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So I've officially become a ticking time bomb lmao (I wish I was joking but this isn't much of a stretch)
Almost exactly a week ago my heart rate randomly spiked to about 120 BPM while I was crossing a footbridge on my campus and it almost laid my ass out. I had my first solo ER experience (and surprised the nurses with how thorough I am at describing my medical history and symptoms (basically I got a good grade in ER)) but they basically told me to go home when it became evident my heart wasn't gonna immediately explode and that they couldn't do anything for me. So I got discharged 2.5 hours later with the number to the cardiologist office and instructions to get an appointment in 2-3 days.
And that appointment (that took for FUCKING EVER to schedule) ended with the doc being like "It's anxiety 😀" and me wanting to kill him because the testing he scheduled was 2 weeks out and I was still, 3 days later, having issues with my heart rate flying into the 110s and dropping into the 60s at random.
So I bitched to my mother and she got concerned (which is uncharacteristic for her when I bitch about medical things because 25 years of working in healthcare and 50+ years of being chronically ill will do that to you) so I decided to take matters into my own hands and move up the one test I didn't need a doc for.
So now I'm attached to a heart rate monitor for the next 5 days to map my currently very fucky fluctuations in heart rate.
But! The new ones are very unobtrusive! It's basically the size of a thumb drive and attached by one sticker. I can even shower or swim if I wanted to with it on. I press a button when ever I feel symptoms and it flags the report for the doc to see. Kinda cool even though this shit sucks.
#irl#health shit#heart problems#anyone want to armchair diagnose me?#my current contenders are POTS or an arrhythmia#My heart also could just#not work#Wouldnt be the first birth defect and wouldnt be the last#POTS is a contender because it does seem to loosely correlate to my posture temperature and movement#Also because my voice teacher who im friends with was like “that sounds like POTS babe” when i was bitching to her#(her husband has elhers danlos and POTS)#And i felt like i was living the furry artist crohns disease post
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I don't want to regret the way I lived
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#nobara kugisaki#nanami kento#choso kamo#junpei yoshino#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#this idea started as a 2 part series . then my braincells decided to spark and supplied 7 PAGES#'did you sleep hina' no#ws looking up mentally stable things like 'who has died in jjk' smh i love my hyperfixation media im sooooo glad so many ppl r DEAD#i *could* have included more ppl but i think this is a good crew. this is a yuuji emotional support crew#also Was gna include his grandpa final panel but i Did Not Want To#he is implied through th dialogue#side note i donot like how i cn see this scenario playing out . ..yuuji this isnt ur stop u r monopoly voice Just Visiting ok >:(#anyway I broke my own heart with this and ik i hyped it up a lot but i hope that its not just me...#hope i did not hype it up fr nothing and no one else finds it devastating :((((( that would b humbling in the worst way#pls ...join the happy party train.......i hate it here i suffered pls :<<<<#also !!!! colours in this !! i cooked i fear . adding th first bit of warm hitting yuuji's face after th first 2 panels....#ive never had that kind of experience while drawing before it was wild . painful ! but wild.#the whole transition from p 2->3 might b the most emotionally moving piece ive ever made to me#not 2 sing my own praises tho i will shut up ! i wil. nap
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literally the king of oneliners
[part 2]
#it's about time people start appreciating my boy!!!! he's so FUNNY!!!!#no WONDER lucius wants him carnally#the key to a girl(gn)'s heart is through laughter#also matthew maher is completely and utterly fuckable but we're not ready for that convo#black pete#ofmd#our flag means death#ofmd s2#ofmd season 2#these are just the ones i could think of#PLS add onto this if you have more#matthew maher#ofmd s2 spoilers
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need to exist in your warmth (id in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#blood tw#ruporas art#love u when i get to cuddle u and love u when i get to feel ur blood soak into my hands#being this close to one another means the eternal suffering of trying to separate love and mission. love for one and love for humanity#i like to think of pre-vol8 vash as someone who struggles with his feelings for ww bc as equal and as trusted he is -#vash knows his responsibilities and he knows/expects ww wouldn't let him stray from it either. for that he can't take to any romantic incli#and i think itd make him view ww in a stricter non-personal way... If that makes ANY sense.#for ww - take someone who youv gotten close to and ended up liking more than you expected#someone who has a belief and follows it stubbornly - someone who'll get into more fights and trouble more than youv had your entire life#ww thinks of him as a monster but he knows theres a limit he himself can take - i feel like hes considered what might be the limit for vash#for Safety measures. just in case. yknow. whenever he himself might have to load the bullet < him hyping himself up as if he could do it#my point being that the thought of vash being dead crosses his mind more than he'd like. i think its a simultaneous dread drop in his stoma#for failure of the mission - but also an Ok? They can be killed? and also a disastrous gunning of his own heart. considering how much they#both live in their own heads some days are Just the worst ever for them in each others company. but also they lov each other :[ sooo much
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for context: I read the hobbit first over the course of two years when I was like 13, but I'm only now starting to read lotr. having a blast tho!
anyways, reblog if you feel like it 🙌🏻
#lord of the rings#the hobbit#lotr#hobbit#yeah guys idk i just feel like most people read it really young#but jolkein is really wordy and idk how y'all got through that at 8 yo#my attention span could neverrrrrr#obviously not as wordy as like. les mis. but you know what i mean.#lots and lots of context all the time. love that for his worldbuilding not so much for my hold on the plot#and yes i have watched the movies#i didn't completely miss the cultural zeitgeist#yay first time making a poll! if you vote or read my tags this far you are a gem 🫶🏻#edit: i realize i spelled tolkien wrong. i feel like this proves my point#but also i feel like thats something you spell with your heart and not your mind
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“After 200 years, you can forget how much color there is in the world.”
#my art#astarion#astarion and halsin#halsin#halstarion#<- gift for my lovely friend#Astarion deeply has my heart though#I have caught the BG3 bug BAD#i just want him to be happy#baldurs gate 3#bg3#bg3 fanart#I just can’t stop thinking about how beautiful the world must be to him now that he can see it again#it’s almost like a second chance#at loving the world around him#and halsin could show him so much#also the flower is a white amaryllis#which is supposed to represent new beginnings.#anyway i love them
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I do think Blazing Saddles handled its one depiction of native americans very poorly, and the full extent of its representation of chinese workers on the railroad is they were literally just there. not even one single speaking line. unclear if this is worse or better than the redface.
it's fucking phenomenal at lampooning antiblack racism though. extremely blatant, extremely funny satire, which is constantly and loudly saying "racism is the philosophy of the terminally stupid at best and morally depraved at worst, and we should all be pointing and laughing at them 24/7"
plus the main character is a heroic black man who has to navigate a whole lot of bullshit but is constantly smirking at the extraordinarily stupid racists and inviting the audience into the joke. the one heroic white character is a guy who was suicidally depressed until he met the protagonist and they just instantly became buds, and he's firmly in a supporting role the whole time and happy to be there. the protagonist saves the day with the help of his black friends from the railroad, and uses the position of power he was given to uplift not only those friends, but all the railroad workers of other minorities too, in an explicit show of solidarity.
anyone saying "Blazing Saddles is racist" had better be talking about its treatment of non-black minorities. it had better not be such superficial takes as "oh but they say the n-word all the time" or "they have nazis and the kkk in there!" because goddamn if that's the full extent of your critique I very seriously suggest you read up on media analysis. there is too much going over your head, you need to learn to recognize satire.
#blazing saddles#finx watches tv#finx rambles#I recognize that I'm saying all this as someone who's not black#but I am also saying it as someone with a basic understanding of race relations in the usa#and a basic understanding of sarcasm#bc it really does not take more than that to recognize what they're doing in this movie#it is NOT subtle#and it is very funny#mel brooks movies are kinda hit or miss for me ngl#men in tights is great if a bit too crass for my taste#spaceballs has great jokes but the central story lacks any real heart so it doesn't grab me#history of the world was just kind of unpleasant and then I switched it off#but blazing saddles? phenomenal#I could not stop laughing the whole way through#and the central story DOES have heart bc it's the friendship between bart and#whassisname#jim#the Kid#plus bart working out how to succeed at an impossible task#also frankly cleavon little just grounds the comedy really well even before gene wilder shows up and we get their chemistry#bc he's cool calm collected and constantly inviting the audience into the joke#but the character's not too cool to ever mess up or ever be silly#he makes bad choices and gets into bad situations and then has to get himself out of them#but it's.....oh wait duh there's a term for this already#he's the straight man#he grounds all the zany nonsense by being in strong contrast to it#and he does a great job of it!#anyway#point is I deeply enjoyed this movie and I'm glad I finally watched it
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fire cannot kill a dragon BITCH
#a song of ice and fire#game of thrones#asoiaf#got#mine.png#i have no clue what dany era this is i just wanted to see if i could get down how i think book dany looks just like. in general#results are inconclusive#also ive been doing like exclusively multimedia w either sketching or doing full colored pencil first and then taking a picture#on portrait mode ☝🏻#and finishing the rest in procreate so if things look weird thats like#why#im figuring stuff out lmao#and like! where ae the highlights on her coming from?? idk but surely not that fire#daenerys targaryen#adding tags bc my tags are my safe space and if ur reading them then. ur in this with me i locked the door i secured the chains..#just realized that lowkey with how daenerys is described as being just like#ethereally pretty as per the targ pretty gene#i sort of picture her face as like#one of those insanely pretty girls u see on tiktok and they just like naturally have a disney princess face#no makeup bc their skin is perfect and their lashes are naturally super thick and long#thats dany to me#this face ate an entire raw horse heart <3
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I love libraries.
I'm browsing the WWI shelves (as you do) and notice a very old book about the war. I glance at the first pages that talk about how one day the war will be over and we'll look at this place and not see any signs of the battlefield.
Then it hits me. And I check the publishing date.
This book was printed before the war's end. Not written. Printed. The physical object was created in 1918, while the war in question was raging and the end was as yet uncertain.
Now I'm standing on the other side of the apocalypse, with this physical link to that era in my hands. I'm living proof that the war did end and life did go on and we can all look at the end of the world as a long-ago memory.
Reading old books is cool enough, connecting our minds and hearts through the ideas of people who lived long ago, but there's something extra profound about holding a copy of the book that comes from the time that it was written. It's a physical link between the past and the present connecting me to those long-ago people. A piece of the past come into the future that gives me the chance to almost take the hand of some long-ago reader, to hold something they could have held, connecting not just mentally but physically to their era, a moment of connection across more than a century.
Excuse me while I go weep.
#books#history is awesome#of course i checked it out#i had no real intent to read wwi non-fic but i couldn't just leave my new friend there it'd be lonely#i want to break out in tears every time i look at it#it's so stupid but sometimes something stupid just kicks you straight in the heart and you just gotta deal#it's old front line by john masefield#i know nothing about it except thinking the author's name sounded vaguely familiar#also the interior design is fantastic#these old books know how to use white space and make something super readable#if you must know i was in the wwi section because i was at the history museum the other day#and saw a local author had a book of wwi letters#thought i'd see if the library had it#looked at the selection of non-fic surrounding it and thought of the wwi persuasion#saw many books that could be useful#and thought 'oh no this looks like fun'#it won't go anywhere i know i won't be able to focus long enough to do real research#but darn if it wasn't an appealing little daydream
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“You doubtless recollect these papers. Here they are. Everything is related in them which bears reference to my accursed origin… the minutest description of my odious and loathesome person is given, in language which painted your own horrors and rendered mine indelible. I sickened as I read.”
#frankenstein#gothic#halloween#artists on tumblr#classic lit#Mary Shelley#my art#monster#I just kind of pulled this comic out of nowhere lol#I’d like to do the part in the national theatre play#where Victor asks the creature how he found him#and the creature holds his journal up and throws it at him#as a small continuation of this#then I could also finally compare their sizes because the creatures giant stature just doesn’t come across when he’s alone 😭#drawing all his stitches is really satisfying#bro is EIGHT FEET TALL do u realise how absurd that is#and Victor tried to throw hands w him when they first met#u gotta respect him for that#anyway#happy Halloween#it’s always October in my heart but I am enjoying watching the leaves and weather turn#hopefully I can do some fun things
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Trolling aside, i think there is some great importance as to why Gege chose this specific manner of panelling for the Yuji-Sukuna confrontation in JJK 264. We can't help but think that Gege's trying to show us some sort of a parallel between Gojo and Sukuna in this situation.
In JJK, there's this interesting notion of one's decision to go "North" or "South" as explained by Nanami during Gojo's death Flashback:
And we all know, that chapter of Gojo's death is titled as "Go South", which highly implies that Gojo chose to stay as who he was, as opposed to starting as something completely anew.
Now the interesting point in the Yuuji-Sukuna confrontation is that apparently...
....the destination for the supposed train within Yuuji's domain...is "North".
Which means that Yuuji's taking Sukuna towards the North.......
They're heading towards the North.....do you guys understand what that means?? For BOTH of them??? Q C Q
#why am i suddenly getting the feeling that both Yuuji and Sukuna are going to die together#and Yuuji's grandpa's whole shibangle of “Yuuji make sure you don't die alone” BRO do you UNDERSTAND??#also WHY is YUUJI looking SO happy like all cheery and happy like they're a bunch of friends boarding the train going on a friggin#vacation???#he's all specific bout it too like wdym “ Come on Let's go! Sukuna!” WHAT??#also does Yuuji REALISE that the one he's being all casual and shiet with the KING of CURSES is his last remaining FAMILY??#The only one he could call as “his own” ????? BRO WHY'S THIS ALL HITTING ME ALL AT ONCE--#my heart is </3 ing the more i'm thinking about it i need a few more chapters before i could fully articulate my thoughts well but the#IMPLICATIONS here man i'm just...MAN#sukuna#ryomen sukuna#yuuji#itadori#yuji#jjk#jjk 264#jjk leaks#spoilers#jujutsu kaisen#king of curses#my thoughts#ooc
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I am back for a hot second with the baby! Let's be real, Geralt gets a lot of heat in this au, but I do think he was very clear about what he could and couldn't be for Jaskier when they started this thing. Listening to this song later, and realizing that Jaskier was already in love with him at this point ... uff. Also a song about sacrifices in this au, from Jaskier??? *chef's kiss* also let's not think about essi in this au let's not let's just ignore this
#jaskier#geraskier#geralt of rivia#the witcher#art#geraskier lovechild#omegaverse#I think this started out as 'helping Jaskier through his heats' and just escalated terribly#the part in the books with essi being in love with Geralt and Geralt feeling uncomfortable with it and realizing Yen probably feels the sam#about him#that still absolutely happens because at this point Geralt IS in love with Yen#to be fair I think he also starts to realise that he is in love with Jaskier too#they are both slipping there already#but Geralt doesn't want Jaskier to feel that way about him#my boy: a. has a very fragile heart b. has attachment issues c. doesn't think he can make Jaskier happy in the long run#and he IS insecure he warns Jaskier - but he doesn't think it could be more than a crush#oh boy are they messy#i love them :)#also Milek singing songs that accidentally punch Geralt in the gut is my favourite thing#ONE MORE THING. about this song and the pronouns?? EXCUSE ME?
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I know I've mentioned Bolo being cake in Portuguese (and the mispronounced Bola being Ball) but Idk if people know Porco, from Patia's surname, means Pig in Portuguese (and other romantic languages that use it as an alternative word for it) and I wish Marisha had talked more about it, if it was intentional or not.
#it's mentioned at the trivia section of her wiki page#i mean there could be some meaning relating to power and swines or that she just liked the sound of it#anyway#just a lil trivia#patia por'co#funny is laerryn's surname also sounds kinda latin#cora for corazon/coração means heart#mar means sea in both spanish and portuguese#but that surname. against what i first assumed. isn't actually common at all#ALSO if you tear it apart differently cor-amar. Amar means to love in portuguese 🙈#not to mention luis bringing zerxus full on very spanish sounding names#all this to say it's not unreasonable to develop on my latin america inspired headcanons for domunas#critical role#exu calamity#cr stuff
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Y'know what I want? I want sick Bruce Wayne.
I want a Bruce that babies his kids when they're sick. He goes all out. 6'4 muscle-bound Jason Todd is getting tucked into bed with a kiss on the forehead to check his temperature and whines if Bruce forgets.
As good as his memory is, Bruce can't exactly remember what Thomas and Martha used to do when he was sick. They had a routine but the intricacies of it constantly escape him. As little as that may be, it does pang every now and again that he's forgetting them, forgetting how they loved him. He doesn't want that for any of his kids.
So he babies them, treats them like the little kids he knows they aren't and rarely if ever got to be. He deals with any vomit, tears or just general irritation that comes with being sick. It gets to point where when the kids are sick and Bruce isn't home, they can barely function.
Dick: THIS IS IT- THIS IS THE END
Wally: dude you just have a cold?
Dick: JUST A- JUST A COLD?!? WALLY, ARE YOU INSANE?? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MANAGE WITHOUT MY HOT CHOCOLATE AND HOME MADE BUNNY MARSHMALLOWS??!?
Wally: ok one, bunny marshmallows? adorable. and two, i've seen you walk off a fractured collarbone, two bruised ribs and a twisted ankle???
Dick: ....yeah but the marshmallows
Wally:
But Bruce? Oh when Bruce is sick, he powers through. But when he's so sick he considers himself a liability, he curls up in a small, dark room like a pregnant cat. It's practically instinct for him – when he's compromised like that, he needs to be in a place that he's knows is safe.
Very Sick Bruce also goes into Mama Bear Mode. He wants his kids in his sight at all times or he's practically inconsolable. If they're not with him, then they might be in danger, anything could happen – how can he protect them if they're not there? Just anxiety out of the wazoo.
I can see him trying to drag his 7 kids into one room so he can keep an eye on his babies.
Damian: baba we cannot all possibly fit-
Cass: -we will
Damian:
Damian: who's going first?
The kids do make things more comfortable. Fluffing his pillows, getting him tea and making sure he has his stuffies. Bruce appreciates it but he just says that all he needs are his kids. That always has them sobbing.
(happy holidays to my cold twin @bruciemilf i was inspired by our mutual sickness lol)
#dc#batman#bruce wayne#batfam#batfamily#batkids#tw vomit#i can just imagine bby bruce with his big brown eyes feeling feverish and crying for his parents#alfred lying and saying they just went out and they'll be back soon bc he doesn't have the heart to remind him of their death#also idk if this is coherent at all but my sickness filled mind could only articulate my hc so well lol
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Sennnnnnn I don’t know if you’ve already addressed this before, but can we get a height check between the idiot captains??
Also also- I think it’s super funny that you literally made so much content you had to go and get a different website just to document it all out, that’s insane! Keep up the amazing content! Indulge your silliness!!
Two idiots over time!!
Also also, tysm that warmed my silly heart 😭❤️
#I could have kept going but it wouldn’t be about height anymore lmao#the last one is usually where I draw them for my older au stuff#I start giving law grays in his 40s#I think that’s canon right I always forget what the real aged versions of them look like lmao#also i have him go back to short hair in his 40s#I just think a lot abt the fashion cycles of trafalgar law ok#also giant loof owns me#I was like would it be silly to make him 8’ tall#then I saw Garp’s over 9’ and I like luffy being short for a monkey but still a big guy#anyway#my art#one piece#lawlu#lulaw#law x luffy#luffy x law#heart pirates#trafalgar law#monkey d luffy#wait I also forgot to say that law goes back to being scrungly#I have no justification for this other than he is a scrungly man
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Hey folks!! We have now 5 DAYS LEFT!!! TO REACH FOR THE HARDCOVER REPRINT FOR OUR QUEER KNIGHTS ANTHOLOGY!!
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But hey!! What are these short stories about?? Well funny you should ask, this is how we've been pitchin' 'em!
But here's the thing I don't know if I've mentioned it on tumblr yet-- BUT these stories are all a part of a series, HOWEVER-- you CAN read them in any order you like. Characters overlap in multiple stories, each main character is different but occupies a different POV depending on their background with other characters.
So while they all borrow from different fairy tales, they all hang out in the same universe, originally it was to allow folks the ease of choosing which story they prefer if you weren't sure about getting the whole set BUT--
Now we've funded the entire softcover anthology for $30 CAD (plus shippy) OR a flat $5 CAD (no shipping since its digital~) you get the whole set anyway! In a single book!! So you can have fun seeing which characters overlap and which don't~
Every little bit counts, this project directly supports a coupla queers making as much queer shit as we can~ So whatever extra we make goes directly into our hands to make MORE of this stUFF!!
#thanks in advance for the boosts~!#books#queer books#stories#queer stories#lgbtq#gay#lesbian#ace#polyamory#bisexual#nonbinary#and everything in between!#or I tried to fit what I could i did my best this is an older series#you can also add on some extra queered greek myths too if you wanna just absolutely warm and melt my heart ;;A;;#no pressure~!
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