#Nah more like Cry with Me

[lethal-spaceship]

Doodles n personal designs n shit.

I also do traditional doodles....

[skitskatdacat63]

Fernando Alonso & His Relationship With Cards

I'm sure we're all familar with the cards on the back of Fernando's Vegas GP helmet by now, but did you know his relationship with cards goes a lot deeper?

I. Magic Tricks

You've probably seen or heard someone at least mention Fernando's propensity for card tricks. As far as I can tell he was doing them(publically) as far back as 2003 all the way to as recently as 2018. Even once performing a card trick, with a condom and a teddy bear(!??!?!??!!), in front of Valentino Rossi who said "How was that possible?"(x)

But how did this start? According to James Allen, "Fernando admits to having been heavily influenced by his grandfather, a mercurial figure, who taught him magic and card tricks, still one of his passions away from the race track."(x) And I'm not sure the validity of this one, because I couldn't find an actual source, but apparently he once said: "My parents are responsible for the two things I like doing most - driving and magic tricks. They bought me my first go-kart and a magician's kit."

In several interviews he described it as his hobby off track, and that he loved learning new tricks and surprising others in the garage with them! So clearly cards are pretty important to him both as a hobby but also to who he is as a person since they've been with him just as long as racing has.

II. Card Symbolism in His Helmets

This is the reason I originally made this post, but I thought I should also explain the origins of his card fascination first. As I said, we probably all remember the cards on the back of his helmet in Vegas, but did you know that wasn't the first time he had cards on the back of his helmet?

From 2008-2013, he used to have a pair of cards on the back of his helmets. The symbolisms of the cards themselves as well as the evolution of their design is really fascinating to me! Even more so with the recent development of the card choice in 2023.

Fernando said he wanted to reference his two titles in some way on the back of his helmet and after his friend sent him several ideas, he decided on having two cards(an ace of clubs and an ace of hearts, sometimes pictured with 05 and 06 on them as well), saying: "I picked the cloverleaf [the ace of clubs - Ed] to give me luck, but the only pity is that it doesn't have four leaves!"(X)

2008.

Here's the very first appearance of the cards! They're displayed flat, with the 05 and 06 clearly visible

2009.

Very similar to 2008, but with a slightly different design, and they're maybe a bit more straight with less shadow?

2010.

This is the first major change! I was sad they didn't have the years on them anymore, but then I realized they're sparkly to match with his signature lightning bolts on the top of the helmet!!

2011.

Honestly I'm still somewhat unsure if this is the actual 2011 helmet? It's pretty difficult to find clear photos of the back of helmets from older seasons. It's easiest to find them on replica sites or auction sites so I'm not 100%? But anyways, I like that this has the championship years on the underside of the cards

2012.

This is when I started getting weirdly emotional about the helmets. Do you see how they've progressed from being a centerpoint to being curled up and sad at the bottom of the helmet? Not listing the year anymore??

2013.

Same thoughts as 2012. And after this season, they cease to exist (just like his ferrari chair in the garage, WOAH CALLBACK), until cards make a reeappearance in his Vegas helmet, albeit in a different form

2013 Monaco(Honorable Mention):

For some reason 2013 helmets were easier to find proper pictures of, so I happened to witness this absolute beauty. The creativity of this helmet genuinely blows me away??? Wanting to keep the card motif, but making sure to incorporate it into the rest of the puzzle piece design?? Mwah! There was another special 2013 helmet but they didn't change the cards at all so I really applaud this one

2023 Las Vegas(The Return of The King):

The magnificent return! But look! The cards are different cards! Instead of being two aces, it's now an ace of hearts, a four of hearts(his driver number of course!) and, the, now iconic, representation of himself as a Joker. I literally could not believe my eyes when this helmet was released and I saw the Joker card, what a fucking silly old man....I really wonder if he felt nostalgic having cards on his helmet again or if he didn't think about it all and was just like, "ah cards because Vegas!!!"

III. Why Does This Matter?

*The rest of the post was factual, this is moreso my personal thoughts on the symbolism of the cards/designs

This post spawned from me recently watching the 2010 Bahrain gp and noticing "hey wait a minute...are those CARDS ON THE BACK OF HIS HELMET!?" It's a really tiny detail that's unfortunately covered up by the HANS device pretty much whenever he's wearing the helmet, so it's really difficult to spot! But I became fascinated with the fact that he had cards on his helmet before that recent helmet, and now here we are!

There's something to me about how the design of the cards evolves over the course of six seasons from the cards being front and center to being smaller, more folded up and closer to the bottom of the helmet. As I said, the 2012-2013 ones genuinely made me depressed because it feels, symbolically, like his hopes for getting another Ace are becoming more and more unlikely and falling away until they eventually fall falt and fade away entirely after 2013 and disappear for basically a decade.

But when they return? They're not the same cards! Instead of representing Fernando's championships, they now represent him as a person, displaying his driver number and his persona of being a Joker!! Though I do think it's interesting he happened to keep the Ace of Hearts, even though he talked more about the Ace of Clubs before. I'm not sure it's actually this deep in reality, but I like to think that it's him not letting his championships(and the lack thereof) define him, but rather letting who he is as a person shine and be the centerpoint instead! But on a sadder note, as @suzuki-ecstar said to me, maybe the Aces aren't there anymore because he's lost all hope for a chance at a third Ace entirely :(

[shrimparts-blog888]

Please,god,please. Can you draw Apple looking at a marshmellow like those and thinking about Darling because the palette is simular?

🤲🏻 u ask and shall receive

[princessjadyn15]

I have told her that his backstory is tragic, I just haven’t told her his actual back story. I think all I told her is that his best friend died in front of him

[gunsatthaphan]

so anyway happy 1st anniversary to this historical moment.

[cyanide-sippy-cup]

Oh, a new TADC episode. Why didn't I get notified? Eh, whatever. Can't wait to watch-

GOOSE WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO MY HEART

[aurorangen]

My babies have graduated 🥹

[jerswayman]

SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP

TRENT FREDERIC WHAT THE FUCK

what do you mean "i'm sorry you got my jersey, that's a tough draw, you were one away from swayman 😔" BUDDY YOU BETTER STOP THAT RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I WILL COME TO BOSTON AND I WILL FIGHT YOU IN THE MIDDLE OF PLAYOFFS

AND THEN the fan is like "i'm happy with yours 😊"

logging out of this website to cry forever oh my god

FREDDY SELF LOVE CHALLENGE PLEASE

[edmione]

The fact that this is the only way we know he is alive. Anyway, this is precious, Mr. Chapman.

And can we talk about Ruby?? She looks as if she just came out of the golden years. This women- I swear-

[theflyingfeeling]

yes it's just me whining about the same thing for the billionth time, pls just scroll past nothing new to see here 👋

[m00ns0ng]

i’m gonna need y’all to read this reaalll slowly

fanfic writers do not need to to cater to you or your tastes

if YOU want to see a certain type of fanfic more, YOU should write it instead of complaining

fanfic writers do NOT need to cater to you or your tastes

if YOU🫵🏾 see shit in fanfic you don’t want to, then don’t read it. not every fanfic is going to match your taste.

stop acting like it’s the end of the world just because certain fanfic fads are popular. it’s not that deep.

FANFIC WRITERS DO NOT NEED TO CATER TO YOU OR YOUR TASTES

you want to see more of something? write it and then post it. maybe you’ll inspire others and see more fics of what you want.

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

[kicks door down]

Autistic Nishiki whose special interest is fashion and not only considers what's trendy but also looks out for fabrics that aren't a sensory nightmare, however sometimes he will force himself to wear something that isn't comfy for appearance's sake, which leaves him more vulnerable to getting overwhelmed and therefore 'emotional' Also means he has his collar popped like Kiryu's for sensory reasons too and slutty reasons, which would once again make me correct in saying if he undid his collar in Kiwami he'd be normal again because if I were constantly experiencing sensory discomfort I too would be fucked up and evil.

Cause like here's the thing, autistic Kiryu and Majima headcanons are more obvious (especially the former), whereas Nishiki probably comes off as the most 'normal'; he can likely maintain eye contact and talk to people 'normally' and not like, go off on some random tangent about a special interest or hyperfixation. And then you remember masking is a thing.

And okay, so I actually think it's unfair a lot of fandom considers him a 'crybaby' right, cause he's cried in situations MOST PEOPLE WOULD RIGHTFULLY CRY OVER! BUT, I can use this to my Autistic Advantage and have this be he actually struggles to regulate his emotions, and considering he's been exposed to the yakuza world since a young age where ANY emotion that isn't 'respectable stoicism' or 'righteous fury and indignation', he's seen as even MORE overly emotional. Hence the need to start masking so early, PLUS having to protect Kiryu who couldn't mask if his life depended on it because he doesn't realise he may HAVE to (speaking from personal experience, Kiryu definitely went his whole life unaware there was anything ""wrong"" with him (for lack of a better word) and had people just like "oh yeah he's just Like That dw bout it" and went on with his life), so Nishiki takes up the mantle of I'm The One Who Knows What We're Doing Lad's desperate to gain acceptance and will change whatever he has to but people still somehow pick up that Something's Off About Him and so they tend to be disdainful or brush him off. It's easy charisma that can win over hostesses and brief encounters with civillians but can't carry across in the yakuza. Kiwami is him trying his DAMNDEST to act neurotypical even at the cost of his own comfort, and the worst part is it's not working

[seventh-district]

so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh

[jils-things]

UUUHHHMMM...JMJM..M.M.M

Hi Jil 🥰

IAKIKGM IM SO FUCKIGN AWKAE I JUST WOKE UP INJEUTOWOERUOU.............................................................

[ashers-selfships]

You know what idgaf about cringe anymore I'm gonna ramble about Onceler x my sona (Bonnie) (I think I posted my sona like a few days ago or so but I only recently came up with a name for them)

I drew Onceler for the first time on a Magma I did with a friend he's so SHMOOPY (also the little nicknames are what they call each other. Grins)

They have so much angst potential and I think that's made obvious in the song lyrics that I associate with them jdjejdjedb, I know I have more but these are the specific ones that have been on my mind lately

Bonnie has much more faith in the Onceler than the Lorax does, and as much as they like to pick on him they really believed in him and loved how passionate and optimistic he was and thought he could do good . So you can imagine how heartbroken they were when he broke his promise and started cutting down trees again oh my days

Also I had a cute little idea where like. Okay so all the thneeds are pink for some fucking reason even though not all the truffula trees are pink but I just write that off as him dyeing them for uniformity, BUT, at some point Onceler gives Bonnie a specially made yellow thneed (because they're Yellow) (also this definitely happens before he breaks his promise and is still hand-knitting the thneeds). Bonnie pretends like they think it's lame because the Lorax is there too but when it's just them and the Onceler, they get all sappy and thank him and hug him because it means a lot to them

And then That Happens thank you Sage

[starboy-ships]

i GOTTA stop looking into the tag for my boyfriend because half of it is content related to a ship between him and another character and the other half of the tag is people hating on him (which fair, but then they kinda imply that if you like him you condone the actions or are secretly a creep and like NOOOOOO i don't like that he hit on Eridan OR Karkat actually i think that was weird as fuck - Hussie die by my blade) like AGGHHHHH i just wanna look at my BOYFRIEND in peace