#No! Because you cannot reason your way out of a phobia!

[die-tenebris]

having a phobia is genuinely exhausting and I want to throttle everyone who's ever been annoying to me about it

[shirefantasies]

Hiii!!! I love your works so so much, you're truly amazing!! I would like to make a request if that's fine with you. I would like to request Thorin's company with a reader that is afraid of heights. You don't have to do it if you don't want to, it was just a stupid idea that crossed my mind. If you do decide to do it, take as much time as you want and thank you so so much!! Again love your works, your way of writing and the way you portray the characters!!

Thanks pal 🥰 for your kind words and for being one of the longest-standing members of this blog's taglist! It's funny because someone else sent this in for LoTR a while back so it is not at all stupid, quite a common ask~

Warnings: canon typical peril, suggestive jokes in one

Thorin's Company + Your Fear of Heights

Balin

“Look at the river,” Balin encourages, taking your arm, “a fair chance we are not to see it like this again, after all!” You hesitantly hum at his side, and that is when he looks over to see your tightly shut eyes and stiff posture, your hands firm and flat against the great eagle’s soft, downy feathers. “We’re safe now,” he tells you quietly, scooting into your side. The warmth of his coat brings some comfort, but not enough for you to open your eyes, even if they shine red beneath your crushing lids. “This does not feel safe,” you reply, your voice barely exceeding a whisper. Balin does not fight, does not argue, presumably continues enjoying whatever view you did not doubt was beautiful. You simply cannot appreciate it. “I understand,” he replies, running a soothing hand up and down your back, “and I’m here. I’ll hold you down.”

Dwalin

“I bet you’ve never been afraid a day in your life.” Those were the words that set the conversation- or challenge, more like- flying between you and Dwalin, both of you huddled near the smoldering remains of your earlier fire on watch of camp. Hazes of fatigue descended upon both of your heads as you spoke, your musing bringing quite a surprise to Dwalin, who immediately sat up straighter and fixed you with surprise. “Are you mocking me?” “No,” you shrugged, shaking your head, “I simply could not imagine what that would be. It is quite difficult to picture you afraid.” It was your turn to be surprised as Dwalin’s expression softened far beyond what you were used to. “Even the greatest of warriors have them. I, then, am far from an exception.” “What is it, then?” “Pardon.” “Your fear,” you lit up, “is it the ocean? Dogs? Speaking to a crowd?” “Why are you selecting such ridiculous-” “You’re dodging,” you teased, “Thought you might be embarrassed.” “I’m not,” he crossed his arms, “Tell me yours and I shall share mine.” “Fine,” you replied with a shrug, “I am terrified of heights. Fell off a roof as a little one. …long story.” “That… makes a lot of sense.” “Hey, now what is that supposed to mean?”

Thorin

In all honesty, you’d expected the king to have no patience for such matters. You had avoided mentioning your phobia to any of the company for that exact reason, in fact. No more reason given for Thorin to see you as a liability, an outsider. At least until the booms of thunder, the slick of rain and your cold sweat alike as you slid along cliffs, eyes closed and then squeezed so shut your skin warmed and almost burned. Great stone giants you stood upon, legs rising and sending you swinging out wildly, unable to stifle your scream. As the giant slowed, having been struck by a massive rock, you were righted again, and feeling a hand tighten about your shoulder you turned around, expecting to see fatherly Gloin or Balin and instead almost starting at the sight of Thorin there behind you. “I can tell you fear the precipice. Stay here and no harm will come to you.” Your lips parted wordlessly, unable to form a sound beneath the thrum of blood in your ears, the heat creeping to your face, the echo of shattering stone still reverberating through your whole body. As if he heard you regardless, Thorin added, “I promise.”

Oin

“You’re sweating. Do you have a fever?” “No, Oin, I’m fine,” you replied, shaking your head. “Are you certain? For I’ve got quite the concoction- two in fact! One you put on and one you put in. Yourself, that is. You drink it, you see.” “I gathered.” You mustered a smile, but it was halfhearted and, judging by Oin’s expression, obviously so. “No need to be proud. Come on. I’m the one who can help you. And trust me, I’ve seen it all!” Oin was right. A fear of heights was far less embarrassing than all the accidents you imagined dwarves got into. Bofur alone had plenty such stories. “To be honest, it simply is this climb,” you nodded to the foot of the mountain, the great steps you’d heard so much about- and stars, they were nothing like the steps in your old home! “Afraid of heights?” You nodded in reply and the healer’s bearded face burst open in sympathy. “Well, that’s more than understandable! Seen plenty of- Ahem,” he cleared his throat, “Well, that is to say you’re not alone. I’ll let you in on a little secret- from what I hear, it took Kili years before he’d even get on a ladder! ‘N he’s a prince! You’ve nothing to worry about. I can give you something to calm you down as we speak, and beside that I can stay by you every step of the way. How’s that?” “That’ll be great,” you smile, “Thank you, Oin.”

Gloin

“What d’you think you’re doing? …Rotation my arse, send someone else if you’d like to avoid discussing this with the business end of my axe!” What was going on? Emerging from the brush, you followed the sound of Gloin’s voice, the volume of which had steadily been increasing, to see him glaring with all intents of intimidation at Dwalin of all people. As much as you knew you should step in and resolve any tension, you couldn’t deny your amusement. Kindling in arm, you shook your head fondly at the scene before you. Ever since he found out you were afraid of heights, rather than mock you as you’d half expected the dwarves to Gloin had made it his personal mission to swoop in and lobby for you whenever the opportunity availed itself. Such as climbing trees for watch. Muttering, Dwalin walked away with a shrug and a roll of his eyes, and you took your own opportunity to set the kindling down and sneak up behind Gloin to pull him into a hug.

Bifur

Snapping jaws narrowly missed the edges of your legs. Wargs ran to the feet of the trees, standing against the trunks and trying in vain to pull you down. They were coming closer than they should have, though, one even catching a dangling strap from your boot and tearing the buckle on it clean off. Jumping at a tap on your shoulder, you swiveled your head and peered up, admittedly a bit relieved to forget you were above ground, even if it was not by much. Bifur had gotten your attention and was urgently circling his hand, encouraging you to go further up to his branch. You shook your head. “I am fi-” SNAP! The moment you attempted to defend yourself was the moment the branch at your side was ripped off, scrabbling claws following its descent. Another tap to your shoulder, this time with the hand groping down to find yours and pry its fingers from their death grip on your branch. “What are you doing?” You hissed, panicking at your loosening grip, but your complaint was quieted when Bifur yanked you up against his chest and held you there fast. He muttered something in Khuzdul and while you weren’t certain what, his tone alone soothed you a bit more, keeping you in place there with your rapid heartbeat against his.

Bofur

“What’s the matter, no foothold? These hills can be a bit slippery, can’t they? Pesky when it’s so far to fall, pesky indeed.” “Bofur,” you breathe, voice wavering as you near tears. The sheer desperation in your voice shakes the hatted dwarf to his senses, his eyes and smile softening and falling as if seeing you for the first time. “Hey now, you’ll be all right. Thorin put you in the middle on purpose. So many hands here to catch you. ‘Sides that, I’m right here next to you, and you know I’ll always protect you, right?” Smiling faintly, you nod, eyes still blurred faintly with the sheen of tears. Strength renewed slightly, your hands dig even tighter into the rough stone and with all your might, you pull up to the next ledge. “See, there you are! Before we know it you’ll be outclimbing us all,” Bofur teases, leaning over and gently bumping your shoulder with his. “Bofur!” You squeal. “Oh, yes, right, sorry! Say, why don’t we just talk about the weather instead?”

Bombur

“I can’t.” “You must,” Bombur insisted, always-gentle voice even quieter than usual. Groaning beneath the weight of your bodies, the great pine you’d been forced to climb bent further. “If we don’t, who knows what’ll happen to us. I’m scared, too.” The shocks running through your heart calmed slightly at the sight of his soft eyes. “Who wouldn’t be scared of jumping off a cliff?” “Fili ‘n Kili, probably.” “You’re right,” you giggled, delaying the inevitable that much further.” “Why don’t we go together. See, just because we’re both ‘fraidy cats, you know?” Bombur sounded so… shy? He truly meant it, not that you doubted his sincerity much- a more sincere dwarf could scarcely be found. “Of course,” you replied, and beaming, he took your hand. “Just close your eyes. Trust the wizard. You’ll be alright if I have anything to say about it.”

Dori

“Is this truly necessary?” “Unfortunately that is the best way to keep things away from bears. Awful creatures trying to spoil our picnic!” “This is no picnic, Dori,” you giggled, “on account of we’re on a perilous journey? If you remember.” “Yes, yes,” he waved the hand that was free of the bundle, “but I will suffer much before I go this whole mess without doing something for you. Now Bilbo was kind enough to lend this food…” “You lot stole it, didn’t you?” Dori pointedly ignored you. “Be a dear and climb up to that branch with the rope,” he requested, pointing up into the tree and sending a wave of apprehension straight through you. “Can I hold it?” You asked, shuffling your feet. “Please?” Dori inhaled. He frowned slightly. His frown softened almost immediately at your slight pout. His shoulders deflated, hand loosening about the bundle. “Very well. You certainly are lucky to be so adorable.”

Nori

“Come on, let’s have a look at the stars, huh?” Something about Nori’s tone, a sort of provocation you hope to be deciphering correctly, has you shying your eyes away from the smooth-talking dwarf, hands behind your back as you nod. “That’s a good’n,” he smiles proudly, grabbing your hand tightly, a bit harshly even as he tugs you outside. Your gaze drifts up, but Nori tilts it back down to face him. “Not out here!” You are puzzled, tilting your head back at him. Rivendell’s garden is the most beautiful you’ve seen, a perfect little gazebo to sit under surrounded by pure white flowers and vines that reach up to the very stars upon which you wish to gaze. “Elrond can’t mind too much if we get a bit closer, after all, can he? Those elves love the stars as much as anything, after all.” You see now that he is motioning up to the roof of the enclave set aside for you all to stay, a conveniently flat expanse granted access to only by a risky-looking trellis. Nori wants to climb that with you. All the blood drains from your face at the very sight, the mental image of your shoes slipping from the hole, tumbling you back into the… “What’s the matter, hm? Scared? Afraid of getting trapped up there with me? I promise I won’t bite…unless you ask me to, of course.” His joke brings you back to your senses, out of the unexpected tenderness and back to your usual joking. “What’s the matter with you?” You shoot back. “Can’t get excited without being imperiled?” Cackling, Nori lets you slide, instead winding an arm about your waist and sweeping an arm, letting you lead him to the gazebo bench. “Got me there.”

Ori

“What’s the matter?” Ori ponders your name so sweetly it almost cuts through your fear. “Isn’t it wonderful?” ‘It’ being the view from, at least in your mind, the most precarious parapet in the whole kingdom of Erebor. “I see even more now why we were fighting for this,” he adds, smile growing and wonder positively glowing in his big brown eyes. In almost hilarious contrast, you struggle to feign a smile, fingers tightening around the wall’s edge like a lifeline. Which it quite literally is. It isn’t that high. You can simply take one step, no, two, and go tumbling off the whole of the mountain- The sound of your name cuts off your dread-laced internal ramblings, shaking you back to Ori, to feeling him take hold of your upper arm. “Are you alright? I can see your face, you look so-” Cutting off his desperation, the way he clearly is searching for a kind way to say it, you just sigh and answer him. “You were so excited to show me, I didn’t have the heart to tell you that, well, I have quite the fear of heights.” Ori’s jaw positively drops as he surges back, taking you away from the railing like it’ll burn you. “I’m so sorry, you never told me! How was I to know? Why, here you’ve been just-” You forget your fear entirely in favor of giggling at Ori’s kind reaction. You should have known better than to fear what he would say! “How about we go to the library instead?” Ori offers, hand still on your arm. “I’d like that,” you answer with a smile.

Fili

“Don’t let him catch me telling you this, but do you realize Kili used to have such a bad fear of heights he wouldn’t even set foot on a ladder?” Fili snickered to you, leaning with his arm along the back of your chair. “And that is supposed to be funny?” You replied, eyes wide and one brow raised. All attempts not to show your true thoughts- would Fili think you a fool? “Of course it was! I couldn’t even persuade him into the attic for all the deal it was,” the elder prince answered with a smile of great amusement. Pulling away from his warm proximity, you wrapped an arm around yourself instead. “And why was he wrong to fear harm? To- to avoid doing something he didn’t even need to do? Have you never felt the creeping of dread, of crushing danger?” Sitting back himself, Fili raised his hands defensively. “I’m sorry. I just thought it was funny the way he’d only put a toe up on it. You feel the same, do you not?” You nodded and he shifted back forward to put a hand on your shoulder. “Nothing wrong with that. I swear I won’t laugh about it again.”

Kili

For so-called ‘steps’, this climb certainly was involving your entire body, all of you company members heaving yourselves over each one and you suppressing a whimper at each slip and grind of your boot against smoothened stone. Why did the dwarves have to build their kingdoms so again? Sliding back, you winced, cringing back even harder when Fili playfully nudged you with his elbow. “Careful you don’t- oops!” He seemed to stumble back and fall, bringing you to cry out his name until he popped back up with a grin and laughter. “Quit that!” Kili stepped back down, making his way in between you two. “You’re really scared, aren’t you?” Nodding, you shied away at the way he wrapped an arm around your shoulders. “Don’t worry,” he spoke your name softly, “mean old Fili’s going to apologize, isn’t that right?” “I’m not a child,” you teased, “I just…hate the thought of falling. Of my feet wavering and giving out.” “Understandable,” Fili added, lowering his head, “I promise I won’t actually lay a hand upon you. No more jokes. For once, Kili’s right.” Smiling again, you allowed Kili to guide you up, one hand protectively over the small of your back. “You just wanted to play the hero.” You heard Fili hiss to his brother behind your back, shakily grinning at his words.

Bilbo

“We need to get out of here. Come on.” The hobbit whispers your name urgently, extending and waving his hand at you. How you have managed to avoid losing your mind completely is what you can only imagine to be a testament to your luck. But Bilbo? You had completely lost track of him and now he’s here before you, gripping a tree branch and pleading with those shining grey eyes. This forest has your head spinning, but those eyes are an anchor, something you can focus on for once. Your heart moves, but your body remains in place, blood rushing to your face and slamming chest. “I- I-” What can you say? “Please,” Bilbo adds, “I don’t want to lose you, too. We need air. You must come with me to clear our heads.” Blinking, you look back and forth. Did you need to? Wait, need to what? “Please,” Bilbo begs again, “I’m afraid too. But it won’t be so bad if we’re together, right? I would never let you fall.” The way he begs, says your name so carefully yet so intently, has you nodding and taking his hand, smiling faintly at the warm grip. “Let’s go.”

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[gryficowa]

Boycott!

People who say "You're not a real activist if you only use the Internet" piss me off because they clearly show that they are ablietic shit

People with ASD, social phobia, agoraphobia etc… They exist, will you finally fucking come to terms with the fact that there are people who don't take part in strikes for logical fucking reasons and that's why they use the Internet?

If your activism consists in attacking activists who cannot physically take part in fundraisers, then you have shit to say that you are fighting for equality and those discriminated against when you fucking show ableism towards different groups

Now that I have your attention:

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People like this just piss me off because their ego is fucking huge and they show their Ableism and people are silent about it…

[porcelain-gal]

ANOTHER CONTROVERSIAL SHIFTING TAKE moika yapping about shit no one cares about again?? that's crazyyy, who would've thought! but fr, i know i said i'd stop with this shit but i'm a very opinionated person with entirely too much to say so i'm back to talking! like always, if you don't agree that's fine but please don't leave rude or passive aggressive comments or messages in my inbox because i will delete them and block you! <3

i need y'all to stop yelling "it's not your life" and getting pissy at people when you post about the immoral and inhumane things you do in your realities/lives and receive backlash from it. your excuse is that "it's not your reality so you shouldn't care", failing to realize that most of the people here have grown up in society and you probably have as well and in this society, we are taught morals and values.

if you post about doing shit in your life that the majority of society in this reality as a whole has deemed as bad/immoral (e.g., dating minors as an adult, race-changing/rcta, etc) for multiple reasons, why do you expect to not be judged or criticized for it? you cannot expect people to throw aside their feelings about what they have been taught is bad and that many have seen the harmful effects of in seconds just so you and a small demographic of people who like doing that kind of stuff can feel comfortable talking about it freely.

no, people aren't going to respect or agree with you if you shift somewhere and kill innocent people. no, people aren't going to respect or agree with you if you go to realities where you shift to date minors as an adult. no, people aren't going to respect or agree with you if you change your race/sexualize and glorify or even villainize the lives of minorities. no, people aren't going to respect or agree with you if you're a bully and harass people in your reality "for the plot." you can't keep expecting people to conform to your ideals and actions just because you want to be able to freely talk about being a shitty person because in the eyes of many people here, you absolutely are.

and on that same note, you also need to remember that it is YOUR choice to post what you do on YOUR account. no one is forcing you to post about anything you do in your life. you willingly put out information about your life that NO ONE ASKED FOR onto the heavily-opinionated internet and expect people to just be like "oh cool" and move on from the fact that you're doing fucked up shit just because it's your life?

sorry to tell you this but if everyone just didn't give a fuck about what other people did in their lives, things like queerphobia, racism, xenophobia, and the variety of other -phobias and -isms would not exist and on the opposite side, shit like child marriage, murder, and abuse would be way more prominent and nothing would be done about it since people just wouldn't care.

people are going to be in your business whether you like it or not and it sucks but that's just how it is. now am i saying that you don't have a right to be upset at all? no, obviously not. you're being judged, of course you're going to feel upset or like shit about it and you're completely valid in that regard. however, you need to realize why people are criticizing you and understand that that's just going to happen.

you also need to realize that you're never going to change the minds of millions of people in this reality with a tumblr post of you getting mad and trying to shun people who think you're a bad person for doing bad shit and you probably never will. it's your choice whether or not to listen to the people or just go your own way because as long as you keep posting about you doing fucked up shit, people are going to react and the majority won't react positively.

but anyways yeah, this just my take. if you don't agree, that's your opinion and you're entitled to it just as much as i am to mine! just please don't be disrespectful or try to argue with me because again, i will block you and think nothing of it. thanks for reading!

SINCERELY, Yappatron 3000

[crimeronan]

Re: the palisman thing, I can see a world where the average citizenry of the Isles is wary about carving Palisman (especially if Belos ramped up his collection of them in some way to get his snackies) so Dell + Bat Queen/whoever else Luz’s wild witchery allies are on this subject propose that Luz SHOULD actually carve a Palisman for herself to lead by example and show the Isles that the crusade against wild witchery and its practices are Over.

Also imagining Luz carving an egg again and then having to Sit With It while she tries to speed run figuring out/admitting her greatest wish is to be forgiven and how it NOT hatching in the meanwhile makes her feel like it’s some punishment like “Sorry! You haven’t done enough to earn this yet (False)”

luz carving an egg again because she's like "i'm giving my palisman SOME autonomy, so help me".... 🥺🥺🥺

on the subject of waiting for it to hatch, though -- i think her feelings would be a little more complex than pure self-loathing..... i think a huge part of her would Dread the palisman hatching. for reasons she cannot quite quantify.

(i can imagine hunter being like "why are you worried....? by DEFINITION your palisman is gonna love you" and her being like "hahaha! i guess i have internalized wild magic phobia. let's not examine this")

the reason is that she can't bear to accept unconditional love right now. so in some ways, i think luz's palisman would hatch right when she's finally, truly ready for it to hatch -- because it means she's ready to accept that this constant unhappiness & self-punishment is.... Deeply Pointless.

i DO like the idea of her still getting stringbean, though :) her desire may be a little different from her canon self's, but this luz has Plenty in common with a silly shapeshifter that can adapt to suit a bunch of different circumstances!!

[buds-and-baubles]

thinking about the parallels between kon, apollo and midnighter regarding their creation/origins.

kon's origins where he at first was a fully human clone of a cadmus scientist named paul westfield, who was then genetically engineered and modified to be as close to superman as possible, utilizing his ttk metagene to emulate superman's powers. his later iterations simplified his origins by making him an actual clone of superman, fully kryptonian with a small amount of human dna to stabilize the kryptonian dna, utilizing his ttk metagene. (wanna thank @mamawasatesttube for giving kon facts that i am absorbing like a sponge).

apollo and midnighter were bioengineered/built as superhuman by henry bendix. these post-human 'prometheans' (my species classification of them) have three running rumors on their creation; they were young adult former u.s soldiers who were conscripted, they were kidnapped children, or they were modified cloned human dna from petri-dishes grown to adulthood. regardless of creation, they were experimented on where they underwent time on medical tables and or in cloning stasis/stasis tanks, as well as intense combat training to make them who they are. however, they maintain retrograde amnesia regarding their life before their first mission and all records were destroyed so there is no way to confirm their origins.

kon was aged to a teenager so he didn't experience early years as a child. apollo and midnighter either don't remember their childhood, or never had one.

kon has helped out other clones of CADMUS gain autonomy as well as the clones on new krypton. apollo and midnighter had no choice but to kill the clones of their long dead teammates, and clones of themselves as they were too far gone to be saved.

i like to think reasonably they all have a phobia of medical things like needles (i know it's canon for kon but i haven't read it yet for apollo and midnighter).

they have all died and been brought back by some seemingly otherwordly means.

they all had to learn what having family is like. kon with clark and the whole superfam, and apollo and midnighter in raising jenny quantum.

two out of three are queer sun-powered superhumans who deserve the world in my opinion.

kon and apollo have both been through two traumatic events that i literally cannot talk about and it makes me sad that they have this in common. fuck you millar i hope your ice cubes melt.

got their very own warm calculating (midnighter is only warm calculating to his husband and daughter) partner who vibes with nighttime.

had interesting ways they got their names. apollo and midnighter reclaimed their aliases as their names to gain a shred of autonomy from what bendix did. kon got his name from clark giving it to him.

though kon and apollo have many power similarities with clark, they've got ones that make them stand out! yes, the ttk and energy projection. three cheers for ttk!

all have their own classification on what they are because of their unique origins.

apollo and kon are both smart AND pretty unlike what some may write or say.

kon knows his origins but apollo and midnighter will never know their true origin.

are/were on a team with a speedster and amazon. kon has his two besties bart aka impulse and cassie aka wondergirl. apollo and midnighter had impetus and amaze, rip them.

apollo can fight to protect kon when there's kryptonite or only red sunlight present cause it doesn't bother him and kon can keep him away from extreme cold stuff like liquid nitrogen. teamwork!

secret identities! kon didn't originally have one because he was first just superboy, and got his secret identity later. apollo and midnighter have no secret identity.

if i got any kon tidbits wrong please forgive me i'm literally shaking with excitement at posting this and have been working on stuff regarding apollo that is still a work in progress for like a day and a half with only 3 hours sleep. i needed to post this or i was going to knaw through drywall.

this is what i meant that apollo and kon have so much in common. it makes me wanna scream and cry and roll on the floor to cope.

slightly unrelated but please invite apollo to sun-powered supers meet-ups, he can show off all his cool hobbies like origami and card stacking to name a few of them. if jenny q goes with him, she can share stuff about herself, both her dads, and the rest of the authority of silly things they do and be held in apollo's arms as he flies if they're all flying.

[ongreenergrasses]

hiii friend, keeping you in my thoughts today. 💙

lmk if you'd rather i split these up into multiple asks since this is uhhh a lot of questions! i wasn't sure which would be Less Annoying

1. what's your favorite kind of weather?

2. let's pretend you have unlimited funds, space, land, etc. how many pets/animals would you own and what kind?

3. most embarrassing song on ur spotify/apple music/equivalent playlists. if u answer this one i'll comment with mine for fairness

4. what's your third favorite beverage?

5. share a line from a fic you've written and are never going to post

6. thoughts on spiders?

7. what's something stupid you're a little scared of? not talking like phobia-level i mean like something benign that you wouldn't run out of the room screaming about but don't go out of your way to encounter. mine is moths

8. thg ship you enjoy reading about but probably wouldn't ever write fic for?

9. favorite minor/background character in thg?

10. do you collect anything? if so, what and how many of them do you own?

lord. i started this and it deleted. anyway thank you for the good wishes!! and i love asks you will never annoy me with the asks, the worst that can happen is I’ll slap a long post warning on it

1. either 85 degrees, sunny, and not soul crushing humidity, or 15 below with snow and that very specific winter light. i currently live in an excellent place for these conditions

2. maybe a dog? sometimes the gf wants a dog. definitely chickens, i’ve always wanted them. we have 2 cats and they’re bonded so strongly and have such a good dynamic that we probably would only introduce one more. (nearly ended up with another cat this summer. barely restrained ourselves). also i’ve always wanted a hedgehog but I’m worried the cats would get pricked

3. HAHAHA ok there’s so many cringe songs. the most embarrassing is Not Strong Enough by boygenius. the reason that this is the most embarrassing is because i legitimately cannot stand boygenius

4. kombucha

5. this does Not indicate the context going on but here you go, from the notes app archive

It’s looming, it’s the year Luis will learn about it in history class, and they can’t put it off any longer.

6. they’re fine? one time i saw a pretty massive one on the shower ceiling at midnight and i heaved the most world weary sigh and was like you know what. this might as well happen. but usually i leave them alone or take them outside

7. barnacles

8. to be very honest…there isn’t a single thg thing that i enjoy reading that i wouldn’t try my hand at writing. i’m a massive multishipper (although you wouldn’t know it looking at my ao3) and at this point i’m so particular with what i read that yes i’ll poke around on ao3 a little bit, but i’ve learned especially in thg spaces i’m way better off just writing what I want to read. something that i’ve been turning around and around in my head is Finnick/Gale, because that absolutely fascinates me on so many levels and the people writing for that are incredible.

9. Annie!

10. i collect many many things! i am a Stuff and Things enjoyer. the one that pops into my head (because i am looking at it) is matryoshki. i have four, two of which were my mother’s. i’ve wanted to get a tattoo of one but unfortunately then it would remind me of my mother. i also collect vintage erotica, teapots, a very specific flavor of small wall hanging tchotchke things, and glass animals. i’m sure i’m forgetting some things

AMA day

[cookinguptales]

frank discussion of gynecological issues and frustrations with OBGYNs (especially re: chronic illness) under the cut, but I guess also potentially useful information for people who want to hear about it

so... some of you might remember when I was going to OGBYNs a little while ago. I have endometriosis and PMDD diagnoses, so going to OBGYNs isn't exactly unusual for me, but I ended up going to see more than I usually do.

this was largely because the hormonal therapy that I was taking for those disorders was starting to fail and I was bleeding a lot. like... for weeks at a time over a period of months. I had to deal with some... frustrating OBGYN advice in this time (such as the rage-inducing "well, women have to bleed") but I also discovered that like... I mean, I think I always knew that I had more vaginal pain than other people I know, but a lot of things hurt me so I just kind of... ignored it?

but they tried to put me on the nuva ring for a little while during this period and my body just... straight-up rejected it. it hurt like a bitch to put in, it kept coming out, I could feel it in there and it hurt, etc.

I ended up comparing notes with some other people I know and realized that my problems with insertion were probably more severe than I'd thought. like, it is not unusual for me to cry during pap smears and have cramping for days afterward. I cannot use tampons without massive pain. your body is not really supposed to physically expel something like a nuva ring several times a day. tmi I guess but I have not found penetration of any kind pleasant.

so I talked to... I want to say four or five different OBGYNs in this period, and none of them gave me a real reason for this. the prevailing attitude was mostly "oh yeah, that happens sometimes. lmao."

the best I could get was a diagnosis of "vaginismus" on my chart, and when I pressed for more information, they basically told me it was a psychological thing where your body is afraid of penetration so it clenches up and won't unclench. they literally grilled me on my history of sexual abuse to see if they could find the source of my dick phobia.

now... not to get too into it, but I do have a history of CSA -- but my pain problems predate it. I got my period relatively early and I've never been able to use tampons or anything like them. every time I've tried has ended in literal tears. again, cramping pain for days, even after the period itself has stopped.

so I get the dick phobia diagnosis from two different doctors, but one of them says she can do a transvaginal ultrasound if I'm really worried. we do this and it is uh. excruciating, honestly. thank god it was in California and they let me get high as a kite.

in the end, they can't find anything "physically" wrong with why I'm in pain and they send me on my way, dick phobia dx in hand.

today. today. YEARS later. I am googling tips on how to try a menstrual cup if you have vaginismus (prep for the trip abroad; I don't like Japanese pads) and I see someone saying "oh, I'm glad that treatment worked for you, my problems are because of ehlers-danlos syndrome."

you know, one of the chronic illnesses I have and one that I divulged to every OBGYN I saw.

what.

paging Dr. Google!!!

I come to find out that folks that have EDS, because of their connective tissue issues and extremely brittle skin, sometimes deal with extreme gynecological pain. it's partially pelvic floor issues, partially the fact that the skin in your vagina is breaking.

so all those times that I said "it feels like it's cutting me" or "it feels like knives" were probably because it was fucking cutting me. all those times I said I felt scraped raw for days was probably because abrasions take a long time to heal when you have EDS.

I cannot believe. I cannot believe. that I went into so many different OBGYNs who told me that my pain issues were because I had a psychological fear of dicks and when I told them I was a lesbian were like "oh well then problem solved" when actually my body was physically tearing. I had even seen blood sometimes and it had always been dismissed as spotting.

the anger I feel rn is indescribable, tbh. I never bought that my problems were all in my head (probably because doctors used that line on me so often when I was a kid and getting other chronic illnesses diagnosed) but the fact that gynecological health science is still so fucking awful that we shrug off pain that is the symptom of dangerous chronic illnesses as "well that happens sometimes" or "have you considered that maybe you're afraid of sex?"

I JUST

this reminds me of when I had to find out from a fucking tumblr post that vaginal secretions are made from blood rather than glands, so if you have bad blood pressure/flow it'll often cause itchiness/dryness/pain. bad blood flow like... idk... maybe POTS.

so again, it was actually one of my known chronic illnesses causing gynecological issues, not any of the other bullshit reasons doctors were giving me, like age or stress.

I hate that I'm fucking 33 years old and I still have to learn stuff like this from google searches. I still don't know how my shitty body works, and it's largely because of stuff like this. what the fuck. I'm so mad. why do doctors still treat vaginas like a fucking scary mystery?

I'm well aware that Dr. Google doesn't always know what the fuck it's talking about, but apparently neither do my doctors! which is why, yet again, I'm up all night reading medical journals in the vain attempt to figure out how to actually live my life!

ugh!!!

[mortal-cupid]

Outbursts Of Emotions And Manic Episodes Are More Common Than You Think, And They Should Be Normalized.

Emotions can be triggered by physical, mental, and personal triggers. Some bodies are hardwired to "over react" to certain situations or triggers.

Physical triggers could be: physical stress, someone's menstrual cycle causing a "dramatic" breakdown, a person being hangry, any form of physical pain or trauma causing a person to appear gloomy or snappy, any personality or mind altering substances, a bad nights rest, physical illness, ect.

Some mental triggers could be: PTSD, BPD, almost ANY mood disorders, mental stress, social exhaustion, emotional distress, over thinking, ect.

Some personal triggers could be: Bad memories or past trauma, broken boundaries, phobias, personal attacks, being misgendered, being deadnamed, family issues, any triggers specific to a person for any reason.

You Are Not A Bad Person For Being Emotional. You Are Not A Bad Person For Wanting To Blame Someone Or Something For Your Emotions, It's The Expected Reaction. Issues Only Occur When You Take These Emotions Out On Others. The Best We Can Do For Ourselves And The People We Care About Is To Communicate Our Triggers Or Outbursts, Attempt To Regulate And Regain Control As Best We Can, And Remember To Tell Someone Going Through An Episode That They Are Safe. Creating An Emergency Plan For Yourself And One For Those Around You When You Can Is Very Helpful. It Is Okay To Respond However You Need To In Order To Make Yourself Feel Better As Long As You Try Not To Harm Others. Just Because Some People Use Manic Episodes Or Breakdowns As Excuses Doesn't Mean You Are. Life Is Tough. Emotions Get BIG. And You Are Bigger Than Your Emotions. They Don't Define You Or Make You A Bad Person.

If Someone Close To You Is Struggling With Emotional Regulation And/Or Outbursts, Make Sure To Reassure Reassure Reassure, Create A Safe Space For The Person, If Possible Create An "Emergency Plan" With The Person On What To Do In Such A Situation, And Communicate COMMUNICATE COMMUNICATE!! If The Other Person Goes Nonverbal That Is Not An Excuse To Stop Communicating!! Simply Ask The Person If There's Another Way They Would Like To Communicate Before That Situation Occurs.

With All Of This Being Said, Not Everyone Can Be A Safe Space Or Handle Other's Emotions And THAT'S OKAY. Communicating That You Cannot Be A Safe Space Or Handle Other's Emotions Does Not Make You A Bad Person. Not Everyone Can Handle Those Situations. You're No Less Of A Good Person For Not Being Able To Handle It.

Everyone Should Be Loved No Matter What Emotions They Feel, What Accommodations They Need, How Many Outbursts Or "Episodes" They Have, Everyone Is Worthy Of Acceptance ♡

( With Love, Cupid ♡ )

[sazeracs]

Get to know me better

Tagged by @averythepirate! Btw I did this in Word and forgot I had installed the Pentiment fonts so yall can’t see it but this is all in Pentiment humanist script teehee

Do you make your bed? Yep, it helps me start the day off right, personally.

What is your job? I work at a university. My specific role isn’t necessarily what I want to do “””as a career”””, though it is something I have lots of experience in and do on the side as a consultant.

If you could go back to school, would you? I would stay in school for the rest of my life if I could lol. If someone can pay me to do it, even better. I intend to go back to school for my doctorate and am looking at programmes abroad because it is otherwise unlikely to be feasible here in the US 🥲 (And also because I want to!)

Can you parallel park? Yes. I am a gay who can drive. It ain’t much, and truthfully idek that it’s honest work, either, because I’m fighting for my life every time (Boston driver), but I stay reasonably silly about it 🫡

A job you’ve had that would surprise people: Idk if any of the jobs I’ve had would surprise people, but I have had lots of unusual jobs.

Do you think aliens are real? There’s no way we’re the only mfs in the universe lmao

Can you drive a manual car? I originally learned how to drive stick shift 😎

What’s your guilty pleasure? I’m with Avery on this one in that I ultimately don’t believe in feeling ‘guilty’ about liking things, but in the service of It’s Not That Deep, I love J-/K-pop including BTS LOL. Not truly a part of stan nation though, maybe more like an occasional tourist.

Tattoos? Not yet but I want so many – I just haven’t decided what I want my first to be and also they’re expensive 😭 (<- has seven piercings)

Do you like puzzles? Hell yea I love a good puzz

Any phobias? Very specific, but worms, centi/millipedes, and their ilk. Not snakes/other worm-like non-insects or even bugs generally, just those. (Please be normal about this.)

Favourite childhood sport: I still do them so maybe it doesn’t quite count, but horseback riding and fencing :3c

First thing you wanted to be growing up: Uhhh probably something in the arts? Cannot remember exactly

Do you talk to yourself? Doesn’t everyone?

What movies do you adore? The one that immediately came to mind was AMADEUS. Literally one of my “watch this to understand me” movies. Immaculate.

Coffee or tea? I drink and enjoy both, but I’m likelier to get coffee if I’m out, say.

Favourite colour: I don’t have a single favourite colour but like deep, rich colours.

Tagging @nessvn, @esotericeribos, @emby-m, @wrenhavenriver, @netch-rancher, and @cloistergardens 🫶🏼

[wedriftlikelonelyplanets]

Lore Drop

AHAHAHA I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ME SOMETHING ABOUT MY PERSONAL LORE

thank you @thelettersfromnoone for the tag, love you forever

Do you make your bed? - NOPE! I am a goblin child, I'm usually like in my bed until the last possible minute and I have to leave for work, and I am a bedroom adult, despite having a 1,500 sq ft house... that and my cats are usually amongst the sheets.

Favorite number? - 13 (and 16 but for like...personal reasons)

What’s your job? - Registered Veterinary Technologist!!!

If you could go back to school, would you? - Yes! I'm actually seriously considering going back to school to become a vet, but it's a LOT of thinking, and kinda trying to weigh the pros and cons and stuff like that. There's way too much to think about, and living in Canada ALSO makes it more difficult because there are multiple provinces that only have ONE option for vet school

Can you parallel park? - I CAN. I avoid it like the plague, however. Parking and I are worst of enemies.

Do you think aliens are real? - Yes, but probably not in the way that you expect. Mainly because any life on other planets is technically considered "alien"

Can you drive a manual car? - I wish....Likely I could probably drive a car with tapshift if I really wanted to, but I don't know how to drive a true manual.

What’s your guilty pleasure? - Stupid romance reality TV shows (like Love is Blind etc, along with Too Hot To Handle bc it is INSANE to me that these people cannot control themselves).

Tattoos? - Yes! (i am BEGGING you, someone, PLEASE ask me for a tattoo tour i love to show them off). I have 7

Favorite color? - Aqua, turquoise, most bluey-green shades, tbh

Do you like puzzles? - Situationally, yes. I find them fun to do with I'm feeling a little fiddly and want to do something vaguely like....crafty without doing crafts.

Any phobias? - severe fear of heights that....just got really bad out of nowhere. Mild arachnophobia

Favorite childhood sport? - Soccer....until I got shin splits so bad the doctors thought i had hairline fractures of both shins. My body is TOTALLY assembled correctly.

Do you talk to yourself? - Uh yeah a lot, both out loud and in my head.

Tagging: @mimi-my-love if ur feeling up to it!!!

[prideraiised]

@ofheartandsoul asked: 🧡💌👗(for Gold!) | Meme here!

Clothing, Friendship and Romance themed headcanons for Gold undercut!

👗for a clothes-themed headcanon: We're starting with this one because its fastest teehee.

Little bro is a fashion disaster. Gold is a lot of things, but savvy in the ways of looking like he hasn't crawled out of a fucking dumpster? Boy he sure isn't that. Its no secret that Gold is short as all hell. He's capped out at 5'2" and making it your problem. This also means that the hasn't had to buy new clothes since he was like...fourteen? , and Gold rarely spends money if he doesn't have to...so he hasnt! Which means that red hoodie with the little flaps he wore during (HGSS)? , he's STILL wearing that fucking thing and let me tell you. It's seen better days. Most of Golds clothes are torn to shreds, worn down or generally covered in so much dirt blood and grime that no amount of washing them will salvage what was once, allegedly, clothing. (This does mean that his goddamn eight pack is hard to miss though. The undershirt is torn to a point where it reveals more than it covers). We call this 'hobo drip'

🧡for a friendship-themed headcanon

This is a headcanon derived partly from my experience writing Gold in multifandom discord roleplay: Despite the fact Gold was always bad at making friends when he was young he now, somehow, knows literally everybody. It's an ongoing joke in some behind the scenes circles that whenever a new pokemon character is introduced to a wider group, Gold is the guy who will know who that person is and have a pre-existing relationship with them. He's just generally not afraid to but his head into conversation , even when it doesn't involve him. It's jarring, but he's somebody more willing to engage with other people on a deeper level than most. Even villains tend to like him at least a little bit, because even when he actively disagrees with their monologue, he had least shows a willingness to try and understand them.

💌for a romance-themed headcanon

Alright lets get to what we're here for- Ahem.

When Gold was a kid up until after he left on his journey, he never knew his father. He lived alone with his (deathly sick) mother. He didn't have many friends growing up but he loved his mom more than anything else in the world, and because she was so sick often spent a lot of his time taking care of her (much to her shagrin). His mother was demur, wore a lot of pink pastelles, was generally pleasant and a total angel of a woman. The exact opposite of Gold, but she was very much dying. They were too poor for surgery, so they were pretty much on borrowed time.

For this reason Gold hates his father. He considers him a walk out who left without saying a word at the expense of his mothers health and happiness, and he resents his father for it. However, Gold is acutely aware of the fact that he's nothing like his mother, which fostered a deep rooted anxiety that he may have taken after his father instead. There are very very few things that put him on edge like that concept. This extends to his views on romance. More specifically, his fear over it. Gold is an individual who is afraid of almost nothing, but romance is the exception. It's an outright phobia that genuinely terrifies him. The possibility that somehow, someway, he will have all his anxiety over the chance he takes after his father confirmed to him by causing harm to somebody he was in a relationship with, either directly or indirectly, is something he just cannot cope with. He flusters easily, but he avoids any further discussion of the matter like the plague.

[nicohischier]

get to know me

tagged by: @hischiersjohnston thank you bestie

didn't tag anyone* due to my chronic fear of being annoying but pls snoop all you like

do you make your bed? no, i'm simply way too lazy in the morning to make my bed.

favourite number? 8! i was born on 8/8 so i guess the number just stuck out to me lol

what’s your job? i'm currently in that super fun period of being recently graduated with no prospects, no experience, and no network. also a lot of anxiety. i'm working on it.

if you could go back to school, would you? yeah. i still might go back in a few years to do education or something.

can you parallel park? once upon a time i could, but now i don't drive (classic lack of car woes) so i'm pretty comfortable in saying i can't parallel park anymore.

do you think aliens are real? yes, absolutely. i'm not saying i believe that there's a whole civilized society hanging out a few billion light years away, but the category of aliens extends into every living life form, no matter how insentient or microscopic. the universe is simply too vast for me to even entertain the idea that earth is the only planet or other celestial body capable of sustaining plant life or single cell organism or whatnot.

can you drive a manual car? no! tbh at this point it's been so long since i've drove period, that idk if i'm even allowed to say i can drive an automatic lmao

guilty pleasure? i cannot deny that i have spent money on genshin to get characters/weapons and while i fully acknowledge that i've given into the gacha trap, i spend responsibly and never in excess. it's a game i genuinely love and i do believe that adults are free to spend their money wherever they wish. some people buy cigarettes, i buy little anime characters.

tattoos? world's saddest no. i would like to get some tho, i'm just generally the type of person who gets super invested in something for a while and then drops it after a while, which includes tattoo ideas. right now i'm flirting with the cassiopeia constellation (name of my favourite kpop groups fandom), "we don't need the memories" which is a team motto from haikyuu, line art of a cat because i'm a cat person, and some others with personal significance. and some more fandom ones. but fandom ones are finicky so. shrug.

favourite colour? i do dearly love the colour red. also a big fan of taupe, which is. probably the most boring answer i could give. "oh yeah my favourite colour? beige." god.

favourite type of music? to the surprise of hopefully none of you, i'm a kpop fan. i also really love whatever genre of music guys like alexander stewart and lewis capaldi make.

do you like puzzles? yes so much! i got so into a puzzle the other day that i was up until 5am doing it like i fr just didn't notice how long i was doing it 😭

any phobias? i used to have such a bad fear of spiders. now it's just big ones that freak me out or ones that are on me. i'm working on getting over it though. bugs in general make me feel a bit sick to me stomach tho i won't lie.

favourite childhood sport? i used to be a gymnastics kid lol. was super into pro gymnasts for a little bit, but generally it was a sport i preferred actually doing.

do you talk to yourself? yes and it's so embarrassing because i fucking do it in public without realizing. one day i was in the bookstore talking myself through choosing a book to buy when someone turned the corner and was like "oh! it's just you!". that was almost my 13th reason i am so fucking serious.

tea or coffee? tea if it's hot, coffee if it's cold.

first thing you wanted to be when growing up? wanted to be a vet soooo bad. then i grew up and realized how scary chemistry and biology are and figured maybe i would leave that to the science brained people 😭

what movies do you adore? well my letterboxd top movies are inception, les miserables, the outsiders, and the old guard which is. sorta accurate. the first three are definitely true. i could slot miracle (2004), brokeback mountain, legally blonde, kingsman, etc. into my fave movies list over TOG if i'm being honest but. yknow how it is.

tagging: @sportsnet tyler do this or else.

[thedissociatives]

tagged by @eriecanal ty :)

1. do you make your bed

no. literally have never seen the point in doing it

2. favorite number

13

3. what’s your job

student :) (can't work and study at the same time but even if i was able to there are like no jobs round here anyway)

4. if you could go back to school, would you?

i am. still a student but like. you could never get me to go back to high school man

5. can you parallel park

i can't drive 😃

6. do you think aliens are real

yes but in the way that i just think it's impossible for the universe to be this big and us be the only form in life in it

7. can you drive a manual car

i can't drive. at all

8. guilty pleasure

not to be that guy but i don't have any guilty pleasures. i like what i like and i simply don't care enough to have a guilty pleasure

9. tattoos

i have one ! having to explain the wings to some ambulance ppl late last year was an Experience tho. i am planning on getting more in the future i just dk what

10. favorite colour

i do wear a lot of red so ig i'll say that because black is too basic of an answer

11. favorite type of music

really enjoying grunge and pop punk recently. i'll listen to anything with a good bassline tho

12. do you like puzzles

they're okay i guess ??

13. any phobias

i fucking hate spiders i literally cannot be in the same room as one but i'm also too scared of them to remove them

14. favourite childhood sport

not to get all british but like. football. i loved being the goalie. basketball was also p fun

15. do you talk to yourself

in my head yeah sometimes. never out loud

16. tea or coffee

always used to only drink coffee but last year i started drinking more tea. gonna say tea because the amount of caffeine in it doesn't make me go weird if i drink it too fast

17. first thing you wanted to be when you grew up

i wanted to be a vet so bad for some reason ?

18. what movies do you adore

i like a good 90s/00s comedy (as long as it hasn't aged too badly). honestly tho i grew up watching guys like eddie murphy and robin williams and i still love anything with either of them

tagging @whitenikes @gordiemeow @petoskeystones and anyone else that wants to do this !

[jez-bez]

Tag game Get To Know Me (if you dare)

I'm not a scary person, I promise, don't worry hehe. Or am I? 👀

I was tagged by the lovely @lilmaemae , here goes babe 💜✨

Do you tidy your bed?

I do! Not always, but yes! Something about coming back to a tidy looking bed makes me more excited to jump into bed than if its untidy. (Though, I'm in bed a lot so, idk... you find the logic in this)

What's your favourite number?

Uhm, I don't have a favorite number? I guess I always like my age until I get to the point half way into the year where I'm like 'ohhh next year I turn xyz year old!' so maybe that's my favorite number? If so, right now it's 25

What is your job?

Right now I work in a grocery store. I have since I was sixteen, to earn my own money, and I never left.

If you could go back to school would you?

Yes. I quit my studies last year due to mental health, but I'd really like to go back and get my bachelor. Not the same studies tho, they changed it drastically when I got to my second year and it's t e r r i b l e now. Also one of the reasons that I quit!

Can you parallel park?

I can! Do I have my license? No.

A job you had that would surprise people

Uhm, well I've really only had the one job but, I've coached kids teams too within my sport?

Do you think aliens are real?

Yeah, I'm positive we're not the only ones out there. Even bacteria on a different planet are already alien.

Can you drive a manual car?

Yes. Again, do I have my license? No.

What's your guilty pleasure?

Uhm... I don't know?

Any phobias?

Spiders, the dark. I can walk at night just fine, but I cannot walk down the stairs into a dark hallway, past dark alley's and other dark space without being scared and having a fight or flight reaction :)

Tattoos

I have 8 tattoos! Mostly tiny ones.

I have:

- A quote: 'to the stars who listen and the dreams that are answered'

- My childhood dog's pawprint

- Quotation marks on my wrist over my veins as in to say 'life'

- A smiley

- A tiny heart

- A paper airplane I got when I was on (my first ever) vacation in Mallorca

- A silhouette of BossNoeul embracing each other (no faces tho cuz I'm not that crazy)

- And a quote that says 'freedom is the oxygen of the soul'

Favorite color?

Sunset orange and sky blue

Favourite type of music?

If I'm to believe my Spotify Wrapped it's mostly Pop, Indie, a little bit of Rock. Idk actually

Do you like puzzles?

No, they break my brain. Make me feel stupid.

Favorite childhood sport?

Korfbal, look it up. I still practice this.

Do you talk to yourself?

No.

Well, yes. Mostly when I do something stupid.

What movie(s) do you adore?

Marvel. Especially movies where the good guy turns bad due to trauma :)

But also feel good movies. They surprise surprise make me feel good.

Coffee or tea?

Tea! I don't drink coffee. At all.

First thing you wanted to be growing up?

A cashier because growing up my mom was a cashier at our local store.

aaaaa okay so that was me! Interesting questions tho!

Mutuals that I'll tag, don't feel forced to participate! But I'd like to get to know yall better <333

@chaeul @copperstown @misshanbb @paperzombie @misshprint @heerotheshiro

[teotalksaboutstuff]

Danganronpa Despair Time Chapter 2: Episodes 3, 4, and 5

Episode 3

-so no teruko traitor reveal? pog 

-monotv’s incompetence makes him my favorite host of any killing game. reminds me a lot of danganronpa: safety’s on, basically DR1 but Monokuma is about as incompetent as MonoTV is. it’s a great read, highly reccommended.

-teruko being bad at caulking a bathroom is so me. also of course monotv isn’t going to reveal the information but him not knowing it himself is interesting.

-hey, nice caulk.

-people changing clothes being this big thing is very funny

-charles’ straight up phobia of blood is uh... there’s clearly something deeper going on here

-teruko, put the fucking knife away. as much as it’s within reason that you’d be this paranoid, this does make you look like you are trying to murder Charles here, at least to him.

-id love to know whose motive Charles had, now that Teruko’s got it.

-loving charles and teruko actually being friends of some sort now that their positions have basically reversed since chapter 1.

-Chiteruko? i actually like the idea of those three as a polycule and want to see more whit/teruko interactions.

-MonoTV jumping on charles XD

-teruko playing with cacti i literally cannot???? best scene in chapter 2 by FAR

-living for the eden jumpscare here

-THE EDEN GREMLIN SPRITE MAKES ITS APPEARANCE. GOD I LOVE HER.

-Eden’s hope speech is also iconic. Her knowing the world is kinda fucked but still being kind anyways is something Teruko clearly needed to hear.

Episode 4

-what is the tea

-the gurlz are fighting

-naur

-teruko sandwich duck face

-ace markey, the ultimate allistic

-by all rules of danganronpa arei should have died here, and i am so grateful monotv isn’t competent enough to actually enforce the rules but at the same time is arei the mastermind? ofc he wouldn’t kill the mastermind.

-veronika living for the fights is also very me

-’you’ve been acting jerkishly as well’ eden she is literally being deadnamed and STALKED are you blind. J is 100% in the right here.

-nico fucking roasting ace is funny, and i get why he’d think its constructive criticism because i too am autistic and would think much the same.

-see, veronika gets it

-when death threats are the only way to properly resolve an argument

-arei lashing out at monotv is iconic tbh

-jesus christ arei yeah that reaction is a sensible one given your circumstances

-”hey, just so you know, failed hanging attempts are pretty painful” teruko wtf, im not entirely sure how that was intended to be helpful?

-we know what the tea is

-the gurlz are still fighting

-naur

-teruko has 99 problems and these bitchez aren’t about to be number 100

-charles making cucumber flowers is iconic

-DAVID YES YOU STEP IN THERE AND HELP THEM

-yeah people are gonna be... super hesitant about the motive secret thing, and teruko defo needs to talk to the person whose motive was originally charles’ as well as rose, whose she has

-see, j at least has the decency to ask the person before telling their secret

-eden has a dude’s motive secret evidently, maybe levi’s? that would be significant.

-who is the someone they’re inviting

Episode 5

-Arei’s typical ew reaction to everything, unsurprising. Makes sense she’d want to talk about motive though given her position.

-Granted leaving Arei out was before Xander died but nO AREI YOU ARE BECOMING A WORSE TERUKO LIKE AM I THE ONLY ONE NOTICING THE PARALLEL HERE OR AM I SEEING THEM WHERE THERE ARENT ANY?

-Teruko’s reaction being what it is does not surprise me.

-MORE AREI GREMLIN SPRITES WOOT

-oh wow arei actually wasn’t bluffing when she said she had nothing to hide

-is _ illegal nahhhh let arei be a girlboss yall just dont want to see women win

-teruko please stop acting as if you have any moral high ground here 

-i mean unless something like this happened to you then thats another matter entirely

-the true arei trauma dump. contextualizes literally everything about her in a way that actually makes me fascinated with her as a wonderfully complex character. 

-naturally this would develop into a philosophy where kindness is weakness, yeah

-DAVREI??? FUCK YES I SHIP IT!!

-ah, rose time

-yass art therapy, but i can understand why teruko was so freaked out by it

-in all fairness i dont know how you would respond to someone saying the stuff rose was about teruko

-TERUKO THATS LIKE SAYING I HATE YOU TO AN ARTIST?? LIKE CMON TERUKO YOU ARE MAKING IT REALLY HARD FOR ME TO DEFEND YOU THIS CHAPTER

-naturally, rose is fine with the secret coming out. she even has her own trauma dump scene with teruko

-i mean we been knew that teruko didn’t actually mean any of that and now rose maybe does?

-nico was mother for that tbh

-please don’t forget him down there ;-;

-the implication that nico actually likes the teruko gore art is an interesting one

-loving how nico wants rose to teach him painting omg