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entirely random observation: it's more than likely influenced by the lack of comma use in tumblr tags but i've noticed lately that i don't use commas in casual type as much as i should. i feel like mostly it's obvious that there's supposed to be a comma so if you can pick up on that then it's fine, but that's funny to note. my lazy casual typing conversation skills have downgraded so much over the years (entirely influenced by that tumblr post abt how writers don't use caps and syntax in unprofessional settings bc they already spend so much time typing properly and they dgaf if they don't have to, ty random tumblr user you changed my life) but i wonder if i'm still comprehensible enough to the passing observer.
#this has only been sorta fixed by my google phone autocorrect refusing to permanently take removed autocorrect suggestions to memory#no matter how many times i delete suggested words with apostrophes they still crop up time and time again#at some point (esp when im typing fast!!) it jus becomes more work to go back and fix them#i type too fast to disable autocorrect but hhhhhhh this last yr or so#rly makes my blood boil how bad its gotten and how many corrections to entirely different words are so wrooooong#i blame generative ai for poisoning gboard's database n sadly#every fix ive tried doesnt seem to last#godddddd the next time i get a new phone its gonna be anything but a google phone#OH other thing i didnt mention in post:#i saw on here or somewhere someone didnt use a comma between a word and a person's name#and it jus struck me that 'oh yea commas are hella impt at times!!!'#but also. again#m not digging out the fancy comma to add to tumblr tags where i ramble *gestures to the above*#sadly this has influenced how i type on the internet so uhh#idk if no one can understand me then it's prolly for the better tbh#just a passing note in my head if i am as comprehensible to others as i am to myself#its probably a learned language............. thats it thats my tumblr veterans discount#being able to understand che's casual speak#hehehe
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i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you
#im reading that post that says artists are directors of audience reaction and not its dictator:#'you cannot guarantee that everyone viewing your work will react as you are trying t make them react. a good artist knows that this is what#allows work to breath. by definition you cannot have art where the viewer brings nothing to the table ... this is why you have to let go of#the urge to plainly state in text exactly how you think the work should be interpreted ... its better to be misinterpreted sometimes than#to talk down to your audience. you wont even gain any control that way; people will still develop their opinions no matter what you do#im thinking abt this again cuz i was thinking maybe the thing that lets adventure time work so well the way it does is cuz it doesnt#take itself too seriously that it gives the audience enough room to fuck with subtext and then fuck with them back yknow. i think it was#mentioned somewhere that they werent even planning to run with the postapocalyptic elements that are hinted in the show but changed their#mind after the one off with the frozen businessmen and dominoed into marcy and simons backstory. on the other side there are stories that#explain too much to let the story speak for itself and i think it ends up having to do more with the crew trying to lead ppl in a certain#direction than expand on what they have and i see a lot of this with miraculous. like when interviews and tweets are used as word of god in#arguments and it becomes a little stifling to play around with it knowing the creator can just interject. u can say its the crews effort to#engage with its audience but it feels more like micromanaging. and none of this is to say there ISNT room for stories that spell things out#theyre just suited for different things. if sesame street tried abstract approaches to themes and nuance itd be counterproductive#a lot of things fly over my head so i need help picking things apart to get it- but it doesnt have to be from the story itself. ive picked#picked up or built on my own interpretations listening to other ppl share their thoughts which creates conversation around the same thing#sometimes stories will spell things out for you without being so obvious abt it that it feels like its woven into the text. my fav example#for this might be ATLA using younger characters as its main cast but instead of feeling like its dumbed down for kids to understand why war#is bad its framed from a childs point of view so younger audiences can pick up on it by relating to the characters. maybe an 8 year old#wont get how geopolitics works but at least they get 'hey the world is a little more complicated than everyone vs. fire nation'. same for#steven universe bc its like theyre trying to describe and put feelings into words that kids might not have so they have smth to start with#especially with the metaphors around relationships bc even if it looks unfamiliar as a kid now maybe the hope is for it to be smth you can#look back to. thats why it feels like these shows grew up with me.. instead of saving difficult topics for 'when im ready for it'#as if its preparing me for high school it gave me smth to turn in my hands and revisit again and again as i grow. stories that never#treated u as dumb all along. just someone who could learn and come back to it as many times as u need to. i loved SU for the longest time#but i felt guilty for enjoying it hearing the way ppl bash it. bc i was a kid and thought other ppl understood it better than me and made#feel bad for leaning into the message of paying forward kindness and not questioning why steven didnt punish the diamonds or hold them#accountable. but im rewatching it now and going oh. i still love this show and what it was trying to teach me#yapping#diary
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Ok so you know this?
I havent seen anyone talk about a specific part so yeahh
TW: uhh flesha's design so some general gore talk and imagery, talk of death, skinning people and corpses
(I think this is it, if i need to tw something else please tell me)
I dont think i had seen a close up of flesha's design in such a clear light so this is my first time actually paying attention to some little details.
It just makes me hate The Solver harder.
I hate how it seems like Tessa's skin was literaly sew into Cyn's clothes. I hate how The Solver doesnt use Tessa's hands and just ripped Cyn's arm through the skin of the arm since the hand was either too small to fit the drone's or there were too many small bones to remove them properly.
I hate how i can see The Solver slowly skining this poor kid so it could use her skin for whatever it needed. Tessa was a child, a child that never got the chance to recieve a proper burial, that never got the chance to truly rest since her body was used even after her death, that had her image twisted against her will so the goals of the Solver could be met.
I hate how one of the people she most cared about when she was alive, N, won't have the last image of her be during the Mansions days, of them talking normally while entering the lab or literally anything else. It will be the image of her rotting corpse over the body of Cyn. N's last memory of two of the people he considered family with be them being something that they're not, something that was forcefully put together by the power of something he can't, maybe will never be able to truly undestand and that's horrifying.
#I think this ended up being a bit rambly#But i dotn care i jsut needed to get thid ofof my chest#Other stuff that i didnt think woudl fit the post ubt still want to mention!!#1-Tessa's hands look such a terrible purple it scares me#2- this has been a thing i noticed before ep7 came out#But Cyn's and Tessa's silhuetes are so similar#Like in ghe mansion days#They seem to have similar hair styles and the bow is a defining feature in both of them#It makes me rhign that they were always meant to be put together one day#Murder drones#murder drones flesha#Murder drones tessa#Murder drones cyn#glitch productions#Tw gore#Tw death#tw skinning#I thiiiink this is it??#Oh#Stuff#I guess
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it is beyond infuriating how anne rice seems to insist on marius being a positive force in anyone's life ever. like she can't fully commit to exploring the fact he groomed armand and has repeatedly taken away his consent for what marius thinks is best (take the end of TVA as an example) and just kind of flatly puts it in the narrative. there's not really much interest in how these horrific events make marius come across as the worst because EVERYONE loves him. for gods sake, lestat learns from armand exactly what marius did to him in TVL and then proceeds to go find marius and be super friendly to him in the same fucking book. even armand and pandora, two of the people who have MORE than enough right to hate him, do not. it doesnt feel like shes trying to explore the toxicity of the abusive dynamic he traps them in, it just is there. and like yeah ofc the toxic vampire romance series but i think that this should be handled with more care. and it is not ever really framed in a way that she is interested in exploring how marius should easily be one of the most horrific characters in this series because it kind of feels like sa/rape/grooming/other things of that sort are just put there to further plot and not to really get the respect that they deserve in a medium.
#twist rambles#vc posting#grooming mention#for blocklist sorry im on my im really mad about this fucking series soapbox again#to be fucking honest she treats slavery similar. like its just THERE and the characters doing it dont really feel bad about it (much like m#rius doesnt seem to.. feel much if any remorse for arm.and) and it is just like... ok heres another bad thing with no examination. this isn#a super coherent post but i went a bit forward to see how b&g was handling the arm.and stuff and oh my god. oh im so mad. like i just... i#wish so badly that arma.nds abuse was taken seriously other than haha its sooo quirky that mari.us is in a position of power over him and#provides housing money sex comfort etc for him and is abusing him but hes sooo happy with himmmm. like he fucking sold him into sex slavery#and we are supposed to root for him#ask to tag#sorry this is just. its a very triggering part of the books but its something that i kind of keep returning to to mull over because it is#handled really badly. like i think she was trying to go for a lo.lita vibe (iirc she did actually mention nabok.ov as an inspiration) but#didnt really care enough to examine WHY that is an interesting take on the subject matter. not even to get into pan.doras stuff bc its just#really bad but at least he waited until she was an adult i suppose. like i will give anne one thing that she has characters and (poorly han#led) writing that makes you really think and analyze. which i think is where i enjoy media that is like... this kind of sucks at points but#u can tell the authors viewpoints soo transparently. and u can examine it thru this. like i think thats why i find the gr.ell run of GA int#resting too bc u can telll that man is a libertarian and doesnt respect women. and then claims to do so. its interesting to me. anyways#did u guys know she defended bill clin.ton when the monica stuff came out and victim blamed her. just a funny coincidence.#sorry for the really long tag rant but i am sooo fed up with how she treats this topic forever and ever. bc its been this way forever.#anyways back to reading had to get that out. lmk if u need me to tag this bc its a lot of tws :)
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You know, I think what really bugs me about the "Dadworth" dynamic applied to Kay and Edgeworth's relationship is that it usually makes Kay out to be this hyperactive, slight problem child (in the 'stealing and pranking' sense rather than the 'moody and abrasive' sense), occasionally with deep-rooted daddy issues like Edgeworth has, when that's... the opposite of her character.
(This post got away from me, so TL;DR: Kay is a quick-witted and independent young woman who has worked very hard to be both emotionally and practically intelligent enough to be seen as a legitimate successor to her father's legacy. Making her out to be the traits mentioned above, so she functions as Edgeworth's daughter rather than his investigative partner and equal, undermines her character and semi-conflates her with Maya [the deep-rooted issues bit]. Also I don't like it wksgskaj)
The thing about Kay is that she's not actually in the series as much as it feels like she is, which makes it easy for her character to be altered to suit the needs of the story (which I think happens in The Forgotten Turnabout, but I won't talk about that here). She turns up in two cases as herself in AAI (as in, teenager Kay whom we're most familiar with) and shares her role with Gumshoe, Ema and Franziska when she does, lessening her appearances even further. Nevertheless, there are still concrete elements to her personality that we're made aware of right from the beginning, and the first major one which I feel gets overlooked in favour of her hyperactive characterisation is this:
Kay is very, very sharp.
In terms of mainline assistants, I'd consider her the sharpest of all (maybe after Trucy? But I don't remember enough of AJ to comment on that). Yes, she's shown to be reckless and impulsive, but, when it comes to actual investigating and reasoning, she is solid. With Nick and Maya, you sometimes get the impression that they're both fumbling along until Phoenix catches on (most of the time with Maya's usually a little accidental help, and he still has to explain things to her near every time [not Maya's fault. Following Phoenix's reasoning is like being on a rollercoaster in a minecart]), but Kay is very rarely like that with Edgeworth. Within minutes of meeting him, she can predict what he's going to say (or 'steal his lines', as the game puts it), and there are several moments after he uses Logic and is about to explain what he's connected where Kay interrupts with the correct conclusion herself:
Edgeworth: A second Blue Badger that shouldn't exist... Clearly, the true identity of the person underneath is...
Kay: Oh, I know! It's one of the kidnappers, right!?
There's even a point where she tells him off for overexplaining things to her:
Kay: Yeesh, I told you I got it! Do you feel the need to explain everything!?
And, near the end of their first case together, he acknowledges that's she's generally quite quick:
Kay: OK, what should I re-create first?
Edgeworth: ...You haven't figured it out yet?
Kay: Heh, maybe I have, and maybe I haven't.
Even if you don't take these points into consideration, the fact that she comes up with a new way to use Little Thief, and knows how to use it at all actually, shows you that she's a really intelligent girl! Continuing on a bit from the point I made earlier about her being brash, Kay may be reckless, but she isn't irresponsible. Whenever she rushes into situations, she doesn't expect other people to come save her; she's quite assured that she can and will get herself out of them on her own, and, if she needs help, she asks for it in advance. She treats Edgeworth less like her guardian and more like her investigative partner:
Kay: I didn't get permission to enter Allebahst... so we're going to go gather whatever info we can over on the Babahlese side, OK!?
Edgeworth: Alright, I'm counting on you two.
Kay: Right, and I'm counting on you and Ms. von Karma to sniff out clues in Allebahst!
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Edgeworth: A number of pieces connect in a very complicated way in this case... It's almost enough to make one completely mentally exhausted.
Kay: Let's not over-complicate matters, OK, Mr. Edgeworth? We've been so focused, like a laser, on only what seems strange and out of place... it's no wonder nothing's clicked and we haven't unlocked anything yet. But, if we think things through calmly, the answer should come to us!
There's an independence to her proactiveness that kind of forces Edgeworth to meet her on equal grounds, and this too is an element that gets lost when the Dadworth dynamic comes in because it involves making Edgeworth responsible -- or feel responsible -- for her actions and general wellbeing when Kay has never expected nor wanted that. She does things on her own terms, and she walks the path she's chosen by herself:
Edgeworth: Preposterous! On what grounds do you suspect her of such a thing!?
Shih-na: The fact that she calls the Yatagarasu. That in itself is a more elegant proof.
Kay: Ms. Shih-na.
Shih-na: Yes?
Kay: I... have no intention of taking back any of what I've said.
Shih-na: ...?
Kay: I am the Great Thief Yatagarasu. And I refuse to allow some imposter to claim that name as their own! The path of justice that my father pointed me towards... I will walk it the best I can!
Her relationship with Edgeworth works as an inverse to that of Nick and Maya's in the way that, where Nick and Maya have deep respect for one another beneath layers upon layers of playful insults and messing about, Kay outwardly respects Edgeworth first (and expects that respect to be returned) and razes him second -- that, too, never to an extent she wouldn't with anyone else or that crosses a certain boundary. Her messing with Edgeworth is shown to be more an attempt to get him to lighten up or not take himself too seriously than an act of (platonic) intimacy as it is with Nick and Maya (which makes sense because Nick and Maya have spent years together, while she's known Edgeworth for all of two weeks) or genuine obliviousness/silliness (although it definitely sometimes is). This is pretty obvious simply from the fact that she always calls him 'Mr Edgeworth', though she's perfectly comfortable calling Gumshoe and Badd, people whom she is more familiar and comfortable with, 'Gummy' and 'Uncle Badd' respectively. Also Kay, in general, is quite polite? Edgeworth calls something she said rude at one point and she gets insulted, and, when you ask for her opinion, she doesn't go 'What?' or 'What is it?', she specifically says, 'Yes?' (this changes in AAI2, which I promise I'm not discussing here) Upon meeting Oldbag, she has this exchange with her, where Kay chooses a more formal mode of address than what is actually offered:
Oldbag: My name is Wendy Oldbag. But you can call me "Wendy", or "Granny", or whatever suits your fancy.
Kay: Nice to meet you, Ms. Oldbag! I'm Kay Faraday.
She's also had moments where she calls Edgeworth out for being 'tactless', and she's shown to feel very strongly about rudeness throughout the whole game. I'm not saying she isn't mischievous or playful, she very much is, but the point is that she's really quite respectful, and this extends to her relationship with him. Her characterisation in Turnabout Ablaze, where she's considerably more excitable/high-strung than in Kidnapped, seems largely due to them chasing down Calisto Yew. Edgeworth even comments on this:
Edgeworth: Kay, you need to look before you leap. You tend to lose your cool when it comes to anything related to that woman.
Generally, though, you can tell that she was obviously raised with an adherence to certain formalities. She's not looking for another parental figure (because she doesn't need one, which I'll go into after this), but, if she was, she'd make that clear.
Kay's a very straightforward person at heart; she doesn't hide any part of herself, even the part that should be hidden (i.e. the Yatagarasu). There are points where she suggests that Edgeworth reminds her of her father, but, in AAI, she specifically mentions that it's both Edgeworth and Gumshoe who remind her of her father and Detective Badd. It's not about her seeing Edgeworth as a father figure; it's about their and her own dedication to the truth. Even in AAI2, where her comments could be read as leaning more towards the former angle, she doesn't get cut up about him not picking up on that or really paying it much emphasis at all, because it doesn't matter. The fact that he reminds her of Byrne is just that: a fact.
Returning to the point about Kay not needing/wanting another parental figure, I think it's pretty self-explanatory, but to put it succinctly: Kay has the guidance she needs without him.
To put it less succinctly, Edgeworth's possibly the worst candidate to go for for emotional support and guidance in the first place, and by the time she meets him again, she's basically processed her father's passing and has a better handle on herself emotionally than Edgeworth does (not a brag; most characters have higher EQ than Edgeworth); what she wants isn't necessarily closure for Byrne's death in the emotional sense but in the I-want-answers-to-this-mystery-that-will-restore-my-family's-honour sense. You could make the argument that Kay becoming the second Yatagarasu and shaping her entire future around continuing her father's work prove that she isn't over his death, but I don't think that's true and more of a result of conflating her with Maya a bit.
With Maya, becoming the Master isn't something she chooses; it's given to her by Misty and Mia. With Kay, it's the opposite. Kay's decision to become the Yatagarasu and pursue the truth is wholly her own, and her approach to that goal reflects that. While Maya uses her cheery, upbeat attitude to conceal a lot of self-doubt and vulnerability (and Franziska does the same with her hostility), Kay does not. Her cheerfulness is precisely who she is; it's not a mask so much as it is a distraction. It keeps people from looking at her too closely and realising exactly how capable she is, and, while I don't think it's fully intentional (again, she believes in living her life in a straightforward and upfront manner), she does imply that it's sort of her (or the Yatagarasu's) MO:
Kay: Well! By the time everyone notices, it's already gone! That's the Yatagarasu way!
Interestingly enough, this unintentional tactic of using humour and cheeriness as a distraction from her abilities makes her a mirror to Calisto Yew, who also uses her seemingly always light-hearted nature as a disguise for what she's actually capable of (Calisto's joviality is her true self, too, or at least as 'true' as she can get). The difference between them is that Calisto delights in ironically mocking the world around her, whereas Kay finds joy in life itself, and she's stronger for it.
The only part where we see Kay attempt to mask her feelings is when she's a child, and even then she admits that she feels better after crying, which, I believe, led to her becoming more open with her emotions later in life (see how her older self has a teary sprite which makes pretty frequent appearances where her younger self does not). In any case, to me, this shows that she has people in her life already who are helping, and have helped, her confront and process her trauma. She's not looking to Edgeworth to help her make sense of her father's death and she definitely isn't looking for a replacement (again, literally dedicated to continuing her father's [and Badd's] legacy). Whenever Edgeworth even gets close to becoming parental with her, she dismisses it, unless she acknowledges that she is in the wrong:
Edgeworth: ...Kay, it's not good for you to stay up late, you know.
Kay: Yes, gramps!
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Edgeworth: ...I appreciate your sense of justice, however... I would appreciate it if you wouldn't go running into the heart of any more raging fires.
Kay: Nngh... Yes, Mr. Edgeworth... I'll try...
Despite her buoyancy and bright attitude, Kay is quite firm that she be treated as an adult (she doesn't see her cheeriness as a mark of youth; it's joie de vivre, it's who she is, and that's that), and, throughout the game, she gets annoyed when people don't respect that (her arguments with Lang are largely over how he calls Little Thief a toy and her crow-girl). She holds her own and relies on herself while being unafraid of asking for help.
Anyway, this post has gone on for long enough and I think I've addressed the points I wanted to. I should mention that I realise that a lot of how many people portray/interpret their relationship is validated by AAI2 but that's honestly a discussion for a separate post HAHA I feel like, when it comes to AAI, the father/daughter interpretation can maybe be argued with regards to the way Edgeworth treats her? Honestly, though, I think he'd treat any young lady who suddenly becomes part of his team/responsibility in pretty much the same way. And, like, he drops the ball almost every time he's supposed to give "fatherly" advice because he's just not that great with it/children!! It's actually hilarious HSKSDHSK
Either way, yeah! I just think Kay is actually given a lot less credit than she's due when the Dadworth card gets played and I just! Want better for her!!
#kay faraday#miles edgeworth#ace attorney investigations#EMBARRASSINGLY long post. i want to add that this isnt an attack on anyone who likes the dadworth dynamic!!! it's semi-supported by canon#and like. it's literally fandom wskdhdk do what makes you happy. i just feel like kay gets minimised a bit when it happens (including when#it's done in game) and i just want people to realise that she's not actually like that!! she's actually so smart and rly mature???#oh i want to add that i generally like both aai games i just prefer the first one. i know some people go for a sibling dynamic between them#rather than a father daughter one (which makes sense bc... they have 10 years between them hskddhk) but im an advocate for friendship being#just as important and valid as it would be if it did mimic a family relationship even if it didnt so that doesnt do much for me either#i just think she wants to be seen as an equal to him as any of his other partners would be#oh i didnt mention this in the post but i also feel like people mix her with ema a bit in the future versions of her?#like she becomes snarky and a little sarcastic (or suave/flirty in a roundabout manner if it's a ship post) when her whole thing is being#direct. she tells shih na to her face that 'those sunglasses dont do anything for her so she'll steal them next time' she's great#the snarky sarcasm thing is again ema. not maya or her but ema. and franziska#ok i need to shut up now im done thank u <3#annotations
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you’ve got me incredibly curious now how does one accidentally pierce their ear in a food court???
So I had my ears pierced as a baby but then went YEARS without wearing any earrings cause I thought they were too "girly."
Then one day I went to Hot Topic [as all 13 year olds do] and decided to buy some more "masculine" looking 'earrings' like these:
Wow so masc! [Being a 13 year old is funny.]
Anyways, I was completely unaware that sometimes ear piercings heal after years of no use and that these fake plugs are actually bigger than your average earring gauge.
So imagine my surprise when I stuck one of these into my earlobe, heard a *POP* sound, and then realized my ear was bleeding and I'd accidentally re-pierced it. 😀
#[13 year olds do not make the brightest decisions]#oh and this all happened in the food court cause i was too impatient to wait until i was home#worked out eventually! i didnt use blunt force trauma for the other earlobe and eventually embraced that i sometimes liked girly things :)#even got a whole extra set of peircings!#tho as mentioned in my post i did accidentally rip my food court piercing one day... luckily its only noticeable if i wear heavy earrings#also wow sorry ive rambled!! this isnt even a very interesting story but it all came rushing back to me lol#asks#long post
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damn it feels so good to actually have friends who i feel safe around. like to have friends who im not worried that if they find out that i like "cringe" things they wont judge me. woah!!
@angry-avaocardo @silly1xxx @gollyimsosoevil
#appreciation post for my besties✨✨#also the tags got reallylong and rambly just me complainign about the ex friend and a quick update so feell free not to read them if you#dont wanna#theres nothing of substance in there lol#ugh god my old friend the one i made the really long post about asking for advice#i probably mentioned this but i never felt safe to talk about things i like with them#oh god i would never be able to show them defrag#and i probably wouldnt even be willing to ramble about like. the arg or smth to them#id be too worried of them making fun of me#but also they had a way of making it so i hung out with them the most even tho i didnt want to#“me and friend are going to the canteen you two wanna come?”#“[with none of my input] no me and Charlie are staying here”#the only person i felt safe talking about my interests to was a friend that i made when trying to move away frrom the toxic one#a friend who they would consistently ask if i was replacing them with and was so fucking jealous of him#in fact that friend is gollyimsoevil yea that guy#hes great he likes gay addison shit so yk bestie#also they were so good at guilt tripping that now i use their guilt tripping tactics on myself to try and get myself to do things lol#and they would make fun of me so often but GOD FORBID I MAKE FUN OF THEM#they were making fun of me to another person a few /years/ ago so i made some snarky comment about them#because i was really upset by them making fun of me#and they brought it up to me like 2 months ago before we cut them off#like dude you mock and make fun of everything i do so much that ive just stopped talking and completely zoned out whenever im around you#and youre holding some snarky remark that i made when we were like 11 /because you were making fun of me/#UGH#oh ye update on that if anyone cares it went fine they seem to have moved on and are just hanging out with different people now#they havent made any attempt to contact any of us but also havent cut us off#i havent cut them off either ive just left it#i catch them giving me and the other two friends who used to be friends with them dirty looks#but i kinda just ignore it#i have like 5 friends my age who are much much much nicer than them
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i feel like a part of my soul has been ripped from my chest and i dont know why.
#is this a bad time to mention i dont even believe in souls?#i really dk why.#no this isnt abt jiro somehow apparently having a loving family#(ok like. at least 1/4 of it is BUT STILL. NOT THE POINT)#(part of me feels awkward abt it bc just. huh? youre telling me. this guy. that i basically am the irl version of. has a loving family???)#(/j and all but just. idk part of me feels awkward now? it just. a guy who blew himself up for most of the same ideals i have)#(gets to have the one thing i yearn so very hard for. everyday of my life. but can never have.)#(ill get over this in like. 2 hours. hopefully. most of thats just shock anyways.)#just. for the past some days. besides a couple things and people. hurt and love havent really. made me feel much of anything#like being cared for by actual ppl even online. yeah. it still does but#even my fantasies don’t entertain me anymore#oh god am i becoming lopt. save me fuck#UNLESS this means i get mason as my bf. then hell fucking yeah (kidding kidding kIDDINGG i dont wanna be lopt. please.)#but srsly. usually i can envoke some sorta reaction from myself if its brutal enough#but. nothing.#id assume that im over doing it usually. but i havent in a good while#maybe this is some what where my art/writers block is coming from#whatever this hell is.#time to go on a spiral of mildly depressing and somewhat cryptic posts (cryptic if i didnt info dump in the tags that is)#why is it so hard to confront issues when you dont even know what the issue is?#i just. wanna be able to make myself feel something.#not in a “i have no one but myself” way for once. just. i dont wanna have to rely on others for my emotions#i want to feel a pang of hurt. yet it feels so empty. i dont want to harm myself. i just want to feel it.#anyways ig.#ig im gonna just sleep#which tbh im growing to hate bc like. i feel all i do is sleep. i sleep to avoid how much my own body hurts. i sleep to ignore my issues#i sleep to ignore the fact i keep forgetting to respond to people even though ik i have to at some point. i sleep to avoid the dread of not#getting anything done. i sleep just because im bored.#and im tired of sleeping.#but. it feels worse awake. my body hurts. my mind hurts. it all just hurts.
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the new sims 4 feature where they have a button to give a certain item to every outfit/certain outfits is such a fucking lifesaver dude do you KNOW how much ive had to repeat makeup and accessories on sims over and over manually lol
#i like to give every sim blush. not as makeup necessarily but to give more dimension to their faces#so even if a character didnt have any other makeup id still do that and. oh my gosh dude#not to mention things like earrings or rings#its just really good i just wanted to express that#my post#ALSO since im making my WoW characters in the sims i downloaded a cc that has canon WoW species eyes#but its under facepaint and not the eye colors. so that also had to be applied manually :']#like this update hit literally halfway through me making this household
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ok lore updated for this bitch
like half of it is just relationship drama which is EMBARRASSING but i mean. what else am i here for really. the other stuff is way harder to explain but god i tried!!!!
#i mentioned 2 other characters of mine that i wasnt initially planning to add to af but#i fuckin might who knows. they ended up playing a bigger role in our story lately#+ there's one other guy one of those guys hangs out with that i kinda sorta had a planning for but it sorta didnt go very far#and then his buddy stole the role LOL#barfs augh so many characters so little substance SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i never claimed to be good at making up characters#but hes been the main character of our joint google docs lately#so hes a feature i guess. i gotta add sage i love sage :( i did post sage like once here lol#and fuckin.... sydron idk if i showed sydron lol my bitch ass killdeer of a guy#idk it's a whole thing but if i have too many characters up there [i already do] i think it overwhelms people w/choice#and then theres all the twst fankids klfsjfkwjkeljf god i need to fucking chill out#i also really need to redo some references bc the tiny guys i did for color ref are kinda UGGO but. god i dont want to drawing in color ful#takes forever!!!! and im trying to get a job!!!! i got shit to do!!! but also no job means more time sitting around llol...#ok whatever thats not the point here i have my scorpion man who fucks and he has lore now BYE!!!#maybe ill go update flannery next idk lol#oh wtf it is 1am ummmm. maybe flannery tomorrow i need to SLEEP
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Yu-Gi-Oh Duel Monsters Verse Info For Gao, Tasuku, and Suzuha
(Note: These verses are written in the context of the events of the original Yu-Gi-Oh! Manga by Kazuki Takahashi, and do connect directly to the canon of my Mokuba specifically. However, they can be easily adapted or written to not include connections to Mokuba and or adapted to fit the Anime's story. In addition, the inclusion of these characters in the storyline of my Mokuba does not have to be present in any interactions had with Mokuba either. These are meant to be a basis/starting point for interactions not a end-all be-all. I am flexible and this can all be discussed at the individual level.)
General Set-Up That Applies To All Three
The Game of Buddyfight
In the world of Yu-Gi-Oh!, games are a way of life and have a deep history in the world itself. They help connect and bring people together, whether it's for fun, recreation, or to decide the fate of the world. The world has tons of popular games, and one of the new and upcoming games is known as Buddyfight, a game with many similarities to that of the popular Duel Monsters game created by Maximillion Pegasus.
The game was created by one of the many companies under the famous Amanosuzu Group. This conglomerate is headed by Lord Amanosuzu and will be inherited one day by his daughter, Lady Suzuha Amanosuzu. The game was developed around the same time as Duel Monsters tailored mainly for the market of children, but has grown to be enjoyed by people of all ages. It is more of a niche game title compared to the worldwide phenomenon of Pegasus' creation, but it is still enjoyed by many people.
Much like Duel Monsters, the game has a connection to the supernatural, but the creators did not know this at the time of creation. It is connected to a series of parallel worlds (Dragon World, Star Dragon World, Darkness Dragon World, Magic World, Dungeon World, Hero World, Ancient World, Danger World, Legend World, Katana World, & Lost World) where creatures of all sorts reside. The first connection between the two worlds began when a young boy known as the 'Boy of Destiny' that had lost everything was reached out to by the heir to the noble Jackknife clan of Dragon World, who was destined to be the boy's protector. For this 'Boy of Destiny' was fated to save the world and protect the future.
The existence of this connection is not made public, and to almost everyone on Earth, Buddyfight cards are just cards used for a game. However, as the bonds between players and their monsters become stronger, so does the potential for more connections between these worlds to be formed.
A year following the events of the main story (AKA 6 months after DSOD is over), Buddyfight has grown in popularity to the point where the existence of Buddy Monsters no longer needs to be hidden. This means Buddyfighters their monsters can sometimes be seen walking around both Domino and Cho-Tokyo (more common in the latter), with more Buddy Contracts being formed than ever before thanks to the official authorization of them from the Buddy Card Office run by the Buddy Police.
The Buddy Police
Initially started in the coastal city of Cho-Tokyo but has since expanded to other regions of the world, the Buddy Police is a police force specially tasked with dealing with gaming-related crimes. These crimes can include something as common as cheating in official gaming events, to something rare and horrific like having underground death games. They are both their own force of authority, but do work with local law enforcement often.
The key members of the force include its commander Commander I, its intelligence officer Stella Watson, its chief officer Tsurgi Takihara, and their special field agent, the Buddy Police Boy Wonder aka Tasuku Ryuenji. They fight to uphold justice and protect the people, especially children who are more often than not victims in crimes.
Recent reports of a large amount of death games being played in the nearby city of Domino in Japan have forced the Buddy Police to take action. They have sent their chief officer and the Buddy Police Boy Wonder to investigate the situation and gather intel undercover, not knowing that the games being played here were no ordinary death games that they have experienced. Supernatural forces were involved, forces that have a history spanning back to 3000 years ago in ancient Egypt.
Gao Mikado (The Mighty Sun Fighter)
Bio
Name: Gao Mikado
Age: 12
Family: Hanako Mikado (Younger Sister), Yota Mikado (Older Brother, Deceased), Suzumi Mikado (Mother), Takashi Mikado (Father), Hanae Juumonji (Grandmother)
Residence: Domino City, Japan.
Friends: Mokuba Kaiba, Baku Omori, Kuguru Uki, Kiri Hyoryu, Tetsuya Kurodake, Paruko Nanana, Kazane Fujimiya, Zanya Kisaragi, Akatsuki Kisaragi, Suzuha Amanosuzu, Noboru Kodo, Tasuku Ryuenji, Jin Magatsu, Genma Todoroki, Megumi Mamakari, Raremaro Tefudanokimi, Gaito Kurouzu, Dai Kaido, Kanata Ozora, Rouga Aragami.
Games Played: Buddyfight (Main Game), Duel Monsters, Capsule Monsters Chess, various arcade games.
Ace Cards: Drum Bunker Dragon (Dragon World, Buddyfight), Bal Dragon (Dragon World, Buddyfight), Demon Lord Dragon Batzz (Dragon World, Buddyfight)
Skills: Aiki-jujutsu martial arts, Buddyfighting.
Story Description
Gao Mikado attends Aibo Academy, a Pre K-12 school sponsored by the Amonosuzu Group located in Domino City. There he is a member of the special Buddyfight course, a course that allows him to focus on building his skills in the game of Buddyfight in addition to regular schooling education. He is a relative newcomer to the game itself, only starting when he began 6th grade, but has taken up to it very fast and has been known as 'Dumb Luck Gao' around the school grounds after his miraculous defeat of famous prodigy, Tasuku Ryuenji during his very first game.
He is not only good at Buddyfighting, but is also a national champion at Aiki-jujutsu martial arts, even competing against adults. He helps his mother out in their family dojo sometimes with running classes for the community, such as a self-defense class. He also has been an instructor for self-defense and other martial-arts related elective courses at Aibo.
Gao loves to hit up the local arcade and card shop scene when he's not in school or training, always looking for an interesting challenge. It was at this arcade that he met Mokuba Kaiba, and became fast friends with him. The youngest Kaiba brother even taught him Capsule Monsters Chess, as well as Duel Monsters. In return, Gao and his mother teach him self-defense.
Gao, aside from being known for beating Tasuku, is known locally as the Mighty Fun Fighter, a fighter who is known to beat up bullies and protect the weak. He has a passion for fighting just as much as he does Buddyfighting, but is not the type to physically hurt people with his skills. He will not hesitate to fight if needed.
Gao is the second person to make a Buddy Contract with a monster on Earth. Unlike other humans, over time he eventually makes connections with three very different dragons, Drum, Bal, and Batzz, who all share the title of his Buddy. His best friend Baku has created separate decks for each one, as well as a deck for all three as well. Any of them can grant Gao their power via a Buddy Skill (a special power granted to a fighter by their Buddy Monster), which manifests as a sun-themed skin-board Gao uses to fly around and get from place to place.
Tasuku Ryuenji & Jackknife Dragon (The Boy of Destiny & His Loyal Buddy)
Bio
Name: Tasuku Ryuenj
Age: 13
Family: Mr. Ryuenji (Father, Deceased), Mrs. Ryuenji (Mother, Decreased), Tsurgi Takihara (Legal Guardian), Jackknife Dragon (Buddy Monster / Father Figure)
Residence: Domino City, Japan (Formally, Cho-Tokyo, Japan)
Friends: Mokuba Kaiba, Gao Mikado, Baku Omori, Kuguru Uki, Kiri Hyoryu, Tetsuya Kurodake, Paruko Nanana, Zanya Kisaragi, Akatsuki Kisaragi, Suzuha Amanosuzu, Noboru Kodo, Gaito Kurouzu, Kanata Ozora,
Games Played: A wide variety of games (including Duel Monsters) but Buddyfight is his specialty.
Ace Card: Jackknife Dragon (Dragon World, Buddyfight)
Skills: Physical Combat, Weapons Use, Investigation, Interrogation, Buddyfighting, Academics, Singing, Driving (Both Boat / Car)
Powers: Future Force (Manifesting Buddyfight Cards Power Into Reality), Buddy Skill (Flight).
Story Description
Tasuku Ryuenji is a member of the Buddy Police and a Buddyfight Prodigy known as the 'Prince of Buddyfight'. At the age of 9, his family passed away in a huge natural event known as the 'Disaster", leaving him alone and stranded in a mountain range for three days. During that time, he realized his own powerlessness as a child and wished to become an adult in order to help those who cannot help themselves, and that desire resonated with a being from another world, Jackknife Dragon Findar The 100th. Jack came to Tasuku in the form of a Buddyfight card, and manifested his true form in order to shield and protect Tasuku from the elements until he was found by civilization. It was after his rescue that he joined the Buddy Police and was taken in by Mr. Takihara.
In addition to being the first human to connect with and form a contract with a Buddy Monster, Tasuku also possesses a power known as the Future Force. This power, one that comes from his future self, is accessed through Tasuku's Buddyfight deckcase, the Star Pulsar. With it, he is able to make the power of his cards into reality, a power he uses only in extreme circumstances. He can also gain the power of flight in the form of two green rings on his feet through Jack's own power, aka his Buddy Skill.
This power and Jack's existence are kept a secret. Only those in the Buddy Police, Mokuba Kaiba, Gao Mikado, and Lady Suzuha are privy to this sensitive information, and Tasuku wishes to keep it that way. Jack disguises himself either in his card form or through the form of a plushie. He can communicate with Tasuku telepathically in these forms if needed.
He is sent to Aibo Academy as a student as a coverup to investigate the increasing game-related crimes and gather information. It was through this that he met Gao Mikado and became good friends with him, including offering to be his first opponent in Buddyfight. He has a history with Lady Suzuha not only due to being 7th grade classmates, but also due to her family's company creating the game and him being often asked to help promote it.
Tasuku's first major act since coming to Domino was his direct involvement in the aftermath of the Death-T incident at Kaiba Corporation. It was there he met Mokuba Kaiba, who he helped during the period of his brother being in a coma. It was because of meeting Mokuba and hearing the full story (including what Kaiba's real dream is) that Tasuku ultimately decided to not press charges on Kaiba Corporation for their death games, the younger Kaiba's insistance his real brother will come back to him one day just as Yugi Muto had promised him he would. Though, Tasuku wants to meet Seto Kaiba himself, to gauge with his own eyes whether what he experienced at the hands of Yugi was enough justice and to determine what kind of man he is to become.
In addition to using a Dragon World deck, eventually, Tasuku becomes in possession of a deck from Star Dragon World that becomes his main deck. This occurs after some training he and Jack underwent in that parallel world, and upon completing, both were granted the powers of Star Dragon World, becoming the first fighter and buddy for that world in existence.
Lady Suzuha Amanosuzu(The Heir to The Amanosuzu Fortune)
Bio
Name: Lady Suzuha Amanosuzu (Everyone calls her Lady Suzuha, Suzuha-Sama, or Senpai. Only her dad or Mokuba calls her by her first name alone)
Age: 13
Family: Lord Amanosuzu (Father), Lady Amanosuzu (Mother, Deceased)
Residence: Domino City, Japan (Sky Home), Mount Fuji, Japan (Castle Home)
Friends: Mokuba Kaiba, Gao Mikado, Tasuku Ryuenji, Jin Magatsu, Genma Todoroki, Megumi Mamakari, Sebastian (Butler) Sadako and Mitsuko (Attendents)
Games Played: Buddyfight, Chess, Capsule Monsters Chess, Duel Monsters.
Ace Card: Center of the World, Mary Sue (Magic World, Buddyfight)
Skills: Dancing, Buddyfighting, modeling, singing, designing, delegating, acting, arts & crafts.
Story Description
Lady Suzuha is the only daughter of the famous Amanosuzu Family, owners of the Amanosuzu Group, a huge conglomerate consisting of many companies across various industries such as gaming, mining, construction, and more. She is a rather elegant and savvy young lady, always able to see an opportunity when she sees one. She is a 7th-grade student at Aibo Academy and a member of the special Buddyfight course for her grade. She also partakes in extracurriculars relating to business, charity, and the arts, including having her own arts and crafts club that Mokuba is a member of even before he joined her at Aibo Academy in his high school years.
The game of Buddyfight was her own buisness venture. Everything related to it is handled by her and her assistants of the Amanosuzu Group. However, Lady Suzuha was not the individual who made the game itself, rather saw its potential and decided to take a risk on it, which turned out well in the end.
Being someone of high status and someone of influence in the business and gaming worlds, Lady Suzuha has, of course, powerful connections in those spaces. One of those connections is with the Kaiba Family. She met Mokuba Kaiba at a business event hosted by the previous head of Kaiba Corporation, Gozaboru Kaiba and that connection she later used to try and form a business relationship with the company once Seto Kaiba became president, but became a good friend to Mokuba in her own right (in fact she was his first friend post leaving the orphanage and is the person who has been his friend the longest).
Around the time of Gozaboru Kaiba's death, she fell out of contact with Mokuba for around six months. From her point of view, he was 'grieving' his step-father's death (since she was unaware of just how AWFUL of a person he was) and hence why he sort of 'needed space' after a while. She heard from him again following his brother falling into a coma suddenly, and the two reconnected, even being present when Mokuba made the lockets for himself and his brother.
She and him often participate in arts and crafts and chess together (including Capsule Monsters Chess, of course). She also will play Buddyfight him with as well, and he was even present during some of the early development of the game.
#💎 Sun's Game Of Life (Gao Yu-Gi-Oh! DM Verse)#💎 Wonder's Game Of Life (Tasuku Yu-Gi-Oh! DM Verse)#💎 Heiress's Game Of Life (Suzuha Yu-Gi-Oh! DM Verse)#tw long post#tw mention of death#(OKAY THIS MIGHT BE MY LONGEST VERSE INFO DUMP SINCE MY NOBLES POST BUT#(i PUT A LOT OF THOUGHT INTO THIS AND HOPE ILL GET TO INTERACT WITH MY BABIES WITH MY YGO FAM#(CAUSE ALL THE CARD GAME CROSSOVERS ARE NEEDED#(but yeah i didnt change canon too much comapred to other crossover verses ive done cause it fits pretty good aside from some things#(I filled in or changed for this. just to make it sorta fit in the same world kinda thing
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mutuals i may be on the verge of becoming a gamer...
#not really LOL not like a serious one at least but umm this could be huge#mine#ok i realize i havent made a personal post in a while so let me explain...#for a while now ive been wanting to get a proper pc so i can play games and also do other stuff (<- macbook air owner)#but i was like ill just wait til i move out cause money and moving etc etc and then i was like well maybe ill get one for black friday#and then i was like no i don't have space and i need to be frugal and it'll be easier to move out if i don't have a pc to worry about#but i still want to play games...COUGH bg3. i really wanna play bg3...and minecraft and stardew valley and the yakuza games also#possibly other games too but anyway i was beginning to lose hope and then i saw someone on some thread somewhere mention the steam deck#and i was like oh yeah waht is that thing (i had never considered it before bc i thought it was more of a serious gamer thing but i also#didnt really know what it was at all anyway back on topic) so i goog'd it and it's like exactly what i need?#it's in my budget + small and portable + can run all the games on my list#(it doesn't run bg3 WELL...you have to be a bit careful with the settings and the framerate is a little messy#but i'm willing to accept that honestly it doesn't bother me i just want to play the game i'll lower my standards)#and with winter break coming up i'm like umm. i need something to do....#plus they just came out with the oled version and after doing research#even though i want to be frugal i honestly think the 512gb oled seems like the right choice#so. i might order it tomorrow LMAO
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lgbt lit was funny as hell we spent the first 20 finishing up our fun home discussion and the rest of the time discussing slurs
#also its so funny being who i am because i look like A Vaguely Quiet and Polite Girl Nerd but um. am not all those things.#and. like i cant remember how we got on the topic but my prof mentioned how when we were reading giovannis room he made some comment on#davids body count where he claimed he had only slept with joey prior meeting giovanni and me + one other person were like uh no he didnt#(and acknowledging that he was being a little liar in these moments was integral to my reading/interpretation but i digress)#and i objected with. he was like i was so shocked because you went out right 'when he was sucking dick in an alleyway' and youre a--#then he like straight up referred to me as a 'young lady' LMFAOOO sure. but its like oh hm yeah i can see how that would be unexpected.#then we got onto the topic of tumblr. as we often do as queer 18-20~ somethings. and i mentioned i had one and he was like. ren D:#i know buddy. if the sucking dick comment shocked you you would keel over reading some of the other stuff i post about here.
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HI TUMBLR late footnote posting before i go to bed (i took a nap today........ ate up most of my time)
not a lot to talk about with footnotes today since i was Busy and my brain wasnt working pfndkmlfd i blame seven hours of modded oneblock
#haunted ecosystem#haunted bookshelf#i might make a tag for these footnote posts? i think its a fun way to document what ive written about without sharing All of it#also yes thats a random crack au that i've have in the back of my head for a bit what about it#i dont think its canon in the slightest its just a funny little thing in my head for writing random bs#honestly i might start trying to work on more wtds stuff. this is kind of a perfect excuse#also! i think how i might work this is that if i work on a larger project during the day then i'll just do the daily prompt#since its a good exercise and an excuse to keep some kind of writing streak going#i actually asked one of my partners for a prompt since i was struggling to find an interesting one#ended up with 'last man standing' for spoke... very fitting tbh#i might write a more canon take for that. the concept i wrote down was much more set in an au than anything since i was also thinking#about asomatous zam at the same time so i kind of just incorparated both of them into it with it being paracosm-era#OH did i ever mention that i have a general title plan for the other parts of that kind of. world#its very set in stone that if i do write more it'll be two more parts#metamorphosis (5 part) and paracosm (1 part with multiple scenes. functionally 3 part maybe?)#asomatous goes in the middle of that. i need to kind of plan all of them out better and see how it wants to flow#metamorphosis was started as a concept because i had a few bad things happen bingo prompts i wanted to be used for asomatous#but didnt end up using. so metamorphosis is my excuse for that. paracosm is just a Concept thats been really plaguing me basically since i#originally wrote asomatous... i should probably come up with a temporary series title. i think something about shattering skies?#its a reoccurring theme and symbol throughout all of them....... i just think its neat#ANYWAYS goodnight to you especially if you actually read through all my tags :)
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it was so not the point of mash and would have been jarring tbh but like rn i'm wishing father mulcahy had actually talked about religion in more than just little quips. girl what are your thoughts and what things do you like to focus on. btw
#thinking abiut this rn because i was wondering if theres any particular saints he likes but i think it was kicked off by when i was thinkin#g earlier today about. well i was thinking about heroes again. specifically about the men he grew up around and didnt want to be like and t#he places he looked to for the kind of man he did want to be (reading plato; what he saw of gentleman joe cavanaugh)#and i was thinking about the ways he differed from the other kids (who bullied him) and the kind of kid his dad wanted him to be (to me the#subtext in emphasising how much he used to sit inside reading directly before talking about going to the match with his dad is that his dad#kind of dragged him along and wanted him to be into boxing instead)#and so i was thinking about all that and in listing the plato thing and the boxing match thing. i thought about jesus and how like the chr#istian bible descibes him as gentle and kind and patient and whatnot. and how he fits into that list and like obviously one assumes he is a#role model for mulcahy. lol. but the show doesnt really go there bc thats just not the tone its not what the show is#(not complaining about that it would most likely be done sooo obnoxiously and like its literally not what i want to see on tv)#and then i was wondering about when his religion became really important for him. like given what he seems to feel about his family#and how much he doesnt talk about them. i would assume its a connection he more or less found/established as independent from them#which leads me to think of it as either something he got into later or something which was a refuge for him as a kid.#and like ive thought before about how the things he mentions in heroes Dont have to do with catholicism. and maybe thats just bc it wasn't#part of the story. or maybe its because he just wasnt really looking there for guidance and hope at that point#anyway i dont have answers to any of these questions i was simply turning them over in my head like smooth pebbles in my mouth#me.txt#mashposting#oh i got soo distracted here but ALSO the reason i was thinking about it when i made thsi post is bc i was wondering what stained glass he#likes Lol#for potential use in a joke post i might make
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do u guys wanna listen to nothing but flowers and think abt ihnmaims with me
#read the scene in a field of flowers from the radio play the other night i thought it was interesting..#original nonsense#personal#also last night i had a dream about space odyssey ??????????? someone posted something like oh its the anniversary of this thing#in the book. and i was like whoa i didnt know the book had very specific dates in it..#OH YEAH I WAS THINKING OF SPACE ODYSSEY LAST NIGHT BECAUSE im pretty sure they mention weeki wachee#in the 2nd book and im like HEH 😏 IVE BEEN THERE MANY TIMES 👍#<- it was crystal springs not weeki wachee but they mention underwater mermaid shows as well.
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