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Ahhh yes, let your child hold the snake before you determine its identity
#itâs a non-venomous scarlet snake btw#but if you canât positively ID it you canât pick it up#snakes#animals#wildlife
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hi guys i once again am coping with a good ol vox chatbox like its a beer in my hand or a cig between my lips
#id be dead without it ngl ngl#actually plural#endo safe#endo system#endo friendly#endogenic safe#plural#plural community#endogenic system#pluralgang#plural system#plurality#plural things#pluralblr#plural positivity#pluralpunk#the future is plural#pro endo#endogenic#endogenic friendly#pro endogenic#endo#f/o community#romantic f/o#f/o stuff#self ship#yume community#yumeship#non sharing yume
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its so fucked up you have to talk about your feelings in order for them to be known
#personal#postatoes#im not going to say how many people ive been friends with that i had crushes on that lasted several years but it is a non zero number#and as much as id like to believe im incredibly obvious. i dont think i would ever know if the positions were reversed#and its one thing for the people i currently got feelings for but then its like. ah. ive known this person for ages#at one point i imagined us going on fantasy adventures and maybe holding hands#and i think i may just have to take that to the grave#(i say that like i have any intention of ever bringing up any feelings to anyone ever)#(if someone wants to know theyll have to hunt me down. or ask directly ig)
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HAPPY GWYNRIEL WEEKS!!! i love each and every one of you, you all constantly make my days better and i can never thank you enough for it. can't wait to see all the fun things everyone has planned!! <3
#i promise ill try to do something#also im going to focus more on gwynriel and positive things and try not to be as snarky throughout this event!#i might fail here and thsre and i do want to still engage with the people who take the time to send me asks#just saying it might take me a biiiit longer to get to your ask if its about e/riel during this#anyway id apologize to my non gwynriel followers/mutuals but... im not sorry lol i love gwynriel this is my favorite event ok#tp
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"Transintersex" people will never be intersex â€
If you are intersex, you are infinitely cooler and more amazing than "transintersex" intersexists will ever be. You are awesome if you kick transintersex people out of intersex communities, because they do not belong there and you have every right to hate them and feel uncomfortable around them.
Being intersex is beautiful and amazing, and intersexness does not only have one look or defining trait. If you have atypical genitalia, you are intersex. If you have atypical chromosomes, you are intersex. If you have atypical secondary sex characteristics, you are intersex. If you produce the "wrong" sex-related hormones, you are intersex. If you're something I didn't mention but fall under "atypical sex", you are still intersex.
Radqueers pushing the narrative of "intersex is only being both sexes" can never change that â€
#anti radqueer positivity#anti radqueer#former radqueer#anti transid#anti transx#anti transage#anti trace#anti transabled#anti transautistic#ex radqueer#if you are 'transintersex' PLEASE use a non-intersexist label instead#you can id as altersex or salmacian or agenital or aldernic or literally any other label#calling yourself 'transintersex' presents being intersex as one specific thing when its a huge spectrum
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scratch that about getting a job, i rescinded my acceptance of the job offer because it wasnât enough hours. now two days later i just secured an interview with something relevant to my field, is full time, and pays $10 more an hour
#it was kind of funny because my bf drove me to the walmart to meet with the dude who offered me the job#and we were sitting in the parking lot talking about the job and he asked if i even wanted the job or if i was taking it to just earn#enough to pay rent. and when i told him i didnât want the job at all and it was just for the tiny amount of money id be getting he#immediately put the car in reverse#he said itâs not worth it to him at all if iâm unhappy. i love this man#anyways im SUPER excited about this interview though#i canât see on indeed exactly what company the position is for because itâs through a recruiting agency#but based on the job itâs one of two offices for medical practices#so itâs perfect if i either want to keep pursuing finance or do something clinical in the future#two birds one stone#non sims
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I gravitate towards jobs and such in which I make decisions, and prefer to live alone which comes with many decisions, and then do creative hobbies that require me to make so many decisions, and I thought "Huh, decisions are hard, what would a nice day without decisions look like?" And then I realized I just meticulously planned out a whole day of no decisions by just making the decisions beforehand.
#im so tired of decisions#rn im pretty new at my job so not too many decisions but still aome stuff i have to do independently#but my last job was so many decisions. i coordinated so much and if i did it wrong evryone hated me#and before that i was a shift lead#and for the last four years at summer camp ive been an area director#and this year i applied for an office position which is even hugher than area director#and im trying to move out of my parents house which comes with so many decisions#why do i keep doing this to myself#i like leadership and independence too fucking much and then im burnt out on it#and i would love just one day in which i didnt have to make any decisions#unfortunately i know myself and i know that someone else would not make the right decisions#so i want to make the decisions beforehand#and then someone else just executes the decisions for me. if that makes sense#like i want to tell someone 'tomorrow we will wake up at 9am and go get coffee. i want aan iced mocha#after that we'll go to target and get a quick lunch at qdoba. one hour after lunch i would like an iced caramel coffee#i would like to drink this coffee while we go on a walk along the lake#then id like to go home and knit for two hours. you may do something in the same space but it has to be quiet and non-distracting#then we will have such a late dinner. pizza unless you are willing to cook one of the three things i am always okay with#then i will peruse my phone until midnight. then i will sleep#i want to lay that all out for someone snd then they facilitate it#like they just know 'okay its 9am get up we're going for coffee.' 'alright its midnight put down your phone for sleeps'#all damn day they just do the decisions for me. even though i already made them so i know they were made right#idk if that makes sense. im just so tired#i was laying in bed before sleeping and decided to plan my perfect day of no decisions#and realized that it was not decision-free because i had just made every decision#did i mention how tired i am
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No.
Not even if you're an endogenic system, and you and your systemmates disagree on preferred ships!
#this can also apply to non-endos! i dont id as endo myself tbh#the specification is there to spite sysmeds lol#pro ship safe#anti anti safe#anti antis please interact#pro shippers please interact#safe for anti antis#pro ship#anti anti#pro ship positivity#ship positivity#enexaswe#endo safe
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Confessing to my new friends that I am dyslexic (a lie) after being outed as disabled by a teacher (i am in no way dyslexic)

Bonus points for the fake ex-boyfriend (Iâm not straight) like this is not healthy in the long run but yk how it is
#on a positive note people donât give a rats ass ab ur ethnicity or religion so thatâs great#hashtag sixthform đ€©#khioniyaâsđ«#SORRY FOR LYING BUT ID LIKE RO BE TREATED WITH SOME DIGNITY LOL#ngl Iâve gotten no shit for my âdyslexiaâ so far and thatâs because I am reading and answering equations etc like a non-dyslexic person and#idk how to explain it but theyâre fine with me alone being dyslexic but thatâs because I donât act dyslexic at all#like theyâre fine with learning disabilities as long as you donât actually have one??#does that make sense when I say it lol#anyway soo miffed at that teacher like maybe donât out students as different without their consent.#or like at all#kinda vent#so#vent#for the blacklist#/lh dw guys
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On the topic of Canada joining eurovision...this is selfish but I don't want it to happen bc it might get insufferable for us sparse canadian eurofans lol
#from all different sides#i never minded my position as a fan from a non participatjng country#i guess tho id have more chances to infodump#eurovision
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God please bring me back as a white cis gay man in California from a stable economic background when I die đđŒ amen đââïž
#xxxxxx#imagine the insane upward mobility id have if i married another white gay man#yes i know even white cis gay men face opression. but id rather have at least some very high#economic and social upward mobility as a cis white gay man#than negative of that as a brown non cis gay person#like i just want to be well educated and finacially net positive to persue all of my#intellectual and artistic pursuits and they actually fucking matter to my life#like in tired of not being handed opportunities just for lack of white maleness
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25.02.2011 âł today's timeline
idk if theres like canon pmmm lore abt it somewhere in an interview madokaheads lmk but i like to think their magical girl forms as being manifestions of their idealised selves while also reflecting certain facets of their psych. which could explain impracticality in battle attire like idk. homuras stiletto heels. sorry i know i knoww its magic its the genre shes a support not dps char their bodies feel less pain re their soul gems etc etc but whenever i watched homuras magical girl training montage i just thought abt how much it must hurt running on those lmao that being said id like to think their magical girl forms Can change like with shifting values or convictions but usually not very noticeably and only with small differences when they do due to their short lifespans. id imagine their forms just becoming dimmer/desaturated maybe with minisculely corrupted design elements like slightly warped motifs/off pattern details before they fall into despair to reflect disillusionment in the ideals and beliefs that manifested them originally. or maybe missing details to show how they dont remember what theyr fighting for. but id imagine them to look just slightly off like theyr barely holding it together before they burst and hatch into witches (itd be very cool to think of rare instances where magical girls hav complete upheavals in their belief systems and narrowly avoid becoming witches to manifest completely different forms instead. still itd just an intermittent form before the inevitable) but in homuras case since shes been a magical girl for around 100 loops i wanted to design a form that could reflect her psych after repeating a decade of adolescent trauma taking aspects of her original manifestation and fracturing, repeating, layering them to the point where it looks like its about to collapse in on itself before crystalising. she has much longer hair to convey how subconsciously she feels like she should be aging. longer sleeves that swallow her hands like clothes she shouldv grown into by now. two bows, the black one of her original length to represent the withered innocence of her wish and the shadow of her despair while its strangled by the bow of her original purple that stubbornly sits on top and stretches past it. added fingerless tactical gloves for her significantly accumulated knowledge in mechanical and explosive weaponry. i wanted to make her outfit giv off more of a witchy vibe too. shrug initially i drew her 1st version with nothing changed from her canon design besides braiding her 2 side bangs and i drew the wider heel on her 10th loop version but i rly wanted to do the diamond heel for her final one and the progression of her heel becoming sharper just made more visual sense if i switched it lol oh also i liked drawing her bangs shadowing so much of her eyes but i thought itd b fun to draw more of her eyes showing to symbolise how she metaphorically can see more clearly now. nothing about her physical non magical girl form changed but i think if homura can use her time magic to heal her eyes she can also use it to idk freeze her hair in a certain position so it doesnt get in the way instead of a haircut ghjfgdfgd anyway its fun for me to imagine her not noticing with how focused she is on saving madoka until one day she sees her reflection and is taken aback at how unrecognisable shes become to herself even while her actual body remains unchanged
#hello homura!#homura akemi#puella magi madoka magica#éæłć°ć„łăŸă©ăâăăźă«#sorry i talk too much. hope this makes sense and isnt just me repeating myself a lot#đ©·#đź
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i wish ppl on this website, and within leftist circles in general, were a little less gung ho about making jokes or statements like "billionaires arent people" "nazis arent people" "police arent people"
there is no level of evil where a human stops being a human. if you decide to kill them for their crimes, then you are killing a human. and sometimes that is justified! oil execs and war profiteers have destroyed countless lives in service of their own sick greed, and given the chance to enact that same violence on them, id probably pop their heads like a pimple.
but it is important that we do not shy away from the reality of that choice. it is a human life that is being ended. a person with interiority, feelings, family.
if we stop considering any group as people, even a group defined by their own evil actions, then we are drawing a line to divide society into persons and non-persons, and stating that those non-persons do not deserve to live.
i hope i dont need to explain why that is a dangerous position to take.
these people and all of their evil, their greed, their hatred, are just as much a part of humanity as art, culture, language, food. they are a part of us that has grown malignant and cancerous, and like a cancer, they must be excised for the sake of the whole--but they are still a part of us, made of the same stuff as us, down to their cores.
evil humans are still humans.
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On The Subject Of Bots: A Former Bot Farm Operator Speaks On The Process (Also spread this video all over this website. I mean it. Spread it. For a whole set of reasons-one of them being antiblackness)
ID [ Close up of a woman in a car wearing a green shirt. She has a dark brown ponytail. She says: 'I'm a a former tech employee that created and sustained a bot farm between 2015 and 2018 in California USA.
Wanna give you guys some information because American bot farm operators are pretty rare. Most bot farms operate oversea. I don't know if there's anyone like me in the US that can tell you this stuff is what I'm saying.
I'm typically way secretive about this but it's gotten so bad I need to talk about it
So what is a bot farm ? Something that an individual or a company purchases. You get a set amount of bots that look like normal people, go out, and spread your message. And here's the work that goes ino that:
I as a operator have to create each individual fake person. I have to create a bio. I have to create a username, a real name, then I have to generate content that has to be supportive of the message the client is paying for.
Positive opinion of the company or the individual. If anyone has ever tried to create content (you know that) that takes time and also that takes ideas; it's not easy.
Finally you need to program these bots based on activity. Bots respond to what you do.
You think that you going around and liking things is invisible. It's not. You're leaving a footprint across the app. That footprint is tracked by people like me. So based on what other people like or comment on, I program my bot to go and search for those people, find them, and then interact with them with my content that supports the message that I created.
This programming also includes research to find the people that are the most susceptible to believing the message that you're selling, and targeting those people. This is just a scratch on the surface of what it takes to program one of these. And people are buying hundreds of them.
Now here's the interesting part. The software to run all these bots is not free. And the time that it takes to create all the things that I just told you about also not free. All of this stuff costs money.
And it represents money when you see it. If you're seeing non stop videos posted with a certain agenda, someone's paying for that. So when you see a dump/ a ton of media that's telling you all the same message, do not say wow what a thing happening right now.
Please instead say wow who's trying to buy my opinion on this topic ?
End of the video ] End of ID
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Vote for those who can't
Some of you who live in the US might not be enthusiastic about voting this year.
Maybe you hate both Trump and Harris. I've heard your reasons, and I'm not here to argue about them.
But if you can't find your own reasons to vote, I urge you to vote on behalf of people who can't vote in this election. What are their needs and interests, and what can your vote do for them?
Young people who are not old enough to vote. They will live in the future longer than you will. What kind of world will we leave to them?
Disabled people who can't get to the polling place in person but live in states where it is difficult to get an absentee ballot. Which party will make it easier for them to vote in future elections?
People who don't already have the form of ID that is required in their state. They would have to pay a fee and send off for a birth certificate, and then get to a government office during business hours to get a suitable ID. Maybe they don't have a car and can't get time off from their two or three jobs (and cash is still tight). Again, who will make it easier for them to vote?
Felons who have completed their sentences but whose voting rights have not been restored. What policies will encourage them to reintegrate into society and avoid re-offending?
Non-citizens who are in the US legally. They don't have the right to vote here, but they pay taxes and our government policies affect them too. What is fairest to them?
In fact, I hope you will care about people who are here illegally. Which party will treat them humanely?
People outside the United States. I'm not going to use the trite phrase "leader of the free world," but the President of the United States is one of the most influential positions on Earth. Who will make things better for everyone, not just for Americans? I've heard your concerns about Israel's war against Gaza; but please be sure to consider the opinions of actual Palestinians, not just online leftists in the US.
See vote.org or vote.gov if you need information about where or how to vote.
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đđđ„đđ đ± đ«đđđđđ« â non!mc. you are a successful aerospace engineer, a girlboss, with terrible luck in romance. let's hope this strangers website brings you out of that rut! đđđ đŹ / đđ° â NSFW topics! swearing/foul language, strangers, slow burn, talks of depression/mental health, guilt tripping, manipulation, tba notes â not proofread. remember to read tags if you do have triggers. i try my best to update tags regarding each chapters, xo. đđĄđđ©đïżœïżœđ« - 5 of many ! previous chapter | next chapter
before we start. i started compiling a playlist for this story if you were interested lol. main song at the top, along with a bunch of music i listened to while writing this aka inspo LOL . music will be added as i go through the story. also THE TEXT MSGS ARE MAAAD RAUNCY BAYBEE LIKE GOOD GAWD.. U N CALEB ARE DOGGS... ;)
caleb gets up and leaves his phone on the couch. he grabs all the dishes and puts them in the sink. as he clangs around the kitchen she stirs from her sleep. she mumbles incoherencies as she fishes for her phone, her fingers gripping his. she turns it on and blinks at it.Â
âwhispr notificationâ she mumbles out, as her eyes squint at it, still needing to readjust her peripherals. she types calebs password with ease and her eyes glue to the notification. she hovers just before clicking it and waiting for the message to arrive.
space baby: youïżœïżœre okay. not mad, just sad. id like to meet you. ive been thinking about you more than i thought and i think id like to see you if youre okay with that
her stomach drops and she stares at the messages, reading up as much as she possibly can before her lip quivers into some sickened jealousy. who is space baby and why is he talking to her? his wink emoji is reserved for me. why is he flirting with this woman he doesnât know? a fire in her eyes ignite as she pathetically scrolls through the conversation, each talk lodging a jealous knife into her chest. Â
as she goes through, shes hit with a chestful of pain. her lips tremble, is it from jealousy? from the fact her best friend couldnât text her how he was feeling, and hes reaching out to someone else? as her feelings arise to the surface, caleb finishes cleaning the dishes, and rubs his neck, and walking over to the other side of the hallway. he rummages through the hallway closet, grabbing a towel, âhey pipsqueak, can i shower?â he calls out to her, and she gives him a loud âmhmâ before returning to sneak through the phone texts.
space baby: so we can ask anything we want since weâre two randoms right? captain apple: yep! no judgement here. space baby: favorite sex position? captain apple: hmm, i think itâd be cowgirl. i like when the woman is in control, missionary tooâ honestly as long as i can watch your face kind of thing. you get what i mean? space baby: no yeah i literally have the same mindset, i have a thing with power. dunno why. captain apple: ive got a thing for power too.Â
she scowls, as this was unbearable to her. seeing this person speaking to caleb in such a dirty way, made her skin stand, her blood boil, her body temperature drop.Â
captain apple: this is really weird, but do you use toys on yourself? iâm a guy obviously, but what do you think of men using toys? space baby: i have toys, but i donât use them as frequent as i want. and yeah honestly, i donât care if men use toys. kinda cute actually. captain apple: cute? haha , space baby your vocab is limited. space baby: hey! it is! wtf lol
she wanted to vomit. caleb was so lewd-- so shameless, and with a random woman no less. this fucked with her as she continues, ignoring her senses
captain apple: do you believe in love? space baby: no i donât. do you? captain apple: i do. maybe i can change your mind ;) space baby: you areâŠ. soâŠso corny.. oh my god captain apple: but you didnât say no! space baby: fuck ok yes lol. canât say no to you, you charming man. captain apple: well, maybe one day i can see your flushed face. space baby: you can maybe see more than that. captain apple: look whoâs corny now! space baby: was it really? captain apple: no⊠that was.. space baby: ;)
that was enough for her. she throws the phone, and it shuffles onto the edge of the couch. she sits up from her seat, her chin on her knees. she contemplated, biting her bottom lip in debate as she waited for caleb to return.Â
as he comes out of the shower he has a towel around his waist, and another towel in his hand rubbing his hair dry. he walks towards the living room where his friend sits balled up, and he goes to touch her head. she scrambles, pulling herself away from caleb.
âwhatâs the matter pips-â â âwho is she?â her voice was low, almost tremblingâ not with fear, but laced with malice, âwhy are you texting her so much?â she reaches for his phone, dangling it in the air in front of him. calebâs mouth goes dry, his face flash with guilt that he couldnât hide fast enough, âitâs notâ sheâs just some random stranger that i met from the app. thatâs all pips.â he attempts, but she shakes her head, âno- not from the conversations that i saw!â caleb stops in his track, a serious invasion of privacy. he tenses, but his demeanor doesnât change, âwhat did you see, pipsqueak?â
she shakes her head again, turning his phone on, âi saw enough! caleb⊠i thought we were closer⊠i thought iâd be your #1.. it seems like someone else has your heart nowâŠ.â she turns away her hurt evident from the things she had read. caleb was dumbfounded, lost, confused. he had never seen her act so possessive of him, and he couldnât understand why. whether she did this on purpose made his heart beat harder than he thought it could.Â
âiâm sorry pipsqueak i-â caleb goes to defend himself, only to be cut off again by his pipsqueak, âyou said we tell each other everything, you said we didnât keep things!â â âi wasnât hiding it..â he really wasn't. the man hadn't seen her in months.
âthen why does this feel like betrayal?!â her eyes were glossed, but not from the tears. there was something wild behind themâ hurt laced with protectiveness? âunadd her. block her, right now, caleb.â she huffs, holding the phone like it burned her, becking him to take it and oblige her.Â
caleb looks at her stunned, heart pounding for reasons he wasnât ready to say, âyou donât get to decide that.â he states dryly, eyes staring to darken as his hands move up to snatch the phone from her hands, âi do when itâs you.â she murmurs, looking off to the side, âbecause youâre mine , youâve always been mine.âÂ
the silence that followed was suffocatingâ filled with everything he wanted to say and everything he could bring himself to. and somewhere between the space of loyalty and something messierâ or rawer, caleb realizes they may be standing on the edge of a line they may not be able to recross one done so.Â
he looks down at her piercing gaze, then back to his phone. he turns it on, putting his password in, and clicking whispr. he looks at it and begins to type, âcaleb.â she pleads. his face snap to hers, and he could see how hurt she looked. at that moment he was faced with a choice.Â
he hits backspace and clicks on the three dots above space babyâs name,Â
âunmatch and unadd?â click.
he slides next to her, and wraps his arm around her as she sobbed quietly. a mix of regret and pain in his eyes. pain that he felt that he had to make such a consequential choice. regret of the unknown. perhaps he lied to himself more than he wanted to? now he will never know who she was, and that was going to sting for a little bit
âim sorry⊠i didnât know that was hurtful to you.. ill never do that again.â he brushes her hair as he leans his body towards her.
days turn into weeks and weeks turn into months. your maverick stunt was a side quest and your main one was getting neglected big time. skyhavens hangar hums quietlyâ save for the random bursts of the jet engines hydraulics or your footsteps. you move through active schematics, and glowing consoles, your sleeves rolled up, and your hair tied back. itâs been hoursâ- no days, since youâve left the hangar. a cold cup of coffee and an inhaler of some sorts occupy your desk.
you adjust the thrust vectoring array on the new farspace fleet prototype. sleek, nimble, build for tunnel speed reactivity. your fingers move quickly and clinically, for distraction purposes.
there was a small hum from the console as a tech officer patches in while you were mid work, âyouâre still here?â you respond without looking up, âthis is where i work, and live apparently.âÂ
there was only a brief silence before the tech talks again, âyouâve run the thermal dispersal model 6 times now.â and without missing a beat, as if you were waiting for him to say something, âwell itâs still not good enough. the tunnels donât forgive errors.âÂ
once again youâre met by silence, assuming the tech unlinked the call, you sigh, before looking up at the model that returned your reflection, âat least you donât vanish without a word.âÂ
caleb had a time after blocking space baby. he continued his regularly scheduled vacation to see her, and they spent more time texting. with her trying to text in the way space baby did, he felt appalled and quite honestly, icky. he didnât have that weird connection that he did with her than he did with space baby, so with her trying to replace space baby it made him feel conflicted. on one hand it made him feel dejected, this kind of conversation is odd to have with someone he knew and no less, was attached to the hip. but on the other hand it makes him feel comfortable, and more domestic.Â
he hadnât seen you lately either. heâd ask about you and heâd hear multiple things in passingÂ
âprobably busy with the new orders she gotâ
âshe went to another country for workâ
âthey said sheâs not in the building right now..âÂ
âsheâs off and no i wonât disclose her whereaboutsâ calebâd even gone to majors himself
when you were the topic there were excuses, and he hates to admit but a part of him started to get even more sad. shifting three different attention into one person made life boring for him. you were suddenly so busy, and space baby no longer existed to him. he even tried to talk to whispr tech support about getting data and rematching and theyâd give him the same answer.
he tried to find space baby again on whispr but by the end of the 2 weeks long process, heâs given up. space baby just didnât exist in the system anymore and he had to come to terms with that. he relished it while it was fleeting. he enjoyed the life space baby gave the conversation, and sometimes took the reins. she didnât do either. she was monotone, and would avert the conversation to her own accord. as much as he enjoyed getting that attention from her once more that he so much wanted weeks ago, he simply understood that life moves on, and part of moving one was meeting new people, or maybe it was to let things die down, and see where life took him.
you were okay for the most part. if you were lying to yourself of course. this whole situation made you feel even more iced out. your barrier got higher, and you worked and worked. you went out with your friends from time to time, but they definitely noticed the difference with you now. it was temporary thoughâ youâd promise. however, you were just really bad with timing as usual. when you were going to take some time off the DAA called you into the office to have you start a highly classified program and you would work with multitudes of people from other departments. youâd be working with the DAA officially from here on outâ or until you finished your project. so much for your planned vacation to another country.Â
you finally finished, everything was going according to plan. you just had to finish the panel with the officials before you could take a temporary break. they knew they were straining you dry for having a one woman army tackle this, but there was nobody capable but you.
the room was stark and high tech, built for strategy and scrutiny. the prototype 3d modelâ sleek and formidable, rotators above the center table, and around the prototype a half circle of farspace fleet officials, commanders, engineers, and senior pilots sit stone faced and attentive.
you stand in front of the projector, a tablet in hand, and your shoulders squared. as they finish their conversations they turn to you, eyes locking with yours. you give them a half smile as you start your presentation.Â
âgood morning, I will be presenting the TG-Xâ the next generation tunnel rated aircraft designed for deep environment responseâ and maneuverability, extended endurance in high-pressure zones, and rapid escape from collapse vectors.âÂ
you gesture and the ships hologram peels apart, revealing itâs system in layers, engines, shielding, navigation grid, etc. you clear your throat as the men and women look into each layers meticulously, âthe TG-X runs on a twin-core propulsion system with independent stabilizer logic. that allows real time response with deepspace turbulenceâ down to .5 second input delay- give or take.âÂ
a fleet commander raises his fingers, his gruff voice ringing through the air, âtwin-core setups overheat. you are risking a meltdown during boost.â your eyes dart to him, ânot with our thermal regulators. each core is cooled by a fluid compression loop embedded in the outer hull strutsâ testing shows how heat dispersion exceeds prior models by 20-30 percent.â you flick your tablet, and the projection changes to a simulation. the TG-X navigating a collapsing tunnel scenario. field littered with debris, volatile currents, wanderers around. the ship dips, rolls, and escapes- cleanly.
the room is silent, the fleets people look amongst each other, clearly intrigued. the senior pilot leans in, her fingers trailing the wings, âand the wing design.. looks a little too light for heavy evasive thrusts, no?â you tilt your head, clicking on the wing, and it opens the list of things it was comprised of, âflexible carbon titanium weave. reinforced at pivot points. itâs light because it has to be. if youâre using brute force in the tunnels well⊠youâre already dead.âÂ
that hangs in the air. a few of the officers glance at each other, before another one piped up, âyou built this for survivability?â â âi build this so the people who fly it might actually come back.â itâs quiet once again. it settles like a weighted blanket. you stare off into the row of power, till you look back down on your tablet, the commander grunts, as if in a approving way, âwe will authorize a full field evaluation. please prepare your men for the next proceeding.âÂ
you nod curtly, and they slowly file out of the room, until it was just you and your creation. you donât tremble. your hands donât shake, even when they lower the lights and shut down the hologram. you stand, surrounded by silence and tech. no applause, and no words. your design held up to the most powerful military government in the world, and they listened. this was your power.Â
it was a cold evening, but you were even colder as you stood there, tight lipped, while your engineers yelled amongst each other. you tap your fingers on the table, as you look around the area of effect. whiteboard full of scribbles, schematics scattered everywhere, parts on the table, and the prototype sits pretty in the middle of everything. it was kinda relaxing, if hell relaxed you.
definitely beats watching reruns and being sad over a stupid captain apple.Â
your thoughts are pried from you as one of the engineers slam their tablet down, âwe canât just run a single coolant loop through the avionics bay! if that line fails we lose guidance control and telemetry! do you not understand how difficult thatâs going to be to deal with?âÂ
âwe have a back up-â
âno we have a band aid. its redundant, and not to mention, wishful thinking!â in the corner like a wrestler another engineer raises his hand, âwhat if we triple the coolant lines. you wanna make it so dense back there no one can service it without disassembling the whole panel?â finally you chuckle against their bickering, âif someone says serviceability iâll kill everyone in here. this is a spacecraft, not a family sedan.â Â
they all halt their bickering, as you continue, âyouâre all right. avionics goes downâ we lose everything. cant overload the architecture of the âcraft. we need an active failover loop. independent routing, isolated power, isolated control logic.âÂ
you see them slump their shoulders in relief as they slink back into their seats, before you continue again, you start to point your fingers as you spoke to them, âyou two rework the trunk layout and confirm thermal thresholds. youâ build me a sim with both loop failures and see how long we can survive. and i- will be on redundancy logic. we need that switchover to be instant. autonomous.â everybody grumbles, before nodding and dispersing for the night.Â
they leave and you sit down, your finger rubbing circles on your temple. you were tired out of your mind. you couldnât sleep though, you had damn near 4 cups of coffee and you were wired out of your mind.Â
you grabbed your jacket as you closed the area down for the day. your heels click clack against the tarmac, and as you round the corner you spot a shadow a ways away, near a jet. your brows raise, as it was turning night, and no pilots that you knew of were supposed to be out doing night routines.Â
you walk towards the shadow. you walking towards the shadow with absolutely no experience with combat, or a gun, you think to yourself, if this was a bad guy you were done for. but at the same time you were a mean track star back in college, so maybe you could outrun this figure.Â
as you think of your possible early death you hear a donk, and followed by a âfuck!â and it snaps you out. it sounded like caleb. âpilot! what the hell are you doing out here this late?â you yell through the howling wind.
calebs body moves to the sound of your voice, and he drops his wrench. âoh shitâ sorry. thought everybody was gone already.â your brows raise as he sits on the metal box, fiddling with the undercarriage. you sit down on the free metallic box and observe him. âi just got out of my meeting. you know there are workers for that right?â caleb chuckles as he moves out from the undercarriage, his smile accompanied with a grease line on his jaw. âits nice to be able to know how your companion works. i prefer to do things hands on.â he grabs the towel and rubs the grease off his face and arms, before tilting his head at you, âyou know, i havenât seen you in a while. howâve you been?âÂ
âiâve been better. exhausted honestly.â you put your hand in your face, groaning, âbut i canât sleep. 4th cup of coffee, and i think i have meetings back to back tomorrow, so i have to plan for that.â caleb nods sitting across from you. he grabs his squeeze bottle, taking a quick drink before he looks at you again, âyouâre good with her. your plane.â he gives you a sheepish grin, before nodding, âi try to be.âÂ
âyouâre not bad with people either.â you state, and his eyes linger on yours for a second longer, lips curving a bit. âiâve got a good one in front of me right now. kind of hard to mess that up.â the words hang there, soft and honest. for a second your tired pacing mind stills. no simulations, no systems failing, no heat signatures or safety thresholds⊠justâ him. caleb.Â
and it feels nice.
..
..
âdo you want to take a nap with me?â your eyes widen, what does that mean? âhuh?â you reply dumbfoundedly, and he chuckles, âi mean i woke up from a nap, so i wonât be going to bed anytime soon. if you wanted i could wake you up so you could make it to your meeting on time?âÂ
you couldnât help but feel warm from that statement. that was justâ lovely. youâd be a fool to sayâ âno.â you mumbled softly, and caleb laughs awkwardly, âwell, i figured iâd offer you.â you rise from the metallic box, and place your hand on his shoulder, âi appreciate your offer, caleb. but i think iâll manage.â you go to ruffle his hair, and he grips your wrist gently. the two of you stare into each others eyes briefly before you let go so abruptly. you clear your throat, nodding at him, âgood night caleb.âÂ
âgood nightâ he says quietly as he watched you walk off into the building.
a couple weeks go by, your run ins with caleb became more prevalent. youâd be walking around the corner and crash into him. youâd see him walk into the lounge with his friends and theyâd take turns ogling you like a piece of meat. you were fine with it, carnal desire was human. but the moment catcalling started hands would be thrown. but they knew better than that. theyâd definitely get court martialed for less.Â
he would try to get you involved in the stupid escapades the pilots and cadets were doing, only for it to fail miserably as you glare daggers and walked off, but heâd always catch that smile on your face as you rounded the corner. so to him it was worth the trouble.
youâd lock eyes with him as he got ready for flight, the hands on shoulders become more frequent, and your relationship with him gradually rises. the lingering stare became more of a thing when heâd pick up your food for you when you ordered something. he knew where your office was, and heâd make the trek across the runways just to bring it to you if needed. you'd stare at him, maybe share a meal if he had time. talk about your shared interest. shared interested that you may have already known from whispr.
you were a bit intrigued with his sudden pamper to you. you thought it would be because of the moment you two shared the other night, but you also figured that caleb was just a kind guy. a kind guy that was interested in you. not that you were against thatâ you were clearly interested in him as well.Â
knock knockÂ
âcome inâ you say monotonously through the tempered glass. your eyes move to see who had come in, and it was caleb. he had a cup of coffee from the shop you had talked about, and your face turned to glee.
âi got you a brown shaken espresso. itâs new.â you thanked him and grabbed the cup, the hot content warming your cold fingers. oh yes, the richest government property in the country and their AC/heater was fucked.Â
âthank you so much. how much do i owe you?â he shakes his head as he sits across your desk, âits nothing. honestly.â caleb chuckled, and you stare at him as your computer popped up an email. you read it as it comes in. it simply read;
âmaverick is captain calebs. love dad.â you state to caleb. his eyes widen as he smiles in glee, âoh really? you sure you didnât mess with the results?â you chuckle, shaking your head as you sipped the drink, âcourse not. but im not surprised. you performed exceptionally well compared to others. you blew them out of the water.â you chuckle at him as the two of you converse about what the next plan of topic was for the maverick. they would be swapping his current plane with the maverick, and theyâd have his name on the side and everything.Â
âcaleb, what are you doing for the holidays?âÂ
he stills, and for a moment he looked like he was thinking. he did promise he was going to see his pipsqueak, but ever since the events that had happened when he last went, he was a bit drawn back. but he also promised her, and heâs never broke a promise to her.
âiâm probably going to go see pipsqueak..â â âis that like your pet?â â ân-no thatâs my best friend in linkon..â-- âyour best friends name is pipsqueak? like the radio nav?â he looked flustered, ây-yeah.. that..but no-- thats not her actual nameâÂ
âwell thatâs cute.â you lie, your deadpan voice giving it away, he chuckles lowly, and puts his cup down, âwhat about you? anyone special youâre spending time with during the holidays?â you place your palm on your jaw, and lean your elbow into the desk, a smirk flashing in your eyes, âoh, are you offering?â his face tints pinkâ and his ears! you giggle as you saw his face redden, and as embarrassing as it was for him, caleb felt at home. you were so warm, and your laugh was music to his ears. he feels as if he was falling, in a good way.
âi could be..âÂ
âwell, iâll hold you to that.. though, holidays arenât in like another couple weeks.. but i do love to reserve ahead of time. youâve got yourself a deal mr caleb.â you wink, and he smiles, before the intercom calls for âcaptain caleb to hangar 23â. he excuses himself as you nod at him, going back to your work.Â
friday- heâs out with his friends, bar hopping, except he was designated driver. they were let go early due to the fleet having to come in and conduct their meeting. the fewer eyes the better for them as they say. so now his group of friends and him were currently at another bar to celebrate the early off into the weekend.Â
he comes outside of the bar, taking a deep deep breath and closing his eyes. a semblance of peace was all he needed before he went crazy in there. he leans into the brick wall, steadying his breath as he continued to relax.
the neon sign hums, âOPENâ with the E flickering here and there. music and muffled laughter spilling out everytime the door swings open. it was a pilotâs hangoutâ gritty and loud. the kind of place people go to forget the pressure of space and hardness of work.Â
â-- well well, you look exhausted, captain.â his eyes snapshot open, catching your eyes. he straightens a little, turning his body to meet yours. âoh! you caught me off duty. donât tell commandâŠâ he murmurs, and you laugh gently, shaking your head, ârelax, iâm not a snitch. i also donât care what DAAâs finest does on their off time. itâs been a tiring couple months for everybody.âÂ
a short silence settles between you two. not awkward, but not easy. he watched you stare at him, as he takes your outfit in. you wore it simple today. rings, earrings, v cut short sleeve, with high waisted pants, and white sneakers. when he noticed his prolonged stare he breaks contact, shifting his gaze through the window to watch his friends holler into a mic. he turns back to you, his eyes twinkling as it clashed with the neon colors, âwhatâre you doing here such a dingy area?â you join him, leaning on the brick wall yourself, and you shrug, âi love the bar food here. you?â â âiâm the guys designated driver for the night. not a big alcohol guy.âÂ
your eyes move to look at him, your impending curiosity beating harder. you wanted to know so bad. âresponsible. how sweet. what do you do to relax and give yourself time?â you smiled at him, as the two of you watch the cars drive by. caleb hums a small chuckle, âwell, i like watching planes take off.. i used to do it a lot when i was youngerâ with my best friend. i also read a lot of books on my free time. iâm a fan of dinosaurs and jurassic park, if youâve heard?âÂ
you shake your head, âno i definitely have not, but it sounds cool. are you doing anything this weekend?â you go to reach your phone, and caleb shakes his head, ânope. how did your date with gideon go? he didnât want to tell me.âÂ
you freeze up, and purse your lips, looking off to the side, looking a bit guilty. âi couldnât do it. my mind was just preoccupied, and i donât really date.â you lie, as you bump phones with caleb. he just gives you a nod and a âahâ before you smile up at him again, âi apologize, but iâve gotta get going. i bought pizza for tonight, and itâs ready for me. i hope to hear from you soon?â you tilt your head at him as you start for the door. caleb could only give you a nod.
you are home. tired, damn near defeated, but home. you place your pizza in the oven and set it to warm as you head to your room to change into something comfortable. you throw on your robe and your satin loungewear. you got a couple of drinks on the way home after your run in with caleb, and decided to settle down and catch up on island love.Â
the pizza was sweltering, cheese ready to stretch as you pull a piece apart. it was like a cartoon pizza. it made your mouth water as you got yourself ready to pull an all nighter.
not 1 hour in you get a call. it was from caleb. you fumble your phone and hit answer as you lower the volume of the tv show, âhello?â he goes first, and you clear your throat, smiling through your words, âdidnât expect to hear from you so soon, caleb.â you could hear his laugh, his tone low and warm, âi just wanted to check and make sure you made it home..â it was a lie, and you both knew it, âyou know⊠your delivery sucksâŠâ you chuckle, and he does too after a second, âhm you know iâm kinda working on it.âÂ
there was a brief silence, before you ask the obvious, âwhy are you calling me this late?â another silence, followed by , âjust dropped everybody off, and wanted to talk to you.â your heart skips a beat, and you swallow hard, fighting the smile creeping on your face, âhey caleb, do you want to come over? if youâre not tired. do you like chinese food?âÂ
âiâd be happy to. text me your address, and yes i do.â
âgreat. iâll have majors pick you up.âÂ
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caleb was lost for words. he was in the back of a sleek and kept car. assuming yours, with majors driving and on calebs lap, was a bag of chinese food that majors had picked up on his way to pick caleb up. you certainly had a lifestyle he was not known to.Â
as majors gets out, he opens the door for caleb. he gets out, and he is met with a skyscraper in front of him. it was so very obvious you would have to have some sort of money to live in a place like this. he swore the foyer had real diamonds in there as he ogled.Â
majors leads him to the elevator and they both get in. the silence kills them, as they stand apart, staring at the metallic door.Â
ding! majors steps out first and followed by caleb.Â
âbe careful with her.â caleb looks to majors, who was just walking ahead, not a beat missed, âitâll take a while for you to get used to her ways, but sheâs a good woman.â he states, as he knocks on your apartment door. the sound of your shuffles break the quietness that meditated in the hallway, and shortly after your door opens.Â
majors nods to you before heading out of sight, and you stand here with caleb. your face breaks out into a smile, and you step aside, urging him to come in. caleb comes in, staring in awe at how breathtaking your apartment was. there were faux models of black and white planes suspended on the sides, about the size of his forearms. he looked at the photos of what looked like was your father on maverick when he was still piloting it, grinning under his helmet. another wall was filled with your degrees, framed like trophies, centered around a photo of your graduation. you were certainly distinguished. he even looks at your dinner tableâ a blueprint heaven. tools, notebooks, a half-dissected engine schematic. you never stop working, it seems. âyou ever turn your brain off?â he mumbles just loud enough for you to hear, and he hears your sweet chuckle float over his shoulder before you indulge him, âif i did that then iâd have no money, and you wouldn't have mav.â
on a nearby bookshelf, caleb spots a faded photo in a silver frame. a much younger version of you is perched on your dadâs shoulder, both of you wearing matching aviator sunglasses. theres grease on his flight suit, and juice stains on your overalls. he chuckled, his heart warming at the sight of. he can really tell your love for planes. hell, it might even be more than his.Â
he snaps out of his trance as he joins you on the couch. he looks down at the coffee table, a cute little metallic version of maverick on the middle, along with some magazines and a candle. he watches as you clear it out to the side and pat the table.
âhey. hereâs the take out you wanted.â he says as he places the takeout in front of you both. âi didnât know what you wanted, so i ordered some other stuff.â you say, as you take everything out of the bag, placing them on the coffee table. he stares at you as you take everything out, before turning his attention to the tv in front of you both. âwhat are we watching?â he chuckles, as you take your place next to him.Â
âisland love. itâs juicy, it provides me drama in my life that i do not have.â you say pridefully, as you explain the premise of the show to caleb. he looked so into it, asking you questions as you restart the season just for him. he comments on the show just as much as you do, and this made your heart flutter, and the butterflies in your stomach come alive.Â
âyouâre not gonna eat that last dumpling are you?â caleb asks with a sly grin. your brows raise, âwas gonna save itâŠâ he leans over, splitting the dumpling in half with his chopstick, and drops a piece into your container. he smirks at you, âcompromiseâ he says as he chews on his half.
thereâs a lull. the screen flickers. the two of you are quiet but not uncomfortable. he leans back a little, finishing his drink, and you catch yourself watching him. he looks good here. settled. natural. too natural, maybe. you shake the thought, tucking your feet beneath you. ugh god heâs fine.
you two talkâabout work, about families, about stupid stuff. itâs easy, and warm, and you realize somewhere between the second dumpling and your explanation of why jamie shouldâve never picked chloe that you donât want this night to end.Â
âso hey, question.â you grab the remote and turn the volume down as you look at caleb. he looks at you, grabbing his drink, âgideon told me you use whispr? he told me about your silly challenge.â you laugh briskly, and he nods, joining in, âdid he tell you that i had to take them out for dinner?â he chuckles again, placing his drink on the table. your eyes never leave his, as you open your mouth to speak:
â captain apple, was it?âÂ
his eyes widen.
it takes him back to the time where he got busted by grandma. he was trying to sneak some food up the stairs, and was strictly forbidden to take food in his room. so when he got busted he looked like a deer in headlights.Â
the tension between you and caleb shifts, subtle but unmistakable. you tilt your head, repeating your words to him. his eyes finally lock with yours, his awkward smile catching the gleam of the tv, âdid he⊠uh tell you my silly nickname on there?âÂ
ah, he was playing stupid. you shake your head at him, âha, for sure. i used it a little bit as well.. lets see.. what was my name on thereâ you fake ponder, before you continue to mess with him, "space baby i think?" he just stares at you, âoh..â he breathes.Â
you always wanted to know who was that charmer in those messages that kept you late at night. the man who was always making you laugh and the one who indulged you. knowing it was caleb made your heart a little happier, but you still wanted to know why the fuck?Â
âi can explainâŠâ he starts and you just nod,
âgo ahead because we have all nightâ weekend even.âÂ
his gaze flicker at you, then his hand, âitâs not what you think⊠i⊠when i went to go visit her, my childhood friend? the one i was telling you about that one day., she saw the text messages.â your cheeks flush, those were certainly some raunchy messages. you wondered which one, and a part of you wanted to laugh at her, but you nod at him, âshe didnât like⊠that i was getting too close to you. she suddenly got- possessive? iâve never seen the side of her.â he mutters under his breath and you breathe a sigh through your nostril. 'sounds like somebody had a crush they didn't want to come to terms with', you think as you allow him to continue,
âshe thought⊠well, that we were getting too close.. that i was gettingâŠ. involved..â caleb shifts uncomfortably, his hands clenching into a fist but quickly releasing, âso to appease her i unadded you.âÂ
the words sting more than you expected, even though you werenât really expecting much, it still sucked to hear. unadded. like you were just someone to be removed. the weight of it presses down on you, though you try to smile through itâ albeit a little bittersweet.
âso you let your best friend dictate who you can and canât talk to?â you try to keep the humor in your voice but it comes off a bit cutting to him. that most definitely wasnât your type of man. having this discussion was cutting it close for you as it is âitâs not like thatâŠâ his voice softens with an edge of guilt to it, âi didnât want to but⊠it got complicated..âÂ
your heart flutters out of your chest, and your brows scrunch towards each other, âcaleb, complicated was me rerunning tests 6 times in a row with random ass results. i donât want to be rude but it just sounds like you have no backbone for this girl.â you pinch the bridge of your nose, sighing. he feared that you were right. you were speaking truth to existence and he couldnât do a damn thing. if anything he enjoyed the truthfulness from you. âim going to state the obvious. we were flirting back and fourth, like a lot. what are we supposed to do with this new found information?â
caleb looks up at you as he ponders himself, âto be honest. i was a bit more bold in the text messages because⊠i thought weâd never meet..â you chuckle at him, cheeks tinted in pink, âme too.â but you snap out of it. now was not the time to fall for his sexiness! OR do, either way works.
âim going to level with you. im not much for the three way couple stuff⊠so if you and i are gonna take whispr out of the internet then⊠you know.â you wag your finger at him, a playful but curious smile on your face now. caleb laughs, calming down, âyeah i⊠i know..â you were not going to deal with this little girl who was his best friend, and you were going to make that very and painfully clear if you had to, and from how much caleb figured, you werenât going to play about him. it made his heart flutter, amongst other things. you looked sexy when you were possessive.
âso, what do you want to do?â you ask after a minute of silence, caleb leans into his arm staring down at you, and you steel your nerves. those lips were calling your name, âlet me ask you a better question. are you interested in me?â he smirks into the question, seeing you unravel in real time. âuhm⊠yes obviously.â you look away from him, your face turning red. caleb takes his opportunity to chuckle, his fingers hooking your chin and forcing you to stare at him. he leans down to get a better look at you. your eyes were locked on his as he continued, âthen⊠weâll carry off where we were in whispr, yeah?âÂ
you were just at a loss of words.
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