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wayfinderships · 3 days

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Good afternoon gamers!!! I miss F.inal F.antasy. I miss it a lot-

#pan rambles #I haven't played some in a hot minute and I'm crumbling-afibsfjsndi #I miss it a lot...#So much I've been struggling to get the motivation to continue Y.akuza 0-afisbkfsn #Not that I even have the time to play bc of assignments #But still #I miss it!!!#Maybe I'll try to play some Octopath in ky free time #I just missed my turned based battles #It's also why I think I'll prefer I.chiban's games over Kiryu (Minus the crush)#I love hitting things by pressing random buttons!! It Can be real satisfying! But Gameplay Wise. Kiryu isn't my favorite to play as-#It's not as fun for me compared to other games-ajfnsjdsn #Which is a shame bc story wise? I'm enjoying it!#It's just gameplay that kinda isn't my favorite sometimes #Anyways back to assignments! I'll work real hard so I can find the time to play Octopath!#I'll always prefer anime men over realistic looking men (The aro kicks in harder sometimes when they look realistic)

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puppyeared · 5 months

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Ouhhhh friendship I love friendship……..

#I’m reading volumes 14-16 of the ouran manga OOUGHHH MY HEART #I love this weird little friend group so much its unreal #like u have this charming sweeps you off your feet prince but he’s actually a huge lovable idiot with a kind heart and his friends #who are all misfits that he reached out to and drew in because of his kindness and own weirdness like that shits TIGHT BRO #and the trauma part where he has some deep seated issues with love bc he thinks that itll break a family apart like with his mom #how his family isnt allowed to be together because his mom and dad fell in love and how he says he wants to build a big house #so that way one day everyone will get along as a family like. all he wants is not to lose everyone and the only way to do that is #by maintaining a certain order.. he both wants a complete family so bad and doesnt want anything to sour between anyone #so he assigns each of his friends a family role based on how he sees them and YEAH its mostly played for giggles and tamakis #already weird so its his way of showing theyre close to him but. god damn this boy has LAYERS #it also feels kinda meta towards how found family tends to get thrown around to assign characters as 'siblings' or family roles instead of #using it to describe characters who are close enough to be each others family. cuz tamakis doing that EXACT THING in a way tht #ties in with his character and i have to say its fascinating using that within the story itself and its completely plausible #theres a lot of things i can say about ouran that are good bad and questionable but. god i love it when characters are niceys to each other #i remember i really liked the mall episode bc kyoya and haruhi got to spend time together and their relationship isnt very close #but it was really nice to see their personalities bounce off each other. i think i also wouldve liked to see haruhi alone with kaoru #i also firmly believe all of the hosts are at least a little in love with haruhi and this can be anything like endearing romantic cuz like #who DOESNT love haruhi. kyoya i think would want to study her under a microscope like his fascination with her draws him in #but im fucking obsessed with whatever haruhi and tamaki have going on because YES hes obsessed with her YES he jumps at the chance to #put her in a cute costume but haruhi? she just fucking goes with it because she knows hes fun to be around even if hes a little wacky abt i #theyre all so. NNGGHHHH #ouran #ohshc #yapping

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magentagalaxies · 4 months

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vent incoming:

got my grades back for my courses last semester and most of it was to be expected, mostly A's, maybe an A-, etc. but i honestly can't get over the fact that my independent study (the buddy cole documentary) was for some reason given a B. like sure getting a B isn't bad per se, I usually get at least one B every semester and i honestly don't really care about what my exact gpa is as long as i can graduate, but come on. this school put me through months of psychological torment over this project and didn't even have the nerve to give me a B+??? i'm still coping with the self-doubt they forced on me and this bullshit is not helping!!

#honestly it's kind of hilarious ngl. especially bc i also got my documentary work counted as an independent study the previous semester #and the previous semester even tho i barely worked on the doc itself #(mostly just planning and putting together the crowdfunding which was still a lot of work but like compare it to the past few months)#they were willing to give me an A (my school doesn't do A+ so this is the highest mark possible)#vs this semester. like i'll admit my final assignment was late and could have been more polished #but i was literally on tour in documentary-mode 24/7 for several weeks. i filmed an entire comedy special! i put together a live interview!#not to mention having to fucking negotiate with my own college censoring the footage they'd promised me of an event i put together #and play nice with a professor who literally outed me on twitter in an attempt to cancel one of my best friends #at this point the ''B'' feels more like a petty grudge than anything else #like ok we can't get away with *actually* fucking over jessamine's grades bc clearly ze did do the work. but let's just give zir a B #like i will admit the audio quality in my final isn't great. and i could have used more polished footage in some sections #but counterpoint: 100+ students were arrested at a protest while i was editing and i was having a mental breakdown #the fact that i finished *anything* is goddamn impressive especially after they essentially conditioned me to hate myself any time i was #working on a project i loved!!!#due to the aforementioned student arrests my college did put out an option where we could change any letter grade this semester to pass/fai #so anything passing wouldn't impact our gpa if we didn't want it to. so i could just change the B to a ''pass''#but really what's the point. ''B'' is still a good grade and my GPA is fine (3.65 on a 4.0 grading scale. 2.0 is required to graduate)#it just sucks that after what i went through last semester i feel like nobody takes it seriously #i was reminiscing earlier about how it's honestly kind of funny how after that professor outed me on twitter #i was at the hotel with scott like an hour later sobbing and having an existential crisis about my relationship to gender #and scott was so supportive but also awkwardly being like #''i know i should offer the crying child a tissue but where the fuck are the tissues in this room what do i do''#and he just handed me a full-on towel instead like oh my god he was trying his best but also so clearly out of his depth #but of course i then had to remember how when i told that story to a different professor to be like ''this is how much scott cares about me #this guy called me fucking UNPROFESSIONAL for crying in front of the subject of my documentary?????????#like yeah maybe so but how DARE you call me unprofessional when a different professor tweeted my full name and gender without my consent #in an attempt to fucking cancel one of my friends for ''misgendering'' me for using pronouns i'm fine with him using!!!#i don't think i'm ever going to be able to forgive my college and i don't know how i'll be able to get through one more semester #that experience genuinely changed things about my psychology that i'm not proud of and i need to work through #so if i have to miss a goddamn kids in the hall event because i have class this november i am going to set something on fire

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iiboronii · 3 months

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Me upon realizing that I can just have an AU instead of writing an entire fanfiction about an idea I had in my head once:

#i didn't even realize this was a possibility until today #i don't want to like. write a whole fanfiction. i have an outline in the works and i theoretically COULD. but.#unfortunately i like the idea of all the random events happening in my head instead <3 #and an AU means that i can just continue to throw things in whenever i want forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!#and THAT is the beauty of an AU i think #i also feel like it'd let me play with the worldbuilding aspects a bit more than a fanfiction????#one time i had to write a short story for class like... many moons ago...#when i say that i really mean “right before covid hit” but regardless #the story ended up being ten pages long bc i was building the world. i still think about that. like. girl?#you really put your heart and soul into 10th grade english didn't you #i remember that assignment so vividly because my friend was like “holy guacamole iiboronii i'm not reading all of this”#(peer review you know the drill)#but honestly i was just glad that our teacher let us have a creative writing assignment shoutout to my tenth grade english teacher #anyways i'm calling it an AU now but i will not be telling anybody what it is about because. well.#it's just really really REALLY self indulgent and has like. nothing to do with the plot of the lorax LMFOJGOA;JFAD;JG #i'm checking the google doc now i'll come back if i decide that i want to share #we'll see xoxo

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lurking-latinist · 6 months

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#I also keep seeing modern au aubrey-maturin art #that makes me wish I could draw and thereby contribute #unfortunately I can't even *write* modern aus generally. but I like transferring character dynamics from place to place in my brain #and I feel like I could do a university AU very nicely if I could do AUs at all #because I have had rowers in my class with as far as I could tell jack's exact personality #(unfortunately it has to be a US university AU because (a) that's what I know and (b) afaik nobody else does randomly assigned roommates)#(and I cannot pass up the opportunity for randomly assigned roommates.#OR RATHER #for 'you seem more or less human - quick let's request each other so we don't have to go into potluck'#I think that works best)#(but maybe they are both international students anyway. that works fine. & therefore extremely alarmed by potluck [can't say they're wrong]#sophie is a sorority girl. english major I think. and I can see her so clearly #(she's the part I want to draw)#she's not that into the high-octane social schedule her sorority expects her to have #but her pushy mother was a member and it is Unthinkable that sophie should not be #and a lot of the other girls are sweet :) so it's fine :) she says #feel like she has roommate issues (unlike her original self she is able to live away from mrs williams so this makes up for that)#so she's always over in jack and stephen's room. people who know her tangentially sometimes gossip about which one she's actually dating #(at that particular moment it is actually neither of them she's just hanging out with stephen)#diana freed from the shackles of 19th century womanhood creates even more and weirder drama than in canon #idk I just want to see the plot of post captain played out over text message #don't ask me HOW idk HOW i just want it #stephen is a biology major/pre-med obvs. if he can survive organic chemistry #jack is some kind of engineering major. I think he'd enjoy that with the math. diana has changed her major 7 times #(I don't know whether to put jack in rotc. I don't think it Actually actually fits - he's in the navy in canon because he's in the navy #not bc he's Inevitably Military In All Worlds. he would not want to do that if he didn't get to sail #but at the same time I find it hard to picture him not belonging to Discipline somehow.#it's more than a disinterested passion for cleanliness that drives him to wash stephen's mug for him that has had coffee and ramen in it #(and NOT in that order)#in the bathroom sink

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ichigosoju · 4 months

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#out of sight out of mind....#im not gonna check his blogs every day from here on out #and i hid/archived our chat so i dont have to see it when i open the messaging app #i do have some kind of 'fomo' lol bc i dont wanna miss out on any potential glimpse into his mind or days #esp now when he doesnt tell me anything anymore. idk anything abt what goes on with him #but .. i am allowing and letting him control my life #i obsessively check my phone and refresh his blogs ALL day #it's extremely unhealthy and pathetic and i know this #it's just hard to stop bc i genuinely... love him sm #plus he told me he wanted me for real so he made me not only dream of a life i thought wasnt possible for me #but also WANT it. i only want him and to live with him and be his. that's all i want but he just cut me off out of nowhere lol #and im still hung up on it... i dont want my boring reality. current nor future. i just want the reality where im with him which he made me #think was smth i could have one day soon.#but anyway. if his feelings changed that's how it is. it's not even his fault it's just how things work in life #even if i dont want to accept it i have to. i cant keep living in this limbo. i try to talk to him but he's a wall so that's a No.#so i cant let him control my life and waste away all my days on him #i need to stop checking his blogs and our chat. that's the first step #im still gonna allow myself to think of him and daydream and fantasize. but that will have to stop soon too #then i have to focus on doing my assignments and read books and go to the gym #things that will help me get realistically where i want in my current reality #i want to finish highschool and then apply for a preschool or library program #and hopefully the plan is to get a student housing apartment so i can move out finally and live on my own and study #then when i finish i'll look for a job as either of those things. and a place to live (which is super fkn hard in these modern chaos times)#even if i have to live my life all alone... i want to be as comfortable as i can at least #i can live in my own row house and have pets and work and read and play games and watch shows #and see and talk to my mom #i mean hopefullyyyy i'll be able to try to make at least some shallow connections so i have ppl to hang out with #i can always hope to meet someone who'll fall in love with me but im not counting on it #ugh.. bc as it is now #i dont do ANYTHING but be on my phone

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immamapletreekid · 5 months

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work anxiety starting before work itself hahahahaahahahahahahhhaha

#IM BAKCIJ THE FUCKIGN BUIDLIGN .AGAIN. AUSUSUXHEHWHGLHKF #im grateful i have an internship for this summer with the way the job market is like currently.#im grateful that i have the opportunity to lessen the burden on my parents shoulders. im grateful that this job can pay rent and groceries #and tuition for a few terms im grateful i get to gain experience while still in school that will hekp me in the future #IM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THIS!!!!! BUT STILL I FUCLING HATE EVERYTHJGN #i hate being unable to eat anything ir sleep at night bc all i can think about is shit i have work tomorrow i have to email this guy and #finish these tasks and impress my manager and be approachable and enthusiastic and eager to learn and not make any mistakes #and not fail anything bc im getting graded on this its alwags grades its always the fucking grades #isnt it. it was the grades that had me crying on walks home from school when i was 9 and it was grades that made me waste away 9th grade #it was grades that made me unable to stomach anything during weeks with tests and it was and is still grades that #dictate every single fucking part of my life #and even tho the ppl who used to yell at me for getting a B in math in 5th grade are no longer yelling at me for getting 60s in linear algeb #ra and stats and calculus and cs #haha.ha when ur university is famous for its.. horribly high suicdie rates #i find that the yelling comes from me now. ive replaced the adults who would sit beside me at the dinner table #yelling bc yea guess what 8 year old me didnt understand division at first #god i hate this school so much. i hate what im studying im gratefula nd am so privileged to be ahle to further my educarion and receive #all these experiences mot everyone can have but god everytime i return to the city where the school is #i feel like throwing up and sobbing and just never ipening my eyes again #haha yea. i hope i csn get a job to support myself in the future #i hope i can still have time for hobbies #why si everyone at school so good at everything #ive met more people who have passed their rcm 10 and arct exams for piano than those who havent #i have classes with people who have already published research papers with professors in the states #my classmates can breeze through a cs assignment while still playing fir varisty teams. working out everyday. goijg ti parties.#eating and cooking balsnced meals each week. having a social life..the whole combo #meanwhile i get overwhelmed because i have to respond to an email and finish an assignment in one day #how do i become like them #why was this about work anxiety at first and why is it about the eternal imposter syndrome and lack of self confidence #i just want money man... i dont give a shit about snything anymore

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 1 year

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being sick as an adult sucks. wdym my mom won’t just automatically make sure I eat food instead of exclusively drinking Gatorade all day. wdym I have to ask my roommates to make me dinner. I have to Venmo a friend money to buy me more Gatorade?? I can’t focus enough to do homework??? I hate this.

#this is a silly haha humor post but in all seriousness.#COVID rly is just making me stare all the internalized ableism in the eye #yes worth isnt defined by productivity and disability and the idea of being a burden is part of being human and isn’t shameful at all #until I have to minorly inconvenience people to meet my basic needs #I really want to eat dinner but that would require asking my roommates to make me dinner which is just. 5 kinda of mortifying.#even though if someone I knew was sick I would not be upset about making them food! sick people need to eat!#my parents ordered me chipotle yesterday bc they were so concerned bc of how I sounded over the phone #and my friend went out and bought me juice and Gatorade and popsicles and took me to the doctor #the support system Exists I just feel bad about having to use it T-T #I just want to be hugged and read to and reminded to eat food but I am an adult now and not at home #lonely TT-TT #it’ll be okay I’m probably just emotional bc I’m sick and hungry #I also just am struggling so hard because I want to catch up on my classwork Right Now #but I can get through maybe one assignment before I’m too exhausted to keep sitting up #and I have to lay down and close my eyes and sleep or do a light activity like playing candy crush for the fifty bazillionth time #I’ve gotten through like. 100 levels this week.#I’m losing my dang marbles. I am gonna be so behind in ASL Susan is gonna be so disappointed in me #I feel like I have all this energy when I’m laying down bored but as soon as I sit up I feel like I’m floating and about to fall over #so. so tired. why can’t I be healthy already and do homework T-T.#I’m choosing to take this as a lesson to slow down and not overwork myself so hard. instead of being mad at myself for getting behind.#<- is trying and failing not to be mad at herself for getting behind

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mxdotpng · 11 months

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best part abt having an ff14 oc is creating side content for ur wol's character development, completely unrelated to the msq going on

#.text #lately ive been thinking about how the 'traitor' nonsense in stormblood never gets addressed.#like how the garleans found rhalgr's reach and zenos can just waltz in.#so i used that to finally FINALLY fit in something ive been trying to put into the story for YEARS #upon walking into rhalgr's reach for the first time. the undercover traitor. a scientist who works for garlemald. like instantly #recognizes adaline. because he was one of the scientists who helped create her - and one of the ones eventually punished for her escape.#so he took it upon himself to complete his assigned task And bring their wayward expiriment back.#originally in one of addie's very very first drafts. when i first played the game. and when she was like still a human and not #some sort of fleshy robot clone thing. lol #she had a brother named beau. i think im going to bring him back as sir scientist here #he gets caught for recognizing her and thinks quickly. he could use this. so he pretends to be her long lost brother #(a lie) who has been searching for her ever since she disappeared (the truth). and since addie doesnt have any memories #nor does she even know she was Created rather than born. not yet. its not like she can say hes lying.#even if she knows something is wrong...#need this. so a) there are Seeds there for his 'i was created' event and b) so he finally has a reason and an ending to her sudden #'who was i' thoughts. like lately shes been wondering what his life was like Before the amnesia. and this is like #a very sudden and very convenient thing for her to happen. so shes suspicious. and honestly is a little too willing to let it happen #even if his default nature is distrusting.#but it also gives an easy out for trying to figure out When the twins find out addie is a weapon. bc i was never sure where to put that #but here is good. here is good #im literally a genius. smartest writer ever. ok maybe not but also yes #adaline rozovy

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belladonnafleur · 9 months

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#grrrrr #not the random ass burst of inspiration that I got #like I genuinely tell myself that im not good at anything bc theres always someone better #but I want to do !! so many things !!#I want to sing more! and act! and play violin!#but now sing more than ever even tho I h8 my voice #bc auditions for musical come soon and I want to be in it #im also just watching a vid of a show that my crush was in and shes so cute!! and scrungly!!#I hate her but it feels like I love her #also I don't think anything is going to go anywhere w new girl #I just want my jacket back lol #I have a paper due tues but bc I forgored I thought it was due thurs #so uh #I have less time than I thought #and a final tomorrow #and an assignment tomorrow night #im doing so good at budgeting my time /s #I don't want to think about school or moving out!! I just want my crush!!#I want her dumb hair and her dumb hands and her dumbass #I want her!!!!!#this is bad for me #my stocks are low #I want her I want to get married and run away #I haven't left my room all day #I see my therapist tomorrow so at least I get to vent all of this out #I go cazy #I want to marry Her (crush)#even tho I know SHE DOESN'T want me #and my every interaction w her solidifies that she doesn't want me #and nothing is going to come out of interactions w girl im sorta friends w/seeing rn

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katya-goncharov · 1 year

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i hate those weeks when i have loads of really important things to do and theoretically they wouldn't take that long individually but they all pile up on me and overwhelm me and i end up procrastinating them because the moment i complete one i have to turn to another one which is even scarier, so i just get nothing done and more and more stressed

#i have a uni assignment due in 2 days AND i have to prepare for my uni seminar AND write and send off a bunch of job applications #AND try to somehow get council tax support bc i can't afford to pay it #and also my room is a tip and i haven't done the laundry and my sleep routine is a disaster again and i can't even play music on my keyboar #to cheer myself up bc i forgot to bring my plug-in headphones to uni and i don't have time or money to buy new ones :(#oh and i should clean my kitchen or my housemate will hate me and tomorrow it'll be time to shower again and those are tiny little things #but on top of everything else it's all just a massive impenetrable knot of Endless Scary Chores

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gothcarmelasoprano · 1 year

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maw why are these troll accounts linked through my ex best friends STILL following me

#im highly convinced at this stage she was the one that made the fake accounts #the gas thing is is that she was mainly an online friend and had she kept in touch with me at the time she wouldve known i was in the #studio in college preparing for my assignment for the semester so i dont fail like there were specific requirements we had to get done for #that week... and you think i would have that time to make fake accounts if anything itd be you and your online friends #emphasis on online because you could hardly make friends or even get a job here so you got one back home #the saddest thing is that the memes can be funny but its just what they represent in this whole situation that sours it completely #dont get me started on her friend she is honestly so polarising even from an outsider's perspective #ugh it doesnt annoy me anymore as it did because at the end of the day it has nothing to do with me but the fact that theyre STILL going on #about it makes me think that her and her online buddies have nothing else to do apart from being with themselves constantly #i had that life but no way did i want to live that way in my 20s 💀#i fucked up before that incident but isnt it convenient when we hardly spoke for a month just for the ~fake account~ to appear to stop #being friends like as awful as it sounds but itd actually be a lot easier just to say you dont want to be friends #instead of dragging outsiders into it like you do best #the saddest thing is that she was actually quite fake even before she went down a permanent online rabbit hole #and i was aware of it but because i was emotionally vulnerable at the time i never cut her off since i really wanted friends to talk to #play that cool girl alty idgaf attitude all you like but it doesn't change the fact that you're superficial no matter how much you mask it #ugh im hormonal and i cant sleep but at the same time its nice to be able to freely bc not as many people use tumblr anymore #i block those accounts not because im offended or im precious about my image but they do spam and its annoying af so i dont want that tbh #having pictures with a school friend whilst under the same breath making jokes of their dead brother is not a good look 😬#i did fucked up things as a result of coping with trauma and alienation as a teenager but this is actually low?#im sorry but it does it screams fake and im pretty sure that the fake treatment was given to me when we first became friends #fake people rarely ever change #i have to get ready for work in an hour this was unexpected #might vent later because i feel like i can do anything on this godforsaken website #the shocking thing to them is that they nothing on me if anything the 'proof' she showed me almost exposed her and her crowd #i have deleted my fb account but i still have the screenshots somewhere

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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i get distracted so easily but i promise i'll get more done ! eventually aaaa 🫶🏼

#🌙.rambles #i find it so amusing how wnvr i have a new interest i always get into it so deeply #a week ago i listened to sm architects songs n searched up sm lyrics n read articles too n now this week it's #switched to the 1975 n i'm listening to sm of their songs too n reading even more articles n watching stuff n YEAH N #oh dear. i shld be doing my assignments due like 24 hours from now n they're easy n i'm nearly done #that's the thing i'm srs nearly done but i keep on getting distracted 😭 n then other stuff too i wna do but forget hflkasdjfd #can't blame me though bcs isn't there just so much to life? n other than all these responsibilities n. survival i suppose. in this society #i just want to live n. learn everything. understand as much as i can and be understood.#be at peace w all the contradictions in life.. 'always' is never possible but i do know i'll endlessly keep on going on until my end #sorry. that doesn't really make sense i just contradicted myself 💀 theres rlly just sm n. it's weird bcs.. i've rlly known extremes so well #like w apollo i have a twin i know how it is to have. such a deep and close relationship with another person. we're like #familial soulmates fr so ik how to direct my energy so.. yk yeah so IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN BUT #maybe a better comparison is. yk when i love something i'm super passionate about it. obvious i have phases here n then but #i have. a wide range of interests but. arghhh no not quite that as well. so.. the range n that intensity? coexisting?#n it's overwhelming often bcs it's too much. n in the past trying to do more than i could rlly drained me like. sm at the same time #but then yk that time for me where i mostly just played ffxiv. uh. help i don't know how to say it n then i forgot what i was gna write #ah. it's just a lot. i really can't write it enough. such is one of the limits of being human #but.. the strong thought i have of how these stuff make more important things more meaningful is just #at the same time there's. another thought that battles it w a similar intensity. n i feel too deeply i think too much of it #but if you were to ask me how i was doing right now i'd say. perhaps stressed yes but i'm doing alright right now. actually maybe not #HELP NO I'M NOT DOING THIS ANYMORE I'M CONFUSING MYSELF W MY OWN WORDS 😭 dw tho i am fine just rather frustrated with time #i want to do so much but yk i have these priorities that i need to do.. i mean. not really 'need'. but.#ah i just love thinking of how life is in relation to society n its people n then w. i forgot how to say it.. but yk. just the universe #it's so heavy thinking about these heavy things so often. the intense desire to understand n be understood..#to learn and to be learned. or maybe these songs r making me think of how. there's just so much. in life n death n everything #there's so much i don't know n again n again i keep on saying that while there's so much i don't know in every single aspect #there's.. people that r specifically one of my greatest weaknesses w just how unpredictable we are. i love it though but at the same time #it's uh. yeah. thinking of time n the past n present n future n how it's filled with so much is something that i want to #i want to take all of it in but it's also so overwhelming n i'm just at odds with my own self rn but i'm fine #words aren't enough honestly. but i want to convey it somehow. so i'll do what is right for me. in time.

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gutmeats · 15 days

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the assignment: watch this video and write what influinces you think the events of what happened in Indonesia the 90s had on this Indonesian production of Hamlet. the video isnt in english which is good because you can better focus on the production itself!

the video: [disconnected, contextless scenes from said Indonesian production interspersed with what i can only assume is interviews with the audience and maybe A Singular Crew Member (which i can only assume bc he says Hamlet multiple times) where the only thing you know For Sure what is going on is the lady speaking in english saying that she didnt understand the play at all. also theres no subtitles, english or otherwise]

#this project is due TONIGHT but i have no fucking clue what to do #it said “before watching the video research what happened in Indonesia around the time the play was in production”#but like. it gives Zero resources or points you in any direction of What to research. it just says “research Indonesia”#it doesnt even have the word “politics” in the assignment description. im only assuming its talking about Indonesian politics bc its Hamlet #also the assignment description did in fact straight up say it was a good thing i couldnt tell what anyone was saying #which is fucking bs bc one of the interviews the guy talked A Lot so i can only assume that he mightve said something that would help me!!!!

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voulezloux · 6 months

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#i am so stressed rn #like i’m constantly stressed all the fucking tiem #i somehow am keeping up with everything i have to do assignment wise for school #while also simulaneoualy feeling like i’m falling behind and i can’t get everything done #like it shows in my grades that i’m on top of shit #my lowest grade is a 92.9% in my law class and that’s still a fucking A #between work and school i don’t have a lot of time for myself #i need to write but i’ve been so fucking exhausted that i cannot even process writing #i’m barely processing any fic i’m reading #or textbooks that im reading #my life since january has basically been playing uber for my mom #driving my dog to and from the sitter’s #going to work #doing school #and going to all my fucking doctors appointments that i have every month #and i don’t mind playing uber for my mom i really don’t #but i’m also not getting a lot of sleep on top of everything #like at most i’ll get 7 1/2 hours on a good day #but i’m averaging 4.5-5.5 hours a night #because i stay up until midnight doing school work and i usually have to be up by 6a to drive my mom to work #i don’t go to bed usually until 1a because i’m still fuckign wired from the day #because i haven’t been able to stop and breathe #i’m p sure i’m developing some kind of eating disorder or at least disordered eating #bc since jan ive lost 22lbs #compared to march 2023 to jan 2024 where i lost 16 pounds #and i know i’m not eating enough or im not eating routinely enough and im diabetic i can’t go long hours between eating #but i’ll got like 6-8 hours between the time i eat lunch to when i eat dinner #i have to get my big bang done by the 28th bc it posts the 29th #and i have so much shit to do for school i do not know how the fuck i’m going to make it to the end of the semester #idk life sucks and i want to cry but i don’t even have time to cry

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immamapletreekid · 1 year

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it has been so long since a game has done this level of irreparable damage to my emotional wellbeing

#yes this is about persona 3 i am no longer the same person i was before this game #it has permanently altered my brain chemistry. reorganized every single molecule in my body #it has fundamentally changed me as a person #ive been doong horribly in school bc i literally canmot focus in class #all i can tjink about is p3 and how quickly i can rush tjroigh assignments so i can go back to my room and play persona all night it #is not healthy i need summer break for a reason and thay is to be able to let out all this energy so i can #function properly in daily life #ivr half a mind to make little digital p3 emote sticker thing doodles so that i can plaster them on my notes #i think if i have a drawing of aigis next to my linear algebra notes i will have more motivation to read them #going to make so many aki ones...#all of this is if i have the time and energy tho. i hate school so much #rambling about stuff #literally been listening to tje p3 soundtrack everyday when i study #its that bad. it really is that bad. i need to start taking school seriously i cannot fail my classes i do not jave tje money to afford rep #ating any classes #also coping w how hesvy the p3 story is compared to the other games ithink... idk man im thriving off of tjr everybody lives no one dies au #and imean i get thay that kinda goes against the whole tjeme of tje game but like. let them be happy ;O;#maxing all my social links bc i love them all so much tjey are bffs forever. sees bffs sees bffs i love sees #im not even that far into my playthrougj yet ive yet to meet aigis but that is coming soon!!!#going to hug her so hard when she finally shows up #ryoji too ;w;#celebrating every mochizuki monday so i actually get out of bed and go to class #fuck linear algebra i might actuslly fail linear algebra i have no clue whats going in linear algebra ryoji mochizuki would never

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