#No 4

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Just finished rewatching all of umbrella academy. Time to rewatch it all again !!!!!!

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Some quick Shijima edits for the end of the October 🍂

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We don't need Yugi's flashback because their story has been told for a long time. (an analysis) Part 1.

We don't know much about the twins, but I think that's enough because their personal story parallels all the characters in this manga. And we already know it. In this analysis, I will analyze the relationships of Kou with Mitsuba, the fourth secret, Hakubo with Sumire, and Aoi with Akane, because their arcs interpret one big arc of the twins.

1. Kou and Mitsuba. That boy was still that boy.

The main problem for Kou is the "real" Mitsuba. His entire arc is reduced to trying to bring back "that" boy, while Mitsuba's problem is wanting to live as a living person. Kou feels responsible for Mitsuba and wants to help him with his own hands, not someone else's.

He believes that he can make everyone happy, alone. It's really important to him, he's really dedicated to saving Mitsuba. So much so that he won't listen to anyone, even Mitsuba himself - he's so stubborn.

Just like Amane.

The problem is that Kou separates the two Mitsubas, he's completely confused about "who's the real one" and spends his time trying to figure it out instead of cherishing the time he spends with Mitsuba more often.

"You wanted to be my friend, right?" "You wanted to bring back the me you lost, please stay by my side..."

Mitsuba wants that understanding from Kou. "Admit it already, it's impossible, I can't become a _normal_ person, because no one can do that."

Mitsuba knows he's not the same anymore, but he still wants understanding. No one can turn back time, so why not just accept it? Kou is adamant.

And the famous "do you want me to die so we can understand each other better" page.

And then Mitsuba calls Kou an idiot because you can't say things like that. You have to value your life.

So how does this relate to Yugi?

Amane has trouble deciding whether the "new" Tsukasa who came back is the real one, while Tsukasa just wanted some simple human warmth.

Amane thinks he's responsible, thinks he can fix everything on his own, he never listens to anyone, and is very stubborn. It's believed that he tried to fix the big clock to turn back time and bring back the "real" Tsukasa. That's why he doesn't value the time he spends with his brother, because it's not the same. He's fixated on the idea of two Tsukases and a real brother.

"You wanted to bring back the me you lost back then (that birthday), please stay by my side..."

Tsukasa just wanted to spend time with his brother. Deep down, he was waiting for the joy of meeting and understanding from Amane. No one can return Amane to a real living brother, it's all too complicated and even the machinations over time did not solve the problem. And perhaps Amane could have thought that if they both died, it would somehow bring them closer together. Tsukasa is very angry with Amane's actions, because he gave his life in exchange for his brother's health, and he destroyed it so easily, without appreciating it.

2. The Fourth mystery and Mei Shijima.

I won't say much here, and maybe not very deep things, but nevertheless.

"Killing Shijima Mei is all I want." Yes, we have an obvious parallel with killing her twin with a knife, but the reasons for the fourth secret... "I wanted to protect the real you."

Shijima believes that this will bring Mei good. And despite the fact that she tried to kill Mei from the dream world, she still asks her not to leave, even though she is not "real" in the full sense, because it is too painful.

Also, the Fourth hates this fake world. It is too perfect in it, in a way that does not exist in reality.

How does this relate to Yugi?

Amane in the pp arc is parallel to Shijima, Nene just catches their similarity.

Radical problem solving, believing that they alone know what's best, doing horrible things "for your own good." Amane probably killed Tsukasa for similar reasons, believing that somehow it would be better this way. Amane also accepts the current Tsukasa as a fake, but even so, he doesn't want all the yorishiro to be destroyed, he doesn't want his brother to disappear, because losing him again is too painful.

Hanako hates the world of the perfect picture, everything is too easy and wonderful in it, as it was not in his real life, where he had to endure a lot.

3. Hakubo and Sumire. Mystery and yorishiro.

Sumire first appeared before us as proof that yorishiro can be in human form and her story is very parallel to Tsukasa. She had to spend many years locked away in the boundary of the mystery, in the form of the same place where she met her death.

She has not met Hakubo since that day. She hoped that he would come to her, but this did not happen, although Sumire strongly maintained some hope for her own importance to him - "after all, yorishiro becomes what the school mystery cherishes most."

She is tired of her existence, she has no particular purpose and she does not mind disappearing if it will help someone, if she will be useful at least in this way.

Nene asks Sumire what is so good about Hakubo? After all, he is unbearable, and Sumire probably fell in love with him because there was simply no one else. No one was as close to her. It is funny to hear this from Nene, but more on that later.

Sumire was also sacrificed to the hole demon in exchange for a wish, and later became a yorishiro, which is mechanically very reminiscent of Tsukasa. She also has a control complex due to the fact that she could not influence anything in her life.

She would also really like to be mourned and remembered - that is, at least some sympathy in her direction.

Hakubo, on the other hand, had problems expressing his will, and this is the main point of his personal history.

He suffers from the fact that he could have acted differently towards Sumire, these thoughts have haunted him since that day. He understands that he did not value the time spent with her during her life, he was cold in everyday life and he did not save her from death. The guilt for her death lies heavily on him.

"If I lived another life, I would have done things differently." He only grinds this thought in his head, and Sumire sits alone in the boundary, without the support of a loved one nearby.

How does this relate to Yugi?

I will continue this thought in the next post, since the image limit has ended 🙌🏻

Parts 2 and 3

[whumpookies]

AMOW whumperland 2023 day 4 title: the Grinch prompt: Sedative.

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Hi 👋 can i request day 4 for zoro in your whumptober event?

Of course!

Whumptober Day 4

Zoro x Reader

"Is there a problem?" Zoro asked, raising a brow at you.

His words hardly registered in your mind, you were too distracted by the aura that shadowed over this man. You swore you saw a red gleam in his eyes that made your skin turn to ice under its gaze. He approached you, and you slowly backed away until you lost balance, falling on your backside, and now he stood in front of you. You could only stare up with fear rattling your body as his hand reached out toward your face.

"You in there?" Zoro questioned poking your forehead.

You didn't respond, you only stared. The air slowly shifted to a stiff atmosphere turning your gaze to an unsettling feeling crawling on his shoulders. Creeped out, Zoro retracted his hand. "Geez, lady, I just asked you a question, quit staring."

You shifted your body to a better sitting position but your gaze never drifted away from him. Zoro sighed and turned his head away from you.

"Just my luck," Zoro grumbled backing up and scratching his hair. "The others wandered off and I run into some lady that can't use words."

"What..." you muttered something but he couldn't make out the rest.

"What was that?" He leaned closer to you.

You flinched from his aggravated tone, at least that's what your brain told you that'd what his tone was. "What- what are you?"

"I'm a swordsman," he bluntly stated.

"No- what are you?" You asked again.

"I'm a pirate."

"I don't mean what do you do, I mean, what are you?"

Zoro frowned his brows at you, not understanding what you were getting at. He's a swordsman, a pirate, what else could you be asking him? Your face didn't give him any clues either, it just seemed you were staring at a phantom. Why are women hard to understand-

"Your eyes..."

"What about my eyes?"

"Danger... I see danger in your eyes. They're surrounded by darkness, a red gleam follows when they move, they aren't human."

Zoro stared at you, silence preventing him from forming words. You just sat there gazing at him yet it felt you were seeing something beyond his surface. Could you see his so-

"ZORRRRROOOOOO!" Ah, that was his captain calling for him.

He turned his back to you and started walking away, though no matter how far he strayed away from you, he could feel your eyes melting his back. He glanced over his shoulder yet he saw no trace of you.

"Hey, Zoro!"

"Hm?" Zoro faced forward and saw his captain approaching him. "Oh hey, Luffy."

"Is something buggin' ya?" Luffy tilted his head.

"No, just an itch on my back," Zoro told him.

"Hmmmmmmmm, okay!" Luffy turned around leaving it be. "Come on, Nami's waiting for us."

"I'm coming."

Zoro took one last glance back, for a brief you were there standing in the distance, eyes wide and boring into his soul. He blinked and you were gone. Shaking his head, he followed his captain, suffering the fate of eyes haunting his back.

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Whumptober2023

No. 4: “I see the danger, It’s written there in your eyes.”

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Extreme poetry reading.

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Whumptober Day 4: "You're Still Alive In My Head"

Title: Save It For The Living (AO3)

Summary: In Buck's head, Tommy is still alive. (Tw: Please be aware that Tommy is indeed dead in this fic. It's about grief!)

~ Buck is curled up on the couch, slowly waking up from a nap. 

He blinks into the sunlight and smiles as he hears the noises that tell him that Tommy finally comes home from work. The door opens and closes. There's a sigh. Steps. Buck can even smell his boyfriend. A combination of gasoline and smoke.

It’s clear that once Tommy discovers him on the couch, he is trying to be as quiet as possible so as to not disturb Buck. Soft careful steps approach the couch and Buck can imagine Tommy looking down at him with a smile.

Fingers run through Buck’s hair softly and he leans into the touch, not pretending to be asleep anymore. Tommy chuckles and says, “Hey, sleeping beauty. Missed you.”

“I missed you too,” Buck whispers and opens his eyes.

Only to see he’s alone.

Oh.

Buck remembers then.

It’s all just in his head.

Tommy is gone. He won’t come back. And Buck will never hear his voice again.

A cold fist curls around Buck’s heart and he can barely breathe. It’s all coming back to him in flashes. Sirens blaring in the night. The rollercoaster ride of fear and hope. Smoke and flames. A wound in the forest, caused by a helicopter’s desperate crash landing. 

The agonizing wait as they dismantle the cockpit. As they pull Tommy out of there. 

Buck on his knees, clinging to a bloody hand. Voices barking orders around him.

Buck on his knees waiting for Tommy’s eyes to open. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting …

“Buck,” Hen says. “Buck. Let go.”

“I can’t,” Buck breathes. He really can’t. He … He just can’t. He can’t let go.

And in the distance, the sun is suddenly rising. Buck shivers, feeling something around his shoulders. Something that rustles when he moves. Oh. Where did the shock blanket come from?

“Buck,” Hen says again. And somehow, she is the only one still there. Where did all the others go? Buck wonders. He flinches when Hen's hand curls around his own gently. “Come on. Let’s let go together, ok?” She tells him.

“Okay,” Buck whispers. “But you have to give him a blanket too.”

“Of course,” Hen says, her other hand resting on his back. Drawing gentle circles there. “Of course, sweetheart.” Buck exhales. And forces his hand to let go. Grief.

Grief is an ocean. It comes in waves.

Grief is wearing one of Tommy’s hoodies because it smells like him.

Grief is not being able to move because every time he tries, something seems to press him back down.

Grief is Tommy’s tabby cat Muffin (Really, Tommy?) sitting in front of the door and waiting. Waiting so patiently, with her tail curled around herself. She gives Buck a look that seems to say: You’re here already. So what’s taking him so long?

The tears are coming again and everything blurs.

“He’s not going to come home,” Buck says quietly, his voice breaking towards the end of the sentence. He sniffles. “I’m sorry. I couldn’t … I couldn’t save him.”

Muffin looks away and lays down, putting her head on her paws.

Grief is time passing even though it feels like it should be standing still.

“Buck? Oh. You’re awake.” Maddie comes into the room, carrying a steaming mug. Smells like tea. “Come on. You should drink something warm,” she says quietly, placing the mug on the couch table and then taking a seat beside Buck, who sits up with a heavy sigh, rubbing at his burning eyes.

Maddie looks at him, her eyes red as well. “Eddie will be here soon, okay? Me and Chimney, we have to … to take care of some things.”

Buck just nods. He knows what things are. Things he can’t do himself right now. Because he’s in shock. Because he’s useless. “I’m sorry,” he mutters. “I know I should be helping. I … I just can’t move.”

“Don’t. You have nothing to apologize for. We are all here for you because we are a family,” Maddie tells him, her fingers stroking up and down his arm. “Family supports each other in tough times. We got you. But … You need to give yourself time to grief, okay? Allow yourself to feel it, Buck. Don’t … don’t keep it inside. Let it out.”

Buck swallows as he hears the echo of Hen’s voice in his head again.

Let go, Buck. 

Let go. 

And suddenly, he just starts to cry. He can’t stop the tears. They are like a flood. And he’s drowning in them.

“Come here,” Maddie says, opening her arms for him. “Come here, Buck.”

Shaking, Buck sinks into her embrace, puts his forehead on her shoulder and allows himself to cry.

They just sit there for a while, holding on to each other. 

When he can breathe again, Buck says, “You know. At least he died doing what he loved. Always said how he would hate to die because of some illness. Or of old age. That would be boring, he used to say.” Buck sobs out a breathless laugh.

“He died trying to help people,” Maddie agrees, handing Buck a box of tissues. “And you know what he would have wanted you to do.”

“Yes,” Buck says. “I know.”

He does. They talked about it. Before …

“Evan. In case anything happens to me on the job …”

“Don’t say that, please. I don’t want to think about that.”

“But we have to, babe. It’s possible. You know that.”

“I know. But … it’s too painful. I can’t stand the thought of losing you.”

“I feel the same, Evan. Still. If anything happens to me, I want you to be happy, okay?” “How could I be happy without you?”

“Please, Evan. You have to at least try, okay? Don't sacrifice the rest of your life missing me. And if you ever struggle … Listen to this song.”

Tommy sent it to him. A link.

After Maddie leaves and promises him that Eddie will be there in a second, Buck decides to listen to the song for the first time. He hesitated. Because he didn’t want to think about Tommy being dead. And now … Now he doesn’t have a reason to wait any longer. So he presses play. And he cries. But … he also smiles.

“Wish I could see you happy Get on with your life without me

Think of me as something beautiful Not the bitter end

I'm the reason why you're feeling life is broken 

So hear me (please hear me) 

I don't want your love Save it for the living You save it for the living  I want you to find 

Someone to take my place to fill your emptiness inside while you are alive so, please

Save it for the living”

(Smash Into Pieces: Save It For The Living)

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i should really talk about echoing strife [another local group] of mine more here. maybe when me and cheshire have them all designed.................. if you thought the interpersonal drama in bh go crazy you ain't seen nothing /hj

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i’ve started babysitting for a VERY christian family which is great because they pay me a lot of money but as someone who was raised almost completely agnostic it’s kind of insane. the 2 year old keeps asking me to read her stories from the bible. (why are we reading david and goliath to a 2 year old????) the 5 year old told me today that he was going to bring his legos to heaven with him. he also has repeatedly told me that the lego spaceships he builds are stronger than jesus. (not sure what to say to that. do i deny it??? are things allowed to be stronger than jesus??) had to stop myself mid sentence today because i almost told them im not going to heaven which would DEFINITELY have caused several meltdowns. they’re also both completely fascinated by my nose ring

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the curse of summer is buying and eating an inadvisable amount of fruit in single sittings.

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Why did Game Freak remove this feature?

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