#Neurot Records
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hee hee i know i probably should have consolidated all the stars into one post but im gonna use this as an excuse to talk about multiple sections lmao
This is another part in chapter 4 that people haven't said too too much about for understandable reasons--it mostly just reads like a fluffy flashback to add to the emotional distress of the current situation:
(It stopped after a few months. Falin never really knew why, nor did she think very much of it — not until it came up in conversation again some years after the fact. “I guess I just felt really awkward — I knew you were a quiet kid, so I felt like I had to compensate, maybe,” Marcille admitted with an apologetic laugh. “It took me a while to realize you didn’t care if I had anything to say or not.” “That’s not true…” A brighter laugh, this time. “I didn’t mean it like that. It was more… hm… how do I put this?” She tapped her bottom lip with her finger and stared at the ceiling a bit, ears tilting slightly downwards. “More like, you didn’t mind if I didn’t feel like talking.” “Why would I mind?” Marcille smiled at her warmly — it was a special smile, one that Falin loved, because Marcille was always smiling brightly and cheerfully. Or, she was calm and graceful, guiding the other students through a difficult concept with all the gentleness in the world. But this one was soft and warm and so very sincere, Falin couldn’t help but hope she was the only person Marcille smiled like this for. “Exactly.” Falin didn’t get it — but then Marcille draped her arm around her shoulders and pulled her closer, so she guessed it was fine if she didn’t. “Maaan, you’ve been growing like a weed lately — I can’t even fit you under my arm anymore!” Marcille threw her other arm around Falin too, clinging close and nuzzling the side of her head. “What am I gonna do if you get as tall as I am? Just stop growing and stay like this forever, I’m begging you—!”)
But! It's kind of one of my own favourite parts about this chapter because of how one-sided and limited the perspective is here: we're seeing Marcille through Falin's eyes, in the form of a memory, from when she was a kid.
My primary focus in this scene was to capture a floaty, kind of detached approach to other people that Falin had as a child--it wasn't that she didn't care, it was more of a childlike resignation that she doesn't understand people, never will, and just kind of going with the flow. She hadn't really learned to mask or be vigilant towards other people's moods yet, in essence. I hope that you can clearly read Falin's detailed and attentive adoration of Marcille juxtaposed with a deeply uncurious attitude towards Marcille's inner thoughts and feelings beyond what she's willing to share.
The other thing I wanted to show was a glimpse of just how much Falin was also Marcille's first friend outside of her family in ways that were so important to her, even if Falin never realized. In my head, the way she approached her social life was colored by some weird and deeply rooted belief that no one would ever bother with her if she wasn't as smart as she was. She had trouble getting accepted into schools as a kid, meaning that she and her parents did apply and were rejected--the magic academy is the first time she's ever been able to be in a social environment without her family, and she got in because she was already an accomplished mage who was fully qualified to be in the research track.
So for Falin to make her feel safe, and like she didn't have to be either helpful or entertaining for someone to enjoy her company meant a great deal to her. Falin didn't care, and couldn't even conceive of a reason why anyone would dislike that Marcille didn't have interesting things to say all the time. In much more subtle ways, Falin's unconditional acceptance of Marcille was much of a first and a revelation for Marcille as Marcille was to Falin.
(So it's unfortunate that there's such a disconnect--Falin thinks that Marcille is just uncomfortable with her like a stranger again. Marcille, on the other hand, is freaking out because her anxiety and insecurity have been renewed, and she doesn't really know how to handle the fact that she wants Falin to find her attractive and interesting and all that.
In a happier and lighter story, this would all be resolved without further hurt and miscommunication :) but we all know that's not what you're here for.)
#asks#a little creature#in all honesty it's a huge surprise im doing my major character study from falin's pov instead of marcille's#considering my track record for LOVING to dig my fingers into the strange neurotic little minds of competent women#who never let themselves just be happy for fucking once in their lives and construct elaborate rituals around their self-worth and vanity#ok there's another star in here but im gonna save it for later bc i have no brainspace and it's gonna be about laios and falin#and that's like. an incredibly personal topic for me tbh LMAO
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#4y records#4yr#4yr fanart#4y guy#foamy#foamy the squirrel#neurotically yours#ill will press#ydkj#you don't know jack#ydkj hosts#cookie masterson#yes he's on 2nd pic looking at weird al cd#he's younger here tho
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He doesn't have time to shower because hes too busy being a terrible cashier
#4y-records#illwillpress#4y records#4yr#ill will press#foamy the squirrel#neurotically yours#4y guy#fluffishere art#art#fanart
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A few months ago,I redrew an old oc of mine from 2021 ( I was 16 when I made her ),her name is Gwen, and of course she is a gothic bby ( and is 19 ).
✨ extra info ✨
- She has a little bit of a Scottish accent
- she shops at 4y- records ( but is really there for the clerk 4y guy,bc she has a little crush on him )
- book worm
- owns a lot of spiritual stuff, mostly spirit crystals
- gives the best hugs
- she adores Black cats
- if she had a favorite squirrel,it would definitely be foamy
🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
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#once again i am asking that you listen to this album#marissa nadler#songs of townes van zandt vol III#neurot recordings#country#townes van zandt#Bandcamp
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boss today was like "why do all the neurotic girls go for you". funniest part is she hasn't even met my wife
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Negative Youth by Final from the album 3
#music#final#justin k broadrick#justin broadrick#justin karl michael broadrick#justin karl broadrick#neurot#neurot recordings#experimental#ambient
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Lucy's upside down cross collar has 2 meanings, if she takes it off it will form woman symbol ♀, and the upside down cross is to represent how the church mistreats LGBT and women by often labeling them as wrongdoers.
#the goat has a pentagram#scapegoat#it's pretentious#which is why it's a one off tumblr post at 8:59 in the morning when im neurotic#the ones who miss this post will have to find the meaning through my drawings or make their own conclusions#for the record i do believe
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SAKEVI -- RANDY -- CLOUDY -- HIROSHIMA.
PIC(S) INFO: Spotlight on two promotional and/or record adverts for Tokyo-based hardcore punk/heavy metal band G.I.S.M., c. 1985 and 1987 (promoting their "Militaly Affairs Neurotic" full-length on Beast Arts).
Sources: www.picuki.com/profile/fortbraggmagazine (pics found on two separate picuki sites).
#GIZUMU#GISM#G.I.S.M.#Sakevi#80s#80s punk#Metal punk#Sakevi Yokoyama#Japanese Metal#80s Metal#Beast Arts#Record Adverts#Japanese hardcore punk#Anarchy Violence#Japanese hardcore#Military Affairs Neurotic#Randy Uchida#Punk metal#1987#Japanese punk#Militaly Affairs Neurotic#Tokyo punk#Heavy Metal#M.A.N.#Extreme Music#Record Ads#ギズム#Tokyo hardcore#Print Ads#GUERRILLA INCENDIARY SABOTAGE MUTINEER
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#4y records#4y guy#4yr#4yr fanart#ill will press#neurotically yours#foamy the squirrel#foamy#art#fanart
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now that i have accepted that i do. own that cd i am actually so annoyed that they overcharged me… in a way i do feel like it was deserved and i find it sooo funny to consider the possibility that it was on PURPOSE but like. they charged me double the price
#either the record store employee sensed that i was too neurotic to confront him if he overcharged me and he took advantage of that OR#he just really hates that man. i like to think it’s the second option i don’t want to think some guy took advantage of me#or it was an honest mistake it could have been a mistake!#thoughts
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this isn't meant to be derogatory but i think one massive sign that someone's a newbie artist is the way they add very prominent warnings not to repost their work
#it's bc they (ie. me) have seen a lot of like. art youtubers and others who make content ABOUT creating art stress the evils of reposting#which isn't wrong. reposting someone's online work is Bad in the context of individual smaller artists#but like. babygirl. i say this in the nicest way possible. nobody knows your art exists let alone is planning to repost it#i feel like after a certain amount of fame artists get more chill about reposts since they're kind of inevitable at that point#plus a larger artist isn't really harmed that much by it#and vice versa i feel like the people most stressed about reposts are newbies who. aren't really at risk of reposts#for the record this is not endorsing reposts. credit the fucking artist or die#it's just. a trend i've noticed#(or maybe i'm just surrounded by more chill artists and there are actually plenty of famous artists who are neurotic about reposts. idk)#apologies if this isn't structued very well I'm. rambling#not art™#art#reposting#edit: oh yeah forgot to add i think it's also a lack of perspective (which tbf is kind of obvious)#a lot of young artists online view the discourse(?) around making art through a very online lens since that's all their exposed to#which shows through even in vocabulary like 'repost'#anyways i need to go 2 Bed goodnight#i say all this like i'm some big artist lol. i'm not i'm just in that awkward intermediate phase#both skill wise and popularity wise (though ik popularity doesn't actually work* like that)#*like you cannot work to gain online popularity the way you can work to improve art skill. it's primarily luck that gets you Big#and very few people get lucky anyway goodnight for real now
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normal again . sorry
#trailcam recordings#i am not immune to neurotic two-faced little freak#hes the worst . literally zero redeeming qualities. OBJECTIVELY cringe guy#absolute fucking hamster of a man#and yet .
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Slung presents: Neurotic
The music connects with the lyrics
Emerging alt-grunge quartet Slung have revealed a blistering debut single which shows just what this band are capable of. It’s out today via Fat Dracula. Opening ominously, the track builds to a devastating crescendo with vocalist Katie Oldham baring her soul, really tapping into the fear of not having control over your life or the things around you. The delightfully vulnerable and self-aware track is inspired by truly personal and confessional songwriting.
Oldham explains her process: “There’s something quite validating about hearing someone admit to things about themselves that they’re not proud of, but not ashamed of either, and I was considering what kind of confession would be true for me.
The song is a series of small moments from my life that have been representative of this more encompassing overall fear of disempowerment and relinquishing control. Being the passenger of a bad driver and there’s nothing you can do but sit tight and hope you’ll make it to your destination safely, the feeling of imminent sickness and physically not being able to prevent it from happening, a recurring dream of being born with superpowers, but then one day, when everyone’s counting on you, your power just disappears and you have no idea how to bring it back.
To me, the song is representative of so much vulnerability: imposter syndrome, fear of letting people down, fear of failure, losing control, literal disempowerment...”
Check also the videoclip below:
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Neurotic is a confession, a glimpse into all the little ways we seek to control the world around us so we don’t spiral into nihilism. And yet how ultimately, the only thing we can really do is let go.
Photo: Arabella Wynne-Hughes
SLUNG ARE: Katie Oldham - vocals, Ali Johnson - guitar, Ravi Martin - drums, Vlad Matveikov - bass.
You can see Slung live in the flesh ripping up stages in the UK and the EU on various dates over the rest of 2024. Details below.
The four members of Slung currently find themselves flung across Europe but Brighton is their spiritual home. A tight-knit crew of the formerly gifted and talented, Slung deliver blistering riffs, sinister drums and sugary sweet vocals, all wrapped up in a tasty tortellini of 90's slacker rock nostalgia. The group, featuring former members of Sit Down, The Death of Us & Intechnicolour, formed in 2023 with the ambition of finally finishing demos that had existed for years. On first rehearsal, the chemistry was instant and Slung stormed through the writing and recording of their upcoming debut album.
SLUNG ON TOUR:
Tickets available here
19 Sept - London - The Black Heart (supporting Masca)
05 Oct - Brighton - Dust (supporting Gaffa Tape Sandy)
25 Oct - Alton - The Lounge Bar
26 Oct - Cheltenham - The Frog & Fiddle
30 Oct - Reading - Purple Turtle
31 Oct - Brighton - The Hope (Super Special Halloween Set)
02 Nov - Bristol - Exchange Basement
14 Nov - Madrid - Sala Wurlitzer
15 Nov - Castellon - Pub Terra
16 Nov - Valencia - 16 Toneladas
22 Nov - Torquay - The Apple & Parrot
24 Nov - London - The Victoria
06 Dec - Nottingham - JT Soar
07 Dec - Brighton - Alphabet
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I dont get a satisfaction out of "i told you so" most of the time but proving a therapist wrong does kinda fuck in its own way.
#For the record i have a decent relationship with my therapist#but when she tries to “well not ALL...” ptsd thought patterns... girl. i just prefer to be neurotic im sorry at least it keeps u in a job m
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