that acted on inhumane training, a human who sought other human contact because they were told to, not because they wanted it. But if the boy wasnā€™t afraid of him and his touch, that was one small victory. Rowan had a feeling he was going to have to take the little victories for what they were.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re doing great,ā€ he said, not for the first time that hour. But this time, Rowan knew he might have been talking to himself as well.Ā 
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